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2nd April, Wednesday. 02.43pm- Sianz... dun really lyke blogging budden wif school clozed and stuff got nothing to do... Realised dint blog for some time liaoz, dun lyke blogging animore... OBS was nice... memorable... sorry dun wan describe too much i'm feeling too sian to describe... ate my first bottle of BRAND's essence of chicken yesterday... so sian and so hungry... it tastes horrible but the bottle is cute... muz oso do hw.. progress report sux... mrs lim sux too.

6th Mar, Thursday. 10.50pm- Hmph. my maths and physics r dying. Lit is wavering. Shld change to pure geog elect lit not? Coz aniwae dey haven't learnt aniting different yet. but dun tink i'll be making the change lar. so troublesome

4 March, Tuesday. 11.31pm- hmph. so sad. failed both maths test so far. and bound to fail the third. nvm muz try harder. and why muz do so many zuo wens dis week? I not happy. next week OBS. Very fun!

22 February, Saturday. 12.17am- It's not cutting animore. Smth more subtle and u ken give lotsa excuses and nobody will tink it's outta e ordinary. Still has e same effect too. But after a while i tink pple will start to suspect smth

I dun understand why lotsa pple tink anorexia/bulimia ish the only mental disorder teens suffer from.

22th Feb, Saturday. 12.12am- Farny thing happened juz now. I needed 2 poo but both toilets were taken up, one by bro and one by mum. And it got more and more urgent and I was like "oh shit"(literally) but finally i juz went into e toilet my ma was using. :)

5 Feb, Wednesday. 12.52am- Hmz. Nv write for long time. Dun feel lyke writing animore. Nothing to write about. Lizard on the sofa... den crawled away. Eeww. Ma saes the house has lotsa insects. She's getting mosquito bites, I'm getting rashes. Even Mintie is getting rashes. A bit lar.

One nice thing about my CNY is we only go to one place(Grandma's house)and everybody go congregate there. :D Well if you consider 12 pple a congregation.(and 5 of them are my own family)Hmph. Dun haf many relatives here. 3 ang pows dis year, like every year b4. Sob. But next year ken get 2 more :D coz cousins r getting married. :D

Met Ms Sia on 67 2dae. Hmphz. Din tok much. Nothing to tok no more.

14 January, Tuesday. 10.20pm- K dis shld belong 2 e other webbie but nvm it's kinda my own personal thots so it comes here. Why everitime ma'ams call i muz be training my dog? It's kinda inconvenient coz Mintie will get all excited and won't sit-stay/down-stay and i haf to either let her haf free run of the house(and can't catch her back) or ask my sis to take hold of the leash if i'm outta my house in the corridor. (gd thing 2dae didn't go downstairs if not my sis would say she's not in she's gone down to train the dog 0.0)And i alwaez haf to ask for them to repeat their stuff coz Mintie will be trying to get my attention (coz suddenly it is diverted from her to the black thing cradled in my head) and she'll be jumping and walking all over and there'll be long pauses as I try to get Mintie back down on all fours. And den I'll haf to disrupt training and go call squaddies and poor Mintie would be left tied to the front door for 10 minutes and she'll be whining like a siren. Dun blame her coz she's been enjoying the undivided attention and suddenly now I leave her to talk to dis farny black bone-like thing in my hand. And yar when vm grows up she shld become a samaritan coz her voice is so warm and quite comforting on the phone.and she is nice :) and since she calls relatively late means she ken stay up 2 do the overnite shifts. "Answer the call. Be an SOS volunteer" says the ZOcard on Yinkae's desk. I tink the phone cord-turned noose pic is cool

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January 7th, Tuesday. 12.11am- 3/13's not bad lar, but 2/13 will alwaez be e best. 3/13 v. quiet. esp. when mr tan is teaching (all sleepin) or tt wad's-her-name? mrs lim or smth liddat (all dare not sleep. or tok)All the teachers dis year not v. nice one. and hmphz i tot ms sia was gonna teach elect geog. and i tink 3/15 is v. ke3 lian2 coz dey r up dere wif ALL the sec 4s. Mebbe dey shld come down more often so i dun haf 2 go up coz i dun lyke going up. the school is biased. dey only do dis to gep classes. lyke the sec 4 classes last year tucked away in the ulu ulu geog/history room dere.
And now it's juz study study study. Like as if O levels are tomorrow liddat. so serious. juz get down to work liddat and schedule alreadi so packed. and i tink tt express exam? a bit the demanding leh. onli jan 11 alreadi exam. why can't dey put in somewhere in feb/mar leh? izzit so HARD to postpone it? I dun tink anione is gonna score tt high lor. even if u study thru the hols u can't cram 2 years of work in 2 months. i can't even do tt for english let alone chinese. and if u please excuse the ego i tink my english is v. goot lor and still i dun tink i ken cram 2 years in 2 months. i miss 2/13 alreadi. *sniff. Muz go visit dem more often.
And feeling rather lost in all the mainstream pple's discussions about new classes and new teachers, lyke dey don't noe a single other person in their class liddat :X. And I guess it's pretty hard for them to go find and round up all their ex-classmates and tok. At least for us most of them are juz the next door (like hpps liddat :D) and a wee bit upstairs and dat's not too bad. And at least it's not like the new pple r complete strangers. I tink everione alreadi noes everione's name in 3/13 coz we onli haf 19 pple and coz we r a nice big happie family hu noe each other since sec 2 :D
And wad's up wif the standing arrangement in the quadrangle? Why we next to sec 1s and the sec 2s r on the right of us? and how come we r jammed in between 3/4 and 3/5 or smth liddat? Feel so weird lyke sec 1 liddat. I like the middle spot of the quadrangle :D

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28th December, Saturday. 12.05pm- Harlo back from another holidae in Penang. So fun! We haf a house dere but since we dint pay up the water and electricity bill dey cut off our water and electricity supply, and dad checked up wif the utilities pple and dey saed dey can't restore it in 4-5 days so we spent the whole time in our grandparent's house instead. Brought along box of coloured pencils (from Ikea, btw) and dad bought me a Pooh colouring book (yesh! ;)) and we spent e whole time (about 5 hours a day?) in our grandparent's house filling Pooh up with bright happy colours :). Coz dere was nothing to do, u see. And our parents were pretty content to have us cooped up in the bedroom colouring Pooh. And I haf to tell you the pictures are pretty beautiful coz now we coloured backgrounds and stuff and made sure ALL the colours matched. Quite artistic. Other than colouring we were making origami or drawing or sleeping or having kway teow soup for breakfast, lunch AND dinner (The kway teow soup in Penang is FABULOUS!!! The soup is sweet and the kway teow soft and nothing lyke the Singapore one, the soup is very bitter and the kway teow is chewy. And the meatballs and pig's liver they put in the Penang version is nice too.)

And also we decided spontaneously while driving along the highway on the way back to stop in KL and sleep dere one extra dae. Me and sis went ice-skating! So nice. In KL dey don't resurface the ice so often, so at first the rink condition was horrible. Probably 1mm of water throughout the rink. And when you fall you don't go *bump, you go *swish and watch all the water around you swirl. It's much easier to fall, but the falls dun hurt at all. And instead of throwing ice lyke in Singapore, dey splash water at other pple by juz sweeping their skates here and dere. Oh yar and they haf coaches skating in the rink whose only job is to help pple when they fall. v. friendly bunch. k lar, and oso quite shuai4 la4. When u fall dey'll zip to where u are in one second (even if dey r on the opposite side of the rink) and even if u ken manage dey still offer u their help and when u manage to stand up dey'll go "u okay"? and zip off to help another person. And total strangers offer their help too :). So nice pple. And after they resurface the ice it's much better although falling down now is VERY PAINFUL. After I fell once (after resurfacing) my knees were throbbing like shit, managed to get up (w/out the help of the friendly pple) and skated to the exit and it was almost impossible to walk after that. (remember I was still in skates) and after I recovered enuff and skated some more for the whole day I couldn't climb stairs very well. (Grab to the handrail, teeter-totter) And until todae I can't kneel dat well or climb into bed without going *ouch. :X But overall it's quite a nice experience. Note: Do remember to bring ur own gloves coz they sell their gloves at RM 5 and the quality is very bad. The colours leak and the gloves smell lyke rubber and the threads come loose very easily.
*Happy memories...

Why can't we be like storybook children?
Running in the rain
Hand in hand
Across the meadow

Why can't we be like storybook children?
In our wonderland
Where nothing's planned
For tomorrow.

(Sung to the tune of Beethoven's 9th symphony)

Take me to the Emerald City
Wizards will give us lemonade
It's a land of precious pretty
Ruby roses never fade

Strawberries, cherries and an angel's kissing spring,
my summer wine is really made from all these things,
put down your silver spurs and help me pass the time,
then I shall give to you, my summer wine

My eyes grew heavy and my lips they could not speak,
I tried to get up but I couldn't find my feet,
she reassured me with an unfamiliar line,
and then she gave to me, more summer wine.

When I woke up the sun was shining in my eyes,
my silver spurs were gone, my head felt twice its size
she took my silver spurs, a dollar and a dime,
and left me craving for more summer wine.

that bitch.

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12 December, Thurday. 06.57pm-Hu hasn't touched hw yet? And haven't got a single book for next year yet?

12 December, Thursday. 06.54pm- Harlo I'm back from a holiday in KL. Few days alreadi.:) One thing I learnt- lack of sleep and too much food is not good. Twice alreadi liddat. Wad u get is lotsa diarrhoea and lotsa puke. U smell/look at puke and u puke some more. Eewwww. Until todae I haven't pooed properly in lyke, about a week alreadi. Not been eating much.

12 December, Thursday. 06.33pm- Hee. Haven't written in here for a long time. For the rest of November we ran outta internet hours so can't go online, and today is a day when I'm not busy/sick/on holiday and my bro is not in and my sis decides not to use the com. So. Yar. I wonder does anybody lyke actually goes to my blog everidae and see if I put up smth new? ~juz thinking larz

12 November, Tuesday. 07.03pm- CHORAL NITE WAS SO NICE! Chinese was fine and English lyke totally ROCKS THE AUDITORIUM!!! Ah Zhu sho happie even tho she had 2 die 2 times (sad life lar) and Khin, BIG hug!! Hugs and/or kisses 2 everibodi. Thank u, thank u :D

12 November, Tuesday. 06.55pm- Came back from choral nite. Feel so :D. Dad bought bakuteh soup for me. yay. i thot wad a perfect end 2 such a lurvly nite. Nice hot soup. K fine in the beginning a bit peppery, but heck bakuteh soup is still nice. And it's only after drinking dat i haf an unbearable spicy burning sensation around my throat. Owowowowow. Milk! arh! mebbe dat will get rid of de sensation. Glug glug. Even worse. When cold meets spicy... um. Next time u try add milk into bakuteh soup lar. So now my throat is like VERY cold and very spicy. And the pain slowly crawls up 2 my head. How should i noe why. And before long i haf a very painful throat and a very painful head. Best remedy? Go 2 sleep. Goot. Yay it's gone in the morning.

10 November, Sunday. 11.57pm- Ooh. Hardly anibody online. Mebbe all sleepin coz tml ish e beeg choral nite performance. and Ah Zhu still doing blog when she's supposed 2 be sleepin 2. Oh well.

Think of dis huge block of soft clay, as in lyke clay u left out 2 dry but it ain't really dry yet. yesh? goot. den u tink of de kind of drill u use 2 make holes in the wall. replace the metal rod part wif a satay stick, blunt end out. okie? goot. turn dis drill on and watch the satay stick go twirl twirl twirl at a really fast speed. got it? den imagine tt dis drill is poking the soft clay and making a satay-stick sized hole into it. imagine ur brain 2 be the clay. ouch? u bet.

Den u think of dis piece of raw tender meat, mebbe pork or smth. Lay it out on dose kind of plastic chopping board u haf in ur kitchen. take a butter knife. not a normal sharp knife for cutting meat, e butter knife u use 2 spread butter. yesh. den put the butter knife 2 e meat and saw the meat up and down, up and down. the meat doesn't really get cut, juz get squished around rite? imagine ur brain 2 be the piece of meat.

wif my brain being both clay and meat on the same nite (last nite), it's no wonder i couldn't sleep. honest it feels liddat.

9th November, Saturday. 10.00pm- Four days ago ish Renny's burfdae. Burfdaes nv meant so much b4. Such a celebration of life :). The result of living just one more dae, den another, den another, and the months fly by. Pple shldn't wish for extravagant stuff on their burfdae. All dey need is happiness.

9th November, Saturday. 09.56pm- Ooh. nv write for so long alreadi. so many things happened. no time to write. starting from wednesday.
"cry about the simple hell some pple gif others without even thinking they r pple too." only children weep. Renny muz learn 2 grow up.

1 November, Friday. 09.47am- Thank u Yinki. u made my day yesterday :) Renny's poison level went down.

1 November, Friday. 09.45am- Yay. Start of a new month. Last day of school. Finally. I nv tot tt this dae will eva come. It's been a long year. Very long year. Renny's tired and weary. Report books gonna get given out, oh, mebbe not. Well, nvm. Renny ken go on blogging aniwae.

31 October, Thursday. 08.55pm- Yesterday Renny had no brain. Her brain dint feel lyke cotton wool, renny dint feel like a zombie, nothing of tt sort. Renny juz felt her brain wasn't dere. Empty head. U eva felt liddat b4? and Renny was mourning the loss of her brain but still had 2 study. Dunno if I was tired. Had no brain to think with, no brain to tell me I was tired. Renny was crying in her pillow after studying coz dere was no one to put her 2 bed, stroke her hair, pat her shoulder or hug her. And renny doesn't care whether it is acceptable or not. Renny has no brain 2 care animore. Fortunately the brain came back for Renny today.

30 October, Wednesday. 11.56pm- Yinki we haf 2 tok asap, sort lotsa stuff out. been waiting since lyke, way before exams? yar so like, tml, as in 31 oct. dunno if u get dis in time. sorry if i scare pple. i dunno i scare pple too much. those pple can't take it. those elder pple kinda get scared 2 e point of annoyance. dun ask me. i dunno.

30 October, Wednesday. 11.46pm- Harlo. won't mention ur name again. so frightening meh? and yes it means a lot. coz life (or e lack of it) is damn important 2 me... shld be 4 everibody wad. yesh big impact. ken we go tok on msn? i dun really like dis hide-and-seek game.

30 October, Wednesday. 02.35pm- Harlo Yinki was looking thru ur archives and u made me crie well almost meanie pok and yes i shld be dead 2 months ago. but no now it's diff. i won't jump off e building or wateva i'll juz... nvm. kennot tell. in fact i shldn't even tell u i kennot tell. no i'll be safe and no i dun wan u 2 reply to dis.

30 October, Wednesday. 2.26pm- Harlo Yinkie tokking 2 u live well almost. dat's a nice song i downloaded it.

30 October, Wednesday. 2.25pm- Harlo Yinki. Dint noe u noticed. U read from the beginning? sorry if i was too much. it's not tt u r e :( one here and i was trying 2 cheer u up. mebbe u misintepreted. but wif me not saeing aniting i guess it's expected. aniwae it's more like, renny is :( and needs cheering up but she doesn't noe how/doesn't want 2 look it and get pple 2 lurv. and renny's scared of people lurving her aniwae. so she kinda disguises it. renny's most upset when she is raping pple. rapists r usually liddat. u see e serial sniper? he's liddat too. sorry. well aniwae now u noe. dis thingy going on for long time so i v. sorry u suffer too much. me too mebbe. renny's like calpurnia. english is bad when she's :( and oh yar yinki something else too it's not like nobody noticed. u noe e huge one on my right arm? nobody's said aniting bout it except my dad. so yar. and renny doesn't like commenting on pple's scars. v. personal thing 2 her. and renny doesn't care what pple tink of her scars. The right-arm-scar is red, protruding and there are 2 of them, but she doesn't bother wearing a jacket coz she feels she has nothing 2 hide. let pple tink wad they want. renny doesn't cut for pple to notice and comment. the scar woz supposed 2 be hidden but renny misaimed. really.

30 October, Wenesday. 02.05pm- Renny's very bored and tt's why she did sho many quizzes. School's out. Renny going home and sleep. Bye

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30 October, Wednesday. 01.25pm- Yinki, nort e big big thingy. E small one. e one w/ grace and enterpreneurship or how-do-u-spell it. aniwae i lurv u too. and i refuse 2 haf aniting 2 do w/ e thing.

30 Oct, Wednesday. 11.05am- Yinki dun be :(. Wad u did 2dae was nice :) Mebbe u've realised renny needs lurv.

29 Oct, Tuesday. 01.50pm- Hi Yinki. Pls dun misunderstand mi... been going on for some time liaoz... it really hurts when renny needs some lurv. dunno if u noe wad i tokking about.

29 Oct, Tuesday. 01.44pm- Mebbe I shld stop tokking abt e school being biased against gep. Dunno why i'm suddenly obsessed w/ it. well aniwae dey were biased again 2dae when dey made us go kampong glam w/out telling us beforehand or giving consent forms. dey nv do tt for mainstream. but aniwae at least dere r nice bits. shld really stop complaining. only makes me more miserable and does nothing to help

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28 Oct, Monday. 03.27pm- Yay. Renny abit excited. Power 98 came for some farny School Invasion thingy. Geppers only. Haha. Renny may get to go on air depending on how she sounds. Oh well. "In one two weeks time" says Marcus or wadeva his name is.

28 Oct, Monday. 03.12pm- Renny's emotions and :( thots are like poison. Slowly killing her. And ish oso something that you can't really tell unless you really observe her. Renny needs somewhere to detox but she knows if she chooses the wrong outlet the poison could be used back on her by the other party. Tt's why Renny's so afraid of tokking and of pple to care. She doesn't noe hu to trust animore; who will really try to get rid of the poison and hu will gif it back, or mebbe make it worse. There is no "try". One more wrong move and Renny ken die. But if Renny lets the poison build up, she'll die too. Oh no. Looks like Renny will haf to die.

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28 Oct, Monday. 02.42pm- Khin, do I really sound that bad and lonely? Don't worry, Renny will try & pull thru. Renny still wants to be a hooka. Renny rather horn the man in the street than get lurv from her parents. Renny lives on lurv and attention, but not her parent's. She'll rather get fake ones from her clients who gif her moolah as well.

28 Oct, Monday. 02.19pm- K first I'll make things clear. This is a private blog. Not the kind where you invite everyone to see and view and gif feedback. But yeah u ken read it but sorri there's no guestbook. Seriously I dun really care hu comes here. Sorry.

28 Oct, Monday. 02.11pm- wow. finally got this thingy working. Played around wif the colours.