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confession
it's not that i loathe u or something. but i just cant stand the way u rattle on n on bt these bunch of people you know, n showing off ur own stuff... saka to people n laff loudly even though its not really a joke. or how u like to be so nice to me behind pple's backs n act like u r too high to noe me in front of pple. like u're ashamed to know me. n dun act like u're so damn sweet n close to people u are not really close to. like as if u know all their helluva problems. i feel fake. but i feel lighter. oh what the fuck.
broken wings
i saw u standing there, close enough to touch, breathing the same air. u were speaking, sugar was rushing up me, u asked me something. i could hardly remember what. i was acting cool, acting like i dun bother. but baby i was lying.
paralyse your evolution
x'mas is cuming! my most fave occasion...but yet i was too busy to realise it's coming. the usual excitement bt writing x'mas cards and stuff r gone. =( love the x'mas atmosphere. wanna do a x'mas layout! heh... think this yr me wun get many pressies n cards. n nobody can count down wif me!! everybody gotta celebrate wif their parents. oh wells. =( wished i lived in the western countries. during x'mas, everything will be so lovely. beautiful white christmas tree decorated wif lovely blue ornaments, eating turkey n opening big nice delicious presents. my wish =)
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you You...
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...
the fragments ramble on
was so irritated. cannot play properly today. well i like physical. 10 min run. basically nowadays there's arent much physical. n i like long dist! oh, in the hall only. i can like run forever in the hall. heh. hate sprinting. damn slow. =(
i can say a thousand n one reasons for loving u
or a thousand n one reasons for hating u
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sarcasm queen
huh i think some of they are too childish. first they need their friends to help them to think of someone to like n idolize. next they get attached to one another for fun. then they start puttin up lovey doopsie oh-i-love-u-so-much stuff in damn big fucking fonts. not that u can't or wadeva, but it's way too fake. yah? in a bitchy mood. too bad. so sad. tt's the way it is. suck it, didnt u say?
fairydust-brushed dreams
i'll keep u here in my dreams
in my heart
without ur permission
forever
decided not to go by dates anymore. fairydust-brushed dreams. =)
watched monster(again) today. still loved the show as much. felt quite surprised. i dun usually like toy story kind of movies. n i dun quite understand how people can weep over stupid love movies like titanic n pearl harbor. i oso dun quite understand myself. i nearly cried at the ending of monster, i cried over weebo's death in Flubber, n when lion king's father died. huh? guess these kinda relationships touched me more. or rather i quite numb towards those common weeping shows.
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today me watched monster inc! soooooooooooooooooooooooooo cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuteeeeeeee!!! that was practically what i kept saying during the show. i love the cyan purple monster sully!!!!!! soooo cuuute. n BOO!! n mike was sooo funny n sweeeet at the last part. the ending was veh touching too. i luuuurrve the show! brightens up my mood, funny, sweet n touching. suddenly laughed a lot today/ =) found the pix of mike n sully dressed up fer christmas! hehe. after the show, felt so weird to see the real world, n normal humans. haha. wished i was immersed longer in the monster world. was soo amazed when the movie started introducing the magical monster city. laffing like mad. i wanna hug sully! its like one of the nicest movie i ever watched =)
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wei: hey u're definitely a guy!=)
virn: good that u're 57% woman! ahaha well...
oh, did i ever mention i took the gaytest n got 52%, plus normal gurls percentage is only 33%?
u can make me smile so happily
u can make me cry so easily
it hurts me to see you like this
but there's nth i can do
i cant brush awae the tears
i cant melt the pain awae
it makes me sad
it makes me mad
but there's just nth, nth i can do.
so i gotta try to keep it all inside
coz u'll never be mine
031201
well i was bored n went to take the gender test n was confirmed 86% that i'm a "woman". whoa.
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hey. it's december.
i wanna watch monster inc!
how fuckedup can i get. feel like crying out loud now. i need someone beside me. i cant cry alone. cant take it.
wo bu yao zai xiang wo bu yao zai xiang wo bu yao zai xiang ni
i haf no where to go. no where to hide. i can't i can't i can't think of you anymore.
suddenly, all the songs become tragical melodies to me. suddenly, things all come back to me like a rush of adrenalin. suddenly, i realised i still can't let go. that maybe u're haunting me so much that i get trapped like this for the rest of my life. like forever.
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so hard to make a wise choice. hai. n gong may be leaving. hais. just when i tot he's a good coach. why why why.
suddenly i realise if u include all ya thinking with God, things seem to be lighter n easier to handle. like i should just thank God i haf a mother hu loves me n shld not complain why i canot go out at times. thank God i haf four limbs my senses r working well, i haf friends family and a healthy body. that when sometimes u haf to face sth or do sth u really hates, thats probably just what God wants u to do for u to learn sth precious. well, i used to deny God's presence. heh. weird huh?
was running like mad ard town wif boon. for tt stupid jingfang. nvm she was so sorry. even offered free movie. heh. just felt kind regret tt we nv get to take foto. wonder how everybody looks at the grad. kinda exciting manz. but u hafta overcome the "o" obstacle 1st. arghs.
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does anybody know mushrooms are growing on my skin? that i'm rotting? that i'm on the verge of insanity from boredom!!!!
just realised i cant seem to find anybody to go out with. some busy some that you-can-just-forget-about coz they dun haf time for you some away for holiday some you-cant-seem-to-talk-to. most imptly, i dunno why my mum always wants me to go home so early. really damn early. i hate it. really really hate it.
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251101
back from the camp. so tired. didn't exactly thought it was very fun. found out some peoples' true colours. like they only come to you when they feel like it. like they will have time for you only when others are not around. then maybe you need to make appointments with them to talk to them. oh yah, you have to consider if they wanna meet ur appointment or rather prefer the others way behind the queue.
stayed over at szuyu's house the day before. wanted to make japanese jelly but we couldnt find the cans of fruits. bladed but i sort of gave up, played ping-pong, playstation blah blah. during the camp, we went to the hockey pitch at nite. layed down there, looking at the sky, searching for stars. chatted a bit. it was kind of beautiful and nice.
oh sucks. gbook is down.
watched one leg kicking wif szuyu on wednesday. she din quite enjoy it but we were laffing like mad at robin leong's face. yah. we were the only ones laffing. haha. quite nice lah the last part. quite touching. den we went to buy some stuff n i bot my sis some bday pressies. eating her cake now. quite lovely. chocolate.
i'm aching like shit! ran up n down the steps abt five rounds ard the whole new extension. i'm dying! cant even sit down. butt aches. had weights training n my whole arm aches too. bleahs.
took this internet-addictive test. only 30%! isnt tt just so great. hate it when some pple thought i cant live w/o the net. i can.
searching for new stuff. new layout!
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