driving myself makeru monka? nai! (the problem of losing? none!) life isn't passing me by. happiness in an aki look alike, chibis, and pink plushie thingies... i am only myself.
in love with 'driving myself'. don't know why i didn't notice this song before. well, i did, but then i became infatuated more with 'keep your style'.
it's the song i've been listening to these days. i can't understand his English (only some parts), but all I know is that it feels right. It feels so right...
Maybe I am a nut. I think too much and I should just keep moving forward.
Btw, thanks tarepanda for the PoT manga. If I saw this first, maybe I would have loved Ryouma more (which I do now), but I would have liked him more than Tezuka. But Tezuka...*winces* There's just no other way to say it, that boy's such boyfriend material! *lol* I learn so much from him.
I was reading through my Gouhou Drug manga in the airport on Sunday and I've been reading my doujinshi. Well, more of the Tezuka x Fuji ones. Akira Hojo has so much to say to the world. Suna no Oukan ends with Tezuka and Fuji separating and meeting years later. Fuji takes down his sunglasses (my favorite scene in Zetsuai) and looks onto the court to see the 'newbie' who is Tezuka. Before fuji stabbed himself, Fuji said that he wasn't himself. Tennis was a part of them and it was something that brought them together, so it shouldn't be dismissed. The feeling I got was that Fuji realized that tennis would be first to Tezuka, but then Tezuka said that he realized that all he wanted was Fuji to be the way he was. Complicated, and I believe I'm mistranslating without any dictionary on-hand. ^^;;; Oh well, that's the story.
I wish to add Sakura Itsuki to my collection someday. I really want to read her. (Why do all the djkas I like are always sold out?!) She has a particular kiss scene I'm interested in because of the societal constructs behind it. Well, that and that Aki and Hika's kiss was awesomely hot. ^^v <---has no shame
Ah, I should add that I am in LOVE with Full Metal Alchemist! Those two brothers are so SO KAWAII~! It's so refreshing! Yes, I get the plot twists, but it's so original in its own way and it captured me because the equivalent trade philosophy is what I think about life. Immediately, I loved the characters and the human quality throughout the series. I wish to see more if I can get my hands on it because it's that great.
* winces * I'm so awful but I like that Colonel Mustang and Edward together (when he's old enough to be with him. HA~!). I identify more with the kid's constant insecurity over being short. My brother always makes fun of me for that and through this show, it's kinda making me proud. Poor kid gets so bagged on for being vertically-challenged. *LOL* I can relate. ^^;;;;;
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 04:42 p.m.
due to my own stupidity, my computer as well as i, will be out of commission/syndication and a temporary hiatus will ensue until further notice.
i will try to work on rough drafts of fics and figure out what my work load will be for the semester. i anticipate that it will be a killer with 5 classes and 100 hours of TA-ing time. Fun~! (no sarcasm, really~!) ^^v
oh yes, today is haruka's and adri/sweetie's birthday today. ^_^v
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 01:47 p.m.
(you know you're an official nut when you start missing that damn goddess and her torture...but anyway...)
i have had some of the most interesting talks for this past month, but many happened just these past two days.
of them, X came up. if kamui is supposed to be the one chosen by the gods, and this is in the clamp universe, wouldn't it be logical to think that mokona is the supreme being? and if kamui, in a parody, says his wish and it comes out to mokona just killing everyone, we'd have a very messed up, interesting, and amusing plot twist.
pushing all that aside, i had a long talk with winnie about the character of suby as well as seishirou and hokuto. because of that, i've had much inspiration to do new fics as well as finally finish calendar boy up. all i have to say is that if suby's living after the apocalypse, i want him to be happy.
as much as i complained about ucla, all i have to say is that i'm happy it happened after all. even after all those difficulties, i made friends with people that taught me a lot about life, themselves, and myself. i know that duality could have gone to berkeley and she was focused on what she was doing, but i am glad you came to ucla instead. i know i talked about hikago to her while focusing on the akihika relationship, but my point was that i wanted to say that i know she was focused. i looked focused, but i really wasn't. i wasn't emotionally stable yet. and then there was that comment that sai said about akira going on his straight path and maybe he doesn't need hikaru. but hikaru needed _akira_ in order to grow and in the process, akira also grew with hikaru. (that's why i made you watch that series, duality.)
i understand now more than ever why i visited certain people. i am not unhappy with them and yet they help me to always evolve. there was a time i hated change and tried to stay the way i was, but that's wrong. and this point was clearer after talking to len a few months ago. change is wonderful and things are moving. embrace it, she told me.
song of the day (again): the regulars (track 8)
"tennis no oukan wo tore"
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 04:31 p.m.
currently, i'm visiting people. it is a funny thing to come back to your 'hometown' (which isn't even a 1000 miles away, mind you), but you feel so far away. it wasn't that i felt out of touch with things and people here in la, but i realize how much i've grown since august of last year. i see how different my relationships are as well as my mentality over people and things in general.
as i told niko (oh, btw duality, you have a cute present from Nikoniko), i feel like i'm standing in one place, but there are so many things happening in my head that i feel like the world's moving but i'm standing so still. then, we discussed that we're moving forward, but we hope that we'll be able to be in the direction that we want to be in.
i find myself always looking for stability and change for the better. i still ask elders for advice and i still listen avidly as i always did. there is much i need to experience in the world and i hope that my strength of chracter that's forming inside of me won't scare or intimidate the people around me.
On another note, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately over the concept of actually getting with someone. And the strange thing is, as much as i've been advised or seen experiences, i don't think i'm mature enough for something like that. it isn't the fear of being accepted or anything like that. i just simply don't have time for it yet and from the way things are going, i'm confused on some aspects of life and people in general. it's something that cannot be described at the moment. all i know is that in my dreams these days, they have me choose between very important things and people. I mean, in one dream, it was like God asking me, 'You have to choose only one: Adri or Duality. Only one.' I kept on thinking why the hell someone was asking me to make this kind of decision. i'd rather commit suicide than forsake one of them. I'm close to them and they contribute to the kind of person I am today. Selfishly, I can't live without them and I know that they know that. Then, I woke up all confused.
Tsuyoku naritai da yo! I want to conquer the world. I'm going to overcome my mental obstacles. It isn't an option. it's a mission i have to complete.
song of the day: kikumaru vs. fuji
"Nanjara, Hoi hoi!"
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 05:13 p.m.
I totally finished Rikoteki na yume today. And I did something that I usually don't do with a finished fic, I read it all over again and aloud.
I did that to find the changes in my voice and character of Seishirou as he grew to be the person that he was in X, even until his death. At first, I thought I was missing something, but then I found it and it is done now.
I am now researching Spirited Away. (Haku! * wince *) It is so that I can re-start the fic that I had been working on some time ago.
Right now I am confused about life, but after watching Kirby, things have perked up. ^____^ If I ever had an astrological form, I think I'd be a Kirby since it is my videogame counterpart. Simple life. He does his best and then eats things and people he doesn't like. Ah, but the Metaknight is totally cool! (Yes, I really do like knights. Check out Cecil from FFIV!!! Dark knight and a Palladin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Red fighter from FF1 was cute, but nothing compares to Cecil and his friend Kain the Dragoon. *sighs dreamily*)
Know what I wanna see right now? Prince of Tennis 115! Adri! * wince * I can't help but look at Fuji and squeal every time I visit your blog. Red-dressed Fuji~! Chibified damsel in distress Fuji~! *_* And Chibi Tezuka acting more macho than usual! *falls off chair*
song of the day: this is the prince of tennis
"This is the Prince of Tennis
He is the Prince of Tennis...
Yes now, Yes now, Yes now, Yes now. Let's play!"
Saturday, January 17, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 08:59 p.m.
I finished Rikoteki today. After a month and a half, I finally finished the ending and now the last preparations are being made so that I'll be able to release it soon. I tried so hard to discover a meaning to Subaru's and Sei's last encounter, and I finally found it. Complicated answers came to a simple one. I've come to understand Seishirou more through this fic. I wanted all aspects of himself to come together at least in one part, and it was accomplished through Subaru. (For the record, I've looked at no Subaru/Sei/Hoku pics for a couple of weeks...)
I am officially confused and distressed right now. Not only are some of my friends feeling down, I feel that as well. And weirdly, we are having similar problems.
As for myself, I'm just plain tired right now. I don't feel like wasting my love, time and effort on people or things who mean nothing to me. I think friendship is a form of love and there are different kinds of love and care out there. I don't take it so lightly. I say 'i love you' openly, but you won't hear me say it as a lie.
I am working to kill the obstacles in my way. If someone has the audacity to tell me one more insult to my face, I'll take it, but I won't sit idly and let it sit.
I live in the real world, not a little kingdom with petty minds.
What I am most concerned now is that my conception about people and becoming someone's significant other has been gradually shattering before me, but I will not change the way I am to accomodate other people. I am only myself. The result of all my inner chaos? I'm getting more and more fatigued as the days go by...
But I'll never say die. ^________^ Fight, fight, fight!
song of the day: rhythm and police (original version)
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 05:02 p.m.
Complete sincerity: You believe in being
straightforward with others, and you expect the
same from them. People would consider you a
good listener, and one who is calm and mostly
serious.
Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait)
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My life is rated PG.
What is your life rated?
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 05:50 p.m.
Is Literature useless?
For as long as I live on this planet, I will say no with all my heart. I am troubled by a discussion that I had with one of my closest friends today because someone had told her that.
I find all writing is a form of a story, whether it is research or literature. They are the same, but just presented in different ways. In fact, I feel sorry for those that feel that pleasure reading is a waste of time because I don't feel that it is.
Because something is a fanfic and not a newspaper article, am I supposed to disregard it? Am I a space case because I seem to emphathize with those who are 'made up' rather than 'real people'. As I always say, 'you can't make something out of nothing'. There is a truth that an author tries to convey through every story. I'm saying this not only as a writer, not only as a linguistics student, not only as an esper. I'm saying this because it is an art. Whether it is music, painting, or other, it is art. I believe art is a feeling captured, but will never be complete.
To dismiss literature as something that is superfluous and should be looked down upon is quite sad. (I respect other people's opinions, but in turn, I expect that kind of respect back.) There are many lyrics and shows that I disagree with, but that doesn't mean other people don't learn from them or enjoy them. It's a matter of preference and respect of another person's character.
And I am happy to be alive to say this. I am not one of the best writers out there, but I tell the truth and I'll tell it straight. Love sucks and is great at the same time. Being told you're weird for being who you are is sad, but it happens. People die, but you have to live on for their sake _because_ you love them.
This is what literature is to me. I am not odd at all. I am a person and someone is trying to communicate with me through print.
And it's your own problem if you want to stay close-minded, not mine. You want to close your heart, then well, you won't survive in this world for too long.
cd of the day: donna summer
My nephew...
I hope that you're doing well.
Friday, January 9, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 10:16 p.m.
i think the toughest situation in my life besides unrequited love and suicide attempts is when you are watching people that you love suffer right before you, but you can't do anything. you're totally helpless...
listening to at the moment: yokogao (original version)
i heard this and broke down and cried. tezuka really touched me.
ah, i don't know what to do right now. i've been having all these nightmares with little compensation. well, i've dreamt of adri the other day. then after that, i dreamt of niko and duality teasing me, but duality told me something very sad. but before all this, i had an interesting dream.
i was crazy and was looking for touya akira. (note: i dream about anime chracters in human form, not 2-d.) but i was so disoriented and confused that i was best friend's with hikaru. all i can say is that he's got the cutest face for an 18-yr-old. ^_____^ we were looking for akira together, but aki had long hair in a braid at the end of my dream (which is like my fic, weirdly).
Thursday, January 8, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 11:56 p.m.
I have no life. *lol* I've started transliterating the Prince of Tennis musical. ^___________^ You can probably hear 'The regulars' on my cd player because i'm so in love with tezuka.
Recently, I've been working on getting through half of 'inside and out'. i'm surprised by the positive feedback this fic has been gettig because i didn't realize it was that strong. i just wanted to tell a story of hikaru and akira and well, it's blown me away too.
i've gotten 1/4 of the way with the ending of 'rikoteki na yume' because it needs to get done and soon. i've just wanted to present a different relationship among hoku, sei, and su. this and 'you drive me crazy' come full circle. ^_^
prince of tennis. my latest fic featured yet again fuji and yuuta. for some reason, i felt that this was one of the most emotional ones i've ever done and i'm very proud of it. yes, it is confusing, but trying to keep fuji in character is a challenge in itself. making him the playful sadist and a human who understands his surroundings more than anyone may realize is truly hard.
forever yours is in progress. finally. i scratched my whole other outline since i couldn't find it and have started another part to send out sometime soon. i hope my beta reader will forgive me for my untimeliness. i'm feeling guilty for neglecting this fic (mostly 'cause i didn't want to force an ending or ruin the whole damn fic when it was actually going somewhere and telling something).
song of the day: 'the regulars' and 'i'm always winner' on repeat.
Thursday, January 8, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 03:56 p.m.
Bayside Shakedown!! The shounen ai just killed me!
Okee, I have to admit that I've had this dvd for more than half a year and I didn't watch it thinking that I had gotten the wrong shounen ai title. I saw it as a shounen ai title and thought I got the wrong thing since it was a series and not the movie.
I watched the movie. SO COOL!! Has Rhythm and Police in DDR and the shounen ai just made me cry! Both main guys are so so cool! The case was pretty creepy, but it was a great watch and I'm glad I bought it.
All I have to say is that the promise and the messages conveyed were cool.
Tuesday, January 6, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 03:45 p.m.
I almost killed my brother...
...when we were watching the SM Live Action. KAPPEI DOES ARTIMIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEED I SAY MORE?!?!?!? Ah, my awful week, especially today, has totally been resurrected and has gone through redemption. I LOVE YOU GOD! Thank you for giving me what I needed most! (Well, since I can't see Duality and Niko and Adri for a long while...)
I realize my obsession over this seiyuu gets worse with every show...it will be 9 years this year in April. ^____________^ I loved him since I was 15.
Sunday, January 4, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 11:29 p.m.
more and more things to think about...
I read a really good fanfic today. Usually, I skim over fics and then discard them if I'm not captured. But today, I was caught.
It was Prince of Tennis fic with kamio and kippei. (Okay, I read it for Kamio because I like him very much. Weird as he is with his 'rhythm' thin' goin' on.) It made me see something from the other side that I had not thought before. And somehow, it wasn't pity at all. It was just pure care. Made me remember when Angel told me, "Sometimes you have to be selfish, Angel girl. You have to think of yourself before other people once in a while. How are you going to help them if you won't take care of yourself?" I get so caught up trying to do everything and be everything. I am the oldest and being myself is tough enough, but to do all my responsibilities...sometimes I forget about taking care of myself.
Ah, and this morning I finished a Petshop of Horrors fic. It was strange to say the least but for some reason, it just flowed out of me as if it had always been there, but I had not come to writing it until now. Count D ended up giving Leon a scroll of a mermaid whose arms were reaching out to him. And my favorite part is when Count D asks why does Leon come to visit him. (Of course, the shounen ai was there, but I felt like they acted like Hiro: they held back. I find that very sad, but what can you do?)
I finished transliterating Zetsuai Megamix 1992 (full version). I read all of my latest Soseki book and started Coraline. All I have to say is that I always feel insufficient if I don't do something for the day. I don't like wasting time. ^^;;;;;; --; Even on vacation I feel I need to do work. *wince*
Song of the day: Zetsuai Megamix 1992
"You’re always on my mind
Wherever I may be
Whatever I do, I think of you (it’s) for always
(the) way you walk, way you talk
(the) way you smile, way you kiss
Everything ‘bout you, I love you.
Complete, this love is so true"
Sunday, January 4, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 05:04 p.m.
i finished that GB fic.
"I never know how to describe myself to anyone, even to
myself, but it doesn’t really matter, does it?
My heart and mind are in the right place, so I have
nothing to fear.
All I know is that I am ‘Kazuki’.
And I won’t ever lose myself."
It has been a trying week and I only poured 1/4 of my sorrow and happiness into this fic. There's too much information to tell and so little room to explain it. All I know is that I am frustrated more at the fact that people can be so misinformed that they take it as truth.
What is wrong with being sincere? What is wrong with being physically unattractive? What is wrong with not being in style? What is wrong if I like staring at feminine males and masculine women? What is so hard to believe if I wish others well in their accomplishments without wanting to use them for personal gain? What is wrong with not having a significant other? (I'm not needy and stupid enough to just get anybody!) And I'm called a nut because I actually can think deeply and emotionally?! What the _hell_ is this world coming to?! Here's the best point: Pity because I believe in being comfortable with myself?!?! Is jealousy so destructive that it poisons everything it touches??? Okay, one or two things to deal with at a time, but all that at the same time?!?!
Now, I understand that education isn't knowledge at all. it isn't even all about experience. Education just gave you quality answers instead of quantity. (Hearing inane chatter has really gotten to me.) Now I know what it means to be uneducated and just plain shallow.
But my question has always been 'why do you think that way? why do i think this way?' rather than 'what happened?' You can't do anything about certain events that happen.
*sighs* I am only human. I think I'm an okay person. I think I am patient, but I am only human. I can take only so much! I don't want to hear another word about how I can't pardon so-and-so because so-and-so is so 'nice'. I don't want to hear why i can't be sympathetic to someone who hates the freakin' shit out of me when all i did was be born. but i take it.
but i think insincerity is the highest form of treason. i'm going to be put down because they can't be sincere?! and they're going to compare me to their standards? Money? Contacts? Accomplishments? Etc...
That's why I wrote about Kazuki today. Since he defies social standards, I wanted to make him a well-rounded character. I explored issues such as money, pride, gender, etc. I think he's so beautiful because he's so elegant about doing stuff. He has a strong sense of self and exerts it. To me, that's his charm.
Nonetheless, this just drives me on to try even harder. I know I am insufficient in many ways, but...I grow. That is all that matters...
I just want to be my best and become stronger, but right now, I realize, I'm weaker than I want to be. I will continue to struggle, but I will keep moving forward. But it's becoming harder than before, but the fun part is making it look easy...
Thank you God for everything and I hope that I'll grow more and more. I depend on my knowledge, family, friends, and readers. They give me my strength and my happiness.
*GLOMPS DUALITY* I need a hug! WAH~!
song of the day: spiral staircase - love you more today than yesterday.
Saturday, January 3, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 02:33 a.m.
prep for a GB fic. ^____^...
Well, being a Kakei, you studied the Needle
Technique that's been in your
family for
centuries. The needles you use are deadly, but
were also used for medicine.
So, you can kill
an enemy or heal a friend. ^^
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You're most like GINJI! He has a bit of a dual
personality, but is mostly
kind to all. He
cares a lot for his friends, and wants to make
everybody happy.
Which GET BACKERS character are you most
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"Calm your heart and look carefully. Do that,
and you will
understand."
You
are Clayman.
You're not much of a
villain, are
you? You are more a victim of
circumstance, a person who must resort to
illegal and at
times unsavory means to acheive
their ends. Although you are truly a nice
person and you
don't like to hurt people if you
don't have to, you also understand that
sometimes it
can't be helped. You are a perfect
combination of romantic idealist and down-to-
earth
analyst, and things like your identity or
gender don't matter. If people would only
talk
to you more they'd realize you really aren't
bad, only very misunderstood.
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Thursday, January 1, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 11:06 p.m.
oh thank you God!
I got annoyed over many things and now, all that has melted away. I'm all fired up now.
I thought that I was really lost. Wow...wow...I'm so genki and excited anymore. I love you, Ryuichi! No wonder things made so much sense to me. If someone thinks I'm just childish and dumb...well, that's their problem. Not mine anymore.
^_______^ Oh, Duality, when I see you again, I have lots to tell you! We have lots to laugh about. I really want to hear your sarcastic remarks right now. (Ah, thank you for letting me be your friend!) And thank you to everyone, but especially Adri. You know why. ^_~
Thursday, January 1, 2004
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 08:07 p.m.
random things i thought of before the end of the year:
1) I must really read the Tennis no Oujisama manga. I must know everything about Tezuka.
2) I am stupified by how much anime and video games have been aiming more at image rather than plot or gameplay. Bishounen are everywhere. Bishoujo are everywhere, but there's rarely any substance. And all the characters I love (the boys, mostly), they're so ordinary. I think they're beautiful because of their personality and that just makes them so cute to me, rather than looks. Take Prince of Tennis or Gravitation or Tokyo Babylon, my faves look so ordinary but they grow on you because they're so intricate within. And so, they become more and more charming the more you see them. (Perfect example: Eiji. Eiji is a genki guy who you think is too energetic for his own good, but he's so sweet!)
3) I must learn to deal with little annoyances before they frustrate the freakin' hell out of me.
4) Why do physical appearances mean so much? I don't care much for this, but it bugs.
5) When you believe in something, believe in it firmly, but don't think that it can't be changed.
6) Have I become a really mean person? At times, I see my frigidness parallels that of perfect stoics. But it is never done without reason, and therefore, it is justified.
7) Why does every day feel like a survival game?
8) I try so hard every single day with the hope that tomorrow becomes a wonderful today.
9) What irritates me the most is when someone is inconsiderate about someone else's feelings. Insincerity is the highest form of treason/betrayal.
10) There is no point in complaining if you're not working for what you want.
11) Friends aren't people that you need, they're people you can't live without.
12) What I really want is a shy, quiet person to snuggle. (Honesty is all I'm truly after.)
13) I am a sadistic individual that loves to torture characters. I am a masochistic individual that inflicts pain on myself in order not to hurt others.
14) Why do weak people think they need pity in order to function in life? Equally, why do strong people feel that they don't need sympathy when they need help?
15) All I want from life is something passionate to love and work after.
16) My mind was focused all along, I just thought that I was losing it.
17) My self image still needs working on, but I'm going to do something about it.
18) The most important thing in life is kindness.
19) What you say and what you do shouldn't be at odds with one another.
20) I need to understand myself before I comprehend someone else.
21) Know what the hell your priorities are.
22) You'll have to sacrifice something in order to get something better.
23) The most important thing is to not regret.
Maybe I see things as black and white. I don't know if that's the way to go, but once something is done, it is done. And when I want to continue, I will. I choose whatever I want from my life and no one else has that right to tell me what to do.
I am only myself and no one else. I know my heart is in the right place.
I am not ashamed myself anymore. That's what I leave behind for this year. I passed college and I am in graduate school. I am where I want to be, and I will plan again where I want to go.
I will continue to look forward with all my might. With all my heart, all my mind, all my soul, I will be my best because that's all that should matter. Things will work out from there.
Songs of the day (again): yokogao, blood, and information high
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 10:49 p.m.
both sides now by joni mitchell
Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere,
I've looked at clouds that way.
But now they only block the sun,
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done,
But clouds got in my way.
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down and still somehow
It's cloud's illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all
Moons and Junes and ferris wheels,
The dizzy dancing way that you feel
As every fairy tale comes real,
I've looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show,
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know,
Don't give yourself away.
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud,
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds,
I've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day.
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 01:09 a.m.
words are words, but they can kill your reputation without you knowing...
ah, it never fails to amaze me what people can do to ruin the type of person you've been trying to be. i don't go by facades and i don't like acting nice when i'm pissed.
it really gets to me how gossip goes around and what can you do to stop the words that aren't true? and my feeling is, 'do i speak in my defense? but i didn't do anything wrong.' anyone who really knows me knows that i don't do anything without a reason. i will say sorry when i'm wrong, but when i'm not, i don't tell other people about my problems unless i really needed help. and when i don't speak at all, that is the time you know it's over.
i'm really fu----- upset right now and if someone thinks i'm going to back down just because they've got other people's sympathy, that's a false sense of power, babe. and if you think i'm picking on you, go ahead and think that way. i know the truth, and other people will know in the end because what goes around comes around. no matter how long it takes, it will come out.
i never said anything in my defense, but i don't have to cover up anything, dammit! and thinking you can buy me with stuff...i don't take bribes.
*sighs* and on top of that KmS was erased. ;_; gomen, adri...
i'm just going to make a fic soon, after i've cooled my head.
song of the day: both sides, now
Monday, December 29, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 08:13 p.m.
The genki ball strikes back!
I am not one to be physically tired so easily, but when you put me with a group of people and go out walking together, it's really tiring for me. ^^; I'm too genki for my own damn good. --;; And I'm encouraging others to love PoT doujinshi (txf) as well, on the side. All I can say is..."Thank God you gave me my brother!"
My brother is amused by the PoT musical, especially by 'You Got Game' at the end 'cause it has cool breakdancing moves. ^_^ More than this, I'm looking on Ebay. Not good when you see lots and lots of pics of Tezuka. (--;; I WANT HIM. There's just no other way to put it. Thank god, there's no third-dimension incarnation or else he'd be...he'd be...*cackles* *little brother cowers* B-but Eiji's so cute too!) I won't give in 'cause I've got too much anime stuff. I just want cds for the rest of my life. It has been decided. *lol*
Plus my bro has been playing the PoT's 2nd game. ^________^ Quote: "No one can play Tezuka. He is god! And no one can play god, all right?!"
So what does he do? He plays Fuji or Ryouma. ^^v Go bro! What's more he tells me, "He ONLY talks whenever you pair him in a doubles game with Fuji!" And I say, "I TOLD you!!"
^____^ Life is GOOD. *bounce, bounce* Can't wait to get my cds: the musical and yokogao. *was so cuted out by Akira's single she had to get Tezuka's* I still need a calendar though. I hope I'll find one soon...
I have been working really hard on HnG. I've been thinking to hard about Tokyo Babylon. ;_; How can one keep up their fics without burning out?
Plus, I'm still smiling about 'kono hohoemi' 'cause Yuuta's a complicated character. And Syusuke's a bitch to work with. Together, I think their pairing is very interesting and sweet.
But Fuji belongs to Tezuka. ^___________^ (Am I the only one who puts a 'big face'? My brother thinks I'm the only one who does the wide smiling face bit. ;_; Duality, how DO you deal with me?!)
song of the day: yesterday by d&d
"Rememberin' yesterday, I had a dream of you.
I gave your love away,
but I belong to you."
Sunday, December 28, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 01:46 a.m.
Merry Christmas!
I have been doing a lot of thinking today and I've come to realize what is making me the way I am, compared to what makes me happy and what are things I can't stand. I have been striving to do and be better, but it seems the more I do, the worse the obstacles are. But I've got my head in the right place (or else I hope it is). So, now, I'm relieved to know answers to many of my questions about life, especially people.
As a result, I made a fic! Nothing new, just a little something for prince of tennis. but the twist was on the relationship of yuuta and syusuke. ah, i will never stick with conventional stuff, will I? i felt that yuuta was an intricate and complicated character that could only bring out certain things about fuji while fuji brought out many things about his brother. even though it's only a reflective piece, it was refreshing in a way. i enjoyed making it. ^_^
a confused part of my heart has been sealed. i understand people more even though it makes me very sad too.
By the way, melli-chan, your blog's funny. ;_;
Song of the day: You Got Game by kimeru (musical tenipuri style)
Thursday, December 25, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 10:42 p.m.
;_; I don't like Atobe the more I see him, but I'm falling more and more in love with Tezuka. Truly inspiring. And if I thought he was cool, I take my Kappei cap (yes, I have a cap with the name Kappei on it) off to Yamato-buchou. I was crying dammit. Stupid sempai who hit Tezuka. Ah, my addiction is getting deeper and deeper...
I LOVE YOU, TEZUKA~! (This somehow is NOT ENOUGH to convey my feelings! I should say if there was a guy like that in this end of the screen, I know I'd be courageous enough to ask someone like that out even if he'd reject me.) Now I have to find that Yokogao single. I want more Hojo-sama doujinshi. And I think I will write a Ryouma and Tezuka and Fuji triangle now...
Ack. I'm starting to like the TxR pairing. But I'm so TxF.
All in all, I came back to watch for the right person all right. ^_~ This friend of mine said, "The brunette with the glasses, right?" Me: *squeal on the phone like a high school girl* "Mmhm." *turning so red and flustered that she can't speak and think at the same time*
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 12:31 a.m.
i needed a kappei upper today...
Predilection
sung by yamaguchi kappei
Niju hachi ji no yoru wo kiritoru
Mado wo shimetara hajimaru
Ichido shikaketara tokenai WANA wo
Maniawanai PROTECTION
The twenty-eighth hour of the night is cut off.
It starts while the window is shut.
Once, while setting the unsolvable trap,
I wasn't on time. PROTECTION
Tatoeba kimi wo KIZU tsuketai
JIORAMA ni tojikomete
Hataite mitatte sakende temo
Kikoenai sa PREDILECTION
For example, I want to wound you
To keep this diorama
and try to strike and even shout.
I still cannot be heard. PREDILECTION
Iki mo dekinai
Jyoukyou shita de wa
Sugureta ai wo musaboru
And I can't breath
Under these circumstances
To deeply desire the surpassed love.
can't get enough Kotoba yori mo motto
don't let me down Tashikani misete hoshii
one more night kasuka ni KIZU tsuita
kimi ga mitsumeru me Sono saki ni...
can't get enough Words are still not enough
don't let me down Certainly, I want to show it
one more night Weakly, A connected wound
I gaze at your eyes, which are staring at me. At this point...
Uragiru tameni umarete kita
Kuchibiru wo togisumase
Muimi na rikutsu ni mata muragaru
Orokashisa ni PREDILECTION
Born from the purpose of betrayal,
I whet my lips.
Again, it is to gather a meaningless reason.
It seems (so) foolish. PREDILECTION
Nasu sube mo nai
Kono heya kara
Hayaku sukuidashite yo
There is no way to accomplish this
From this room.
Hurry and rescue me!
can't get enough Utsukushii mayonaka
don't let me down Hashiri tsuzuketemo mata
one more night Nigerenai no wa dare?
Kizukitaku mo nai Sono shinjitsu
can't get enough Kanashige na kao kara
don't let me down itami sae fukuetara
one more night jyunsui na ai dake
tooku nai mirai kanaeru sa
can't get enough Beautiful night
don't let me down Again, even if I keep running
one more night Whom can't I runaway from?
Also, I don't want to realize there's nothing (there). (That) _that_ is the truth.
can't get enough From a face so sad
don't let me down even while wiping the pain
one more night Only for a genuine love,
(Please) grant me this wish in the near future.
Hajimari sae
Ushiwareta
Owaranai GEEMU wo shiyou
Even at the beginning,
I had lost.
Let's play this never-ending game.
can't get enough Kotoba yori mo motto
don't let me down Tashikani misete hoshii
one more night kasuka ni KIZU tsuita
kimi ga mitsumeru me Sono saki ni...
can't get enough Utsukushii mayonaka
don't let me down Hashiri tsuzuketemo mata
one more night Nigerenai no wa dare?
Kizukitaku mo nai Sono shinjitsu
can't get enough Kanashi ki na kao kara
don't let me down itami sae fukuetara
one more night jyunsui na ai dake
tooku nai mirai kanaeru sa
can't get enough And words are still not enough
don't let me down Certainly, I want to show it
one more night Weakly, A connected wound
I gaze at your eyes, which are staring at me. At this point...
can't get enough Beautiful night
don't let me down Again, even if I keep running
one more night Whom can't I runaway from?
Also, I don't want to realize there's nothing (there). (That) _that_ is the truth.
can't get enough From a face so sad
don't let me down even while wiping the pain
one more night Only for a genuine love,
(Please) grant me this wish in the near future.
can't get enough
don't let me down
one more night
can't get enough (enough, enough...)
don't let me down (down, down...)
one more night (night, night...)
can't get enough...
(enough, enough, enough, enough...)
I know there are already translations on the web for this as well as transliterations. I have only done both for myself because I love Ryuichi and the concept of his character. As a fanfic writer who loves writing about this character (as well as being in love with his seiyuu), I thought I'd try to do the feel of the song along with Ryuichi's perspective, as best as I can.
Since I feel that Ryuichi is a character that is very deep despite his appearances, I wanted to do more of a translation that struck closer to his heart. The way he is and the songs selected for him always deal with a reality that isn't real, or pain that's too much to bear. Ryuichi is supposed to be the genius vocalist, and how could he present these things without knowing how to feel them to his very core?
Though some parts do not make sense, I find this is the style of Gravi songs in general. Some words aren't really adjectives or so, but it still strangely fits.
The only thing I can't figure is who is he singing this to. At first, I was thinking it was Shuichi. And from an unrequited love's POV, this may be true. I'd love to think it was for Tatsuha, but I believe Ryuichi is trying to wish for a person whom he doesn't know (or doesn't know very much of).
This is far from polished, but done with lots of heart.
transliteration and translation by miyamoto yui
10:12 PM 12/22/2003
Monday, December 22, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 10:26 p.m.
the Sailor Moon live action!
AIYA~! I've only watched 3 eps of the Sailor Moon Live Action and it's good~! I like Jupiter and Mercury. They're both so cute~! But this just goes and makes me think that technically, Mamoru was my 'first love' ever in everything (bishounen, actually liking a guy, etc.). * wince * (We shall NOT discuss this obsession during high school. Let's just say he was the theme of my locker every year. ^^;;;;;;;) He's not that cute, but the guy just grows to be cuter and cuter with each episode...
it's like looking at certain people and at first glance, you don't think they're so cute, but then they grow more and more cute the more you look at them. Ah, the guy's hot. (But the actor doesn't beat Eiji-sama~! OOH. Tezuka...*can't breathe*) Well, the way he portrays his character is pretty good, I'd have to say. ^_^ I love dorks. Especially smart ones. (I need to marry someone who's into computers and has glasses. I can't believe my cousin told me to start dating. This is _bad_, if she says that! ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; *SIGH* Even my roomie thinks I'm too homely. ^^;;;;;; I should dress up once in a while. --;;; I'm so not a girly girl. I only giggle for Tezuka, Subaru, and Kappei-sama. *nod, nod* Who the hell cares what I look like?!?!)
Anyway, my brother is getting a full scolding for getting me addicted to this...then again, *lol* he's actually fascinated by the Tenipuri musical.
Monday, December 22, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 01:37 a.m.
After years of struggling to find that person inside of me, I found her. Today, I was able to exert that person that was hidden for so long.
Though the road of self-discovery is never ending, at the end of this day, I must say, I'm satisfied. I now realize there are just really petty people out there wanting attention...and then there are those that people just get the attention. I'm how old and I saw what that was today. It was quite pathetic on their part...
Yes, the sun was very bright today in my opinion. The serious singer Sakuma Ryuichi within me killed and wiped the floor with the competition.
Technique a'int enough to win over me. I'm not that good, but emotion takes you farther than mere robotic words. There was one good singer though.
I will never forget the one time Duality said to me, "I can hear you smile when you sing."
"What?" I blinked my eyes. "What do you mean?"
"I can just tell."
I never forgot that. That was a special comment for me. I never thought I did that, but when she mentioned it, I became aware of how to progress further.
But ah, I will miss the cantor in ucla who had the most beautiful voice I've ever heard in my life. I never got her name, dammit... Very, very beautiful. So full, delicate, and warm. I always felt her voice was penetrating deep into my heart. I hope that I will reach that type of feeling someday...
Ah, speaking of, Neeecolaaa! I am always so proud of my Gaki no. 1. (When she makes her debut, you better buy her cd!) She made a song and it's so pretty! Ah, but pretty doesn't convey how dark, fragile, and emotional it sounds. I felt myself wanting to put words into the song because I felt swept away.
Song of the day (again): Yokogao.
It's cool how the remix background says 'dare ka? dare ka? dare ka?'
i try and try to reach that light
that isn't meant for me.
if i keep on running, i'll get there,
build the castle and destroy the fortress,
these walls i've built around myself.
i realize that in order to win
isn't to keep it up,
it is to let it go.
letting it all go.
if it's meant to be yours,
it will remain.
For as long as i live, i want to remember
that i am closer to who i want to be.
i am not beautiful, and i'm not too smart,
i'm poor too,
but i have something that will never be tarnished.
i won't ever say die,
even when i'm hanging on my last thread.
i don't believe in destiny or impossibilities.
i believe in this being that is myself,
whomever and whatever that is.
Hey, Duality! *smiles* Your hard training and my effort paid off! Thanks for being a great friend, as always. (Which is why i'd do anything for you. but don't ask me for miracles. i may be third in line, but elusive is as elusive does. --;;;)
Sunday, December 21, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 11:57 p.m.
translation of 'Bu Dam' (through the Japanese lyrics)
from ddr 3rd and 4th mix plus
Bu Dam
by Baek Ji Young
Two times and you weren't able to fall in love (with me) while
this is where all the pain I hold comes from.
From my experience with you,
you weren't able to fall in love (with me).
It wasn't me. You met someone else by chance.
As far as you were concerned,
you already forgot your responsibility (to me) as if you weren't burdened.
Because of this, you left me after all.
1 -
Whenever sad music flows away
I become the tears that come out.
Even though I think, "I've forgotten you already,"
I get drunk on alcohol and no matter how much I cry,
the more I remember my wish cannot come true.
It's the fault of my love.
**
Now I am alone, the person that remained.
I can't recognize the person next to me.
It's weird, even though it isn't.
Everything has ended. It was because of love.
I am able to separate myself from you.
Again, even if I meet a different person by chance, it's okay
because I had received your love.
Again, I gave it away and let it go
because you left me after all.
Okee, yes, I understand that my grammar's always gonna be weird, but I have to say the lyrics were really way too deep. Some of it didn't make sense grammar wise and I did the best I could like 'whenever sad music flows away', that's what she really said.
I understand that this isn't one hundred percent accurate because it's a translation of a translation, but that's all right. The underlying meaning is there.
But all in all, now I like this song much more now.
translation by miyamoto yui
8:48 PM 12/19/03
Friday, December 19, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 08:49 p.m.
mitsumerareru.
It's so amazing that we as humans are attracted to something we can't literally understand or explain aloud, but we can always feel it. I've been hearing different PoT songs and there's always a stanza that catches me. To the point that I _had_ to know what it meant, like with 'blood'. Now, it is 'Yokogao'.
somewhat translation for Yokogao / Profile (Tezuka Kunimitsu):
Reisei ni mitsumerareru me wo
Kokoro ni motte
Ukeireru chikara mo hito ni
Kitto hitsuyou sa
Soshite, jounetsu ushiwazu ni
Oikaketeyuke
Risou no jibun ni sukoshi
Demo chikatzuiteku youni
Calmly, I see the heart held through those eyes that I am staring at, eye to eye.
From this person, I received a strength I wasn't willing to get,
[But] undoubtedly, it was necessary.
And so, passionately, I cannot lose.
I chase after
my ideal self,
but I'll get there a little at a time.
Notes:
Since I don't have the exact kanji from a lyric book and am basing this off what I hear, this isn't 100 percent accurate.
The first sentence implies that he doesn't want to look at this person eye to eye.
'youni' - in this case, it means a goal.
For me, I have a feeling this is about Yamato-buchou and now it is his turn to pass this to Ryouma. But, all in all, the song is very beautiful, especially the remix.
Friday, December 19, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 11:03 a.m.
Ah, sou desu ka.
You are Casual Akira! Not everything in life are Go
matches and formal events. Sometimes Akira also
has to relax and show some colors, wearing
these comfortable yet elegant clothes and
taking a break. But whatever he wears, he looks
nice! ^_~
What Akira Touya style are you? ~ Hikaru no Go ~
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Tsutsui is the boy for you!
Which Hikaru no Go boy is your perfect match? (for girls)
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I have this feeling that if Kishimoto were on this list, he'd be the one I'd get. ^^;;; -- I remember looking at my computer screen, blinking my eyes, and saying, "Whoa." Ah, but that was nothing once Akira 'grew up'. X)
You are: Hikaru <> Touya Akira. Rivals attract?
Which Hikaru no Go yaoi pairing are you?
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Syuichirou Oishi
Which Prince of Tennis Guy is Your Boyfriend? (girls only)
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Your Kikumaru, Eiji
u r funny and loves attention from people.
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Friday, December 19, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 10:01 a.m.
found 'bu dam' though i know no korean except 'i love you'
you know you're a nut when you just straight off the bat wake up and start to look for something in a language you don't know. so...ping! since 'bu dam' was a ddr song, i navigated through Japanese sites to get a korean translation...thus, i found the cd i'm looking for. *wince* see, this is why i shouldn't be so passionate sometimes, i'm a brat. i want what i want, dammit! ^^v
(ryuichi complex. -_-*)
Friday, December 19, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 09:29 a.m.
As I was walking along...
Maybe I am strange, but I love to walk places. And as I was walking, I was thinking about a lot of things. They were pretty moving things because I was so happy I was crying.
I know at times that I am a selfish person, but I am only human. Yet again, I was grateful that I was able to go places in life.
I don't like to be pushed around, so I treaded through it the way I wanted. I am glad I have come to this point. I just hope that I will be more focused and don't stray from the paths I want to take in life.
I now can finish the Gravi fic I wrote a week ago. I know what's missing now.
Thursday, December 18, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 10:55 p.m.
Yui's little WAIWAI corner!
Now that I am officially done with everything (well, need to clean a little more), I can now give my 'wai wai's' for my presents! ^__^
Duality gave me the CUTEST APRON! I can't use the damn thing 'cause it's so adorable! I've ALWAYS wanted a Piyo Piyo on an apron. And she hand-made it. ;_; It says, "Property of THE MA". ^___^
Then, today, I got my present from my sweetie! *kira, kira* The earrings are black and silver! Dangling too! Very very pertiful. ^__________^ *KiraKira* I feel so loved! Thank you!
Yui was nuts. She had to do an errand in Chinatown, then she thought, "Maybe a walk to J-town won't be bad." *blink, blink* I am out of shape for some reason! Or is it because no one was with me? Oh well, I enjoyed the walk and I saw a _cute_ Japanese business dude. Complete with baby face, clean-cut, and long black trenchcoat. He was a good height too. He was so adorkable! He looked lost. ;_; I love directionally-challenged men....
I was going to get a present for my little brother, but didn't find any. ;_; He wants a Belldandy keychain and I gave him the only official one there is. ;_; i'm at a loss on what to do. I'm very good at finding things I want. Period. But this thing seems to elude me for some reason. Maybe I'll get him a plushie...
Plus I couldn't find a fureai cd. ;_; I love this group.
song of the day: kimi no uta by fureai (A song for you)
Thursday, December 18, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 03:44 p.m.
apocalypse
Tell me when the world ends,
'cause I'll be sleeping,
dreaming, dreaming
of forgotten tomorrow.
I'm not supposed to be in this time,
I'm here by accident.
but nothing is by coincidence.
i am fading from consciousness now.
wake me after everything's flooded.
i want a good dream
where everyone's not dying,
including myself.
i made a sacrifice
it was a life
that wasn't my own.
Everything's made of glass and breaking.
Crystal city they called it.
That's the future I saw in my dream,
so much darkness,
you could no longer see the sun.
So much madness,
there were hardly any people.
Because we rape and flood the earth.
We drown in sweet iron honey
we call blood.
Thursday, December 18, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 02:58 a.m.
XD A review for 'Amateurs'...
Note: Amateurs is the second fanfic I've done for PoT. I think it had all the pairings I liked except um, Syusuke + Yuuta. (I probably shouldn't promote that too much. Incest, ya know? O_o. I like the pairing, sue me!)
Mostly it's about build up for Inui's 'match' with Kaidou, which turned out actually to be a kiss. But when they went somewhere to be alone, they found fuji, ryouma, and tezuka together...and *ahem* so yeah...
One review said:
Were you on crack when you wrote this?
So funny...
XD Yes, I was. I was stuck in my apartment since Duality left me after Chinatown. I only went out for church. That's it. (Five minute walks outside the apartment building.)
God, I love my readers! ^_~ (Well, some are more loved than others...*lol* What's your say on this #1?)
OOH! I'm so excited to have lunch with Tarepanda and get my eps from him. ^___^v Well, I'm excited to go home and see everyone in general. *is going bonkers* *has an awful fit of insomnia* Tezuka hunting _isn't_ helping. (Poor baby's always an uke, but I've always thought of him as seme.)
Thursday, December 18, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 02:31 a.m.
100 questions for a Tenipuri fan.
Q1. What is your net handle?
Miyamoto Yui or Yuimiya. I'm rarely called by Enju.
Q2. Do you engage in doujin activities? If so, what is the name of your circle?
Nope, but I have ones that I like. ^_^ (Jekyll and WAG.)
Q3. Do you have a home page? If so, please share its address.
Um, does my blog count? shimriya.pitas.com
I share an X/Tokyo Babylon one with Adri. ^_^ killingmesoftly.cjb.net
Q4. How long have you known about "Tennis no Oujisama"?
I knew about it when it first came out in anime club. Tarepanda's fault.
Then, I got back into it because of a dj called 'Suna no Oukan'. Maybe I didn't see enough episodes because I didn't know TEZUKA!!!!!!!! So, officially, it's been only less than a month since I've know Tenipuri.
Q5. What was your impression when you read "Tennis no Oujisama" the first time?
I watched it, not read.
1) Ryouma's cute, but he's too arrogant for me.
2) What is the point of the stupid Sakuno girl and her even dumber friend?
3) Wow, the other players are cute. Why haven't I seen the guy people have said I'd fall for?
4) Kaidou's...weird, but cool.
5) Songs grow on you.
Q6. How did you come to be obsessed with "Tennis no Oujisama"?
Ryouma's eyes...but I came back for Tezuka and Fuji. ^___^ (Sounds like when I got into Clamp 'cause of Kamui's super beautiful eyes and lost interest to fall in love with Subaru, Seishirou, and Hokuto.)
Q7. Who is your favourite character?
Tezuka, Fuji, and Eiji.
Q8. If you went on a date with the character from Q7, where would you go?
Tezuka - Library or a cafe. Intellectual types...
Fuji - Anywhere would be great! An amusement park?
Eiji - Arcade!
Q9. If you went to watch a movie with the character from Q7, what would you watch?
I don't watch very many movies. I'd probably let him pick. As long as it's not something cheesy, I'm cool.
Q10. Is the character from Q7 the type to take his lessons seriously?
Tezuka? You betcha!
Fuji - Doesn't look like it, but he does. Depends on what he's studying though...Heh.
Eiji - Don't think so.
Q11. What sort of clothes do you want the character from Q7 to wear?
I'm all for school uniforms. Casual wear - form-fitting cotton long-sleeves and jeans/pants. But put Tezuka in a business suit and he won't ever get out of my bedroom. ^____^
Q12. Who would you like the character from Q7 to cosplay as?
Nothing in particular. Surprise me!
Q13. What do you think the character from Q7 will do (occupation) in the future? (Excluding being a tennis player!)
Tezuka - Tennis coach, definitely.
Fuji - Teacher. He wants to torture people legally, right?
Eiji - Model. That smile's very addicting.
Q14. Share the favourite sayings of the character from Q7. (Give as many as you like!)
Tezuka: "Twenty laps!"
Fuji: "..." *smirk*
Eiji: "Kikumaru Beamu!"
Q15. Who is your second favourite character?
Besides the three mentioned? Kaidou.
Q16. Which is your favourite school?
Seishun Gakuen all the way, baby!
Q17. Share what you like about the school from Q16. (Give as many as you like!)
The other schools are interesting, but I like the way the tennis club is. The way they go about practicing and studying is healthy. And of course, it's sexy members. :D
Q18. Who is your favourite female character?
Haven't seen too many females 'cause I've not watched too many...so I'll answer this again later.
Q19. What is your favourite couple?
Tezuka x Fuji.
Q20. What do you think is the major coupling in the fandom?
Probably Ryouma and Sakuno. Bleh. I don't like that girl. (Useless like Akari in HnG.)
Q21. Regarding your favourite couple, share a fantasy you'd like to see. (Share whatever you like!)
Ooh! A bit tough, but I'd say that I would love if Tezuka and Fuji could always be together. That's all. Simple. Tezuka as a coach and Fuji as a tennis player or teacher. I have an active imagination, but I always like such simple things...
Q22. What would you like to say to your favourite couple? (Give as many as you like!)
Keep up the great work, both in and out of the courts! ^_~
Q23. What sort of place would fit your favourite couple?
The universe they're already in is sufficient...so I'd say anywhere as long as they're together.
Q24. What is your favourite combination?
Oishi and Eiji. Great partners when playing!
Q25. Share your best three favourite scenes.
1) 87. Chibis trying to dry their pants. That always cracks me up. *lol* You see everyone swinging the tennis rackets with their right hand while Tezuka's doing it the opposite way 'cause he's left-handed.
2) Tezuka vs. Ryouma before Tezuka goes away to Doitsu. :( Made me sad because he looked like he was losing and he's so inspirational. Always has something to teach.
3) Anywhere Tezuka is? A third specific scene? Tenipuri musical with everyone coming out for "You got game". The actor who played Eiji does a one-hand handstand. He's so cool. Then, Kimeru (Fuji) and Eiji-sama (Tezuka) punch one another lightly with smiles on their faces. Oishi pokes Tezuka on the side. (I wish I was him...)
Q26. Share your best three favourite lines.
"Drink these twice a day" - Inui says to Ryouma. Ryouma answers, "But even if I do that, I won't grow that fast."
"Become the pillar of Seigaku." *straight face*- Tezuka to Ryouma. (He's so deadpan. I love it.)
"You liar!" Eiji to Fuji
Q27. Do you have a favourite phrase for something
"ARE YOU MY CHALLENGER?!"
Q28. What is your favourite phrase?
Fuji commenting in ep 9 about Inui's juice. "This is quite tasty."/ "Ah! Umai!" Then, people comment about fearing Fuji.
Q29. If you were a student at Seigaku, what would you like to do?
Watch the members, but continue to read a book as I do so. Pursuing Tezuka in the process. That is not an option, it is an obligation. I'd be pretty disappointed in myself if I didn't. ^^;;;; I'm quite forward after a while...
Q30. If you were a student at Seigaku, which class would you want to be in?
Anywhere Tezuka's in. But then again, would that be such a good idea? I'll be staring at the wrong person and getting bad grades...or my over-competitive nature will want to beat him for class rank. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Q31. Who would you want to be your lover?
Tezuka or Fuji. Can I have both??
Q32. Who would you want to marry?
Isn't this redundant? Tezuka!
Q33. Who would you want to be your older brother?
Momoshiro.
Q34. Who would you want to be your younger brother?
Ryouma.
Q35. Who would you want to be your friend?
Eiji.
Q36. Who would you want to teach you tennis?
Oishi.
Q37. You would like to say, "You're such a performer!" to this character.
Gakto? (Dunno about the spelling of his name.) I don't like him very much. Or Mizuki.
Q38. Which two schools would you like to see in a tournament? (It can also be a re-match from a previous meeting.)
Seigaku vs Hyoutei.
Q39. Which match left the strongest impression on you?
I haven't seen Tezuka play too much, but I'd say the matches with Ryouma. I always learning something.
Q40. You would like to say, "Hey, you're SO not a junior high school student!" to this character.
This comment was towards Tezuka and I agree.
Q41. This character looks the best with glasses. (It's okay if he doesn't wear glasses.)
Tezuka's glasses on Fuji.
(I think Inui'd be hot w/o his glasses too.)
Q42. You would like to protect this character the most.
Eiji.
Q43. This character has the best sense in clothes.
Eiji, Fuji, or Tezuka.
Q44. This character hates alcohol the most.
Eiji?
Q45. This character will look best in women's clothes.
Fuji.
Q46. This character is good at cooking.
Taka.
Q47. This character has the worst luck.
Kaidou.
Q48. This character is cheap (frugal).
E. Nanjiroh
Q49. This character hates waking up in the morning.
Ryouma.
Q50. If there's an earthquake, this character will be the first to run.
Dunno...
Q51. This character always leaves his umbrella in the club room.
Don't know.
Q52. This character always leaves his textbooks in the class room.
Don't know either. (I know nothing of the manga as of yet and I've not watched too much.)
Q53. I think this character is the type who is best at healing others.
Tezuka. I like the way he advises people and is able to bring out their strengths.
Q54. In fact, this character is a natural idiot (fool).
>< The red head from Kentaro's school.
Q55. This character likes to tease the most.
Fuji. He's PURE EVIL. That's what makes him so adorable though!
Q56. This character has the worst personality.
The guy (forgot his name) with white hair and threw stones at Ryouma! He's a mean bastard!!!
Q57. I think this character can't take hot food.
Eiji.
Q58. If you can master one of the tennis techniques from "Tennis no Oujisama," which would you like?
Tezuka Zone. (I'd like to be around his sphere of influence. :D)
Q59. I think this tennis technique is the coolest!
Tezuka Zone.
Q60. I think this character is the most well-to-do (money-wise).
Eiji.
Q61. This character has the best grades.
Tezuka, of course! He even corrects the teacher.
Q62. On the other hand, this character has the worst grades.
Hmm...don't know...
Q63. I would like to take off this character's clothes.
Tezuka! XD
Q64. This character looks the best in a suit.
Tezuka or Fuji.
Q65. This character looks the best in a kimono.
Ooh, if it's a yukata, count Kaidou or Ryouma for that one. >D
Q66. This character gives the strongest inspiration.
Tezuka, though I've not seen Yamato-buchou yet.
Q67. This character gives no inspiration whatsoever.
Sakuno or her friend. Useless. Utterly useless. (need I repeat myself again?)
Q68. This character will donate to the "Protect the Animals Fund."
Ryouma, Eiji, and Kaidou. All of the Seigaku regulars are pretty compassionate guys. :)
Q69. A drawing question! Who would you like to draw the most?
Fuji or Ryouma.
Q70. On the other hand, who would you like to draw the least?
The guy who threw stones at Ryouma. Grr...
Q71. A writing question! Which character do you grasp the best?
I guess I get Fuji the best. I still don't understand Tezuka for some reason. Ironic...
Q72. I think this character will most likely lose his hair (start balding?) in the future.
Nanjiroh.
Q73. Which school do you think has the best uniform design?
Seigaku! Nice colors.
Q74. I think this seiyuu suits this character the best. (It's okay if it's different from the anime.)
Fuji's seiyuu.
Q75. I think of this pair as "if they were paired for doubles, they will be the strongest!"
Oishi and Eiji!
Q76. This character is most likely to use perfume. By the way, what perfume do you think?
Mizuki...cheap...no further comment.
Q77. What do you think the Seigaku Tennis Club club room smells like?
Dust and sweat.
Q78. What do you think the St. Rudolph club room smells like?
Don't know and don't care. I only care for Yuuta.
Q79. What do you think the Fudomine club room smells like?
Dunno.
Q80. What do you think the Yamabuki club room smells like?
Dunno.
Q81. This character has such a brief appearance!
Haven't watched enough to know yet.
Q82. Would you like to drink Inui's Special Deluxe Vegetable Juice?
Yes, 'cause I've tasted pretty bad things before. ^^;;
Q83. Would you like to drink Inui's Special Deluxe Penal-Tea?
If I contemplate suicide ever again.
Q84. What class were you in when you were in junior high?
Class? Teacher or level?
Q85. What club did you join when you were in junior high?
None. Didn't like the activities.
Q86. How many "Tennis no Oujisama" doujinshi do you own?
Umm...umm...as of now, seven.
Q87. Did you take part in any (club/student) recruiting activities?
Yes, in hs. With this face and genkiness, how could I not??? Or rather, I was asked to. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Q88. Have you written Konomi-sensei a fan letter before?
Nope.
Q89. Do you buy Weekly Jump every week?
Nope.
Q90. Which of the comics covers do you like the most?
Anything Fuji or Tezuka. ;_;
Q91. Which chapter opening picture do you like the most?
Haven't gone through manga yet.
Q92. Which character would you like to cosplay?
I'd like to do Eiji. He's genki.
Q93. What development do you wish for from now on?
I WANT TEZUKA TO RETURN!!!!!!!!! (Thank God Fuji's still there.)
Q94. Write a haiku with the theme of "Tennis no Oujisama."
Hmm...
Asobitai!
Dokomademo, iku!
Tsuyoku naritai.
(I want to play!
No matter where, [let's] go!
I want to become stronger.)
Q95. Besides "Tennis no Oujisama," please recommend other manga titles.
There are so many! I'd say Please Save My Earth, anything Rumiko Takahashi, Love Mode, Gravitation, Tokyo Babylon, Wish, 20 Mensou, X, Hikaru no Go, Boys Next Door, Casino Lily, Card Captor Sakura, Fruits Basket, Suki Dakara Suki, Ah My Goddess, Confidential Confessions, anything Keiko Nishi, anything Chiho Saito, Yuu Watase short stories, Kodomo no Omocha, Video Girl Ai, Clover, DNA^2, Shadow Lady, Sailor Moon, Zetsuai, Big O, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Vampire Princess Miyu, 3x3 eyes, and many many more!
Q96. What do you think of the anime?
It's pretty cool. ^_^ It has a pretty good atmosphere and I love hearing all the seiyuu.
Q97. Please share a message you'd like to give to Konomi-sensei.
Keep up the great work, but please bring Tezuka back!
Q98. Please reccommend a "Tennis no Oujisama" doujinshi.
If you're a yaoi fan, 'K^2 company, Akira Hojo, or WAG.
If you like gag djs - love prince or some of the anthologies. Funny stuff.
Either one, Fuji is just so evil! XD It's great! He plays practical jokes on them, or mostly he 'tricks' Tezuka. (I love one part where he totally has a height issue and has to pin Tezuka 'cause he's short than him. Then, Tezuka gets revenge for this later by blowing on his neck.)
Q99. Please recommend a "Tennis no Oujisama" fan site.
A blog by someone named Becky. She's awesome!
Q100. That's all! Please share your thoughts.
This show grows on you. ^_^ All the characters are so lovable. (Well, the Seigaku guys and I like one person from each team.) A good balance of stuff, but I wish there was more I could grab from this title. But, I am very, very entertained.
Thursday, December 18, 2003
I pulled the string of your heart with my teeth at 12:02 a.m.