Friday, November 23, 2001, 11:34 p.m.

beatnik poetry

don't scowl like that
your face might get stuck
yes, it's yours, don't worry
how on earth could I break it?
but, you know, it's like I told you
if you leave it out
someone will get hurt
glass is sharp too, so
make sure you don't drop it
no, of course I won't take it back
whoever heard of someone only lending out their heart?

it's only a house, I know
but, you see, it has many memories for me
this is where I grew up, what I loved
the woods behind the house-
it sounds silly, but I used to think they were my soul
it's where I played, where I danced
and sung and screamed and cried
and I know that material things have no value
but I think, just this once, that it is important
it's my childhood, my whole life
and it's disappearing faster than I can see it go

smile, you're on camera
your whole life whittled down to a frame
you'll look back at this picture
from New York, Paris, Burma
and remember then, that time, that place
later on, when you go, children will giggle
mostly at your hair or your clothes
and later on, people will remember you
not by yourself, but by your photo
smiling on the mantle with a glazed look in your eye
and it's funny
how we remember things as opposed
to how they really were

-K

Thursday, November 22, 2001, 11:08 p.m.

bleh, t day

Parents are dumb. Met Mr. Lethbridge today. I don't really want him for a step dad. Jon really doesn't like him. He went up to his room the entire time he was there. Blah.

Tired. Decent food, which was nice. Definitely leftovers for home. Had a first glass of wine. It's okay. Not great, but finished it. Want a pina colada. Hmph.

Too many IMs. Should talk to Val and Jaina and bug them for fics. After all, they're so good to me. ;.; Want to talk to Amy. Ugh, I feel like I'm three.

-K

Sunday, November 18, 2001, 11:21 p.m.

nyeh

Well, no drinkies for Kiri at all, but that's okay. Wish I could have been OL a bit more, but that's okay. Becky and Jon turned out to be decent at DDR, which was nice. I think I'm actually going to go play that. Kiri fat. :p

Need to go to sleep soon too. Have to get up early and wait till the last minute to do that Old Irish I've been neglecting. Of course. Oh well. I guess some things never change.

Well, I ought to go. I'll hopefully write more tomorrow. A little unsatisfying, this birthday, but it'll get better once I can drink away my problems. :p

-K

Sunday, November 18, 2001, 02:16 a.m.

sake ga nai

Jingu rules. ^_^

No drinkies for Kiri. Saa na.

-K

Saturday, November 17, 2001, 11:42 a.m.

Furui desu

Well, tomorrow I'm old. x.x;

Going out to the Cranberry Festiva in town with Becky, then to work (with poor Becky in tow), then to Ichiban with hopefully a bunch of cronies. ;.; I want people to come. ;.; I wish Meta and Jaina and Vallea and Dawn and a bunch of other people could come. ;.; But that's okay.

I still need to find Meta a bday present. -_-; Been looking, but...

Got that X-box yesterday. x.x Feh. Off to eBay it goes soon, but I have $22 to my name until then. x.x Or my next paycheck. x.x

Hungry. Have to go eat and pay attention to Becky.

-K

Thursday, November 15, 2001, 01:29 a.m.

Z_z

All I have to say today is to sing the praises of Meta for going to school and Jaina for putting up with me. ^_^

That, and no one seems to have remembered my birthday, so I'll put it here, because as we all know, I'm a COMPLETE whore for attention.

Kiri R0XX0RS at DDR. Booya.

-K

Tuesday, November 13, 2001, 09:03 p.m.

HEE!

I'm

so

HAPPY! *_*

*-*

I really am. ^_^;; Wow, I'm SUCH a whore for affection/attention. ^^;; Like Sir kitty, but worse. o.o;

Kiri is getting very good at DDR. She can pass a lot of the 5 feet ones on normals. *-* With a C and stuff too, not just an E. Which is good, cuz Kiri is fat. -_- Not phat, fat.

Had test at Occu-health today, so I don't get fined a lot of money for driving a bus without a health card. ^-^

And... why I'm happiest...

Hi hi, Kiri!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ADD MORE!!!!! I LOVE this fic!!! I love your portrayal of Knives and Meryl, and I LOVE VashxMeryl (obviously). ^_^ You rock!

xoxo
Tigerlily

and

*laughs* Actually, thats the only Trigun fanfic I actively read. ^^;
I keep loving it and loving it more. ^_^ Great shtuff aint it?

D. Shimare

HAPPY!!

Plus... here. *-*

And and and Amy likes it. ;____; Which makes me happiest. Because I don't really know any of these people, but I know her, and she would hit me if it were terrible. ;_____;

HAPPY!

Granted, it's definitely a mediocre work of mine. ^^;; (Though Jaina'd kill me if she thought they were OOC o_o fear! ^_^) I think my songficcies for Greenwood are much better (and more haunting ^-^). Anyway, I'm happy. ^_^ And shameless.

I think that theatre class is getting to me. ^_^;;;

-K
warm from DDR, still 119.9

Tuesday, November 13, 2001, 12:47 a.m.

cutlery

Jaina: Trigun would be much better if Vash ate babies. Tender and delicious ones.
IncendiaryWinds: that's Knives' job ^_^
Jaina: He's a whiz with the Ginzu
Jaina: How he got his name and all
IncendiaryWinds: exactly!!

XD XD XD!!!

Monday, November 12, 2001, 10:27 p.m.

survey

Ripped from Jaina's LJ.

Spell your name backwards: irik nosnews x.x;
Where do you live? Sunderland, MA
Describe yourself in three words: needing clean clothes
Who is your worst enemy? Myself. Is that cheese?
If you could have ANY animal for a pet, what would it be? Don't I already have enough?? x.x;;;
Have you ever used a spork? :p UGH.
Do you even know what a spork is? Satan's tool.
What is the latest you've ever stayed up? A whole weekend. x.x STUPID ANIME CONS!!! >.<;;
Ever been to Belgium? Nopers.
What's your favourite coin? The really rare ones worth a lot of money.

What an odd survey. ^_^;

-K

Monday, November 12, 2001, 07:25 p.m.

huuun...

I feel kind of sad right now... not really nostalgic, not really longing, but sort of in the middle. I feel like I've been losing touch with everyone. What happened to the K's? Kei has no working computer, I don't even know what happened to Keelan, and Kaze? I just don't seem to have anything to say to her. I don't seem to have anything to say to much of anyone. Maybe that's why this stupid fic has been pouring off my fingers like candle wax.

I moved my room around. It's pretty. Well, not really, but it's different. And it'll be easier for Jess to move in if she decides to do so.

I also have to do laundry. Bleh.

My current favorite food is those digusting Celeste microwave pizzas. They make me happy and remind me of childhood.

I wish I could play DDR tonight (cuz I'm fat :p) but I dropped a fat cat on my foot today. I was trying to shift with Ame on my lap, but the chair tipped over backwards (ow) and she lept off my lap (ow) and landed on my foot (ow) and then lept off again, ripping open my foot (ow). Now this is no small cat. Were it Marie, I would have hardly bled. As it was, I'm not sure if it's actually stopped bleeding yet. x.x It got scratched from the center top of my foot to the center bottom. Covered it in peroxide (the fun bubbly stuff... it amuses me so) and the anti-biotic and a bandage, taped down with bandaids. x.x; It's... lovely.

Blood no longer really hurts, which is funny, cuz when I was little it was a huge deal. Now blood is mildly entertaining at best.

Waiting on Keenspace to get Caffeine a spot there. Hopefully it'll go through.

-K
I should be cleaning -_-;

Sunday, November 11, 2001, 11:09 p.m.

Hn.

I think my conversation with Vallea sums it up.

Zero Girl Vallea: ^^; but how are you, dearest kiri?
IncendiaryWinds: I'm.... okay, I think ^^;
Zero Girl Vallea: you think?
IncendiaryWinds: well, sort of annoyed at mother and housemate, but have new mouse that actually works, so it sort of balances
Zero Girl Vallea: oooooooooooo...
Zero Girl Vallea: why annoyed? if i may know.
IncendiaryWinds: well, Dave and my mom are sort of friends... I mean, he's much older than me, 25... and she says he's an "adult"
Zero Girl Vallea: *blinks*
IncendiaryWinds: despite the fact that he has no job and I've been paying rent myself for the past three months >.<
Zero Girl Vallea: so... er...
IncendiaryWinds: so it's sort of frustrating to be ignored or treated like a child ^^;;
Zero Girl Vallea: ohhhhhh...
Zero Girl Vallea: i was imagining other things @.@;;;;
IncendiaryWinds: and he calls my mom by her first name, and when she's around, he's really mean to me x.x;
IncendiaryWinds: other things? o_o
Zero Girl Vallea: can you slap him and get away with it?
Zero Girl Vallea: yeah >.<;
IncendiaryWinds: nah ^^;;
IncendiaryWinds: like? o.o
IncendiaryWinds: (besides, my mom doesn't visit often, so I guess it's ok)
Zero Girl Vallea: err... the fact that your mom thinks he's an adult...
Zero Girl Vallea: ...you know... adult?
IncendiaryWinds: ^^;;; oro
IncendiaryWinds: I see ^^;;; *pets you*
Zero Girl Vallea: i'm sorry ;_;
IncendiaryWinds: and when it feels like they get all buddy-buddy, then I get annoyed cuz he's supposed to be /my/ friend you know?
IncendiaryWinds: *not selfish at all* e.e;
IncendiaryWinds: dude, were it anyone else, it'd be all good, but it's my /mom/ x.x;
Zero Girl Vallea: *nods* yeah...
IncendiaryWinds: but I have an optical mouse ^^;;;;;;;


Yeah, so I have an optical mouse. ^^;;

-K
cold, but just turned the heat on

Saturday, November 10, 2001, 01:48 p.m.

neck x.x

My neck has been hurting a lot recently, the past three days... I'm not sure what it is, but I haven't really been able to move my head well... ;.; I hope it's just a muscle cramp or something. ;.;

-K

Saturday, November 10, 2001, 12:28 p.m.

idle frustration

I am frustrated with the lack of good fics on Fanfiction.net. >.< I think it's a really great site and the concept is awesome, but I just wish the writing was more up to the Greenwood par in the Trigun section. ;.;

Well, if that's the only thing I have to complain about... XD

Ehn, life is decent. Been making new friends, which tickles me pink. Or something. Discovered Steve for S&S is amazing at DDR. O.o;

Speaking of DDR, we got it Tuesday. *_* Yeah, that's why I haven't been updating. Tony's roommate might burn us other mix happiness. *_* I hope. ;.;

We can pass a couple of songs on normal, but do definitely decently on beginner. Hey, that's a step up! When we played it at the mall, we kept dying on beginner. ^^;

Kitties are warm to sleep with. ^_^

Mm, Patsy Cline.... *melt*

I'm just in a rather good mood. Exercise totally does this to me. ^^ Endorphins are my friend. ^^;

Okay, I need to shower because I'm disgusting. Exercise = sweat. -_-; I also have to do today's comic because I decided to sleep instead of making it. And was told Thursday that Matt checks it daily. O_O!

Okay, now it's really time to shower. I want to wear pretty clothes today, but can I drive in heels? ^_^ It's a mystery. ^_^

-Kiri
cold, ecstatic at 119.9

Tuesday, November 6, 2001, 12:47 a.m.

also forgot to add that chorale was on the front page of the paper today... ^_^ including me XD

Tuesday, November 6, 2001, 12:08 a.m.

binge me, baby

Dude, I love my school.

Monday, November 5, 2001, 11:30 p.m.

Ah, the bliss of the shameless.

Amy and I started the Greenwood ficcy contest. Shall I enter? ^_^ I might do that fic she wanted me to do, but I want to finish TK first... but that might never happen... @_@

Speaking of TK, I was surfing around Audiogalaxy's forums today and came up with this lovely bump in the road ^_^:

10/07/01 ::seventeenth:: - Man, Go To www.fanfiction.net. It Rules. :^D
I like fanfics... @_@ And fanfiction.net's got 'em! There's something for everyone in the Trigun section. There's normal fics, serious fics, angsty fics, yaoi fics, I think a couple yuri (!) fics, even twincest (maybe a little too MUCH twincest...

Suffice it to say I was flattered and amused. Later on also when the thread went to the "healing" of ff.net as Vallea puts it:

10/21/01 ::seventeenth:: - re: Man, Go To www.fanfiction.net. It Rules. :^D
I... don't... know! :^D ::falls over:: How will I read Truest Kind?... ;_; That ficcy has Knives-sama in it... It's SWEET... ::hugs Knives-sama:: You so crazy! X^D (Knives-sama: -_- ;; ::starting to get used to it::)

Ahhh...

And now that that bragging is over... I'm frustrated with my other potential story. It could be SO good... but it's so flat. There are so mny little details in the page and a half, but there's no emotion. UGH. I could die.

Yeah, I guess I'll just have to rewrite it. 'In comram beus!' ol Cet. 'Rot-bia son', ol cach. :p

Did well in Old Irish today cept for vocab quiz. Oh well.

"On with the contest!" said Cet. "There will be it for you," said everyone.

Marie is warm on my lap. I love my kitties. I do.

Hn. Time to actually start Caffeine's strip for tomorrow. I have an early day. Though not as early as today. 7:30 am is not my cup of tea. XD Forgive the pun, as I had coffee at Java Hut.

-K
cold cold cold

Sunday, November 4, 2001, 12:24 a.m.

!!!!

I met that girl whom I adore that drives across from me when I drive Alpha on Friday!! ^_^

Her name is Brit, apparently, and she gave me a ride up to the GRC to get my car (she drives NA/BR on Saturdays). Apparently some dude had run out in front of her bus today and she had to file an incident report. She didn't hit him (too bad -_-), but she had to brake very suddenly. Bad bad bad.

And with surveyors on her bus!

Ugh, kinda tired. Wrote a ficcy today, but even Dave said it was flat. -_- He's right. I wish my Trigun stuff had the same spark my kwg stuff does... sigh. My writing's been crappy recently. I attribute it to the lack of sleep and/or time.

I definitely need more friends. Hopefully... Jason-tachi.

Was told I was making Jeremy cry tonight from Steve. I definitely felt bad, but... x.x; Dude, I just don't want to be in a relationship! ;.;

Okay... umm...

The other pianist besides Sarah for Chorale Spectrum looks just like Min from the back... but she's Chinese, so... x.x

Yeah, performance tomorrow.

I cause quite a stir when Chozie didn't drive (she got sick) and I showed up for my shift at 5, and not 4. But oh well. The RO messed up, not me. z.z;

Okay, going to read something for Vallea, and then try to rewrite that stupid fic that is an awesome idea with awesome elements, but an AWFUL follow-through. Ugh.

-K

Friday, November 2, 2001, 11:36 p.m.

nemusugimasu

I wonder how many entries I've titled that... x.x

I'm so tired... off to bed in a sec... just wanted to post in some vain attempt to pretend that people cared that I'm still alive. ^_~

-K

Monday, October 29, 2001, 10:28 p.m.

sleepy

I am sleepy. I need to do my Old Irish stuff. I need to sleep. Was very grumpy earlier, but am alive now. Have many rants that I don't have time to write. Grr. If anyone is interested in writing a rant a la MegaTokyo to stick on my comicky thing (about pretty much anything) just send it/IM me or something. z.z;

-K

Sunday, October 28, 2001, 01:55 a.m.

kama wa nai

I guess I'm generally annoyed.

Yeah, that's a good way to put it.

I miss a lot of people. A lot.

I miss Pippi a lot. I haven't actually been able to talk to her in what seems like months, talk to her for real, except for briefly this past Wednesday. (Yes, you should have tapes coming Monday, btw. ^^;) I guess we've just been on at completely opposite times, what with Dave taking up the computer constantly and me on campus for usually 8 hours a day at least. But it's sad, you know? It's like I've been reading her blog and it's strange because it's all new to me, whereas before we'd chat and I'd know everything going on in her life... Sad indeed...

And Meta? I've gotten a couple emails, but haven't seen her online. Been reading her blog too. It's tough with her too. I feel gulty because I know I haven't been giving her enough attention, but I'm so worn out all the time... granted, that's not really an excuse at all. But it's hard... she can be very demanding, and take things the wrong way. I really don't mean to be rude or insulting or seem like I'm busy, but I feel like I'm being forced into a corner when she IMs me. I miss what we used to be like. I wish that it would go back to that relaxed goofing around. I need that in my life; I need female friends. But I can't feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells with people because I get too easily frustrated.

Dawn? We talk. Sort of. Empty, idle, meaningless chatter. Did we ever not, I wonder? What am I looking for?

Funny, recently the best conversations I've been having have been with Amy. It was strange; she confessed to me that she was worried about teaching, and suddenly I felt so reassured, that I wasn't just a bother to her, someone constantly emaiing her and demanding her attention. Someone whom she was nice enough to talk to, but not an equal. But when she told me that... it was long, too... I was just so happy. How often do you get told that you actually mean something to someone?

I saw Kei on Wednesday too. It was strange. I miss talking to her online, and she's so quiet in real life. Even Pippi at her quietest isn't as quiet as Kei is normally. I always feel like I'm walking all over her when we do anything. The only time she ever seems excited is when she talks about the books she reads, which, of course, I've never read, and she goes on and on about the characters like I know what she's talking about. It's mildly disconcerting. She's much easier to talk to online, which seems strange and somewhat amusing, since most people are easier to talk to in real life.

Yuck. x.x

I'm still working on that crappy Trigun fic, which is still crappy and crappy. I still owe Amy that fic and have a few more, probably for Trigun. Wow, I hate fangirls. -_-

On the other hand, I'm reasonably proud of Caffeine, which has very few viewers, but is somehow intrinsically satisfying. I really like all my characters. Of course, the art is not amazing, but that's part of what I like. It's really simple, whereas the characters are reasonably complex (which you can't really tell yet unfortunately), and it sort of offsets it, I think, rather nicely.

Happy Daylight Savings Time, everyone.

It says 1:11 am on my clock right now. The above time is from before DST.

I'm tired. And worn out. Midterms were last week. Old Irish was death. I have to work and finish my Old Irish translation and deal with Josiah and my dad and write a paper on that stupid book for the English class I hate and write about 400 journal entries for theater which I keep just not doing. Kuyashii mo ne.

All I have to say is this: Thank goodness for Vallea in keeping my sanity reasonably intact. I'll give her cookies everyday.

Oh, and Jason and Shannon at the very least (which probably means also Chris) will probably be taking me out for my birthday. ^_^

I like my new background/wallpaper thing too. It amuses me. I'll probably post it later, being the shameless slut that I am.

-K
cold, 127.9, though 122.9 in South Hadley(?) on 116

Saturday, October 27, 2001, 09:42 p.m.

atarashii mono ^_^

New layout. ^^;; Not that I update much anymore. -_- Okay, okay, I'll try to more. XD Not like you read it!

-K