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i'm so glad to be proven wrong last night.
After trying hard to study, boon and i went town instead! Bleahs. Cut my hair though it really looks as if nothing's been done to it. I've wasted my money.
I seriously don't know what's wrong with my biological clock. I had sufficient sleep last night but i could actually sleep for five hours straight this afternoon. Maybe i'm mentally tired.
This whole prelims-study-break thingamajig is driving me nuts. It's disrupting my usual routine and making me numb to the finer things in life. I seemed to have lost my sense of direction. Aimless and tasteless, for whatever i do, sadly. I'm not like those out there with drive and aspirations. To get into whatever prestigious universities or scholarship. Simply because i'm an ignorant, shallow student lack of drive. You know, the kind who cannot even give her two cents' worth about politics.
Sigh. Am i a tad late to start studying now? Okay lah, like what they say, worry is like a rocking chair, it gets you nowhere. Haha. Shall start soon.
listening to: "Jiang Nan" by Lin Jun Jie
feeling: crappyy
Friday. Finally worked out my lazy old bones and played badminton with jill, meilin and min at yck stadium. Erm, my footwork is like crappp now. And yes of course, we played mahjong at jill's house as usual. It was really crazy fun over there. We locked meilin the animal "lover" outside with jill's doggie! Haha during mahjong, we kept struggling to sing (READ: struggling) and irritate the hell outta min. HA! And we put several kit kats between tiles and whoever's turn has the kit kat below her tile gets the free treat! Right, sounds really silly but we all went quite high over it. ;)
Saturday. Finally met up with my two girls and we ate at crystal jade. Yah, noodles and xiao long bao and spring roll again. Boon was like happily shopping while chel and i had zero purchase!
Sunday. Played mahjong at cheng long's house. AT BOON LAY. Yup, basically travelled from one end to singapore to the other. Thank goodness i caught the last bus home.
Monday. Splashing good fun! Went to the mini public water theme park at chi garden. Felt really nostalgic there. All the scenes of competition back with the st nicks team came rushing back to me. Char, ade, lilian and i spent about three hours there relaxing at the lazyy pool, bobbing up and down at the wave pool, played charade at the jacuzzi and whizzed our way down the exciting slides.
Tuesday. Was supposed to tan with meilin but it was raining cats and dogs. Went window shopping in town instead. We sat for like one hour outside Tangs chatting about everything under the sun.
Wednesday. It was fried food day at st nicks but not the wonton side! Sian. Amelia and i brought meilin and emily to our second home and ate the famous all-time-favourite orange bowl. Plus rojak and iced milo and teh tarik and yu pian mian xian and wonton (boiled, though) and ice cream and fruits that look much fresher than hc ones. Saw jiao lian on our way home through the hall and i felt lost. Really lost. I don't know why. I miss training in st nicks so much. Despite the really really tough things we do nobody else will understand best. I can't believe i actually survived at all, seriously.
Okay, now what?
Oh, actually, yes. I mean, why can't you respect other sports the way you respect the one you play? The world does NOT revolve around you. You know that.. don't you?
Watched Les Choristes today. I would say it's a show that oh gosh, everybody should go catch! Though somber in the way the children were handled back then, but truly entertaining, humorous and heartwarming. It's really uplifting to be able to experience how human voices can blend in so fantastically and flow with such fluidity and vibrancy. They seem to sing right through your heart! Morhange's voice was so powerful and angelic. A lot of gasps could be heard in the theatre as his voice wafted through and i was literally, almost, moved to tears by this child singer! But it's not just the voices. It’s the way the scenes appeal to your emotions and evoke so much feeling in you. Where music, a universal language, was used to rescue a bunch of young, lost souls. A truly heartstring-tugging show. I finally got to watch a good movie! ;)
And yup, was again marveling at the beauty of the French language. I said this a lot of times but sigh, if only I was selected for the third language course in sec 1. You see, I chose French.
By the way, i love Pepinot and Boniface! Too cute liao.
Can’t believe I spent around nine hours walking about today. Shall go rest soon for mahjong and badminton tomorrow! Au revoir!
listening to: "My Girl" by Temptations
feeling: lalala~
I spent time peering out of the window today. Rain always has such a balming effect on me.
And it's probably just as well that all good things do come to an end. Indeed. Isn't it hard to bear? To see how feelings fade and words turn contrived, as we are played upon by the cruel hands of time. Only to feel an overwhelming sense of loss as you painfully flip through the images in your head. Try. Try recalling. Try immersing yourself in the same scenario again. And try savouring. And? And you see yourself wallowing in a pool of emptiness. It's not easy to deceive yourself. Things do turn tasteless. If that's the case, i'd rather have good things ending on a high note.
LIBERATION in two days' time.
listening to: "Yellow" by Coldplay
feeling: funny
When the familiar sense of yearning that you thought you've lost come rushing back to you, what do you do?
So MAF was about taking photos, mass dancing and singing which could otherwise been really boring without fun company. Amelia was a damn cute partner! Really wished we hadn't embarrassed ourselves like that though. Officially four from my class turned up last night. Hmmm, hope we can all turn up next year.
I should really have a nice stayover and star gaze one day. Soon.
listening to: "When I Look Into Your Eyes" by Firehouse
feeling: delirious
I know my econs is barely halfway through and it's getting late but i just had to come online! Haha so happy! Sylvester got in Spore Idol! Hahaha.. He's meilin's and my favourite in this wildcard group! And guess what, we even voted for him via sms! Hahaha never done this kind of thing before. A bit embarrassed but never mind la huh. The exhilaration was tremendous when his name was called out! I was like closing my eyes and hoping. *hides face* Meilin was really funny, shouting SLY SLY SLY over the phone. Hee. Morever, i already liked the song he sang just now. Oh he said "thanks to those who voted for me". Welcome! ;)
When I Look Into Your Eyes - Firehouse
I see forever when I look in your eyes
You're all I've ever wanted
I always want you to be mine
Let's make a promise to the end of time
We'll always be together
And our love will never die
So here we are face to face and heart to heart
I want you to know we will never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
'Cause when I see my whole world
I see only you
When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
it's not that i especially remember this date but i happened to find myself way back to my archives. Happy birthday sparkl3.pitas.com! It's been three years already. :)
It's amusing, really. My first entry was talking about the incentive trip we had at desaru in sec 3. I actually forgot that szuyu and i and some primary badminton girls who slept in the same a-framed hut as us were singing the samsung and chesdale advertisement jingles on top of our voices to mask our fear! Haha! And i suddenly recall szuyu panicking in the bathroom when one of the girl said pontianaks start coming out at 6 pm! Oh my, these little jokes we had. LIN SZUYU hope you didn't even forget the fact that we went on this trip together! Haha OOPS.
listening to :"Maybe" by N.E.R.D
feeling: empty
I always wish i can spin lyrical beauty into my words. To express explicitly how i truly feel sometimes without succumbing to the complexities of my emotions. Nothing is more reassuring than reading something that echoes what your heart has to say. And nothing beats a world that resonates with simplicity. For me, that is. But some things are hard to appear crystal clear beneath the murky surface that lurks. Maybe only time can tell.
Perhaps it's true. Maybe that's what memories are for. To warm our hearts when the world turns cold. I just wish that you, my friend, can take a piece of me everywhere you go.
listening to: "May I Love You" by Zhang Zhi Cheng
feeling: crazy
I keep wanting to come online to blog about a lot of things but i've been spending a substantial amount of time recently studying, watching tv and sleeping. And by the time i could get hold of my precious keyboard, which now feels alienic enough, my brain is drained.
And i've never stepped so close into realising how precious life is. Really. Those few days were dreadful. It was an overdose of paranoia, embarrassingly. Yet i guessed i further understood how those people must have felt, being such unjustified victims. The hopelessness could drown you. Guess nobody has the slightest inkling what i'm talking about. Just as well.
Ooh, last friday was spent trying to trick lilian that only sinhui and i gonna celebrate her birthday with her at rice table after school. In the end most of the class people were already there waiting for the birthday girl's grand arrival. Felt so touched for her and morever, the attendance was good! The food was okayy and lilian and i met wenhooi after that to shop. Oops. My second time out shopping that week. But perhaps it was a good rest before all the huzz and buzz and panic and examination stress come attack me in the remaining weeks.
Saturday was strangely unforgettable. Met meilin to study in school but all we did when the sun went down was chatting at my class bench, savouring the serenity of the school, the gentleness of the breeze, watching the councillors put up their MAF decorations and sing and dance to the rhythmn of the familiar hwachong songs, feeling a tad old as time passed us by. Then it dawned upon me that i've grown attached to this school unknowingly. And this bittersweet nostalgia seeped into my heart, all the memories weaved of joy and laughter came flashing back like how i used to reminisce about the st nicks times. Can't help but feeling a sense of loss as soon, i'm going to bid farewell. Shall spare you all the minute details of the memories still etched in my mind, i'll leave it till much later. Then we went to the playground at amk to sit on the swings. Haha, don't ask me why we did that. Anyway i can't quite fit nicely into the swing anymore.
And monday was spent studying in school. Halfway through meilin and i went to play squash! Haha. A few juniors came to play with us. It was really fun taking a break for some exercise and the shower after that was really refreshing. Ate cup noodles outside LT 5 and the ambience was quite good. That is if you don't think about the darkness that lurked near the upper staircase. Eeps.
Alright, i need all the luck for prelims now. Please!
Both susilo and gade lost today. How sad. Can't believe i was actually there at the inner plaza cheering for gade with meilin and jillian when we thought it looked silly having such a big crowd watching susilo against joppien yesterday. Gees. Gotta admit taufik is faster la. Don't know what happened to gade! Maybe his peak is over. Or his old injury. He won taufik during the all-england championships lor! Realised the three of us have been his loyal fans these years haha. Thought this match was much more entertaining though. Damn pro! Love their back court cross smashes! And really can tap when the ball is just above the net la.
By the way, who told me khorkina is not in this olympics!? This is her last bid for the all-rounder champion again! She was practically the reason why i watched the olympics in sec 2. Especially her uneven bars event. She performed it so skilfully and marvellously! As if she lived with the bars all her life. Okay i sound mad. Someone please please tell me if artistic gymnastics is going to be broadcast on tv!
listening to: "Everybody I Go" by Shawn Mullins
feeling: like a pinch of salt
It rocks to be able to listen to songs you've once liked so much, but conveniently tossed them out of your crammed enough memory space. Morever, at times, these songs have such slight impact on some, that people can hardly ignite that familiarity buried inside me.
I really must ask those people one day how does it feel like to keep tuanting others for some things they do, yet do those stuff themselves. Is it like rushes of guilt-free emotions, or simply the ol' forgetfulness inside you that hurls all the words you've spoken out of your brain, that you're ought to be forgiven? Interesting.
Never mind. Ate my favourite childhood casuarina prata today but i think i'll never eat there with emily ever again. I believe this is mutual. 1. The old-enough-to-be-dad assistant over there kept serving self-proclaimed "specially crispy prata" to her and asked her for her name and her number. 2. She shoved an enormous piece of crispy prata on the floor with her fork. 3. She excitedly cut her prata without realising that the plate was dangerously close to the edge, and the force she exerted on the poor scrap of dough caused such a great moment about the edge of the table and piak! The curry-dripping contents and the plate landed on her shirt.
Hahaha. And the ironies of the day that really amaze me. 1. She said yesterday that she felt relieved the mythical Friday The Thirteenth luck wasn't bestowed upon her. 2. It was hot and she felt so proud of herself that she wore white before the whole spilling incident started. 3. Before we reached the shop she said it was her di yi ci with me. Yah lor, it's my di yi ci seeing the assistant and people dropping prata like that in eighteen years of my life.
Finally getting my new specs. Yay! Hopefully besides the geekiness, i'll carry some strands of erm illusory intelligence on my face.