Monday, October 21, 2002 11:48 p.m.

left school during recess with chel, sa and sher. hehs, i guess we're pretty sick of school. what a way to end the last day in st nicks, hee. we went town [as early as 10am] and ate macs breakfast. whoa, we were pretty sleepy and lethargic, and we gotta tolerate the change in climate between the hot weather and air-conditioned buildings. chel found a prrettty dress, while i saw this really sweet looking guy at flash and splash! :D went home pretty early and slept. yeps, i never studied again. :(

good luck to bio people tm!

Sunday, October 20, 2002 12:25 a.m.

went sajc open house today and think the school looks quite fun. well, we went town to take neoprint [again] and wow, this is the best neoprint machine ever. :) really! we just kept adding glitter, sparkles and butterflies everywhere. hee hee. i'm having a hard time deciding again, damn. Hwa chong is fine, but too smart and without much spirit though. wells, i definitely want a fun school or i'll die of suffocation [by books]. Victoria's fun, but nobody's going with me. DAMN. Saint Andrew's not bad, but it's just too far away. i think i could have loved Raffles, if it isnt for some stuff in there which i wish i didnt hafta give a fuck about. yes, it's kind of happening and all but.. oh, what the hell.

i switched on the air-con and looked through my mp3 list, attempting to start studying for my dreaded os. wells, i didnt mean not to study today but.. subconsciously, i took out jay chou's fantasy album and played it. i still like this album the most, which evokes so much emotions in me. sometimes, his voice can make you cry :/ as i listened, i attempted to write something. hehs, it sounds weird though. ha, who cares. i miss lying in the open, looking at the dotted sky and feeling tranquil. i no longer hang hopes on the stars, as i realised it's just a desperate and hopeless attempt for wishes to come true :/

Nostalgia laced with bitterness inflamed in my heart
As saccharine songs linger in my dreams
The night sky embraced all with its dotted stars
Evoking a sense of serenity

The melody flows gently with the beads
Both trickle and glisten among the night colours
Shanghai 1943, with its tear-evoking tune
Slowly dissolve in the midst of reminiscence

Jaded fingers reach out
Another attempt to dig through the sands of time
for treasure boxes of bittersweet memories
Alas, all is but a fleeting dream

The endless sky hangs my everlasting dreams
Arch angel, touch upon me the magical power
The strength to fill up Emptiness
Before his voice fades away

sometimes, i wish i can turn back time.

Friday, October 18, 2002 11:27 p.m.

went fer the open houses for hc and rj today. as for rj, whoa, i was too hot to notice anything nice. the person who toured us around was damn kok, hahahas. he brought me chel and boon into this supposedly haunted classroom, and went another way to the window and tried to put something there. boonseer, [obviously], screamed like mad, causing me and chel to scream like nobody's business too. hahahas -rolls eyes- the cheerleading was not bad lah, and the guys can erms really sway man. :/

ate at macs near serene centre with sinhui and mich and noticed this really cute caucasian guy. hahas, okays okays. went hcjc and whoa! okays, i really really love the facilities. the school's damnn beeg, [wells, really lotsa space], with a damnn nice library that overlooks tchs, 900-seater auditorium as well as classrooms that look muchh nicer than normal classrooms! yeas, and they're building a fifth block there. hehe, our tour guide was very nice, though mich and sinhui kept laughing and making me talk only. :/ ha, boon and chel found p's bf and okays, sure, the cutest guy in hcjc. hee hee.

talked to jess on the phone for veh long and i've decided! i'll go hcjc with sinhui if i ever can make it. if not, i'll try to enter njc with jessica and join badminton + astronomy club! heh hehs, yupsie. :D

Thursday, October 17, 2002 07:18 p.m.

went to town and queensway today with sandy to get her shorts. anybody havent started studying for os? apparently not. sometimes, i just feel like killing myself. urghs. when can i ever get started or motivated huh. wells, how fucked up can i get sometimes? VERY. virn: thinking of your face doesnt help much lahh! -cracks up-

on a rainy day like this, i'd rather had myself comfortably sitting on my sofa, sipping a cup of hot coffee. i'd be lookin' out of the frosted window, watchin' faint figures of lovers dancin' in the rain. unfortunately, i live in singapore, a place where you see nothing but high-rise buildings.

wounds do heal, but the scars remain.

it's just another nonsensical entry going nowhere.

and oh my gosh, i really love wang li hong's liu lei
shou xin! why is it always him who sings verrry nice sad songs?? okays he speaks French, plays the violin, jazz piano [!], guitar, drums, vibraphone, accordion. he graduated with honours from Williams College, MA in music and asian studies, as well as completing his Masters in Berklee School of Music, Boston :/

a rush of blood to the head

i'm such a piggy pig!! slept at 1pm and woke up at 7pm, whoa, 6 hours! felt really dreamy and heavy when i woke up and watched tv all the way till now. it's 12:32am already! :) what a totally uneventful day. went offline at 10+ in the morning, ate lunch, got mc and slept. hais, i totally broke my promises again. arghs! :( i am always dreaming of weird people as my classmates. there was one time i dreamt that backstreet boys were in my class. nick and brian were awfully nice, kevin's an introvert and aj's a paikia! -faints-

urghs. in case i forgot again, you got fucking bad taste. wells, of course, i'm blind too.

of all the things i've believed in
i just want to get it over with
tears form behind my eyes
but i do not cry
counting the days that pass me by
i've been searching deep down in my soul
words that i'm hearin are startin to get old
it feels like i'm startin all over again
the last three years were just pretend
and i said

goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything i thought i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to

i still get lost in your eyes
and it seems that i can't live a day without you
closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
to a place where i am blinded by the light
but it's not right

and it hurts to want everything
and nothing at the same time
i want what's yours and i want what's mine
i want you but I'm not giving in this time

and when the stars fall
i will lie awake
you're my shooting star

Wednesday, October 16, 2002 09:22 a.m.

rise and shine! :) didnt go to school today hehhehs. was awakened by a call from rachel and messages from boonie and sa. actually i sent a msg to chel to ask her to pon together, but alas, i pressed the sent button and immediately went back to sleep, not knowing that the message sent failed. i just realised today's supposedly my last fried food day in st nicks! oh wells, oh wells. i bet the both of them gonna happily savour the packets of fried wonton without me. :( that reminds me of the corny joke chel created. Q: What is the heaviest food on earth? A: Wonton! (one tonne) hahahas, how lame can we get mans. oh, yesterday would be my last real school day in st nicks. no more school till the end of the week! hahas, and yups, i told myself i must start studying for os today. there's no such thing as no need to study coz you think i can do it, alright? :/ hate it when people say that.

arghs, i have a mind to go to school now for recess with them. :/

Tuesday, October 15, 2002 11:50 p.m.

i just woke up!!! yups, slept at 7 after coming home and i just woke up. forgot all about my dinner and i'm now eating one pathetic cube of party cheese. school was pathetic today. we were stoning and chattin throughout ss lesson, playing cards with boon during physics and struggling to do the maths papers.

after school, me boon and chel went swimming at boon's house and we had helluva fun! wells, we wanted the hot sun but it poured like dogs and cats. by the time we went there, the harsh storm had stopped, leaving traces of it stinging at our skin. sadly, i've proven that i'm actually the whitest among 3 of us. :/ the "wall game" was superrr exciting and we screamed like nobody's business. :D

there's nothing much to say since i fell into deep slumber once i got home, ending the whole chain of events in the day. i'm all awake and energetic now!

Monday, October 14, 2002 09:14 p.m.

today's such a humid day, i was suffocating at the old AVA room! hence, 3 of us decided to go over to boon's hse tm for a short swim. hahas, i'm kind of looking forward to it! we practically talked through the whole lit and chinese lessons today, and today's more like a chatting cum stoning session than lessons. mrs tan was quite sweet to ask us about our results, and giving some advice. :) was drenched in the rain while walking to macs for lunch with szuyu. tried studying with her after school but did around 4 questions in the end?! played cards (that we did in class out of cardboard, hehs!) for a while in the canteen with juniors. heh hehs, we went to the hall and played badminton. it was quite fun and exhausting, and we realised we could really concentrate better after playing. yes, i'm running in the morning with jess and adele tm. healthy lifestyle sia?! -feels proud- gonna catch friends later, the last episode ever! DAMNIT.

Sunday, October 13, 2002 04:00 p.m.

i finally got the stupid popup windows done, but some people cant get in! :/ been doing it the whole day, and i shall not bother anymore. hmphs. i havent start studying at all, nor did i touch any hw. mmms, i bet some people from somewhere will faint if they know me and szu havent started. kept breaking my promises but no! we have a resolution- to start studying tm for our os and strive towards our dream jcs! :D easier say than done huhs., but we'll try! we gonna play badminton for leisure too. hehe.

some relatives are at my house now and marvelling at how fast i grew. fine lahh, i'm always one of the shortest in class in primary school.

ahhhhhs, here's a sweet sad song i used to love in primary school. Lucy by Hanson though Zaac sang practically the whole song :)

the day that i left Lucy
a tear fell from her eye on the day that i left Lucy.
the day that I left Lucy she cried,
then said goodbye
now it's done, and it's over,
and i am all alone
on the day that i left Lucy
now i don't have anymore songs to sing
'cause you were everything,
everything to me
i didn't realize i felt this way,
until that day
today i'm missing Lucy,
and you say that she's OK,
i hope she is.
now i don't have nobody
and no one will ever replace...
my Lucy
i love Lucy, Lucy...
On the day that i left Lucy
...my Lucy

that thing you do

i can never get tired of this song, and i think it's so successful, even after so many years! mmms.. just listening to my mp3s :D

you, doing that thing you do
breakin' my heart into a million pieces
like you always do
and you, don't mean to be cruel
you never even knew about the heartache
i've been going through
and i try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do
every time you do that thing do

i, know all the games you play
and i'm gonna find a way to let you know that
you'll be mine someday
coz we, could be happy can't you see
if you know me, let me be the one to hold you
and keep you here with me
coz i try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do
every time you do that thing do

i don't ask a lot
but i know one thing for sure
it's the love that i haven't got girl
and i just can't take it anymore
Waaaaaaaaaa!

coz we, could be happy can't you see
if you know me, let me be the one to hold you
and keep you here with me
coz it hurts me so just to see you go
around with someone new
and if i know you you're doing that thing
every day just doing that thing
i can't take you doing that thing you do

Saturday, October 12, 2002 08:57 p.m.

went roti prata at thomson with boon, chel, lyd, sha, simin and shuting in the morning. den we took cabs to nj and hmms, it wasnt quite impressive. sorry but the dances were really.. weird? the 3 of us laughed like mad at the chinese part. nahs, it wasnt the dance steps but the people that were really highly entertaining. fine, i feel mean. well well well i saw this super duper ultra extremely cuute guy! hahahas we 3 were going gaga and oh! he's from soccer! hehs. really, he's one of the cutest guy i've ever seen! well, pardon me. just an eye-candy! :D ahhhh!

took cab to vj with the rest while chel and shu left. hehs, it was quite good. when everybody danced, i feel like it's a replay of the movie fame where everybody just start dancing their worries away. but, sometimes open houses are always showing their best? hehs, i'll decide after all the open houses i guess.

didnt manage to take a photo with jingfang today. took a last minute decision and went with boon to town. mmms, we were exhausted! hehs, sat at Quickly for a while to take a sip. oh, we took nice neoprints! hehs, it was a purple sight. :) still, everything was quite fun and all. we decided the disgusting person voted as top 15 chiobus in vj is Irritating no 1, and moon and stars as Irritating no 2. hahas, quite meano but urghs!

talked to jess quite loong on the phone, and yay! we gonna be real sporty and play badminton and run every alt days! hahas, talked about all the jcs, future and snbt. hais, sec life is ending for me soon. well well well.

Friday, October 11, 2002 06:14 p.m.

jf's voted as one of the top 5 chio gurls in vj! hehs she kept asking me to go to the open house and see her dance and video. top 5 gurls and guys gotta act in the video! hahas, how happening. and venetia's in top 10! wells, i didnt quite like to mention, that the-disgustin-person-boon-detests is in top 15! well well well, maybe she voted for herself. sounds mean eh, okays okays. :)

in a super kok mood today. me and chel kept talking rubbish and nonsensical stuff to crack ourselves up and keep ourselves awake. during chinese, me boon and chel kept giggling like freaks, and we were seated right under yang's nose! yeahs, that part was reallyreally funny mahh. -winks- on the bus, i was frantically telling rachel that irritating indian guy in badminton i don't like is on tv mobile. yahs, i don't like him coz he beat my fave denmark player peter gade by a few points lah. den this indian lady turned around and stared very angrily at me. -!!- what i meant was that guy represents india mahh.. :/ it's like.. singaporean? australian? and before she got off, she hissed excuse me to me and sounded damn irritated. -helpless- i didnt mean anything lahhh. my bag got caught with see jia's bag today and chel laughed damn loudly in the bus. i was so embarrassed and she kept saying it's a good way to know your old sec 1 classmate back. hehs! yahh, we're superduper ultra lame when we get bored or drained out in school. :)

took some photos! yeahs, to add to my collection. mmms, gonna put up my new (sucky) layout later at night i think. :D

Thursday, October 10, 2002 05:29 p.m.

everyday's just so boring. if i don't take a nap during the lessons, i'll probably collapse at the end of the day. was resting on my head on the table yesterday during physics, and was loudly complaining that life's so boring and meaningless, when someone hit my head. i tot it was jiel, turned around and realised it's mrs khong! hehs, she always hit my head and accidentally hear what ROR says in class. hees, she's so corny, told us about we teenagers shouldnt even start worrying yet, gotta long journey ahead.. ahahas, i'm so blessed my class get all the nice and good teachers.

played old maid using poker cards today with chel, mich and sa. haha the atmosphere was SO tense, and had a good laugh. geog was boring, maths too, not to mention lit. :( i'm so glad the teachers are changing the system soon. :) we gonna be released at 1.45 pm starting from next week. didnt realise until simin told me, is there really any difference between half an hr and fifteen min break when we end at 2pm? :/ true.

my new layout is done but i'm debating whether to discard the whole idea. my layouts were never nice :(, and i lost all my photos! :| i know it's late, but i'm off to sleep now!