[ Savvy ][ Wednesday, January 28, 2004 ]
Savvy is a fun word, don't you think? Not just because Johnny Depp says it in Pirates and Once Upon a Time In Mexico (that name is too long). It's always been a fun word, even pre-Depp.
Anyhow, I'm hungry, tired, and bored. So, what else is new?
I got to hang out with Mary today. We went to Border's for coffee, which means I got a chai and she got an iced espresso drink. Why is it that when people "go to coffee" anymore, they don't actually get coffee? I mean, if someone says "Let's go to coffee", the nearest-to-coffee drink that my mind focuses on is a grande non-fat double mocha with a shot of amaretto flavoring. If someone invited me to coffee, then actually ordered a plain old black, regular/decaf cup of java, I think I would go into shock. But, yes, Mary and I went to "coffee" at Border's. I really like that store. I remember how excited I was when it first moved into the mall, and now I don't think I can actually remember the mall pre-Border's. Anyhow, we ended up talking for two-and-a-half hours about everything from alcohol and sex to school and work. (She talked about work, I sat there and listenend.) She has her own place now, and, while she hasn't changed all that much, she has still changed. She's obviously grown up, which makes me feel inexplicibly OLD. (Can you believe I'll be 20 this year? I can't.)
After that, though, I came home, had dinner, argued with Jennifer (actually came close to swearing aloud this time, and that's saying something), got on the computer, and TA-DAAA! Went to Gaia today. Been AGES since I was there. Emily and I spammed, which is actually a lot of fun. I've got a very weird craving for yakisoba and strawberry Pocky. Hm... need Japanese food.
Josh may be coming into town this weekend. I don't know if he'll actually be able to make it, and if he does, I don't know how long he'll be able to stay. If he's able to come, I don't actually know how he'll get from DIA to here, unless I can talk Grandma into letting me take her car. Mom, Dad, and Katie will be going to Kansas this weekend. That leaves me, Jennifer, and Amanda here. Jennifer was talking about Amanda as though she were a baby or a pet. "You'll have to take Amanda Friday night, but I should be able to take her Saturday." Amanda is fourteen. She may be a twit at times, but she isn't stupid, and she isn't in need of two new mothers while hers in away for a weekend.
I read something the other day on a web forum (actually it was an excerpt from Gaia placed in an article, which was linked from a forum) that disturbed me and pissed me off. It was a guy saying that girls really did like being raped, it wasn't a trauma at all, because it reminds them of a time when men were dominant and women subjugated, or something. I honestly felt the need to vomit after reading that. I wanted to rip the guys balls off and feed them to him for a midnight snack. I have never actually hated someone before, but I think that's what that was.
Anyhow... I don't have an 'anyhow' this time. That's all. I need to go to sleep.
[ Melissa se liberó en 03:09 a.m.
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[ sleeeeeep ][ Saturday, January 24, 2004 ]
Sometimes I get so bored, I can't even sleep. Sad, huh? Anyhow, I'm that bored now. -_-
I spent all day doing nothing, really. I played Kingdom Hearts, until I got stuck in Agrabah. Then I played a little bit of FFX-2. THEN I got on the computer to avoid my mom's Pampered Chef party. Then I watched Underworld. And now, here I am. Thrilling.
Tomorrow, though, I am going to go to fabric stores to see about getting flanel (or 'fleece', as it's called here) for some more blankets. I absolutely love making those blankets.
I decided to try my hand at Via Infinito in FFX-2 tonight. Just got to get to it. I'M BORED. And I really really really really miss Rob and Kate!! I want to go to Shari's! Kate, if you see this, CALL ME. And tell Rob to call.
Anyhow, I'm tired of the comp. And I miss Josh. Goodnight.
[ Melissa se liberó en 02:00 a.m.
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[ Germany vs work ][ Wednesday, January 21, 2004 ]
Today was spectacularly uneventful. I did get to talk to Josh, though. He called from Germany twice today. His baby nephew Kegan is in the hospital. Bronchitis. It sucks, since he's only a little over a month old. Anyhow, I was glad I got to talk to him. He woke me up with his first call, actually...
Other than that, though, today was entirely ho-hum. I played some Kingdom Hearts until I got stuck in Tarzan's jungle. -_-
I've decided to sell some of my manga and anime (even some of the CLAMP stuff). I've even priced some of it, and if I can get what I'm sking for for the items I've priced so far, I'll get over $100. I don't know
how to sell them exactly. E-bay, I suppose, but it would be good to get pictures first, huh?
MMPH! I might be going to Germany this summer! O_O Josh's brother Jeremy is in the army and being sent to Iraq for a year. His wife, Lisa, and the boys, Kyran and Kegan, are staying in Germany. Soooo... they want to know if I want to go over and help Lisa with the boys for the summer. But then there's also the possibility of going back to Ketchikan this summer to work... hm... that's something I need to think about A HUGE part of me wants to just go to Germany (it's
Europe!!), but I have to work. Maybe if they pay me to help with the boys... Anyhow, yeah. Decisions.
[ Melissa se liberó en 11:05 p.m.
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[ "Wishing you were here" ][ Sunday, January 11, 2004 ]
Ah... vacation~ beautiful word...
So... Ketchikan, AK! Actually, this town is cute in a 1970s, industrial sort of way. It's really beautiful here. The island is mountains
covered in rainforest right down to the ocean. There are about 500,000 fishing boats here. I'll have pictures in a future post. It's mostly rainy and foggy here. Cold, too, but I really don't mind.
I'm officially staying at Veta's (<- Josh's mom) house, but I think I've slept at Josh's apartment more. When I'm at Veta's I play with Cid (Josh's tabby) and Kira (his brother's mutt dog), and when I'm at Josh's apartment I play Dark Cloud, FFVII, FFX, and/or FFX-2 and play with his landlord's kitties.
Josh and I haven't been spending all day every day together, since he works six days a week. He has Tuesdays off, usually, so last Tuesday we spent together. We watched Sleeping Beauty to the point where they take Aurora back to the castle, then we headed into town. We dinked around WalMart, then got dinner at McDonalds. Dinner that night was fantastic! We went through the McDonalds drive thru, then we went and parked in the old Burger King drive thru to eat. The view from that spot was incredible! It looks right out over the chanel, and you can watch the planes take off from the airport. After dinner, we went up to Ward Lake and, since it was frozen, we walked around on it. Josh kept trying to knock me over (he succeeded once...), and I kept snapping pictures of him and blinding him with the flash. After that, we went to his apartment and drank hot chocolate and watched the first part of Underworld (GOOD movie).
Anyhow, that was a lot of fun. But now I'm going to say CIAO~ and close with this survey from Emily and Kris' blogs.
name = Melissa Erin
x. gender = female
x. birthday = 04.16.84
x. piercings/where= none~
x. tattoos/where = none~
x. height = 5'6"(ish)
x. shoe size = 8
x. hair color = Between dark brown and black, usually
x. length = almost to my shoulders!
last...
x. song you listened to = "Diving In" by Steven Curtis Chapman
x. song that was stuck in your head = "Dreaming of You" by Selena
x. song you've downloaded = ..."1000 no Kotoba"...?
x. cd you bought = Big Daddy Weave "Fields of Grace" for Josh for Christmas
x. cd you listened to = Big Daddy Weave
x. person you've called = Josh
x. person that's called you = uhm... Josh
x. you have a bf or gf = (I don't think this goes here...) Josh is my honey~
do?....
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = I actually really like this nasty li'l town. ^^;
x. you think about suicide = not recently
x. others find you attractive = If they do, they don't tell me, 'cept for Josh, and he has to say that stuff.
x. you want more piercings = nah
x. you want more tattoos = ..."more"?
x. you drink = When I get Watermelon Puckers~
x. you do drugs = does NyQuil count?
x. you like cleaning = uhm... sometimes. Depends on who I'm cleaning for
x. you like roller coasters = never been on one
for or against
x. long distance relationships = It would be a little hypocritical for me to say "against"...
x. using someone = against
x. suicide = against
x. killing people = against
x. teenage smoking = eeeeew... against
x. doing drugs = against
x. premarital sex = it depends on the people and the situation.
x. driving drunk = ...is this a trick question? -_-
favorite...
x. food = tortellini, I think...
x. song at the moment= "1000 Words" from FFX-2 (the English version)
x. thing to do = cuddle/sleep with Josh, play video games, drive, talk to friends
x. thing to talk about = anything, really...
x. sport to play= blech
x. sports to watch = basketball
x. drinks = chai, non-fat mocha w/ a double-shot of amareto and whipped cream served at 120-degrees (160 is too
hot, Starbucks!)
x. clothes = Gap Body, Josh's sweatshirt (warm...)
x. movies = a lot. First Knight, Indiana Jones, and Star Wars are a few of the all-time faves
x. holiday = Christmas!
what...
x. shampoo do you use = Garnier Fructis
x. perfume do you use = Night-blooming jasmine
x. shoes do you wear = uhm... comfy ones...
x. are you scared of = ghosts, spiders, being alone
number...
x. of boys I have kissed?: 2
x. of girls I have kissed?: o_O
x. of continents I have lived in?: 1
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: three or four
5 things you are wearing*
1. jacket from Gap Body
2. Ramantics '99 T-shirt
3. jeans
4. socks
5. red beaded necklace made by Emily
*5 things you are doing right now*
1. this survey
2. sitting
3. being bored
4. trying to ignore the squeaking noise coming from the lobby
5. laughing at a sleepy Josh
*5 things you ate in the last 24 hours*
1. apple fritter
2. 1/2 croissant
3. hash brown
4. a bowl of Cocoa Pebbles
5. root beer float
*5 things you did so far today*
1. woke up at 5:15 when Josh's god-forsaken alarm went off beside my head... -_-
2. got dressed
3. had a little Mountain Dew spilled on me on the way into town by Mike (<- Josh's roomie)
4. ate breakfast
5. rode the ferry to the airport
*5 things you can hear right now*
1. humming of the computer
2. clanging of luggage
3. squeaky chair
4. trash bag
5. people talking in the lobby
*5 thoughts in your head*
1. blasted Blackboard page, let me log on!!
2. why did I wake up...?
3. what souvenirs do I buy for people...?
4. sleeeeeep...
5. I wonder if Josh was serious about buying me the special edition FFX-2 guide and artbook...?
*5 things you look for when your picking a boyfriend*
1. things we have in common
2. his personality- can I stand to be around him?
3. he shouldn't be moodier than I get when I'm PMSing
4. goals
5. the ability to be sweet
*5 things you would like to do in your lifetime*
1. go to Europe
2. get married and have 2 children (one boy, one girl, in that order)
3. be happy
4. get a male orange tabby kitty
5. be a good person
*5 famous people you would do*
1. Johnny Depp
2. Vigo Mortison(sp?)
3. Edward Norton
4. Brad Pitt
5. Val Kilmer
*Five things you love*
1. Josh
2. friends
3. God
4. my family (but don't tell anyone)
5. lazy days
*Things that if you saw the opposite sex doing, you'd love it*
1. have to go with Emily... "Smiling"
2. napping... it's cute
3. opening doors and being a gentleman in general
4. playing with babies/little kids/pets
5. not be too proud to ask for help when they need it
[ Melissa se liberó en 10:35 a.m.
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[ FINALLY!! ][ Thursday, December 11, 2003 ]
God, two weeks without an update. That's crap. SO. I've been playing FFX-2 a lot. I bought the guide and started a new game after I BLEW UP SPIRA. So now I'm playing through with the guide. (For those who think that's cheating, please note that I played through once on my own and GOT MY ASS KICKED.) I don't even know how you would get the Dark Knight dressphere without the guide.
What else...? CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!! 2 weeks from today. I have... part of a gift for one person and a whole gift for another, but no gifts for anyone who lives in Colorado yet. It's happening... uhm... SOON! (hopefully...) BUT! since Christmas is two weeks away, that means that I leave for Alaska in 15 days!! I don't know if I'm more excited to go to Alaska or for Christmas, and that's a big thing, considering that I obsess over Christmas.
I really want to update my page, and I made a new Lenne layout for this blog, but my FTP thingy was screwing up the last time I tried to use it. Said my log in data was incorrect, so I should prolly e-mail Kris about it... BUT I will have a new layout (and more updates) for both soon! (I hope...)
Crappy entry after two weeks of nothing, but that's all that there really is... sorry...
[ Melissa se liberó en 09:25 a.m.
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[ Hmph ][ Tuesday, November 25, 2003 ]
I'm not too thrilled with my life at the moment. I need a job! I KNOW that I need a job. I WANT a job. But that doesn't change the fact that the job market here is still virtually non-existant. Places are hiring for seasonal work now, thuogh, so I need to hit the mall again.
Going to Alaska in a month!! XD I can't wait. I really miss Josh. I'll be flying up there after Christmas, and possibly staying for a month. (Since I signed up for online classes, that isn't an issue.) Possibly going to meet Kate and Rob in Seattle on return trip. Need to talk to Kate about that, though.
I HAVE FFX-2!! XD I've been playing it religiously. I'm level... 30 or 31 now and I'm working my way through chapter 3. I only have about 40% of the game done, though, so I'm relatively positive that I'm going to have to go through it again to get 100%.
Mom tried a battle in the ATB system, but it drove her insane, so I set up a new game of FFX to let her try out the turn-based system, and she got hooked. lol My mother likes Final Fantasy!! Okay... that's all. ^^
[ Melissa se liberó en 09:31 a.m.
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[ School crap ][ Wednesday, November 19, 2003 ]
Blah. Registering for classes. Thrilling. I'm getting internet courses this semester, to cut back on the transportation stress.
I'm also dinking around lenne.nu, though. I really like Lenne, and I haven't even played the game yet. Hopefully, I'll be getting that today.
So Josh flew out on Monday. I managed not to cry at the airport, which, for me, is a small miracle. He's going to be working on getting me a ticket to go up there in December. I'll be heading up either the 26th or the 27th and coming back on January 5th. Apparently, his friends and mom already like me. ^^; I'm still nervous, though. But that's about a month and a half away.
Anyhow, I started FFVII. I actually started when Josh was here. He bought it for me and got me started. I don't know how far I am in it. About five hours or so. I just saw the burning of Nebelheim. Sephiroth is awesome, in an evil sort of way. And I really like Tifa. If I didn't have issues with my body, I would go as her to NDK. Her personality reminds me a bit of Rinoa, but a little more grown up.
I also started another game of FFX. I'm at the Calm Lands, which means I've almost caught up to where I was (before the Yunalesca fight). AND I've been playing Soul Calibur II, which is a lot of fun. Josh and I were working through the Weapn Master thing. He got me a new costume for Talim (my character), and we got muchos weapons for everyone.
ANYHOW, I need to e-mail my dad my schedule now so he can print it. Ciao.
[ Melissa se liberó en 08:42 a.m.
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[ Fuuuun... ][ Monday, November 10, 2003 ]
Josh got here on Saturday. Mom, Dad, Katie, Amanda, and I went up to DIA to meet him. On the way up there, though, the van friggin'
broke down. Transmission went out. So we had to park in a 45 minute waiting area and hitch a ride with some people who were headed to the airport to pick up a band.
Anyhow, once we got there it was relatively easy to find Josh. He and I wandered around while Mom made some phone calls and got a rental car, then we went to pick up Dad (he had to wait with the van).
Anyhow, we got home and Josh and I left almost immediately. We went to the mall and over to his friend Trevor's house. Then we drove over to Ford Frick Park (Dad's letting Josh drive his car) to watch the lunar eclipse. It was so awesome. After that, we ran to Wal Mart, then home for dinner.
My parents are being pretty lax about leaving the two of us alone together. The fact that Josh's parents are who they are is going a long way. I'm pleasantly surprised by that. Part of it may be the fact that we're never in his room alone with the door closed, and he doesn't come down into my room (it's a MESS).
Anyhow, this week is going to be fun, in a sort of hectic way. Josh dropped me off for class this morning, and once he picks me up, we're going to the Family Christian Bookstore to see about tickets for the FFH/Big Daddy Weave concert Thursday. Then I think we might head over to the Cinemark to get tickets for the Matrix tonight. Then... we're either hanging out with Trevor or going over to Garden of the Gods and Old Colorado City. I'm not sure which. Either way, it's going to be soooo much fun!!
Oh! We watched Armageddon last night! Well, I watched it, anyhow. Josh slept. It was so SAD!! When Harry stayed behind to detonate the nuclear warhead, I started crying. Like, seriously sobbing. I had to be careful about not waking up Josh, and since we were lying on the couch, that was difficult. It was a good movie, though.
Uhm... yes... that's it. I'm going to go see if I can't fix the code now so the font doesn't look so bad. Ciao~! ^^
[ Melissa se liberó en 08:55 a.m.
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[ Moo with me... ][ Thursday, November 6, 2003 ]
I'm really friggin' STRESSED!! (Which is 'desserts' spelled backwards.)
ANYHOW! I need to make this quick b/c I have some mad cleaning to do before Josh gets here Saturday.
I'm getting sick... I got my voice back, but now I'm all congested. How did this happen? And why did it have to be now?? Then you add in my period, and I'm having the best week of my life. -_- Alright, I need to wash my hair... it's really getting on my nerves.
Someone remind me to get rid of the pink on the tag board later. I have to run. (How's this for a half-assed entry?)
[ Melissa se liberó en 10:59 a.m.
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[ hehehe ][ Wednesday, October 29, 2003 ]
Past Life Page
You've got to check this out. It's hillarious. I was a man in my past life... lol~
[ Melissa se liberó en 09:29 a.m.
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[ Halloween ][ Wednesday, October 29, 2003 ]
As much fun as Halloween can be, I wish that radio stations would fixate on creepy things like haunted places. The tunnels on Gold Camp Rd are supposedly haunted... I've been in those tunnels. That's sort of creepy. And there are houses all over the Springs and Manitou that are haunted, apparently. I just hope that none of them are in my neighbourhood.
Anyhow, MOVING ON! *ahem* I have a new layout ready for this thing. Just need to upload the images, which I think I'll do later today.
What else...? That's really about it. OH! My mom came up with an idea to get extra money for Christmas that I like: doing childcare in the evenings for parents who want to go Christmas shopping. I think that it's actually a pretty good idea.
That's all. Going to go veg elsewhere. CIAO~
[ Melissa se liberó en 09:02 a.m.
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[ -_- ][ Tuesday, October 21, 2003 ]
Well, isn't this PEACHY??? Pitas, in a moment of :P deleted all of my updates AND the layout changes I did. So now I get to redo all of that.
Anyhow, CYNTHIA!! HI!!! How
are you?? XD
Okay, I need to go... Got to re-redo the blasted layout...
[ Melissa se liberó en 09:40 p.m.
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[ and so on and so forth... ][ Tuesday, October 7, 2003 ]
Wow, I'm tired today. I think that it
might have something to do with the fact that I was on the phone with Josh last night, but I doubt that. I was on the phone with him the two nights before that, and I was fine. He's coming down here at the end of the month~! ^^ I'm thrilled~ It will be so much fun!
I need a job! I
desperately need a job. There are so many things that I need and want to get and pay for.
Kris set me up on her server! XD I'm so thrilled~! So now I'm working on getting everything moved over to
here. I'm so thrilled~ I have a layout, even~! Actually, I have two possible layouts. Have to decide whether I prefer the easy-to-code Rikku layout or the more difficult Himeno one. I think I may go with Rikku. I'm on a serious Rikku kick recently. lol Anyhow, I'm done now~
[ Melissa se liberó en 09:16 a.m.
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[ Random boredness ][ Monday, October 6, 2003 ]
I joined a couple more webrings. Lenne and Shuin support rings~ Those two are quickly rising on my list of favorite FF couples, along with Zidane + Garnet of FFIX.
Anyhow, I talked to Josh on the phone last night. It's seriously insane how much we have in common~ lol It's really a lot of fun talking to him. Night before last, we were on the phone for three hours or so. Last night was about half that time, because that stupid cordless dies so fast. It sucks. It needs a new battery pack, and it needs to not be left off the cradle all night.
OOSH~! Josh and I were talking about NDK and how I'm going to go as Rinoa next year, and he said he wants to go! He wants to dress up as Cloud (FFVII), and his buddy wants to go as Auron! lol We really will have a FF group~ I just need to get him the info (prices and all that).
Anyhow... I'm curious about how the flight plans for November are coming. I'm confident that everyithing will work out~ Kate's resourceful. Just starting to want more details.
That's all, really~ I'm out!
[ Melissa se liberó en 08:44 a.m.
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[ WooHOO~! ][ Friday, October 3, 2003 ]
I'm so frickin' excited~!! XD ALASKA!
Okay, a little explanation~ I've been e-mailing and talking to the son of my mom's friend. His name is Joshua and he lives in Alaska~ Anyhow, we started IM-ing and we found out that we have a lot of things in common (like loving to travel and video games). Anyhow, tonight he asked if I would be willing to go visit him in Alaska! XD~ Well, really he asked if my parents would let me. I asked Dad and he said it was cool, as long as I can get the ticket and money and everything. And Joshua said that he can help me with a ticket because he works with/for airlines and pilots and stuff! It's so cool!! XD
Whooo~! Anyhow, I'm a little excited about the idea of getting to go see Alaska~ lol
I am so annoyed at alighieri.net~ I can't access my account at
all. So I can't update that site or get the new layout up for this site. It's
very annoying. Anyhow, that's really it~ XD~
[ Melissa se liberó en 12:15 a.m.
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[ Back from Alamosa~!! ][ Monday, September 29, 2003 ]
OOSH~! This weekend was so much fun. I learned some things that I think will be helpful later on...
1. Chris' taste in music isn't all that bad, but it's nice to be able to fall asleep on cue when it gets to be too much.
2. Watermelon Puckers and Skyy Blue are really good, but if I don't eat something while drinking, I get sick.
3. Brandy is disgusting and makes my throat burn.
4. When visiting your friend with her boyfriend, do not be shocked if/when they disappear into the bathroom for more than twenty minutes or so.
5. Marijuana smoke can and will cling to your hair, so wash it before you go to sleep after being exposed to it. ^^;
Ah... higher education... lol
ANYHOW~! I just had soooooo much fun down there~ I may go into details later, or I may not. But for now, I have videos to return~! ^^
[ Melissa se liberó en 07:53 p.m.
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[ HmmMmMMmm... ][ Wednesday, September 24, 2003 ]
I'm bored. Permanently, it seems. I desperately want my own car. Then I don't have to taxi my family around, and I could go out when I wanted without my parents telling me when I need to have the car back. And I need my own place so I don't have to sneak around when I come home late.
Anyhow, I feel so bloody frustrated right now! I'm not motivated to do
anything, including go to classes. I've skipped my history class twice in a row, and I won't be there Monday. That wipes out my allowed unexcused absences. I skipped Spanish yesterday for no other reason than I didn't want to go and deal with it. This same thing happened last year. I told Justin then that I would probably need him to keep me on top of things as far as classes and homework went. Why am I like this?? I hate it, but I don't seem to be able to stop! It's very, VERY frustrating.
I have a pre-court conference at the courthouse with my lawyer and a judge on Oct 14. I'm not looking forward to that in the slightest. I need a job. There's no way the courts will delay payment of my ticket because I'm unemployed. I wouldn't want them to. That would be pathetic. And it's not like I haven't tried to get a job. I've applied to several places. No one has called me back, however, and that's discouraging.
I can't wait till this weekend. A chance to get away from all of this damned stress will be welcome. I just need to get away from this blasted HOUSE! I'm sick of only being able to go out and do something on the weekends, and then only if Jennifer hasn't already planned to go out with the singles group. I'm not the kind of person who can just sit at home and watch TV or movies all evening. And I have no desire whatsoever to do computer stuff. I mostly get on to talk to people now, and very few people on my buddy list are ever on when I am. So I'm stuck home most every night with nothing to do and no way to get anywhere.
Oh, and as if I don't have enough stress, the bank has recently informed me that my account is overdrawn by $213, and they have debited all of the money I had in there towards paying for that. Dad said that they got my account and his account mixed up, but he hasn't done anything to fix it thus far. If I had a car to do something other than pick people up and drop them off, I would go to the bank and talk to them myself.
*sigh* In other news, I saw Bowling for Columbine today. GOD, it's good!! It's really very intellectually stimulating. Michael Moore is a bloody genius. (I've decided that if I ever have kids, I'm raising them in Canadia.) I also got to see Uncle Larry's puppy, Lightning, again. He's so adorable! And so quiet. I've only heard him whine once (when I picked him up b/c it was time for him to go), and he never barks. He's got so much energy, though, and he's curious as hell. I wish I could keep him here some evening when I'm here alone. That would be fun.
I have a new layout all ready for this blog. I'm just waiting for alighieri.net to work so I can upload the images. It's incredibly PINK. ^^ I like it. And that's all for this update on my life. Thrilling, huh? ^^;;
[ Melissa se liberó en 11:55 p.m.
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[ Boo ya, eh? ][ Sunday, September 21, 2003 ]
*points* Check out the tag board. God, that cracks me up~ lol
I really haven't done anything this weekend that's noteworthy... I'm just counting down the days to
next weekend and getting to go visit Emily and Sarah! XD
I'm soooo bored... and slightly hungry. Go figure. So I hear that I guilt trip people a lot... I don't really MEAN to, so! Note to all of you who are reading this who I talk to on a regular basis: don't let me do that!! >_<
And that's all I have to say. (It's a lame ass update, but it's still an update. Yes? ^^) Oh, oh,
LOOK~ it's my family from Gaia. lol
[ Melissa se liberó en 02:43 a.m.
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[ Worn Out ][ Thursday, September 18, 2003 ]
I'm totally emotionally worn out. I don't want to do this anymore!! So, I won't. I'm going to stop caring. I can't keep letting him screw me over. (And you can take that however you like.) Once I return his things to him and get the $10 I need from him, I'm through. I don't want to
care about him anymore. I will move on with my life.
You know, as disgusted and pissed as I am at him, I don't hate him. I pity him, because I don't think he can really, truly love, but I don't hate him. It's sort of like that song 'Fighter' by Christina Aguillera.
I feel bad for Kris. She didn't need to be dragged into his issues. I think that pisses me off more than the fact that he manipulated me. He had no right to do that.
*sigh* BUT! I'm late taking Katie to work. I'll continue my rant another time.
[ Melissa se liberó en 02:54 p.m.
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[ ....booooooooored.... ][ Wednesday, September 17, 2003 ]
I'm so bored. I need a shower. I should do that. I also need to clean up the kitchen. I hate boredom... Got to return Enough tonight. I've had it longer than I like to keep movies, generally. It was really more popular with my family than I thought it would be. I usually don't like Jennifer Lopez movies, but I like that one. I think it's the whole thing with the abused wife kicking ass. I think that's great.
Recently I find that I really miss Shari's and Brick House and all those Nampa hang outs (no, Wal Mart is not included). Or maybe I just miss the company. I don't like that I can't call up Kate and Rob, say I'm bored, and drive to Jack in the Box or where ever.
*sigh* Okies, I'm done~!
[ Melissa se liberó en 03:05 p.m.
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[ Goin' to Hell in a fast car~ ][ Monday, September 15, 2003 ]
Can you guess where that's from? That's right!! Chicago!! XD I bought the soundtrack! YAY! I've got $60 more coming my way from Mom. Don't know what to spend it on. I have to pay that blasted hospital bill still (GOT to talk to Justin about that), and I've got $2000 that I'm going to have to help with for the truck I hit. That's not even mentioning the ticket. I don't know how much that will be. I have to talk to the lawyer about that, though. He doesn't want me to have contact with the court, and he doesn't want me to go to the new court date. I need to know what I should be doing.
I'm working on a wintry layout... Can't wait to get it up. I LOVE WINTER!!! XD Anyhow, there's not too much more to say about my life right now. Well, there is, but in order to avoid criticism, I'm not going to tell. ^^
[ Melissa se liberó en 11:00 p.m.
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[ Self Evaluation ][ Friday, September 5, 2003 ]
Today, I got online, obviously. And I spent the time it takes this piece o' crap computer to load a page contemplating my life. I decided it sucks. I have no social life anymore! If I'm not in class or taxiing my family around, I'm in front of the computer. I try to actually call a friend that I actually know (instead of one of those guys I met at Gaia), and I can't freakin' get a hold of anyone! I don't have a job, I have to go to court Monday, I owe about $1000 (at least) b/c of the accident, and the main goal for my life right now is to buy a PS2.
I'M PATHETIC!!!!!! I talk to the guys from Gaia more than I do to people here in town. Ever since Emily, Sarah, and Kris went back to school, I've been bored out of my bloody mind. Even though we didn't hang out too much towards the end, at least the option was there. I could call Emi and say "I'm bored". Now, I can call Justin and tell his voice mail that I'm bored.
I need to get a life. But I'm not sure how to do that... *sigh* THIS SUCKS!!
[ Melissa se liberó en 11:56 p.m.
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[ GRAWR! ][ Friday, September 5, 2003 ]
Yep. That's all. I feel half-alive today. I stayed up until 3AM, then I slept through editing this morning. I like that class, too. u_u; Anyhow, I was up playing around on Gaia... I got a pillow, lost a pillow, had my couch and bed Burninated, got a new couch, played cops and robbers, and got into a cat-fight that turned really mean. All within about a ten minute period... o_O; It was odd. I would explain better, but... I just can't.
ANYHOW! I just realised that I've gone about 2 weeks without any contact outside the family. Not REAL contact, anyhow. I've chatted w/ ppl online. Okay, that's not entirely true. I spent most of yesterday with Christine. It was fun. But I'm stuck in the house almost every night/evening! I can't stand it!
*sigh* Anyhow, that's it. I'm done. CIAO.
[ Melissa se liberó en 03:56 p.m.
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[ Death to the rude ones ][ Tuesday, September 2, 2003 ]
I have to vent before I do an actual entry. My parents had an open house thing for Katie's AVP program at PPCC Centennial Campus, which is on South Academy. It's a loooong way from here. Anyhow, there was a phone call for my mom, and it went something like this:
Me: Hello?
*silence*
Me: Hello??
Guy: Could I speak to Terry?
Me: She's not here at the moment.
Guy: Doyouknow....*garbled nonsense*
Me: I'm sorry, what?
Guy: When can I talk to her, lady??
Me: I don't know. She went to a meeting.
Guy: Sure.
*click*
Screw you, jackass!I hate rude people.
Anyhow, I felt so depressed all day today. I called Justin, there was no answer. I went to Hollywood Video to rent a movie, didn't find one I liked, and decided to say 'hi' to Matt while I was there. He was busy, though, so I waved and left. I treated myself to a mocha malt Frapuccino at Starbucks. It was good. Then I came home, dealt with the evil caller, and got online to do my editing homework.
I think that my problem is that I don't have someone I can call up and say "let's go do something" or "let's just hang out and do nothing" right now. It was Emily before college, it was Kate and Rob at NNU, and now there isn't anyone, really. Justin doesn't seem to like stuff like that, Matt... right... moving on, Christine is so far away, I haven't spoken to Mary since we went to see Pirates of the Caribbean, and that's about it. I suppose I could call Steve up, but he just sort of rubs me the wrong way. Maybe that's just what he's like around Matt and Justin. I hear that he's a great guy, anyhow. (Don't get me wrong, Steve's fun, but he can annoy me.) Anyhow, so I felt all lonely and depressed today. And now Mandi and I are doing my editing homework so I can go to bed and forget about today. 'Night.
[ Melissa se liberó en 11:34 p.m.
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[ Ah... laziness ][ Monday, September 1, 2003 ]
I've got yet another new layout. It's a premade one from Stardust Designs. I just got really lazy. I do have a layout that I'm considering for this, but it's far from perfect as of yet.
Anyhow, I sat around most of today. I was going to go to Justin's, but by the time I was leaving, it was too late. I would have gotten there in time to say 'hi' and turn around and leave. So we'll see if it can work out at all tomorrow.
I need FFX!!! I think I'm getting close to finishing. Who knows how far I am from the end of Chrono Trigger...
Anyhow, that's the end. G'night.
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[ Here we go again ][ Wednesday, August 27, 2003 ]
So I started classes yesterday. I should have started Monday, but financial aid was stupid. So I went yesterday instead! I ran into Christine while I was waiting for my
two hour Spanish class to start. (I need to practice Spanish...) Then I went to psychology with Stephen and Davia (she's back! Haven't seen her in
years!). Ran into Missy on the way to psych. It was cool to see her again. She cut her hair, and it's cute. Then I had logic. What ever posessed me to sign up for that class? @_@ It was scary, it doesn't transfer as a core credit, and the prof did a li'l mini-spolier for Matrix 3 (DEATH!) -_- . So I dropped it. ^^ Anyhow, I had western civ this morning. The amount of stupidity in that class frightens me. Nobody knew that Constantinople is now Istanbul, and one guy thought that the Tudors ruled in France.
Anyhow, I'm actually enjoying my classes. I can return my logic book, get a refund, and buy my western civ book. Then, hopefully, I'll have some money left over to buy Emily Love Hina #9. Start paying her off while I'm still able to remember why I owe her. ^^;
NYEW~! I'm having so much fun at Gaia! Really! There are about three or four guys who IMed or PMed me. One of them is a DJ in... erm... Michigan? He sent me a song that I really love! (A by DJ Amuro.) Then there's a song writer from somewhere who talked about himself a lot, a 21-year-old in Florida who's highly amusing, and a guy from Canadia who works at 7-11 or something. We don't talk that often. It's lots of fun to talk to them, though, and I'm a total and complete nerd.
OH! I applied at Target and SoundTrack. I'm beginning to wonder if SoundTrack hires women, though. I've only ever seen men there. Target isn't hiring until October, and then it's only seasonal.
Got a new TV por la familia. Justin had to come hook the VCR up, though. lol Dad and I were trying to figure it out while I was on the phone with Justin. He was trying to giv us instructions that way, but I was screwing it up and Dad didn't understand, so Justin came over and for the small price of tacos from Chipotle, he set it all up and got it running. lol
OOSH. I'm almost to the fight with Yunalesca in FFX. I beat Seymour again! But not before he killed me once. I just got Holy, I'm close to Doublecast, Rikku's in Lulu's part of the grid, Yuna's moving into Rikku's, Lulu's moving out of hers (think I'm going to move her to Rikku's), Auron is in Tidus', and Kimahri is making his way very slowly through Auron's part. ^^ I proudly neglect Wakka. And I don't really use Tidus much. He killed Yuna once, so this is his punishment. lol
Unfortunately, I'm neglecting CT while I work of FFX. I shouldn't, but it's been so long since I worked on my FFX game! Maybe I'll put off Yunalesca by playing more CT. I played some Mario Golf! lol I suck at putting! Uhm... right... ^^;; Nerd-speak is over now.
I saw Chicago. I wasn't as impressed by the movie as a whole as I was expecting after all the hype, but I really like the music. The Cell-block Tango, the Press Conference Rag, and All That Jazz are my faves. I skip through the DVD just to watch them. lol I want to do a layout for LLH featuring the tango. I'm just a little nervous that it'll look like Kris' old layout.
I made a new layout for
Visions. And that's really it. Gotta run now. Ciao!
[ Melissa se liberó en 02:56 p.m.
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[ MRAOOOW~~~ ][ Saturday, August 23, 2003 ]
Don't ask about the title. I really don't know. -_< I feel so loopy. Bed would probably fix that...
I got my part of the financial aid shit done today, finally! What a pain in the ass. The academic advisor I spoke to informed me that I could take 60 hours at PPCC and 60 hours at UCCS and have my AA degree. I don't want an AA, and I can't wait to be done with this bloody school!
*deeeeep breath* I am calm. I feel subdued. Average. Justin and I are going to see American Wedding tomorrow. That's the plan, anyhow. But the plan is often subject to Justin's whims, so we'll see what happens.
I got official permission to use the image on this layout from Aurore. There's now also a link to Black Cat, her art site, under the image.
Oh! Applied at Target tonight. They don't have any availabel positions at present, but they'll be hiring for Christmas starting in October. Hopefully, I'll be employed elsewhere by then, but it's nice to know that there's that option.
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[ MEEP!! ][ Thursday, August 21, 2003 ]
Okies, I'm in an odd mood. I was highly frustrated, but I'm feeling mostly better now. I seriously don't like PPCC right now, though. I want to take a few classes, so I can raise my GPA, but I have to be in a degree program in order to get financial aid. So now I have to talk with an academic advisor before I can start classes. It all highly sucks.
Anyhow, other than that, I made a new layout for this! (Actually, I just edited a wallpaper from the Black Cat art site.) I simply LOVE Aurore's art. This is the second layout I've used featuring her art. I'm going to upload the new layout for Visions, then I need to get started on uploading Le Torre.
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