I know it's kinda late, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
Monday, May 5, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHTS:
#1 I believe that Dear John is the best book written by Nicholas Sparks thus far. Out of the books that I've read, I mean, which is a lot.
#2 How much are you willing to sacrifice for the one you love?
#3 Fate and its twisted ways.
#4 An advanced HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my friend ANISA, the mop! haha. Just kidding. Have a good one babe. =)
#5 HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YANA! =) We celebrated her birthday last Saturday and it was an afternoon well spent with the girls. =)
#6 My wisdom tooth is growing. =/
#7 It's causing the whole bottom left hand side of my gum to be swollen and it hurts. Bahh.
#8 I foresee a visit to the dentist and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to like it.
#9 WE ONLY GOT 4 MINUTES TO SAVE THE WORLD! --Haha. That song by Madonna and Justin Timberlake is stuck in my head. And I don't even like it! Tsk tsk.
#10 The Muttons are funneh.
#11 I have a coursemate who reminds me of WJ&HF. The behaviour and smartness. Exaaaaaaaaactly the same. Okay, maybe not EXACTLY, but close. Haha.
#12 I miss 06S26. =/

Always be my baby.
Monday, April 28, 2008

Nine in the Afternoon
Saturday, April 26, 2008
It's about nine at night actually. Honestly, I never understood that song by Panic! At The Disco, but the song is really catchy. Anyway, here's this week:

MONDAY
The beginning of the second week of school. Since the elective module hasn't started yet, we had four hours to kill before our 6 o'clock lecture starts. My timetable is seriously retarded. Anyway, a bunch of us decided to go to Ang Mo Kio Hub and out of pure impulse, some of us decided to watch a movie. The timing of the movie was impeccable and somebody didn't want to watch a horror movie, so Joyce, Yiying, Eunice and I watched Definitely, Maybe.

The movie wasn't as good as I expected it to be. But it wasn't bad to the extent that I felt like throwing popcorn at the screen or anything. A man going back and forth with women and finally finding himself feeling lonely but still grateful for having a daughter doesn't exactly make a happy movie. But the ending was just as I expected. The "twist" of events in the movie wasn't exactly surprising either. BUT HEYYYYY, it could bring a different reactions to different people. It's just that such movies, they usually leave me thinking. You start to reflect and evaluate your own life, and eventually, somehow, you start feeling depressed.

TUESDAY
School was alright. The "getting-to-know-you" quiz was ridiculous. We didn't even get to know the real answers of the quiz but it didn't matter anyway. There was a question asking us to name this ah pek (okay, he's no ordinary ah pek) in a picture. Zakiah put her answer as Harrison Ford. HAHA. Oh well. Nas, Zak and I went to Ang Mo KIo after school to do our EZ link cards. The money in my bank account is depleeeeeting really quickly. =/

Anyway, after making/paying for our EZ link cards (and having the nyonya at the counter laugh loudly at my name through the microphone - don't ask me why), the two of them went to Sim Lim Square and I made my way down to Farahin's house! I miss my Bimbo Pekak. =) She baked brownies today and they were lovely. It didn't matter that it was keras or whatever, the point is, it was made by Farahin from scratch! =) And the inside tasted goooood. Faz, Farahin and I lazed around the rest of the afternoon, just talking nonsense and updating each other while watching Little Rascals. I gotta admit, I've never watched the movie from the beginning. The kids were so cuuuuuuute. Kecik-kecik dah menggatal ehh. But now they're all in their 20s and some of them are probably not as cute anymore. haha.

WEDNESDAY
Class started at bloody 8 in the morning. Considering the school's all the way at Yio Chu Kang, I had to wake up extra extra early today. Everyone who knows me knows that I'm not exactly a morning person. I was stoning all the way until the practical ended.

After that, for whatever reason, I started feeling happy and high. Crazy mood swings, I know. But I was in a cheerful mood. Really. I DONATED BLOOD TODAY! =) Haha. My first time and I have to say it was pretty cool. It's funny how the volunteers of the blood drive all looked at me and expected me to either be underweight or have low iron level in my blood. The auntie at the registration counter didn't even trust that I was eighteen. But I proved them aaaaall wrong. And I have to say, it felt good. I'm one very healthy person. But seeing my weight, I think I'm a bit "too healthy" for my own good mann. Some of the other classmates wanted to donate too, but at the end of the day, I was the only one who donated. The others couldn't donate because of various reasons.

On a completely different note, I found out that Abang Zai's dad passed away today. =/ My mum told me during the Radiation Physics lecture. It was completely unexpected. He was just fine the day before and was still joking around. He was such a jovial guy and he was always so funny. He's not related to us blood-wise, but he's still very supportive of my mum's side of the family. I'm going to miss seeing his familiar face at family gatherings. He was, as far as I know, one of the good guys.

Wednesday was one crazy day for me. It usually takes some time for it to sink in, but it's strange how I managed to get pass the rest of the day ignoring the sinking feeling inside.

THURSDAY
I dreaded school today. I think I was pretty much stoning during lectures. It didn't help that the MRS lecturer was digressing about all sorts of other things than focusing on the topic in the lecture slides. Part of me was already annoyed. And then I feel like I have to babysit a certain classmate of mine who's always coming late or not coming at all and then asking me to sign for her. Honestly mann, I'm quite tired of being the pushover. Give me a break. I do happen to have feelings and integrity.

The afternoon wasn't so bad though. I had lunch with Miss Poon at Raffles Place. =) I bet she appreciated it. She must have felt like a queen that her friends are coming down all the way to Raffles Place just to have lunch with her. Haha. And then I went back to school and I met Alex and Mary in the MRS lab. The teacher wasn't so bad. I was actually listening to what she has to say. Haha. The practical was interesting. Really.

After the practical, Yiying and I went to meet Joyce in the library. We had some time before squash started soooo.. Yiying became my biology tutor! I've never taken bio in my life, so I've been having trouble with anatomy and physiology. But she really helped me understand the whole cell physiology thing so much better. =) The squash "training" afterward was ridiculous. The coach just gave a loooong lecture about the game and the court and we only got to hit the ball twice against the wall and that's IT. Apparently, you can't start proper training until you get your own racket and ball which costs at least 45 bucks. WAHHHH. Kirim salam sudah. Haha. That translates to 'I'm never going to join squash.' Haha.

FRIDAY
Thank God it's Friday! =) Today was a pretty mundane day. Had lunch with Zakiah, Ain and Yiying at KFC after lecture at noon. Hey, we had a three-hour break and the canteens were all packed. I don't see the logic why the school put all the students to have the same lunch break mann. Anyway, when we got back to school afterwards, we had too much free time on our hands so we practically explored the whole school. Haha. We saw the labs of the other schools which were pretty cool and we walked everywhere throughout the school compound and finally ended up at the library. Haha. We checked out the VCDs and DVDs and they turn out to be quite a turn off. In the end, we explored this room in the library with all the tapes/casettes and LDs. They were ancient. Haha. Oh well. We managed to catch a bit of porn (ask Zakiah) and we saw all sorts of old, old, OLD stuff there. Haha. Anyway, Friday wasn't a very eventful day as you can tell already.

TODAY!
Zakiah and I were being such good friends to dear Ain today because we woke up early just to accompany Ain to go for SILAT. Hahahahahahahha. I can't believe I actually went for silat training today! But I have to say, it was quite fun. It's something different, not something I would typically do but it was still a good experience. Zak and I were wearing jeans. HAHA. I know, what the hell. Jeans are the last kind of pants you should wear when you're doing silat. All the kicking in the air and stretching and everything, I was afraid one of our jeans were going to tear! Haha. All in all, silat turned out to be quite fun. Thing is, I don't know if I should join. The "outfit" costs 45 bucks. Aiyoh. Anyway, my mother thinks having CCA in poly at all is a waste of time. Oh well. haha.

I met sexay(don't prasan okay)-Anisa after the three-hour workout (well, two hours, considering we came in bloody late). I finally had Long John Silver's after so long and we talked nonsense about life and all that. Haha. I miss talking to her. Okay la, I miss all my old friends okay! I want my old routine back. Haha. As if that's going to happen. No u-turn right?

Well, it's been one hell of a week and I'm really tired right now. I didn't know silat can cause you to perspire so much. Or maybe it's more because I was wearing jeans, I wouldn't know. The point is, I'm tired and I've written one hell of a long entry. GOODNIGHT EVERYONE. =)

Why can't we just leave it all behind.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHTS:
#1 I envy those whose best friends are their siblings.
#2 They can talk to each other openly about anything from relationships to whatever else that is going on in their lives.
#3 I have four siblings. Yet I can think up of all sorts of excuses as to why we don't share that bond.
#4 Tomorrow's my last day of work.
#5 OH. There's this new intern in the office and he's a Thai. Sawadikaaaaaaap. HAHA. I think my supervisor is nonsensical.
#6 AMINA CAME DOWN TO RAFFLES PLACE FOR LUNCH WITH ME TODAY! =)
#7 I have AWESOME friends. Have I ever mentioned that?
#8 I'm going to miss Raffles Place.
#9 I'm going to miss my colleagues more.
#10 After all, it's the people who brings life and character to the office.
#11 It sucks to think that I just got myself settled into a place and now, I'm leaving and immersing myself into a completely new world.
#12 I should learn to keep my mouth shut about certain things. Because really, what good does it bring me?
#13 Let bygones be bygones. Don't think about it.

Qing fei de yi
Thursday, April 3, 2008
I seriously can't get that chinese song out of my head. I've played it godknowshowmany times on my mp3 player. Haha. And it all started from that one time it was played on that chinese radio station my colleague is always listening to. Darn.

The best day of this week thus far is probably Tuesday. I had a lunch date with Belindapoon and Iyliana! Haha. They came all the way down to Raffles Place just to accompany me for my one-hour lunch break. So sweeeeeet. haha. =) But of all places, we ended up eating lunch at Macdonalds. -.-"

I've been eating a lot of fast food for lunch breaks lately and I think I'm getting fat. It's all because I believe that the best place to go for lunch when you're alone in busy areas like Raffles Place is a fast food restaurant. Easy food, fast queue, nobody standing around you waiting for you to get out of your seat, no rush. It's odd that wherever I walk in Raffles Place, everybody seems to be walking at a faster pace. Like they are late and they all have somewhere to be urgently. It's almost as if I'm walking slowly in the midst of a walkathon especially amongst the huge crowds in Raffles Place.

Anyway, back to Tuesday. Lunch was with them two girls and dinner was with AminaFarouqandRahman! =) Mann, I miss their company. Especially our nonsense during Malay lessons. We sat at Arnold's for about two hours and we didn't get tired of the place at all. I laughed until my jaws hurt and my eyes were tearing. Haha. Seriously. Oh, and after knowing Farouq for two years, we just realised that we might have been classmates back in Primary One! HAHA! Geez. But I swear I don't remember him at all and back in primary one there wasn't any class photos or yearbooks. All I remembered was that pervert in my class and the two pairs of twins. Haha. Hey, I only spent one year in that school and those traumatising images will remain etched in my brain for (probably) the rest of my life. Haha. ANYWAY, the two guys will be booking in for NS next week. And all I have to say to them is, GOOD LUCK and HAVE FUN! hahahaha. =)

Cos you caught me off guard, Now I'm running and screaming.
Monday, March 31, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHTS:
#1 I can't waaaaait for the 7th! Because then, belindapoon will be working with me! hahahah. =)
#2 I'm really getting used to the routine and I'm no longer complaining about office work. It's actually not all that bad once you settle down.
#3 I have awesome colleagues. =)
#4 The down side? The place I'm working at is situated in the CBD area. It's tough to get a decent seat for lunch and the queue is seriously long depending on where you get your food.
#5 I honestly don't see why people use tissue packets and umbrellas to book their seats. It's pretty annoying. Sometimes I feel like throwing them away then take over their seats. haha.
#6 Today I saw a man who "reserved" a seat at Burger King using his credit card. -.-" Wth.
#7 Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?
#8 Right now, it all comes down to this question: Are you sure this is what you really want to do?
#9 I hate it when people doubt my decisions.
#10 I'm an indecisive person who gets easily swayed by other people's comments. So when I get many people asking me that same question in that same tone of voice, I begin to doubt myself. This sucks.
#11 It'll be nice to have some support. To have somebody tell me that I have done the right thing. Especially from the family. Everybody's giving me that same incredulous look: What are you doing to your life?
#12 When you can't get the best, you settle for the next best thing right?
#13 Just walk awayyyyyyyyy.
#14 School starts on the 14th. =/
#15 Don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you.
#16 Have I ever mentioned that Juno is a really cool movie? I know I'm outdated but it's still gooood.
#17 I think I'm getting old. My back hurts from sitting in the same position at the desk for too long.
#18 My korean show is playing nowwww. GOODNIGHT ALL.

Breathe (2am)
Friday, March 28, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHTS:
#1 I got accepted into NYP! =) They offered me a place in the course I wanted.
#2 I don't know whether to cry or smile actually.
#3 There really is no need for you to shoot me down like that. Not even a word of congrats. Thanks, but this is my future and you're just making me more confused and miserable.
#4 Whatever I choose, I can't please everyone.
#5 Go awayyyyyyyy.
#6 I haven't applied into any universities yet.
#7 I find that I suck at consoling people right now.
#8 Decisions, decisions, decisions.
#9

When you look me in the eyes.
Friday, March 21, 2008
The first week on the job has been alright. My boss and manager are alright people. The office is a bit of a boring place to be because every single person in the office seems to be so absorbed in their computers all day. I wonder if they ever get tired of staring at that bright screen. I know I do. From 8.30 in the morning to 5 in the afternoon, I'll be staring at the screen or sorting out papers. I get quite sick of it but that's what I do. Hey, it's an admin job. Who am I to complain about it right? I was the one who took on the job.

Honestly, when I first took on the job, I was just looking for a way to avoid the confusion about universities/polys and its broad range of courses. Everybody's asking me the same questions and I always don't have an answer. My dad presented me with the opportunity to study overseas; specifically, Australia. It's tempting, yet.. what's the point? I have to decide and confirm everything before I can go anywhere right? This whole process is giving me a headache. And I'm rather thankful that I have this job to occupy my time instead of mulling over the different possibilities day to day at home.

Lunch time has been pretty lonesome to me. There aren't many temps in my department. I'm the only one besides this other girl who isn't going to be around that much after this week. She's nice and everything but she's been working there for quite a while now and she knows pretty much everyone in the office. She goes to lunch with her friends; thus I become the odd one out in the office. But then again, I haven't been working there for all that long. Hmm.

Quote of the day:

When the stars go blue.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Ever since results came out, the only question that's been in my head is: So, what now? At that time when the results came out, I felt like digging a hole in the ground then bury myself in it. But what's the use, eh? I was really disappointed over my results; yet somehow part of me expected it. I just didn't know how to react to it. I wanted to shut myself in a bubble and forget about everyone else. But, I still have to say that I'm rather thankful that I at least passed everything. Really.

Anyway, I sent in an application today. Whether I regret it or not, I haven't been able to tell. I sent in that application on impulse. Maybe, just maybe, the reality will sink in later. But, as for right now, I'm not worried about it. Maybe it's many many emotions jumbled into one; so much so that I just don't know what to feel anymore. I've turned.. numb.

OH, I passed my basic theory test today. =) There's my silver lining today. Haha. Plus, there was a random dude who helped me pay for my final theory test. The lady at the counter was insisting I pay by NETs, which I don't have, so the guy offered to help. =) Sometimes, I guess it's those random nice strangers who make your day.

To people who did well, (even if it is a week late) CONGRATULATIONS! =)

p/s Thanks for the "recovery package" and the flowers (they're still alive by the way), delivery babes. You guys really made my day that day. =)
p/p/s I got a job. It starts Monday. Woopie.

when you're looking like that
Saturday, March 1, 2008

ku berserah.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHTS:
SATU; First and foremost, I'll have to say that I had completely no regrets working at the Sentosa Flowers show. The friends/colleagues/people I met there were nice, fun, GILA people whom I won't forget. Sure, I've only known them for a short period, but I've met many interesting characters within that short period. They've made my first work experience good and unforgettable, and for that, I really appreciate it. =)

DUA; The idea of false hope. The local universities have been sending letters/brochures to my house addressing it to me. This has caused my mum to think that I did oh-so well for my A's. EVERYBODY gets those letters right? So it's nothing special. BUT, she still insists that this is a good sign. For goodness sake, it doesn't mean anything when you receive such things addressed to you. They're just showing you your options IF you do well. Geez. I hate the idea that my actual results will probably let her down in the end. =/

TIGA; You know, in this rainy weather, all I want to do right now is be sitting in the rain at the park. Am I crazy for that? Who cares about pneumonia? I don't have anything to lose.

EMPAT; I MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOLMATES. Sorry, I'm in a bit of a nostalgic mood because I found all my previous class photos while I was tidying up. Amalina the philosopher once wrote to me that "life is like surfing. You have to be coastin' with the motion of the ocean or you will wipeout. =D and problems are just whirlpools swirling, cascading, twirling. *insert music note here* so..nah, your surfboard." She drew a surfboard at the end of the message. HAHA. AMANONEHHHH, YOU'VE BEEN MISSED.

LIMA; I was on the bus with my mum today when we saw this two ah bengs with tatoos, dyed hair and all. They were acting all macho, "conquering" the back of the bus. Then one of them started to play a song on his phone. I was expecting some hiphop kerepot song to play. But guess what. He played a Westlife song! HAHA! And the two were singing along to it out loud. WOW. It's true when they say you should never judge a book by its cover. Who knew, those two were such emokids. HAHA.

stop and stare; I think I'm moving but I go nowhere.
Monday, February 4, 2008
RANDOM THOUGHTS:
#1 Job starts this Thursday.
#2 I'm not exactly thrilled about it because we got separated and I got the afternoon shifts. =/
#3 The first thing I'm going to buy with my pay will be those Maroon 5 concert tickets! Oh yeaaah. =) That will make all the work worth it.. right?
#4 I hope my grandmother gets well soon.
#5 The hospital is such a depressing place to be.
#6 27 dresses is a good movie. Yes, it's a predictable chick flick, but it's still a good movie to watch to me. Especially when you watch it with your closest friends. =)
#7 My eldest sister and the brother-in-law have decided to name the baby Asyura. =)
#8 I think I stone too much. Even my grandmother thinks so. HAHA.
#9 A whole month has passed. I spent that month doing nothing but eat, sleep, chores and hanging out with friends. If only life is this easy all the time. HA. I miss January already.
#10 I'm meeting the Bimbo Pekak tomorrow! =)
#11 I've got my heart set on anywhere but here.
#12 Simple mind, simple pleasures. The little, little things in life which keeps me going.
#13 "Love isn't blind. We are the ones who are blinded by love." -anonymous
#14 Oh, an advanced HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR to all my chinese friends. Have a good one. =)

#15 One last thing, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAHA! =)

The importance of being idle.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
My eldest sister has finally given birth to a beautiful baby girl on Sunday. =) She's so cuuuuuuuute. Wow, I'm officially an aunt now. The coolest thing was that the baby was born on the same day as my sister's birthday! My eldest sister's birthday is 270180 whereas my niece's birthday is 270108! So cool right? haha.

Anyway, BIASE(plus edel's sister and her friend) went to Amina's band concert last night. =) The concert was alright. Honestly, I was bored at some point and was almost falling asleep until Amina finally came out towards the end. Haha. Nice dancing, Amina. =) I bet everyone who was there was younger than us. It's like we've stepped into a children's playground. Except that the children are all dressed to impress. Haha. Talk about puberty and their raging hormones. Ah well.

I'm still currently jobless. I've turned into a maid in my own home except that I don't get paid. Haha. Geez. I can become a future housewife already. Alright then, time to fetch the younger brother from athletics.

the gruesome twosome.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
These days the television has become my number one friend. I have certain mother issues which I still see no logic behind and the only person I have left to turn to at home will be the teevee. Haha. That is, when my actual friends are not busy at work or in school.

I can't wait for my job to start. Because then I'll have something much more productive to do than lazying on my couch at home. And because then I'll have some moolah to spend! =) I haven't been getting allowance since school ended so even if I go out, I don't spend. Ah well.

I went to cut my hair with the eldest sis and my mother today! I currently hate my own hair. But it will grow back.. right? Nothing I can do about it now. Looking at my sister these days, I'm afraid her stomach might just burst at any moment. It's already nine months. Her stomach's not as huge as a typical pregnant woman. But still, I'm just worried I guess. I'm becoming an aunt soon. I feel so O-L-D.

I can't wait for Thursday/Saturday! Yayyy. Something to look forward to. =)

and then it starts all over again.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
First of all, to anyone who's actually reading this, HAPPY NEW YEAR and a belated merry christmas to you! =) Yes, I know I'm four days late but hey, the year just started anyway.

While I was away for a little over than a month, I really did miss this sunny little island (though from what I've heard, it wasn't exactly sunny on most days.ha.). After being in freezing cold countries for weeks, I've learnt to appreciate the tropical weather here more. There wasn't much snow there yet but the chilly winds were enough to make me shiver from head to toe. If not for the winds, I think the weather wouldn't be that bad. It'll be like stepping into an air-conditioned room except the temperature goes below the minimal temperature of an actual air-con.

ANYWAY, the three weeks spent in Iceland was a bit of a bore but the trip around the other parts of Europe was amazing. The monuments, the paintings, the rich history and culture of the different places in Europe... everything was breath-taking. =) Alright, perhaps not EVERYTHING because the europeans are not exactly friendly towards Asians (gets kinda annoying really). They look at me as if I'm some red indian girl who's intruding their way of life. It's almost as if I did something wrong towards them. Buttt..as time goes by, you learn to ignore the stares and just walk on.

Alright, I'm suffering from jet lag and I'm dead tired from walking around with them girls just now (Thanks a lot for picking me up from the airport! =) You guys really made my day.) Let me just sum up with this: After being away for so long, I feel like I've just been snapped out of a daydream and am being plunged back into the pool of reality. Reality bites.