Please help me.
Yay! Internet!
So my friend from back in high school, Melanie C., emailed me! That was the coolest. Of course, she's not Melanie C. anymore, she's Melanie W., which makes me very jealous (of her status, not her husband, whom I've never met). She also has a little girl named Alyssa. Isn't that just the coolest name ever? I haven't seen a picture, but I hope she's ugly. Because ugly babies turn out to be pretty kids, and vice versa. Have you ever noticed that? It's almost ALWAYS true. Like, for example, my little sister was the UGLIEST baby I've ever seen in my LIFE and now she's got guys falling all over her. So I hope Alyssa is ugly so she'll be pretty later. It's far more important to be a pretty child/teen/adult than to be a pretty baby, because when you're a baby, no one cares how you actually look. You're cute by default. Anyway, the point (really!) was that I'm glad Mel emailed me. I'm pretty lonely up here, and I missed her, anyway.
*whimpers softly*
Sitting in the biology computer lab...
*sigh*
He felt that his whole life was a dream...
Lotsa waiting
Posting lyrics
Goodbye, cruel dorm...
Grr.
Daniel got a new car! It's really nice. I like it. And so does he. This also means that I do not have to drive him to St. Louis anymore. And I am not going back to another shoot for the show. Everyone except Rachel was just plain hateful to me and I don't want to deal with that anymore. Isn't it just MESSED UP that the one person I wanted to hate is the one person I kind of like? With the obvious exception of Daniel, of course. But I didn't want to hate him.
THERE GOES THE ******* ALARM AGAIN. Yup. Snooze. Third time she's hit snooze. And it won't be the last, trust me. I go through this every day that I'm here. And she wonders why I sleep elsewhere when I can.
Going birding with my aunt today - it's her birthday. I hope we see some new birds. That would be awesome. Maybe we'll go back to Wilson's Creek Battlefield - I wanted to ask them if they're hiring anyway. Can't you just see me in an 1860's style dress, flouncing about and talking about churning butter?
Neopets
The Status of the Summer
Hello (hello), is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me...
In other news, I've been playing Harvest Moon a lot lately since Daniel's been spending a lot of time in St. Louis, and I have made a lot of progress. I now have a dog, a horse, three cows, three hens, a rooster, and a chick, as well as a free Seed Maker and a Strange Sickle and Ruby Spice (not to be confused with Scary Spice or Baby Spice) and a fiancee. Finally got Nami to agree to marry my dude. I saw all of her cut scenes, I believe, and that was cool. And I'm almost done with the first chapter and then I'll have a wife and a son. It will be a wonderful life. (HA!)
I've also decided to start separating paragraphs on here. Okay, okay, stop cheering. I got tired of all the complaints.
I'm really thirsty but I don't have much of this Mountain Dew left and so I am trying to ration it. I'll have to get Daniel to drive me to Wal-Mart later and buy beverages. Okay... I could drive myself. But that's what men are for, right? I need to make him feel needed. That's my rationale, anyway.
I'm bored. I'm about to go to class and then I'll find out what I made on my history test (maybe). I don't know how well I did on the multiple choice/matching part of the test but I wrote a really spectacular essay on feudalism. So I think I'll get a good grade. I'm serious... this was probably the best essay I've ever written, at least during a timed test. I got smart this time and wrote the essay first, though, which probably made all the difference inasmuch as I was not scribbling frantically and hoping to get as much information in it as possible before time was up. It was actually well-structured, informative, and even as creative as it could have been. So I feel pretty good about it. But now I have to go. Goodbye!
Concerning Darwin
Looooong weekend
Stolen Survey
1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
3) What is the last thing you watched on TV?
4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.
5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
7) When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
9) What are you wearing?
10) Did you dream last night?
11) When did you last laugh?
12) What is on the walls of the room you are in?
13) Seen anything weird lately?
14) Last movie you saw?
15) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
The rest of X and all five seasons of Babylon 5.
16) Tell me something about you that I don't know.
17) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
18) Do you like to dance?
19) George Bush:
20) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
21) Same question for a boy.
Shalalalalala
*freaks out*
*twirls around deliriously*
Sleep... is... good...
Blame it all on my roots...
Eternal Darkness
Yay.
Munching Cheerios and Avoiding Class
Stole this from Nataku, who stole it from someone, who stole it from someone...
1. "Two Princes" Spin Doctors
Interesting. Very interesting. Let's see... I'm letting my computer play randomness so that I can write it down when I have this loooooooong To-Do List staring me in the face, all of which I have to accomplish tonight and STILL have time to go see my aunt, which I do every Sunday because she buys me dinner on Sundays. I really need to work on that position paper. It's priority one, because everything else I can do tomorrow if I ABSOLUTELY have to. Life would be much easier if I could just do it tonight, though. I leave for my Evanescence concert tomorrow after class! Isn't that just the COOLEST? Yeah, I know you're jealous. That's just too bad. I will send you vibes. I almost bought Linkin Park tickets for later this month but Daniel can't get off work and I'm sure as heck not going by myself. Anyway. Bought a new pack of Yu-Gi-Oh cards last night, and got some pretty spiffy cards. I wish I had someone up here to play with. Daniel said he'd be willing to learn, and since my deck is big enough to split with him I'll probably do that. It will be fun. *giggle*
Though I try to forget, you're all that I am...
For a moment, all the world was right...
Of Money and Randomness
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
09:26 a.m.
Current Music: [Forever Love (Last Mix)] X Japan
I am working in the biology department office at my school, and there are men outside my office. APPARENTLY someone decided that this building needs repairs. I don't see what they're actually doing to improve the building. It looks like they're just hammering randomly on the frickin' CONCRETE to me. As loud as they can. I mean, I'm seriously considering putting a towel or some sponges across the doorway to keep the testosterone from seeping into my office. Wait, perhaps I wasn't descriptive enough. These men are on scaffolding in the open center of the building, by the stairwell. INSIDE THE BUILDING. So on top of the hammering factor, we have the echo factor. I am going insane. Hang on, gotta do work stuff. I'll be right back. Okay, back. Did you miss me? Woo hoo! That was actually kind of fun. I got to order a textbook for a class, so now I'm indirectly responsible for screwing the BIO 577 students out of even more textbook money! I would say that I won't be able to sleep at night now, but I am mildly sleep-deprived at the moment. *blinks blearily* Anyway. You will be happy to know that the hammering has stopped. It won't stop for long, but it is a welcome relief. Perhaps I will slip out quickly and go wring out the towel before they start again.
Monday, August 2, 2004
09:04 a.m.
Current Music: [Satellite] Dave Matthews Band
*huggles computer* I am finally back online! YAY! Actually, I'm online on the computer at work, so I won't have AIM or anything. But it's still the Internet. I will be back to my regularly scheduled AIM insanity on the 23rd, when classes start back. Yes, I am at work. Scary, huh? I'm in charge of the biology department office for two whole weeks, all by myself, while the secretary is on vacation. Which is terrifying, but I've been in charge for over an hour now and all that's happened is that I had to lie down on the floor of the copy room and dig out the jammed paper from the copier. I had not been here for THREE MINUTES before that happened, and apparently no one else could get the paper out. Ha. I bet they just didn't want to lie down on the floor. But that's okay. I have no pride. It doesn't bother me. So I've been surfing the 'net since then, except for about two minutes where I had to make a spreadsheet for Dr. B... not that he couldn't have done it himself, but hey! I have nothing better to do. Later today, I might be saying that sarcastically, but right now I am serious. Rob just got here and talked to me for a few minutes, mostly about kung fu. Rob is a trip. I hope he continues to work here for a long time, because he amuses me. And he's also kinda cute >.> <.< Don't tell Daniel I said that, not that he'd care as long as I don't absolutely drool all over myself, which I won't do. It doesn't matter anyway, since Rob has a girlfriend and I'm perfectly happy with my boyfriend (and I wouldn't date Rob even if the above two things were not true), but... it's always nice to have a bit of eye candy when they're not around.
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
11:33 p.m.
Current Music: [Stolen Car] Sting
I have a test tomorrow and I am afraid. I mean... have you ever been so scared witless by a test that you couldn't even bring yourself to study? Every time I look at the notes, I see something ELSE that I didn't know and that just makes this whole studying thing seem worthless. I am so sleepy but I can't go to bed until I study more and I can't study more until I get some sleep. But if I sleep then I won't have time to study. *sigh* Maybe I'll just wing it. I hate to say that. But I really thought I knew all the stuff I needed to know. Maybe I'm overreacting... I'm sure I am. I have been studying and paying attention. Surely I know at least enough to get a B. And the stellar grade I got on the first test will pull it up. So no worries. Also... I have a lab report due tomorrow that I forgot about and I intend to start on. That will be happening any second now. Yep. Any second now. Any... second... now... Screw it. I'll get it done, don't worry. I am the goddess of doing things at the last minute and doing them well. I got a job today, though, which is cool. Working as the assistant to the biology department secretary. AND MY HEAD ITCHES. *scratchscratchscratch* That's better. In case you haven't noticed, I'm going completely insane and stressing out and life pretty well sucks right now and the more it sucks the angrier I get at certain people (no, not you, Lauren) and the angrier I get at them the more I snap at Daniel even though it's not his fault and the more I snap at Daniel the worse I feel about myself and the worse I feel about myself the more life sucks. *pulls hair out* But Owen is here. *pets Owen* And he's cheering me up ever so slightly.
Wednesday, June 9, 2004
12:16 p.m.
Current Music: [Saudaaji] Porno Graffiti
LOOK OUT!
ïòðSkarlatha is a radioactive squirrel!!
From Go-Quiz.com
Saturday, June 5, 2004
08:45 p.m.
Current Music: [Broken] Seether & Amy Lee
I am currently attempting to download an episode of "My Little Pony" because it's just the bomb. Daniel is in the kitchen, quoting what is apparently the entire script to "Star Wars: A New Hope" (complete with voice differences and interrupting himself when appropriate; it's really quite brilliant actually). He's up to the scene where Darth Vader chokes the dude who insults the Force in the council room. And now my food is ready. Short entry, I know. I'll try to write longer later.
Monday, May 31, 2004
10:49 p.m.
Current Music: various song snippets that fly through my head
And he sometimes wondered whose it was and whether they were enjoying it. Ah, the joys of Arthur Dent. Anyway, just a quick random update so that the three of you who read this don't think I'm dead or missing or somehow brainwashed to think technology is evil. Life is currently... okay. More good than bad, but enough bad stuff to make the scales somewhere close to even. Of course everything on the Daniel front is absolutely spectacularly wonderful, and getting better by the second. He's just... amazing. Completely amazing. And cuddly. And cute. And thoughtful, and caring, and generous, and every other good adjective that can be applied to a man. We had the most unbelievably awesome conversation last night, about... well... life. That's all I'll say. And with that, I will click the little "done" button.
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
12:05 p.m.
Current Music: [Say Anything] X Japan
I am currently waiting. Waiting for a lot of things. Waiting for the people from my various potential places of employment to call me. Waiting for Daniel to get home (even though he won't stay long). Waiting for all these Gackt songs to download (I'm determined to have all of Crescent by the end of the day). Waiting for Daniel to leave after he gets home so that I can go back to sleep and he won't know about it therefore he won't think I'm lazy. Waiting for today's mail to run so that I can go and get the check mom mailed me. Waiting for someone to get online to talk to. Waiting to find out anything about jobs so that I can decide whether I'll be going home tomorrow or not. Yeah... kinda last minute, I know. But I want to be home for Garrith's graduation since we've been friends for four years now. FOUR YEARS? Wow. That's pretty intense. I feel old now. Also I would really like to rant but I don't want to get into it in detail, so bear with me. I have been having horrible dreams lately, dreams that I HAVE DONE NOTHING TO DESERVE. Also there is something I recently found out about someone I care about that really freaks me out. The problem is that I can't act like it freaks me out, because when they first told me I said it wasn't a big deal. It's kind of like how believing in voodoo isn't a big deal but when you start stabbing dolls of me with big pins it becomes a big deal. Or how being a vegetarian isn't a big deal but when you start whapping me with a 2x4 every time I eat meat it becomes a big deal. That kind of thing. And when I just knew it, I was okay with it. It's what has happened because there was no need to hide it anymore that freaks me out. Makes me kind of want to curl up in a little ball and whimper, or perhaps throw away my computer so I don't have to deal with it anymore. But if I threw away my computer, these Gackt songs would never download. So maybe I'll wait a while.
Friday, May 14, 2004
01:01 p.m.
Current Music: Randomness
Dante's Prayer
by Loreena McKennitt
When the dark wood fell before me
And all the paths were overgrown
When the priests of pride say there is no other way
I tilled the sorrows of stone
I did not believe because I could not see
Though you came to me in the night
When the dawn seemed forever lost
You showed me your love in the light of the stars
Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me
Then the mountain rose before me
By the deep well of desire
From the fountain of forgiveness
Beyond the ice and fire
Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me
Though we share this humble path, alone
How fragile is the heart
Oh give these clay feet wings to fly
To touch the face of the stars
Breathe life into this feeble heart
Lift this mortal veil of fear
Take these crumbled hopes, etched with tears
We'll rise above these earthly cares
Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me
Please remember me
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
06:21 p.m.
Current Music: [Dante's Prayer] Loreena McKennitt
Yes, I am about to unplug my computer, which is the last of the things that I have to pack in order to move out of Scholar's House forever. *loud fake sobs* Anyway, at this point I am just waiting on Daniel to get here so that I can load all my boxes in his SUV and haul them across town to my apartment. *giggles* My apartment. Doesn't that sound swell? I'm really kind of concerned about this big hole in the wall by my desk... I swear I used the adhesive the college recommended ("it won't tear the paint!") but HA. It DID. I am kind of ticked off about that. Well... I just really wanted to say goodbye in case something happens to my sweetheart computer en route to the apartment. Also I have been packing all day and I wanted a break before I unplug my computer. My computer... it needs a name. Any ideas? All I can think of is "Parrot-san" because that's the name of Ashley's computer and of course I can't name it that. Feel free to use my message board to suggest names for my computer, which is a flat-screen black Dell. Thanks. Toodles.
Friday, May 7, 2004
09:11 a.m.
Current Music: Silence
I just got back to the dorm and I wanted to go back to bed but like the very second that I walked towards the door to my room, Megan's alarm went off. Which means that for the next hour, her damned alarm will go off every ten minutes, because she apparently doesn't believe in actually getting up out of bed when she says she will. I mean, at least I do that. When the alarm goes off for the first time, I get up. Or if I really need more sleep, I reset the alarm for like thirty minutes later. Snooze is stupid, I have finally realized. So anyway, there's no point in trying to get some more sleep because her alarm will go off every time I start to doze.
Wednesday, May 5, 2004
02:16 p.m.
Current Music: SOUNDS OF TRUIMPH!
XAILITH IS FINALLY A GHOST IXI!!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!! I'VE BEEN SAVING FOR A GHOST PAINT BRUSH SINCE I STARTED PLAYING!!!! THIS IS A BIG EXCITING DAY!!!! I HAVE TO GO CELEBRATE!!!!
Monday, May 3, 2004
10:58 a.m.
Current Music: [Come Clean] Hilary Duff
Well, it's official... I'm staying in Springfield this summer. Can't believe Mom went for it. Now I just have to find a job. A job that will overlook the fact that my only previous employment was at Lead America on the night shift for two weeks. I'm thinking about trying to be one of those people who dress up in period costumes and give tours at Wilson's Creek Battlefield. But everywhere is hiring. I mean, I live close enough to work in Branson, for crying out loud. They only HIRE during the summer. So I don't think I'll have any lack of applications. I just don't know who will hire me. But anyway, I'll be living in my own apartment (okay, my own half-apartment, but my "roommate", Cy, will be in St. Louis all summer so he hardly counts) which will be swell. Maybe I'll get a cat! That would be awesome. Kitty kitty kitty! *gets all misty-eyed* I haven't had a cat since Tabby died. I think I've moved on enough that I can have another. I'll have to ask Cy if he minds another cat in his apartment. And I'll have to try and get one that will be compatible with Owen, his cat. I don't want my kitten to be eaten.
Friday, April 23, 2004
01:32 p.m.
Current Music: [Comfortably Numb] Pink Floyd
So anyway, life has been pretty okay lately. I spent almost all of yesterday with Daniel (except for three hours when I was in class) and that was nice. Not that I don't spend almost all of my time that is not class- or homework-related with him. But anyway. Let's see... I registered for fall classes the other day and got everything I wanted. I would have been ANGRY if I had not gotten everything I wanted since I got there at 6 a.m. (I couldn't register until 10) and sat there for four hours daring anyone to try and wedge their name before mine on the list. Having to get up so early made me kinda sleep-deprived for a couple of days, but I'm okay now.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
04:23 p.m.
Current Music: [You Give Love a Bad Name] Bon Jovi?
There is a girl in my math class, and I do not know her name. I am sure it must be Muffy or Cookie or Barbie or something because this girl is a MORON. I mean, seriously. We all die because of something. This girl is going to die because of natural selection. I understand that not everyone is good at math. I understand that some people really really suck at math. But in order to survive you have to know something about numbers. And this is COLLEGE ALGEBRA. Not calculus, not trig, not even geometry. Basic frickin' algebra. Stuff I learned in like seventh grade. For example, we were doing this thing today in which all you had to do was plug numbers into a formula. Okay, got it. Part of the formula was (n-1). THE PROBLEM TOLD YOU WHAT N WAS. Incidentally, it was 7. So the teacher doesn't explain how to solve this part of the problem, and she goes on. Muffy's hand flies up. "Where'd you get the 6 from in the next line?" I wanted to turn around and whap her with my calculator. Repeatedly. Until she either understood or left crying. This is not being bad at math. This is being a moron. My first grade cousin Gina Grace could figure this out. So one day, when you see Muffy's name in the obituaries, I can almost guarantee that regardless of what the cause of death is listed as, the real cause of death is natural selection. That concludes my random rant for today.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
07:26 p.m.
Current Music: sounds of Cheaper by the Dozen (roommate is watching it)
I'm so incredibly tired right now and I think that I'd like to just go to bed but it's such a waste to go to bed at 7:30. I went to St. Louis this weekend with Daniel (which was an almost total waste of time for everyone, including him). His sister invited herself along which kind of sucked a lot, not that I don't like her but just because I wanted to spend as much time with Daniel as possible. *sigh* I don't really wanna talk about it. But anyway, today was better because I got up and went to church with my aunt and church didn't suck, which is very unusual... and then we went to dinner at Ruby Tuesday and Daniel went with us and he was SO CUTE (not that he's not always cute) and then he went home and my aunt and I went birdwatching at Wilsons Creek and saw THREE NEW BIRDS (which is an absolutely incredible number when you consider that I usually don't see a single new bird) and then we had dinner at Ryan's and now I'm back at the dorm. So that was my weekend. *sigh* I miss Daniel. Happy Easter.
Wednesday, April 7, 2004
12:33 p.m.
Current Music: [Sweet Home Alabama] Lynryd Skynryd
Stole this from Ashley, who stole it from Alex, who probably stole it from someone else.
-bowed head and numbing his whole body, which shook- ("Martin the Warrior" by Brian Jacques)
My roommate's khaki pants that are hanging on the bed.
Um... I think Jerry Maguire. But I didn't watch the whole thing.
12:36 pm
12:37 pm
Right now it's "Welcome to the Jungle" by Guns n' Roses.
Getting into Daniel's car so he could take me back to the dorm.
Ashley's pitas, where I stole this from.
A tie-dyed type t-shirt with stars and planets and stuff on it and my fleece pants that say "Free in 2003" on them.
Ooh... creepy... I dreamed that we read my great-grandmother's will and she left me her house, so I went to move my stuff into it and Daniel had already moved all his stuff there and I was all like, "Um... are we moving in together? I wasn't aware of that." And then I freaked out because I knew there was no way I could afford house insurance.
I... don't... remember... oh! It was yesterday afternoon, because something not funny happened and Daniel started laughing for some reason and I thought it was funny that he was laughing so I laughed. Stupid, I know.
A bunch of bookmarks, the collage that Ashley and Danielle made me, a couple of calendars, some Van Gogh posters, and a poster of Aragorn that watches over me while I sleep *grin*.
Not really. Sorry to be boring.
American Wedding, unfortunately.
I could eat parmesan cheese on just about anything.
I would make Peter Jackson suddenly wake up and decide that he would love to have Daniel as a directing partner, so Daniel could quickly get into the business instead of having to wait.
Slow - yes. Fast - hell no.
Poopyhead.
Probably Ashley Danielle. After two of my bestest friends. I think it's pretty, no?
Lord, I don't know. Probably something cool like Drake.
Monday, April 5, 2004
09:29 p.m.
Current Music: [Kiss the Girl] The Little Mermaid
I'm really tired and my back hurts and Daniel's not back from St. Louis yet but IT'S ALL GOOD. It's all good because I'm about to go over to Cy's (I have a key!) and take a really long hot bath which will make my back stop hurting. Then I will go to bed. And when I wake up Daniel will be there. So it will take care of all the bad stuff that's happened. Everyone please direct a little prayer to your chosen god (or if you don't believe in a deity, then just send some good vibes) and ask him/her/it to please make sure all my classes are available when I go to register on the 20th. (This request somewhat plagiarized from Nataku... *grin*) I've been playing Harvest Moon like a naked savage and I got to the end of the first year and my little dude was about to marry Muffy like THE NEXT DAY and I decided that I really wanted my dude to marry Nami and to actually have a cool name, so I started a new game to fool around with sometimes and I SAVED IT OVER MY OLD GAME. So I no longer have a horse or a buncha chickens or a fiancee or a pond. So I am sad. But at least I don't have to marry Muffy now. That's looking on the bright side. *sigh* It's all good. I really want to leave and go to Cy's now, but Daniel and Cy won't even be leaving St. Louis until midnight. And it'll take like three hours to get here from there. So I'm looking at six hours until they get there. But I should probably go soon because that way I can take a two-hour bath and finish my math and still get a few hours of sleep before he gets there. So I should go. I've missed him so much. I have bad dreams when he's gone, you know. I had horrible dreams of fire and death and destruction and darkness last night. It was awful. I woke up almost in tears about every thirty minutes from seven in the morning until I got up at eleven. So I was exhausted when I got up. *sigh* But he'll get back tonight. And I won't have bad dreams anymore. *giggle* Oh, wish me luck on my anthropology test tomorrow.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
07:10 a.m.
Current Music: [The Red] Chevelle
I just flipped my calendar to April (day early, I know), and I realized that not ONLY do I have a PLS Friday that I forgot all about but I have to register in less than two weeks and I haven't met with my advisor or anything and I have no idea what classes to take and I'm freaking out. Luckily, though, I also forgot about the break on Thursday and Friday of next week. Yay for miscellaneous days off from school. Maybe I'll go to St. Louis with Daniel. I really kind of don't want to... I mean, I'm totally supporting his whole film industry thing and I recognize that he'll be in St. Louis almost every weekend at the very least for an indeterminate amount of time... but I still can't help being all girly and wishing that we still had weekends to spend all day together. I'll live, though. I have an open invitation to go with him, so it's not like I don't spend weekends with him. I'm not going this weekend, though. Well... anyway... I have to go to class soon and I guess I should get dressed first, huh? *sigh* I'm so tired. I hope we get out of lab early and I can take another two hour nap.
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
10:09 a.m.
Current Music: Nothing
Long time no update, I know... but you'll just have to forgive me. I went home for Spring Break (last week) and the computer there has a nasty *shudders* DIAL-UP connection, not to mention that it's pretty darn slow anyway, and so it just wasn't worth the effort to get online. I apologize. But home was fun, I guess. Daniel went with me, and my parents actually let me sleep with him, believe it or not ("sleep" in the context of actually sleeping-believe me, my parents would have flipped if we'd done anything). So that was nice. He's very comfy. And we went to Pensacola because he'd never been to the beach, which was fun. And then my great-grandmother (Mimi) died, and everything was screwed up from there on out. Not because I was terribly upset, but just because everyone else was. I didn't even cry. It was one of those times where she'd been totally out of it, not knowing who or where SHE was, much less what was going on and who everyone else was, for a very long time. The Mimi that I cared about has been gone for years, and I mourned her a long time ago. Why should I cry about the pitiful old lady in the nursing home that bore no resemblance whatsoever to the Mimi I cared about? That's my position anyway. Sorry if it makes me sound like a horrible person. But anyway, it's all over with, and I was even home for the funeral, so I made everyone happy. I'm back at college now - back to the stuff I hate. Back to Megan sleeping all the time and being just generally pissy. I guess I was wrong when I thought that she just needed a break from school and she'd be okay. No. She's just as bad as ever, except maybe a bit more tan. BUT! I bought Harvest Moon: A Wonderful Life and I've been playing it like a naked savage, so it takes my mind off things. *sigh* And now I have to go to class. I've stalled long enough. I'm hungry and I need to stop by the dining hall before class, and if I don't leave now I won't have time. So toodles.
Monday, March 15, 2004
09:31 p.m.
Current Music: [My Immortal] Evanescence
I am so sleepy but I am waiting up for several reasons. The first is that I am talking to Lauren, whom I haven't talked to in a while. The second is that my roommates are watching Average Joe kinda loud in the living room. The third is that I'm not sure whether Daniel is gonna come into town tonight, and I'd hate for him to drive all that way to see me and then me be asleep. The fourth is that it is only 9:30, and who goes to sleep at 9:30? But I am very incredibly sleepy and I don't think I'll last much longer. I guess I just wanted to make sure everyone knew I was alive, and to tell you that I met Rachel, the HO who tried to steal my man. Actually... "met" is putting it rather strongly inasmuch as I was in her company for six straight hours and she said precisely three words to me, none of which were actually an introduction (thank God, because I would have clawed her eyeballs out). The three words were "There's no soap". Seriously. That's all she had to say to me. She followed Daniel around pretty closely which ticked me off. But he behaved very well, and she didn't put any moves on him, at least not that I saw. And guess what! SHE'S NOT EVEN THAT PRETTY. Really. If I just lost a little weight (which I am doing my best to do) then I would look a hell of a lot better than her.
Thursday, March 11, 2004
07:32 p.m.
Current Music: [Friends in Low Places] Garth Brooks
So Spring Break is coming up, and I have to make the decision as to whether or not Daniel goes home with me... have I ranted on here about this before? I don't remember. Oh well. You can hear it again. I really want him to go because I love him and I want him to meet all my friends and I want to show him where I grew up and I want my parents to get to know him and I want someone to do stuff with while everyone else is at school/work. But it's true that a)he'll probably be bored ABSOLUTELY out of his mind, b)people might act weird around me because he's there, and c)I won't be as free to hang out with people as I would be otherwise. I still want him to go, quite desperately, but there's a lot to consider. And... gosh, I know this is bad... but I don't want him to meet Danielle. Because even though I love her to death... she tends to accidentally steal guys from me. Accidentally being the key word there. But it happens nonetheless. And the absolute last thing I want happening is for my boyfriend to start lusting after Danielle. And it will happen, because Danni and I are the exact same person except she's skinnier and more beautiful than me. So if Daniel loves me for my personality, then he'll see it in Danni, and of course you're going to want the person with the best body, all else being equal. Okay, so maybe I'm overreacting. But it's happened before. And it scares me. BUT. Subject change. I am attempting to clean my room before Megan decides to murder me in my sleep, because I've been really slacking on the cleanliness issue lately. She'll call the Health Department or something. But as soon as Daniel gets off work, my room will be left in whatever state of partial cleanliness that it is in (which, no matter what, will be better than it WAS) and I will be heading over to his apartment to eat pizza and watch movies. Or something. I don't know. But it will be infinitely better than what I've been doing all day, which is basically sitting here. Other than the part where I went to get a medication refill and then I stopped by Caveman to buy some Babylon 5 trading cards for Daniel because he collects them and they'll cheer him up after his crappy day. :)
Tuesday, March 9, 2004
02:37 p.m.
Current Music: [Seven Nation Army] The White Stripes
I'm currently playing Eternal Darkness: Sanity's Requiem, and I swear that whoever is responsible from this game is a demon from hell because I've had to start over twice and sit through like 45 minutes of cut scenes, all of which I've seen THREE TIMES. I understand that the cut scenes give important information, but there should be a way to skip them. Anyway... what else... got my room for next year changed, so that's one less thing I have to worry about. I have a math test tomorrow, which is not good, but I think I'll do okay with it. OH CRAP. Tomorrow is Wednesday. I hate Wednesdays. I have to get up early on Wednesdays. I should probably go play Eternal Darkness now that no one is at the tv, but I just think that maybe I've reached my torture limit for the day. Maybe I'll just do my math homework real quick and take a nap until Daniel gets finished with working on his car. That sounds swell.
Wednesday, March 3, 2004
09:19 a.m.
Current Music: [Grey Street] Dave Matthews Band
Yay for biology lab midterms. I think I did really really well and believe me, I NEEDED to do really really well so that I can get at least a B in biology for the semester. Also yay for biology lab midterms because it didn't take long, so I get to take like a two-hour nap as soon as I finish this. Yay for naps. Yay for the newest (okay, maybe not newest, but pretty new) member of Ozark Fitness - ME! Yeah, I know, I hate exercising, but I figure that if Daniel makes me go with him (which he will, now that we're both members), I will have much more incentive to go. Yay for getting in shape. Yay for omelettes, because I got up early enough this morning to stop by the dining hall and get one, and it was very tasty. Yay for housing reapplications, not that I got back into my dorm. Yay for not getting back into my dorm, because I don't really like it. Yay for being mostly okay with having no friends except those I share with Daniel and those that are back in Mississippi. Yay for the political science test I took Monday, because maybe sending positive vibes will make her overlook the fact that I couldn't remember the name of the Supreme Court case that said it was okay to burn flags. Yay for Queen's "Bohemian Rhapsody", which just came on my media player. Yay for winning Simpsons Monopoly last night. I had two entire sides of the board monopolized (and they were consecutive sides, too) and hoteled-up. Yay for Owen, Daniel's roommate's cat, because he reminds me of Tabby, my old cat. Yay for getting to change the date on my Dave Barry calendar. Yay for my roommate not being here because when she's gone I can act a fool. Not that I DO, but I CAN. Yay for Soul Calibur II, especially Ivy, except that it cheats. Boo for when it cheats. But yay for most of the time. Yay for cleaning off my desk, which I'm sure will happen any week now. Yay for getting to go to a barbecue this weekend. Yay for Spring Break, which is coming up. Yay for drool, because it's about to short-circuit the keyboard when I fall asleep hunched over the computer like thizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *sound of static and frying circuits, then silence*
Friday, February 27, 2004
10:31 a.m.
Current Music: [Click Click Boom] Saliva
Whoo-eeee! The Evanescence concert... kinda sucked. Now, don't get me wrong, the music was great and I was like ten feet from the stage (three feet from the people who were CLOSEST to the stage) and I was there with Daniel and they played "My Immortal" even though I thought they wouldn't (it being a slow song and all). It sucked for the following reasons: 1) Amy Lee's microphone was not NEARLY loud enough and you could barely hear her for half the concert, and for the other half it STILL wasn't loud enough. 2) - reason 2 deleted because it might offend, but rest assured it was a good reason - 3) The pit was POLITE. Everyone had personal space. There was no moshing, no crowd-surfing, no fighting to get closer to the stage, and if anyone bumped into you, they took the time to lean close to your ear and say, "I'm sorry, are you okay?" Not to mention that Daniel and I were the only people in the audience (that I could see, anyway) who were jumping up and down and acting a fool. It is not a good concert when I do not have to remove my shirt and wring the sweat out of it. But anyway... what else to say about the trip... Tone was sick so we couldn't stay with him the first night in St. Louis which means that poor Skari had to pay for another hotel room. And Daniel's friend Jen (also in St. Louis) invited us to this really fabulously nice restaurant (the St. Louis Fish Market) and promised us that since she was a waitress, she'd wait on us AND get us a 50% discount. Well. We had like a 70 dollar meal at this place. Actually, it was probably more than that. But anyway. When the bill came, she said, "Oh, I'm sorry, the boss wouldn't let me give you more than a 15% discount. Hope that's okay." So I had to pay 60 bucks for this meal, which ticked me off a great deal and makes me feel a lot better that I did not get Linkin Park tickets. (HA! BOW BEFORE MY MAD PSYCHIC SKILLZ, NATAKU!) Did you know that there is a giant hulking cross just randomly placed beside the road somewhere near Effingham, Illinois? I'm talking like a football field tall. We wanted to go take our pictures beside it since it was so random, but we couldn't figure out how to get over there. We also went to Lincoln's Log Cabin, which we were pretty excited about until we found out that a) It was not ABRAHAM Lincoln's cabin, it was his father's and Abe didn't even live there, and b) It wasn't the real one anyway. The real one was taken to the World's Fair in Chicago a long time ago and when the Fair was over, this was the darndest thing, they lost it. HOW DO YOU LOSE A CABIN? I mean, granted, it was a rather small cabin. But it was still a cabin. So the one we saw was a reproduction. Oh, and we drove through Arcola, Illinois (Illinois' Largest Amish Settlement, which made Daniel dissolve into giggles) because Dave Barry goes there for the Broom Corn Festival and marches with the Lawn Rangers and I love Dave Barry. So I made Daniel take a picture of me by the sign and then we drove down the main street until we reached a sign that said "Amish Amphitheatre" and an arrow pointing right. Daniel (who was driving at the time) swerved to the right (I swear I thought we were on two wheels, although he assures me that all four wheels were firmly on the ground at all times) going, "An AMISH AMPHITHEATRE? What the hell constitutes an Amish amphitheatre?" Well, we didn't find the Amish amphitheatre. But it was a great deal of fun. And in the first hotel we stayed in, the light for the bathroom was outside the bathroom. Meaning that Daniel got a great kick out of turning the light off repeatedly while I was in the shower and hearing me curse as I knocked the shampoo over for the fortieth time. I vowed to kill him, but of course I didn't. He's too cute to kill. And the SECOND hotel... was hilarious. It was this really nice place where everyone was wearing suits and carrying briefcases. And here are me and Daniel, wearing wrinkly concert T-shirts and jeans, and he has the big wallet chain, and I'm wearing my beanie that says "EASY". We got some interesting looks, let me tell you. And the funniest thing happened... he told them his name for the reservations and they MADE HIM SPELL IT. Okay, so that doesn't seem funny to those of you who don't know his last name. But it is absurdly easy. For his privacy, I won't say it, but let's just say it's an easy one like Jones or Smith or Box. Something that NOBODY should be able to misspell, even if they were TRYING. And I've been reading over this entry and it looks like I had an absolutely miserable time, but it was one of the best trips I've ever taken. All the bad crap that happened just gave us stuff to laugh about. Gosh... I'm not going to say any more. I'm afraid to jinx this. He's so amazing.
Sunday, February 22, 2004
12:21 p.m.
Current Music: Randomness
Step 1: Open your MP3 player.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first twenty songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing.
2. "Grey Street" Dave Matthews Band
3. "Backteria" hide
4. "Pour Some Sugar on Me" Def Leppard
5. "Just Show Me How to Love You" Sarah Brightman
6. "The Remedy (I Won't Worry)" Jason Mraz
7. "Devil Went Down to Georgia" Charlie Daniels Band
8. "When the World Ends" Dave Matthews Band
9. "Goodnite" Evanescence
10. "Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous" Good Charlotte
11. "But I Do Love You" LeAnn Rimes
12. "Sweet Child O'Mine" Guns n Roses
13. "Rose" A Perfect Circle
14. "Down Poison" 3 Doors Down
15. "Standing Outside the Fire" Garth Brooks
16. "Crazy" Aerosmith
17. "Take Me Home Tonight" Eddie Money
18. "Hey Leonardo (She Likes Me for Me)" Blessid Union of Souls
19. "Gardenia" Malice Mizer
20. "Californication" Red Hot Chili Peppers
Friday, February 20, 2004
11:26 p.m.
Current Music: [October] Evanescence
I really don't have much to say tonight. I'm mainly updating because I want to make sure everyone knows I'm alive. Let's see... the Evanescence concert is TUESDAY! Whoo! We're leaving right after school on Monday. I get to miss two days of school. *evil cackle* And there's nothing anyone can do about it. So there. Hmm... I have a big paper due Monday and I also have to turn in like three sets of math homework on Monday, but what am I doing right now? NOT HOMEWORK! I'll probably do it tomorrow. Daniel's working all day and I'll have nothing more interesting to do. Even if he was free, I'd probably still do homework because I don't want to have to do it all Sunday night/Monday morning. But this way I don't have anything at all better to do, so I don't have any excuse at all. It sucks... but it's good because I'll actually get it all done. And... I have Ashley's Christmas present and birthday present sitting here. They've been here for quite a while, sitting in my room and making me feel guilty. I need to just get my happy butt to the post office and ship them. ASH! THEY'RE COMING! I PROMISE! Eventually...
Monday, February 16, 2004
06:27 p.m.
Current Music: [The Dance] Garth Brooks
Oh, just to let everyone know... the Rachel situation in St. Louis this past weekend was really interesting. We got into town at about 4:30 am on Saturday morning and went straight to sleep. So at about 9:30, Daniel's friend Jen needed a ride to work, so he WOKE ME UP to tell me he was going to take her and did I want to go. But he's cute. I can forgive him. So anyway, we took Jen to work and then went back to Tone's. When we walked in the door, Tone says, "Oh, by the way, Rachel's on her way over." Daniel, who was standing in front of me, said nothing for like ten seconds, then turned veeeeeery sloooooowly and looked at me. My eyebrows were raised so high that they must have been tickling the ceiling. So Daniel turned back around to Tone and said, "Well, tell her we said hi." And he grabbed my arm and pulled me into Tone's bedroom and we went back to sleep. Well... actually... HE fell asleep. I was so touched by the fact that he didn't even stay up to say hello to her that I kind of just laid there in his arms and listened to him breathe for a couple of hours. It was amazing. Just wanted to tell you that I didn't get to meet her. I could have, and I was pretty ticked off that she even had the nerve to walk into the same apartment as me... but oh well. It went well.
Monday, February 16, 2004
11:29 a.m.
Current Music: [Running Away] Hoobastank
I have recently come into a lot of money... well, not a LOT, but certainly more than I expected to have (which isn't saying much since before this weekend I had like twenty bucks to my name). Anyway. My point is that I must figure out what to do with it. I don't want to just fritter it all away on crap, but I'm thinking I really want a digital camera. But I don't think I'm going to get one. What I WANT to do is buy something really uber-nice for Daniel because if it wasn't for him I would not have gotten the 600 dollars I got. I tried to give it to him and he wouldn't take it. I tried to half it with him and he wouldn't take it. I tried to give him PART of it and he wouldn't take it. And as nice of him as that was, now I feel guilty. Because I mean, I don't need the money. Sure, it's nice to have it and I'm sure I will find stuff to use it on. But all I HAVE to have money for is like shampoo. That's about it. Everything else I use money for I don't REALLY have to pay for. Food? I have the dining hall that I can go to for free. My scholarship pays for everything. But Daniel has bills to pay and groceries to buy and things like that. He could use the money on something constructive and useful, whereas I'm just thinking about buying a digital camera. I'm going to spend a lot of it on him - I've decided that. If he won't take the money, he can't refuse gifts. Mwahaha. Anyway, what else... Ashley is the coolest. *huggles her* I love Ashley. She needs to get her happy butt up here so we can go to Columbia. The city, not the country. But she can't... parent stuff. Parent stuff sucks. My parents are freaking out because I went to St. Louis this past weekend, which was absolutely amazing and I don't feel the least bit guilty about going. I guess they really do think it was just a big orgy, and they won't believe me if I insist that it wasn't so I'm not even going there. No sense using my energy to argue something that they won't believe anyway. Which reminds me! OH CRAP! I forgot to call yesterday when I got home! They'll think I'm DEAD!