It's All Been Done. [version 14]

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you know it's just the end of the road.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
The last entry of 2006. Time for reflection?

2006 has been a good year. Moving on into a school without any of my usual "hang-out" friends from secondary school turned out to be surprisingly easy. I guess the trick is to not to think about it, take it all in and ENJOY! No point dwelling about the past and regret going into the school. Since you're stuck in that school, might as well make the most of it right? =)

TPJC isn't so bad. Just think. If I hadn't gone into Tampines JC, I would have never met the wonderful people I know today. The canoeists, BIASE, PAE 06S09, 06S26 and everyone else. I'm very very grateful to have met you people ehh. You guys made life in TPJC so much easier. =)

Some of the changes I went through? Hmm. I gained a brother-in-law. There was also the drastic change in CCA which brought about a change to my lifestyle too because I became more active. I grew darker. HAHA. Gee. What else ehh? I don't remember. Heh.

OH. Lets talk entertainment. The best tv-movie goes to none other than High School Musical. I thought it was goooood. =) Besides, there aren't that many tv-movies to choose from anyway. Haha.

My favourite foreign language TV series that I got hooked onto this year was Princess Hours. At first I just watched it because I was wondering why people make such a big fuss over it. Including some of my friends. Then after watching it, I got hooked onto it as well. HAHA.

There were many many infectious songs that came out this year eh? Just to name a few: Tokyo drift//Teriyaki Boyz, buttons//Pussycat dolls, Hips don't lie//Shakira. They were infectious to me anyway. I didn't even like the songs but somehow, I guess after hearing it being played many many times, the songs were playing in my head at one point or another. Tokyo drift can win the most annoying song of the year. HAHA. Seriously.

98.7 FM gave the honour of best album of 2006 to The rising tied by Fort Minor. =) Randomness. But hey, that band deserves it. Seriously.

Alrightey then. I have to go. So this concludes my last entry of 2006.
To everyone whose still reading,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Have a great year ahead people. =)

And not to forget to ALL my muslim friends,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI! =)

a la la la la la la la life is wonderful.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
No, not really. But heyyy. *whistles*AlwaysLookOnTheBrightSideOfLife*whistles*

Riiight then. I'm currently feeling completely cut off from the outside world even though there's such a thing as Internet over here in Iceland. But it's currently 2.04am in Singapore and 6.04pm here in Iceland. Yup, Iceland is 8 hours behind Singapore. I don't know how I'm going to cope with the sleeping hours when I get back. I'll probably fall asleep at 7am and wake up at 4pm? haha. Okay, I'll worry about that when I get back.

Oh, have I mentioned there's only 4 hours of daylight here? Yeaah. So enjoy every minute of sunlight people. Cos you don't get much of it here. And it's effing cold. Alright, I'm rambling. Lets just make this another one of those entries.

RANDOM THOUGHTS
#1 Have you ever felt like u're always missing out on something?
#2 Give me novacaine.
#3 Have you ever really, really really ever loved a woman?
#4 Those three words that I want to hear.
#5 Alright, I'm not implying anything so don't think too much ehh?
#6 So you think you can dance? Grrrrreat show. =)
#7 The place is so peaceful. But I'm currently staying at some secluded area in Iceland. Sooo there's a possibility that you can get bored out of your minds here.
#8 There's a creepy glowing red Santa Clause hanging on a tree outside my windwow. Daaaamn freaky.
#9 The door of my room was opening and closing by itself in the middle of the night yesterday. Hmm.
#10 I shall leave the rest to you own imagination ehh?
#11 For a few photos of Iceland and other stuffs check out my sister's blog. Click ME!

That's it for now. See you people when I get back.

I don't want next year to come..

it's alright to tell me, what you think about me. I won't try to argue or hold it against you.
Saturday, December 2, 2006
RANDOM THOUGHTS
#1 I miss Blink 182.
#2 Lunch with them yesterday made my day. =)
#3 My voice is kinda ROCKING! Haha. Go figure.
#4 I just miss one training and I miss a whole lot of drama. What is going to happen when I miss NINE trainings?
#5 HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FAZLINA and ARETHA! =)
#6 Faz, I hope you liked the gift(s) we got you. Think of us whenever you carry that bag to and fro eh?
#7 I miss Aretha.
#8 I smell of barbecue smoke. Farahin, it's all your fault mann.
#9 And by the way, Happy advanced birthday! Sorry I'm going to miss your birthday next week. Oh wait, you're not going to be in Singapore either. So it's okayyyy! haha. Oh and overseas calls are EXPENSIVEE okayy! So consider this a wish! haha. Okay okay, I'm not THAT evil.
#10 I sarang you! Haha! I swear you shouldn't have told me that mal.
#11 Some things are just better left unsaid.
#12 You only live once. So make the most of it.

Have you ever looked at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background?
It makes you wonder how many stangers have pictures of you,
how many moments of other people's lives have we been in
Were we apart of someone's life when their dreams came true
or were we there when their dreams died
Did we keep trying to get it?
As if we were somehow destined to be there
or did the shock just take you by surprise?
Just think.
You could be a big part of someone's life,
and not even know it.

//One Tree Hill 403.

Just a random thought.

p/s I'm flying off to Iceland some time next week. Until the 19th. So BYYYEEEE people! Have fun and take care. =)

A beautiful mistake//The ataris
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
The past few days have been nothing but chaotic fun. Everything from the preparations of the wedding to the pernikahan (ROM and shits) to the wedding itself. Followed by an outing with one of my HOTTEST friends, Anisa, (there I said it, happy now? haha. SHEESH.) and then there was training. Then I had a lunch date with AMINA MYSARA! haha.

The wedding was B-E-A-Utiful. The decorations, the pelamin, EVERYTHING. I have to give a big thumbs up to my aunt for all the hard work she put in to come up with a design for the place and all. Because it really turned out nice. I was kinda doubtful at first. But as time passed, the multi-purpose hall just became more and more pretty. With my help, of course. haha. =)

The food provided by the cook was good too. Everything was in place. It was alright except for the fact that there were very little seats around and the place was kinda small? Yeaah. So the place was damn crowded and the line for the food was very looong.

All in all, the wedding went well. It sucks being the pengapit. You just have to follow the bride around. That's my job. Gee. But oh well, I had the chance to do everything that one could do for a wedding. From clearing tables, to being the dishwasher (this is FUN. Really. Haha.), to just being the helper and everything else. It was, like I said, chaotic fun. THANKS to Edel and Amina for being kendarats eh! You guys did a grrrreat job! It was good exercise for you right amina? Weightlifting! haha.

Monday: The day out with who else. Anisaaaaaaaa! That moron. For god-knows-what reason, the both of us were feeling high and crazy. We just walked practically every inch around that City Hall area. From Suntec City, to Esplanade to that whatever that link is called. Haha. Ok, we didn't go every inch. But our legs were tired enough okayy! Hmm. So what did we do? Window shopping! Looking for that beanie that she wanted. Besides, I'm penniless for the holidays. Then we played xbox at the Courts place! haha. (Anisa, you're such a bad driver mann.) Tiny became teenie. And Over the Hedge became Over the Hinge. We just fooled around that area really. Haha. It was a good day. Then she fell sick and went home. I guess your temperature did rise after hanging around me too much eh? saba-overdose. HAHA. oooo-kay.

After she left, I went to search for my friend's house in Tampines. Haha. I got LOST. In Tampines, for crying out loud. WAHLAU. I shall leave that story for another day ok?

TODAY: Training was the usual. Then the lunch date came. =) hee. Amina treated me to lunch! Of course I was happppy. Who wouldn't be? Well, just give me food and I'll be happy. ANYWAY, we talked, gossiped, ate, played House of the Dead 2! (haha!), window-shopped and just walk around! It was all in the name of good fun and we were hoping that we won't bump into anyone we know. But I guess luck wasn't really on our side was it? Haha. Ah well.

These little activities are the ones that makes me feel all high and energetic all over again even when I'm actually exhausted and moodless inside. The simple pleasures in life. Who can live without them?

There I am standing all alone on Sydney Harbor Bridge.
And you know I would jump into the fucking ocean if it meant I was truly capable of being satisfied.
Will I ever be?
Did I just give up the best thing I ever had?
Haha. Randomness. A beautiful mistake by The Ataris. Well, satisfaction is only temporary, don't you think?

here's your hey hey HEY!
Friday, November 17, 2006
I can't believe my sister's getting married next week. Then she'll be moving out, going on her honeymoon etc etc. In other words, I won't be seeing her as much. As misunderstood as I may feel around her sometimes, it just seem like yesterday she was asking me not to go to TKGS because she was afraid I will turn into a lesbian or something. Haha.

Well there is a slight chance that I actually did. Turn into a lesbian, I mean.

Alright, I'm just kidding. But hey, what's so wrong about being homsexual/bisexual? haha.

ANYWAY, back to my point. I guess I just hate to admit that I'm going to miss having her around. Well, she is after all, the more dependable sister. Really, go ask my mother, she agrees. Haha. Okay, I'm being an ass. But yeaah, she's the one who guides me through my studies and all. She does the nagging on behalf of my mother sometimes. And her cooking skills ain't that great but she tries. heh. =) Well, she's sensible, hardworking and makes the lamest jokes. Mann, I'm going to miss her.

Ah well. Oh, my first phone is officially spoilt. The blue nokia 2100 phone? Yeah, that one. The keypads are all screwed up. Pressing any of the numbers will have no effect whatsoever. So yeaaah. Ah well, it has lasted FOUR freaking years with me. I wonder how it lasted that long anyway. Considering how clumsy I can get.

The past few days have been draining. training.jalan raya.training. And there's the eufourian jalan raya tomorrow. =) I miss sor.

OH, the jalan raya with some of my fellow tpjcians turned out strangely... fun? With the odd combination of people and all. But yeaah. It was alright. SORRY for getting you people wet outside my house ehh. And if I was stoning most of the time or anything, well, that's standard for me right? haha. Ah well.

It's good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.

A random quote I saw on the bus on the way to training. I swear I remember the most unnecessary stuff somtimes. But don't we all do that? From the details of what someone was wearing on a certain day to the lyrics of any song to a bloody lame joke from a TV show. haha.

I shall go catch some shut-eye now. GOODNIGHT ALL! Time check: 2.31am.

I miss [SCRUBS]. I'd do anything to get the DVD. Haha. If only I'm THAT rich.

Honesty is a hard attribute to find.
Friday, November 10, 2006
Sorry I haven't been updating as much. But as mentioned before, my computer's spoilt and I'm currently using my mum's laptop. So yeaaah. I suppose this will be another one of those entries.

Random Thoughts
#1 Last Monday was a good day. Thanks to all who made it a memorable day. Special thanks to BIASE, Fazlina, Farahin, Anisa and Shuuji. =)
#2 It sucks to think that you know everything about someone when really, you know nothing at all.
#3 Have I ever mentioned how funny motor mouth is? HAHA.
#4 I am waiting for YOU. Just waiting.
#5 Long for something else.
#6 My OP's on Monday. Wish me luck.
#7 I can't wait for jalan raya next week. =)
#8 Stop thinking and do something about it.
#9 When it's all said and done, you think back and wonder "Was it worth it after all?"
#10 I'm sorry if all of the above didn't make any sense.

Yay. I can't wait for all this PW nonsense to be over. =) To all those whose OP is on Monday, GOOD LUCK! =)

Could you let down your hair and be transparent for a while
Just a little while
To see if your human after all
Honesty is a hard attribute to find
When we all want to seem like we've got it all figured out
Well, I may be the first to say that I don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
I'm not gonna pretend like I do
Just trying to find my way
-->Trying//Lifehouse. =)

Tears on my pillow
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
RANDOM THOUGHTS OF TODAY:
#1 The title of this entry is a tile of a song by Clem Snide. It's a song with a happy tune but sad lyrics. Contradicting eh?
#2 I just spent the whole day doing Project Work. And in this moment I feel like hiding below the table and just cry. Haha. OK, I'm just kidding. I'm almost done with the damn report.
#3 Army Daze is hilarious. Saturday was the first time I watched the show. I know, I know. I'm lagging. So I've heard. Ah well.
#4 As much as I want to say that I have made all the decisions that I have to make, I can't. Because saying that I have would be an outright lie.
#5 HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NAD!
#6 With the pillow, I'm sure you'll have many sweet dreams of ME and Faz. Haha. Just be sure not to leave many world maps along the way eh? I want to see the pillow nice and clean next year when I come to your house for Hari Raya. Or this year, for that matter. Haha.
#7 Singing makes me high. Does it really?
#8 PW is killing me. Seriously. Dateline after dateline. After working for hours and hours on the report, you just get it thrown back into your face and have things like "draggy" and "stop whining" in our report. Rejection after rejection.
#9 Silence is consent isn't it?
#10 The universe is so BIG, how does anything we do matter AT ALL?
#11 Foxtrot, anyone?
#12 HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDEL!!
#13 Edel Kentalan semacam! Have a fun fun FUN day today! I know you will. Because I will be there! Haha. Riiiight.
#14 Shit I'm sleepy. Time check: 2.45am. OK, I shall go edit the report and sleeeeeeep. For about an hour? Yeah, ok. WONDERFUL.

Break Point.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006

'Live for the moment'
It's so simple yet most of us are so caught up in what the future is going to be like or, even worst, still living in the past and refusing to let go. Sometimes we worry so much about what everything is going to be like that we forget to live life isn't it? I mean, those times spent worrying could be spent on other things.

Alright, so today was a bad day for a lot of us. Me included, of course. I was in pretty bad shape for most parts of the day because everything just seemed so effed up. But after the run in the afternoon, I was being the usual happy fool that I am for the sake of cheering people up and for the sake of cheering myself up. Come on people, there's still hope somewhere. Just don't ever give up. I know, I know, easier said than done right?

SHUCKS. Ultimately, there's nothing I could do or say to make someone feel better about their results right? And it seems that the only way to cheer him/her up is by making him/her forget her results just for a while and make her laugh? Alright, I'm bullshit-ing. But then again, how do you cheer someone up when you yourself feel like shit?

Well, at least JO gave me a heads-up on how badly I did. So I guess I was expecting the worst for everything? And I pretty much accepted the grades as they come. Just rolling in with the punches, I guess. Then there's still the usual whole "demanding CCA" thing coming from him. And I'm actually considering. But the thing is, if I quit, then there's a whole lot of people who will follow suit. At least, that's according to Poon. Mann.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head
You feel left out or looked down on
Just do your best
Do everything you can
And don't you worry
What the bitter hearts are gonna say

It just takes some time
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, Everything will be just fine.
Everything, Everything will be all right, all right
The middle//Jimmy Eat World.
How can you reassure someone that everything is going to be alright in the end when you can't tell the future yourself? Won't you be giving out empty promises in that way?

you have changed so much that I don't know, if I can call you and tell you I care.
Sunday, October 8, 2006
So the promos are finally over. It has been over since Wednesday really. But there's nothing much I want or can say about that. The results are unpredictable.

I just watched You've got mail yesterday night. Sweetness. Meg Ryan's character said something that kind of got to me. Here's what she said:

People always tell you that change is a good thing. But what they're really trying to say is that something that you didn't want to happen has happened.
Somewhere along those lines lah. I don't actually memorise what she says. But does it make any sense to you? Ah well.

Then there's always the complete opposite of it. Something that you want to happen so badly at a certain point of time but it never did happen. And when you finally get what you want right towards the end, you somehow just don't want it anymore.

Well, I can't begin to imagine how empty the house would be next year. My eldest sister is getting married at the end of November. Anyone interested in going can come contact me. She's moving out. And strangely, I'm not ecstatic that the person who's always trying to get on my nerve 24/7 is not going to be around as much. My elder brother is going for NS next year.

Ah well. The beginning of the end. I don't want next year to come really. Frankly, I don't care if I get retained or not. Because, being retained or not doesn't seem to matter. I mean, it won't stop the changes.

Nevermind. Nevermind. I'm just rambling. Time on the computer for me is limited. So, I will update some other time. And change the layout too. Hmm.

I wanna let you know you're driving me crazy
I'd do anything to help you to see
I don't think you understand what you're doing to me
I miss Five. Haha. Randomness.

p/s The haze was really bad yesterday. I could smell it just by stepping out of the house. Wow.

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