Pigs flew on: Saturday, April 27, 2002
Okay okay

Gonna post a warning here, being that I feel anyone who haplessly falls upon this blog, will probably want to heed it. If you are extremely squeamish around iffy subjects then you may want to stop here and go no further. If you do not know what I mean by iffy then I think you need to take your virgin mind elsewhere, less you be brutally shocked and horrified out of your mind. This may very well be TMI(Too much information) for a lot of you, so I suggest you just go away. Okay now. Warning done. On with the entry.
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I like to think that in the short time I've been around I've loved a couple of people. And I'm not talking about the friend kind of love. Actually I know I have, and it makes me sick that people would try and change my mind and tell me that's not what it was at all. Just a silly crush, or simple lust.
I mean of course I lust after certain people(Kyo for example ^_~). Duh. Who doesn't? I mean who wouldn't want to give in every once in a while to those thoughts of sex just for the hell of it. Just because you feel like it. Without having to worry about relationships and the such. The thoughts amuse me a lot of the time, and are the main source for even more amusing conversations between myself and a few certain friends.
However, I think of love quite differently and do know how to figure out the difference, unlike some people think me capable of doing. Which I will not get into as it is likely to be so damn sappy and mushy I'll make myself sick. And I really don't feel like doing that at 4 in the morning.
Okay well you know...love is all well and good, but dammit sex is so much more entertaining. ;)
Okay sure, there is the extremely sexually frustrated teenager in me screaming, "Sex now dammit!" While the voice of reason just shakes it's head at the overly hormonal teenager going, "Honestly wait till you get married. It'll be better that way, and a lot safer too." To which the teenager replies, "NO dammit! Sex now!"
You may be asking yourself now if the girl writing this is in her right mind. Well I would like to tell you no I am not. I do hear these voice often, seeing as they do occupy my head all the time. I do attempt to get them to shut up at times, but dammit they just don't listen to me.
I'm pretty sure...I've got morals...somewhere. Though I think they may be a bit dusty, they are still intact. And I am honestly glad I am not one of those people that acts out on spontaneous thoughts...else I'd be in a lot of trouble.
My...that went from love to sex very quickly. Well with Kyo on the brain what can I say? ;D
Speaking of Kyo, I know I frequently use the phrase, "I love Kyo", or "We love Kyo"....something along the lines of that. But do I honestly love Kyo? No...no not at all. And anyone who ever thought I did doesn't know me as well as they probably thought they did. I mean come on...I don't even know the guy. Yes he is extremely sexy. Yes his voice turns me on. Yes I would like to fuck him....sometimes. But...ain't no love to it. Hell there are a lot of guys I look at and say...damn...he looks fuckably good. But there are very few I can look at and honestly say I have any other emotion for them what-so-ever. I lust after many people, but actually love or have loved very few. One I still do love, very much. Too bad I can't do a damn thing about it. Well...such is life. Particularlly my life.
What was the point to this you may ask? There isn't one. Wasn't meant to be one. It's just me...up...at now...4:30 in the morning...babbling...about something that is really important only to me. Okay. You may all die from complete and utter revulsion now. I can't believe you actually read this far.

Song of the moment: Dir En Grey - "Raison Detre"

Pigs flew on: Saturday, April 27, 2002
Friends.

Okay...once again I had this huge long post that I wanted to type out. However this time I did not forget it. I just...lost interest in typing it. So...yeah. Kristin is not feeling so swift emotionally at the moment. So she's going to go do other things.

Du
Du hast
Du hast mich

Music of the moment: Rammstein - "Du Hast"

Pigs flew on: Friday, April 26, 2002
I'm special.

Yar. Well anywho. It's late. Errr...early. 1 something....I think. Anyway. I keep forgetting how lonely it is at night. Hnnn...ah well. Nothing like a little PWP to keep you company, Eh sparky-chan? ^_~
Speaking of the sparky one, I didn't get to talk to you today girly! Nnn. I'm guessing you were really busy, or just weren't up to logging on. Anywho, I hope despite the current situation you had a good day.
Ahhh...fuck...you know what. It's one in the morning and I've forgotten to put Moo to bed. ::half an hour later::
Ahhh...well. Decided after putting moomoo to bed that I would take a shower. I feel very...clean. ;D
Anywho...off to go entertain myself with...something or other.

"I’m special, so special, I gotta have some of your attention, give it to me."

Music of the moment: Pretenders - "Brass In Pocket"

Pigs flew on: Thursday, April 25, 2002
Fade

I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too much to conceive

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
that my life became 'cause

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

So where were you?
When all this I was going through
You never took the time
To ask me just what you could do

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
that my life became 'cause

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

I never meant to fade...
Away

I NEVER MEANT TO FADE

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

I try to breathe...

And now I remember why I named my fish after this song. For once I post this not for myself, or my mood. But for other people, who I think it might relate to more than myself.

Music of the moment: Staind - "Fade"

Pigs flew on: Wednesday, April 24, 2002
Leave-In Conditioner

Hmm...well...I had this huge long post I wanted to make, all lined up in my head. I started to type it out...and then promptly forgot what I wanted to say. So I deleted whatever it was I had started and figured, what the hell? I don't need to plague anyone with my endless whining today anyway. So. Toodles.

Music of the moment: Remy Zero - "Save Me"

Pigs flew on: Tuesday, April 23, 2002
Mwahaha...*loves emails like these so much she's going to post it in her blog*

Name - Kristin
Birthday - July 29, 1983
Age - 18(soon to be 19! Yay!!!)
Astrological sign? - Leo (Rawr)
Chinese zodiac sign? - Errr...I forget...selective memeory. Means I probably didn't like it anyway.
Location - In front of my computer
Sexual Preference - Yes. *cough* I mean...K-chan likes pretty men. ^_^
Current Hair color - BLUE!!! (Yeah baby!)
Eye color... W/ & W/O contacts - Blue! ^_^!
Parents still together? - Yup!
Siblings? - None. I'm a spoiled only child. Though I swear sparky and I were seperated at birth.
Pets? - Too many too list here.
In school/graduated? - In college right now. Eet sucks. *nodnod*
Rent, lease, or own your home? - Renting apartment. And it sucks.
What do you do for work? - I don't work. Yet...
How much do you make? - $0.00
What do you drive? - A bike. ;D
WHICH DO YOU PREFER?
Black and White/Color - Color
Black/White - Black
Red/Blue - Blue!
Dogs/Cats - Cats
Roses/Daisies - Daisies
Beer/Liquor - Neither
Hair: Short/Long - Long!
Boots/Shoes - Shoes
Food: Sushi!
Dark/Light - Light
Day/Night - Day
City/Country - Country
Sheets: Light blue. ^_^ *has a thing for blue*
Sub(missive)/Dom(inant) - I like to play both ways. ^_^
FAVORITES
Color - Silver
Animal - Goldfish
Vehicle - Cobra
Flower - Orchid
Beer - Gross
Liquor - Nasty
Soda - Cherry-Lemon Sundrop
Food - Sushi
Book - The Queens Own Series
Author - Mercedes Lackey
Music - J-rock(Dir En Grey, Malice Mizer, etc.), Heavy Metal, and some pop(not much mind you!)
Singer - Kyo! ^_^;;
CD - Metallica - Reload
Song - Dir En Grey - "Garden"
Movie - Jane Eyre
Extracurricular Activity - Sleeping
Color your hair? - Hell yeah! Just turned it blue last friday.
Have tattoos? - No
Piercings? - Yup. Two sets of holes in both of my ears.
HAVE YOU...
Stolen anything? - Not that I can recall
Smoked? - Yup. Disgusting habit I might add.
Pot? - Nope
Crack? - Nope.
Drink? - Wine...every now and then.
Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name? - Noooo
Been so drunk you didn't care that you couldn't remember your name? - Nooooo
Posed for nude pics? - Ha...no. ;D
Considered a life of crime? - Who hasn't? ^_~
Considered being a hooker? - *snorts* Hell no
Maybe a pimp? - Nope
Cheated on someone? - Nuh uh.
Been divorced? - Noooo
Are you psycho? - Heh, aren't we all...
Split personalities? - No. Yes. Man!
Schizophrenic? - No
Obsessive? - Yes. ^_^
Compulsive? - Sometimes
Obsessive Compulsive? - Nope
Panic? - A few times
Anxiety? - Hell yeah
Depressed? - Sometimes
Suicidal? - No
Homicidal? - Depends on who we are talking about.
Genocidal? - No
Pedophile? - No o.O
Obsessed with hate? - Not at all. Though I am obsessed with Kyo...;D
Mutilate animals? - O_O What a horrible question.
Idolize infamous criminals? - Hmm...not that I can recall.
HAVE YOU EVER...
Kissed someone? - Yeah
Been in love? - Yeah
Been so drunk you blacked out? - No
Cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend? - No
Kept a secret from everyone? - Yeah
Set a body part on fire? - o.O No
Had an imaginary friend? - Yup! His name is Bob!
Called or seen a psychic - No
Ever cried at a chick flick - *muttermutter*Yeah*muttermutter*
Had a crush on a teacher? - No
Found a anime character attractive - Shit yeah! Why can't real men look like that? ;_; Well actually I can think of a few that do. Sadly they are either married or gay.
Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the block tape? - Huh?
Watched Punky Brewster? - I'm sure I did when I was a kid.
Prank called someone? - Yup
Eaten a whole box of cookies and thought you were fat after? - Can't say that I've tried that...
Been on stage? - When I was really young, yes. And something bad must have happened that I can't or won't remember, because the thought terrfies me now.
Gotten in a car accident? - Not that I can recall. Though if my cousin continues to drive the ways she does that may change.
DO YOU...
Wear eye shadow? - When the mood strikes me
Have a dog? - Yes!
Want a tattoo, and where? - I want a tattoo of my name in japanese on the back of my neck.
Have any regrets? - Hell yeah.
Crush? - Had a couple.
Do you have a best friend? - *nodnod* *clingiths to her sister-chan*
Who do you go to for advice? - To a lot of people..actually.
Who knows all your secrets? - Me. Myself. And I.
Who do you cry with? Belly Button Bear, and my kitty.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
God/Devil? - ...In a way...
Yourself? - Sometimes
Your friends? - Most of the time
Aliens? - What are you talking about? I AM and alien. *cough* But you didn't hear that from me.
Love? - ...it depends on what kind of love you are talking about.
The Closet Monster? - Yes! I call mine Bob! ^_^
One person for everyone? - I believe that there are multiple people for every person. It just all depends on who you find first.

Pigs flew on: Tuesday, April 23, 2002
O.o...Yeeeeeahhhh....

You are Pieces.
You're an emotional person who tends to always be lost in thought.
Friends look to you for sympathy, but you're not always the best person to give it.
And.. you're a bit of a sociopath. Who likes knives.

"Which L'Arc~en~Ciel song am I?" test by mifyuu

Pigs flew on: Tuesday, April 23, 2002
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Price check on prune juice bob. Price check on prune juice.

Music of the moment: Staind - "Fade"

Pigs flew on: Monday, April 22, 2002


On a side note. K-chan does dislike being thwapped by squirrels smoking crack. Thank you sparky.

Music of the moment:Harvey Danger - "Flagpole Sitta"

Pigs flew on: Monday, April 22, 2002
Behold....

The blue haired bitch.

Pigs flew on: Monday, April 22, 2002
I still think the slash quiz was better. >D

You have a lot of mood swings. One day you're almond, the next you're crunchy. Make up your mind! People can always find you, since you're just that cool. Or not.

Pigs flew on: Monday, April 22, 2002

Pigs flew on: Monday, April 22, 2002
Code Red!

Whew! Just found out last night that the two M's have my blog addy. o.O Or well...at least one does. Mwahaha. Poor them.
Yay, well anyway. Kristin is going to have little baby fishies swimming around soon. Hopefully anyway. ^_^ Her orandas spawned friday morning, and she decided to save some of the eggs.
Fweee...Kristin also got to sleep till 11 today. It was nice. No one woke her up. Though she did have a lot of really weird dreams.

Song of the moment: Puddle of Mudd - "Drift and Die"

Pigs flew on: Sunday, April 21, 2002
Quiz...



Take the "Which Anime pet are you?" test!

I'm a fucking pink marshmallow thing. Granted a damn cute pink marshmallow thing....but puffy and all together freakish.

Pigs flew on: Sunday, April 21, 2002
Yeah.

Okay here we go. Kristin is pissed off. Yes she is. She's feeling very pissy and annoyed today. So if she's mean to you...well you probably deserve it.
I am so sick of people in general. I'm sick of the fact that people can not seem to understand me. It's not that fucking hard! Just open your fucking eyes! I'm tired of having to explain myself, my actions, or my feelings to people. Because you know...if you just look at it, you'll figure it out all on your own. Unless of course you are one of those people that are particularly dense, or just refuse to see anything that could possibly cause conflict.
So. Yay.

Music of the moment: Rammstein - "Du Hast"

Pigs flew on: Friday, April 19, 2002
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To this world and everyone in it(except sparky) I would like to give a resounding "FUCK YOU." Yes. That is all. Nothing important here, you can move on with your lives now.

Music of the moment: Nirvana - "Rape Me"

Pigs flew on: Thursday, April 18, 2002
Wah.

*clings to her sister-chan* Bad day...bad week...bad month...bad year. Ick.
Since I feel the need to actually be somewhat helpful today, I think I know the two songs you were talking about in your blog.
"Outside" - Staind
"Too Bad" - Nickelback
I hope your day got better hon. *mental hug*
I have now christened the 55 'the tank of death,' for more than one reason. Remind me and I'll tell you why once you log on.
*also huggles the dreamer-san* You've been wonderful hon. And I appreciate it muchly. I'm glad today went better for you than yesterday. And I'm glad you finally seem to be getting back to yourself.

Pigs flew on: Thursday, April 18, 2002
I just can't get over losing you