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today, i learnt how the world can be so fake. or how one is so proud when he or she gets a post. or even how people like to get so excited by words said by another particular one. OR even how one can barge into frenship of another two, n only cause him/herself misery. realised i didnt smile much anymore,nor can i find something to make me brighten up. wots happening to me again? over nothing? or something so trivial n small? got the urge to create a layout again, maybe over the weekends. competition starts next week, how to face them properly? i feel stuck. i dont know what to do anymore. ever since a long long time ago.
u r so beautiful to me
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i dun care if i like the things or people everybody likes. nor do i care if lotsa people likes legolas or not. or x. i dun care.
can't u see u're everything i hope for
Legolas Greenleaf If I were a character in The Lord of the Rings, I would be Legolas, Elf, a son of the King of Mirkwood. In the movie, I am played by Orlando Bloom. Who would you be? this is wae toooo cool. i'll be Legolas!! oh dear my favorite guy hu turns me on in lord of the rings!! alrites sometimes he looks kinda weird but... he is soooo super cool n stylo in the show! the way he shoots his arrow n his perfect shots are so sart. a great archer. weeeeee... *yay* me n boon came upon some lord of the rings books in borders. he looks good there man! e show's good, some say even better than harry potter. but hafta wait fer one yr fer the next episode. damn.
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the greatest distance is not between the north and south poles, nor is it between the earth and the sky. it is the fact that i love you n u dun even know it's been 24 days since i last saw you, 13 days since i last talked to you. how have you been? i miss you so much.
they tried to catch a fallin star
me gotta diary from szuyu. but i guess i dun wan a diary anymore. i'll feel weird when i read it again one day. like wots happening to me? why haf i become like that? n its too nice to put depressing stuff there. guess it shall becum a proper book fer people to write. i graduating this year, remember? then me shall buy another notebook n put stuff there.
Isn't it weird. Isn't it strange.
291201 241201 I won't ask for much this Christmas
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watched the last episode of meteor garden again coz my sis was watching. i want the ost!! love that song, n i'm quite sad the show's over. =( currently not in any mood to ever even touch the first page of hong lou meng, or open my chem book. why m i so uptight. =(
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i feel so weird nowadays. like life's is so damnit boring, u just goes school for the sake of going n take this damn crowded bus to n from n hafta walk so bloodie super far from house to bus-stop. then tests. whats the use of studying so hard anyways. it wun even gif a damn help to your O's. then in school n trainings, u just may hafta face some crazy shit. when u reached home n go online for some rays of hope, the ray just diminished, leaving u even more upset n agitated.
it's like insanity comforting you n calming you down.
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life's been real sick man.
thinkin that she has gone too far
she did but kept it hidden well
until she cracked and then she fell
Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train
We're both trying to find a place in the sun
We've lived in the shadows, but doesn't everyone
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes
Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain.
You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear though you're screaming so loud
You feel all alone in a faceless crowd
Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird
sometimes.
Sitting on the side. Waiting for a sign. Hoping that my luck will
change.
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world being different is a sin.
So you don't stand out. And you don't fit in. Weird.
Sitting on the side. Waiting for a sign. Hoping that my luck will
change.
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world if you're different you can't
win.
So you don't stand out and you don't fit in. Weird.
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird
Strange, how we all get a little bit.
Strange, 'cause we're all just a little bit weird sometimes.
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watchedmeteorgardentodaytilldisk11.suddenlyfeltsobloodiesad.wishedxwatched.letherfeelhowpainfulissit
tolovesonmeonesecretlysosomuchnyetthesomeonelovessomeoneelse.
whatsthepointofdoingahomepagesumsortofforu?whatsthe
pointofsheddingtearsforyou?whatsthepointofsufferingsomuch,toloveusomuchforlikealmostayearalready?
inevereverlovedsomeonethewayilovedu.somuchitreallyhurtsinside.neverhadicriedsomanytimesforsomeone
ilovebefore.neverever.lifeissomeaningless,lifewithoutyou,orshldisayi
neverhadu?justseeinguaround?howlongdoihaftobelikethat?
howlongdoihaftohafuinmyhead,inmydreams,everywhereigo?ever
since,inevergottareallycheerup.idununderstandwhypeoplecanbesocheerf
ulallthewhile.ireallydun.whydoihaftaluvu?why?icanfindathousandreasonsforhatingyou
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then i held u close to me, kissed away ur tears, n i vowed that no one could ever hurt you again... in my dreams.
i'm finally online again man! haha things been pretty fine around my new house. just that me took 2 hours to figure out which bus stop i supposed to take to school. n its a 10 min walk to the bus stop. damn it. perhaps life's THIS fair. my old house is just beside the bus stop. heh. watched the lord of the ring today. nice man but tavia kept yakking again n the ending is super abrupt. oh yea staying over for xmas was fun over at jess' house but town was super squeezy. n the others aint tt scary too. lalas. =) wadeva it is, gbook is baq! yea! though it keeps breaking down, i love being able to reply n when pple sign, there's no need for br tags. hope to get frenz over to my new house soon. when whoever's interested enuff. n haf a round of mahjong! =)
I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
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me really love coco lee's so crazy. i wan the lyrics! so i sae sandy, y cant u just get me the cd? haha anyways happy xmas eve pple. me only received two cards these yr!! =( me usually received more than ten. sadded man.
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yay. me gonna stay over at jess' hse tml. gonna count down in town too. realised me stayover lotsa time this hols. class chalet, szuyu's hse, badminton camp, badminton chalet n now jess' hse! hehe must enjoy myself before sec4 yr starts man. anyways me just went to my new hse just now. wow the wall n floor was lovely. ha. i think i'll miss here. where i grew up, first learn to walk, a cosy shelter n a childhood place. soon it'll all be part of my memory. =(
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physical today's been real bad. n my head is filled wif stupid sparkling stuff again. barf. maybe i need sch reopens so that i can stop thinking bt someone. or i'll really drive myself crazy.
i hate myself giving a damn about you but i can't stand u not giving a damn abt me.
211201 you were there, breathing the same air, close enough to touch. i look like i didnt bother but baby i was lying. dunno how many times i said i gonna live without you
baby bring me back my fantasy
the courage that i need to live
the air that i breathe
living without you
my world's become so empty
my days are so cold n lonely
n each night i taste
the purest of pain
i look around n it's you i cant replace
211201 went out wif min jx sin san ser today. fer cip. so tiring man. we stayed till 7 n we went shopping. we reached home at abt 9+. met this freakie looking guy who keep pestering us to matchmake for him n he can donate any amount. what crap. never heard of any matchmaking places issit? n he dun exactly look good lor. disgusting i shall sae. in the end he handed us a 74 bucks cheque coz he wanna find a girl born in the 1974 n he hope we can find fer him. PLS! oh n jx was so proud he believed she's a 19. haha jiaxi. had so much to say. chalet's been fun, just that there were too lil people. i spent my two midnights having daidee-bridge-daidee-bridge session. third night, we went to the beach. the sky was real beautiful, n shuying brought some sparklers. the night breeze was soothing n i felt kinda touched by the scenery. madness. then we wanted to record some songs into my phone. when we went back, some of us recorded some nice songs into my phone n i could feel we were singing it out from our hearts. i wonder why we did that fer anyways. so that's was one of the memorable parts of the chalet. the ever most memorable one that still goes on flashing in my mind, i shall say no more further. =) going home was a nightmare. i went home, so tired, wanting to sleep n suddenly i just broke down. so angry. n depressed. i'm becoming a crybaby, crying for silly things. beauty is so shortlived. like sunsets. like shooting stars. why make people hang hopes on them when wishes don't come true? why do people even bother to wish n let the truth go crashing down on them? i dunno why i'm still hanging on. i just felt so stuck. like i'm trapped here forever n i can't seem to get out. it's been more than a year already. i lost so much, n gained nothing. decided that maybe this shall be my last layout. like wots the pt? wots the pt of doing sth fer somebody who cant even be bothered wif u? i wish x will cum slapping my face, asking me to fuck off. maybe then will everything melt to hatred. but i guess it never will. i need a memory-cleaner desperately. it's been painful loving you
back from chalet. slept fer so long. 6 pm all e wae to 11 am this morn. 17 hours, my new record. haha.