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s h i m m e r

likes to kill a mockingbird. thinks it is a meaningful book. feels that we should really climb into people's skin and walk around in it. den maybe u'll understand why people do stuff you dun fancy, and also change the wae u treat others. thinks there's a Merriweather in everyone of us. felt sorry for people who are discriminated yet blind to their own prejudice. [hypocrisy] tries to prevent myself from getting hurt again, by shying away from human affection. trying very hard to expect less from people around me, hopefully making my life better. refuses to do homework and often dozing off in class. likes to talk rubbish esp in class, often cracks up by rachel n han's nonsense plus minlin's *ribbit* n boon's *diao*. =)

immersed in:
+music r&b/soul+jay
+badminton
+tulips
+iced peach tea
+fantasy world where dreams come true

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l i n k s

*guestbook
*aileen
*bean
*boon
*chel
*han
*minlin
*pris
*simin
*sin
*virn
*wei

t h a n k s*

+angels who touched my life*
[ sinhui szuyu chel boon jess minlin han sandy sinyee jiaxi huihui ]
+class
[ L4 han sec4faith02 ]
+slackers
[ boon chel min lyd sha pris ]
+snbt
[ virn kai mian kang dac adel aileen zhang yuying ]
+more
[ bean jfang yingjun ]

* it's like the wind. you can't see it, but you feel it *

Friday, April 12, 2002
eeks, my guestbook is so empty. =( was fascinated by min's guestbook. haha, some people are just so coward n immature.
today's chem test totally sucks! ok, maybe due to part of my laziness fer not studying, but its more like a maths test!? yea, even mian didnt do some questions. haha. well, i managed to scribble some rubbish on the paper, but guess they're all rubbish. =/
i dunno if i offended few people today. but i was offended by her way before that. she didnt even realise i was ignoring her questions. in the end i decided to be nice n let it go. but my move wasnt much appreciated. so there.
on the bus to tampines sports hall, the jay peeps sang some jay chou's songs. haha me like shi jie mo ri! kind of sian of his other songs... went tampines mall n century square wif snbt pple again. it was den when i realised me n szuyu had been wanting to find the same earrings since like a year ago?! haha, but we just couldnt find it. if not, we're just gonna buy the peace-catcher one. wadeva u call it. n got this very corny msg forwarded by rachel today. oh yea, min, kai and szuyu were my victims. haha, min found out the trick soon i think. while kai was totally fooled. haha! szu nv bring her fone today, but i managed to fool her into believing i sent her an angry msg. =)
couldnt believe that it was the fact. oh yea, everybody was disgusted. which makes it quite comforting. everybody goes like "why her?" yea, true, why her?

han: heys! rare guest! haha didnt realised that u were quite observant. anyways hmmms i really din know u even bothered to observe. told ya i think u hate me memba? haha. i still do think so. oh yeas, me changed min's link. so u can go her page liaos. =) btw, i was quite amused reading ur entry! hehe, especially the words in capital letters! its like so embarrassing so u quit doing that! haha though we can haf a conspiracy regarding jiel's bag! *sneaky* n cant wait to present our chinese comercial on monday! =)

i can't pretend these tears
arent over flowing steadily
i cant prevent this hurt from almost overtakin' me
but will stand and sae goodbye
fer you'll never be mine
until you noe the way it feels to fly

Monday, April 8, 2002
went to town wif chel today to buy jessica's present. she was shopping around fer daryl's too. bought jess the wallet she wants so much from 37 degress, and did her this beeg card and a bouquet of hershey kisses. couldnt do like what virn did fer me. ah! hope chel can succeed. its too hard fer me. never did this much fer someone's bdae! hope jess'll like it. no, she better do! oh yeas, life is this great w/o maria around. oh yay.

anyways, today two silly monkeys called rachel n boonseer did something childish again. wells, they put this disgusting dirty "class bear" in my bag, hoping i wouldnt find out. chel even said she'll tell me a secret online. Oh wells, too bad i discovered it in the mrt. i went home, all excited to do jess' card n bouquet. when i opened the pencil box, yes, i gotta shock of my life. miffy was "hiding" in it. oh wells, these 2 monkeys will never grow up. *shakes head*

was lookin thru the stuff i wrote last time. couldnt believe i had been this depressed. all morbid n upset almost every nite, feeling sorry fer myself. =/ shall put one not so depressing here.

it twists n turns
its heart is burnt
everything's broken
it longed to confess

it tries to justify
all the hurt inside
its knots are tied
it longed to confess 

it is contaminated
with curses, with spells 
which its body cannot rebel
it longed to confess

it is told with fabrication
tales, myths, legends
tt the truth, sometimes, is hard to learn
it longed to confess 

Sunday, April 7, 2002

its the hardest thing i'll ever haf to do
to look you in the eyes
n tell you i dun love u
it's the hardest thing i'll ever haf to lie
to show no emotion when u start to cry
i cant let u see what u mean to me
when my hands are tied n my heart's not free
we're not meant to be
it's the hardest thing i'll ever had to do
to turn around n walk awae pretendin' i dun love u

illusion never change into something real

Saturday, April 6, 2002

i was told that green was supposed to win the cheerleading.. like i don't know whats the big deal about overshot the time. helo? anyways yellow's groovy dance was veh funky! n blue's hat dance was damn good too. their routine was good..but oh wells. veh proud of blue coz we won best cheer n house cheer n 2nd in progress! =) special thanks to wei for pei-ing me at the first part of the day n of coz bean! fer doing such a great job. the props had a major role in helping us win best cheer u know? n also cheering together at the last part. veh fun!

com: hey sister go sister flow sister soul sister
hse: hey sister go sister flow sister soul sister
com: hey broadway gif it all ur best broadway
hse: i say Hey broadway show them what we've got broadway
whole: blue...B-L-U-E...blue...
broadway is here in town
our stage is out of bounds
we're here to rock the stage
we're everywhere... BLUE
we from broadway blue foresee
a forthcoming annual victory
tub-tub-thumping is what we're here for
....er....hunger for victory is making us roar
coz we are the ones that are hard to beat
....er...victory n we'll make it sweet
fear blue hail blue
now we r beginning to feel the beat
1,2,3,4 keep up the tempo
here we go again
on the battle field again
we'll beat others thru n thru
gif it up fer broadway blue
ehyoehyo x6
com: any sweat?
hse: no sweat
com: blue house, 11 claps!
hse: clapx9. BLUE HOUSE!

Friday, April 5, 2002

maria sng sucks. she will not let go of any opportunity to put blames on me. like what the fuck. i'm so tired n sick of her not listening to my explanations that this time, i do not wanta prove my innocence anymore. i don't even wanna get near her, or see her face. i'll lose my appetite. yah, wanna gif me zeros for my compre den go ahead la. cant believe i had spent 2 years and 3 months putting up wif her crap. =/

tm is sports day! seriously, i don't know any of the back-ups. gonna be wif wei fer the whole day. haha. don't ask me why we are wearing black shirts and biege khakis(yah, no blue) and a mask. though heard tt the mask gonna be nice. =) hope blue will win!

I am Vanilla Flavoured. I am one of the most popular flavours in the world. Subtle and smooth, I go reasonably with anyone, and rarely do anything to offend. I can be expected to be blending in in society. What Flavour Are You?

Tuesday, April 2, 2002

won pl 3-2 today. was quite shocked. thought we could have won the doubles too. anyways went tampiness mall n century square today. buying team towels again! the color is a very nice purple, i strongly voted for it! sorry kai! she loved this other light turqoise color which lost the vote by one. =) think my fave colors now are like pastel blue n purple. nahs i dun really fancy dark violet purple, but light purple, like the color of the towel. light purple n creamy blue goes well wif grey! anyways, we gonna save and rewards ourselves by really shopping on friday after tournament. gonna buy socks, towels and definitely a lovely yummy cup of corn! haha i'm going crazy... n i finally knew where to take bus to my house from tampiness. it only takes 15 min. yay. another nearest mrt will be yck, duration 20 min. how weird, the two places are like very far away away. my house is situated right at the middle i guess. i know i crap alot. so i shall stop.

Monday, April 1, 2002

a very happy april fool's day to those who deserved it. =) zhang tried unsuccessfully into tricking me that szuyu met with an accident. haha, coz i was on the phone wif szu like 1/2 an hour ago. *grins* anyways, tml's the nationals competition! our old rival, PL. hopes zhang meets pat and beat her. =) think that was her aim since a long time ago. can escape from class right after recess. i know chel is very jealous.. =) but oh wells, that will mean i'm missing more lessons after my absence of 5 days from school. how relaxing. hehe. sincerely hope our team had bucked up ever since last year's fatal mistake. i believe we can do it. it's our last year! seriously, after the tournament when training stops fer the sec 4s, i'll missing going back for training. missing the usual warm-up, where everybody laugh and joke together, the usual sounds of the shuttlecock against the rackets and the loud footsteps we would made during physical, trying our best and practically struggling, wondering when will physical ever stop. then we'll be relieved that everything is over, n goes to macs or dao huay to reward ourselves. =)

come to think of it, badminton has changed my life tremendously. i learnt so many lessons i probably couldnt haf learnt elsewhere. been through so much, be it individual or together as a team. i've grown to be able to take humiliation, keep my tears back and try to accept the things the way they are, even if it isnt the way i want it to be. i've grown stronger, and also to face challenges ahead of me. i guess credit goes to physical. haha. as i look back, i wonder how i could actually survive all the tough physical. once it's over, it's over. also, i really felt very united and a sense of belonging towards the team. it's just a pity that the team is getting more and more dispersed. i would say the most united year was when i was in sec 1 and 2, when the grey and orange batch were still here. nevertheless, we the white batch always feels that we are the most sart batch! hee. i will always remember the days we go fer chalets, camps and trips, outings at sentosa, all the long talks, eating together at j8 and town, playing silly games like catching in taka and contact in the mrt *hides face*, and also crying together as a team. i believe it's also to these downs that we really feel the strong bonds btn us. if i have the ability to turn back time, i will proudly say i'll still choose badminton as my cca!

sec 4 snbt
[ szuyu+sheep sister+ jess+best buddy+ kai+fast partner+ tav+duckie+ mian+twin mama+ kang+wong wei+ dacia+sisterbuddy+ adele+cheaters-in-action+ ]
others: virn, zhang, yuying, aileen, + all my relations.
i'll remember you guys forever. here in my heart<3
you rock my world!