Friday, July 4, 2003
it's been a fruitful day, however short it is. the three of us ate our favourite far east chicken rice [i think the uncle recognises me!] and embarked on our window shopping thrill around town. we did our favourite pastime - taking neoprints and THANKS chel for giving up the silly-chel-face one to me! you can have it back anytime, i am feeling so bad already. we took photos with chel's phone all around town and saw so many rj and hc people. oh yes, i cant believe what i did at Mango! while queueing up behind chel, i thought boon was behind me all the while. i turned around and saw this denim dress held up in front of me. i held part of the dress and looked at it for a while. i almost wanted to ask whether she wanted to buy the dress when i heard boon's wail from behind. realising that something was terribly wrong, i looked up and gasped at horror as i was holding on to a dress this lady was holding to try on! OH GOSH! laughters broke out uncontrollably among all four of us [i think the lady's friend too?]. boon and i apologised to the lady in embarrassment. [!!!] chel was like telling me what i usually said to everybody - nvm, you'll never see that person again. and i certainly hope so. :/
by the way, i bought the black toga! my my, i'm such a sinful person. oh wells, it is both cheap and nice and i promise to be more thrifty from now on! after zara, wisma everywhere, we settled at taka kfc and ate ice-cream, while reminiscing and laughing about our childhood days. oh my, my tummy hurts from all those laughing fits! and that reminds me that i have not laughed like this with them for a long long time. MY GIRRRRRRLS! by the way, i love love love the M)phosis shoes! AHHHH!! it is some sort like my dreammm shoes! sigh, anybody rich enough to spare me some money? i so so so love it. :( was quite sad to head towards home today, since it is so hard for the 3 of us to meet up. and i wonder when's the next time we'll meet again. soon, i hope? :)
by the way, read >>boon's blog. i think she is totally cracked up, which cracks me up too. Hehe!
sometimes, when you and i collide
i wrote a song for you at 07:19 p.m. Friday, July 4, 2003
am listening to Best in me now and i feel this rush of memories fondly resounding and replaying in my mind. used to record this song in my phone, while chel and i would try [very hard indeed] to sing the high part in class. of course, we still havent succeeded yet. watched The Bacherlorette just now and i recall watching these kind of shows [the Bachelor, Friends etc] and discussing about them over sms, in class or after morning assembly. boon cracked me up by describing our silly times as the childhood days. [haha, maybe we should go publish a book about them. The Soft Toy Club! i'll laugh myself to death reading them..] oh my goodness! the more i think about our childhood days, the redder i get. oh gosh, the first impression the rest of the class had of us when we were still fresh in Sec 3 was totally tarnished i think! they must have rolled their eyes or threw weird, astonished glares upon us. Ok, i gotta stop before i die of laughter and embarrassment. they were right. it's just the little things we did that would form the biggest part of the memories we will keep down the road. i'm just so afraid i'll lose them, so i record them in my journal. it hurts to be able to only recall and not relive those moments again. oh wells, on a lighter tone, i think Charlie and Ryan are cute! we all melted at the scene where Ryan and Trista kissed at the mountain. it was ultra romantic and lovely, i must say. szuyu actually thinks Rob is cute OH My GOSH! hahaha, that girl doesnt have good taste most of the time. [oops] by the way, she kept seeing her eye candies around town today, too bad we didnt see her hc eye candy! i just cant seem to have eye candies when their characters are not nice, no matter how good they look. :) so Sinhui ah.. Hehe. am really excited to meet Sexy Slackers [that's what boon said] tm! miss them tonnes and tonnes and it sucks when i'm not in the same school as them. oh wells! i have to stop spending my time regreting and hence, waste precious time when i can actually have fun. right? :)
memories set aside, it's kind of scary reading my archives again [as inspired by boonie], to realise how much the way my thinkings, perspectives, feelings etc have changed so much over these years. i remember han telling me she could see the change in me. maybe maturity has to come with experiences, be it good or bad. i feel so old already, with so much time wasted. to those who have listened to all my crap and still accepted me the way i am, though i was a little too sensitive and had terrible senseless moodswings , a beeg thank you. :)
i wrote a song for you at 01:18 a.m. Thursday, July 3, 2003
Funny. everybody doubts that i didn't purposely skip my physics exam. but why?! to think that i was mugging last night and bugging meilin about my doubts. oh wells, went to the doctor and told him i felt giddy and nauseous. next, he kept firing me questions, like whether i'm pregnant, when was my last period, my school, and even checked my blood pressure and tummy! i had stomach gas by the way, some old problems.
despite the fact that i was on mc, i went to meet szuyu at harbourfront mrt and by the way, i know this is extreme lag but i love the new north east line! i no longer take one hour to town! half of it, in fact. :D anyways, big SORRY to szuyu! waited 40 minutes for you and i wasnt in the right state of mind. :/ we had to forgo our tanning session due to lack of time, the trouble to get to the airport to send her friend off later, the black clouds hanging over our heads etc. headed to town and we got ourselves lost in the sales! especially Mango, i must say. we tried on so many tops, fancied so many but we were quite broke. oh wells, bought this really nice black mango top! :D hmmms, had to go without the salmon pink toga though, and the pair of jeans is a real beauty! too bad i'll never splurge such extravagance on myself. met up with kai and tav and their friends but i didnt go to the airport with them. my headache was excruciating, and i thought i should get some rest. Yeps. goooood luck to those who have papers tomorrow! :)
i wrote a song for you at 05:43 p.m. Wednesday, July 2, 2003
i reckon it's pointless to allow one pathetic sheet of the maths block test paper affect my mood. it's just that when your little ray of hope diminishes, you feel so helpless. wEeeeEE! chatted with szuyu quite long on the phone last night and she totally cracked me up with her often-used-wrongly phrases and words, and most importantly, this fetish for this particular person in hc! Heh hehs. :D sandy is mad. she wants to go back st nicks early friday morning and sing the school song. ha! will be shopping with boon and chel finally! :) all the best to me. i need loads of luck to promote next year. oh wells, i just realise exams is a good period of time to replenish my lack of sleep. i can sleep for 5 hours straight after coming home! hehe. Off to take a siesta.
it took me a lot of courage
i wrote a song for you at 01:18 p.m. Tuesday, July 1, 2003
i think block tests are scary. just yesterday, we had both gp and econs which proved to be very exhausting indeed. i dozed off during my compre [luckily my paper flew away], i had a headache by the time i finished my data response, and my essays were just a small heap of rubbish. today was worse i suppose. i left a significant amount of blanks that could mount up to around 20-30 marks? there's something terribly wrong with the invigilator - she collected our data booklets around 10 minutes before the time was up?! i put up my hand for really long to ask for the booklet again, while she was immersed in counting down, looking at her watch. ARGHS! i am NOT exaggerating when i say i may fail all my subjects. sadly. :/ oh never too far away
i wrote a song for you at 05:35 p.m. Saturday, June 28, 2003
Try as i may, i cannot suppress the angst mounting from within. what's wrong with me? or perhaps, you?
i wrote a song for you at 10:51 p.m.
i fall into an ocean of you
pull me out in time
don't let me drown let me down
i say its all because of you
and here I go...
losing my control
i'm practising your name
so i can say it to your face
and it doesn't seem right
to look you in the eye
let all the things you mean to me
tumblin' out my mouth
indeed its time tell you why
say its infinitely true
Bic Runga - Sway
just to not fall apart
i'm so afraid to get lost in your eyes
i'm so scared you'll see right through me
i wont let time erase one bit of yesterday
coz i have learnt that
nobody cant take your place
though we can never be
i'll keep you close to me