i should go on semi hiatus. soon. yes. must must must... meanwhile, a rare post.
Death has been swallowed up in victory. Where, O death, is thy sting? where, O death, thy victory?
you tell me. found it on a gravestone on sunday. sound familiar? :) brings some sense of hope & comfort i must say, that i spent a fraction of last night searching for it.
my dad told me that he once drove 210 from kl to johor for half an hour of the journey. -_- i knew his max was at least 160 but i didn't know it was higher than that! owells. no wonder i stay awake on road trips these days...
if you went today, and you want photos, just msg me. pity we didn't take more.
yup, we baked for them yesterday. me and mz. actually i think mz did a lot of the work. and her mom. guess you'd feel more comfy in your own kitchen. haha. personal space. and they have two ovens and lots of baking eq. we just make do with what we have. realized our family doesn't even use the microwave.. we just use the oven part of the microwave oven. duh. yea, hope it turned out ok... forced ppl to eat it hahha. gj guys for finishing it. ponned first part of math to cut cake.
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went out after sch to ghimmoh for lunch. vince and wk were ogling some girl and refused to move from their position to our new bigger table (which was a bad location). me and yixin were like sitting next to each other, started eating, when i noticed this fella standing near our table. bedraggled looking hair. long and filthy looking nails. dirty face. and he had one hair at his side, and the other bent behind his back with a lighter in his fist.
poked yixin and whispered to her to look, then she said he was a mad man.. ate some. then noticed someone standing like 5 cm behind us. -_- freaked la dudes, he was holding his lighter behind him and standing THAT close to us. both of us jumped up and moved away. our whole table was just like staring at him. he was just standing there like stoning or smth. carissa came back, then looked at him and was like 'oh my fuck.. ' or smth, then i was like hi, is he wanking or smth, cos his back was facing us. then turned out he was playing with the tmd lighter.
kept staring.. then he sat down, ON OUR CHAIR, AT OUR TABLE, without turning around. gave him the middle finger like hi guys. WTH. imagine if we were STILL sitting there. then tmd, i ran off to the ogling table to eat my lunch. gays man. freaky freak freaky, and traumatising.
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went to catch italian job! charlize theron is a power hot chix. she's damn bloody hawt. hawt. haha ok don't ask me to stop drooling dumbass :P you'll agree too la, tara reid is so not hotter than that piece of work!!!!! ok right. was quite predictable in a way, but then i guess it was basically cos they said 'we'll do it like the italian job'... but still loved it, didn't disappoint me hehe. some ingenious work there. oh yeah. the movie didn't exploit edward norton's acting skills. sux.
oh yea, went to yoshi to eat, then passed by this fella reading a histology book, on the way to the counter seats.. then clare msged me... turned around, lo and behold, sitting there were jesse & clare! hahah jesse is flying off to taiwan :P and clare is slacking. yes. what a royal coincidence.
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gays. i am going to be late tmr because i have to accompany my father to ntuc. o_O DAMMIT! bah. humbug.
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happy second birthday to friday five :)
1. Who is your favorite singer/musician? Why?
at the moment? matchbox 20! hehe. probably lifehouse as alltime :)
2. What one singer/musician can you not stand? Why?
erm. go britney! yaya. poks. why?!!!!! how can you ask why.
3. If your favorite singer wasn't in the music business, do you think you would still like him/her as a person?
i don't know. don't keep idols. music is music dudes.
4. Have you been to any concerts? If yes, who put on the best show?
only rolling stones... and they kept doing that perverted licking thing. hahahahaha. and it sucked cos you couldn't dance to the music, but then you can't sit still and look stoned either. wah bunch of old pervs.
5. What are your thoughts on downloading free music online vs. purchasing albums? Do you feel the RIAA is right in its pursuit to stop people from dowloading free music?
i'm broke. i don't have that much money to purchase all the albums in the world for one song per album. hi guys. right now? free music is good. yeah they're right. but do i care? :P
wahhhh. power pox. bet you're still sleeping.
Genocide means an act committed with the intent to destroy, in whole or in part, a national, ethnical, racial, or religious group. zzzz.
just dug up my old cd-rws :) found loads of stuff. but my quotes are gone!
haha, wah that was SO subtle. :]
school term has started again. four freaking weeks to exams. but that's not the point. ah, the drudgery of school. the holidays were terribly enjoyable, compared to our timetables now. :| i mean mugging was ok, even unproductive mugging. early morning breakfasts, seeing all the same faces in the canteen every morning, or in the library. just hanging around. wahhh. tmd. what i'd give for it to school hols all year round.
i mean, i totally HATE crowds. most of the time. crowds are just energy sapping. atmosphere is all wrong. and that's even in the company of friends. i think i'd consider 2-4 just nice, anything larger than 5 is a crowd. bleh.
woops. like sorry, i already said i wasn't free on sunday, should have gone on friday instead. bleh. then after dinner i wanted to go find you guys, but alina didn't reply, so well.
dad was just asking mom during dinner for advice on how to retrench people. hai. :
oh yeah. congratulations.
fuxk. my typing speed has been reduced to 80+wpm. quite depressing, considering it used to be much higher... : bleah.
maf yesterday. got a pretty shiny dragon tattoo in red and purple. thks serene :) it'll be gone by tonight though. met the hc people. and marcus. and thks for cheering me up by saying the cake was nice. :) haha. basically did lantern sitting for an ultraman and a pokemon lantern, while the massdance and songs were going on. amazed how they managed to enjoy it so much. haha. massive trampoline there. wonder how many poor babies will suffer cruel fates. crowds make me extremely tired hm.
oh yes. malaysia is next sunday. hai :( nm.. at least i found out that jo spends her CNY in malaysia too :] maybe we can go shopping next year at klcc hahahaa.
stacy's mom has got it going on, she's all i want, and i've waited for so long. stacy can't you see, you're just not the girl for me, i know i might be wrong, but i'm in love with stacy's mom.
woohoo. where are you?
i am immensely peeved. why? cos i've just been told that we're possibly (definitely) maybe going to nilai on sunday. like drive up and down. mom even wanted to leave on sat. there is no way in hell i'm leaving on sat. bleh :| wth. respect for elders. ok i guess it's cos it's his father, not mine... but maybe they COULD have told me earlier.. or even asked us when we wanted to go down. i hate this malaysian singaporean thing. zzz. piss me off.
f5:1. Is the name you have now the same name that's on your birth certificate? If not, what's changed?
yes it is :) the chinese name is changed though. same pronounciation, different characters. god knows why.
2. If you could change your name (first, middle and/or last), what would it be?
i don't know. i just wouldn't be lisa. haha. :) it sounds funny calling my own name. that's why i don't like it. ugh.
3. Why were you named what you were? (Is there a story behind it? Who specifically was responsible for naming you?)
probably mom. probably looking for a catholic name, therefore probably after elizabeth from the bible.
4. Are there any names you really hate or love? What are they and why?
when i see it i'll know, i hate pompous names though. maybe cos they sound pompous.
5. Is the analysis of your name at kabalarians.com accurate? How or how isn't it?
from kabalarians:
[Your first name of Lisa has given you energy, drive, and ambition, but also an almost excessively strong-willed and independent nature. While you are creative, inventive, and ingenious in practical matters, and always ready to initiate and promote new undertakings, you often experience difficulty in bringing your undertakings to a successful conclusion because of your own changing interests or changing circumstances. You become intensely involved with everything you plan to do, but the stress arising from frustrating obstacles or misunderstandings with others could prompt you to be intolerant and sarcastic in your expression, with breakdowns in congenial relations with family and friends a possible end result.]
that is just creepy. let's just say it isn't far from the truth.
The table was a large one, but the three were all crowded together at one corner of it: `No room! No room!' they cried out when they saw Alice coming. `There's PLENTY of room!' said Alice indignantly, and she sat down in a large arm-chair at one end of the table.
`Have some wine,' the March Hare said in an encouraging tone.
Alice looked all round the table, but there was nothing on it but tea. `I don't see any wine,' she remarked.
`There isn't any,' said the March Hare.
`Then it wasn't very civil of you to offer it,' said Alice angrily.
`It wasn't very civil of you to sit down without being invited,' said the March Hare.
`I didn't know it was YOUR table,' said Alice; `it's laid for a great many more than three.'
`Your hair wants cutting,' said the Hatter. He had been looking at Alice for some time with great curiosity, and this was his first speech.
`You should learn not to make personal remarks,' Alice said with some severity; `it's very rude.'
The Hatter opened his eyes very wide on hearing this; but all he SAID was, `Why is a raven like a writing-desk?'
`Come, we shall have some fun now!' thought Alice. `I'm glad they've begun asking riddles.--I believe I can guess that,' she added aloud.
`Do you mean that you think you can find out the answer to it?' said the March Hare.
`Exactly so,' said Alice.
`Then you should say what you mean,' the March Hare went on.
`I do,' Alice hastily replied; `at least--at least I mean what I say--that's the same thing, you know.'
`Not the same thing a bit!' said the Hatter. `You might just as well say that "I see what I eat" is the same thing as "I eat what I see"!'
`You might just as well say,' added the March Hare, `that "I like what I get" is the same thing as "I get what I like"!'
`You might just as well say,' added the Dormouse, who seemed to be talking in his sleep, `that "I breathe when I sleep" is the same thing as "I sleep when I breathe"!'
`It IS the same thing with you,' said the Hatter, and here the conversation dropped, and the party sat silent for a minute, while Alice thought over all she could remember about ravens and writing-desks, which wasn't much.
i've got mucopolysaccharide polysulfate. my dad calls the bruising a disease. zzz.
i am bruised all over.. there are little red patches all over my legs, and brown ones.. but you can't really see, cos i'm not all that fair. yes. :| it only hurts when you press them, so the key is to press them. :) i don't know where i get these funky bruises from either.
spent the day in school woohoo :) i think i'm going mad with skate n slam. bleh.
i would like to spend a day this week at the beach. darn it. :| darn mugging. good mugging. yes. mug. cup. mu bei zi.
food tastes best when you're sharing it with someone else.. :)
feel kinda bad for banging boats accidentally.
hrm. ok. that's all i have to say. except that i'm battered and bruised, and not very fair, and i had foot cramps. yes. and wk is a gay. as usual.
ooh yeah, and jack sparrow is mother funky :) i wish i could be like him. haha changed my wallpaper.. yes. go and watch pirates! :)
the weather gods are such a tease.
in the morning, thought i'd arrived early, cos it was so dark. but it turned out to be raining. stranded at red house. thank god for classmates :) haha. wanted to hail a cab from red house but none of 'em would stop for us! ended up taking a bus (156, met mrs chong) to jelita to get a hot cuppa coffee, cos we were freaking freezing. bloody cold and wet. lolx. then wanted to cab in, but it was jammed all the way, unless the cab u turned, and went the ghim moh way. started walking in when the rain faded to a drizzle.. rather nice morning. :|
how many times did it rain? lolx. wonder how much someone paid the weather gods.
She believes that life is made up of all that you're used to
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days, and days
She thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway
But outside it's stopped raining
yup, amazing job you guys. were practising hiking.. and the guys managed to make one of the wood planks fall off. then all the termites swarmed out of their various holes... bet they'd been plotting that for ages. lol.
'all i need' is a super happy song :) def gonna get the matchbox 20 album heh. oddly nuff, i've been posting song lyrics to fill the pages for the past few days.. and count went up to 56.. congratulations.. gonna run a lyrics site soon.
ok. pw gods are teasing me too. bbs.
hmm. i don't have to write something that means anything at all to anyone but me, or maybe not even me. just need to know that i'm still capable of feeling. good luck.
I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
I'm still here
You've seen the ashes in my heart
You smile the widest when I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I try to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be
(chorus)
Maybe tonight it's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today it's gonna be okay
I will remember
I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
(chorus)
The lights go out the bridges burn
Once you go you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say
I'd be the one to run away
But I'm still here
brother's been playing gunbound. been peeping over his shoulder, and it reminds me a hell lot of worms.. only worms is cuter =p bleh, so now i get to use the comp after him -_-
Deja vu - Master of dream, destiny, memories and the not-so-distant future.
me, i'm a fool, spent from defiance, yeah you got me but, i didn't give up on you.
friday saw us back at ny. outsiders, but not strangers :) the toilets are disgusting though. went to town and stoned for darned long, walked around orchard. plod plod. i miss town. wedding banquet was hilarious. should go and watch it if you get the chance. hahah too late :) esplanade's seating plan is rather queer though. their rows are incredibly long with no aisles in between. meh.
yesterday, threatened by rain three gazillion times! but noo, it blew off, away away. oh no.
today - good weather :) wish there were more ppl to distract mr. t with though. got on my nerves a lot! :| yupyup, deepavali! :) quite excited haha.
and it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole
through everyone that feels it
well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if you're looking for it
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
and you never would have though in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded rather waste some time with you
that's what i am. and impatient. but that's not the point. i am however, rather thankful that the air was stagnant tonight, at least when i was walking home. all these mounds of ash, and more mounds of burning paper, lined along the walkway, blocking my path. a gigantic heap of paper. (felt like trampling over it) i dare not walk inside. too perilous. so i take the main road. now my hair smells. it's become windy, i can smell it from here. acrid.
yup. and i regret staying up till one to mug for bio. still felt like i failed bio after the test. thanks to the incredibly dumbly phrased test questions. i mean, before, i felt like i knew almost everything. after the test, i realized nothing i knew mattered.
i said no pun intended btw :) cos i was on the bus and heard, over my headphones, the bomb blasts and all that shit.
common interests are everything.. and when they go, we are left with nothing but the fragile bonds that lie between us.
kind of high from today :) sebas kickstarted my very stoned day with his half-photo antics.. half of mz here and there made for rather hilarious photos. then followed by all the diaos by our teachers.. cheang 'what a coincidence' - on vince and wk ponning on the same day, lsb calling vincent's name four times (mistaking eugene, and despite us telling her repeatedly that he was absent).
then after school, and lxg. and i haven't been in town for ages and ages. haven't walked around, and stoned. kind of miss that. ooh dorian gray. heh. i think movies with too many main characters can never develop all the characters properly unless you already know them... like o 11 :) good company, thks.
the more he gives the more he has
cause both of them are truly infinite
i realized i'm quite a lucky person :)
don't think you're reading this but anyway, i read your blog entry, i check everyday, just to make sure you're still alive, and you're ok. you sound ok. so that's good. :) know what? i check almost every blog of every person i care about just to make sure they're ok everyday.
lsb is DAMN good at diaoing people. usually she diaos individual people. today it was the whole class.. she asked us what time we were let off, then we were like 3.10.. then she was like, oh i'm off after you guys end this lesson! should i let you off early? erps... then 'no!' zzzzz. she rox la.
yes, time to bathe! heh pirates and legally blonde 2 are out on 4th sept! joy. paparazzi, you guys don't scare me! :] shit gotta mug. bye.
someone tell me where sirius is...
today's moral is:
if you want something done, don't do it halfway. else someone will just come along and mess it up for you.
mom was sitting behind me just now. i know she says she's not looking, but i get quite irritated anyway, and i take even longer to finish up than i would if she weren't around.
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there are so many letters i wanna write, to so many people, so many phone calls i'd like to make (but i know i'll just turn silent after not knowing what to say after five minutes), so many things i'd like to say. but well, i'm very sorry i haven't been getting down to doing what i should do. i know it's no excuse that i'm too busy to do these things. ugh. but what i have to do does take precedence most of the time.
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too much strife (npi) in this world. wish i could purge the world of all the shit that's going on.
yup, got new wallpaper to replace my 2 fast 2 furious wall paper heh! :) of brian lolx. now it's keira knightley from Pirates of the Caribbean! she looks really different now.
And I'd rather be high
Think I'll walk me outside
And buy a rainbow smile
But be free
put it in your right pocket, and sit on it for 3 hours.
ok shit math tomorrow, perhaps the only thing i've done is differentiation. WHERE is everyone anyway? creep is getting to me. hmm.
yeah freezing cold yesterday... cos it rained three times. we were all quite soaked to the skin. don't think i've been so cold in my life, in singapore.. and so wet hrm. yet, it was quite refreshing, and strangely enjoyable, to walk in the rain, cold as hell, no one really caring if you're gonna catch a cold walking around the place. except each other yea :)
If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it - try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way
time for the friday five!
1. When was the last time you laughed?
erps. probably today during pool hrm. quite duh. went to mambo, and waited like one hour for a table. meanwhile these fellas were sitting by the door and diaoing me :| like 'fuck rjc' 'rjc short skirt already' 'still rjc' etc.. as i walked past, was quite annoyed by them. think they diaoed almost everyone who walked past. still. one of the fellas there was from my catechism class. you'd think they'd be slightly more sensitive. ok so that wasn't when i laughed. :b but well!
2. Who was the last person you had an argument with?
serious argument? haha i try to avoid arguments. so the last argument was probably with my parents or something.
3. Who was the last person you emailed?
benson! alas, he's found a way to make emails blink too. i'm doomed.
4. When was the last time you bathed? yesterday. i think i should go and bathe after this...
5. What was the last thing you ate?
dinner. had curry chicken yum :)
S-cube wasn't that bad after all.. and it wasn't that long either. hohum. DARN IT. i should be at ps now! i wanted to go, but couldn't make it down in time anyway ugh! lsb is damn diao :) so is ben -_-
Thursdays are pretty much horrible days, at least the first half is. Civics, PW, and Bio prac - and the worst part of the day is over. but the weather was horrible today. absolutely hot, and added on to the frustration i had cos of vectors. got irritated at nearly everything hrm. ho hum. shall finish vectors today.
pw - 'cultural reminders' our minds associate objects/songs/phrases with people. these serve to remind us of our link to them. the link that was, or is. everytime your mind comes across these reminders, you think of special people who've come into your life and changed it, and you start thinking. so well. shut out everything. build walls, and try your best. psychological war. still, impossible to win i guess. can't tell what's better, building these invisible walls, or letting go of your control. rambling again. woops.
wish we had all the time in the world huh. was gonna say more. but well. can't bring myself to write here. especially since it's more rambling...
feeling extraordinarily bouncy today! yup :) psyche up to do work hehe. perhaps it's the song i heard on the car. bloody S-cube seminar tmr. waste of time la. yeah i hate french beans cos they squelch in my mouth and i just feel like ripping them out.
Listening to: Sarai - Ladies
well well... as usual, what an utter waste of a wednesday! actually, it could probably be considered an achievement too. but i'd much rather have been doing homework thank you very much.
yup, just spent the whole afternoon up to now doing pw. swamped in it. still haven't done individual research analysis for a lot of my sources. ugh. i'm so screwed.
listening to: boxcar racer! - there is
thanks guys...
him: that name sounds familiar.
me: hmm why?
him: oh his sister is my classmate's girlfriend! or something.
oops.
i feel quite unfit. hrm. mz's hand looks like a square toothed vampire bit her. hope it's ok. meh.
just tell me the truth, and i promise i won't get in your way.
Where are you going?
With your long face
Pulling down
Don't hide away
Like an ocean
That you can't see but you can smell
And the sound of the waves crash down
Where are you going?
Where do you go?
Are you looking for answers
To questions under the stars?
Well, if along the way
You are grown weary
You can rest with me until
A brighter day and you're okay
she came into my life sept 1997. still remember that day fondly when my parents drove me down to pick her up. was totally delighted with her cos she brought such joy into my life. i was gonna scan in a picture of her, but my scanner just screwed up every other program on this computer.
we always wondered if she was a pedigree. still have her papers and family tree. lolx. it's sort of screwed up, very incestuous sort of relationships up there. she never turned silvery like others of her breed usually do. she used to squeal when we tried to comb her hair. barked the whole house down till everyone except me got tired of it. she had small legs, but she made good use of them. i think she was a bit psychopathic, cos sometimes she used to race round and round and round our dining table, back to our living room, round the table there, and then hide in her little corner. and all you could see were her black beady eyes gleaming out at you. used to let her gnaw on my hand when we couldn't find her bones... and put her on my table and chairs and stuff. she was terribly afraid of all other animals, even cats. and birds. unusual.
they gave her away to the neighbours cos they said she was too noisy and i wasn't taking good enough care of her. i guess that's the part i never mention. but i kinda miss her and our late nights together. someone to accompany me through the nights. someone who'd listen no matter what. and keep those secrets yup. i don't know who the neighbours gave her to, but she's gone for good. and i can't do anything about it. i screwed up. looking out the window, i'm reminded about her. and everything else i've lost cos i didn't care enough. i hope she's being well taken care of. i've never really thought of her being put down, and i hope she's still alive somewhere.
where are you now?
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
my neck hurts like hell! that was a really spastic way to twist it. -_-
anyway, today was a sucky day. apparently the wind was damn strong all day, so you were wrong haha. :> hrm saw my brother gaping at this fella, then i realized that his sail was half torn. lolx. he jumped on the sail, and he was kinda fat. so yeah. didn't think it would happen to me, but it did -_- gay. and i didn't jump on it. huzaini was like showing me how to do stuff, and capped my boat turtlestyle like twice :| said my rudder was screwed, so he went back to get another one, then he realized my sail was torn. hi. and the kicker wouldn't lock. so i had a perfectly lovely day.
went to eat penang food after that. quite a good dinner :) yup. the clouds are damn white today. :) pretty against the navy blue backdrop. if only i could see the waning moon.
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see
Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes 'round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last
heh. just heard crazy in love on the radio, remixed with chinese punks :| that was totally odd.
yesterday was a pretty good day. better than expected i think. zzzz. mom seems to enjoy making good food when she knows i'm not going to come home for dinner, as if to tempt me home. owell.
hmm. yes. leonard lookalike, hansel lookalike. what next. eh.
sam's birthday thing yesterday. was great to see all of them. esp chiew! haha. when i first saw da and chiew together in their bright colours, was wondering wth they just came from. marche was way too crowded though. and too noisy. hate crowds.
hmm. just read chak's email to us. i feel kinda bad, cos i mean, i didn't exactly treat him damn nice or anything, especially at the beginning. but he's a nice guy. so yea, wish i coulda sent him off hmm.
And perhaps it’s common fears
Or uncommon hearts
That makes us insincere
And torn apart
But when will I learn
Love is just my fantasy disguised
yes. i hate screwing up. so the moral of the story is: don't screw up.
bleh. ended school at 12.30.. then hung around and waited for the j2s. in the end decided would be kinda extra and wouldn't be able to get back to school in time. so stayed in school.
erps. luah commented 'why don't we go out on fridays anymore?' like HI GUYS! maybe you could quit playing wc3! and i mean ALL guys.
yeah well then went to starbucks to do some work. i love starbucks haha :) came back to school kinda late for the open house thing! haa the dance was damn fun. making ali jealous with alex :b got two left feet and two left hands too. still, had tremendous fun trying to figure out the steps with alex! and the leaning part lolx. that was the best part of the dance hee. we didn't screw that part up for sure! you go boy! kang paired with benson! (rao kao^2 wasn't there meh) and mz paired with shiming.. didn't see the rest of them dancing though. owell. we will prac till we get it right! though i must say that i made a bad choice of dance partner! alex is freaking tall! if you did the dance you'll know what i mean lolx. can't turn properly and stuff.
heh. finally, back to the friday fives :)
1. How much time do you spend online each day?
right now? on weekdays usually less than an hour, unless i'm back early. on weekends, maybe more if i have time. :) used to be online like at least 3 hours a day... meh.
2. What is your browser homepage set to?
http://www.google.com3. Do you use any instant messaging programs? If so, which one(s)?
trillian! haha till it screwed up my comp. irc, till i got a new comp. yeah, so now it's just icq and msn :)
4. Where was your first webpage located?
So don't be a liar,
Don't say that "everything's working"
When everything's broken.
And you smile like a saint
But you curse like a sailor
And your eyes say the joke's on me.
it feels so good to be getting work done :) ho ho. bio prac today wasn't as disastrous as last week, my eyes weren't totally destroyed at the end of the prac lolx. stayed back after school to do hw. i could get used to this. mmm.
oh yeah the cup noodles smell good but they don't taste good. maybe it's cos i lack cup noodle making skills. hmm. that's a thought.
a certain someone has decided to be nice to me and not shimmer his emails anymore! i'm so delighted. heehee :) he was quite diao today as usual... think i'm quite lucky to have such a pw group. thanks guys.
never leave you. ooh yeah. trying to find a working copy of it. ugh.
run. run as far as you can.
I just spent the past 2 hours doing PW. Think I was totally incoherent and disorganized ugh. And I couldn't think of the right words, at the expense of sounding spastic. Hi. Think I'm gonna go back to sleep now.
Finish at 12.30 on Friday and we have that openhouse thing at 5.30! zzzz. How sucks is that. I take comfort in the fact that 3N has 13 people on that list :) I bet most of them are ponning though.
Shit. Slept since three. Just woke up. Still damn sleepy hmm. But minus the braindead effect. Shit pw! Ugh. Best thing was I just woke up, opened the pw template file... Guess what I found, the whole document had marching black ants, and the header had a blinking background -_- Headache! zzz. THANKS COWS.
okbye.
You sheltered me from harm.
Kept me warm, kept me warm
You gave my life to me
Set me free, Set me free
The finest years I ever knew
were all the years I had with you
I would give anything I own,
Give up me life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own,
just to have you back again.
You taught me how to love,
What its of, what its of.
You never said too much,
but still you showed the way,
and I knew from watching you.
Nobody else could ever know
the part of me that can't let go.
I would give anything I own,
Give up me life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again.
Is there someone you know,
you're loving them so,
but taking them all for granted.
You may lose them one day,
someone takes them away,
and they don't hear the words you long to say
I would give anything I own,
Give up me life, my heart, my home.
I would give everything I own
Just to have you back again.
quite tired now, and boomtown's just begun ack! haven't even bathed yet. ugh. helping someone with his template :| and just rebooted the computer, because i finally got nikonview5 installed to transfer photos.
we played tennis for pe today. next time i play tennis with vincey, i will run away from the ball. -_- he batted the ball at me, and hit me like three times damn hard! the rest missed me, thankfully. good job vincey. these chinese high boys.. not very gentlemanly hrmph.
then stayed in school, attempted to do work. i'm a sad failure. think i'm the sort who needs to mug alone. i keep getting sidetracked. (once again) haha we went for a little jog, yixin and i (of course she chionged the last round), and watched the teachers play snag golf. damn funny.
as we were driving home today, i spotted the moon. i wasn't sure if it was perfectly round. perhaps i'm a day off. but it's such a rare sight. today it was orangey yellow, glowing as usual, unobscured by the fluffy clouds. i gave it an 8 out of 10. agh. wish i had a better camera, mine (at full zoom) didn't do its beauty justice :| all its features sort of coalesced together as one bright light in the sky. moo. (daisy daisy daisy;)
rather splendid day. went down to changi, and the wind was damn good. haha. until we rigged up. if we'd set out earlier, and mr. lighthouse was earlier, then it'd have been windier, cos the wind kind of died. :b but oh well. he's not blame, of course. just the three of us. think it went rather well, and kinda enjoyed it. came back in, and the wind picked up again -_- i blame the weather gods. MEH.
had teppanyaki for dinner. i'm still hungry. shit. i WAS doing pw. sidetracked once more :(
my perspective seems logical enough. but we're all so different, and we obviously don't think the same way. explains the connection problems. at the end of the day, all we need is friction. boom. i guess it's not enough being friends alone. we will naturally turn to those who would see things our way, no? still, thank you. i have finally realized that this will not work the way i would have wanted it to.
thank you to the others. if we just met this year, and i've been able to open up so much, it's a pure blessing.
enough! we shall not let ourselves get sidetracked anymore. from now on, mugging takes top priority. after chicken cheese & sugary donuts, of course.
yup, the new layout is up. i admit it looks really simple, and it is, did it in the one hour between groceries and shopping. but i like it. somebody still owes me a shot of the moon. it's kind of overdue. i was wrong though, while i like the new layout, i'm still not inclined to post anything.
yesterday was quite fun. went to school, watched j2s play handball. missed the finals cos we didn't even realize it was the finals, and were cleaning up sebast's knee. i've got a crimson shot of it HOHOHO! interconstituency my ass! then went for lunch at swensens. baked rice is good. then went to play pool at mambo. when i got home, slept for half an hour, ate dinner, then went back to sleep and woke up at 9.30 today.
happy birthday to you, singapore.
can't decide between tommy girl and cool water. mom says she'll get it on her trip back from vietnam.
i am impatient. i haven't exploded for a while.
punching bags are only RM155.
don't sulk guys... :
guess i should be updating more frequently, but kinda tired. i really SHOULD start working on my draft huh. but well... slacking here of course. intend to work on a new layout soon, well i've been intending to start ages ago. i know what i'm gonna do, but i need a great picture first. heh. :| anyone got a super clear one of stars in the sky? or else i'll have to go search for one. was reminded on the way home from school today... class 95. can guess what song? :) my dad used to sing it to me when i was a little kid.
speaking of which, his decade old tennis rackets have new strings and grips. he says i have to play tennis at least 5 times to cover his costs lolx. somebody teach me! that, and how to play the guitar too. i haven't a clue how to tune it, and please don't tell me to use the piano. i did try, but failed miserably too. yeah.
we measured fats for pe today. great job. not very fun there. then played badminton. then had pt, then soccer. yucky wet grass. i kept slipping on the grass surface. suxk. think i get fetched home way more often now than i did in nanyang. at least twice a week.. usually three times these days. meh.
yes. and we should start a table. hi... work with me. :b
I pray that mr. PW man can screw himself over, trip over his shoelace, and get skinned by his cat.friday fives
1. What time do you wake up on weekday mornings?
5.45, thank you MOE. Need I lament about 156 & 165 -_-
2. Do you sleep in on the weekends? How late?
Nope, not unless I've had a late day, usually up by 9.
3. Aside from waking up, what is the first thing you do in the morning?
Eat. Wash up? Say thank you I'm still alive and not being tortured by enormous green monsters.
4. How long does it take to get ready for your day?
Depends... for school it could be 5 minutes haha.
5. When possible, what is your favorite place to go for breakfast?
Haven't had breakfast out for a darned long time, so I don't have a favourite place, but it'd probably be takeout and eat somewhere quiet.
yeah. thanks guys :)
run straight into a wall
and you can expect it to hurt
dig your own grave
and expect to lie in it
please understand
there are no excuses, only reasons
this is not the right time
nor the right place
quit playing, and rewind
need to get out of here
out of my head
before sanity is lost
don't need anything now.
no one knows. some things are out of my control
and you.
where are you?
just had a sudden burst of energy. been thinking the whole day. not gonna think about anything for the next month.
So I’ll say ‘why don’t you and I get together and take on the world and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we’ll try again
So I say why don’t you and I hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they’re never going to let me in
And slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end
Right about the same time you walk by
And I say ‘Oh here we go again’
just found out neighbour has lupus nephritis - caused by systemic lupus. zzz. sound familiar? oh well. hope for the best. why does it always come on people when they least expect it?
darn tired. i haven't done any hw this weekend. quite a 180 flip from last week muggering away. had a lot of fun today! grp 2 quite rocked heh. there were a couple of really sweet kids. and a few rowdy ones. they all took to wk hahhahaha. and wk just dug himself deeper in the trench he was already in zzz. the kids had rather active imaginations :p there was a love triangle or something.. oh wait, rectangle. involved david too. haha. corrupted young minds. hmmph. laughed throughout lunch cos weisong was making up stuff about wk while we ate, super dolby too!!
there were two kids that were darned cute! weisong and weiquan. :b one was sec2, had his left earhole pierced. freckled face. didn't really look pure chinese, compared to his brother. damn cute. :b damn noisy. his brother was quieter. dunno, then got to go out with our group to sail! first had this really quiet girl who was damn small and skinny, couldn't hold both the tiller and rope at e same time. haha. so i couldn't sit at the front. then i got joshua hahaa, who already knew how to sail zzz. so just left him pretty much to his own devices. then got weisong! who wasn't supposed to sail cos his application was too late or some rubbish like that. haah. he doesn't like water sports. can swim quite well. didn't like sailing, just enjoyed the wind. :) so got to sail some. then went back, and the kids played beach soccer, till they got tired, then went into tent listening to the fella talk cock. (can't believe he actually said humji in front of all the parents zzz) cs was cancelled cos we didn't have water bombs. doh.
so we went to the pontoon and sat there for a while. wanted to swim back!! then LOOLOO pushed me in thks!!!! haha. then he fell in too and kept trying to climb back up but sebast kept pushing him back in =p refused to swim back with me zzz. and i didn't wanna swim back alone so kept trying to climb up. caught my toe on the barnacles down there, and got a big hole in my toe. thks. accidents always happen every two months. finally david and christine pulled me up. : had to use water spray and scissors to get the crap outta the wound hrmph. some disgusting heehee.
oh well. shit. have bio hw to do. have econs to do. damn screwd. bye!
i don't blog about depressing things here. had the most fun i've had in a while (considering last weekend's attempt at being a muggertoad) the past two days. went bowling yesterday with a group of friends :) it was expensive, but heck. i think we had quite a good time. after sailing today, same thing, went to play pool with the same bunch. guess we should just make the most of what we have now & treasure 'em.
love the friday five questions. but i don't feel like doing them this week. ta.
Go on and close the curtains
All we need is candlelight
You and me and a bottle of wine
Going to hold you tonight
We know I'm going away
How I wish...
Wish it weren't so
Take this wine & drink with me
Let's delay our misery
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
There's a log on the fire
And it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire
To take me away...
It's true
It ain't easy to say goodbye
Darling please don't start cry
'Cause girl you know I've got to go
Lord I wish it wasn't so
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow comes to take me away
I wish that I...
That I could stay
Girl you know I've got to go
Lord I wish it wasn't so
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone...
shouldn't have done hw during weekend. waste of time. now i have like nothing worth doing. sigh. :| econs lecturer is shishifiedxinfinity. she gets on my nerves a lot. felt like walking out but hai.
fy cut her hair :b didn't realize they were talking about her, until umm later. yeah. oh and mrs yak came to rj for some raffles prog overview thing! haha. you guys missed her :] lolx then she was subtly talking about how she couldn't wear heels cos mz brought up the fact that she was taller than her. -_- realized she was kind of pregnant lolx. baby's due in dec :)
ok gotta bathe now, boomtown in ten min!
i liked my entries last time. they were more spastic haha :) now i tell the bare mininum, cos i'm afraid.
anyway, wed afternoon, went down to nsc for pre-event stuff for cip. haha :) damn windy. had quite a lot of fun. seniors were choreographing fake fight scenes. damn hilarious to watch their antics. ugh!
thurs, bumped into jingpeng at ps! :) walked around a lot.
fri, went out with classmates after school. had a freezing time in the lt, for math and gp, and then in the ts, for math and chem. geez. we were all freezing our butts off even in our extra shirts/jackets. zzz. went to ghimmoh to eat lunch, then headed to town to check out movie times haha. couldn't find anything suitable, so ended up going to monster to play pool :b 10.80 per hour *bish* pos. then went to starbucks. hahah. had a lovely freezing time in there, hanging around till 6. did math. oh yea, saw tiffa too :)
hoho. :|
blatantly? or sneakily? I don't remember ever cheating sneakily hrm. Remind me if you do remember. Blatantly would probably be tingxie, maybe last year? But can't really be bothered to cheat, not worth it haha.
2. When was the last time you stole?
Memory fails me, don't remember koping anything before.
3. When was the last time you lied?
erm. I don't usually lie to people, maybe tell half-truths or don't tell 'em anything at all. Probably parents though. Like tell them going library to do pw. haha. then go and play pool haha. last sat then.
4. When was the last time you broke or vandalized another's property?
hmm.. does that include writing things on others stuff? haha. ;b ok i do it everyday then.
5. When was the last time you hurt a loved one?
today, yesterday, everyday. last time? hmm. probably today.
Credits:
I just wanted something simple this time. My father sang this song to me when I was young. He
used to sing me to sleep. I've been intending to get this layout done for a while now. I know I
don't have the perfect picture, but this will have to do. This blog layout was designed with
the help of these brushes, adobe photoshop 7.0,
getty images and the stars, for shining ever so
brightly in the dark velvet sky.
vincent:
For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry starry night,
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you...
Starry starry night,
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless heads on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me,
And how you suffered for your sanity,
And how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen,
They're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will.
