Thursday, December 18, 2003
Finally watched Infernal Affairs 3 with macho dad adder and yummy mummy lilian today! As expected, it was a two hours film of intense tension, intrigue and suspense. I really love the way the plot unravels itself with several twists and turns in the film, in a way highly crafted and not too confusing. (for me, at least) And the way the scenes change from the past to the present and every scene is linked up perfectly to answer for every scene before. I am full of admiration for the scriptwriter! And Tony Leung. We all agreed he's a bona fide ying di so full of charisma! Gee, though i thought the third one was colder, more of mind boggling and less heartstring-tugging.
Now i am really glad i won the badminton duel with alan a few months ago, or not he wouldnt have treated lilian and i to genghis khan! It was my first time there and my, the food was really worth every cent! I mean, though i didnt pay lar. Let me see.. I have abalone, oyster, chicken roll, black pepper crab (my all time fave!), sushi, teppanyaki (cod fish and chicken chop), oreo cheesecake, cheesecake, tiramisu cake, bbq cuttlefish, grilled salmon, shark's fin and lemonade and moreee (i cant think now) all jiggling about in my stomach now! The teppanyaki was really superb. Every bite of the fragrant cod fish was so juicy and succulent, with the flesh perfectly tender yet crispy on the outside! (OKAY i'll stop) Lilian was the heaviest eater by the way (!!), while alan's once humungous appetite toned down today to make him the lightest eater today. Whatever it is, thanks xiao di!
sweet jazzification at 11:28 p.m. Tuesday, December 16, 2003
you look into my eyes
sweet jazzification at 10:09 p.m. Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Fragile lachrymose butterfly
sweet jazzification at 01:58 a.m. Monday, December 15, 2003
This will be my seventh or eighth time setting my feet on the grounds of Bukit Timah Plaza Pizza Hut. Gosh, the manager was really kind to give us the privilege of having endless bowls of salad and soup after we expressed our utter dismay of being too early for the student's special. And there, ivy, jillian, meilin and i had an embarrassing yet fun time playing the guessing game (cai quan), laughing at the top of our voices whenever someone won, causing the rest to eat the squishy squashy mashy cheesy seafood lasagne as a forfeit. (Yes, special thanks to meilin for contributing the most towards making the icky yellowish bit disappear)
I never stop to realise how great it is being able to wake up at noontime almost everday, no lectures or tutorials of any sort (though i kinda miss school somehow), able to shop, play, go out, meet up, watch tv etc as and when i like it. I just had to be reminded somehow that it's two more weeks before holidays come to an end. Or that we have tonnes of homework to complete. (are you sure?) Hmmms, those who scored O and F for physics please contact me. I can't find anybody. I have some enquiries!
I wish i can dance. From Latin to Jazz to Hiphop to ballet. Or play the piano or saxophone or guitar or drums or violin. I wish i can possess any of these artistic talents where i can express through music, the universal language and explore with the beauty of body language. Inebriated in a world i call my own, i'll immerse in the lush richness of rhythmn and beat, emotions and flow and not anybody can stop me.
Hmmms, just let me dream on.
sweet jazzification at 09:10 p.m. Saturday, December 13, 2003
Had four hours of non-stop shopping with meilin today. I'm very delirious with my purchases - one pretty black Mango skirt (yes henghui, it's Mango again haha) and a really beautiful butterfly necklace which was quite a surprise purchase coz i normally wouldnt splurge on accesories. But it was really exquisite and gorgeous meilin kept urging me to buy! Anyways, Mango sales are always crazy and scary. Tops and bottoms of all sorts of colours and designs with prices reduced by half are sprawled all over the store and one can feel really lost amidst the human flow. Mango Addicts. The clothes said it. Hurrah, i'm satisfied! :D (right, shall not sound too much like a bimbo over here)
I felt really tranquil and relaxed while waiting for my bus at the interchange just now. I really love nights like this. Of how the heavenly velvet complements the jagged silhouettes of the ever-tall buildings and the street lamps that cast a mysterious dim glow on the surroundings. I can stay there and savour every bit of the sweet cool night breeze that seems to soothe my soul and tell me everything is alright. There are so many things in life we have sought after, yet it seems like the stronger the desire, the more it eludes us. But it's okay. Sour as it sounds, it always ends up this way - that when we get what we want then we realise we can actually live without it. So i've taken a step earlier. I didn't get some things i want but i know i can be happy without them. Now was that an attitude of defeatism and escapism or wisdom?
Emotions are such intangible forms of expressions i get lost in them.
sweet jazzification at 11:05 p.m. Saturday, December 13, 2003
Weird. I have so many fleeting feelings and thoughts recently i really will like to capture them here in my own wired world. But everytime i type in this entry box, something keeps pulling me back. I subconsciously click on other online pages and started surfing, leaving this entry box cold and staring blankly at me. How contradicting when i'm typing this right now huh?
A friend of mine was right. People of our age are often too cosy in our own utopia, like little ships safe in the harbour we do not know how wild and crazy the ocean can be. I hate this. I think i am too naive at times. I find out that i often misconstrue people on the surface that i overlook how deep people can be. I cannot fathom the sea of invisible schemes swimming behind the back of people's eyes, nor can i see through the daggers behind a facade of smiles. I feel disgusted, not just at someone, but also myself, when trust i've built in someone crumbles to reveal a wall of deceit. It's like being cheated and mocked at for being so gullible. I can't seem to rebuild valuable trust in these people i barely knew for a week anymore. Can i remain schooling forever?
Such a naive thought. I'm quitting. So are lilian and meilin. Yeps. (Special thanks to shi yuan for the utmost concern you've given us over these few days)
I think there are really some things in life that should be left unexplained. Like why you should be doing things you do not enjoy doing, or why on earth are you on cloud nine over something frivolous. It makes things simpler I guess.
Ha, guess i've been sounding too serious. On to something lighter, i watched Love Actually with meilin yesterday. Gosh, it's an extremely touching and sweet show i practically melted in the cinema! Especially the scene where that guy who loved and suffered in silence
(that's real sad enough) over this girl married to his best friend revealed his secret adoration in the sweetest and most endearing way ever!! One will go Awwwww.. And i am NOT exaggerating! But of course, he did not expect anything in return. Everybody were just frantically scurrying about to tell their loved ones how they feel on Christmas day. Like what the show has showed. Love Actually is all around. :)
Worked out at the gym with jillian and meilin (yes, the pathetic trio again) today. Laughed ourselves silly recollecting all the childhood memories during lunch. All the sailor moon stickers *hides face*, origami, seng bao, hopscotch, that biscuit with colorful icings on top, crocodile, Mr Wolf, a-e-i-o-u-mglly (go figure) etc that grew up with us. Funny how when we're young, we wished we could grow up quickly and be adults. Yet as we struggle to accept the life's ups and downs as part and parcel of our journey, we wish we can turn back time. Actually, i think i want to remain a Seventeen! :D
The slackers (with rachel M.I.A at church camp) came over to my house for mahjong after that. The six of us took turns and suddenly, mahjong became so intense and heart attacking! Hehs, i'm so glad to see everybody remain their unique selves. Had a "solemn" meeting regarding next gathering for mahjong, double o and sentosa outside sengkang library *hmmms* after dinner. Can't wait to meet up again! :)
sweet jazzification at 12:52 a.m. Wednesday, December 10, 2003
JC prom night! View here!
Ooh. I never did understand how people can get so addicted to korean drama serials they stay up the whole night to watch disc after disc. For the whole of saturday night, i've been catching the hong dou nu zhi lian aka My Love Patzzi (in chinese). Looks like a typical lovey dovey korean drama but it's wayy nice. I love the show and xian cheng, of course! :D
sweet jazzification at 10:50 p.m. Wednesday, December 10, 2003
It has been really tiring running all around Singapore and asking for donations. I didn't realise the company Juice Asia Marketing is a pretty cool working environment whereby we have teams, cheers, morning meetings and so. The big boss Alfred, who is really successful and experienced in life and the market, treated our team to steamboat last night coz we were the highest scorers! (though i only joined yesterday and hence, didnt contribute heeh) But of course, it has been a pretty tough job. Only sold ONE booklet today as compared to four yesterday! :( And i practically begged the last few. Surprisingly, smokers and ah bengs were the kindest! And i felt so good helping Banu
(one of the buddy in the field today) to sell despite orders from the leader not to. (they dislike her and furthermore she's from the other team) But seriously, how can we leave her behind to sell alone and go back to the office? I would have been such a big fat meanie!
Anyways anyways, meilin and i checked out Shangri-La Hotel where the senior promenade was held. It was so exciting! Saw many people looking at their best and took several photos! Anyways, waikit is prom king and vernon is the bachelor! Woohoo! Hsien fei, waiyin, joa ling, sip, yb and several others i don't know personally (shant mention names here) looked gorgeous! The beautiful decorations, the interior design, the atmosphere, the stunning people and the cameras all around really makes me look forward to the grandeur and excitement of our own promenade next year! Though it will be pretty bittersweet as i see the event mark the end of the seniors' hwachong ride and all the little details of 69 and ccas that have fitted in their lives so well. Yet it signals the beginning of a new journey with new faces and memories that await. Gosh. Guess it's a crazy wild night for them. Hope they have fun! :D
Think i miss charlene already. QUEK SHUMEI! Come back noww! We need to go shopping (remember our digi cam plan) and sentosaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
sweet jazzification at 12:06 a.m. Friday, December 5, 2003
I guess the tuition thingy's a fraud! We still gotta create awareness and find students for the tutors in the company. What a turn off! Anyways, meilin and i accidentally came across this western food stall after the training and it's yummilicious! How great. Best tau sar piah and western food that we've tried at the same Balestier street! (must bring jillian there one day) Anyways, met up with boon and rachel at chel's house before heading straight to the party at chinablack. I really cant dance for nuts! Ahhh anyways i just wanted to experience for fun. Oh wells, saw a lot of familiar faces anyway! :) If not for the smoke and sleaze, i think sinhui may enjoy it! Coz all her favourite rnb hiphop songs blasted the entire night. Ha. Went for supper with my sis and rachel after that and chel and i wanted to watch vcd at my house but.. but she dozed off. Woke up in the morning wanting to go jalan kayu roti prata as planned but from past experiences, no one gets up early enough for breakfast during stayover. Hee.
I learnt a great deal during training today. I was listening carefully to the stout figure i once abhor, trying to digest every single word, his useful teachings regarding tactics, speed and skills. For once, the parabolic projectile travelling distance angle thingamajig made so much sense. Not to forget something about life. About not giving up and fighting on. (though i did have my cynical doubts over whether he did what he said) Sounded cliche but surprisingly, it got into my stubborn head and inspired me.
For the first time, I am full of admiration for our dear Mr Mario.
Getting stuck in two traffic jams and one hour journey to the school was worth it after all. :)
sweet jazzification at 11:17 p.m. Thursday, December 4, 2003
Pretty pretty lyrics.
Nighttime sharpens, heightens each sensation
Laaaadeedums. Can't believe i took the whole night to do this layout. Had to combine this picture and that picture and those. Yes, yes, i'm bored. This is the most aimless holidays i've ever spent and you know how funny things get? We are always wishing that school will end soon while we're having lessons. Then holidays arrive and when you least expect it, you actually miss school. Always like that. :)
Onto something else, i'll be having training to be a Tuition Associate (not tutor) tomorrow with meilin! All the luck to us, especially the income. :D
sweet jazzification at 12:46 a.m. Wednesday, December 3, 2003
Finally watched Chicago yesterday at jessica's house
(that girl actually watched it NINE times!) and my! It's such a brilliant spectacle of music and dance, of jazz and passion, and fame and intrigue! I never knew how multi-talented Renee Zellwenger, Catherine Zeta Jones and Richard Gere are! They displayed their characters well and most of all, they can really sing and dance. I love the way the scenes switch dexterously from bitter reality to fantastical musical sequences, and sometimes with a touch of satirical humour. Like the scene where the Italian woman was at the execution ground in public and the camera switched to a scene on the broadway stage where the woman was supposed to perform a "disappearing act" using the hanging rope and when she "disappeared", where in real life she was hanged, the audience stood and cheered loudly. It was like mocking the people in Chicago in the 1920s. Another part was how Billy Flynn was at the press conference and managed to twist the truth and evoke pity in the reporters for Roxie and then, the scene switched to the performing stage where the reporters transformed into puppets manipulated by the crafty lawyer, the same way he did in reality. So amazing how the producer can produce more impact by exaggerating on the fantasy broadway world. Can see how people would go to scandalous lengths for fame at all cost and how harsh the society was at that time, only showing interest to fresh blood on the wall. But of course, The show isn't all on the dark side. In fact everything was displayed in such colours and vibrance! Very sizzling and stunning. I love all the songs and dances inside and the movie ignites my passion for jazz again! :D And now, that silly mama song's stuck in my head again. :/
After Chicago, we watched Hey Mr Producer which was a compilation of scenes from renowned musical plays like Phantom of the Opera and Miss Saigon performed by famous talents as a tribute to Cameron Mackintosh. Bleahs, i really love Lea Salonga's voice! So angelic, sweet yet powerful. We ate a lot of tidbits we bought from thomson plaza while sipping really fragrant green tea and played cards till wee hours of the night before we finally surrendered to dreamland at 7 am. Woke up at noon and headed to the swimming pool for splish splash time - our favourite pastime! Hehs, we were enjoying the jacuzzi, floating around, talking about jc lives, singing and doing silly stunts in the pool. We recalled one year back when we were at the same spot, wondering which jc to go and wishing O levels was over. Time really waits for no man. We are growing up too soon, or rather our lives are in a pace too fast for us to catch up. I wanna remain a Seventeen! It felt so relaxing to be in the cool blue waters, surrounded by serenity and just a good friend by your side. And it's times like this when i wish the world will stop revolving for a while.
After soaking for three hours plus, we came back and ate the ready made pizza we bought yesterday. After learning from past experience, our pizza finally tasted good! Our next aim when jess returns from langkawi is making our own pizza! Hurray, hmmms, that girl even intends to buy flour and make dough for the crust! Haha. :)
I'm currently working on a Chicago layout! Hopefully it will not turn out too ugly. :/
sweet jazzification at 10:25 p.m.
i go out of my mind
i can't see anything
coz this love's got me blind
i can't help myself
i can't break the spell
i can't even try
i'm in over my head
you got under my skin
i got no strength at all
in the state that i'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
baby, I'm too lost in you
caught in you
lost in everything about you
so deep, I can't sleep
i can't think
i just think about the things that you do
i'm too lost in you
- Love Actually ost
awoke from its
tender sleep
Alas, for its peaceful
sojourn
did not
last long
As grief
wretched grief
unfurls its utmost
brilliance
Where dashed hopes
broken wings
lived in the
beauty of the eye
was i supposed to
pretend
to cry when you're sad
and smile
when you're
glad?
For the soul
of the
invisible
that remains its
anonymity
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination
Silently the senses abandon their defences
Helpless to resist the notes I write
For i compose the Music of the Night
Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splendour
Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender
Hearing is beliveing, music is decieving,
Hard as lightning, soft as candlelight,
Dare you trust the Music of the Night
Close you eyes for your eyes will only tell the truth,
And the truth isn't what you want to see,
In the dark it is easy to pretend..
That the truth is what it ought to be.
Softly, deftly, music shall caress you
Hear it, feel it, secretly possess you
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind
In this darkness which you know you cannot fight
The darkness of the music of the night
Close your eyes start a journey through a strange, new world
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before
Close your eyes and let music set you Free....
Only then can you belong to me.
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication
Touch me, trust me, savour each sensation
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in
To the power of the music that I write
The power of the music of the night
You alone can make my song take flight
Help me make the music of the night.