:
passion, i see, is catchin' for mine eyes. seeing those beads of sorrow
stand in thine, began to water.
: there's a candle burnin' in the world tonite. for another child who vanished outta sight. and a heart is broken, another prayer in vain. there's a million of tears that fill a sea of pain. sometimes i stare outta my window. my tots all drift into space. sometimes i wonder if there's a better place.
where do fallen angels go
i dunno
where do fallen angels go
they just keep falling
now the times are frightening, cant ignore the facts. there's so many pple just slippin' thru the cracks. so many ashes are scattered, so many river runs dry. sometimes ur heaven is hell, n u dun even noe why.
: haf u ever felt a breeze hit your heart, like the wind was blowing it apart, as u're spinnin like a merry-go-round, indications of a storm touching down. wish that i can weather any storm, but i guess it was heart break from the norm. was a day i will always remember, the saddest day in sweet November.
: lately i've been listening to music, listening to the songs that you
used to weave part of my life. u stopped with a twist, and never did
turn back again. how did i ever fall in love with these songs, i never
did know.
: i guess that's how the story ends
| Monday, July 22, 2002 04:16 p.m.
i was supposed to revise for my tests which are really gettin' on my nerves. but guess i'm a wonderful slacker. guess i was pretty disturbed by what i heard today. i was really disappointed. but after thinking for a long while at home, i guess everything will turn out alrite. n i'll probably regret thinking like that about people...again. oh yay, i'm suddenly having a more optimistic outlook in life. oh damnit. i forgot i havent done testimonial. again. -points head wif a gun-
on a lighter tone, sec 4s can finally go for sports trip this year! yea, real soon. next saturday! plus this saturday i am going for the acjc thing. finally there's some make-up for the oh-so-many tests. it's two days one night, though. but who cares? i can be with all the badminton peeps again. x)
convinced of my deception
i've always been a fool
i fear this love reaction
just like you said I would
a rose could never lie
about the love it brings
and I could never promise
to be any of those things
if i was not so weak
if i was not so cold
if i was not so scared of being broken
growing old
blessed are the shallow
depth they'll never find
seemed to be some comfort
in rooms i try to hide
exposed beyond the shadows
u take the cup from me
ur dirt removes my blindness
ur pain becomes my peace
Saturday, July 20, 2002 10:41 p.m.
today's oral kind of suck. i didnt know what i was talking about and mrs tien simply asked so many questions. uh. and i actually pronounced tripod stand wrongly. think she laffed at me. x( i still havent started studying fer the 16 chaps physics 4 chaps chem 3 chaps ss and 4 chaps a maths yet. of coz many many hw i should haf done earlier. like ever since march... uh uh. x( that's so like me. only know howta complain yet unwilling to do anything about it. as usual! think everybody's kind of stressed nowadays. jia you everybody!
virn: jia you kaes! must heal faster
and i will so love to go to the blue concert. no money no time no blue no concert no duncan no lee's voice no best in me no dance no live
mood: grumpie Friday, July 19, 2002 09:45 p.m.
today's been tiring yet fun. firstly, me and chel went mad and kuai baned fer han. haha she even filmed it using chel's digital camera! den we went temasek poly to support boon n grace fer the PATA geog project thing. whoa.. it was really an eye-opener for us. i was quite impressed with the projects and much effort really went into it. we were given this really really really cool book on singapore's tourism. there were like little surprises in some pages, like some envelopes inside containing lil info, scratch-n-sniff stuff, pop-ups and those special tinted paper glasses. the pixes were really colorful n nice too. samuel came and brought us around the school. the walkway was really big and the school even has erm foot reflexology park and fountains! there were few levels of food courts and the food were really cheap and good! some were even half price of those food courts' prices. den there was this jupiter cafe and me n chel were totally mesmerized by the yummylicious pizza, mocha and more. haha. den sam brot us to his school building, the school of design. weeee it was really really cool. there were elevators and we went into the animation labs. den we walked around the different rooms. we even went into the studio where we were actually forbidden to go. there was even security. weeee there were many many "apple" cyan and translucent computers around. ah, i dunno how to call those pretty coms. den the coolest was the photography lab!!! we went into the lab, and was led to this really really dark room where ur eyes cant even focus on ur hands. there were red lights around, and its the place where photographs were developed. waah, it was really like those we see on tv. mmmmms. seriously, i dunno why people haf the misconception that jcs are better than polys. the stuff poly students study are much more precised and they are really trained in the area, also picking up skills and stuff. the study is also more focused. for example if u wanna study mass communications and study it in poly, u learn more things on that area than in jc., hmms esp life experiences? ahs sam said our system gonna change in our batch. ahhs, i'm suddenly thinking twice about going jc! but i guess the mindset about jcs' better than polys is hard to change. or maybe i havent known enough yet. bahhs. and sam is really really good at doing those drums sounds wif his mouth. hehe. in the midst of excitement and wonder, i forgot there is prelims oral tm. damn.
Tuesday, July 16, 2002 04:06 p.m.
i know there are so many tests and hw to study and do, but it's just piling up so fast that i cant be bothered with them anymore. today sucks badly. i suddenly felt sick. sick of putting up a happy front everytime i'm upset. i've tried my best but it's just so hard. i feel like a stupid fucked up fool who took granted of almost everything i had. and now i'm left with nothing. yea, u were rite about me. i think i even gets on mrs khong's nerves. :/ anyways, this is my journal. i guess i can say anything i want. venting my frustrations, crapping, everything. it's not a publicity thing. or something too personal? ok anyways i dl-ed blue's best in me. and oh my gosh i so love this song! i believe it's an old song? coz it's so familiar. n ahhhh, love love love the tune. =) and if i'm not wrong, duncan sang it?? oh my gosh. ahaha. did i ever mention that blue can harmonise really well? ok ok i so love the part the drums come in! -ga ga- uh uh i am definitely not a boyband lover. westlife, a1 kind is not my cup of tea. yea, i gonna record this song in my phone! x)
from the moment I met you
i just knew you'd be mine
u touched my hand
and I knew that this was gonna be our time
i don't ever wanna lose this feeling
i don't wanna spend a moment apart
'cause you bring out the best in me
like no-one else can do
that's why I'm by your side
and that's why I love you
every day that i'm here with you
i know that it feels right
and i've just got to be near you
every day and every night
and you know that we belong together
it just had to be u and me
'cause you bring out the best in me
like no-one else can do
that's why I'm by your side
and that's why I love you
on top of the world
wahhhhh i soo lurvee sin!! she did this movie on the tribute to many world cup players, n it is fantabulous! there are so many pixes of my fave players and even ronaldhino looks good inside! den when the love united song came on, i felt so touched! haha going mad but it's really good work mans. n whats becks' full name again? david robert joseph beckham yea thats right. it's a sexy name. hahaha. the way the pixes dissolve and disappear are really great.. and of coz, its sin's work so there's lotsa becks' pix. -as usual- x) this is like one of the best movie i've ever seen. haha. -pats sin yee-
You are 30% evil! [?]
You're still on the good side of 50%, but you're gaining on it. You're not as good as you should be, but you're good ALMOST all of the time. There's only an occasional time when evil takes over you, but when it does...
Find your emotion!
Sunday, July 14, 2002 02:29 p.m.
games, changes and fears
when will they go from here
when will they stop
i believe that fate has brought us here
and we should be together but we're not
i play it off but i'm dreaming of you
i'll keep my cool but i'm fiendin
i try to say good-bye and i choke
i try to walk away and i stumble
though i try to hide it, it's clear
my world crumbles when u are not near
i may appear to be free
but i'm just a prisoner of ur love
i may seem alright and smile when you leave
but my smiles are just a front, just a front
i play it off but i'm dreaming of u
i'll keep my cool but i'm fiendin
yea, there's a mirror to reflect ur oh-so-pretty face, but u need ur mind to reflect ur own inner beauty. uh.
Thursday, July 11, 2002 09:37 p.m.
happy birthday Jiaxi aka house-of-dead partner!
the 4 tests this week are like finally over. the week seems so meaningless and unfruitful, wif totally nothing, nothing to look forward to. just realise every week we gonna haf like at least 3 tests? great.
had to go fer study session todae. had fun though. went to the hall n joined in the game b4 training. it was fun! n kind of tiring as well. they seemed to change the rule of monkey anyways. went thomson plaza wif jess after tt. saw many many hot yummy stuff. hahas we were quite crazy. didnt quite expect myself to be like that... wanted to buy those cards fer like jiaxi sher sinhui szuyu but had financial constraints. hee.
monday's trip to sentosa was okay. well, i hate the amazing race part. we ran like over 10 places in sentosa, by monorail, bus and running! weee... jessica and even kangwei were super infatuated wif this ultra cute guy we saw at the monorail station. he had nice big eyes and looked veh cool. haha they said he's a jap but i doubted it.. the worse thing is, that stupid kangwei went to take a photo of him! it's like erm super obvious? den tt guy diao kang... ahh so sad.. haha till now, jess is like crazy over him. hope kang successfully took a photo of his full face. went home around 10 and the next day, i was practically sleeping thruout the lessons. so super tired. x(
as prelims are nearing, couldnt help but feel so sad about graduating. i dun feel that much fer the school, but more of leaving friends i had been wif fer years. we are just gonna go to diff schools, n probably not see one another ever again. it's as if the friendships now are all in vain. trying to keep contact is really hard, n after a while, u dun feel like trying anymore. i guess that's life. think on the graduation day, i'll probably break down n cry if they play the graduation song by vitamin c. chel said the st nicks version is funny. like erms, toking bt mr gan?!
it's kind of sad to see friends you were once close to just seem to drift away from you.. so far that u both haf nothing to sae to each other anymore. silence fills in, n u wish u could turn back time to the good old days. maybe i took those friendships fer granted, or i didnt show enough care. when u had those days just spending time together, u dun often feel that happiness and sweetness in ur heart. it's always when u reminisce the past, when ur heart is aching wif nostalgia, den u'll truly feel that those days are actually the best part of ur life. no matter how these friendships have tarnished wif time, i keep them close to my heart.
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