*frustrated* Sei-chan...X and TB mixed. could this be my fav. episode and not 87 anymore??? POT IS SO KAWAII~! my heart feels heavy... ;_; no one loves me. At this very minute... SEISHIROU IS ALIVE?! falling again. WAI~! SO LUCKY~! Kappei! for hitting 1000 on my site... one more assignment... come by amuro namie WONDERFUL SUN~! =^_^= *has gotten a tan*
So MUCH homework! I am SO losing my mind. i finished a 1/3 a week and a half before schedule, but dammit! even more stuff to worry about. what's more frustrating than this is that I really, really want to finish 'forever yours', 'calendar boy', and 'inside and out' because 2 of the 3 has been officially a year since i've updated! *_*
and THEN i have these two ideas for comedies for Tokyo Babylon. Yes, you read correctly, CO-ME-DIES. ;_; I want something happy~! Life is kinda depressing right now...i'm so humbled. i used to be a bit smarter, i swear. ;_; *sighs* =_=
song of the day: spirit dreams inside by l'arc
i swear this is why i love l'arc. hyde-sama always sings the things my heart is trying to shout but can't say through the chaos of this demented world. no matter how much l'arc has changed, i still love them. there is something about the way they arrange their music and hyde-sama's voice. Hyde-sama's voice is beautiful. So full of passion, life, destitution, beauty, pain, and conflicting emotions that it works.
The world a'int supposed to make sense. If you figured that it's fucked up, it really is. But what a twisted beauty, isn't it? *smiles* love made me bitter and bitterness made me learn the true meaning of love.
this is why i love to sing, even if i cannot do it too much these days. (i hope i don't get rusty...i'm so shy when it comes to singing...) whenever i sing, i feel all the differing parts of myself come together. the inner chaos is temporarily silenced into a broken order. maybe it parallels that of peace.
but even with all of this...who hears my cries when i look at the sky?
The genki ball has spoken!
on Sunday, May 9, 2004 at 11:28 p.m.
seishirou is so beautiful...
and venus from SMLA, I didn't think she was very cute at first 'cause Jupiter and Mars are the awesomely hot ones...but Minako's actress. She's so pretty, esp. when she's spiffined up in ep 30. *_*
yes, i am still awake...seishirou and ogata's fault...
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on Saturday, May 8, 2004 at 06:01 a.m.
i LOVE YOU WINNIE THE POOH~! *glances over Sei-chan* ;_; AWWWWWWW~! *INSPIRED* now off to do a fic...Even if I'm upset with Clamp, thank YOU for Seishirou. (For those of you who don't know, Yui is always in major denial that anything has happened since Vol 16 of X because it makes her cry even though she doesn't show it...) I LOVE YOU, SUBARU. ;_; *sniff* I need a tissue...
song of the day: judy and mary's...?
"can you hear me?"
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on Friday, May 7, 2004 at 11:25 p.m.
i'm in the middle of watching the PoT chibi episode...I love the monogatari one...but I think this one is gonna be my favorite episode if it ends well. The Tennis Family. *LOL* Ryouma is 3. Momoko is 2. Kaoru is 1. Shuuko (Oishi) is the wife, who is married to Sadaharu. Kikumaru the cat. Taka-san is still working for his family restaurant...this is SO FREAKIN' FUNNY~! They're SO out of character that it's hilarious. Shuuko and Sadaharu are so in love. Ryouma and Momoko...hahaha. "Onii-chan~!" Kaoru was so so adorable! Tezuka keeps on losing his cool. *WINCE* The stoic is so kawaii~'er that eva~! (He even has one place in which he has a surprised expression but has no glasses on. *MELT* *MELT AGAIN* *REPLAYS X amt of times* And-and-and! He's sleeping next to Syusuke even if they're in separate futons. ;_; *WINCE* I have seen everything. <3) Ah, this made my day~! XD
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on Thursday, May 6, 2004 at 09:40 p.m.
IT'S A CHIBI EPISODE!!!!` *LOL* I'm not even 2 minutes into it and Tezuka and Fuji are the 'grandparents' of the famil. *SMIRK* And there are still people denying the fact that they are a 'pair'?!?!
Let's note here that I had lots of new anime to watch today, but Tezuka took priority. ahahahaha. yesterday, i couldn't go to sleep without hearing my precious kappei-sama!
The genki ball has spoken!
on Thursday, May 6, 2004 at 09:24 p.m.
yup, i'm definitely going to AX. I just wish there were more people to see while I was there. *sighs* I will be cosplaying as ep 39 Kazuki in the nurse outfit and Nurse Shiina (from Honnou, my fav. Shiina Ringo song that always makes me think of Sakurazuka Setsuka...). ^^v Now to work on pulling it all off...*lol*
And yes, I will take pictures. Hahaha. I've done Shuichi, Yuna, Hatako, Subaru (X), and TB Subaru, but I've never taken pictures for myself before. *is so camera-conscious* But I figure that it would be a great memory to laugh at...that and the fact that I like cosplaying boys that crossdress. Hey, it's legal at a con for me to do so~!
Well anyway, I am sad. Seishirou and Tezuka have slipped through my fingers and now I must drown myself in homework that must get done. * sighs * Yet again, this illustrates the fact that I have no life except school. And if there's anything outside of it, it's fanfic-ing. Thank god for writing...
writing advice for the day: your best is all that counts. don't lose focus on your goal.
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on Thursday, May 6, 2004 at 07:41 p.m.
-- kino here doesn't sell the magazine where tsubasa is published. now, i've heard it. distributors are trying to rid the shelves of too many sexual overtones in the material therefore it's been reduced.
so, that means no magazine. i haven't given up yet. even if i have to beg someone from japan even. SEI-SHI-ROU. That's all you need to know about my devotion. ;_; (Well, don't worry about this one, sweetie, 'cause when this comes out in Japanese, I'm buying it for you, dammit. ^^v) Because if you knew any more about me...you'd be very scared. * Wince *
oh, btw, it's children's day. ^_^ i didn't find any sakura mochi or anything of that sort...so i treated myself to grilled eel sushi. ^_^ my fave!
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on Wednesday, May 5, 2004 at 05:05 p.m.
found out that HE'S IN TSUBASA~! OH MY GOD~! THANK YOU~! CLAMP! *GLOMP* I was on a self-boycott against the title for many personal reasons, but now I'm going to Japantown to chase after Sei-chan!
Who cares about homework! <---this shows that no matter how much I love Tezuka, it can't win out TB. ;_;
The genki ball has spoken!
on Wednesday, May 5, 2004 at 01:37 p.m.
i am overwhelmed by Gravi right now. i have written out a lot of my feelings, but they're so...so...unable to really give the message. shuichi was wonderful to read so far. he made me cry and laugh. and i loved hiro even more. oh, i wanted to just break down and cry. i felt like shuichi crying before ryuichi in ep 8 when 'sleepless beauty' was being performed.
there is nothing that i can say or do that can describe the amount of pain and happiness i felt when i read shuichi's words today. it was all the things i couldn't say. all the words i didn't know were inside of me. "My dream is too big."
As I said through Ryuichi: "I was too proud to ask for help and I was too weak to scream 'save me'."
song of the day: 'come' by amuro-san again.
in this world, i walk the path that i'm making for myself. even if i am by myself, even if i dont' know if i'll survive, i must walk it. it's because i made it.
The genki ball has spoken!
on Tuesday, May 4, 2004 at 10:44 p.m.
Today is Kappei's birthday and I'm feeling SO GREAT~! It's shining bright in SF, but it's so clear and the wind's just right! *smiling so much* And what more?! I had a dream about meeting him! The dork that I am, I started to break out in (weirdly, good) Japanese by saying, "Kyou wa Yamaguchi-sama no tanjoubi desu...ka?" *smile, smile*
On another note, Kyou Kara Mao is so SO GAY. IT'S GREAT~! AND I WANT THAT TEZUKA POSTER~! There's one on e-bay, and it's LIFE-SIZED. ;_; LIFE-SIZE, I TELL YOU! Sadly, it is taller than me. --;;;;;;;;; (I am around Hyde-sama's height...)
AH~! I am so motivated to do my homework after my celebrating! ^^v
The genki ball has spoken!
on Sunday, May 2, 2004 at 01:08 p.m.
Kyou wa Kappei-sama no tanjoubi! Tanoshimi ni! ^_______^
I made onigiri and I have a mango to celebrate since I'm broke. ^___________^ And I just did a Ryuichi fic. WAH~! I LOVE YOU, YOU AWESOME VOICE~!
Yamaguchi Mitsuo is 39 today in Japan.
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on Sunday, May 2, 2004 at 12:17 a.m.
i'm making a special fic with sing-along lyrics and present my version of a 'song fic'. ^_^ the first, of course, was Ryuichi. I made lyrics to sing along to "Ibara no Namida" by L'arc en ciel. This is my favorite L'arc song. (Though, I am told that my personality type is 'glass dama', think it's called...)
Ikiteru.
by sakuma ryuichi
Mm...It's a desire that can't be fulfilled,
No matter what I do, then or now.
I pray from the bottom of my soul,
silently, but who really hears me?
Ah...These are the words that can't reach my lips,
burning within their own passion,
repressed beyond the limits of hell
I wonder why I am still here.
I'm...still alive,
Can't believe it
Tell me why
I'm created to die?
Screaming with all of my heart
It is still not enough; no, never!
Everything, it is all crashing down fast.
I find myself in all of this chaos
but it's not the person I recognize
And still I ask you, in deep vain,
"Hold me."
Yeah~...The blood drops like pouring rain
Chocolate that is so poisonous
And I try my best to understand
Why all my love goes to nothing-
Oh, yet I search
while praying so hard
that I'm not
already condemned.
I crucify myself before you
and yet you still laugh at my 'foolishness'?
Everything is forsaken by My will.
I crush glass that looks like white crystals
where my dreams are all created from
and to you do I present them.
Hold me...
(Let go.)
[instrumental]
I reach so far within, inside me
that I do not know how to get out, escape
I kill myself always thinking,
"Love, Pain; the same."
I pierce this body without mercy
where no one else is able to enter.
So who is this voice? Something distant.
But it's too late now,
Do not save me!
You failed me,
You still try-
And so then, I respond,
‘Dying...
Crying…’
I've done these types of things before, but I think this is the most honest I've ever been in my whole life. I love 'Ibara' for many reasons, but making these lyrics, I felt very powerful. I don't know how to describe it. I felt like I was reaching another tier in singing. (Oh, I wish I knew how to make music 'cause I love to sing and make lyrics.) I felt like all my heart was left out to dry with this particular piece, especially with these lyrics. But it felt good.
It felt very good.
The genki ball has spoken!
on Saturday, May 1, 2004 at 10:34 p.m.
just one, ONE more for the week and i'm so tired. i've been working on it and putting it off for a week. ;_; i still haven't finished it. i only have 3/4 done, the easy things. *winces*
Thank you Tarepanda for new PoT!!!!! *is motivated* I'll watch this after my take home test!! TEZUKA. TE-ZU-KA. And next ep are chibis~!!!!!!! KAIDOU'S SO CUTE!
ah, i hope to improve my writing. i don't know what to research...so i think i'll just try different genres again. i've not done sci-fi for a long time...
song of the day: come by namie amuro
yui has just purchased the single. I LOVE THIS SONG.
The genki ball has spoken!
on Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 09:43 p.m.
Inuyasha (Ending Theme)
Come (tv version)
by Namie Amuro
moshi ima kanashimi afureru nara
watashi ni motarete naite ii kara
I get, I get, I get, get the feeling
I get, I get, I get, get the dreaming
tada kono mama
Come my way Kono yami no hotori
Come close to me Ima akari tomoshi
I'll be with you, I'll be with you
tada soba ni iru kara
So Come my way
Translation:
If for now, while sadness is overflowing
Relying on myself, it's all right to cry
I get, I get, I get, get the feeling
I get, I get, I get, get the dreaming
This is how it is.
Come my way This vicinity of darkness
Come close to me Now, the brightness of the light
I'll be with you, I'll be with you
Since I only want to be near you
So Come my way
translated by miyamoto yui
10:48 PM 4/27/2004
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on Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 10:49 p.m.
^_^ i don't know why, but i just wanted to simply say that it was really bright in SF. it's a running joke that i 'control' the weather. (as in aka 'i pray to God for sun and it comes in due time.) even though i'm stressed for school, i'm feeling particularly great!
i'm sad that i didn't get to go to the book fair down in ucla this past weekend though. ;_; i LOVED going there...oh well, i had a blast at the sakura blossom festival. ^^v good food, fulfilled my bish quota, and saw duality. v^____^v
except, i wish i could find good boba places and good japanese restaurants here! *is going nuts* all the places i go to are okay, but they're not as good as the ones in LA.
song of the day: romance by aino minako's actress.
"I love you, Baby, Baby.
LIGHT keshite,
I love you, baby, baby..."
The genki ball has spoken!
on Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 08:28 p.m.