meh

Meh is the sound Peaches makes in annoyed contentment. I say it a lot. Past midnight marks a very special day, very happy to me, and very sad. You see, today was my grandmother's birthday, before she died, but it's also Meta's birthday. And so I wish her the safest and happiest birthday ever, and I swear I shall call her tomorrow with the phone card purchased with my blood.

The end.

-me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 12:19 a.m., Tuesday, November 26, 2002

what else?

Guess there's nothing left to do but apologize. It's too bad I don't really feel guilty for most of it, except one thing...

I had a strange dream two nights, in which I was... kissing? someone unexpected. It wasn't quite erotic nor quite pure and not very detailed, but it was probably the second to last person that I thought I'd dream about in that way. Very strange.

My scarf for my mother is going well, though somehow I seem to be adding a number of stitches as I go along. It's wide, but looks nice. But there are other things I need to finish first...

It seems I must write.

-J

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 08:11 p.m., Sunday, November 24, 2002

stupid

I feel so crappy.

Today everyone tried (sort of) to be nice and give me a sort of surprise birthday party thing at Ichiban, and while I was grateful for the sentiments, I really just wanted to go home and cry because I felt tierd and yucky and just didn't want to be there and I don't really like karaoke. It was so stupid. I'm an idiot. Instead of trying to be gracious and grateful to my friends I was self-centered and harsh. I'm always stupid. I think it's a trend. I must have forgotten self-pitying too. But I'm so tired after classes and working and studying and thinking that it's so hard to force myself to go out, especially after an 8 hour day like today. Stressful, too, two bus accidents and a flat inner dual.

I feel like such a jerk. Everyone I'm sure thought I was acting like a baby. Part of me says I don't care: I told everyone pretty flat out that I didn't want to do anything for my birthday. It's kind, yes, but still. I hate the feeling of unwanted attention. It makes me uncomfortable. The other part of me says I was cruel and stupid, and should probably apologize to everyone. Probably. But I just get so tired of feeling like I have to take care of everyone. It's time to grow up, folks, and while I'm there to help, sure, I'm sick of helping with baby steps. I'm sick of my kindness being met by cruelty. And I'm SICK of lying to spare everyone's feelings. Perhaps I will go on hiatus for a while. I don't care if everyone calls me a homebody, though part of me does, because I can't help it if I'm tired all the time, I can't help it if I don't want to do things that everyone else wants to do, and I can't help it if I don't like karaoke. There's something that just makes it not fun. Stupid. I'm angry. I'm sick of having to share a room and not being able to cry, and being stuck taking care of everything at home, and if it's not done it's my fault, and my parents pulling at me from both sides, and my grades bogging me down because I have to get stupid As so I can graduate and always having to go to class and never seeing my best friends who I so desperately miss, despite two being so close, and always feeling like I have to second guess myself because I'll never quite measure up and I never do. I'll never be cute and I'll never be the smartest or the best in anything, and I KNOW I have to accept, but is it so much to ask for anyone to actually like me for who I am? Not who I want to be, or pretend to be, but for someone who knows me.... there's only ever really been four people... but I think they've forgotten... I wouldn't be surprised...

I have these dreadfully sinking feelings that I'll never amount to anything. I was supposed to publish my great book by 18... then 20... then 21... but here I am, still with empty paper. I haave NOTHING to show for years of practice, npthing but some half-hearted poems and bad short stories. I'm STUPID. I'm a stupid burden on everyone and they shouldn't have taken me out because NO ONE wanted to be there, and I didn't deserve it. I ruined everyone's night and I should have just acted all happy and surprised but I CAN'T because I'm stupid and selfish. I don't know what to do. Is there anything?

I think I'll run away to Ireland and become a hermit. Or a nun maybe. That's looking more and more likely. And Steph and Sevali were so kind to me it made me just want to cry, because they don't know me... but...

Okay, I'm just going to go talk to Dawn. Maybe she'll make me sane.

-J

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 02:05 a.m., Saturday, November 23, 2002

Amy = troublemaker

Well, she does. That's all I gotta say. That's all I can say. ^_^;;

There was no bus for me today at work... 41 am. Left late when some other bus came back... argh. Oh well.

Jess is talking to me too much right now, signing off.

Love, me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 11:34 p.m., Monday, September 30, 2002

blaaahhhhh

Sooooooo tired... I worled 11.25 hours today. o_o

BUT! It's because...

I got hired as an RO. *___* YAY!!! A whole dollar more an hour plus a super fun job. More training tomorrow, 9-3 I think. Yuck. When is there time for hw and sleep?

Lauren Bushey got into an accident yesterday but she was okay. Stupid lady thought it would be a good idea to park her car on the bumper of a bus going 50 MPH. Yup. Smart. Same day as I had my interview and got hired for it. *__* It's nice cuz I'm in the same class as Matt Moretti, Dennis Benoit, Neil Roza, and Stuart. ^_^v Yay.

Stupid loud people outside kept me up late last night. Kill. I hear them again.

Me go sleepies soon. Must take iron so I can give blood, not like yesterday where they reject me cuz my iron is too low. ;_; SAD! I even got a sticker that said I was a first time donor BUT THEN IT TURNS OUT I'M FREAKING ANEMIC! GRRRRRRRRR!

Ahem. Okay, I'm good. Time for sleepies.

Love, me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 10:49 p.m., Saturday, September 28, 2002

Ending Disappointment

[Reading this first may assuage what confusion might come]

Our young Lysander, with conquest halted cold,
With wracking sobs in the tender forest,
Lies, bitter in soul, voice raised in false jest:
"Dear Cloris! In my youth, I have grown old!"
The nymph, meanwhile, trespassed in choler dark,
Spite still sneered on her lips, eschewing love,
Or lust! condemning with that word his move,
Despite her heart which bore the arrow's mark.
She stands to leave, and in leaving denies
Her need of Lysander and his false tries.

Deliberately she storms away,
Her final destination not unknown.
Boldly she makes her way through brush, a frown
Pressed firmly to her mouth. At last the way
Opens before her, the road to her home,
And with firm yet delicate steps she strode
Down the familiar path, the ancient road,
And makes her way to the garden, alone.
Thus Lysander she would need no longer.
Disgust feeds into her growing hunger.

So deftly off a vine of green she plucks
A sweet, succulent fruit, firm and slender.
She examines it around and over
And decides it is wor-

to be continued :p Dave bugs me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 10:20 p.m., Monday, September 23, 2002

GRRRR

I'm going to fricking break my brother's neck. And enjoy every minute of it.

Reality has rules because they are necessary. Rules are necessary to keep other people from killing each other, like I'm going to kill him.

So my rule is that he doesn't go up in my room. It's my room, right? Course, now I have a roommate. Okay, fine. She's his girlfriend. BUT WE ALL AGREED - ALL THE ROOMMATES - THAT THERE WOULD BE NO SIGNIFICANT OTHERS IN EACH OTHERS ROOMS. This is because it would make everyone feel uncomfortable. IT DOES. HE DOES NOT LIVE HERE AND SHOULD NOT BE MAKING THE PEOPLE WHO DO LIVE HERE UNCOMFORTABLE.

Last night, he asked me if it would be okay to (and I quote) "tuck Jess in". I flatly said no - it's my room, too. He stormed upstairs and said: "Well, it's HER room too!!" Well, of course it is! But she didn't freaking ask him to "tuck her in"!!

FRIGGIN A.

I think the next time he does something like that, he's definitely going to get screamed at, which will make things very uncomfortable in my house for a bit, but I'm already uncomfortable enough. Jess got mad that Tati and Colin were up here (mind you, nothing sexual was going on), but the only reason they were up here was because they felt uncomfortable downstairs as Jess and Jon were making out!!! This is getting really annoying and unfair. I know I sound like a demanding little kid, but I'm getting really sick of this.

-J
ARGH

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 04:59 p.m., Monday, September 2, 2002

ikiteimasu :p

Peter is here. It's nice except for my pit of a house. >.< Back from Baltimore... Dave got all of Giant Robo, so he's happy... I got Dave's bday present, so I'm happy. This is all. Peter placed 19th in the DDR contest, and Fred placed 5th or 6th. Fred got on my nerves the entire con. Dunno why. I think part of me is going a little crazy. I could ruminate on it, but it's nearly 2, and tomorrow the entire house must be cleaned for Jess, especially my room.

Sigh.

-me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 01:57 a.m., Friday, August 2, 2002

catching up

Hmmm... much has happened.

So I went to MV with Kei and we chilled. I played MAX2 (*_*) and made Kei play a game, and then Dance Freaks, and again made Kei play a game. ^_^ It was FUN. Sorta like PPP, but not... x.x Saw a lot of transit people there, including Luis twice, which was cool. I like my transit people. I went there and back for freeeee except for the ferry. My PVTA card is magic. Boobs don't hurt. ^_^

So... Cinemark got a 4th mix with memory card slots... nice. I wanna do a Young Forever edit. Mmm...

Yesterday night I went out with Martin to Friendly's. The ho paid for me!! Argh!! I chose too expensive a meal for him to pay for me!! Ehn, but we had a good conversation. I really like to tease him... Did that count as a date? I remember when I was younger that my ideal date was going to Friendly's and talking for hours over some ice cream or something. It's not that way anymore, but it came to my today driving back east and I laughed. Martin's such a dear. I think if he did ask me out I'd go for it. Can't hurt, right? ^_~

I've worked a lot, but not enough. I went swimming a couple times in the pool at Squire. Nice and cool. I'm glad it's not 104 like it was earlier this week. YUCK. I stayed at transit for a while extra to avoid the heat. Speaking of transit, Heather and I drove a field trip the other day. Our own walkie talkies!! Fun!! We got to drive Taiwanese people around campus in 15 minute loops for three hours. BLAH. Fortunately, the Taiwanese people were really nice. ^_^

I love my kitties. I love Pepe Lopez and Boo Boo Kitty too.

Okay, need food. Stomach hurts.

Gotta buy booze and cancer sticks tomorrow. ^____^

-me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 11:39 p.m., Saturday, July 6, 2002

:D

Hm, at work, so I have to make this brief.

I actually have had a working computer... I just haven't updated because I am lazy. Been watching the World Cup, you know. ^_^ Ahhh, Korea, why did you lose?? No more pretty young men for me...

Ooh, wait, Germany has pretty young men too... WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Ahem. Just kidding.

You know what's funny? I'm totally over Martin. Nice guy. Still cute as anything. But just not my type. The even funnier thing is that since I've realized this, we've been talking and hanging out a ton. He even picked me up from work yesterday. Hmm. Hmm indeed.

Okay, going to take off. Maybe write more later. Hm.

-me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 07:44 a.m., Thursday, June 27, 2002

living

YAY I'm finally online for a moment. My compie hasn't been working because of some keyboard thing (maybe) which means it won't go online. So... Maybe I shall fix it. Maybe not. In any case, I am alive.

Congrats to Mike and Peter who placed 4th and 3rd respectively in the tourney. I'm sorry I didn't go now. ^_^;

-me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 07:18 a.m., Monday, June 17, 2002

disjointed sleepy

Bad Tatiana = thong for me. Cry
I now have 9 wearable bras.
hot hot hot hot
1 hour of sleep last night, three the previous night
Gatehouse Road is not as scary as I think it is
open ams are bad
I like sleep
5 am is when I have to get up tomorrow, so night
I heart Meta ;_;
I heart Tati ;_;
Dave looks darn good in his new clothes
weird canadian mounty jacket freak

-me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 08:07 p.m., Tuesday, June 11, 2002

foxy mcfox

I saw a fox running across the road today driving home from dropping off Tatiana. So pretty...

Much DDRing. What a surprise. :p Sorry I missed you, Meta. ;_;

No, unfortunately, karaoke this evening. I h8 u, colin!!! Anyway. Both Colin and Martin backed out, so Tati and I got lazy. Maybe next Friday, since Dave has it off...

I am tired. I need to drive at 11:30 or something like that. Blaaaahhh... unless someone took my shift out of swap...? I dun wanna drive...

Waaahhhh... didn't clean house like I was supposed to...

My thoughts are so convoluted... I guess this is really how I think... blah.

-me

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 03:31 a.m., Sunday, June 9, 2002

z.z

I think I am going sleepies now. Must clean house tomorrow. No karaoke. Sad. Another 9 foot song. Lupin the 3rd. Surprisingly easy, or is it 5th mix?

arrrr....

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 11:49 p.m., Friday, June 7, 2002

need water

I keep getting reminded by stupid small things that my boobs are so big... it's ridiculous. Tried on some more swimsuits at Deb's today while I was bugging Tati, and lord, these things are ridiculous...

Speaking of Tati... this is what she looks like.

Urg. Visited Colin in his projection booth. I hate driving SU/SA, but I'm doing it again tomorrow... wah. Fortunately I have 41 Eve on Friday... but... that means no possibility of Friendly's night. ;_;

Hnn... I am thirsty. Life is boring and I am always tired, which is no good. Feh. I shall get drink.

-K
thunder and lightning and downpours, oh my!

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 12:44 a.m., Thursday, June 6, 2002

preserving

Dawn: the tv dinners my mum tries to feed us sometimes are terrible o.o they taste like what I imagine a cat scraped off the side of the road and wrapped in cellophane would taste.
me: O_O

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 01:11 a.m., Tuesday, June 4, 2002

kitanai

I feel dirty. Not like a whore, but close.

But what was my other option? Ignore the fact he was hugging me? Ignore the fact that I enjoyed it? Pretend that he wasn't drunk?

Self-flagellation won't get me far... he said though, that there was someone he was half in love with... I suppose since I didn't get my hopes up so high, that it's not a big deal. Maybe I shouldn't have told anyone though. I'm silly. I'm way too silly.

And I'm tired. I had a Smirnoff Ice for the first time. It was okay, but not great. He had 5, in the course of a little over an hour...

Maybe I'm just dwelling on things. I don't want to rush anything, right?

I wish I'd just asked him who, though. For goodness' sake, he's dated models... I don't really have much to compare to that, that's for sure.

Whatever. Stop dwelling, self. Get over your self.

I hope I have enough money for coffee tomorrow...

-K

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 02:04 a.m., Sunday, June 2, 2002

Fruit 2 0

I got my tooth out this morning. It wasn't very painful, except for when they put the Novocaine shot on the roof of my mouth. Owie. I was really scared, but it took all of five minutes for them to yank it out. I got to keep it too.

Meta, IM me or email me or something if you made it back alive. ;_;

Ugh. I am awash in guilt and pleasure. Don't take that the wrong way, pervs. :p There are two separate causes for such feelings.

On one hand, I need to be true to myself. I just do. When I've tried not to before, I've just been resoundingly unhappy. That's not fair to me, nor is it fair to anyone else.

But there is the nagging half that wants others to be happy (or at least happy so far as I can bring them). I mean, I can say no. I really can. I have, in fact, and will continue to do so, because if I am unhappy myself, I will just bring unhappiness to everyone else.

And boy, I'm MAD obnoxious when I'm truly unhappy.

Ugh.

Jon's beat more 9 footers than me, but it's funny cuz I'm still better than him. Ehn. Whatever.

Mommy was funny today and made a comment saying that she didn't want me to get anorexic. As if THAT would happen. :p Geez.

James got Konamix and a pad. I have a feeling that, like Dave, he will get sick of it fairly quickly.

Tati is in Montreal with Emili. Poor girl. >.< And that means no free coffee for me. Hmph. ^_~ Andrew's a nice lad though, but his screen name makes me think of a girl...

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.

But I'm not so much frustrated as resigned. There's nothing I can do. There is no wrong or right here.

Icky. I wish I could brush my teeth. ;_; Darn you, blood clot!! Give me my tooth back!!! ;;_;;

It rained a lot today, very gustily. Martin came over to ask me if I wanted to go to Friendly's with him, but I was asleep. Curses. Ehn, whatever. I couldn't really eat anyway, but... it would have been nice.

No, I am not desperate for attention. -_- Really... No, really!!

-K

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 03:26 a.m., Saturday, June 1, 2002

back

It seems that Meta will be back soon too.

AZ was very mediocre. It had highlights, such as the love motels and the hot tub. Ask me about them.

Ooh. Guess who IMed me. YUP. I think this may call for closing this up and putting everyone else on hold... in thirty minutes when he is back... hmm...

-k

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 11:48 p.m., Thursday, May 30, 2002

final

How strange to have handed in my last paper of the year. How pleasant. No more Old Irish either.

I want a bumper sticker that says: "I'd rather be playing Dance Dance Revolution". That would amuse me.

Waiting for Andrea and Chris to get here so I can show them wear to feed and scoop poop. Yay.

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 03:19 p.m., Tuesday, May 21, 2002

Yay!

Me and Tati got bikinis. We are cute. Cute and fat. ^_^; At least me...

Peter never ceases to crack me up.

6-Tatiana was yelling random stuff like "BUKKAKE!" Tatiana really likes that stuff...
I woke up to see Tatiana sitting right next to me, staring at me. I felt pretty strange and I was, like, confused.

Completely amusing. That boy cracks me up. Everyone should bother him because he "hates people", yeah right. ^_~

I hope you're having fun in Korea, Meta. ;_; My kitties say hi.

Okay, I must go back to writing my paper, since it is 3. Due in 9 hours, yuck. Only a few pages left... hurrah.

1.419?? Outrageous!!! And way way way too cold

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 02:57 a.m., Tuesday, May 21, 2002

x.x;

Good lord, as if I didn't have enough to worry about. Part of my tooth just feel out. It seems I might get it pulled Monday.

x.x;

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 12:55 p.m., Saturday, May 18, 2002

Decent day tho

It's nice to know I'm not deluding myself about him. Everyone seems to like him too.

Sigh.

Too bad he hardly knows I exist.

He still makes me laugh all the time. I am totally pitiful. -_- Tati-tachi should give up on me and leave me to my own lonely cat-ish devices.

Argh.

I don't think somber really fits my mood category. Most of my moods are bi-adjectived. Quietly brooding. Or something.

Argh.

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 02:40 a.m., Saturday, May 18, 2002

I'm not as creepy as I look

First and second convo, the second actually real.

MnJ finished, no time to watch. ;_;

So... happy... ;_;

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 12:14 a.m., Thursday, May 16, 2002

Stalkx0r

I am a creepy stalker.

But I am smart enough to have someone else do the dirty work. ^_~

Heh heh.

On a separate thought, Meta. ;_; You need a happier song to remind me of you...

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 12:38 a.m., Tuesday, May 14, 2002

Stalkx0r

I am a creepy stalker.

But I am smart enough to have someone else do the dirty work. ^_~

Heh heh.

On a separate thought, Meta. ;_; You need a happier song to remind me of you...

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 12:38 a.m., Tuesday, May 14, 2002

Did I mention I love Tatiana?

No, really. XD

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 12:20 a.m., Tuesday, May 14, 2002

non-sequiturs

I guess, when it comes down to it, I really do believe in true love.

Stuff is falling from my sky.

Mike is a PirateSmurf.

I am surprisingly not desperate.

Losing weight is not as hard as I think.

Hair is important.

I am leaving for Animazement in 9 days. O.o;;;;

How is Min going to be a mom and a doctor full time for both? O.o

I really really like food. x.x

I also love the makers of Splenda. I want Splenda to have my baby.

I love Majo no Joken. Curse you, Meta. ;_;

Need. Screen. Name. ;_;

Poor Dawn. x.x

Jaina and Vallea and Grey etc etc etc in 9 days. *-*

Mm. Puzzle Fighter.

Mm. X-Japan.

Mm.

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 10:47 p.m., Monday, May 13, 2002

Hmmm

Tired. Very tired. Good DDR with Tati today though, who makes all things better. Must arise early, however, in order to take pics of Gizmo. Hmm... Which means finding the camera.... argh.

Nothing much exciting. Work. Bought mommy nice present. I want to keep it though, so, hmm... Maybe I'll get myself another.

Pretty content. Saw te back of his head today while walking by. :p How sad am I?

NOT AS SAD AS TATIANA!! XD!!!!

Ahem. Anyway.

Jaina hoshiiii.... ;_; Animazement tooi yo... ;_;

-K

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 01:23 a.m., Sunday, May 12, 2002

Disgust

I'm so tired. I remembered that boy's name though. Ben. Ben. No, I don't think I want to go ice skating with you, though it's sort of flattering. Sort of.

He didn't come tonight. I honestly wasn't expecting him to. Despite this, just in case, I bought a whole new cute outfit, did my hair, and wore nice make up. Yup. Ugh.

I'm so sick of the politics in the CAS. SICK of them. I work SO hard for this STUPID party and they won't even let me listen to the music that I worked hard to get? Right. Yeah. I was in charge of this party. If they had wanted a say in the matter, they should have said something BEFORE I did the work, not to tell me right before that I was giving everyone a wrong image. Maybe I'm wrong, but I think old cartoons are fun.

Screw you. Maybe I'll just pull a Jacob.

Course, if Jessiqa is joining, then I won't. She's cool.

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. There are very few people on my good list, and most of them are boys. UGH.

I did most of the cleaning, but like 5 people stayed and helped, which was nice. There's cheesecake in my car.

Okay, going to talk to Vallea about MnJ.

Where's my Jaina? I miss her...

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 10:00 p.m., Friday, May 10, 2002

I would like to note the Majo no Joken 9 is up.

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, ahem. No, I am NOT crying. Noooo... of course not.

Eheheheheheheheheheh...

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 01:56 a.m., Friday, May 10, 2002

In forgetting

Isn't it always that any poetry gets lost on the way out of your fingers?

META! ;_; Kaishete... hoshii... ;_; Kiri no mono da yo... ;_; Aitai...

Hnn... I seem to have categorized people into comfortable slots. This is reassuring, because I like to know where I stand with people.

Just got back from diner. Sigh. I dunno, I'm not really "all cool" with the comic book club. There's definitely a HUGE line that separates me from them. It's not like this with the DDR crew. Even people I just met, like Colin or Tatiana, I feel totally comfortable with. I don't know why. Is that silly? Even most of the people that I just met in Nashua, I can just talk to them. Chris I can always talk to. ^_~ He just doesn't fit in the other categories.

I dunno. Where do I go? I mean, Wendy's awesome, Claire's a dear, but there's not just that same... understanding? Enjoyment to be around? I don't think I'm that hard to understand, but maybe I'm lying.

It's like (and this sounds stupid) when reading Tatiana's blog, I'm just like, "Oh. I know exactly what she means. That makes perfect sense." It's just... weird. I'm positive that I could do anything like that with Jason's group. I guess they aren't as honest with me (or as forward, or as shameless, or as proud) as my DDR crew. Despite the fact that I hardly know who Peter is aside from his lj, I also think I /do/ know who he is. Urgh... I'm making no sense.

Sir is running around like a mad kitty. I think I'll go put a shirt on.

Benadryl, here I come.

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 12:51 a.m., Friday, May 10, 2002

today

My head hurts. Stupid allergies. It'd bed time fairly soon.

Last day of judo today. Very sad.

You know how I feel about him, if I even do. Am I super stupid or what? Yes. Yes, I am.

Ugh.

Do things ever just go away? Do I want them too?

I'm good at short sentences, I guess.

Shortcuts party tonight. Ehn. Yay?

Okay. Going to talk in chat.

Saw him today. He was cute. I wanted to talk to him, but I couldn't. I'm so busy this week. Need to find more comic-related songs.

See ya.

-me
warm, 139.9

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 11:06 p.m., Wednesday, May 8, 2002

lost poems

i could touch you if i could just reach through the wall
they never say how easy it is, how hard
they never tell you what it'll be like
seeing you smile
you wonder, when do you know
you wonder, how do you know
you wonder, is my face more beautiful now
or are they just more desperate
they never tell you the silly things you'll do
they never say how you'll make me laugh
i'm lost and i can't find the door
i'm lost and i can't find a window
i'm lost
i can't reach through the wall

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 10:20 p.m., Wednesday, May 8, 2002

green leafs

Tatiana is mad cool.

I tried to call Meta. No answer. Sad.

Concert Sunday...

Spiderman was thoroughly enjoyable. Went with thte DDR crew, Colin, Peter, Noah, Dave, me, Tati, Amy, Anthony, Tim... umm... who am I forgetting? I am the puzzle fighter champion currently... scary!

Old Irish is going away soon... B- on test though. Blah. Was hoping for a B. ;_;

Ehn. Tired. Dinering anyway. I love my kitties. ^_^

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 11:55 p.m., Monday, May 6, 2002

Hmm.

So yesterday I held a three week old kitten they found at the shelter who was shaky and couldn't really purr and sucked on my chin. I loved him.

They also found a dead baby in the trash can in Southwest.

Today Tati and I molested poor Peter. He has a six pack. He has QUITE the six pack. I have never poked a six pack before.

It is 4 am. I am tired. Good night.

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 04:06 a.m., Saturday, May 4, 2002

Smart ones.

Ninety-nine cent TV dinners plus money equals a full belly.

Concert is tomorrow. Boy alto is adorable. Looks 8. Want to hug him.

SLEEPY. So booked tomorrow. Yuck.

Good point, must look up where that make up class is.

Must call Meta soon.

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 11:14 p.m., Wednesday, May 1, 2002

A Layout Indeed

Not as pretty as Meta's, but... it'll have to do. ^^; Cu Chulain rules, but Emer and Loeg rule more. Thank you. The end.

PS: I downloaded a very strange song called the Sickbed of Cuchullain. Yeah.

Emer went after Cu Chulain with knives at 02:41 a.m., Wednesday, May 1, 2002