Friday, January 25, 2002, 11:20 p.m.

do you care anymore what you thought of the sky?
is it darker where you are? so then where am i?
you forgot what we came for; between you and me,
it seems as though you forgot everything

you think yourself safe behind bars you erect,
you fill yourself full of your frozen neglect,
you don't understand that the error is mine,
or maybe it's both; or just in your mind;

or my mind, but still, in the end it comes down
it doesn't matter which way

you still aren't around

Friday, January 18, 2002, 10:00 p.m.

AFK

I'm sorry, but I'll probably be somewhat "not here" for a while. Yesterday at about 4 pm, Dave went out for a cigarette. When he came back in, the door, which had just had repairs done to it and has not been shutting, did not shut, and three of my cats escapes outside (strangely enough, not Marie, the only one quasi-allowed out). Ame was lured in by food, Peaches eventually came back (we had not actually been sure that she was out, but apparently she had been), but we still have not been able to find Sir. I've put up a few signs and set up a trap, but so far I've caught two possums and a skunk. I don't really want to deal with any people right now, so I probably won't be on very much. Sorry. I'll work on the fic muses stuff eventually and maybe respond to emails. Sorry.

-K

Saturday, January 12, 2002, 09:26 p.m.

So what have /you/ been up to, Kiri?

A lot, really. ^_^; Lots of DDR. Hanging around with one of my dearest friends, whom I really ought to see more often, and have tentative plans with again this weekend. Making adorable icons (I am humble). Fighting with my brother. Devising schemes to make angels rise and fall. Ignoring TK (not intentionally!! and I'll do it right after this x.x!) Chilling with my darlings Jaina and Lily (where are you, Vallea? T_T) Sleeping. A lot of sleeping. Mostly at odd hours. Coming to terms with something that I've thought for a while. Realizing that I don't really like school. Realizing I am getting old. Realizing Dave's sister sent us a rice cooker. ^__^

To S--- K---:
By the way, I have also been getting sick of your childish behaviour. You hide from me, avoid me, ignore me... If you hate me, then say it. I would rather lose a dear friend than be trying to resurrect a dead friendship. I don't like to waste my time. If you need time off from me, you can tell me that too. I'd hate to think that after all this time you can't even be bothered to tell me something that little. My feelings will be hurt more if you continue this charade. I am sick of it. So knock it off.

Becky is moving back to CA. I'm more apathetic than anything else. I feel bad about that, but... What am I supposed to do?

Am I hypocritical? Probably.

The other thought that flashes through my mind... with how poopy I've been recently... how on earth is it that Jaina and Lily put up with me? Especially Jaina. The poor girl listens to all my rants. I shiver to think... x.x

So I'm getting decent at DDR, which is pleasing. I can pass Dirty Mix on trick, Dam Dariram on maniac, and Gimme Gimme Gimme on maniac. Ehn... still can't do Butterfly Upswing on trick. Mental block? I can pass most 7 feet, reasonably easily if I've read it before, but if I'm sightreading it's usually a D or so. ^^; C on Dynamite Rave te other day on trick. Ehn. I'm very fond of many quick steps in succession as opposed to lots of double jumps and double steps. Sigh. I wanna play Ba Kkwo. Twas fun.

But TK and cute little icons beckon. Lily definitely came out the best. Here is what I have done.

Nathan, Erin, Jaena, Lily, Nikolas, Vallea, Joh, from left to right. I think Nik is a little too short though. Minus the hair, he should almost as tall as Nathan. x.x Saa na. Off I go.

-K
chilly? I had a horrible dream that gas prices skyrocketed... x.x it was bizarre...

Tuesday, January 8, 2002, 03:29 a.m.

Ba Kkwo

Meta: "Nobody is in their right mind"
Kiri: XD
Meta: "Everyone is going crazy"
Meta: Ooh...Min is gonna do the rest for me...I love Min.
Kiri: XD
Kiri: Min = Meta no ho
Meta: "who can i trust
how can i trust
can't trust any more
who is dissing who."

Kiri: XD
Meta: "so how clean are you? you and me both, we're materials (? -_-;; things) entrenched (is there such a word?) in this world."
Kiri: entrenched yes ^^
Meta: Yes Min...entrenched is a word
Kiri: I love Min ^^
Meta: "why is a girl's past a sin that can't be forgiven? everything's changed. don't mistaken me for someone i was before."

Kiri: ^_^
Meta: "even if you regret discarding me, it's now too late."
Meta: "'thangth it was a must to trust you now i crush you analysin my brain'" That's the English rap part....I have no idea what the first word is supposed to be. >_<;; I guess they mispelled it
Kiri: thangth o.o
Meta: "your hypocritic love
you want to love me again?
do you want me to come back to you?
if so, i wish you would change."

Meta: "i wish you would hold on to me before it's too late."
Kiri: change change change change?
Kiri: XD
Meta: "change change change change everything change change change.
change all the love change change change all the lies change change.
change change change all the world."

-K

Monday, January 7, 2002, 01:43 a.m.

yay yay

*_*

Amy rules *_*

drove home in blizzard

got blisters from ddr

too lazy to update more now x.x must sleep

-K
snowy

Friday, January 4, 2002, 03:08 a.m.

carma

From an email to Imo-girl. I'm too lazy to type it out more than once.

Oh yeah! Speaking of which, I have to tell you my fun story. ^^ While I eat my orange of course. XD Yay orange!!

So yesterday Dave got his tire fixed. He had had a flat since before thanksgiving, and just recently got the money to fix it. ^^; But he got it fixed and it was happy and new and good.

So we went to the diner to work on the plot of an RPG I'm trying to make with my brother the programmer, blabbed a bit there, them started home. I pulled over in front of the mailbox to let Dave get the mail, but as he was getting in, suddenly my car felt very strange. x.x

I asked him to look at it (bear in mind this was nearly 3 am -_-) and said, "Oh. x.x You have a flat."

X_x

I had never had a flat before. -_-;;;;

So anyway, we found a jack (in his car, because my trunk wouldn't open >>.<<), but then we had to find the jack lever to raise it. x.x This was a very long, cold production.

So we're squatted on the ground in twenty degree weather freezing our butts off, jacking up my car so the rim would bend or something (he insisted, since I had no idea what I was doing x.x). Eventually we finished that (yay x.x;;;) and then went to bed, everyone lived happily ever after, etc.

Until the next morning (which would be today ^^;; woo!) when I had to call AAA to replace my tire with the spare. -_-;;

"Your spare's flat too," my grumpy mean tow truck driver said. "But we can tow it."

He was grumpy. And mean. -_-; I didn't like him.

His assistant/trainee was nice though. ^_^ Too bad the other guy was so nasty. -_-;;

But anyway, they told me that my spare would prolly die on me on the way to the tire place, so they would have to tow me, which ended up costing me $9 (9 DDR games at the Hadley Mall and 20 DDR games at the Holyoke Mall, for those of you keeping track at home), but it was raaki!! because I actually had that cash on me (which I hardly ever do).

They took me to the tire place, and the nice tire people stared at me and told me they were shocked that I didn't have 3 other flat tires, because the only one in decent condition was apparently my back left one. x.o;; Dave had told me they looked fine, but who am I to argue? -_-;; I only know about bus tires (allllll about bus tires >.<) and none of this car business. Cars don't have slack adjusters or air lines. x.x They're weird!

Anyway... ^^; So I had to get 4 new tires. x.x; Argh. And alignment and my brakes are about 50% worn, so /that/ has to happen sometime soon. x.x Fortunately, I still have about 1500 miles until my oil change. -_-;;

So that is my exciting story. ^_^ Dave loses one tire and I lose three (sort of). Carma, right? ^___^

-K

Thursday, January 3, 2002, 06:29 p.m.

bad carma... get it? carma... ha ha ha x.x

I might write more later, but I'm passing out x.x

Saturday, December 29, 2001, 11:27 p.m.

Jooonnnu

Jon: tell dave to fix his computer
Kiri: ok
Kiri: you shot me
Kiri: >:
Jon: i shot you?
Kiri: yup
Jon: explain?
Kiri: because you wanted to live with the ants, you crazy boy
Jon: which ants?
Kiri: all ants
Kiri: you shot me a lot
Jon: i'm really missing something
Kiri: you thought the lives of the ants were precious
Kiri: THEY'RE JUST ANTS!!
Kiri: they're eating our food... destroying our homes
Kiri: THEY USE US!
Jon: anyways, i can't get my ranger into kunark, that bastard boat in the butcherblock mtns keep crashing on me
Kiri: JUST BECAUSE SOME ANT WOMAN TOLD YOU THAT THEIR LIVES WERE PRECIOUS.
Kiri: you freak
Kiri: you're betraying our kind
Jon: time to go play my druid, or maybe my shaman
Jon: why are you knives o.o; ?
Kiri: cuz I make more sense than you
Jon: i'm going to eat you and go live with the ants
Jon: tell dave to fix his computer
Kiri: EAT ME?? YOU ALREADY SHOT ME!!
Kiri: JOOOONNNN!!!!
Kiri: JOOOOOOONNNNU!
Jon: obviously not well enough, you're still talking
Jon: maybe i have a few spare bullets left..
Kiri: It's because you foolishly believe that all life has value!!
Jon: yeah, except yours
Jon: *shoots you in head*
Kiri: >: O
Kiri: JOOOOOOOOOOONNNU!!!
Kiri: YOU CAN'T KILL YOUR TWIN~!
Jon: see, and people ask me why i drink
Kiri: JOOOOOOOONNNNU!
Jon: shut up >=/
Kiri: ARE YUO GOING TO SHOOT ME AGAIN, JOOOONNNNU! T_T
Jon: only if you insist on being a fucking retard
Jon: drop it, it's getting annoying
Kiri: T_T
Jon: it's like a little kid repeating the same phrase over and over.. one of the few things that actually annoys me
Kiri: T_T Jooonu
Jon: whatu
Jon: have you come up with a lameass plot yet?
Kiri: T_T Live with me in Eden and not the ants. Kill ants with me. T_T

Tuesday, December 18, 2001, 07:14 p.m.

blah

Hmmm... I want to go to Ohio. ^_^; Or have Ohio come here. Either way.

Oi, Meta-darling? ^^; Do you have any more word on those summer plans you mentioned to me?

My mother just asked me something. I deleted my first response.

Mother: question....
Mother: this is your dinner.
Mother: but
IncendiaryWinds: ?
Mother: would it spoil it if john comes? and if so, never mind.
IncendiaryWinds: umm
IncendiaryWinds: I would have to think about that
Mother: i know...
IncendiaryWinds: and discuss with Jon
Mother: yes. jon would be the one who would struggle. although you might as well. I understand that.


I thought that was a fair answer. Right?

So I know what I'm making for desert for Christmas... yum yum. Strawberry cake, with green frosting. ^_^ Jon, if you are reading this, don't tell. ^_^

I'm darn hungry.

So today was my last day of antibiotics, which is good. And I've ignored this page for three hours... so I'm going. ^^; Werk tomorrow.

-K
chilly and windy and gas was friggin' 99 cents at the places near Occuhealth. Yum.

Sunday, December 16, 2001, 04:10 a.m.

yay

quick n dirty update

Fever of 103 wednesday night, went to Valley Medical Thursday, got meds, am much better. Throat no longer bleeding pain. Yay

very tired... date tomorrow

ugh

ugh ugh ugh

-K

Sunday, December 9, 2001, 10:34 p.m.

hm... kangaemasu...

You know what's sad? I'm still poopy about A.K. You would think by now, I'd be way over it, but no. I'm not. And every time I'm reminded I just get more sad and angry. It's disgusting. Why can't I keep friends?

No one came to my concert except Dave. I guess that's okay. He seemed to like it. I kinda want to send Jaina an MP3 when I get the CD because I want to see her opinion... it's kind of important to me. ^^; I dunno, I just seemed to click really well with her... It surprised me. She has this joking thing that I take really well, because I give it, but she knows the line, and can also be really tender. It's very appealing, and feels... safe, I guess. I don't have this fear with her like with A.K. or even L.A. I dunno, I'm a crackpot. And I'm ignoring my paper, though I know what I'm going to write it about. Which is good.

School is almost over... I've totally been ignoring TK and Caffeine... I wish I had been able to pick up more shifts, but it should work out. I'm sure I'll live. Maybe Stop and Shop will want me back for winter. :p yay.

E-Rotic rocks my world. No, really.

AAA on Drop the Bomb. Pleased.

I have a feeling I'm only going to do three papers and do the five page one for Wednesday... too bad I can't skip. :p

Okay, time to get back to work...

I have more comments... I wanna talk about Vallea next, but my brain is fried... mrrf.

-K
SNOW!! I'M SO HAPPY! 4 INCHES!!

Sunday, December 9, 2001, 01:20 a.m.

little woozy... tired... had a Grateful Dead and a Midori... yummy... but woozy... and tired...

drove home in the snow with the alcohol in me... I'm not actually out of it and/or drunk, just a little blurry, I guess. ^^ Typing is getting easier though...

I wanna play ddr with Jaina. She's huggable.

Got asked on a date tonight... next friday with Brian. Ain't Kiri just the little slut?

must sleep

-K

Saturday, December 8, 2001, 12:56 a.m.

What I want for Christmas

To be play DDR with Jaina ;.;
To totally mock fics with Vallea XD
To write a yummy yummy fic worthy of Jingu
To friggin sleep more than 6 hours a night

:p

-K

Friday, December 7, 2001, 12:42 a.m.

grunk

Tigerlily rules. ^_^ Dunno, she just does.

Bittersweet is definitely coming along. Amy rocks my world.

L. is getting a crap present for Christmas. I have yet to decide whether A. is getting one or not.

Jon's birthday is now. Happy birthday, little bro. ^_^ You're legal in Canada.

Jingu is amazing. Darn that girl. Like pu, but smuttier. ^^

Hungry, so ought to go soon before I eat. ^^;; Already had supper. x.o; Gotta email mother...

-K

Wednesday, December 5, 2001, 07:49 p.m.

smut

I should sleep more often. I blame Jaina. No, really. -_-;

Lots of updates... but need to write paper first.

-K
109.9 *_* and WARM

Sunday, December 2, 2001, 12:48 a.m.

nn

Kinda sad. Feeling lonely, but surrounded by people.

Don't get me wrong. I love Jaina and Vallea to death. To bits and pieces. But where does some internet chick get off knowing my best friend better than me? Hving more contact with her?

Yeah, I'm a greedy, jealous poo. I know that. I'm selfish. But it feels unfair.

Am I really that expendable?

While I think of it, I'd like to read your fic, Meta.

Okay, back to rant.

Well, I completely lost my train of thought. Argh. TK is getting good reviews, so that's good. I love Jingu. She and Jaina and I are going to make a site called "Bittersweet" I think. Yay.

Ugh. Still sick. @_@

Must take temp soon. Very soon.

-K
65 most of day... nice

Saturday, December 1, 2001, 12:11 a.m.

max don't have sex with your ex

VAL: Which of the two Val's is older?
IncendiaryWinds: *felt a thousand years old* x.x
VAL: I'm 19
Jaina: damn...she's good...
IncendiaryWinds: yup x.x
Vallea: you're older, then.
IncendiaryWinds: Vallea is 12 XD
Jaina: <--20
IncendiaryWinds: <~~ 14
IncendiaryWinds: XD XD XD
Jaina: Kiri = liar!
Jaina: liarpantsliarpantsliarpants
VAL: ok, then, for the sake of this convo I am Val#1
IncendiaryWinds: ^_~ so you'll hafta take em off me
Jaina: Kiri, if you don't stop lying...I shall withhold macking.
VAL: I will!
Vallea: my poor virgin eyes!
Vallea: *shields them*
Jaina: *grabs kiri's pants and runs away laughing*
SarcasticVAL: Hey Kiri...wink wink nudge nudge
IncendiaryWinds: *BLUSH*
Jaina: Val#1, can you imagine inviting Megan into this chat? She'd be surrounded by Trigun freaks. It would kill her.
IncendiaryWinds: thank goodness I am wearing a skirt
VAL: all the easier.....
Jaina: Yeah, but I can see your underpants
IncendiaryWinds: o.o
IncendiaryWinds: they're pretty ;.;
IncendiaryWinds: KIRI HAS PRETTY PANTIES SO THERE
IncendiaryWinds: *sulks* ;.;
Jaina: And we have another kiri line for the quotes file -_-

-K
chilly and humid and rainy and foggy ^_^

Tuesday, November 27, 2001, 08:29 p.m.

vaginas ^_^

So I just got back from trying out for the Vagina Monologues. *_* It was scary but fun! Shannon went with me (actually I went with her but hey). I did the "Vagina Workshop" monologue which required the speaker to be English (though most people didn't do the accent. I did.). A girl who had also tried out (I feel so bad! I couldn't even remember what she did x.x) came up to me afterward and started telling me how natural I had been and how I had done a really great job for "film work" or something. o.o I didn't know, so she just told me I was a natural. *_*

*basks in praise*

Although Sir is still more of an attention whore than me. ^^;;

Yeah, so I think I did pretty well. Shannon did well, as did her two other friends there. ^^ Especially the short girl. Matia? Matzia? Something.

Okay, I need to call Meta. ^^ I'm hungry. x.x;

-K

Tuesday, November 27, 2001, 01:01 a.m.

;.;

I didn't forget your birthday, Meta! ;.; I was thinking about you all day, but I had to work in the morning, and because I had an awful night last night, I just came home and crashed until now. ;.; But I didn't forget!!! Your birthday present shall come with your Christmas present. *snerk*

@_@ Ugh... I feel really odd... eating cake for supper. x.x;;

I had something to say beforehand... but it seems I've forgotten. x.x

Um, yeah... x.x I'll call you tomorrow, my love. ;.; Prolly kinda late cuz I have tryouts, but I'll call you. ;.;

-K

Sunday, November 25, 2001, 12:05 a.m.

new layout time ^_^

Jingu's art rocks. ^_^ Hence, it is here.

-K
113.9 *_*