Wednesday, April 12, 2006 / 02:59 a.m.
A few days ago i was still apprehensive and didnt understand why people have such contempt of other people so easily.
It took me some time to realize everything can turn out to be so simple and sweet actually. No hidden agendas no ulterior motives. Human beings are complex, yet so simple sometimes. You see, we are actually the same deep down inside.
Feels good to find the good in people. Thanks friend.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006 / 03:16 a.m.
random rubbish
I feel happy tonight. Min just told me (in the midst of maggi goreng and alfonsos) that I’m high. And I can’t quite put it aptly across why. Maybe I got strangely enlightened by my draggy and boring marketing webcasts and suddenly discover how simple and perfect with imperfections everything seem to be.
Even more in the midst of piling webcasts and heaps of notes, we should take a step back and realize, hey this is not what it should be all about. Why are we always letting such things hold us back and affect our emotions half the time when really, in the future, none of these will be imbued in our minds?
Oh I love meaningful conversations. Not in the literally meaningful sense but being able to ride on the same frequency with someone. Love the comfortableness that eases in and the complete lack of need to restrict yourself. So thankful for the bunch of friends i have around me now and the good friends i've recently chanced upon. I want to sit down and chat with a friend one day, talking about and tasting the very essence of life while gazing at the stars in the velvet sky. Now that is life.
Monday, April 10, 2006 / 04:05 a.m.
a sunday
It was supposed to be a Studying Sunday but ended up a Singing Sunday. I woke up just in time for lunch and was barely through my meal when i was called along for ktv with meilin sanduo siongqun jiting seowhong ekit and jiale. Whoa! So we sang till we were chased away a couple of times and had quite yummy hainanese chicken rice for dinner. Came back to hall and celebrated jessica's birthday with a huge chocolate chip "cake" from Breadtalk in michelle's room. We all went crazy and high imitating MSN emoticons and even video-camed everything down! Happy birthday jessica dearest! :D
Yes, i know. STUDYYYY.
Friday, April 7, 2006 / 11:42 p.m.
We watched the Dance Production - Tiente at the main tv lounge last night. I knew i was horrible, but not THATT horrible!! :( Sometimes i wish i can dance well.
It was aprilyn's birthday yesterday and we were summoned to be the audience at D4, watching all the cruel acts done on her. That poor girl, she was strapped to the table with scotchtape and then the flour, paint, eggs, ice, smelly green tea, honey and what-have-you were all splashed on her! It was such a sight though, and when clara and i happily went to the toilet to wash ourselves off the paint aprilyn smeared on us, we were attacked by the water hose! Courtesy of kewei. :( So we ended up all dripping wet. I genuinely thought it's a nice cut-cake happy take-photo session. And the girls all knew they'll get dirty. HOW COME NOBODY TOLD ME AHH. In the end we dirtied some of their beds too. Wahaha! Happy birthday girl! Hope you like my card! :)
I want to bid farewell to my night owl side and say hello to an early bird me! I really adore mornings actually. Love the cool crisp morning air, the chirping of the birds, the warmth of the morning sun, the morning rays that brighten up the earth. It's such a good way to start the day. Someone please try to change me.
Wednesday, April 5, 2006 / 03:32 a.m.
soccer and sparkl3
Haha. I'm quite amused. Chatting to a bunch of soccer fans online during a champions league match means i'm like watching the soccer match too, constantly updated about the match and the score.
The display of this blog is but a mere subset of my life. It is not exhaustive. In other words, it does not necessarily cover every event and every thought of my current life. That's why i feel silly at times at feeling a little abandoned when i read my friends' blogs and see how well they have moved on without me. Besides, that makes me wonder if this is all i'll remember when i read and reminisce all these entries several years down the road. And see how diary-x server has died on pris, i better save a copy of my sparkl3!
Saturday, April 1, 2006 / 10:51 p.m.
staring straight back at me
I'm switching on to my daydreaming mode right now. Wishing i can run to the edge of the world and feel the speed of the earth coming down on me, walk down the streets of a foreign street feeling unpolished yet unabashed, sit down and sip a cup of coffee in a café in Europe, while watching passing-by strangers’ lives unfold. Better still, I want to taste the orange red dash of autumn, look up to see the bright blue sky through pretty jagged leave patterns, turn behind to realize the trail of foot steps that resemble mine.
Reading the captions on aprilyn’s photo album aka journal makes me want to write this down. I'm really happy i got much closer to that crazy girl and we talked so much crap after this whole dance uncensored thing. Way better than the starhub days! It’s really true how weird and uncomfortable I felt when I first learnt winnie’s seduction dance. Was still telling my friends that I was so not going to make it. All the sexy moves and grooving with the music. It’s just not me! But after all the practices especially dance uncensored, I’m more receptive and willing to execute the moves. It’s like being a changed person on stage, but I’m still the same old me after that. Guess dance, in simpler terms, is an expression. A beautiful way of bringing the emotions across with your body. Despite the usual stage fright and panic, I’ve grown to enjoy performing and discover more about the realms of dance. From a person who stoned and almost freaked out during pageant photo shoots, I guess I’ve more self-confidence now, though aprilyn said it’s still lacking in me. But I’m still me, in case you’ve been wondering.
Thursday, March 30, 2006 / 07:35 p.m.
happy birthday
Whether is it the past..
Or the phuture..
Love you all the same rachel!!! Bonne Aniversaire! (put those photos in small sizes, coz AS YOU KNOW, we looked how crappp. :D )
Dance Uncensored is finally over! The feeling was better than dance production night actually. We put in so much effort into this - learning, practising and polishing the entire dance in one week. It's unbelievable! And i kind of screwed up the first night, so i made sure the same mistakes didn't happen last night! It was really fun performing though i still get the butterflies in my stomach but last night we were really all into the song. Yay. Will not forget all the practises in function room, my gigantic blue blacks, bubble teas, the choiii-aw-aw-aw, the jokes we made and all the fun we had. :)
Well, never mind the poseurish part. We totally dig the caps that are to be worn by the guys!
Oh, i screwed up my german oral! The teacher asked me a lot of questions i didn't know what she meant and when i did, i couldn't quite express myself. Haha.
Believe it or not you can read it.
I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer inwaht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas thought slpeling was ipmorantt.
Bought VNC sandals and delicious Breadtalk buns today. It's good to reward and indulge in yourself once in a while.
So i'll be dancing for Dance Uncensored by Kent Ridge Hall after all. It's like getting busy and all the late nights at the function room yet again. Studies will be compromised and webcasts will be piling up. Yet since i've made the choice, i'll just go ahead with it. There's no point lamenting and regretting over something you've decided on. Besides, this is one great opportunity (kr dance production is a big thing and fully sponsored!) and it's fun learning all the hip hop techniques from jacky! And i've always wanted to learn the step into my world dance, just that linda and i will spoil the whole dance since we never learnt this during dance production! Anyways, just gonna take a positive attitude towards this whole dance thing. Hope we'll perform well and not forget any steps since we only did this in a week!
I woke up at 9:55 am today, all tired and sleepy from last night's dance and supper till 4am. Hence i rushed my way to my german class. Once i opened the door, the teacher passed me a piece of paper that everybody were already furiously writing on. I caught my breath, sat down and took a look at the paper. The title screamed GERMAN VOCAB TEST. I was like OH MY GOSH???? THERE'S A VOCAB TEST???? I didn't read the announcement carefully??? It was almost like the nightmares you get before you go for your big exams in the past. You can bet i was really anxious. I looked around the classroom to see everybody scribbling away and felt a little sorry for myself. This is it?? This is the only module that i put in effort and can get a decent grade in and i'm gonna screw it up?! Then i decided to bring my paper to my teacher and told her that i didnt read the announcement carefully. After consideration, she decided to let me take the test next week. THANK GOODNESS FOR SUCH AN UNDERSTANDING TEACHER! I'm saved for the day.
Moral of the story? Take modules with a friend!
Just some photos during our dance photo shoot. :)
What's the difference between a hungry person outside and a hungry person inside?
Productions is finally over. I thought the silent actor parts were quite good but if only they did explain the significance perhaps briefly on the booklet. I found them rather interesting after asking about the meanings from melissa!
It was really fun playing cards with yiwen last night. From A219 to fongseng then back to A219, we were high on playing crazy ten (not horse ah yiwen). Even the uncle laughed at me! Yiwen and i should seriously start sleeping early and stop playing mahjong with people till wee hours of the night. Fri night with jason james. Sat with the d4 pple. And chatting with the girl till daybreak. Had a mind to go macs for delicious breakfast but we fell asleep shortly after making the decision. Hahaha!
Must meet up with boon chel lilian sin soon!
After chocolate and strawberry waffles, five nuggets, omelette with cheese and cold chrysanthemum tea for supper (hey yiwen ate more okay), i spent last night singing songs with yiwen and jess till 4am! Oh man i really think i should start sleeping early soon. Anyways some songs were really nostalgic! Sorry girls if i disturbed you two with my beautiful singing. Hehe. Here's presenting one of my favourite songs in p6.
She's taking her time making up the reasons
Started chatting away in yiwen's room at 2am last night and with the addition of damon later, we talked all the way till 5+ am! About just everything under the sun. Seems like we're still suffering from the aftermath of the late dance nights. But it was really great talking! :) Havent had conversations like this for a long long time.
I can foresee myself leading a conventional life in the future. Nothing too extreme, nothing too spectacular. We often wish we're on the other side where the grass is greener. But well, think again. Perhaps we've been taking our comfort zone here for granted. So we wish we can experience the dizzy highs and rollercoasters rides of our lives out there. How enticing and exciting. Yet at the end of the day, we know we are not meant to be like that.
Thursday, March 30, 2006 / 07:02 p.m.
dance uncensored
in the step-into-my-world costumes. love it!
aprilyn the act-cute girl and clara the kingfisher. haha!
the guys in boom boom boom. trying to look like the girls!
oh the girls!! think our costumes, color, hair and stockings look really good together!
Toma!
miss pretty bimbo and me :)
Monday, March 27, 2006 / 05:16 p.m.
Sunday, March 26, 2006 / 03:33 a.m.
dance uncensored
Wednesday, March 22, 2006 / 04:43 p.m.
a german day
Monday, March 20, 2006 / 02:20 a.m.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006 / 08:01 p.m.
to the moon and back
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smiles
And the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one
They're saying
Mama never loved her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for
The right kind of pilot to come
(and she'll say to him)
She's saying
I would fly you to the moon and back
If you'll be, if you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So, would you be my baby?
Ooh-ooh
She can't remember a time
When she felt needed
If love was red then she was color-blind
All her friends they've been trialed for treason
And crimes that were never defined
But she's saying
Love is like a barren place
And reaching out for human faith
Is like a journey I just don't have a map for
So baby gonna take a dive and
push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she's hanging all her hopes on
the stars
(What a pleasant dream) just saying
I would fly you to the moon and back
If you'll be, if you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So, would you be my baby?
Tuesday, March 14, 2006 / 02:23 a.m.
to the open miles of the sea
TH Dance 0506 in the tunnel room after performance!
Backstage, all hyped up for the show! If u can spot yiwen.. her pose is really funny. Hahaha.
Random picture in the room.
Ohh linda pretty girl! :)
janny falling off wahaha.
