Friday, June 17, 2005
xx warning - it's angsty xx
I’m terribly annoyed when people try too hard to be different. To see themselves as one cut above the rest and expect the others to fawn upon their feet. I say, why harp too much on the originality and uniqueness? Do you truly understand yourself to act the way you are? I know every one of us has their own personality and distinct characteristics, but we are human beings after all. We share common beliefs and crave for the same needs deep down inside, one way or another. Go postsecret especially the comments below and you discover how God has made us alike. My point is, you don’t understand how common you really are. Being trying to be different, you are simply just part of the norm these days where individuality and personal style are the trends.
Next, I’m terribly annoyed when people scream for attention explicitly, while trying to insinuate that they want no attention at all. There really isn’t any need to gain people’s recognition and interest by saying something provocative and witty (which I did not think so by the way). Then you go on contradicting yourself, mindlessly revealing that everything seemingly stimulating that you’ve blabbered about is pointless and contrived. But I can certainly forgive you because firstly, I understand that all of us need reassurance from time to time and that we want response, even if lukewarm. Just don’t overdo it. Secondly, I get over being annoyed really fast.
Next to next, I’m not annoyed anymore.
I wonder if I’m masochistic. Not in the perverted sense of course. I cringe and squirm upon reading such things that make me wanna go AHHH! SOMEONE KILL ME! yet I continue reading them every other day. Lilian, you share my sentiments right?
I had a nice chat with that girl till 2 am last morning, even though I had FIVE crazy hours of badminton earlier on. (can you believe it??) It sort of makes me see her in a different light, though I can’t exactly describe how, given my limited vocabulary and lack of thinking. The best thing I could come up with is that – haiyah she’s not that blur after all. Anyway, boon and I always talk about her. Like she’s so nice, has such nice hair, with nice complexion, nice legs.. Simply sugar and spice and everything nice. She’s really the nicest girl I’ve ever known! She never fails to try her best to give a listening ear and never turns down any request for help. I never ever see her declaring her mood swing at the expense of others, which I so unknowingly do so all the time. And everybody loves her. Except some, and in particularly one, who often makes use of her kind-hearted nature and naivety to suit his own needs. Oops did I just reveal the gender? As the saying goes - ren shan bei ren qi. Which means kind people are often bullied. Just to let you know that if you’re bullying lilian again, you don’t know what shiping will do to you. *roars*
And lilian, in case you’re reading this and getting air-headed already, I was just kidding. :D
xx ramblings at 04:13 a.m. xx
Utter madness! I received a call from san duo an hour ago and could vaguely hear siong qun, seow hong and meilin's voices at the background. Little did i know they were already at my house's car park, happily waiting in siong qun's car. I got a shock of my life! We toured around Punggol and ventured into the eerie, spine-chilling area at Punggol's far end. Too bad we didn't go ahead with the scary narrow path with no lights towards punggol marina club. That'll be so fun. But ha, i thought the whole idea was pretty exciting. Though san duo didnt have to remind us that it was gonna be twelve. And he drove us crazy with his chill pill and yo bro. -_-"
Now that was a good way to end this lousy day. Note, the weather was sweltering hot. Firstly, jillian and i embarked on an arduous journey to dairy farm adventure centre. Secondly, we took four buses for that. (and the air-cons weren't working) Thirdly, we waited for say 25 min before 852 came to take us home. Next, we got so siannn of all the waiting and travelling and the hangover from the stayover that we almost exploded in the bus. (i never felt so sian before) Then, we got down abruptly just before jill's house coz we decided we didnt want to go home. Damn, it's so dumb to go town. Hence, we walked from castle green all the way to SSDC to visit meilin. For fun. Ended up collecting jill's refund and booking my test date. On the way home, i rushed to board 86 realizing jill's cert was still in my bag. Darn! Tapped my ez link card to realise i've exhausted all possible funds inside after a day of travelling. And the crowd behind me refused to budge and i struggled so hard to alight. Crossed the bridge to top up my card while calling jill to grumble. Eeee!
What else could possibly be wrong???
Just a very special random day when little things fall out of place.
Go babynames. I wanted to name my children these but some of the meanings are making me think twice.
Hey! Jillian = Youthful! =) and Alan = Handsome. OKAY i don't believe in this website anymore. Hahaha.
xx ramblings at 12:31 a.m. xx
Blog of the day - Denise Keller! So so so pretty with such style and attitude. So fun to discover that famous people like her, the cute Shan, howard, jamie yeo and all have blogs too.
Impromptu stayover at Jillian's with meilin and huimin later. Ciao.
xx ramblings at 06:53 p.m. xx
audio: "Yi Qian Nian Yi Hou" by Lin Jun Jie
Fishermen’s Village on Friday night was undoubtedly wonderful. Chel, boon, tziyang and I had our share of the stars, the booze, the satay and the sea that exuded inebriating charm at night. And tziyang learnt much about our st nicks days which we spent doing crazy things – which we couldn’t help but guffaw out loud when the memories came flowing back into our minds. It’s always at this kind of laid-back, soothing backdrop that allows one to let down his guard and speak what the heart wants to. So there was I after supper, sitting beside boon, leaving the couple to their own, both baring our hearts out while gazing longingly into the velvet yonder.
Boon stayed over and we watched two episodes of Sex and The City before succumbing to the lullaby of the lovely night. We woke up at noon and satisfied our craving for prata over at jalan kayu before carrying on with our plans. Shopping at bugis, abandoning our bags over at char’s, meeting chel in town and partying at indochine for the night.
The party was great, with such great company and great music. Quite nice to see so many familiar faces again. But there were damn a lot of guys. Quite scary. The performances were kinda cool, especially the beat boxing. Stood right in front and I had much fun criticizing, laughing, talking rubbish and being impressed especially with the whole lot of us – char ber alan boon chel me tziyang shuting lydia. Can’t remember if there were more. Chel and I were particularly thrilled and tickled by our past experiences trying to beat box during lessons. Which, we failed terribly of course.
I suddenly recalled rapping DAMN loudly with tziyang when Eminem’s Lose Yourself was blasting. HAHAHAHA! I’m amused, tickled, horrified and embarrassed. Okay, make that EXTREMELY TICKLED.
All except this person that disturbed me tremendously. I know it happens all the time in clubs, but I just cannot stand the thought of a friend whom I hold enough respect for to behave himself, to explicitly hold and touch another friend in such ways I totally abhor. And I mean.. they just met. And he had the cheek to give me such a blatant answer. Sorry but I’m just plain conservative.
Spent the night till dawn at char’s swimming pool area with boon, char, alan and ber. I’m quite relieved the plans went through smoothly and that they were fulfilled! Somehow, the sian-ness sets in when so many things are planned ahead. No room for spontaneity and excitement. I just want to say that wheee, I’m done with this week – a fun-filled and eventful one, nonetheless tiring.
I realize i’m simply the kind who doesn’t like to rush into things. Coz I’m easily doubtful and tend to think that a lot of things are make-believe. I like to take things slowly. Too slowly for my own good. Hmmm, for others as well. I need to start learning that in every aspect of life, there is and should always have a room for exploration. Where’s the element of surprise and thrill when you already know everything you need to know? And that you can let your heart rule over your mind too, if not vice versa. Maybe feelings is THAT powerful after all.
xx ramblings at 03:03 a.m. xx
audio: "Another Perfect Day" by American Hi Fi
I feel like every movement of mine is a test of my failing endurance and strength. Gosh, i'm so lethargic! Played three straight hours of badminton with the st nicks people yesterday. I had to fly across the court at lightning speed almost all the time and give strong and hard shots and place them at the right spots and play match with jiao lian *!!!* and.. If that wasn't enough, i had my supposedly last amore lesson - pilates at heartland mall last night. Well, my membership ends this saturday but my schedule does not allow any more lessons. Sigh, i've wasted all my money. Pilates was good though. It's good for abdominal, butt and thigh toning! If only i had gone regularly instead of trying all the different kinds of classes.
Met meilin and san duo for breakfast today and i decided we make the lamest trio EVER. Don't lose your festive joy to cry was cool though. :) As if yesterday wasn't enough, seow hong joined us for badminton later on. He left after that and we headed to ktv with siong qun and emily. Really wanted to go for 69 bbq at night (9th June is 69's birthday!) but my physically temporarily disabled body didn't allow me to. Haven't seen the juniors for sooo long.
And the next three days gonna rob me of my precious sleep too. Wheeee.
It's pretty scary these days. I'm wondering whether it's because i'm over-tiring myself. You see, i take short naps at home these days after an activity. And i dream a lot even in short naps. And when i wake up abruptly, i'll feel a very disturbing, queer sense of loss. Like huh where am i? and is this real? I seem to be mixing up between reality and dreams too easily. And it's as if the world before and after my nap feels totally different altogether. I think i dreamt of too many things. It can be really terrifying. I feel worried for my overworked brain which never seemed to rest. Can someone tell me this is normal?
This entire no-job-no-school-movies-shopping-badminton-mahjong thing is taking a toll on me. It's ALWAYS like this without fail. I've probably said this a zillion times before but oh heck, i wish there's a little more routine and regimentation right now! I'm just mindlessly out almost every single day while waiting for people to call me to make plans for my week ahead. Very purposeless. Meeting up is good, but not creating much memory like we do in school. It's the got-school-want-hols got-hols-want-school kinda thingamajig again. Waha. Guess humans can never be satisfied. I'm just languishing away in my own comfort without realizing. Hopefully, tuition and the camp job will be on my list to get more accomplishment and purpose in my life now. But right nowww, I seriously need to head to bed.
xx ramblings at 23:45 p.m. xx
I keep having problems with my guestbook so here's living with a tagboard! And mr marcus says he don't like to sign guestbooks. =(
Went to watch Mr and Mrs Smith with sinhui just now. The show's pretty good but i thought some of the scenes were too over the top and ridiculous. Still, angelina jolie is soooo hot and pretty! As usual. Her face, her figure, her hair, her fashion style, her lips, everything! Hahaha. I sound like some freaky pervert.
I keep sleeping at 2 or 3 am nowadays. I must be out of my mind.
xx ramblings at 12:09 a.m. xx
HEEEEE! As you can tell, i'm really high. I know this is pretty slow but i finally watched Madagascar with san duo and meilin! The three of us were basically the ones responsible for the loud and crazy laughter that filled the entire cinema. San duo was the worst! Oh mann. By the way, the show was really rib-tickling especially the penguins!! This is really one of my most favourite cartoons after Monster Inc. Well, considering that i'm usually not interested in cartoons at all. We were really high during the show and it carried on all the way even till after the movie. We settled down at coffee bean and started doing stupid penguin actions and hi-5s and spoke lines from the movie. Er, basically still on a high and laughed ourselves silly at so many things. Uncountable. Sanduo and i figured it's really easy to tickle meilin and lure her into her oh-so-famous squealing laughter one after another. Yeah and we succeeded at it again and again! *penguin hi-5* Hmmms, we laughed so much for the entire night i am really tired now.
Played badminton on sunday with meilin san duo and siong qun. Poor siong qun had to drive us to and fro and we spent about half an hour looking for a free parking lot. Played mahjong at meilin's house after that. Won two bucks! Erm, quite dumb, but i don't usually play with money anyways.
xx ramblings at 12:28 a.m. xx
Another summer day
xx ramblings at 02:27 a.m. xx
For this very moment,
I LIKE..
I DON'T LIKE..
xx ramblings at 02:04 a.m. xx
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
Saturday
And so, after nearly months of internal turmoil and relentless struggle, i came to a sudden final decision, and was strangely relieved after that. There's a very fine line betwen being idealistic and realistic, i come to comprehend. And i chose the former, as i always do. You know, i'm so tired of being on both sides, convincing myself to each pro and con and hence, contradicting myself. I keep thinking about opportunity costs. It's such torture, coming from me who has no interest or ambition to strive towards to. I'll be giving up a professional degree, but so what? Ultimately, i have to have interest to do it well. I guess it's really not the degree that matters to ME (to heck with the societal conformities), but the learning journey and experiences that come along the way. I always believed in the process, not the results. So NUS Business, here i come! Any fac mates??
Phew, i hate decision-making. You know I CANNOT make decisions, especially such life-changing ones. But it's just the decision part. I told min and knew for sure that once a decision is confirmed, i will just put my heart into it and not give myself a chance to regret. For there is always something to learn from any paths, just different. If we wish we could turn back time and undo things, we wouldnt have learnt that lesson. True, aint it? I'll try to make the best out of everything i have. :) Though i won't have lilian with me anymore. Sighs. That's a big sigh.
xx ramblings at 12:46 a.m. xx
audio: "Got My Mind Set On You" by George Harrison
Everybody, let's do the Hwa Chong mass dance! *jiggles*
Wheee, sorry, a bit high.
This is just normal me in my normally abnormal way, indulging in my delicious piece of birthday cake, complete with a cup of orange juice full of orange sacs and nice music at 1 am in the morning. I'm just such a night owl. I feel rejuvenated in the middle of the night, and senses awakened. Makes me wonder in the middle of the nights to come, who will be free and fresh enough to accompany me for supper or a jog around the NTU campus? Getting contacts for hostel is already a chore. What more, finding a suitable room mate. Living together long-term is really not easy. It's way best to get a really close friend who knows, understands and accepts everything that you do, or maybe simply someone whom you barely know to get the privacy you need. I wouldnt want to share a room with a quite good friend, then get the friendship strained over the nitty gritties. For habits are hard to change and your little norms and ways may not be the other's part and parcel. Ahhh, headache.
Wheee, it was the first sentosa outing with the hc team girls yesterday. The day was fun-filled with beach volleyball (or make that bounce ball), water rugby, water monkey, lovely weather, pretty scenery and great company! We had a splashing good time till the sun had to go. There at harbourfront centre, we spent the time laughing like CRAZYYY at the food court about the.. er-hem. LIKE CRAZY i tell ya. For a split second, i was so worried my jaw would drop.
Sunday was badminton with meilin, san duo and jun wen. After jun wen left, we were laughing really hard at silly things too. Like the Homemade Barley and jumping together in the middle of toa payoh. -_-" I think the taiwan variety shows really have a great influence on our lives! Bought chwee kueh and roasted duck that were channel u voters' choice but they were nothing much compared to the two cups of bubble tea and mos burgers we gobbled up before that.
I think i must make it a point to put down all the everyday silly jokes here too. It's so hard to remember.
I feel like i'm so busy almost every day i might as well not get a job. It's so difficult and troublesome to find one. Help, anyone?
xx ramblings at 01:15 a.m. xx
I HAD THE BEST BIRTHDAY OF MY LIFE!
Read: my original plan was to meet lilian to shop a little, meet up with alan and char for a while at 4 plus then join boon and chel for dinner at fish n co. Monday will then be celebration with my team at sentosa.
The great day of my life started off by receiving a really heart-warming letter written by sinhui. She wrote it before she went overseas and the mail came right on my birthday! I was almost touched to tears. Then i was rushing to dress up so that i could meet lilian at bugis for shopping in time. Relaxed a little when she sent me an sms telling me she'll be late due to her tutee. Then my sis came knocking on my door while i was changing and told me my friends were here. I was a little bewildered and the moment i opened the door with my wet hair and shabby clothes, THERE THEY WERE - lilian, char and alan, with a delicious chocolate cake topped with melting candles! I was in such a pleasant shock! :D We headed to raffles place to meet bernard and ate at Village, which is an EXACT replica of Marche. The cows outside, menu boards, ambience and stalls were identical! Then silly bernard blurted out that they are gonna surprise me at GLASS.. then went OOPS right in front of me. But i heard it as CLASS instead so i thought more 69 people were coming. But lilian, alan and char thought i heard the correct thing you see. Then on our way to the mrt after our lunch, charlene was like hey shiping will you still be surprised if we appear at glass house? I was like ooh so you guys are coming to glass house as well! HAHAHA! You should have seen all their reactions. They almost fainted!
We headed towards PS and took neoprints twice! Coz of the lousy machine that seemed to be playing around with us. Then alan kept going toilet (to stall for time but i thought he had diarrhoea) and while that, i received an sms from yan choo that went heys happie bdae haa! saw jillian just now. i felt that something was fishy so i was asking her where did she see jill. so she replied that oh wisma.. so where are you guys meeting and let the cat out of the bag with that sms! So i was half suspecting that my teammates will be waiting at fish n co as well. True enough, meilin and jillian were there! and they were so disappointed coz of the failed surprise. Then charb, pris and simin joined us at fish n co as well so you can imagine how warm and touched i felt! to be at the same table as my beloved hwa chong classmates (lilian, char, ber, charb, alan) and teammates (meilin and jillian) and st nicks girls (boon, chel, pris, min) celebrating my birthday!! :):):) they dedicated a song to me and the really weird singer came up to me, kissed my hand *eeks!* and sang straight into my eyes! He approached our dear brave jillian who continued his rendition of Richard Marx's Only Heaven Knows and ended with a high! And i had to stand on the chair while they sang me a birthday song. :( You know how shy and embarrassed i can get! Waha.
The rest went home while pris, boon, chel and i headed to chinablack and we got in free! Coz of this group of guys who were members and cover charges would be waived if they gathered enough people. The night was quite fun!
THANKS SOOOOOOO MUCH PEOPLE! I never had such a heart warming birthday that lasted throughout the day. Know you guys spent so much effort and time planning the surprises (which failed.. go blame bernard and yc haha) and it's really really the thought that counts! I'M SO TOUCHED it's really beyond words! Er, as you can tell i'm getting incoherent. Really don't feel like i deserve this at all. I LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT <3 <3 <3!!! :D
And thanks for the bday smses: lilian meilin *ok dont fight u both smsed at 00:00:00!* yixiang huimin jillian sinhui *all the way from europe!* ivy seowhong virn char alan boon aprilyn adder Macdonalds *HAHA!* vivien kelvin pris nelson sherrina bernard marcus engkeat vincent eline yanchoo yanxi lina chengwei vernon jess !
Whee i can't sleep tonight! :)
xx ramblings at 02:01 a.m. xx
audio: "I Showed Her" by O-Town
I'm so thankful for today. Badminton, pizza and mahjong with my dear meilin, huimin and jillian. (I just realised all our names have double I!) We never fail to burst into peals after peals of laughter still. Yet silence during eating time. Poor huimin was so afraid of laughing with us around coz she just abstracted her three wisdom teeth. Jillian, as usual, cracked us up plenty. We are always laughing ourselves silly at the most asinine matters. So much so that we're unanimously worried that our frequency wouldn’t meet at the same level as our new uni friends.
Caught up with emily, meilin and bernard yesterday at cartel. Simply chilling out feels so great. Actually played badminton with my sister at the open-air court downstairs last night. Quite cool huh!
Of late, I kept struggling with myself internally. I couldn’t help listing out the pros and cons of everything and thus, feeling comforted yet troubled almost simultaneously. On one hand, I would console and convince myself to look at the brighter side of things. On the other, things start tumbling down heavily on me. It’s just so hard accepting things that don’t go the way I want it to be, then start churning out reasons that are so rightfully true. My reasons, logic and emotions seem to be in an intricate mess. Maybe once school starts, things will get better.
Or maybe not. Since it’s not the right school and right faces.
Ahhh. You get my conflict now?
It’s just us humans. We can never stop thinking about the opportunity costs of everything because our desires can never be satiated. Human wants are endless. But of course, if we can get anything we want in this world, there wouldn’t be anything for us to look forward to anymore.
xx ramblings at 01:56 p.m. xx
audio: "Wa Jie" by Jay Chou
Am loving this song! :)
Deadbeat. Worn-out. Exhausted. I can’t decide which suits me better. Thursday and Friday was spent eating, shopping, running, doing weights and kickboxing with boon. Meanwhile, talked to meilin on the phone for 5 hours all the way till 4 am. What an atrocious time. Still, I had much energy left laughing and karaoke-ing with alan and char today. Need I mention more shopping and eating with meilin thereafter? No more town for the next few days, I propose. Too much money spent.
Everything’s in a cluttered and disorganized state now. While jobless is good in the sense that I have time on my hands, you know time management isn’t exactly my forte. There’s just so much to do. Meet up with too many people, decide which freaking course I’m not exactly interested in to accept, go amore, learn guitar, get the mp3 player started, find a hostel, watch movies, play mahjong and badminton! But yet I can’t go on like that without a proper job with a proper income. Gosh, whoever said a regimented lifestyle isn’t good? Me?
It was already at night on the seventh when the plane touched down at Ahmedabad, this city in Gujarat. We first spent a few days at my cousin’s house (he worked at the SIA branch there), then headed off to another state – Rajesthan by car after my sister’s wedding with her Indian boyfriend (now brother-in-law, hmmm..) was held on the 12th. Thank goodness my cousin decided his house in exact Singaporean style. The air con was perfect especially in contrast to the weather outside. We spent meals eating porridge and canned food (which were quite good actually). I felt like I was in a chalet, playing mahjong, cards, chatting, watching tv and slacking away while there. Till we had to leave for another state, where basically traveling by car all around Rajesthan could take a painful five hours every day.
Three main things to note about my stay in India were the food, weather and traffic. The Indian food was great at my sister’s wedding. Till we went around Rajesthan eating at restaurants, I got really sick of the different curries, Indian spices, fragrances, tomatoes, cucumbers and what-not. I hadn’t the inkling that most people there do not eat meat, drink or smoke. I really admire the way my brother-in-law and his brother took the same type of food everyday. I had tummy aches for days. As for the weather, the temperature reached 42 degree celcius. No your eyes were fine. It’s FORTY TWO! Basically you can just take a double dose of the feel of Singapore’s hottest day you’ve ever experienced, and make that a daily one in India. Sometimes, you know, you wish there’s a gush of wind to chase the heat away, even if temporary. But no no you don’t want that in India! The winds there were really literally hot. I felt like I was in a chimney! I never knew anywhere could be this hot. The best we could do was coat ourselves with layers of sunblock cream, wear cap, shades and still feel our skin sizzling under the merciless sun. Well, I would never allow my dad who had been driving for years to be on the road in India. He could be stuck there for hours. Vehicles cut lanes every second, wait for silly cows and goats to cross and honking was so common on the road. In Singapore, you could get a stare or two for honking, when it was simply a friendly and useless gesture on Indian roads! I’m rather amused that at the back of every big carrier truck screams BLOW HORN PLEASE in fanciful colours. Or rather, amazed by my cousin’s chauffeur and the one who brought us around Rajesthan. He drove at high speed at meandering paths, did quick swerves here or there and cut into lanes really skillfully.
My sister's wedding was grand, since her father-in-law was a highly regarded professor in india. some 500 guests came, i heard. My aunt and i were dressed in sari too. Hee. It was really really tight, could you tell from my face??
While at Rajesthan, we went to the City Palace where the kings and queens once lived. The view there was simply beautiful! The palace once stood in the middle of the lake but in years to come, it had dried up. The rooms that the king once occupied were impressively exquisite with its mirrors and glasses in small different shapes, complete with gold plating and palanquins. We also went to the Mehrangarh Fort that has converted into a unique museum that houses an impressive collection of palanquins, elephant howdahs, miniature paintings, cradles and more. The heritage of Jodhpur was magnificent. We had a stay at the Lakend Hotel which was situated at the City Lake, the largest artificial lake in Asia. The man-made beach in front was said to be one of the seven beaches in the world, though I didn’t find it half as fantastic as the view there. I got a chance to ride on the camel! It was really bumpy though. I felt like the camel could jerk me off the cliff anytime. At night, we took seats near the swimming pool outside. The electricity kept tripping. And thankfully it did. Because I really saw heaven in the sky! Never mind me saying how beautiful the night sky was in Singapore umpteen times. When it was completely dark outside the hotel, the velvet sky was completely and marvelously littered with huge and uncountable stars that shined and dazzled so delightfully! We all just went wow..! I've never seen a more charming night, topped with balming breezes from the beach. We also climbed mount abu, which stood at an altitude of 1220m. The air there was so fresh and view so panoramic it took my breath away. Numerous hotels and restaurants sit on the mountain, breathing much life into it. Oh, We met this group of Indian boys who traveled there by themselves on a vocation. They talked to me and asked me for my name, autograph and took photos with me. They told my sister and I we’re sweet-looking! my main purpose in saying this incident over here is that hey people, I’m finally appreciated okay…though in India. Hahaha. Fine fine, they were just excited over foreigners. So many people throughout our journey first guessed that we're from Japan or Korea. Then they either thought Singapore is in China or even some, India. We visited the Jain temples at Dilwara and the marble carvings were remarkably intricate and exquisite. Too elaborate though. They took a good 14 years to build it.
I get such contradicting feelings in India. My cousin’s house was in this new condominium, while just beside it was this vast piece of deserted land. I felt queer enjoying my air con, munching some snacks while peering over to see people and even cows looking through the rubbish thrown by us for signs of something edible. Outside presentable looking houses on the streets were typical slums. Why, I only see them on books and tv before. They’re really simply layers of rice sacks and unwanted cloth coated with layers of dirt and dust, hovering over four unstable stilts. It was so terrible. My cousin brought us to le meridien hotel before we headed to Rajesthan and it was fully furnished and completely posh just like any other Singapore ones. We even had a good time at the gym and I had my first full body massage in coconut oil. (I was so tickled it was embarrassing) yet outside the clean and presentable hotel were litter-strewn paths and dirty-looking kids begging for money. We gave a few good rupees throughout our trip, but careful that we only gave them while we’re leaving for other places. They would really keep coming again. Sighs. I was just wishfully thinking how wonderful it is if they would change their diet and start eating meat. The cows on the streets could feed many! And people, cherish your tap water. My cousin’s basins were coated with a white layer of mineral sediment left by the tap water. Sometimes you gotta knock the shower head coz sand got stuck at the pores. Their water’s directly pumped up from the ground, you see. We even gotta bring along our own stock of mineral water at restaurants. Gosh! Cherish the green trees and clean air in Singapore too! Dust were flying on the roads in India and you won’t miss carcasses of dogs and goats on the floor.
Ha, I’m not complaining, just describing. The trip was definitely a good exposure and I was really glad I went. Thankfully I’m not really spoilt. And hygiene freaks should never step their foot in India. Perhaps if I ever go again, I’ll bring along unwanted clothes and more pennies for the poor kids.
Photos HERE! Married In India includes photos before we took off to Rajesthan. Shots of the beautiful palaces and panoramic views will be uploaded later. Photos taken on a level results day and with boon and chel is in album Mix and Match. Sorry for self service I’m a little lazy to develop them!
xx ramblings at 03:42 a.m. xx
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
xx random grumbling xx
Javier - New house
Tristan - Bold, melancholy
Justin - Just or true
Jolie - Pretty
Kayleigh cannot be found though
Monday, June 13, 2005
xx xx
Monday, June 13, 2005
xx listen to the rhythmn of my heart xx
a failed attempt to act cool with the mugs
Thursday, June 9, 2005
xx don't lose your festive joy to cry xx
Wednesday, June 8, 2005
xx smith xx
Tuesday, June 7, 2005
xx MOVE IT! xx
Sunday, June 5, 2005
xx michael buble - home xx
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Sunday, June 5, 2005
xx xx
1. Chilling out with friends over a cup of drink
2. Listening to Michael Buble's Home
3. Simplicity
4. Funky necklaces
5. The Far East (boon understands :D)
6. my friends!
1. Guys who are so superficial. Sighs.
2. Stares. Those that make you think you're a freaking freakazoid. (haha got that funny phrase from funny boon)
3. Pineapples on my pizza. Don't be mistaken. I love hawaiian, especially Pizza Hut's Super Hawaiian Supreme. I just pluck the yellow yeekies out.
4. Muscle aches
5. Hypocrites. I can never tell one. See, i'm a tad naive.
6. Anybody. In case you heard about char's freaking funny computer club boyfriend story.
Sunday, June 5, 2005
xx decisions xx
Went back st nicks to play with my team mates! We never did that after two whole years. The attendance was really good, consisting of jess kaixin charmian kangwei adele tavia and yuying. Whee, basically the whole batch of us except dacia and szuyu. It was a great idea! Considering we got to enjoy free courts (our juniors just finished training), relive our old training times and reminisce about our st nicks jokes. It's so nostalgic walking down that flight of stairs - that we used to hate after doing kua bu, to that big big canteen of ours, then have a cup of satisfying iced milo and play bridge, all these while being immersed in the beauty and serenity of the sunset. We played hardcore badminton for three hour plus and got ourselves really tired. We had several good games! Hope our weekly wednesday badminton sessions will work out.
Stayed over at jessica's house! As usual. I've been frequenting her house ever since sec 1 it's like my 2nd home already. It was tanning, chatting, swimming and then pigging out at thomson plaza. We ate Midnight Cookies from Haagan Daaz. It's the flavour of the month! An absolutely sinful delight i must say. Subsequently, yuying came and we were engaged in Sleeping With The Enemy before the night ended with mahjong and cluedo. Stupid kangwei came at like 4 am when we were all dead beat.
Woke up realizing kang and yuying were gone already. Watched the badminton matches and i was devastated at the one between lin dan and taufik. My poor taufik. Badminton looks so easy on tv but just imagine nearly EVERY shot of the professional players is fatal. The speed and strength of their strokes, combined with their lightning footwork speed and excellent recovery. Not to mention the marvellous accuracy and execution of the shots. Watched the last episode of Liu Jin Sui Yue. I totally adore SHANBEN - right from the start!!! I hate feeling how i feel everytime a good show comes to an end. Makes me wonder whether there'll ever be such a good show again. It's like a cycle.
It was my first day at toa payoh guitar club with my sis and bernard. Gosh i thought it was just guitar lessons. I hadnt discover the commitments and obligations that come with it. They are an official club registered with the government and even hold history. There are annual music camps, in-house competitions, outings, performances and whats-not. We even had ice breakers today. But the people there were pretty nice. Learnt how to play and read the notes today. Kinda fun though i never knew we had to maintain a tiring posture, with our back straight, left leg on the footstool and right wrist curled. Met boon after that. Took my passport size photo! We ate at kfc (for the ten millionth time. boon we should stop eating that everytime we meet up) and walked around after that. Settled down at lido macs and people-watched. it's really nice just chilling out there. We talked about everything - from people to religion to friendship to simply life. And yes old friends are the best! :) So many people in town tonight. Ooh char finally passed me my birthday present. It's really as funky and pretty as you guys said. Thanks sweets! :)
Wednesday, June 1, 2005
xx it's gonna take patience and time xx
Sunday, May 29, 2005
xx i'm delirious! xx
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
xx am i really a part of her past xx
Sunday, May 22, 2005
xx i wear my heart on my sleeve xx
