let's fly to the moon

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Monday, February 7, 2005 / 03:50 p.m.

I asked kellyn to go on 11th feb and she told me her friends are going too. I asked her who and guess what, she said lydia! MY GOSH the world is too small to be true!! No wonder i find kellyn's face so familiar on day one. Now i know, i saw her in lydia's online album. Ahhhh! We were so shocked to find one more crazy discovery during lunch. She thinks i'm stalking her from the start. -_-" Hope there's no more discoveries. Too freakky.

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Monday, February 7, 2005 / 12:18 p.m.

I'm really excited! Planning to quit my job after contract ends, give tuition, learn dancing and guitar! It's time to start living a rewarding and fruitful life.

You might think i dont look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak, it's true
Coz i'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Coz my heart keeps falling faster

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Thursday, February 3, 2005 / 07:21 p.m.

But just somehow, there's an inexplicably overwhelming sense of loss within me these days. It's just something i can't explain or figure out, so i can't do anything about it. Seems as if i'm throwing my whole life behind and moving ahead to a world of uncertainties and aimlessness. There's nothing unfamiliar, really, yet it's oddly new. Scary, ain't it? But some things, once they're lost, they're gone for good. You can only move on. Dont like the way my life is put in order in such an unorderly manner. Erm, if anybody ever understand. I don't know what i want anymore. I face such conflicting thoughts everyday. Even things like trying hard to accept someone when i can't really stand her. Then i feel bad inside for not being nice. Sounds childish. Ahhh, now kellyn thinks i like someone because i sound like it. Ha, totally not so. Maybe i need to go online and talk to people again. Maybe it's growing up. Maybe it's the all work and no school thing. Or having to decide my future soon. Hrmph. I realise i keep grumbling about having to start a new kind of life and leave my old routine behind. Then some time later, i'll grew used and sentimental about my current life and refuse to move forward. When i get used to things, i grow really attached to them. Not good. Used to miss st nicks so much when i first came hwachong. Now hwachong when i'm working. I wonder if i'll miss work. Ha, high possibility.

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Thursday, February 3, 2005 / 11:51 a.m.

Had a great dinner with the badminton girls last night at coffee club at paragon. The waitress still remembered me! The people there kept walking to our table and laughed with us. Or, at us. Anyways, it's been really long since we met up! The last time was erm, new year countdown? I was really entertained by jillian's stories in the school she taught in. Ooh, and i had a great conversation with boon last last night.

Work's been pretty okay too. Thank God there's kellyn and aprilyn to go bonkers with me. They're really a bunch of fun people. But they always laugh at me. Aiyah, i'm fated to be laughed at. Haha. Oh yes, i'm glad i have to work on valentine's day. Hahaha.

Oh my gosh. Just found out that besides aprilyn and kellyn who knows jacinth, my other colleague, vanessa, knows meilin and kellyn knows yixiu! Vanessa just told me today when i was with meilin yesterday. And i was about to send yixiu a letter when kellyn told me. WAH the world is too small liao. Ha.

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Friday, January 28, 2005 / 12:19 p.m.

It was off day yesterday. Ate at cafe cartel with char and guan how at tampines mall and we acted like we've never been there before. Haha. Char and i wanted to catch Aviator but after half an hour, it got SO DAMN boring we walked out of the theatre! My gosh that's my first time doing that. We sneaked in to another theatre, alas, they were showing Meet The Fockers which i've watched before. Not char though. She had quite a bit of laughter before we tried to rush for the last train. Erm, in vain. Ha, should have finished the movie then. It's been a really long time since i've met up with any hwa chong people. Hope can meet up with more of them soon. Where's my lilian, meilin, sinhui, jillian and huimin! Bahh. It's been lifeless these days. Apart from that, i've been waking up to lovely mornings and scorching afternoons, getting heavier-than-ever eyebags and meeting nice and nasty customers. I long to get back my monitor and catch up with people in msn again. Rather than minimizing my window to the fullest here at work for fear of being caught by the camera. Ha. Sian.

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Monday, January 24, 2005 / 03:32 p.m.

I just had a good run last night! Erps the last time i ran was .. months ago? It's my first time running in my neighbourhood alone. The sky was really beautiful with its velvet coat and sparkling stars, and the breeze so soothing. I felt like i could run forever! I've been telling myself these days that i didnt have time to do my stuff, like meeting up with friends, running and stuff. And then i realise actually we have a lot of time in our hands. It's just that we're unwilling to fork out the time. I read from the purpose driven life book and these sentences struck me. The best use of life is love. The best expression of love is time. The best time to love is now. Think i need to make good use of my time from now on. Missing all the people right now. Thank God i have some fun and crappy colleagues with me. ;)

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Sunday, January 23, 2005 / 03:11 p.m.

I'm at work now! Ay my own risk haha. Realised i've been out shopping a lot. Shopped with ivy three times in a week and she bought like three bags, a skirt, shoes and i bought many more too. Hehs. Went for church musical after staying over at ivy's house and it was quite a blast! I mean, though i had to act as a cow. *moo* Met boon for dinner last night at woodlands (thanks for going all the way there gal!) and it was great meeting up with her! It started really funny as she stopped at admiralty station instead and called me and kept insisting she's at woodlands and she saw Macdonalds right in front of her. Hahaha. Then we were chatting really intensely at kfc when she suddenly turned to her side and to our horror and amazement, a little boy was sitting there, beside her, looking really innocent. We almost laughed our heads off! I have no idea when did the boy creeped in but the scene was really like those comedy cum drama on tv. Hahaha. Boon let me listen to taufik's cd and i decided i shall buy it! Sounds really good and it's the same ol' soulful taufik style that i like. Hehe. I better sign off now in case i get sacked heh. Till then, my colleagues are kinda funny!

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Saturday, January 22, 2005 / 12:22 a.m.

I'M ONLINE I'M ONLINE!!!!!!!!!!! Feels like i've been MIA for damn long. I mean, yes i am. For those who lost touch with me, i've been working at tampines mall starhub customer service (not the retail one) since monday. Decided the world is too small. I'm currently working with this st nicks girl (we got the job together from the same job agency) and these two vj girls who are very good friends with jacinth. Cool! My colleague are all pretty nice. Come visit me, someone! Though it's really far for most people. I miss so many people! Seems like i've lost touch with them already. Sinhui, meilin, lilian, jess, jill, huimin, chengs, char, so many!! Sigh. I just dreamt of a lot of people i wanna meet up in just one dream a few days ago. Simply spells out how much i miss them.. :( Well, at least boon chel and i are meeting up quite regularly! We recently all bought shoes from Ba Pin (bet nobody know where's that) and looked quite a sight haha. Ooh, i dreamt that taufik, sin and i were classmates HAHA. Quite cool. Okay, shall try to secretly blog again at my work place. Though there's two cameras that can overlook what we're doing at the counter. -_-" Till then, cya people!

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~ school ~
Wednesday, January 5, 2005 / 02:27 a.m.

My computer officially broke down after a few weeks of misbehaviour. So here i am in front of my sister's laptop, still.. yes, still jobless. Sigh. But thanks to lina for helping me loads! Hopefully i can finally rid myself of my jobless status.

Oh, on a happier tone, i'm going to crash orientation tomorrow with lilian! It's really been a loooong time since i've touched that blue pinafore and i'm really excited to don that pretty thing again. Hopefully we can help in class bonding for our grand junior class (boy, that sounds really old). I just pray nobody finds me an unfriendly and unlikeable ah lian like my class first did. :( Really miss school and all that fun we tried to squeeze out of our mundane routine. Like boon said, it's not the big, important events like prom that are so fondly etched upon our minds, but the nuances of routine that we could have placed no significance at that point of time. Like eating and joking during lectures. Lilian's funny antics and her chitter-chatter non-stop skills and her delicious food her mum cooked for her everyday. I finally organised my hwachong photos in my lovely precious moments photo album and i realise sixnine actually took loads of photos! Heh. And too little with the team girls. Well, little in my opinion la. But it's okayy man, i'm sure we'll take a lot more in the future. :)

Okay, i realise i have to wake up early tm to prepare for school. Haha, if only literally. Nights!

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~ so you sailed away ~
Sunday, January 2, 2005 / 12:24 a.m.

Of course. Besides expressing our condolences to the tsunami victims, we ought to feel so grateful and lucky to be right here. So so lucky.

And to tell you the truth, i'm quite sick of the fame, wealth and appearance people pursue blindly and endlessly in life. Don't feel like I’m not talking about you. I’m sure in the secret depths of our hearts, all of us have been obsessed with these materialistic desires – desires that are nothing but ephemeral. In the end, nothing is really purposeful. But we still go on like this. Can’t help it, can we?

Was at the church farewell for 8586 before ivy, meilin and I headed down to Clarke quay to meet jill and min. Too bad cheng was in china! There wasn’t really any count down event anyway, just people on crazy highs going around spraying at strangers. Our dear abs inducer, jillian toh, was busy the whole night opening her umbrella to prevent people from spraying at us. Hahaha. Typical jillian and her typical antics. We sent huili to the mrt station before heading to my house. All night, we were looking at my photos, playing silent heart attack, the name game, eating at kopitiam and laughing and talking. No sleep! Haven’t gathered like this for a long long time already. I feel so blessed with such people in my life you know. :) Meilin, jill and min left around 7 while ivy and I went to sleep, planning to run when we wake up but by the time we were aroused from our beauty sleep, it was already 3 pm and fellowship’s at 4pm! That silly girl refused to wake up and kept ignoring my pleads and calls. Haha.

I miss school already!

The more you want something, the more it eludes you. I shan't care anymore.

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~ tragedy ~
Friday, December 31, 2004 / 03:00 p.m.

I'm quite comforted that the new year countdown parties will be scaled back to a sombre affair across the globe. I can't see how we can celebrate the arrival of 2005 with such excitement and anticipation. Thankfully some parties will be converted to charity events and a minute of silence will be observed to mourn the victims of the tsunami tragedy instead of the usual countdown in some places. Sigh. Tsunami toll hits 125 000 and 5 million people lack clean water, shelter, food, sanitation and medicine. It's such a horrible, tragic catastrophe with such shocking consequences i can't quite believe. My heart goes out to those victims. May God give them strength and hope.

Here's how you can do your part. For M1 subscribers, sms DONATE to 8880. For Singtel users, call 1900 112 1226 for a donation of $10. From 1 Jan 2005, Starhub users can sms DONATE to 7111.

And i'm not in the appropriate mood to give a last concluding entry of the year. Still, bye bye 2004.

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Wednesday, December 29, 2004 / 10:48 p.m.

My heart kept sinking as i watched the news and read the newspaper regarding the tidal wave disaster. Death toll is alarming, and actual death toll is even higher. It's really excruciating seeing dead bodies sprawled all over the beach and the streets. And bodies piled one after another to be buried beneath the surface of this earth, as if life was so worthless. Relatives had to bear the pain, the fear and dangling hope as they walked through the debris in search of their loved ones' bodies. Bodies were bloated and impossible to recognise. Deaths were rising and expected to double if epidemic actually breaks out. Somehow all the grumbles and complaints and whines i've heard around me sound so slight and worthless. I can't describe how is it like sitting here safely, worrying about things like my spoilt phone and jobless status, while fellow human beings are there, cold and dead, crying and searching, in such angst, anxiety and grief.

May they find peace in heaven.

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~ lousy ~
Tuesday, December 28, 2004 / 12:26 p.m.

I received a terrible news from my good friend yesterday. And i was so affected. Whenever i picture myself in her shoes, and then realising how emotionally vulnerable i could have been, my heart wrenches in pain. When she told me on the phone, in grief, i was happily on my way out with my sisters. It was a really stark contrast, and it kind of hit me really hard. How on earth do i deserve happiness when my friend is in sorrow. But i know this friend of mine is a strong strong girl. Girl, though i doubt you'll read this anytime, stay strong, brace up, i'm sure you'll be there till he gets well. And i'll pray for him. Anything, i'm just a call away.

Sigh. Anybody who knows me should know i place very high sentimental value on some things. And i just happened to destroy one of my most priced possession and that worth and value is something money cannot replace. Damn it.

Regret is one of the most terrible yet redundant feeling in this world. There are so many times you wish you could turn back time, to dissolve moments of folly, to undo things you had done, to change times of neglect and wrongs. But these rough times and tribulations are the very things that what make you who you are today: a stronger, better, mature person who knows he/she should not make the same mistakes again. We are products of our past, but we don't have to be prisoners of it.

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~ run away with my love ~
Sunday, December 26, 2004 / 08:00 p.m.

listening to: "Wherever You Will Go" by The Calling
feeling: sleepy

Photos for SNBT dinner and Relentless Endeavour Camp are here! All thanks to mian and justin. =)

Met up with boon at jubilee pao pao cha for lunch yesterday. We've never went there together since st nicks times! Thanks for the sweet present babe! I just hung it at my wardrobe. ;)

Went zherui's house for potluck christmas party. The food was pretty good! Clumsy char attempted to fry the minced beef with onion for the first time in her life and the wooden handle just slipped off! Hahaha it was a hilarious sight. Oh we played zhong ji mi ma again and yup, AGAIN i chose the lucky numbers. I thought tempura prawns and fish nuggets and pizza at ivy's house were bad enough since i was really filled to the brim. Boy was i wrong! I had to eat spaghetti mixed with mayonnaise sauce and pineapple jelly for a refreshing change. :( I decided i shall not play zhong ji mi ma anymore. Anyways thanks everybody for the cards! And marcus nelson and guanhow for the LOVELY present. It was nicely wrapped in takashimaya wrapper and i was really excited when nelson told me i'll be in tears. Yup, he was right. I opened the nice-looking box to see a pink bag with an imprinted KUKU CAT staring back at me! The bag had even ears sticking out la!! *faints* No wonder they said i'll never guess it. But yeah, i TRY my best to carry it one day yah? Thanks guys!

Caught the last bus (i think) to jessica's house and played mahjong with virn and yuying. We kept having laughing fits and were laughing so hard at yuying, who's mad and high as usual! Hahaha. Think virn laughed the hardest. It felt really great to meet up with people you haven't seen for months, then realise everything was exactly where we've left them, intact and familiar. Felt so thankful and warm. :)

Woke up to realise virn was gone already. Jess and i went prata house and yayy, ate egg onion, onion and cheese prata! We went to the dog shops opposite and myyy those puppies were cuuuute! I love the cocker spaniel puppies!! With their soft brown fur and cute little faces! And the adorable grey shih tzu! And the labrador and the beagles! Ooh, and the black snozzler puppy who played with its food! Wheee. Too cute liao.

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~ in the eyes of a passerby ~
Saturday, December 25, 2004 / 02:08 a.m.

listening to: "Someday" by Sugar Ray
feeling: jolly

Just came back from ivy's house! Had a lot of fun with the church people and yep, the potluck was a success! We had honey glazed chicken, roasted chicken with glutinous rice, tempura prawns, fish and chicken nuggets, pizza, black pepper chicken, fried rice, cocktail and jelly that i made! Thank goodness the response was good. Means i can do the same for 69 party tm! ;) We played zhong ji mi ma and poor poor me did the most forfeit and hence ate the most stuff. We were trying to clear the food, hence the game you see.. Saw some people carolling upstairs and we cheered really loudly for them. I wonder why people don't do carolling at my residential area. I would love that. We counted down but popping the champagne was a lame attempt haha. Played Mafia too. Haha pretty fun.

Had SNBT dinner (white batch people) at breeks on tuesday. Didn't get to do much catch up but at least we took a lot of photos (thanks to kangwei) and we're meeting up pretty soon again! Hope can post the photos up here soon.

Ooh went christmas shopping with boon yesterday but it's as good as getting nothing done. Haha. Will be seeing boon, 69 people, then jess virn and yy tm! Yay! Happy happy! :D

Thanks everybody for the christmas smses. MERRY CHRISTMAS and enjoy yourselves in this season to be jolly!

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~ jingle bells ~
Friday, December 24, 2004 / 12:02 p.m.

I think i put this up like years ago but i can't help it. My favourite monsters! Merry Christmas Eve everybody! ;)

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~ bittersweet ~
Tuesday, December 21, 2004 / 12:16 a.m.

listening to: "Real To Me" by Brian Mcfadden
feeling: bittersweet

You came like a diamond shining in the dark. All alone, overwhelmingly, rendering me so mesmerized. But as i clutched at the sand in my hands even tighter, the more easily the sand slipped through my fingers. I had to leave, and so did you. It's like watching the most beautiful thing on earth - the sunset, with its most beautiful colours that mingle at their very best, then slowly see the cold darkness sweep it over. This mild tinge of sweet sorrow, dreams of valleys so high, the dark seas swimming behind your beautiful eyes, i can't fathom them all.

But take me back anytime. I'll fall in love with you again.

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~ do you even know you met me? ~
Tuesday, December 21, 2004 / 12:09 a.m.

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

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~ relentless endeavour ~
Saturday, December 18, 2004 / 09:50 a.m.

I'm back from church camp! Actually i was back yesterady but was too tired to add an entry. Anyways, the camp was pretty fun, though at times i felt helpless coz i'm one of the oldest around yet i can't do much to help the committee members who were always running around and putting in so much effort. And feeling like i'm living in the shadows of others at times. That's just the over-sensitive, irritating me la. The games were really fun, in retrospect, always filled with laughter and cheers and urm, water, flour and soap. I was initially petrified by the new and unfamiliar faces but as the days went by, i realised everybody's nice and friendly there. They established such strong bonds among themselves too. There's this guan huai board where everybody could drop sweet and caring notes to one another. Filled with such warmth and love. Singing all the christian songs and experiencing all the nitty gritties of camp life made me realise i really miss st nicks! Felt so warm and joyful just to put my shoulders around my fellow schoolmates and sway along to the music during mass, however boring they were. So singing all the songs just revived the st nicks feeling again. And all the cheering, playing games, eating together reminded me of the sports and badminton camps i've been to. I miss SNBT!

And the camp also created a lot of opportunities for some people who could have otherwise not shine at all. I realise in church, everybody has a part to play and chances to excel and maximise their fullest potential. And wow, i really thank God for that. I felt so happy for those whose lives could have been quite different from theirs now.

And once again, i'm so impressed by my saint raffles ivyyyy! She's so talented in piano, guitar and even composing! The theme song she composed for the camp was really good and catchy. Not to mention she's so well-liked by everybody coz she's so caring, cheerful and patient she really puts me to shame. Haha. That idiotic girl tricked me into getting onto the soapy canvas sheet and wrapped me around with it! And everybody got their turn la. The reason for mentioning her over here is because she made me realise how different things could have become if you treat things with a different attitude. Especially by replacing dislike with patience and care. I shan't elaborate here. Puts me to shame again. :(

And ha, i feel like a better person after the camp. Found the jiang zuo really interesting and meaningful. Humans are often too blinded by their materialistic desires, especially in society like this where mass media advocates many kinds of stereotypes, that these desires overshadow other concerns, and that priorities get jumbled up. And unnecessary gossips can actually lead to so many wrong impressions about people. Oh and during ling xiu, we were supposed to write down five things that we value the most. When ci hui asked whether we had spent the most time on the thing we valued the most, the question really struck my heart. I hadn't. Oh gosh, i hadn't! Yet i had always tell myself my family is the dearest to me. But it's okay, never too late to change. You should ask yourself the same question too. :)

"Relentless endeavour" composed and written by Ivy
Here i am Lord, Take my hand Lord
Lead me guide me Lord in this world that's lost
Walk by faith Lord, not by sight Lord
Oh refine me Lord i want to be like You
When i stray away He never cea-ses to care
In the darkness he is al-ways there
Dear brothers and sisters
I want to care like He does
By His grace, and by His mercy i'm saved
Oh thank you Jesus
Let us all seek to put Him first
Let us all learn to love Him more
Coz He first loved us
He knew us, even before the world began
Let us live our fullest for Him
Let us not waste His gift for us
He deserves our all
Re-lent-less En-dea-vour
Relentless endeavour
I want to shine for you Lord!

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Tuesday, December 14, 2004 / 12:32 a.m.

Went ktv with char, lil, alan and zr today. Alan's dabs with rock and r&b were simply.. annoying! Haha. And i watched Shutter with char and lilian after that. I know, i know. How slow. I think everybody's been telling me how scary it is that i had too high expectations of the show. Not thattttt scary la, though some scenes were disgusting. I did scream! Char shouted when the entire cinema was silent hahaha. And as usual, lilian was practically covering her eyes with her jacket all the time (yes, even at non-scary parts) she didnt really know what's going on! Hahaha. So cute. I think she didnt see any ghost throughout the whole show. And the plot was alright la. Somehow, horror movies nowadays must end with twists it has become some sort of a conformity. Hmmm, i still find Tale of Two Sisters more haunting!

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~ uploading is a chore ~
Sunday, December 12, 2004 / 05:21 p.m.

listening to: "True" by Ryan Cabrera
feeling: exhausted

Luuurrrve this song.

The prom photos are finally up! Oh my, after trying so hard to upload into imagestation umpteen times, i decided to change to shutterfly. Uploading seventy plus photos is an almost impossible task for my slow com. But still so sad i never took with chinsiong edwin pp jinyong and ah men. HERrrrRE you go. I look gross! Urgghh!

By the way, i was showing my sis my photo with bernard who won Mr Gatsby. She was like, huh this is a guy?! HAHAHA! I nearly fell off my chair! :D

And RACHEL CHOW i miss you already!! Boon refused to tell me what's going on. Er hem. Anyways hope you can see my prom pics this time. Christmas this year will be different without you. :( (could have been our 3rd consecutive year!) Anyways take care over there and enjoy yourself!

I realise i still havent met up with people like jess, kai, miche, han and the slackers and moreee. Haiyah!! :( So busy yet so sian.

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~ it doesn't make sense ~
Saturday, December 11, 2004 / 04:01 a.m.

And so, prom ended. But it was just not the proper way to say goodbye. I so regret not taking with all the class guys because everything was in such a frenzy that night! I was going around taking photos i didn't even eat much. :( But anyways, thanks charb and bernard for the camera. And to yanxi, seowhong, alan and tze phern for the lovely roses! So the 69 and badminton girls could leave prom prettily with roses in our hands. And i regret not taking with some people i don't personally know too. Not that i have any eye candies or crushes but it'll be so nice to be able to remember some of them. Should have cast my pride aside and be brave for once! Hee. Photos should be up tomorrow. I looked quite gross but at least the rest looked good!

And here's a sneak preview.

After prom, some of the guys, lilian, char and i went coccolatte. Well, the interior design wasnt as nice as i heard la. It was really crowded that night but i had quite a bit of fun with lilian and charlene. And jillian! Went back to the hotel and slacked, played cards, ate cup noodles and slept at 7. Only to wake up in the midst of noise and excitement as the class people were playing murderer. Haha. Suddenly reminded me of the chalet times. We went char's house to play mahjong and watch vcds but ended up sleeping most of the time instead.

And i left her house with such a heavy heart. It was then when realisation dawned heavily upon me that prom night was the last night i'll ever see some people for a long time to come. Why, i can't imagine yanxi and zsing are in army right now! And wen hooi will be in msia till i see her again sometime in march next year. Feels like i haven't had enough of hwa chong yet. I would really love, one day, to wake up at the most outrageous time, get ready for school, be greeted by early birds zsing and shan, then the food that lilian brings, while listening to music with sinhui at the back of the lecture theatre, or talking rubbish with alan, tat, zherui, char, many others (can't forget our childhood stories!), gossiping with lilian and chionging to chinese high for my favourite cai fan stall (and uncles) and my honeydew milk. And occasionally, meet a few monkey juniors and i assure you i'll get bullied again and again. Oh and i love sixnine class bench. I personally think it has the best location, with much wind and scenery to enjoy. Sunrise is great there! And the rows of trees behind always proved themselves to be a beautiful and dream-like background for photographs to be taken.

Boy, will i really be glad to be back in the hall, in those courts, playing my heart out, feeling all the drive and passion inside me. And my girls are there feeling the exact same way as i do. I promise i wouldnt grumble when the lights go out at 7. I promise i wouldn't keep using new shuttlecocks. I wouldnt even bet with huimin how long mario will yak anymore! Imagine all the laughters (seriously we laughed A LOT) and chats we could have during dinners again. Why, if you could turn back the hands of time.

Two years ago, i was so sad leaving st nicks. But this time, it's different. I feel lost, confused, petrified. Past the age of being a young and dreamy girl all excited about shopping and movies, i don't know what i'm stepping into. Or rather, clinging too hard to the past, and too afraid to make any move.

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