Pigs flew on: Tuesday, April 9, 2002
Koibito

Yay! ^_^ My betta finally ate a bloodworm today! That makes me happy. :D
However, my bestfriend and her family are going through a rough point after having to put to sleep one of their German Shepards today. That makes me not so happy anymore. *hugs her* I'm thinkin' about you guys.
Anywho...toshiya, my butterfly tail black moor is a little piggie. He and Kyo make good tankmates. I'll hate having to eventually split them up.

I've got so many questions. Many about current problems...but I'm tired of being the one to ask. For once I want to be truthfully told of what is going on, without having to poke and pry to get it out of the other person/persons. This may sound very selfish of me, but I think I deserve that.

*sits editing blog* Yup. Most of that was just a waste of space just like I thought it would be. So I deleted most and left only a couple parts.
Song of the moment: Dir En Grey - "Cage"

Pigs flew on: Monday, April 8, 2002
....

Gone With The Sin

Pigs flew on: Sunday, April 7, 2002
Dah

Sparky, I am not, nor have I been upset with you. Get that through your should be blonde head! *flicks her in the head with a fish*

Pigs flew on: Sunday, April 7, 2002
Okay

*glares at last entry* Okie I feel better now. Yay for ranting and irritable bitchiness. If you don't like it there this little thing called the "Back" button. Make good use of it.

You left without saying goodbye
Although I'm sure you tried
You call and ask from time to time
To make sure we're alive
But you weren't there
Right when I'm needing you the most
And now I dream about it
How it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk
Let's talk

Music of the moment: Nickelback - "Too Bad"

Pigs flew on: Sunday, April 7, 2002
You know....

Maybe it's because I've not been getting much sleep lately, maybe it's because the sleep I do get is never restful, maybe it's because I'm having a really stressful year, maybe it's because I'm sick of seeing it on tv, maybe it's because I'm sick of hearing it in my classes, maybe it's because I'm sick of being told I'm going to hell, but frankly I'm really sick of hearing about religion. I'm sick of it. I have had enough.
Don't get me wrong, you have a religion you love and really believe in, kudos to you. I'm glad. However, I am just sick of hearing the same damn thing everywhere I go.
"Sinner! You won't repent for your sins and you will burn in hell"(Yanno, things along the lines of that)
This is why I refuse to set foot inside, or even on the grounds of the location of any church or religious site. Excuse me if I do not want to spend my entire life apologizing to something, I'm not even sure I believe in, for being human. For living. For feeling. For making mistakes. And if that sends me to hell, well then save me a spot, I'll see you there.

Music of the moment: Dir En Grey - "The Domestic Fucker Family"

Pigs flew on: Saturday, April 6, 2002
yeah

Indeed. I like surfing the net at 11:25 at night. Hmm...I guess everyone decided to log off at the same time. Well, sparky has a busy day tomorrow, so I understand girly, have a good day! Sin sin has been having so many problems with msn lately. Hope you get it fixed hon!


I'm kinda numb
It's so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
I've fucked up places
In my memories none of them I've lost, but...

I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.

It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty
I'm kinda tragic kinda insecure
But I know that I'm the only
One that can fix whatever's wrong I'm sure, but...

I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.

I feel so alone
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I'll feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon, but...

I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go.

Just
Just
Just
Just go
Go
Go

All these fucking lies
All your fucking lies

Song of the moment: Staind - "Just Go"

Pigs flew on: Friday, April 5, 2002
Indeed!

Husky Pup says:
you have many weird test on your blog...
Kristin says:
Indeed. ^_^
Husky Pup says:
and speaking of blogs...
http://www.boomspeed.com/kuri_chan/Blog_wolf.jpg
Kristin says:
*dies* I thought that said 'bong'
lmao....
Husky Pup says:
...bong?...right..does that fall under the category
of 'nookie' or are you just easy to crack up?
Kristin says:
bong...you know...a bong?
Husky Pup says:
*Shakes head slowly...* no clue
Kristin says:
It's a tool(well not really a 'tool') used to smoke marijuana...can be used by multiple people.
Husky Pup says:
oooohhhh...thank you my dear living encyclepedia...*jumps as grandma suddenly starts clapping at something* brb
Husky Pup says:
right..she managed to balance her checkbook...glad she's happy o.O
Kristin says:
*snickerdie*

Pigs flew on: Friday, April 5, 2002
Typology Test

Introverted - 67%
Sensing - 22%
Feeling - 22%
Judging - 11%

• distinctively expressed introvert
• slightly expressed sensing personality
• slightly expressed feeling personality
• slightly expressed judging personality

Pigs flew on: Friday, April 5, 2002
Personality Disorder Test

Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long
grudges.

Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

And now we see why people like me should never be in relationships.

Music of the moment: Unwritten Law - "Seein' Red"

Pigs flew on: Wednesday, April 3, 2002
Chats with friends are fun.

Husky Pup says:
oooo...*has just discovered a short cut for the delete key* cool!
Kristin says:
*blinks*
Husky Pup says:
*sweatdrop*
Kristin says:
*blinks again*
Husky Pup says:
mkay, I think I'll use those enya lyrics...now for a subject/theme...obviously something carefree..
Kristin says:
Umm...Kyo? ^_^;;
Husky Pup says:
...again..a REAL subject or theme...
Kristin says:
Kyo!
Husky Pup says:
that's it..I'm blocking you...
Kristin says:
O.O Eeeek!
Husky Pup says:
^_^

Song of the moment: BSB - "Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely"

Pigs flew on: Wednesday, April 3, 2002
GARDEN itsu no hi ka wa deaeru to negatta itsumo....

aishi hajimeta ano hi kara boku wa kawari hajimeta
anata dake wo mitsumeraretara ii to
anata wa itsumo ano niwa de sabishisou ni tatazumi
chitte yuku hana dake wo mitsumete ita

todokanai negai wa setsunaku kokoro ni kizu wo tsuketa
me no mae ni fusagatta genjitsu dake ga boku wo ima mo zutto
nayamaseta muse kaeru kuuki dake ga ima no boku wo
wasurenai you ni

GARDEN itsu no hi ka wa deaeru to negatta...itsumo
GARDEN sugi yuku kono kisetsu no nake de itsu made mo... anata wo

karete yuku kanashii hana wa ikusen no yoru wo mita
sepia iro ni utsushita anata no sugata

wasuretai wasuretakunai mujunna kimochi sae mo
nejifuseta boku ga soko ni tada hitori tachi tsukushita
sabishige ni yuki dake ga keshiki wo iro zuketa keredo
ima mo zutto wasurenai you ni

wasuretai wasuretakunai mujunna kimochi sae mo
nejifuseta boku ga soko ni tada hitori tachi tsukushita
toki ga sugiru no wa hayaku genjitsu kara kiete yuku omoide wo
wasurenai you ni

Music of the moment: Dir En Grey - "Garden"

Pigs flew on: Tuesday, April 2, 2002
....

Marshmallow peeps are evil. They open the door to satan.

Music of the moment: Dir En Grey - "ZAN"

Pigs flew on: Tuesday, April 2, 2002
Carousel

Indeed.

Music of the moment: Dir En Grey - "Cage"

Pigs flew on: Monday, April 1, 2002
The Bad Touch

EEEEEEEEEE!!! I got my second Dir En Grey DVD!!!! This one was of their Macabre tour! So I got to see them not only on stage, but off too!!! ^_^ I think the only band member I haven't seen shirtless now is Shinya(Dang it Shinya!) Oooo....I want Kyo...Fuck it...I want them all! Toshiya and his sexy self...and his smile is too damn cute...he and Die...have the most adorable smiles! Seriously. And Karou is so damn arrogant! Just the look on his face...ugh...sexy. Shinya is forever getting picked on...and it's soooo cute! Especially when they actually get Shinya to smile...Kawaiiiiiiii!!! And Kyo...oooh...don't even get me started on kyo...*melts*
I'm listening to that song by the Bloodhound Gang...yanno, "The Bad Touch"....it sooo seems to fit every time I think of Dir En Grey. >) *cough*
I want them all....N.O.W.

Music of the moment: Bloodhound Gang - "The Bad Touch"

Pigs flew on: Monday, April 1, 2002
Seein' Red

I'm seein red
Don't think you'll have to see my face again
don't have much time for sympathy
Cuz it never happened to me
You feelin blue now
I think you bit off more than you could chew
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your...
So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When theres no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
And foolish lies well can't you see
I tried to compromise
Cuz what you say ain't always true
And I can see the tears in your eyes
And what you said now
Can't stop the words from running through my head
And what I do to get through to you
But you'd only do it again
So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess
Don't have much time for sympathy
But it never happened to me
You Feelin down I don't know where i'll be when you come around
And now it's time to make a choice,
And all I wanna hear is your voice...

I agree sparky-chan. Very good song.

Music of the moment: Unwritten Law - "Seein' Red"

Pigs flew on: Sunday, March 31, 2002
Mmm...

Reguardless of what you are obviously thinking blonde boy, I do NOT feel like I have been abandoned by anyone. Not you, not anyone. I'm not sure how you managed to get that thought. Did it really seem like I felt that way? I'm sorry, I'll try and better express myself in the future.
Do I feel hurt? Yes. Do I feel like I've been betrayed...again? Yes. Am I mad? Hell Yes. Do I feel like I've been abandoned? Not even close.
*sighs* Anyway. Today when I got home I wasn't feeling anything but panic. After I came in with dad yesterday I left all the fish lights on when I walked out the door to leave. I also forgot to turn the filter back on in the 5. Hell I didn't forget, it just didn't want to work. Bad idea. The 44 and the 55 were okay, but the water in the 5 and the 10 was really hot. I also freaked because Kyo was in the 5 gasping for air, and her tail fin has been split in two spots. The 10 had the warmest water, so I ended up doing two things at once. I grabbed a large silver bowl, put tank water in it, and put kyo in there. At the same time I had mom bring me ice to put in the 10 to cool it down. Then after it had all melted(which it did pretty damn fast) I stuck Kyo in the 10 with my new red cap oranda. It was a bad idea, because I didn't acclimate her to the water, but I was panicing what do you expect? Once she got in where there was more airation in the water she immeadiatly started to improve. And since both she and the red cap have frayed/split fins they are getting melafix treatments. I'm slightly worried with the red cap chasing her around right now, but I think she'll be okay. If he doesn't stop I'll get a tank divider...or something.
-_- I feel like a horrible owner at the moment. That was so stupid of me...especially when I reminded myself early on saturday that I need to turn the filter back on. Another reason the tanks got so hot was monica turned the air off and I didn't know it. She came to stay with us saturday night, so no one was here to turn it on when the temp in the apartment got to around 82. Grrr...I should have turned the lights off in the tanks. I hope my poor Kyo will be okay...she looks okay now, but she's so tiny....>.<

Music of the moment: Enigma - "Return to Innocence"

Pigs flew on: Saturday, March 30, 2002
Hmmm...

It's been a very...blah day. I mean...weather was nice...rainy...warm. I got a new fish. Though I'm not feeling particularly thrilled at the moment. I feel rather icky. I dunno...maybe it's with what all has been going on in the past few days. I think I'm making myself sick. Yay.
Well...anyway. Haven't really done much today. Maybe that's why I'm tired. I'm always tired if I don't do much of anything.
Mmm...wish sparky, sin sin, or someone would log on. I feel like chatting with anyone really.

Music of the moment: Live - "Overcome"

Pigs flew on: Saturday, March 30, 2002
O.O

Daaaaaaamn....O.O....

O.O...I look good today.
*snickerdie* Don't I wish. Well anyway...at least my hair looks good, ne? ^_~

Pigs flew on: Friday, March 29, 2002
"Far Away"

I love shirts with puffy sleeves...they are so much fun! They make me think of Kyo!(But then again what doesn't make me think of Kyo? ^_~) Anywho, mom found this one blouse type thing...it's pretty short, and the sleeves go down just past my elbows, but they are very...poofy...flarey...however you like to think of it. I liked it so much we went back to the store today, and I got this really cool dress thing with even poofyer sleeves!
Yes I know, I hate shopping...and I really do, but I was desperate for a distraction today. So mom and I went to the pet stores around here, and then we went to look at this spiffy neat clothes store.
Oh! And the highlight of my day! The first thing we did when we went out this morning. I got my hair cut! Yay! It's just below shoulder length, and it slants forward from the back. It looks soooo cool! And next weekend I may be getting my hair dyed blue! *frolic*
The really down part of my day was...well...a lot of things. However the one I'm willing to put here is when I had to talk with my parents about school. They took it well, and I feel a good bit better about it, however, I'm still really worried about school. Nnn. Well I'm worried about a lot of things right now...school is just one of them.

*sniggers* Omg....! Mom and I were just trying to stuff this puffy...bed quilt thick thingy back into it's bag thing...and mom was zipping it closed, and the zipper flew right off the end of the thing! *dies* I laughed so hard I have the hiccups now...*falls over* Ichiban and Tequila are finding this all very amusing and laughing along with me. Meanwhile mom keeps telling me, "It's not funny!" Which naturally makes me laugh even more.

Music of the moment: Eiffel 65 - "Far Away"

Pigs flew on: Friday, March 29, 2002


Rank #1 equals your best match

Your Results Page
# 1 Kyo
# 2 Shinya
# 3 Die
# 4 Kaoru
# 5 Toshiya

Eeee! I knew it!!! My favorites, and in that order too!

Which Dir en grey member are you?
Bwahaha!!!

Music of the moment: Eiffel 65 - "Losing You"

Pigs flew on: Thursday, March 28, 2002
Nnnnn...

Awww...my bestest best friend in the whole world is not feeling so great today. (She called me today. ^_^^_^ And got to hear me yell at my airhead dogs. I swear...they have selective hearing.) It just doesn't seem to be going her way. Nothing totally huge and life changing, but then again it's always the little things that seem to affect us most sometimes. Hmmm...well. Don't worry sparky-chan, I love you! Mom and I will drag you away for a well needed vacation very soon! ^_^

So sparky just for you I have.....

Pigs flew on: Thursday, March 28, 2002
Finding Me

I don't think you notice
When you see my face
I guess you're waiting
To spin me around again

Wheels I guess are turning
Somewhere inside my head
I know that this is
Deeper than you get

But you're coming back again
You don't mean to waste my time
But you're coming back so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine
Here finding me
Me

I've already given
Up on getting through
I never question
Who I'm talking to

Oh so much for nothing
But nothing means so much
I know it's touching
But I've been out of touch

And it's all that I can do
I'm a sight for my sore eyes
But it's all I am so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine
Here finding me
Me

I don't think you notice
When I can't reach out
I guess you're waiting
On somebody else again

Oh so much for talking
It's all been said before
I'm hearing something
but I wish you'd just say more

But you're going off again
When I try to just hold on
But you're going off so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine
Here finding me
Me

Song of the moment: Vertical Horizon - "Finding Me"

Pigs flew on: Wednesday, March 27, 2002
Well...

I feel much better today. I did something last night that I've been meaning to do for a good while. I'm not quite so sure what took so long, but it's finally done.
If you don't know what I'm talking about...well...too bad. Maybe she'll tell you if she feels like it. Her choice. I will say nothing more on it for now.

Music of the moment: Godsmack - "I Stand Alone"

Pigs flew on: Tuesday, March 26, 2002
Soooo...

Okay. I'm frustrated. Well...kind of. I woke up this morning and found my calico oranda, Nicodemus, being chased by Grim and Reaper, my blue and black orandas. Nico eventually got caught between the undergravel filter tube, and the tank wall, in a very strange position(which he eventually got himself out of). I looked at Grim and Reaper, and watched them for a bit. I noticed they both sported those wonderful white things called tubercles, that male goldfish will get when they are ready to spawn. Well, then I started to worry that my Nico was not male like I had thought, but was in fact female. Poor nico was so exhausted, and sat on the gravel for a good while before starting to swim around again.
During this time I also took a good look at Fade, who at the time I thought to be female, had the tubercles as well. Joy...another boy. Then...later on in the day I noticed that Nicodemus had developed...tubercles. :
I have a tank full of boys. Dammit, I wanted to have at least /one/ girl. Mmmm. So I suppose Grim and Reaper's earlier chasing of Nico was just for territorial reasons. They are behaving themselves now.
*sighs* Now I'd feel sorry for any female fish I put in there with them. Mmm...but I still hope the next one will be female.
Speaking of annoying male behavior...my Goffins Cockatoo mushu is getting to be rather hormonal. He's been real aggressive these past few days. He mauled my finger when I went to put him up on his bungie stand last weekend, and every time I walk by he lunges at me and tries to bite. He sticks his crest up in the air, and flares his tail whenever my roommate or I walk by. And somehow he still thinks I should scratch his head when it so pleases him. :P

Two men
They started walking
Started talking bout better days
One says to the other
We do it all again
Seems I knew I would
And now I found it
Found I got it
I didn't want this
Somebody help me see
Now I feel it
Feel like I've been there
I didn't need this
Somebody help me breathe

Here we are again
Just face to facing
Each other another day
Who wins
Well who cares
It always ends up the same
Seems I knew I would

And now I found it
Found I got it
I didn't want this
Somebody help me see
And now I feel it
Feel that I've been there
I didn't need this
Would Somebody help me stand
And now I've told them
Already warned them
I didn't want this
Somebody help me breathe

If I was them
Then I wanna be
What I see
If I could drag my life in a moment
Wanna know do you want me to go
Gonna keep it all from ending
Never stop myself from pretending
That you always knew that I never could

All I ever really wanted was to be the same
Equal treatment never ever comes
and there they go again
All I ever really wanted was to be like you
So perfect
So worthless
If i could take it all back think again
I would

And now I found it
Found I got it
I didn't want this
Somebody help me see
Now I feel it
Feel that I've been there
I didn't need this
Somebody help me stand
And now I've told them
I didn't want this
I didn't need this
Would somebody help me breathe
Would somebody help me breathe
Would somebody help me?

Music of the moment: Nickelback - "Breathe"

Pigs flew on: Tuesday, March 26, 2002
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