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passion, i see, is catchin' for mine eyes. seeing those beads of sorrow
stand in thine, began to water.
there's a candle burnin' in the world tonite. for another child who vanished outta sight. and a heart is broken, another prayer in vain. there's a million of tears that fill a sea of pain. sometimes i stare outta my window. my tots all drift into space. sometimes i wonder if there's a better place.
where do fallen angels go
i dunno
where do fallen angels go
they just keep falling
now the times are frightening, cant ignore the facts. there's so many pple just slippin' thru the cracks. so many ashes are scattered, so many river runs dry. sometimes ur heaven is hell, n u dun even noe why.
: haf u ever felt a breeze hit your heart, like the wind was blowing it apart, as u're spinnin like a merry-go-round, indications of a storm touching down. wish that i can weather any storm, but i guess it was heart break from the norm. was a day i will always remember, the saddest day in sweet November.
: lately i've been listening to music, listening to the songs that you
used to weave part of my life. u stopped with a twist, and never did
turn back again. how did i ever fall in love with these songs, i never
did know.
>>my tea's gone
cold i'm wonderin why, got out of bed at all. the morning rain clouds up
my window, but i cant see at all. even if i could it would all be grey.
but ur picture on my wall, it reminds me that is not so bad, it's not so
bad
: i guess that's how the story ends
Sunday, July 7, 2002 07:28 p.m.
decided tt i shall go sentosa wif kai after all and meet the rest later. yea despite the fact that i'm sick. =( happy now, virn?! *coughs* dunno why i've been going online n stoning, or msging many people regarding the chapters fer the chem test, n getting many different answers back. oh whatever. havent started yet. eee there are like probably ard 6 chaps fer chem 5 fer physics? hope i dun study the wrong ones.
i think this world is full of irony. saying about others, yet doing same thing urself. i didnt sae i dun do that. i do, in fact. well at least i admit it? there are so many mrs merriweather out there. hailie's song's tune is somehow telling me bt the stupid world out there. heh, not the lyrics though. nahs, i'm not down or whatever, just...affected by the song. man, i've been toking bt the song fer the past few days! okaes me shall stop. i gotta try to cure my terrible sore throat n running nose b4 i sit under a coconut tree n see everybody playing happily tml. *coughs* Saturday, July 6, 2002 10:25 p.m.
listening to hailie's song now. the song has sucha special mix of emotions. can try visiting victoriabecks webbie. [yea, i linked it]. got some profile bt them. haha becks likes eminem n sinhui's so happy bt it. went jessica's hse todae. guess wot, we played dino crisis again. the game where scary dinos suddenly appear n u hafta shoot them. n u get stuck everywhere, n haf difficulty findin the right direction to walk. *embarrassed* watched the dance drugs thingy n i was amused by the primary kids. not bad sia! monday got badminton outing. dunno whether i wanna go. normally i would want to, but they're inviting guys i dunno. =| plus 2 beeeeg looong tests on wednesday. hahas wells as if i'll study but anyways... went sentosa during june hols wif class pple b4 liaos. if i get any more tan, nobody can see me when the lights are off! x( my winamp playing unchained melody. ahh.. sweet saccharine song. think i prefer the gareth gates version to the righteous brothers one. i haf both, though. realised i like all diff kinds of songs, of coz, at different times. but i'll never like techno i guess. think r&b is the best.
damn i'm feeling weird again.
sometimes i think i'm mad
sometimes i feel like there's no meaning in life
why am i still hanging around here
letting these thoughts absorb my mind
sometimes i feel like only my ears can hear my voice
sometimes i get so alone
i get real screwed up
listening to all these songs Friday, July 5, 2002 09:25 p.m.
went town wif sinhui todae. borrowed this magazine + beck book + this new paper featuring the paper's own dream team. haha. it consists of kahn, becks, ferdinand, rob.carlos, reyna, balllack, diouf, ronaldo, campbell and coly. the best defence players, midfielders and strikers all inside. =) ronaldo gotta highest rate of stars fer his attack, and ferdinand wif his defence play. ballack seems the most all-rounded one.
anyways, wee victoria n becks are sucha sweet couple. .they got married at a castle in ireland, and even had thrones made to sit on fer the occasion plus released 100 doves into the skies! like a modern day fairy tale.. becks had brooklyn's name tattooed across his lower beck, n had victoria's name- translated into sanskrit - tattooed down his inner forearm. victoria has 3 small stars tattooed at the base of her spine, representing herself, becks n brooks. becks even had his son's name sewn into his adidas football boots. when he went awae fer man u asian tour, both brooklyn n victoria made little cards and hid them in his suitcase. awwww!!! haha, the magazine also showed the magazine who successfully bidded fer their wedding pix, fer erms 2.6m sing dollars!?! their wedding pix is super sweet n they really look like a perfect couple! mmmmmmxx
finally its weekend. it means slacking time. though i haf 4 tests in 4 days next week. damn. anyways, going jess' house tm. x) Thursday, July 4, 2002 07:06 p.m.
my throat really hurts. plus got ulcer rite at the back! shouldnt haf ate snickers plus so much fried food in sch plus curry puff yesterday. =( my gbook's really empty nowadays. really missed my old gbook wif loads of entries inside. x( anyways todae couldnt believed that i held maria's hand and put my arm around her fer the singing session!! bleahs, n mich was laffing at me. thanks ah. anyways pris me chel wished wei happy bdae wif stern faces. haha think she was bewildered. happy birthday wei! ate portuguese eggtart todae. yum! x)
realisation hits upon me bt how she remembered. how silly i was. there are just so many questions i asked which i dunno the answers myself. it's just so hard, so hard to accept. Monday, July 1, 2002 07:39 p.m.
mms dl-ing the nike football ad.. anyways sinhui's special recommendation- Hailie's song by Eminem. it sounds real sweet.. anyways i took out some parts. he wrote this song specially fer his baby girl, hailie. who'd tot he's so sweet behind his cool front x)
Some days I sit, staring out the window
Watchin' this world pass me by
Sometimes I think there's nothing to live for
I almost break down and cry
Somtimes I think I'm crazy
I'm crazy, oh so crazy
Why am I here, am I just wasting my time?
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes
Oh no
Somtimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everyone's leaning on me
Cos sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
But then she come back to me
My baby girl, keeps gettin' older
I watch her grow up with pride
People make jokes 'cause they don't understand me
They just dont see my real side
I act like shit dont phase me
Inside it drives me crazy
My insecurities could eat me alive
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes
I told you I can't sing
Oh well, i tried
Hailie, remember when I said
If you ever need anything, daddy will be right there
Well guess what, daddy's here
And i ain't goin nowhere baby
I love you *kiss* Sunday, June 30, 2002 22:52pm
what can i say? this world cup really brought me much disappointments. during the quarter-finals, the semi-finals and now the finals. =( anybody saw the agony on kahn's face? imagine he imagining he could stand there holding the trophy up high. i reckoned he's blaming himself. but i guess ronaldo's shots were really powerful, as usual. wow 7 goals in 7 matches. *claps* so sad ballack couldnt play. what a pity. it could have been more exciting. anyways, think kahn's the best goalkeeper ever! even the newspapers say they should have the golden hand gloves [or wadeva] award, n the awardee will be kahn! conceded only 1 goal in so many matches, well, besides this last match. same fer seaman, but guess he had more blames on him. it wasnt his fault... well, think brazil is truly good since so many years ago.
Ronaldo: "I have admired how (England captain) David Beckham has handled the pressure which has been placed on him both on and off the pitch."
anyways, i wonder if the players in the star team is out. in the nominated list, there's 6 from brazil, 4 from korea, 3 from england, turkey and germany each.
brazil: the 3 Rs, marcos, cafu n roberto carlos
korea: erms the goalkeeper, ahn jung hwan*rach!* n other 2 players but i dunno their names
germany: kahn, ballackx) and klose
turkey: goalkeeper and other 2 dunno names
england: beckhamx) owen and campbell
oh yea now who can still deny that beckham isnt just fer show? it appears like he didnt do much except running about, but he made some goals possible, n a great captain [as can see from the danny mills n seamen incidents] plus playmaker [hey c'mon, one of the best defence teams?!]. =) other players include vierro*sinhui ur fave!* raulx) hierro, casillas, nakata and diouf. what an exciting team. guess everybody's gonna go back to work, since the football frenzy is over. oh i simply simply love the footballitis ads!! why hasnt anybody i asked watched all of them? becks looked super cute inside all of them. hee.
went to cut my hair today. looks better coz my split ends were disgusting but looks really weird when tied up. :| n a new layout is finally up! anyways, supposed to thank the pple hu wished me hap bdae via sms. so here it is, order by time of msg! thanks sweeties.
[ boon minz chel aileen virn sinhui sis yuying kerliang sis yingjun grace sha simin szuyu kai dacia ]
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