skarrd: gollumedition

for the love of me>>

no training. no school. haha. i miss school. i finally got down to working on my template. it's simple. almost done, i just have to work out the rough edges. it's a little bit weird.

monday:played pool. didn't do much work.

tuesday:watched finding nemo for the third time and played pool. didn't do much work either. hmm. why does everyone 'find nemo' :| ugh.

today: mom took leave. we were supposed to reorganize the whole house. but somehow, we were sidetracked and ended up going to thompson plaza. mother told the osim man that she didn't know how to read english, didn't know how to read chinese, and didn't go to school. stoned awhile, then went to town to meet dad for lunch at o'brien's. great place to sit there and people watch haha. :) mother, once again, glared at lady in lift and said she'd stepped on her toe when she hadn't. lady apologized. couldn't stop laughing. pretended not to know her the whole day.

dad cancelled caller id. smart of him. now when someone calls, all i see is 'call'. even when mom calls. rubbish. now if i miss calls, i won't even know to call back. haha.

we bought a car today. finally. spent an awful lot of time (and learnt that i should become a marketer in my mom's industry because then i'd have trillions of lunch hours to waste away 'networking'). got bored out of my life, and ended up sleeping in all of the cars there. finally bought a silver honda cr-v. i still don't understand why guys cringe when i gush about big cars. then again, they don't have hair blowing in their faces when they drive their little convertibles. little cars for big men. ugh. not that all little convertibles are bad. i love the cr-v. spent ages sorting out details. i don't understand why it takes so long to get a car when it's already sitting in the bloody warehouse. all that insurance and authorization rubbish. hai. :| we're driving it to malaysia though.

then we went to ikea. went through the whole place. got ideas for my wardrobe. i can envision my studio apartment man. all the foldable tables and sideboards... o well. gonna continue with the page.

bleeding mercury on Thursday, December 11, 2003@08:43 p.m.
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no one knows//queens of the stone age

wow. haven't updated for more than week. guess i'm weaning myself off blogging, but i haven't been able to get rid of that voyeuristic part of me, meaning that i'm still reading all blogs. erps.

monday, nothing much, can't remember wth i did. tuesday was last pt with j2s. played mixed soccer. had helluva lot of fun. will miss them a darned lot. wednesday, went sailing. brother beached haha. he was too used to a laser, forgot how to handle topper. watched finding nemo on thurs. was even better than monster inc, and i liked monster inc very much. we missed the beginning of the movie though. came in to see marlin and nemo in the anemone. friday comes round, played pool then went to see how to lose a guy. kate hudson is charm. saw tiffa! who messaged jingpeng. :| sat, woke up late. managed to get mom out shopping. bought two tops. went around the perfume department till my nose couldn't tell where one perfume stopped and another started. the scents sort of mixed together. not very pleasant. kinda like tommy girl though. and connexion. didn't see boss anywhere. then went to fetch dad from golf. came home, ate dinner, then went to yishun to watch finding nemo again :b i'd watch another time too. heh.

sailing today. suddenly don't feel like going. brother's sailing topper. but jo's missing. coach told me not to bring in new students. quite pissed. wth. just because i'm the one communicating with him. and jo was the one who got in touch with him for the rest somemore. feel like ponning. 03s1a is going to sentosa, meeting at 10 at tiong bahru. i want to be there. quite. supposed to meet them for dinner. yun asked me for dinner at marche. heh. good job. i think i shall go look for 03s1a first. haven't seen them in darned long, cept for a few who i've bumped into.

i miss school. i need a scheduled life. we haven't ponned anything in so long. haven't been to starbucks in more than a week. or holland v. or macs at ghim moh. bleh.

bleeding mercury on Sunday, June 8, 2003@10:09 a.m.
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train.

haha i thought there was something fishy about the vj scale. but my classmates told me they'd put on weight. so.

today was such a waste of time. we came to school for the prjc talk (erps which we all thought was some other jc talk?!! mz very loudly said it was spastic in class haha) and then pw. quite worried bout pw because i only have thurs and fris to do research and everything, the rest of the week is practically off limits. ugh. came late for pw cuz everyone was whiling their time away in the canteen hm. left them standing around talking after buggin' them to go to class. haha. cheang is how scary. stopped me outside the class with kailyn and someone else.. wouldn't lemme go in. she offered us the explanation that we'd gone to locker to get research. like 'shitttttt. where did the rest go' then cheang let us in and started doing that trembling lower lip thing, nearly cried again.. then they came. and chris came. hahaha. then after that we had break. then ne talk. then break, didn't go for the rest of bio lab b/c it was locked. guess nah couldn't be bothered. hahaha he can't be bothered about anything. like how 1s03n didn't have to take bio post test b/c he didn't print for us. doh.. and he teaches us somemore. miss hor got a bit pissed only. then break again, then chem lect, then break then econs lec. i love the pic on the back of alex's file. wahhh.. what a slack day. shouldn't have come. then went to ghimmoh for lunch with them. vince's inverse bag was hilarious. hahahaha. damn tired when i got home, slept till 8. ugh. super sleepy still.

i realized something, or re-realized it. there are so many things i wouldn't have cared about three months ago, but i do now. and there are many other things i would have cared about, but now can't be bothered by. good/bad? don't know. just bothers me sometimes.

here's my playlist, for want of something else to add:
3 doors down - the road i'm on
staind - price to play
audioslave - like a stone
jake - believe
big brovaz - favourite things
third eye blind - blinded (when i see you)
chevelle - send the pain below
audioslave - i am a highway
cold - stupid girl
the calling - for you
dave matthews - everyday (acoustic)
dave matthews - crash (fatboy slim remix)
double drive - imprint
jason mraz - the remedy
jimmy eats world - my sundown
queens of the stone age - no one knows
queens of the stone age - go with the flow
radiohead - there, there
silverchair - anna's song
silverchair - after all these years
silverchair - anthem for the year 2000
silverchair - love your life
silverchair - miss you love
silverchair - tomorrow
simple plan - addicted
silverchair - the greatest view
train - calling all angels
trapt - echo
trapt - break me out
trapt - headstrong
trapt - stories
truth hurts - addictive
white stripes - seven nation army

where are all my lifehouse songs? hmm.

bleeding mercury on Thursday, May 29, 2003@08:47 p.m.
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i need to believe.

i have gained 7 kg since they weighed me in vj. :) don't get me wrong, that's not a bad thing at all. had gp common test today. think i was the only one sleeping in the lt. oh well. kinda crap. jianxi better keep his word :b hahahhaah. should have seen him being chased around by tim. then chionged to swensens', cabbed there. rather sad our freeflow was like 15 min long. died after eating that peanut butter icecream... four scoops of icecream. ugh. swear i'm not going there for next few years. can feel my sore throat coming on... thankew very much swensens'.

friends and liars
don't wait for me
cause I'll get on
all by myself
put millions of miles
under my heels
and still too close to you
I feel

I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the sky here
I am not your autumn moon
I am the night
the night

-- audioslave: i am the highway

bleeding mercury on Wednesday, May 28, 2003@09:27 p.m.
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no regrets.

you know what i mean.

find myself clicking on guestbook, hoping someone has left a note there... but oh well. no one ever does :| the tagboard is overused heh.

pissed at him. him who botched my meal order, and told the woman plain even thought i said without the sauce, but because he mumbled everything, i got the food with the sauce and the cheese, and i didn't get my vanilla coke. and then he shrugged and didn't look very sorry when he said sorry. and after that, he helped me derig my boat at sea. yeah the fella knocked the boom off the mast. hi. thanks very much. on top of that, my centreboard stopper had to come loose, and fell off when i capped (turtle, took more than five minutes to upright). had to pay for that. quite pissed off already. anyway. we shall not talk about him anymore. he's a gay.

had dinner at fish and co. they undercooked the prawns. good job.

bleeding mercury on Sunday, May 25, 2003@09:26 p.m.
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oh-a-kleys

it would be nice if everyone was a little more helpful. oh well. eventually there'll be a reward for being less selfish even though i'd like to be.

on a separate note, i almost got my oakleys today. got my watch and my bag, did some window shopping :| i want sandals, slippers, slip ons. agh. saw a whole bunch of mat punks today. with goth punk black shirts, and power spiked hair. like not mussed up i got out of bed looks, but stiff spikes like super odd durians. wonder how much gel they used. maybe they used glue. hmm. then they did the mat handshake. quite funny. did car shopping. we are on the verge of getting a crv i think. mom refuses to get the airtrek turbo. no turbo for my dad. hee. big car = good car. i want a lot of leg space. you guys can sit in the boot lol. then went to great world so mom could fix her spex. kept wanting me to look at oakleys.. politely declined this time.. cannot be too enthusiastic about it. meanwhile i shall keep surfing the catalogues. i will get them eventually :)

there is absolutely nobody online on saturday nights. i should be out too. wth. bloody bored. maybe everyone's mugging. or something.. i'm sure. managed to play pool yesterday. with the usual bunch. who were quite broke. except for chris. they 'inversed' their pe shirts, and wore the stinky shirts the uncle at monster 2 gave us. sucky. i should have stayed out on friday night. regretted going home. o well. regretted playing pool so early too. managed to do pw research yesterday at the library.. after dragging them along. rather amusing to find eugene slumped on the floor.. sleeping. erps. bumped into a couple of vjcians at ps. only a couple. we miss the mass dances. wish i had more free time. mom wants to go back to kl. which i know will be an absolute waste of time. wth. i want to be around for one holiday. erps. i am SUNBURNT.

hope the wind will be with us tomorrow.

bleeding mercury on Saturday, May 24, 2003@08:37 p.m.
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super thursday

oi! feel like revamping the site. but no time :| it'll probably turn out like this again meh.

watching american idol haha :) s00per tired, haven't done math trigo.. hrm. will do it later i guess.

yesterday on the way to ps from sailing, chiew msged me. stoopid edward said i'd grown skinnier. i'm sure putting on 3 kg is growing skinnier can... anyway, told me she was damn stressed.. chill chick :) don't understand how someone can handle 3 ccas la.. and here i am, with one cca, feeling super unstressed out, slacking half the time. haha maybe that's why i'm going to fail chem and econs. oh yeah. slacked off chem today again! :) no one wanted to pon with me.... so in the end carissa and i went to nydc on a hot date :> stupid humji people!!! then bought starbucks coffee.. was waiting outside the toilet below spex gal for her, and miss poon came along on her bike... then she came out.. and miss poon was like, wah your friend sitting there so comfortably with her *scrutinises me carefully* what's that, coffee bean? starbucks coffee.. like whoopssss. zhaoed quickly.

bored. chemistry on now. :| i can't believe i'm watching it!

bleeding mercury on Thursday, May 22, 2003@09:01 p.m.
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have you seen the amazing race 5 advertisement on axn? i'm very fascinated by it. just pervie. :)

feel rather lost without all the smsing. help!

bleeding mercury on Tuesday, May 20, 2003@08:47 p.m.
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6 x 0.4 = 2.4km

math test today. not bad... considering my day yesterday. can't believe stupid chris ponned :| had 2.4 too. damned tired. i need to do better next year. tv night today: friends, smallville and alias. and no math test tmr unlike most of the cohort. haha.

addicted to the greatest view.

bleeding mercury on Monday, May 19, 2003@08:36 p.m.
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weather today: windy :) very windy compared to sat.

had fun out at sea again. sun disappeared behind the clouds sometime five-ish, and the whitecaps vanished too. just a cool breezy sorta wind was left. very very pleasant weather. hah to all you muggers who didn't come la. :b (ok that wasn't really your fault) at least ya'll did some math. i'm very happy though. feel satisfied now.

fella wants me to go for some regattas :| do ya'll wanna go too? don't even feel ready for anything.

had mos burger for dinner. erp. maybe should start on math now. but there's csi tonight!

was standing around in borders music section yesterday, scanning the silverchair cd for this song i'm in love with. stupid chris kept trying to guess which song it was.. haha. i found it btw :) it's 'the greatest view':

Now that you know why you feel like you do
They're turning their head whilst they wait
For no one
And finally I know why I feel like you're letting go

I'm watching you watch
Over me and I've got
The greatest view from here
I'm watching you watch
Over me and I've got
The greatest view from here
The greatest view from here
The greatest view

sea spray in my eyes. bleh. shall put greatest view on repeat. makes me happy.

bleeding mercury on Sunday, May 18, 2003@08:06 p.m.
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no wind, swam/paddled back again. haha. caught up to that irritating tj person. hahaha. had fun watching wk try to swim too, but he promptly fell into the water :b finally got towed back near the breakwater :| anyway, went out to nydc to eat.. mz and chris were super stoned/anti erp. they slept on the bus there... played handphone games at nydc. erp. they weren't hungry after that. :( i was damn hungry tho. went to borders to look at cds after that. zhaoed to meet mother after that. went to united square. very family place. ate at bakers inn. strawberry shortcake. yum. flat white. caffeinated. don't feel the effects though. there was this incredibly cute less than year old baby there.. mimicking my mother blowing a kiss at him. hehe. damn smart baby. very shy too.

wanted to go back to town after that. mom kaobeied about how i shouldn't wander around town aimlessly. relented after seeing my face hahaha. after a while i mean. went back to town to hang around. erp wanted to play pool :( but didn't.. just walked up and down orchard road again. no people to watch. haha. well done.

oh yeah. phone bills reached a high of 1.60 this month. 1300+ smses. dad threatened to swop sim cards with me. or gimme a hi card. erps. ok from now on i'm not having mini icq conversations anymore. if you want to talk to me, please call me or get me face to face. :| deaded. i need a new plan.

bleeding mercury on Saturday, May 17, 2003@08:57 p.m.
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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	High
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

bleeding mercury on Friday, May 16, 2003@09:27 p.m.
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reloaded?

chem test sucked. should not have slacked so much yesterday. ended school at 12.30 today, haha. everybody zhaoed.. and luah and yixin ate lunch in the school canteen?!! dragged chris out to eat, got matrix tix hahaha, no long queues there. managed to get five tix in a centre row :b

matrix was erps, rather confusing and cheem.. or altogether rubbish and wellfabricated, such that i couldn't catch a lot of it. but it was funny yes. think i enjoyed xmen2 more. shall catch matrix again. yes. and i agree that there were some rather horny bits. :| neo and trinity can't seem to keep their hands off each other. and the superman thing is really erm incredible. haha. hope you're not reading my blog if you having caught it.

after that, walked to borders and wandered around checking stuff out, and the mac shop upstairs! swooned over the powerbook and other mac stuff. then chris luah and yixin zhaoed back to school.. leaving me with mz fairy. attempted to go shopping, (without money) ended up walking to fareast, scotts, tangs, lucky plaza, heeren and cine. well done. didn't find anything either. wish i wasn't so broke. hrmph. this stupid fella jabbed his elbow into mz's upper torso -_- gave him the whatever sign. stupid fucker. wah lao. he tried to wave at us while going up the escalator somemore. hi.. she zhaoed after her icecream and my milo.. walked to centrepoint, specialist, looped back up to taka.. ahha. took damn long to finish the milo. and i swear i saw two vj sailors at least twice.. once while coming outta cine, and another time at kino :| nearly mistook one of them for kengyang. like erps familiar looking face, couldn't place it. i want to buy kino. ugh. saw the sandman note books. bleh... couldn't find any books on armenian genocide either.

bleeding mercury on Friday, May 16, 2003@08:39 p.m.
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work doubly harder

haha. i've found a new love! in trapt :) if you heard them, you'd know why. my type of music ooof. okay.. maybe some of the songs are a bit off. but well... headstrong rox.

anyway, got back my chem spring test thing.. got 4/20.. fella wrote 'work doubly harder' on it. if i worked doubly harder, i'd only get 8... :| which still wouldn't be a pass. so i'd have to work triply harder mrm... wth.

oh 'calling all angels' is taken off 'my private nation' :) which isn't out till june.

bleeding mercury on Thursday, May 15, 2003@10:27 a.m.
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happy vesak day :>

haven't blogged in ages. mom's bugging me about being discerning. wth. she better not stop me from going out today. i can't spend a whole friggin day at home! and with her too!!!

heh. after we were done with cca yesterday (with a horrible lack of wind and therefore more paddling and rocking the boat and a whole lot more of towing), whole bunch of us went out for dinner to fish and co. glass house :> can't believe they were able to get a reservation for 25! still had to wait for the tables to be cleared tho, so by the time we sat down it was 9. fish and chips was good. yup. been a long time since i had a group dinner, or enjoyed one :)

bleeding mercury on Thursday, May 15, 2003@09:20 a.m.
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headstrong. trapt.

looking for lyrics to 'calling all angels', can't find them.

] Circling your head contemplating everything you ever said
Now I see the truth I got a doubt
A different motive in your eyes and now I'm out
See you later
I see your fantasy you want to make a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads
yeah
Well that's over
I see your motives inside
decisions to hide
Back off I�ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we're Headstrong
Back off I�ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
This is not where you belong
I can't give everything away
I won't give everything away
Visions manifest your first impressions got to be your very best
I see you're full of shit and that's all right
That's how you play I guess you get through every night
Now that's over
I see your fantasy you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads
Well that's over
I see your motives inside
and your decisions to hide
Back off I�ll take you on
Headstrong to take on any one
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong, we�re headstrong
Back off I�ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
and This is not where you belong
where you belong
I can�t give everything away
this is not where you belong
I won�t give everything away
I know I know all about
I know I know all about
I know I know all about
I know I know all about
Your motives inside
and your decision to hide
Back off I�ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong,we�re headstrong
Back off I�ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
and this is not where you belong
where you belong
this is not where you belong
I can�t give everything away
This is not where you belong
I won�t give everything away
where you belong
this is not where you belong.
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bleeding mercury on Saturday, May 10, 2003@06:54 p.m.
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the remedy

hai. last two entries got deleted before i could post. no wind today. dude told all of us to stand up and start rocking the boats... yea. not much of sailing there :|

caught up on my blog reading. :> nothing much else to say. got bio and chem test next week. gah. no time to study. gossip sux. i want to watch matrix and the animatrix. bored out of my wits. shit. why did i come home so early?

dreamt i stole weikeong's girlfriend. rather lesbian there. maybe his girlfriend was a guy?! most peculiar sort of dream.

dance night was cool. good job there busmate :)

bleeding mercury on Saturday, May 10, 2003@06:14 p.m.
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lol.. hmm. everyone didn't turn up today cept chris. the usual coach was sick so this guy named thomas took us.. and made us do start line non stop :( but chris (being a deaf toot and all) couldn't hear him, so he got to sail all the way out to sea and back and forth plenty of times.. and there we all were doing start line over and over again.. hai. how boring. hrm. i would ignore him too but he knows my name.. hrmph. after that, went to this indian restaurant with family... at upper east coast.. some place advertised in the papers today. chat masala. not bad food. pretty tables and stuff. :b and pretty waitresses! haha. okae. shall not say more. : lest i'm called a lesbian again.

bleeding mercury on Sunday, May 4, 2003@08:36 p.m.
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