one hell of a good day. everything was great. woke up nice and early. watered the lawn. ate beef pigs in a blanket. then i went to TIUA with kara. we finally finished the video. not too bad. even had the asian ending. maybe i will make that my signature thing. then i picked up monica. we spent what seemed like 5 forevers just running around drinking jones soda and opening presents. she gave me a mexican on shot glass and a very bad ass bracelet. i gave her costa rica and a hello kitty blanket. haha. then we met my dad at los arcos. mexican just sounded better. then we were going to go to a movie but we went shopping a little bit and rented shanghai knights. it was pretty cool. some of the shite was a little to fake. martial arts wise that is. monica and i hung out for another 3 forevers or so and just napped. well she napped i watched the movie. 6 months. we are pretty bad ass. and tomorrow, as excited as i'm not (surprisingly) is my 19th birthday. i dunno but i guess i just dont feel like its much of a big deal. so to the point that i almost feel like not writing it on here but i know the only person who reads this already knows so its cool. well big day tomorrow my mom and sister come home and i need to pick them up. woo. hoo.
Thursday, July 16, 2003 at 11:46 p.m.
today was a good day. woke up late and had a rough start but it was ok. job hunting is still kind of a bitch. i went out to monmouth and checked a few places. a small hope or two but nothing big. then i met monica for lunch. that was cool. it is always nice to see her. after i ate she had to go back to work so i went to TIUA and worked on the project. it is done with all but 3 small video clips which will be more than easy to insert. i really hope it turns out well and that maybe i can get a small profit off of copying it for all the other dance people. after TIUA i went home for dinner, talked with my dad a little and went to monicas. we watched how to lose a guy in ten days. it wasnt bad really but i think it is a little over-rated. it drug out and the plot got kind of annoying. tomorrow is 6 months and that is awesome. big plans for most of the day. my dad (since my family all is gone but him) asked if he could take us out to dinner. so thats the plan. this has been a really good week despite the job kick. now i am going to bed. i have a lot to do tomorrow.
Wednesday, July 16, 2003 at 02:28 a.m.
wow its late. well today (which is technically yesterday) was good. i slept in and that was nice. then i hung out with nam. we went down town and did some shopping. its 6 months in just 2 (or 1) days now. so funk yall B.I.-itches who doubted us. bet you feel real funkin dumb about now. and thanx to all my close friends and family for having faith or just not BSing with us. anyways i had to get a few things for that.
then when we ran out of things to see and what not, we went to TIUA. i feel bad when i go in there at random. it is so hard to get a hold of anybody though sometimes. i got a lot of work done. it could be finished the next time i go in. its really cool. me and nam and warren all need to figure our video out. hopefully we can. nam and i worked until about 7:30 when i went home and ate tator-tots.
when i got home i found out monica's flight was delayed by about half an hour but i was riding up with her mom so it was cool. before i left my house though i some how ripped my damn right eye contact in half. there was a weird little fuzzy thing on it, like a carpet hair or something and it tore. piece of crap. i had 224 miles on one tank in that hyundai. but now its empty. so it was nice of monica's mom to drive us up there. or at least let me ride along.
as we got closer to the airport it got more and more exciting. despite my conversastions with katie, i couldn't get my mind off of seeing her. so needless to say when we got to the airport i was a little too anxious. but not anxious enough to stop me and katie from tricking monica. when she got off the plane and got to where everybody was her mom told her i couldnt make it and to call my cell. so when she did i acted like i was at home and a bunch of bs and snuck up behind her. when she turned around she screamed. it was a lot louder than i think she realized. and she hugged me till i couldnt breathe. it was really good to hold her though.
after getting the luggage we went home. i ended up staying at monica's until about 1:45. a little later than i expected. after getting gas, wrapping presents, and starting laundry, an hour has passed and i am ready to pass out. i want to work out tomrrow. but most of all i am excited to spend time with monica. i am glad she is home.
Tuesday, July 14, 2003 at 11:58 p.m.
i had a good time chilling with zig and arron. i like zig. i always like spending time with her. after i got to her house we waited for arron to arrive. then we bought food and rented igby goes down. zig didnt like igby goes down so much cause it was sad to her. so after we watched it we went and borrowed old school. one hell of a funny movie. god it is so good. zig really liked that one.
after i left zigs i went down to TIUA to work on the video. there is a little i have to do still but it isnt too bad. my big problem is just finding a good song. but i think i have found one. maybe i will work on it tomorrow.
after i left TIUA i stopped in at the Y to lift a little bit. it turned out a lot better than i was expecting. it feels so nice to really feel sore and break a sweat just from lifting.
then i came home. monicas parents might not go up to portland to get her. another family volunteered to pick her up. that leaves me a little screwed since i was going to ride up with her mom. so now i dunno what to do. purhaps i will ride up with the other family but it could be weird since i have no clue on gods green earth as to who the funk they are. i would drive but my dad said he didnt want me to and i dont want to get on shitty terms with him now. so i guess i will see what happens tomorrow. i would really love to see her as soon as she gets there. i am really missing monica more, and i think it might be more in anticipation than anything else. its harder to know shes so close but just out of reach as apposed to all the way in mexico.
after i had dinner nam and i went to wherehouse music. they have some decent deals with the trade in concept. you can get fairly good prices on any cd. ranch is a little bitchy about it. but oh well.
tomorrow should be cool. i have some shit with jobs to get worked out. i also need to go in and work out again. i think i will try to get up early. it worked out well. most importantly i just want to see monica.
Sunday, July 13, 2003 at 11:07 p.m.
well, we missed church. that sucked. the majority of the day was slow but i had a good time chilling with sully. it was fun. we didnt do a whole lot but oh well. it is always nice to see her. bill was gone so her mom was painting. she is a funny lady. after sully's friend came over thigs slowed down and they went to get a movie and i left.
instead of going straight home so early i decided i would try to work at TIUA but that kind fell throw. i forgot it was frisbee day and monicas dad was out. oh well. when i took kara back home monicas mom told me she would drive me up to pick her up. i cant believe she comes back in one day. its crazy. i cant wait to see her. a lot of self evaulation has occured but i wont bring it up.
after i left the nelson house i just went home. when i got there my dad had made a bad ass dinner. nice fat steak with mashed potatos and gravy. and we had cherry pie for desert. it was even more nice that i got to talk to my dad. it had been way too long since i last had a real conversastion with him. it was pretty intense actually. but i am really glad we talked. it feels a lot more like he sees me as an adult. it is calming almost. i could tell something was wrong between me and him. i think it is less or more resolved.
it took forever but eventually karen came over and we just killed time. she bought some cds i was going to trade in. that was cool. she leaves for new york soon so we just kinda hung out one last time before she left. after that i didnt do much. calling it an early night and going to bed.
Saturday, July 12, 2003 at 11:59 p.m.
it was one hell of a long day today. the western thing was from 8 to 3:30. it actually turned out really great and i had a good time. chilling with the people in my group went pretty well and our leader was an adopted korean from jefferson. i saw a few faces i know but most of the people were from small ass hick towns around oregon. it was weird.
i also got my class schedule somewhat figured out. not completely but well enough that i have a rough idea of what i need to do and what classes i am taking. hopefully ASL will work out. i am going out next weekend i think. i have a few forms i need to turn in.
after i got home my dad and i hung out. we went out to dinner and looked over college shite. it was funny cause he bought me a WOU hat when we were out there and i was wearing it at dinner and the waitress thought i was older and sat us at the bar. she was from western too. it was cool i guess.
after dinner i had some down time and hung out with karen and (a)lana. it had been over a year since we last all chilled. so that was fun. alana reminds me of another friend so it was cool. they are both really cool to hang out with.
after eating ice cream we took lana home and drove around for an hour. after a while we decided to go out to monouth to show karen the campus and see if i remembered anything. i kinda did and we drove the wrong way down a few roads just for the hell of it before we left. then i came home and wrote.
monica signed my guestbook saying she sent me more emails. i believe her but i am upset since my fucking previous email address has made changes and isnt working with my computer. so now i have a yahoo address but she doesnt seem to know that. it sucks.
but i guess its ok. we only have like 2 days until i can see her again. kinda weird to think about it. i can hardly wait.
Friday, July 10, 2003 at 11:57 p.m.
today everybody left. it was sad and depressing yet kind of a relief all in the same. i was really upset i couldnt go to montana with the church group. i would have really enjoyed that i think. one last run with ben and marge. hell i would have even chilled with leah. it would have been great. but oh well. my mom and my other sister lauren left today also. they are going to butte montana. i think it should be good for them to just kinda chill. i hope lauren doesnt get too mad at mom. we'll find out i guess. now its just me and my dad till the 18. weird.
while trying to find food in my house i got a call from jap-freakin'-an. my big sister lelia called me up. we killed time shoot the shit for a a whole hour and a half. it was so good to cath up with her. she always has the best things and advice to give. it was really good to talk to her and i think it put me in a good mood for the rest of my day.
i think i am over-estimating my friends' and aquaintances' credibility. i turned in all my sofa king retarded job apps for all the roths my roths-employee-friends said they would "put in a good word" at. so much for that. here i come nissan.
tonight i hung out with tasha and nam. i should feel like a third wheel, but i think being as cool and as close with both of them as i am i dont. it feels about the same as when i hang out with my sisters or other family. just kinda comfortable. i like that. which is why i felt bad making nam uncomfortable. but its all good.
i am slowly missing monica more and more. i know that nobody wants to hear about it but i am finding myself waking up hoping that she will call or thinking i need to call her. its weird and sad but i know she is having a good time so that's what matters.
tomorrow i am going out to monmouth at freaking 8 am to get my class stuff figured out. after watching the movie "Brother" multiple times, i cant help but long to learn japanese. its not my native language, but any asian language is better than none at all. but now i need to sleep. another big and early as day tomorrow.
Thursday, July 9, 2003 at 11:52 p.m.
i did almost nothing today. for the most part i just killed time. i thought i had plans but most of them fell through. first off i did write an email to monica and that was cool. i miss her. i was going to chill with the church crew before they all left. but that didnt end up happening. i did get to chill with monicas sister kara. kara is cool and we worked on the irish dance video thing that i told her mom i would make. though i think we drank more slurpee than we worked. getting all the cords and what not figured out took us longer than before. i dunno why. oh well. it was still fun. then i went to nams house. we hung out and ate pop corn. yes, our prime excitement for the majority of the night was eating popcorn. though we did eventually go to ben's for a good 30 minutes. and that was fun cause we got gushers. all in all it was a slow day but tomorrow should be good.
Wednesday, July 8, 2003 at 11:30 p.m.
i hadnt hung out with nam in a long time. i was going to chill with sully but she was busy. nam and i went and tried to pick up apps. i also got some of my pictures developed of katie and kara's irish dance thing. they turned out pretty well actually. when i dropped off the photos monicas mom (katie) told me that monica and the rest got to hogar safely. so that was good. then i came home and just hung out all night. i ate a huge amount of food. tomorrow i am going to the Y and chilling with nam and whoever else we can find. it should be a good time.
Tuesday, July 7, 2003 at 11:59 p.m.
i know this is a random and late time to start writing again, but oh well. monica left today. i drove up with her dad to the airport to see her off. i spent all morning picking up the random odds and ends that she needed/i wanted to give her before she left. The Bends and some gum, her t-shirt and my ring. stuff like that. it was sad to see her go but i know she will be safe and have a good time so thats cool. my new glasses came in today. so that was cool too. i hung out with friends from church tonight. we all met at the river front. we went and gout ice cream from coldstone and then played hide and go seek in the dark down by the capitol. actually a lot harder with only 5 people including the one IT. but it was cool. then we went to the river front again and walked around playing frisbee in the dark. it was funny. then i came home, made some sandwhiches, and now i am going to go pass out.
