*-* i'm gunna be JUST like HER!
hmm...well......i need to archive about now.....too lazy to do it now. my mom is biting my head off to get off. blah. i was trying to make this b00tiful layout with yuki from gravitation. (and when i say b00tiful i mean b00tiful) well it kinda sucks because its the most gorgeous picture and i suck ass at making layouts so maybe i can ask someone to make it for me.....and i'll give them the picture. lol well today was funny. i told my mom in the store that i'm going to grow up to be just like shakira (lol i was kinda serious) and i was singing through the store people stared but hell i didn't care. but seriously i always wanted to be a singer. and i used to be in chior. Rachel-banana-san always asks why i'm not in corilation or however u spell it. (JOEY IS IN IT THATS WHY! =O!) i can't sing infront of anyone thats why >_>; i have never really sang infront of anyone. oo shit i have to e-mail becky. o well i'll just show her what i was going to mail her.....well i'll show her tomarrow. *-* i am going to grow up to be a japanese idol.......(more like gackt-like.....be in a visual rock band..then go solo) ^-^; GO MALICE MIZER! WOOOOOOO HOO!!! ^-^ o fuck...i just remembered.....florida in a week. =_= and that means.....JOB! AAAAAA and that means...=_= not enough chunkachu. *cries* i don't want to go to florida!!!!!! =_= i wish ash and everyone could call me while i was there. ya know i'd make me not so lonley. i'm going to be alone in the damn vacation house all day and i am going to be swimming and hanging out on the dock basically. *-* damn i wish graham could let me 'borrow' his laptop. COME ON GRAHAM! I LOOOOOOVE YOU *-*;;;;;;; well...time for me to read my YM magazine with (SHAKIRA) on the cover. >D LMFAO (yes i really did buy it because she was on the cover) lol well matta

*-* genkiness
o4.o3.o2 (MELISSA'S BIRTHDAY!)

^-^ today iz melissa (ash's) birthday. =_= i have yet...... *counts on her toes* like...5 months and 11 days until my 15th birthday. o~_~o yea. i'm a yungin'. ^-^ shes older than chunkachu so FWAAAAAAAAAHAHA! >_>;; okay. well i'm pizzed. i wanted that god damn belt at hottopic. *-* the black with silver pyramid spikes on it.....mmmm spikeness. yea.. i ALSO wanted some god damn SWISHY SWISH CLING CLING BONDAGE PANTS! >< ARRRRRGH. ^-^ yea i'm going shopping all week anyway (for mah vacation =_= that i don't really want to go to) i can't stand being away from everyone for that long. i get homesick if i'm not with any of my friends. Ash will be in florida too but not as long as me and =_= she will be in the NORTH i'll be in the south. =_= wa i'm gunna miss her and when we see eachother we will be all

me: O_O OHMIGOD!!

Ash: AAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

**MEGA UBER GLOMPNESS**

both: AAAAA I MISSED YOUUU T_T

el tango de roxanne

o1.o3.o2

Roxanne, you don't have to turn on that red light. walk the streets for money, you don't care if it is wrong or it is wrong. Roxanne you don't have to wear that dress tonight. Roxanne you don't have to sell your body to the night

why does my heart cry - feelings i can't fight. - you're free to leave me, but just don't decive me. and please believe me when i say i love you....

roxanne

why does my heart cry

feelings i can't fight

from Moulin Rouge. =_= i've been watching it alot latley. its a true love story in my opinion. i forgot the quote that Christan (Ewan) says. but ohmigod i love it. i can't watch anything or listen to anything without crying or thinking about what i used to have, >_>;

o_o;
i needed to add SOMETHING. hah. o_o; welll.... things aren't worse than they were before. and yet they aren't that better. at least my g'mpapa is okay. hes getting out of the ICU pretty soon. that makes me feel a little bit more relaxed. and about *coughs*him*coughs* i don't know. =_= i'm kinda being mean to ash when she talks to him... umm. and which it does make me terribly mad and totally jealous but ^-^ i will explain more in a different diary (hahaha sux to be you) i don't know who to give the URL to. shaun asked.......i wanted to laugh...o_o; but i'm thinking of actually giving it to him. i told him about my childhood (or at least as i could handle) yesterday i think. i think i scared him. but i think if i would've told him anymore he would've been scared. anyway... not trying to get depressed more than i already am. ah.....new Will & Grace episode. ^-^;; its really great. i loooooooove will and grace. o_o jack reminds me of chase..O_O! well...yea... i think i'm going to go play lazer tag with brynn and christine and some other people tomarrow until midnight. then we are going to walk up to brynn's house and stuff ^-^ yay! my mom went shopping and she bought some really kick ass stuff for my room. i just have to get rid of EVERYTHING in my room now (chair, bureau, ;-; t.v) and then we can put up this one cool storage thing i got. ^-^ and THEN i can bring my NEW TV WITH DVD AND VCR (maybe all region dvd) o_o; mmmmmmm i can taste it now. me-party-with-myself-and-new-t.v wishing some ^*)$#&*)(*&)(*$^% oops u missed it

>_>;
i cried today. more like bawled. its because i love him >< god dammit. ha ha.......o_o; more tomarrow morning.

...fuck...umm...pagenames
depression=saddness=noeat=madness=eat..o_o; i didn't dinner last night....no breakfast this morning. no lunch...that kinda made me mad so i downed the orange juice... now i am not going to eat dinner. i feel sick. i want to die.

o_o hey mister

^-^ shibbiness

25.o2.o2

sundays really make me sad =(

24.o2.o2

^-^ i'm in a genki mood today. lol. but...sundays make me sad because that means that i hafta go to school tomarrow and everyone hasta eat my japanese cookin (i really should've made 'sketti since we could do something of our origin or w/e) aaaaaaanyway. ^-^ i just got back from the oriental store. i got 2 things of Yaki-soba. i got some cooking chopsticks, some curry, and some pocky ^-^ and mah mom got sum of this wierd stuff o_o; crazy woman.... yea... its almost 4. o_o; i am sitting at the computer gnawing on tortilla chips =9. "vanilla-mars ver. GACKT" =_= i want that damn cd soooo bad....o_O; lol i remember yesterday making my mom listen to it in the car when we were shopping around. lol thank god she doesn't know japanese. those are sum kinky lyrics.*-* gackt needs to be spanked. >D LMFAO......kay......well i'm off to do dishes so i can do stuff ^-^ wif aichan waiiiiiiiii. *-* anywayz......ja-

-=++matta++=-

*-* i love lucy
i just got done watching some of i love lucy on TV land. i dunno if its a marathon or anything. but it was such a cute episode. it was when lucy was pregnant and she hasn't told Ricky yet. and things keep coming up and Lucy can't tell ricky. and well Ricky has some sort of show and there was a request to sing "me and my baby" or something. (lucy requested and ricky doesn't know) so ricky goes into the audience and asks everyone if its them-are they havin a baby and stuff. and he sees lucy and she nods. he goes on singing for a little bit. and then he stops. =D YAY! and and and ^-^ its so cute!!! i love that show. mmm...well i get to go shopping... maybe i can talk mama to buy me sum clothes =) eeeeeeehehe! specifically some sandals at pac sun. *-* maybe if i ask nicely we can go to the other mall so i can go to hot topic and maybe Old navy... i need some t-shirts... that mall has a big limited =_= no express. *punches herself >< U BITCH STOP ACTING LIKE ASHLEY BELL!!!* =_= gomen. i'm all sad because Shaun iz sick. i seriously want to cry. >__>; my tear ducts have been plugged. i can't cry anymore. >__>; but i almost cried today watching gravitation. i missed it. ^-^;.......shaun iz more important ><() mm...o_o i'm gunna go eat a bottle of asprin and go shopping..... HOTTOPIC WOOOOOO HOO!

=.= niiiiiiight.......aaaaaaaa

22.o2.o2

You're a song Written by the hands of God Don't get me wrong cause This might sound to you a bit odd But you own the place Where all my thoughts go hiding And right under your clothes Is where i find them

Underneath your clothes There's an endless story There's the man i chose There's my territory And all the things i deserve For being such a good girl honey

Because of you I forgot the smart ways to lie Because of you I'm running out of reasons to cry When the friends are gone When the party's over We will still belong to each other

Underneath your clothes There's an endless story There's the man i chose There's my territory And all the things i deserve For being such a good girl honey

Underneath your clothes There's an endless story There's the man i chose There's my territory And all the things i deserve For being such a good girl, being such a good girl...

I love you more than all that's on the planet Movin' Talkin' walkin' breathing You know it's true Oh baby it's so funny You almost don't belive it As every voice is hanging from the silence Lamps are hanging from the ceiling Like a lady to her good manners I'm tied up to this feeling

Underneath your clothes There's an endless story There's the man i chose There's my territory And all the things i deserve For being such a good girl honey

Underneath your clothes Ooooohhhhh There's the man i chose There's my territory And all the things i deserve For being such a good girl, being such a good girl Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

o_o; like the 2nd time i added these lyrics. BUT I ADDED A PART. the other one didn't have that one part up there. ^-^ yea. i'm in the mood for some dir en grey. >_> their lyrics are sad. ;-; kyo u poor boy......let me comfort you poor soul T_T...lets "comfort" him. O_O! yea. ^^;

my head hurts...LETS MAKE A ENTRY

22.o2.o2 - 4.38 pm

yea. my head is starting to hurt. hah. i'm being such a bum. i took a shower this morning. when i first woke up. then i got down here... played for about 20 min and i fell esleep on the couch. mmm...couch. *-* when i move out i swear i'm gunna have the most comfortable couch ever. ^-^ same with bed. its gunna be fluffah and i will like sink into it. and and then i drool all over my pillow because of my sexxi hott dreams... o_o i feel kinda bad today. >_> i stare at the piece of glass at my dresser like.....a holy object. that at times i used for not holy things. but. i stared at it... talking to it with my mind. (sees people walking away anxiously) ¬¬ what does it mean if someone lays down and stops moving? r they dead? god i hope not. >__> that'd make me one hell of a bad gf. =_=;;;;;; o god... phone... 'twas tommie asking for mah mommy. tommie ish coolie beans. =_= i miss her. bah. i want a straight jacket for christmas... or as *coughkatelincough* ugh. said "a jacket with extra long arms" =D ooo yeah. and joe could try it on for me. O_O! (slaps herself) o gawd. =_= i need to take some pills, print out some hentai or gackt (*-*) and go "to bed".... that should be my friday night. *puts on a straight jacket-gnaws lightly on the edge of the collar* *sighs*

>< GOD DAMMIT CHEER UP. I KNOW YOU CANT 'CAUSE UR SO GODDAMN SELF ABSORBED BUT GODDAMN >< HAVE SOME PRIDE...... there thats whats on my mind

=_= oh my god i hate my temper. i said that to shaun. because he keeps being all sad..... i try to help him, but i seriously don't know how to handle sad people. i just know how to handle myself. >_>;;; self absorbed... thats not that right. but. in some way it is. oh my god i need something. i... i... can't.... >< FUCK THIS!!!!!!!

underneath your clothes

22.o2.o2 - 12.22 p.m