Thursday, June 30, 2005
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It’s really frustrating. The heavy rain was out there, in the open, out of the windowpane. The heavy rain that drives all the heat and displeasure away. And I love staying at home on such stormy days. Feeling the coziness and comfort of your own house in peace and tranquility as opposed to the chaos out there. But I simply can’t think of what’s to do best at home that goes perfectly well with this weather. Like how I could do nothing but sigh every time I spot a lovely sunset on the road. That’s how helpless human beings can get.
On another note, I was extremely ecstatic today! I mean, how not when after five years of having him as my favourite badminton player, I get to see him real up close at the aviva open today? Kudos to jillian who initiated the whole idea about going aviva open and making a little dream come true. He was walking really near us today, about one metre away, separated by the railing. And berton went “all the way, peter” and he replied “yup!” Then huimin added a ridiculously sounding “good luck” that had less than lukewarm response. *rolls on the floor laughing* Thanks to berton who interviewed a lot of the top players before, and had therefore made friends with them, jillian and I had a cheap thrill having the name PETER GADE screaming for attention in our phonebook. And the four of us were simply nuisance walking around the spectator’s stand and erm shopping around. I almost died laughing at crazy things with them! As usual. By the way, we were all so impressed by lee chong wei today. We were such ignorant fools, not knowing that he’s ranked world number 4. Hehs. It’s so surreal, having seen the matches live right before your eyes. I mean, I’ve been to yonex sunrise, but that was cip and the only star I remembered was chen hong. Far away, and I don’t even really like his face.
And I pray hard that there’ll be a photo-taking session tomorrow.
On active and passive in different contexts. Not lesbianism.
I’m a very passive person. So it’s rather obvious to me when people are actively doing something. And acting too fast really scares me.
Since I’m passive, when I actually initiate a sms or an outing - whether is it to ask how you’re doing, or in the midst of a cold war, it means you really mean something to me.
I really appreciate it when friends always take the first move to keep in contact, and especially when I’m in the passive mood. So sorry if my response was ever less than active.
Very inspired by chel to do a collage of the camp photos. Very bad attempt though.
xx ramblings at 23:14 p.m. xx
It was one of my favourite lazy afternoons in solitude, watching Sex and The City and reading magazines over a cup of orange juice, while raindrops made soft rhythmic beats against the window panes and the lovely rainy scent wafted through the room. :)
I just broke my longest sleeping record. Slept from 5pm yesterday all the way till 10 am today! Suffered from sleep lag for a while. In retrospect, the camp was absolute fun! The biz ad spirit was really strong (the cheers are still ringing incessantly in my head) and the people there were nice and spontaneous.
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We then had to walk up this tiny creepy spiral staircase you often see at the backstage up to this narrow corridor. Whoaa, you can imagine how scary it is since normally, nobody ventures into the backstage area. There was a Chinese ghost bride decked in bright red wedding dress and loooooong hair sitting at her dressing table with a huge mirror in front. She demanded us to put on the head ornament thingy for her. That beeeg hat thingy with pearls you always see on the Chinese bride’s head in ancient Chinese classics. My partner hurled the hat onto her head and we hurried ahead. Thankfully ours was putting on the hat for her. My group mates had to comb her hair for her! Ahead was this vampire with a sick white face and I had to mention that his costume was really professional. It’s those typical black long silky robe kind you see on tv with hat and a long feather behind. He demanded us to fill up this bucket of water with a tap nearby. Near him was this really really tiny room COMPLETELY dark and we could hear a girl crying and wailing in a really really really SPOOKY way. Then the vampire told us in Chinese: “Wash my wife’s feet…” and pointed to the room. LIKE WHAT?! So I let my partner go inside the room while I was still clutching to his hand and waiting outside. The vampire shouted at me and demanded that I go in as well! So reluctantly I took tiny steps in and took a long while to get used to the darkness. And slowly, I could finally see that, right before me, was this female ghost dressed in white, HANGING up there at the wall and feet dangling at us!! My partner hurried to wash her feet and just as I thought we could finally escape, the female ghost said “Wo yao na ge nu de bang wo xi!” Which means she wanted me to wash her feet instead. DAMNN. After some hesitation, I splashed the water on her dangling feet and before we knew it, she screamed and pounced on us!!! WAHH ehhhhh I screamed as well. SO unfair. I learn from my group that I was the only female who was made to wash her feet. Probably because she thought I wasn’t scared. Well, I was laughing real hard all the way throughout the trail! Erm, I think I was too scared or something. Trying to hidemy fear, amused at how scared I was and also at how scared my partner was, considering he’s those brave guy sort. I felt his hand trembling all the time! But I was really grateful to him for doing everything. There were a few more scary stops but I shall spare you the details. The first thing that came to my mind was that boon will never survive the fright night!
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Got to make a few friends in the camp and they’re all pretty nice. Biz ad is so much fun! I think I made the right choice after all. :)
And I kept buying things recently. Especially with boon. We’re really damn gay now. We have the same wallet, hollister shirt, hp pouch, hula n co shirt, necklace, bracelet etc etc. To top it off, we both wore MNG purple racerbacks and similar belts on Friday. -_-“ Someone better stop me from buying stuff or better, find me a job! Meanwhile, it’s catching an eyecandy with jill, meilin and huimin from Wednesday onwards!!! *grins from ear to ear*
xx ramblings at 23:33 p.m. xx
All i want to say is, thanks siong qun for the ride home! He was so nice to send everybody home although i kept telling him to just drop me at the bus stop. As a stark contrast, stupid bernard refused to send char and i home despite our constant naggings. So late some more. Atrocious ah. It's not that i'm so in need of a free ride, but it's courtesy mah! Hahaha.
I'm off to camp. 4 days 3 nights. Yawn. Miss ya guys. Will be back! :)
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audio: "Smokescreen" by Flying Blind
It was guitar, meeting up with boon, then char and ber for today. The three of us went mad at the cafe playing some silly games. Hahaha.
Anyway, it's the durian season now. After a steamboat buffet with my mum for dinner yesterday, i went home to discover about 10 durians all ready to be inside my family's stomaches. My dad and i feasted on them while keeping some of them in the fridge. Cold durians taste perfect. All are welcome to visit my house for a durian party! :)
Just wondering. How reliable is your belief system? Do you always go according to what you have always believed in, and nothing else? It's not easy accepting that your system has crumbled and everything is but unpalatable truth. I reckon it's always hard to admit that. It takes courage to make a decision, but even more to be able to change your mind.
I love Sex and the City. There's always something to learn from each episode. And especially so in the way they present their theme across. Humourous, witty, thought-provoking. Here's something from season 5.
Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Perhaps you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be.
xx ramblings at 01:30 a.m. xx
Friday, June 24, 2005
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It has got to be the fright night! On a scale, if one rates the scariness of those usual haunted house in jc funfairs say.. 9, I’ll rate 99 for the nus biz camp! It was really so impressive. The make-up, the setting, the atmosphere, the acting, the costume and props, everything! Every single one of us was in awe. No wonder they named it the Senior Talent Night. We thought we were in for a talent show but it turned out that the seniors showcased their gift in such a unique way. I can still vividly remember every stop during the fright night. Firstly, my male partner and I were brought into the LT where this lady with long hair all over her face was waiting for us while stabbing a doll. It wasn’t really frightening yet. Then we had to walk towards the stage where at the side was this mother who kept saying “Lai kan wo de nu er” (come and see my daughter) in such a spine-chilling manner. There was an altar, with candles, incense and all. The whole set-up was sooo real. Then she led us up the stage and drew the curtains to reveal a pseudo corpse lying on a table, covered from neck to toe in black cloth, with hells notes and incense around. The mother then requested us to close the corpse’s eyes. They were staring ferociously at the ceiling. So I was holding on tightly to my partner’s hand while he tried to brush over the eyelids while quivering. The mother then commented that the eyes were still wide open so my partner tried a second time and suddenly the corpse sat up and almost pounced on us!
On the 2nd day while we were in sentosa, the councilors revealed that in every group, there’s actually one senior who posed as a freshie! Haha I thought the idea was quite cool though we all felt cheated by that senior of ours. So much so that we threw her into the sea. :)
The whole Secret Pal thingy. Quite cool. We were blindfolded and made to talk on the 2nd day at sentosa on the beach. On the third day, the girls were seated in the LT while the guys came in one by one. Before the girls acknowledge their SP, the guys had to do something funny. Most of them stripped and sang and did silly things. Well, erm, mine pole-danced around the projector. :/ Our hands were then tied together all the way to China One where the party started. The couple games were… woohoo! Haha. Clubbing was quite fun and everybody were quite enthu and stuff. Heh.
Before the fright night trail, we were brought to this very steep and high grass slope. Blindfolded. We were told to lie down and before we knew it, the councilors pushed us one by one down the slope covered with canvas sheet with soap and water on top. We were so shocked I think all of us screamed!
Monday, June 20, 2005
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
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