Tuesday, May 9, 2006 / 02:36 a.m.
the days
Friday
Friday night was spent celebrating boon's and pris' birthdays. Happy birthday prettys! We ate at Cafe 211, this roof terrace cafe at holland v. The ambience was not bad (love al fresco!), thank goodness it didnt rain but the towering nearby HDB flats kind of spoilt the view though. Haven't met up with them all for such a long time, though pris and i were in the same hall. Mahjong, girls! And chel will be back from KL soon.
Saturday
Had cramps the entire saturday and couldnt turn up for shan's birthday party. Bleahhhhs. Went for supper with meilin siongqun and jiting at night at chomp chomp. Had chicken wings, sugar cane, aloe vera, oyster omelette, carrot cake and chatted till it rained.
Sunday
Yesterday was fun! I played table tennis with sanduo jiting siongqun at chinese high yesterday when there are some alumni sort of table tennis session with the aunties and uncles. I was really lousy there haha. Well at least they taught me a basic table tennis stroke! Now i learnt something new. After lunch at thai noodle house was CS! Yes, people, COUNTER STRIKE. Dont laugh. Actually i always wanted to try but never had the chance. It was tonnes of fun! I was really lousy but they gave me chances to kill them haha. I haven't mentioned how scary it was having people running after you and they were right behind you when you're still trying to choose some weapon on the ground. I think i screamed a couple of times haha. And stupid jiting kept killing me with the knife from behind laaaaaa. Ultimate humiliation. I even saw "my" back view from his screen and he was holding the knife waiting to kill!! Had to turn and turn like crazy. Hee by the time we had dinner at bukit timah market, i was so tired.
Monday
Ran at chinese high track with sanduo (at our own pace of course) today! The afternoon sun was scorching and i struggled through my 2.4km run. It’s been long since I last ran! Then we met jiting and played badminton at thomson cc. I think I gotta change the racquet grip soon or I’ll terrorize everybody with my black hand. Ate at prata house and thanks to sq for fetching me home to bathe and then to meet the rest and seowhong at jubilee to watch Mission Impossible 3. Italy is really beautiful. So is the language. And i got really amused by jiting pretending that he’s tom cruise throughout the show. Erps. Thanks to seow hong for fetching me home after that. Was typing this entry halfway when I got a call that sd and jt were at my void deck! Previously they kept saying punggol is a faraway land that they’ll never step into. They’ve finally overcome the “punggol barrier”! Hahaha. We ate supper at the coffeeshop opposite before ending the long night with a sound clip of the bhangra and the guy who actually lives in punggol block 107. Whoaaa, how creepy is that.
Been passing the stretch of bukit timah road these days and I realize I really miss the sunny familiar street lined with little quiet shophouses. And I couldn’t help but envy those decked in jc uniforms. Seeing those hwachong people playing at the basketball court today made me miss playing ball with my classmates a lotttt. Those days were so carefree and fun, in retrospect. I would give anything to go back and be a jc student, where you’re old enough to have fun yet not old enough to be burdened with worries and responsibilities. Would love to a 17-year-old again, my favourite number! Then again, we always discover how precious these moments are only when the memories slowly unfold in our minds thereafter.
Alright, I’m really tired from the run, badminton, dinner, movie and supper. Been having a lot of impromptu outings these days. Time to plan and meet up with people like jess sinhui and more! Tschus. :)
Saturday, May 6, 2006 / 05:09 p.m.
moving out
I started off yesterday back in hall, because i had to move out the rest of the stuff and yes, return my key. Pity meilin wasnt with me, or not it would have been much more meaningful!
My key..
Auf wiedersehen!
This is Nigel the ugly koala bear i've been talking about. :)
I've always find myself admiring when people are working at their best in their own fields of specialisation. Like how a bartender works his bottles, a basketball player does his spins and dunks, a hairstylist's deft fingers at the hair and scissors. There is always a degree of professionalism in every profession. And seeing those people at work is simply enticing and awe-inspiring. Yet they look so average and nothing very look-worthy in daily life. Bleahh, i always wish i'm a Master and not a Jack.
Sentosa with lilian today. It was great catching up. Especially when you're completely immersed in the warm touch of the sun, the soft white sand, the balming breeze, the gentles waves, the clear blue sky and the fluffy white clouds!
Meilin and i highlighted our hair today. Then we rushed back to catch our dear san duo win the pull-up challenge on tv. Quite funny! Hahaha. And special thanks to kevin. Now hippo is finally back in punggol home. :)
Yesterday was kui shinbo buffet with zes ame kwan mei and kev. Ehhhhh, really not worth my twenty five bucks though. A little heart ache over there, and made me miss the abalone, shark's fin and teppan yaki at genghis khan! Though i'll never get to eat it again because it's gone and so so expensive. I'll stick to my favourite food court and kfc. Sd, sq and jt came over at night and we played squash and ate supper. Now i'm aching all over.
A few snapshots of what i've been doing the past week, which has flown by fast unknowingly. Hope this holidays will be wisely spent!
Had a nice talk with boon on msn just now. OKAY i promise i'll click on you next time. Hahaha. We sort of concluded that this thing among the three of us will never change.
Met up with char alan bernard yesterday. And sinhui today. I'm sick of orchard, or in general, singapore already!
I don't know, but it gets a little scary and lost sometimes when you don't know what you want out of a situation at all. You think of all the possibilities and outcomes and implications, but you know it all really boils down to nothing anyways.
Shall not think about it anymore. Will just continue doing the things i want and meeting the people i love.
Haha, it's not that bad actually. You know how some emotions only last at that moment and i just wanted to channel it into this virtual medium of mine. But the permanent blog entry there makes everything look so gloomy. Remember this is but a small part of my life. There are so many thoughts and emotions (okay not a lot) i go through everyday! Thanks to some of you, be it msn sms company or tag, by the way. :) Totally cheered me up already.
Go youtube.com and search sheares blk d. HILARIOUS.
Next, EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!! Hohoho! No more late night studying and panicking and memorizing anymore! Wheeee. Went out with zes after our changing landscapes paper. We ate favourites - ban mian and pork ball soup at scotts for lunch and roamed around town for some good ol' shopping. Bought a top each! Then boon came over to hall at night!! It's been AGES since i last met her la. And silly chel who's still studying for her law papers. We had dinner at fongseng, slacked around in my room and played DTX. Then it was mahjong with meilin jackson and siewjun.
Today was badminton at safra with sanduo jiting siongqun seowhong meilin. We caught The Wild which was a pretty funny cartoon, especially when you watch with people like san duo! He'll laugh his head off and fill the entire theatre with his loud laughter. Some parts were really rib tickling, like the crocodile YO thing and the onion and basically Nigel the ugly koala bear. The film looks like those cheaply produced kind though. Hahaha. I like yesterday, today and erm the rest of my holidays!
To friends still struggling like jess, meilin, alvin, chel, huimin, KELly (haha) or max, HANG ON THERE and it'll be over!
Gonna do so many things next week!! Hope there will not be a lot of clashes though. :/
It's been long since i can truly rest at home and have some time to myself and my family. Wanna read, watch tv shows/vcds, eat, sleep a lot, run with my sis, prob drag my getting-fat father to play badminton with me, fly kite with my sisters and bro-in-law and more!
Today is called a Revelation Day. Four hours, a good friend, some truth unfold and stories aplenty. :) Funny how we actually feel the same way too.
Try putting yourself in my shoes and understand. Please.
Ain't in the best of moods these days. How not to anyways.
Oh wells. At least holidays are coming. Everybody seems to have a lot of plans already. Hehs.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
It's two hours away from my first exam - Computing and Programming for Business. I just discovered the full name today. Been calling it "IT" all the while. Haha. Funny how i seem to have a lot of time left to study for this module but the minute after this exam, it's jam-packed and hard-core memorizing all the way till next friday! Seriously hope i have enough time to study for changing landscapes.
Looking back at this sem, it seems as though i'm only taking one module - german. Went marketing lecture twice, changing 1.5, only missed stats a few times during dance period and skipped IT for the next half of the semester. And my fellow business pals zes and min happily became very slack for lectures this sem. Academics aside, it was IHG for badminton, then squash, softball. After that was dance practises almost everyday till a couple of hours after midnight and then learning the new toma dance for dance uncensored. And i'm already considered less busy than people like aprilyn. This semester seems to zoom past unknowingly and realization just hit upon me that i am about to put an end to the very first year of my varsity adventure. And it's certainly funny to think of how everything has emerged and evolved at a time of April. Maybe the next time i should go semester by semester. Haha. Anyways, on retrospect, reflections is indeed a good means of grasping, learning and inscribing new meanings to life before moving on. From the first day i moved into hall with meilin (in amelia's car), to knowing goodie pals like yiwen, alvin and kevin during orientation, to bonds formed during dnd preparation, integrating into the temasek hall culture with suppers and comm hall dinners, with min and zes to inject laughter and fun in my school life, german with yinghong, having people like sanduo siongqun alan bernard char to pop by once in a while, playing badminton and squash and jogging during free time, to late night chats and pranks and scares, training during december holidays, mahjong and cards and drinks, meeting new good friends in dance and softball like max linda wanyuan huishan, establishing firm friendships with some and rekindling some, i find myself settling down comfortably in this socially meaningful and enriching landscape of mine. (HAHA trying to apply what i study again) Many things have changed too, be it good or bad, but i guess as much as we lament or celebrate, they are all part of growing up. Come to think of it, the big TWO is scary.
Haiyah, spouting again. I better go for my exam already. Luck to everybody out there! :)
Went for dinner at Holland Village with meilin, jiting and san duo today. Had tonnes of fun and laughter at dessert, accompanied by lovely ice-cream (swiss chocolate caramel and raspberry sorbet!) and Gelare waffles. The waffles weren’t that great today actually, but the company seemed to make up for everything. We played cai quan, had silly forfeits, played around with our food, snatched for quarters of waffles with whipped cream.. Basically everything was in a mess! Hahaha. And san duo really almost died laughing at jiting doing some scissors action. He said it’s the funniest thing he had ever seen all his life! He laughed so hard for so long. Hahaha crazy guy.
Whee, I’m getting rather worried for my exams. Been trying to read the same lines over and over these few days. It doesn’t help matters that I’m still printing lecture notes and reading them for the first time. Feel so unprepared. I am so going to work hard next sem and go for lectures. Zes and min keep an eye on me!
Spent a quiet afternoon with min in my room while studying today. I love it raining cats and dogs out there, while being in the comfort of my own room playing slow jazz or sentimental oldies. The weather is perfect! Can't wait to spend time like these but instead of studying, i'll be reading a good book or watching a good film. Hopefully the weather will be breezy and not stormy/rainy when i want to go out. Or sunny and slightly warm and cosy when i visit sentosa. Hahaha. Wishful thinking on my part.
Anticipation can be a rather gnawing process. Yet there is certainly beauty in waiting, especially when reward comes along with the excitement and joy it brings. Right now I’ll just satisfy my insatiable appetite by daydreaming.
I live on simple things to keep me happy. :)
Desperado why don't you come to your senses?
To give labels and deem some things and some people to be important in life is both tiring and sometimes disappointing. You have higher expectations and thus, higher falls. What more, everything is done at the expense of you. Right now, i just simply don't have the energy and the courage to keep things going anymore. Arghh i shouldnt even bother. No more.
Somebody please tell me exams are coming. Been playing DTX with zes in the afternoon and yiwen last night. Played badminton today after dinner till midnight (great workout though!) and was pretty much entertained by siongqun sanduo jiting and jiale when they came to visit. Hee. STUDY!
Meilin come back A209 soon!
The sunsets these days are really pretty! The fluffy clouds were such pretty pink and complemented the blue heavens. If only my camera phone would do justice to them.
These were the best my phone could capture. :( The pink was was much prettier than that. Oh i'm such a sucker for sunsets!
And zes returned hers too.
She wanted a last pounce on her beloved bed that accompanied her most of the time.
Kinda sad to see a bed filled with cuddlies and fluffies..
.. to something empty and bare.
Still, it's time to close the door and embrace a new one!
Friday, May 5, 2006 / 02:09 a.m.
Friday, May 5, 2006 / 12:53 a.m.
Wednesday, May 3, 2006 / 01:36 a.m.
Sunday, April 30, 2006 / 04:03 a.m.
hurray to the days
Thursday, April 27, 2006 / 09:02 p.m.
what hurts the most
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Friday, April 21, 2006 / 12:22 p.m.
rhythm and life
Wednesday, April 19, 2006 / 02:03 a.m.
a half price day
Sunday, April 16, 2006 / 06:30 p.m.
a call away
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow
Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet
Now it seems to me some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get
Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone
Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late
Sunday, April 16, 2006 / 02:11 a.m.
Thursday, April 13, 2006 / 11:44 p.m.
when the sun goes down
Taken at the bridge between A3 and C4.
Taken at the engine fac.
