For every single day last week, i had the mind to come online and blog about how happy i am and how happy i'm gonna be for the rest of the week - to meet up with people i feel most comfortable with and occasions i've been looking forward to. But i'm just so shagged every night that i have to blog about the last eventful week only today. And the worst thing about blog procrastination is that you no longer feel the excitement anymore. Arghhhs. Anyhow, i felt really happy to meet up with boon and chel for our favourite haunt KFC (no buddy meals la boon), go back school (= hall) and play tennis with alvin, talk rubbish to yayi clara and hongyi whom i haven't seen for such a long time, running and gyming with the hc badminton girls (actually ran 4km hurrah!!), suppering with jiting siongqun (and like 10 other people i didnt know are coming), threw a surprise for zes with company at brewerkz, lunched with my dearest lilian at old favourite pizza hut (and knowing i can meet up with her say once a year and still feeling close as ever), witnessing my very first good friend to get married (been looking forward to this day for months!!), drinking the legendary chilli tequila at cafe iguana with jiting sanduo meilin, selling clothes with the girls at tanglin mall and suppering with sanduo yayi yiwen after that babe's finally back in rainy singapore! And jess is finally back! That week's kinda funny. i just keep thinking how lucky i am to have this bunch of good genuine friends i can always keep by my side.

And dinner tonight with wanyuan alvin huishan. It's bad to order so much food and gorge them down the zhongjimima way laaa.

may they be blessed with love, bliss and eternity :)

it's a softball team photo haha

busying ourselves with the camera. oh i feel tall! haha.

shan and i with the happy groom! old man you're finally married!

actually the chili tequila wasn't as bad as expected haha

we were so tempted to just lie on the pile of clothes

we need to stop meeting at starbucks so late everytime!

I love my friends! Haha so cheesy! Goodnight!

girls for TH dance photoshoot

the doubles in HC badminton team

the six Slackers in st nicks (how did we come up with that funny name man)

I JUST realize these are like taken with people from different stages of my life. Talk about being random.

I’m conventional, yet I like people and things with an edge. I like to keep everything old, but I love experiencing new stuff. I love fun nights out, yet I enjoy quiet nights in. Variety excites me, but routines make me comfortable.

I’m so contradicting, ain’t I.

Internship has been too slack for words. I’m praying that I can try to end it one week earlier than stipulated. Then I have more time to do some packing, bumming, a visit to st nicks, brushing up meine Deutsch, orientation senior-attaching and what-have-yous. Transformers was really good for all the sleek moves and action. I love the way the robots transform themselves and I adore Bumblebee! Yet I feel that the show was kinda spoilt by the bad dialogue trashy love scenes that appeared on the wrong time, as well as Megatron’s ending that was so abrupt and illogical. Ah well, everybody seems to love it anyways.

Bernard just flew last Sunday. It’s hilarious how a chain reaction of tears can start and flow from one to another. And it’s embarrassing too. Dude I hope you’ve pretty much settled down and do update us!

I feel this place is getting rubbishy.

I suddenly realize that nine days left after internship wouldn’t be enough to pack up my feelings and prepare for a long trip away from home. Half a year sure sounds pretty fleeting, but can seem forever. Sure, I’ll enjoy myself, but it’s hard without some people by your side. I just hope everything goes well at home and everybody will be happy and healthy when I get back.

Sigh, the perpetual worrier in me that gets worse with life’s every nasty surprise.

Okay okay, on a much lighter tone, I can finally cook decent-looking scrambled eggs! Ahh, for those good cooks out there, don’t laugh. I know how to fry an egg since I was young la, but I could never do scrambled eggs with those soft, creamy textures. It just happened one day when I was cooking dinner for myself. And I hope it won’t be a one-off thing like how I accidentally fried a plate of very tasty fried rice but the taste never came back again. By the way, ivan passed me a farewell gift for my exchange today and it’s a notebook full of pasta recipes from the internet! Super sweet! :) I could definitely do much with it, and I hope I can whip up some yummy dishes for my housemates. Sigh, now I wish my internship would end earlier so I could go sister’s house and try baking some muffins or cookies.

I actually excitedly churned out a birthday guest list for my 21st birthday when the chalet idea was still going on, but now I’m quite glad the party didn’t materialize because entertaining fifty people in a place would be so difficult and tiring! I wouldn’t be able to spend quality time with everybody. Well, actually my point is, dearest Charlene finally turns twenty-one this year! Blu Jaz Café was a surprisingly pretty place with delightful décor and chill-out atmosphere. Great place for a birthday party! Hope you like the Mac liquid eyeliner and very pretty eye palette!

The trip to Europe is nearing but I don’t feel anything as yet. Must be the busy days and nights that are taking a toll on me. Every part of my life, I realize I’m always busying myself. Schedule’s packed to the brim and holidays don’t make much of a difference. I wish I have 48 hours a day, 10 days a week so that there’s so much more time to do the things I want to do and catch up with the people I want to meet.

Wednesday was my first mambo night after like two months and it was bernard’s last before he flies off next week. We hurried ourselves to the alcohol before one-for-one ended. In the end, I had a vodka lime, a lychee martini, a tequila shot, a flaming Lamborghini (or Honda as char said) and my fair share of two jugs of Malibu pineapple. Eeks, thinking of all the alcohol in my system, I think I’m swearing off mambo for the next seven months. Teehee, mambo only la. I really think we’re too old for clubbing. Last week at Loof and TCC was so much more. I had my doses of laughter and amusement reminiscing about the good ol’ 69 days with the peeps. It felt like jc times were light years ago. Guess there was a great deal of growing up in university.

And gosh, jillian is back! It was like just yesterday when she came back to sunny Singapore from London. I really miss this funny girl with hundred and one silly antics. We both had such a terrible laughing fit at Sakae I think meilin and min simply sat there and watched us laugh and clutch to our seats for five entire minutes. I laughed so hard I teared and tummy hurt so bad. It was super long since I last had a laughing fit! Haha. Great for abs building. Ahhh, this Miss Ab-Inducer.

This round of vacation made me rack my brains so hard about what I want to work as in the future. It’s painful to roam around life’s cross-junction not knowing which direction to head.

I’ve been thinking these days. A strange revelation that dawned upon me. I discover that the more you want something, the more it eludes you. And when you got something you thought you wanted, you start to tell yourself hey, maybe this isn’t what I’m looking for after all. The most ironic part is when you start to look back, you realize maybe the thing you’ve already lost along the way is the one thing that you’ve wanted all along.

Confusing, isn’t it. I have been fighting logics and reasons in my head too much I forgot how to feel. It’s easy for your mind to tell you what you should need, but it’s hard to feel what your heart wants. For me, that is. And that’s why I envy those who can always go with their hearts with no regrets.

Anyway, I miss a night like this. The balming effect of the soothing night breeze, the softness of the gentle night, and oh the comforting songs that put you effortlessly on an easy, relaxed mode; occasionally bringing you back to a certain memory, or reminding you of a particular time, a specific loved one. I haven’t had my favourite night like this in such a long, long time.

Anyhow, jem was telling me about his eusoff expedition trip to cambodia. And I wouldn’t mind such an experience like this, visiting the poor children in the village, helping out in their education and village work, and interacting with them. It would be so fulfilling to encounter and touch these lives, and make a difference, while experiencing the purest of childhood innocence and simplicity. Away from the hustle bustle of urban life, and society that throws you into a whirlwind of frenzies and materialistic desires. All you have before your eyes are lives waiting to be touched, stories waiting to be told.

I think i will quit around early july. I need time for myself. Brush up my Deutsch, plan the trips and itinerary properly, watch some shows, visit hall once in a while, be a senior attached at the orientation, shop for the miscellaneous and all. Although i get to slack all i want at work actually. And i meet quite a few people for lunch and dinner every week. Thanks for keeping me sane!

Played softball for a while and i'm already aching all over! I need to exercise very very badly! Very gian for badminton/tennis/tabletennis/squash/softball! By the way, my phone bill came. Sms this month reached 1700!! :( The same time last year was 2000. Oh gosh, i need to facebook more. Haha.

Caught Pirates of the Caribbean 3 recently. Isn't as bad as the second one, but still not much of a fancy. I can't wait to catch Shrek 2 this sunday and prepare for Shrek 3 next week! :D

And yes, i'm still stuck. I can't believe it. Why can't i be more driven at times. Marketing or finance. Is it going to be about product launches, creating customer wants and meeting their needs. Or challenges, loads of stress and money. I can't decide. Or perhaps just something totally different when i come out to work. By the way, it's funny how people think marketing is about finding sponsorships.

If you want my respect, you gotta earn it. Being too full of yourself gets you nowhere.

Gosh, i never felt like this about anyone before. I never even say such things before. Let me get the job please.

Preparation for exchange is crazy, by the way. There are so many things to do, like applying for the student permit at the embassy of sweden, applying for loan, going down NUS to get the offer letter and then again to YIH with a guarantor, buying Eurail passes, getting your international student card. At least we booked our tickets to Copenhagen already. 12th August night. I can't believe i'm flying! I can't believe i'm going Europe! My seemingly impossible dream! OMG.

Tuesday night was spent with boon, chel and pris at My Secret Garden. Love al fresco dining! The candlelit place with its garden-like background reminds me of this cafe in Italy that was featured in some Korean drama serial. Thanks for the gift card girls!

Dined at Ichiban Boshi with sin, lilian, char and bernard on wednesday. I really really miss those people! It felt really good that night, busking in the company of old classmates and old memories refreshed. Lilian really cracks me up big time. Rather sad that she and sinhui had to leave early, and three of us were left to walk around to capture the beautiful night scenery. Till char led me to this space under the bridge where i spotted lilian and sinhui!

They were trying to light up PING with candles! But the wind kept blowing the flames out. Poor girls. I was reeeaaallllyyy surprised and touched!!

Then we gave up and tried to light up a P instead.

But the wind was unforgiving.

And we still tried again.

Tada! The best we could capture.

Thanks people! I was seriously touched. We got reminded of our silly 69 days, singing silly songs and taking silly photos at our favourite 69 class bench. So we decided to have a re-enactment.

Us acting cool in J2. We were trying to imitate the photo we took in J1, which i don't have it in digital form.

We realized it's the five of us again! Hurrah. But we couldn't stop giggling. And i realize my stupid hand wasn't supposed to be up. Haha. Damnit.

The only difference was that time has passed us by.

Thank you guys for the happy times that never fail to put a smile on my face! :)

Whee. Finally properly met up with zes on friday. This is really all i need to get through the week. Sitting down with good company, chatting, laughing and feeling the pace of life crawling by. Tampines ikea and impromptu Blades of Glory on saturday were really really fun! Don't laugh at me but the last movie i watched was erm, Night at the Museum? That's how busy i was during the semester! Okay, fine, include sleeping time. Anyways, I thought Blades is gonna be a really stupid show but it turned out to be hilarious! And i just can't believe this is the junkie, sex-addict Will Ferrell (as portrayed in the show) who acted as Elf. Arghs, weird.

Sunday night was bbq with family for my birthday. I don't know what i ever did to deserve such great sisters! From planning to preparing of food to everything. Then sanduo, yiwen and yayi surprised me at orchard swensens! Haha, thanks guys! Really didnt expect it at all. Dinner yesterday was spent with goodies zes, meilin, huimin and jess. Sorry i'm so tired! :( Thank you all for celebrating and all those who chipped in for the camera! Now i have a camera for Europe! Yay!! And sanduo for his crazy freaky sweet orchard surprise!

Big thanks to ade amelia kwan aik kevin meilin (i don't love you) jessica fuhong james huimin aloysius zes diana huishan mei kai tavia aprilyn yiwen jacinth clara linda julie boo alvin fiona mark hongyi for the camera! Gosh. Damn excited to go read the user guide and the 40 photography techniques which was given as a complementary.

As usual, every year, to sinhui boonie mark alvin fiona hongyi huimin zes james tavia yaozhi shengfeng lilian barry pris huishan marcus yiwen sanduo yayi siongqun jess linda seowhong jason meilin wanyuan kevin jacinth jiale kwanaik yongteng bernard nelson alan yanxi fuhong aprilyn char virn for the birthday smses! :D

Birthday smses evolved from happy-sweet-sixteens to legal-eighteens to the big-twos to welcome-to-adulthood. Ouch, it really hurts to hear that. I welcomed my twenty-first thinking it's no big deal and even rather sad that i'm getting old! Haha. But jessica is right. Don't think of it as you're growing old, but as 21 beautiful years of your life spent with all the beautiful people around you.