sweet jazzification at 04:02 p.m.

Thursday, January 1, 2004

Home sweet home!

Think the slackers were celebrating new year together but i had plans already! :( Hope ya guys had fun! Silly ivy couldnt make it for Mona Lisa Smile yesterday but we already booked tickets for four. Asked alan along in the end since he's counting down in town and the show is erm, too monotone for our liking and there's no climax nor a proper ending! Sadly, since it stars Julia Roberts. Jillian it's all your fault! Should have caught Love me if you dare haha. :) Anyways, jillian, meilin and i were really hysteric and high (probably due to the inverse effect of the show) while waiting for huimin and when she arrived, we actually bought the spray cans! Wasnt at all ready to repeat the scene last year christmas outside taka so we went to cine to hear the countdown. Poor meilin was attacked by some strangers and she was covered in foam from head to toe! Hahaha. Didnt go geylang dao huay for supper in the end (next time!!!) and we headed straight to jillian's house. Played Cluedo (it's pretty mind exhausting but fun!) and taught jillian mahjong. That girl. She gave up to drift off to dreamland after a few hours of playing. (never mind, i ate her bowl of noodles! muahaha) Woke up and went casuarina prata to meet chengwei for breakfast. Walked cheng home and my shoe strap broke halfway! Sigh, had to drag my feet all the way to her house to borrow a pair of sandals. (thanks sweets!) And that pretty much sums up my last event of year 2003 and the school holidays that seemed to end too soon.

Till then, happy new year everybody! My new year resolution is to be a good friend, cherish all my friends, listen to at least 60% of the lectures and do 90% of the tutorials. Sounds pretty difficult. :/ I'll miss the lectures times when sinhui and i left footprints everywhere in school during first three months, listened to music with lilian and sinhui, played silly games like see-who-laugh-first and drawing competitions, talked nonsense non-stop and the list goes on. But i'm changing! At least i bothered to pack my files yesterday and terribly sorry sinhui! Dug out her GP holiday homework (19 newspaper articles) that i've been hiding in my heap of rubble for two months! Who ask you never come school.. But as if you'll do anyways. *haha* Anyways, my class made a deal to bring no homework but just a pe shirt tomorrow to play ball! *yay* So i'll probably do my homework over the weekend though i just hope the teachers can forget about them. Till then, i'll be anticipating the new batch of 69ers! Hehe. *assumes an air of superiority*

sweet jazzification at 02:00 p.m.

Monday, December 29, 2003

Home is behind
The world ahead
And there are many paths to tread
Through shadow
To the edge of night
Until the stars are all alight
Mist and shadow
Cloud and shade
All shall fade
All shall fade

Special thanks to taysuan! :D

sweet jazzification at 11:44 p.m.

Sunday, December 28, 2003

How time flies, as it always does. Just a few days after orientation this year, i chanced upon many J2s' blogs and most i read were tracing bits of their memories way back to a year ago when they were enjoying their own orientation. And i was thinking, ooh, a year later, i can foresee myself reminiscing my own orientation too. So that is going to happen a week or two's time. I wish i am one of those out there who has just finished their O levels though. Imagine all the excitement and anticipation on first day of school in a whole new environment, with friends new or old or just the feeling of being a newbie. Come to think of it, i did enjoy myself this year after all. It was great knowing my class, my seniors, my dear teamates and several other new friends! All the things i've done and experienced this year worth remembering... HC orientation, silly games and escapades with 69ers (er, contact?), STJ, JTS, badminton comp, mahjong sessions with many different faces, performances (like huangcheng, talentime, SYO concert, the funny chinese classic at esplanade, dramafeste, ge yao, rumours..), 8 sentosa trips (tickets still with me), slacking with sinhui and the hundreds and thousands of nicks we came up with *hehe*, one and only CS session (that contains my happiness HAHA sinhui and meilin understand this), badminton sessions with new friends, eating at pizza hut 6/7 times (thanks lilian), ball games with 69 girls, p4 camp, getting terrorized by char's crinkled expression and her erm kisses, squash sessions, eating with teamates (and realising how POWERFUL jillian can get at b**ping), forming circles and talking with them EVERYWHERE, singing old familiar songs with them at student lounge with ivy's deft fingers at the piano, mugging at bishan cc, genghis khan (this is really memorable haha), singing you ni zhen hao with meilin, first clubbing experience, first laughing experience that lasted 15 min, first dramatic cry+laugh, talking to people online till laTe at nights (eg, oink!), countless ktv sessions and much more that my mind cannot handle now. Gosh! And i'll leave the bad parts to slowly disintegrate and vanish from the traces of my memories. It has been a fruitful year nonetheless, with so much i've learnt from events and people. I think i'll miss being a seventeen. Well, a couple of months more at least. Thanks people for the smashin' good times! :)

sweet jazzification at 08:56 p.m.

Saturday, December 27, 2003

I wish The Ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had ever happened.

So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.

I've just finished watching The Lord of the Rings with kai! Gosh i'm so addicted all over again! The epic battle scene was really well directed and spectacular! Whoa. The way the Rohan army swarmed bravely towards the Orcs or the effect of the ghosts that helped to fight them was really cool. Or how the leaders of the warriors addressed their troops just before the commence of the war which strongly stirred up the fighting spirit and enthusiasm among them. Made me feel like charging along with them too!

I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of Men fail, but it is not this day. A day may come when we forsake our friends, and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. This day, we fight!

I liked Pippin's sad song! (lyrics, anybody???) It didnt seem like a three and half hour film AT ALL. Perhaps the reason why i like LOTR is because of the fantasical characters that create the essence of a whole different universe with their own unique cultures. Or the way they speak. Or the extraordinary adventures i could almost imagine myself experiencing that seemed so bizarre and exciting. The images are so real and the background so majestic. Feels like i've been taken to a ride at the Middle Earth and back. *thumbs up* How sad this sequel has come to a magnificent end!

Do you remember that bit of rabbit, Mr. Frodo? And our place under the warm bank in Captain Faramir's country, the day I saw an oliphaunt?

No, I am afraid not, Sam. At least, I know that such things happened, but I cannot see them. No taste of food, no feel of water, no sound of wind, no memory of tree or grass or flower, no image of moon or star are left to me. I am naked in the dark, Sam, and there is no veil between me and the wheel of fire. I begin to see it even with my waking eyes, and all else fades.

sweet jazzification at 10:09 p.m.

Friday, December 26, 2003

I realise i have something much in common with jillian. We love the same type of good food (minus the liver please)! From tiptop curry puff to geylang dao huay to amk central yong tau foo to casuarina roti prata to the indian mifen + orange sugar thingamajig to the corn kueh she tried today! And more :) but i think i should stop to prevent myself from getting hungrier. Morever, we are LOTR fans! I am FINALLY going to watch it tomorrow (i know i am slow) and jillian aka charismatic high n mighty aragorn you wait! Monday training let's gush over ROTK and call ourselves the characters inside and irritate chengwei and meilin the way we did today! Hehe. :D Love, Legolas

sweet jazzification at 06:14 p.m.

Thursday, December 25, 2003

Perhaps i should stop dreaming about my ideal christmas complete with those home-alone-like houses wrapped in snow and iridescent lights, and probably a Santa, reindeers and angels figurines at the garden. Where i'll gather with friends and family around the fireplace to warm our toes, look at the red stockings and sing christmas carols. Every year, the dream gets harder and harder to achieve! I actually spent Christmas Eve at home this year! Bleahs. It was quite good nonetheless. Coz i finally caught The Green Mile on tv which i wanted to watch ever since two years ago. And yes, sinhui, the show made me tear terribly. It was quite a satire, with a few funny parts here and there, and the brutal scene of capital punishment in the past (electric chair) which was executed in front of an audience. It was kinda morbid. :( I didnt know they had to shave the top part of their hair and during execution, a wet sponge would be placed on the bald part so that electricity could penetrate through easily. And that damned policeman purposely placed a dry sponge on this criminal he was biased against. (So imagine the horror of having your whole head burnt slowly.) That idiotic policeman went mad in the end. Serves him right. :(

As for today, went to rachel's church service along with boonie. Thanks chel for the lovely pink heart with the pretty 3 bangles (representing the 3 of us haha) and the sweet-smelling lipgloss you bought from New York! And boonie for the mini bottles of fragrant Hugo Boss Women and Connexion (Lancome)! And i'll never forget you saying i'm the most unlikely one to... :( You watch out. I'm asking chel to throw her bouquet of flowers to me on her wedding day! (hopefully those ferrero rocher kind) Hehe. Boon and I were saying we gonna organise a sweet wedding for chel and daryl, like a combination of Love Actually (at the church) and My Best Friend's Wedding (the garden)! :D My dream! *hint hint* Okay, all these are probably happening erm, several years down the road.

Met meilin and yanchoo after that. Ktv plan was thwarted because public holidays charges are exorbitantly high and we ate at the food court, then Cafe Cartel at Raffles City. The serving for potato wedges at the Serangoon Garden branch was probably twice that of the one we went today! :(

SNBT chalet tomorrow. Perhaps my anticipation had faded. It used to be so fun every year planning for sec 4 farewell, buying/making real nice presents for the sec 4s, play silly/fun/bonding games with the whole team and of course, our tradition of revealing the buddies in corny ways at the chalet. Then we'd exchange christmas presents with all our relations - our big buddy, small buddy, grandbuddy, sisterbuddy, shifu, tudi and the list went on.. Man, i miss those days.

Merry Christmas everybody. Thanks for all the presents, cards and smses. May it be a wonderful year ahead. :)

sweet jazzification at 08:27 p.m.

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

I typed and vented out my frustrations several times in this tiny entry box, yet i deleted them over and over again. What happens when you have to bottle up your emotions and throw them away into the disappearing sea, but it keeps floating back to you? Or when you feel your inside world crumbling but you have to hide it behind a pretence of smiles?

I've seen how people could have just one big cry and let all unwanted, contorted thoughts drip away with every tear. And the bitter taste wouldnt return to haunt anymore. But the tears wouldnt come.

I'm scared. People around me do not seem like who they are to me anymore. Like i've said, i cannot fathom their thoughts and feelings swimming behind their eyes. I mean what i say, when i say i do, but it seems that people are somewhat cynical to believe completely in what one has to say. And you know what's one of the feelings i detest the most in this world? It's the feeling of being misunderstood.

sweet jazzification at 01:59 a.m.

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

It is in giving that we receive. :)

Just came back from 69 party at waikit's house! Some of the seniors dressed up and i think i will give the best costume award to alvin! Haha he dressed up as a pseudo robber with sunglasses, this robber-looking thingy to mask his face, carries a gun and two grenades hung from his bulletproof vest! While i thought Xiaoyuan looked really nice in her sari. :) I think i really will miss the seniors' presence at the 69 class bench a lot! Hehs. :/

Very poor things. My dad and Frederik. One sprained his leg very badly while the latter's two front teeth broke. Really really hope they'll get well soon. :(

Last Christmas I gave you my heart,
But the very next day, you gave it away.
This year, to save me from tears,
I'll give it to someone special.

Once bitten, and twice shy,
I keep my distance, but you still catch my eye.
Tell me, baby,
Do you recognize me?
Well, it's been a year,
It doesn't surprise me.

Happy Christmas.
I wrapped it up and sent it,
With a letter,
Saying "I love you", I meant it.

Now I know,
What a fool I've been.
But if you kiss me now,
I know you'll fool me again.

A crowded room,
Friends with tired eyes.
I'm hiding from you,
And your soul of ice.

My God, I thought you were someone to rely on,
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on.

sweet jazzification at 11:56 p.m.

Sunday, December 21, 2003

Went City Harvest Church for their christmas celebration and yukun's and yewei's cell group mini party after that. Gosh, i really miss singing all the songs in St Nicks! Was humming to the tunes with yanchoo (IJ girl power!) while reminiscing about the times where we'd put our arms around each other during masses in school and sway along to the soft sweet music in class unison. And of course, our dear school bells that rang to the tunes of some hymns! Felt a wave of nostalgia as some familiar tunes were heard, like an old friend had just beckoned. I still miss St Nicks! :) Anyways, a beeg thank you hug to yanchoo for her cute and yummy-looking gingerbread bear and meilin for her sweet porky xmas card and this Pooh notebook that's purple and has a huge star at the cover! *hugs*

sweet jazzification at 11:57 p.m.

Sunday, December 21, 2003

Just reached home! Met up with boon and chel and we went for the drama performance put up by chel's church at some home in serangoon. Bob was really entertaining! (hahaha inside joke) It's been a while since we've laughed like crazy over nonsensical things and chel and i bullying boonie. It felt just great to meet up with these babes! Went Cafe Cartel for supper and daryl joined us. Boon and i shared munchers and banana n peach waffle while daryl and chel shared like four dishes!? (hmmms, we koped a lot of their yummy potato wedges) And now, i feel like eating more of those cheesy munchers! Bleahs. Had a really wonderful time with them tonight. Can't wait for christmas dinner and presents exchange with them on christmas day!

I've finished most of the christmas presents i've been making for some people, like FINALLY! Gosh, my eyes have gone all blurry and probably spoilt from making the *****. (hmmms, just to add a touch of secrecy) Hee. Though it's nothing really big. My sis says they look like gingerbread men. Like huh!

sweet jazzification at 12:09 a.m.