let's fly to the moon

~ pre-prom period ~
Wednesday, December 8, 2004 / 01:34 p.m.

Okay! I'm all packed and ready to go. Can't believe this is it! All the rushes and excitement will culminate tonight. Gosh, can't believe i'll be leaving hwa chong soon. I hope i don't cry! Erps. -_-"

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~ we've got a thing going on ~
Sunday, December 5, 2004 / 10:48 p.m.

listening to: "Me and Mrs Jones" by Billy paul
feeling: envious

I just went rj prom to take photos with chel and boon and.. OH MY GOSH they looked ABSOLUTELY STUNNINGGGGGG!!! They can easily be the prom queens here! Lilian, meilin and i didnt even feel like going for our own prom anymore. And this girl we saw looked sooo hot, sexy yet elegant in this simple black dress. Or rather, the dress looked so good on her! And then i realise what makes you look good on prom night is not your dress. Nor is it your heels, your accessories yada yada. It's your make-up and hair! Which i conveniently intended to overlook. Damn. And i realise nowadays cocktail, flowy dresses are the in thing, not traditional, formal long gowns anymore. Okay, hope i can post the photo we took here soon! Meanwhile, have fun, girls! You girls officially graduated! ;)

Kk i better stop before i sound too bimbotic over here.

And yes, i love love love this kind of songs. It's just that kind of perfect, romantic atmosphere you can imagine, with a singer that can sweep you off your feet with that voice of his, exuding so much charm.

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~ wakeboarding ~
Saturday, December 4, 2004 / 07:36 p.m.

listening to: "You And I Both" by Jason Mraz
feeling: tired

Went wakeboarding with my sisters, her bf and her friend! I never knew there is a punggol marina country club ten minutes drive away! No wonder some taxi driver tell me the other time that punggol will become a favourite waterspot in the future. (so huimin u can go fish there!) On our way there by boat, it felt really cool sitting on the boat as it sped past the waves and loud music blasted through the air. The world was only about the sea, the sky and you. Anyways, learning how to wakeboard means you must fall into the water umpteen times! Gosh, i can't describe how salty the water at punggol marina was. But anyhow, i thought my progress was not bad after all. I managed to stand and ride on the waves! It's like being on adrenalin high as you stood on the board, riding past waves after waves as the boat led you along.

Prom is near! I just went to see the vj albums and pris and lyd looked really pretty! And chrystle's the prom queen! Ritz carlton looked nice too. But haa, damn, i'll look like shit. Oh wells, i just hope it'll be fun that night.

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~ half empty half full ~
Friday, December 3, 2004 / 06:13 p.m.

There's something terribly terribly wrong with me. It seems like i have nothing to look forward to and i feel lackadaisical about everything in my life. I used to be hyped up about a lot of things and feel happy and contented about so many things. Now, i feel that everything is but transient. Perhaps it's the post exams syndrome. Perhaps it's true that you need the taste of bitterness before you can truly enjoy pure sweetness. It's always fun trying to squeeze a little out of your studying time to do something enjoyable. Now that i have too much time on my hands, the inside of me is rotting away. It's always the more-you-can't-get-it the-more-you-want-it sort of thing. Till you get it, you realise you don't really want it anymore.

So frustrating. This emptiness is slowly eating me up. I want to have a nice talk with someone. i want to gaze at the stars and dream about everything nice. But i feel so old and weary and so are everybody else.

By the way, i got to see my favourite white tigers at the zoo. They're real beautiful blue-eyed creatures, displaying nature at her very best with their gentle white fur coat decorated with soft brown stripes, and everything else stands aside.

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~ taufik batisah ~
Thursday, December 2, 2004 / 12:48 a.m.

listening to: "Ain't No Sunshine" by Taufik Batisah
feeling: happyy

Hurrah! Taufik won! Haha, i actually couldnt believe my ears when i heard gurmit announce his name. While the girls were jumping and screaming so loudly in joy they could bring the whole flat down. I really love the way he sings! He puts a very stylish and rhythmic touch in his performances and everything just seems so smooth and natural. Not to mention he can really sing. The kind that can make you melt right in front of him. Gosh! Hot stuff. Everytime i see jessea, i feel so sad for her. Wasted. By the way, the judges were too politically correct, aint it? Gets on my nerves!

Boon and chel just left. I think they missed the last bus eeps. We were simply bumming around at my house today. They came in the afternoon and all we did were going online, watching tv for a while, looking at my yearbook and urm, sleep at my room for an hour! Haha after that was pizza, coke, jelly, waffle and a few sparks in my microwave. *shudders* Watched Waterboys! Sadly i watched the serial version before and the final performance was somewhat exactly like the one in the movie. There's a couple of eye candies inside! :D

We listened to taufik's mp3s in my room right after Idol finally ended with a bang. And there we were, imitating idols and singing, taking really really hilarious photos and even video-camed ourselves trying to sing taufik's song. Hahahaha! We were really going crazy and high! And boon looked really chubby and cute in the photos (only, don't worry) chel and i almost DIED of laughter. Heee. We made a couple of really lame taufik jokes. I guess i didn't miss anything by giving mambo night a miss.

Oh by the way, i realise my layout looks distorted on some screens because the resolution is different. Damn it! I'm too lazy to change anything.

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~ music's fine like sparkling wine ~
Tuesday, November 30, 2004 / 10:48 p.m.

listening to: "Save the Last Dance for Me" by Harry Connick Jr
feeling: lazzyy

Pamela just called me! Haha she came back from australia. I was so bent on deciding it must be ivy on the phone coz she's been tricking me these days. I'm quite touched she called me actually. So nice to feel remembered. Hope she comes for the zoo outing!

It's funny how life throws ironies at me every now and then. And that call reminded me. Sometimes i really wonder whether i should expect people to appreciate whatever effort and time and heart i've put into. You can cherish something you hardly have for long, yet friendship as long as a few years and as strong as i thought can get swept into the drain so easily. Because it takes two hands to clap. It's not that it's hard. Rather, you didn't even try. I've been so tired of this thing i don't wish to talk about it anymore.

My legs almost gave way today. Boon, chel and i walked non-stop around town and city hall today. We did really silly things like carrying out our experiments (HAHA!) i really wonder what will people think of us if they hear our nonsensical conversation. Seriously, the amusement and laughter from the funny things we do can last me a lifetime. By the way, Gelare waffle was wayy tooo yummmyy!!

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~ it's so easy how we come undone ~
Tuesday, November 30, 2004 / 03:31 a.m.

listening to: "Candleburn" by Dishwalla
feeling: lost

Went Sentosa with the class people today. I had quite a great deal of fun and sweat playing volleyball using the pink feathery-light ball, taking photos, walking everywhere and talking and laughing under the sun. We'll be going to the zoo this coming thursday. Some find it amusing, but i'm looking forward to it anyway!

I'm insane to stay up in the wee hours of the night and do a layout, especially since it's been an exhausting day. Hmmms, i have no idea why.

There's just this strange mild melancholic touch tonight. I'm probably conjuring something out of nothing. But still, it's getting hard swallowing all the emptiness inside. I feel as if i'm missing something i don't know what. Aimless and increasingly lost in this increasing world. Things i thought i knew seem to be floating around and incessantly changing. Nothing i know stays the same. Nothing everlasting. It's like waking up to a future hundred years later with nothing by your side. The ends were long gone and i'm left with everything else inchoate.

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