I'm tired after eating candy -- that's something new, but it was too much sugar. The long powder sticks really did me in.
I did go to Kinokuniya, but I did not get Animedia 'cause it was sold out. Instead, I bought NewtypeUSA, the April issue. Much of the content was from Newtype Japan, the February issue. I did get Loveless 1 and Furuba 2, although I wish I could have bought Loveless 3 as well.
Today I spent a few hours on a research paper and watched Furuba, the anime, volume two, in which HatorixKana made me show much emotion and reminded me of Winter, Again, by Glay. It was relaxing to have watched it alone at home without any noise as outside, the rain continued to pour.
And yet I am also expected to finish reading a book 555 pages long by Tuesday after this whole month has been about reading two other books. Of course this 555 page one was assigned at the beginning of the month, I have yet to finish it and I am not even half-way! It is a good book, but I'd rather not skim (and I won't, but...), really, there should have been a plan to work around it.
Just for the HatorixKana feel of this day (yeah, that makes sense), here's Winter, Again courtesy of animelyrics.com:
The silent crowd, their breath white I'm pulled by the hand of a long history
The road home of my youth
I hurry down the snowy road ringing with cold
Beneath the lights of the city
The flurries of snow flutter on my frozen cheeks
If I close my eyes, it'll be just like yesterday
You lived those hard days intensly
Someday I want the two of us to go
Back to the time when the snow piled up
I want to show you the whiteness of the town where I was born I want to see you, so I'm longing for it
The more I think of you
On those cold nights I can still hear
The ringing of the bell in my heart
I look up at the clouds bending down I ask about the speed of time's passing
Where is the last train
Of this sadness which no one embraces
On the hilly road where the sun sets I meet a phantom of my youth
With the words "I'm doing fine"
More than nostalgia, I feel confused and I stop
From far away I see
A flower quivering in a world that's past It was exposed by the cold wind
My love hasn't moved since that day I want to see you, so on the nights when I can't
The more I think of you
In my memories we walked together
Leaving footprints
The continuosly falling white snow, in the design of my heart
Quietly overflows, and the white snow
Keeps falling as if it forgives everything
Of this empty person's world
Someday I want the two of us to go
Back to the time when the snow piled up
I want to show you the whiteness of the town where I was born I want to see you, so I'm longing for it
The more I think of you
On those cold nights I can still hear
The ringing of the bell in my heart I want to see you, so on the nights when I can't
The more I think of you In my memories we walked together
Leaving footprints
It was 08:10 p.m. when I made the decision
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Saturday, March 29, 2003
I was exhausted yesterday because I was trying to chase away my brother from bothering my friends and myself. My mother found that what he did was justifiable and saw it fit that I would think so, but of course I didn't, which doesn't make any sense. Of course my brother is curious, but really, when you interrupt a convo on the phone and during the time my friends ask to be alone with me without him is not right at all. Just when I went to my room all beaten, literally, my mother said it was not right to do what he did in my brother's face, not mine. Psychological problems, indeed.
But my friends were an hour forty five minutes late because one of them was late to meet with the other. We still did manage to talk and watch the last volume of Furuba and the first and fourth of X. My friends were deeply in lust with Subaru and Kamui, I might add. When Kamui shut himself out from the world and Subaru had to come in his care was probably one the highlights of our day. ^_^
Then I stayed up to talk to one of them from 8 something until 12:15, which mused me greatly. (Did I make you cry, C-chan?)
Today I'll be venturing to the library and Kinokuniya without my mother, this time, to pick up Animedia, Furuba 2, and Loveless 1 and 3.
-.-;;; I'm just chou tired but ready to see how the rest of the day progresses.
It was 11:53 a.m. when I made the decision
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Wednesday, March 26, 2003
It's not a warm topic, gossip. It really pulls people into something they'd rather not touch, actually. A person can easily be shamed and reputation wise, of course, there are consequences. But what really bothers me is nosey people who listen to my conversation with my guidance counselor intently and then a girl sitting next to me who probably got her opinion of me from people I'm not friends with, asks not me, but that nosey person what my financial problem is is positively revulting. And that nosey person gave one of my closest friends a dirty look just because she's my friend. It's really painful not being able to do anything about this. It's been torturing me ever since the aforementioned person ranted about me in her blog, plastering last name and first when she threatened me from a blog post not to post her name, not last, but first over a decision I thought she did wrong.
Why do I bother to post this anyway? Because it hurts me to know such people exist in the world who think they're so high and mighty and believe they have a right to diminish their own reputation by being hypocritical and mean to their peers just for kicks. It's also because I am powerless not to tell that person anything because it won't effect her in any way.
*screams* And I know I've posted my rants over this situation before. I'm sorry if people don't want to hear my rants. And, in addition, if you don't like me so much, why read my blog anyway?
My psychology class needs to shapen up. They're seniors, as am I, but they have bad spelling/grammer. I wanted to ask the teacher for a red pen because it was completely disgraceful. I told this to my mother and she said that she has a coworker who is in her 50's and spells as badly as they do as with grammer. There is a big difference, however: they're in school, and my mother's old friend is not.
Finally, heh, right, I'm happy with many of my friends and I will protect them if need be. I'm extremely happy this year with people who actually want to listen to me and hear me and like me for who I am.
Now, if you don't mind, I'm off to watch the beginning of X TV. Again.
It was 11:05 a.m. when I made the decision
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Sunday, March 23, 2003
Re: Oscar night
Adrien Brody, sir, I think you deserved it! That was one of the best speeches this evening. It was an unexpected win, but it goes to your brilliant performance.
^_^ Okay, I paid my respects, but anyway, I've been having a hectic relationship with my mother. I think it was more of a difference of opinion, but it went all the way to my mother not listening to my own opinion and calling me stupid. It was because I was expressing my opinion over the protests that she did not have that caused her anger. It really makes no sense. But, you know, I will still keep her in my prayers. I think the way she is seen by her parents is awfully wrong in comparison to my aunt who does not work and she, who does and suffers from a heart condition and yet is never pitied. I've been randomly given people to pray for nowadays and I'll make sure to do so. It helps, I hope.
I'm looking forward to this Friday. I'm going to spend time with friends for seven hours watching tapes and just enjoying ourselves. Why would I mention that? Because it's something that makes me happy for a change.
Finally, Spirited Away won best animated film. It was the first category for the evening, too. Hopefully the Oscar goes to Miyazaki-san, directly.
It was 10:52 p.m. when I made the decision
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Saturday, March 22, 2003
nyafyuuuuuuuuuuu! *jumps down from bungee jumping*
C-chan, don't ever send me those pics again! X.x They're very bad cosplay images for the eyes.
I have a very busy weekend with so much work due Monday. Ggrrrargh. I'm so happy, though, to have plans for this Friday. C-tachi are coming over to watch Furuba. I have to let go of this stress 'cause Yukina has been working too hard.
*^_^* A big shout out to Anastasia!!!! I hope I can get to know you a lot more. It's so funny how I'm getting the best of friends in the freshman class and not in my senior class. They're wonderful people, oh so much better, the chibis. Yukina's totemo ureshii...totemo shiawase.
It was 02:40 p.m. when I made the decision
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