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The Main Dish Tiffany Shaolien or ContactLens fourteen chinese dragon bay area dob: august 7th Current Flavors Food: Chinese! Anime: Ruroni Kenshin, YuYu Hakusho Music: All types Color: Light Lavender Infatuation: Layouts Side Dishes darker shade valhalla chicken scratch jibberish judgement amandaluv city1ights ninirules		Sunday, June 16, 2002 School ended on Friday. I didn't cry. I don't know why... Some people were sniffling, some were quietly crying, others were bawling. Honestly, why cry? They'll see most of the same people at high school next year... yeah, I really don't see the point of crying unless it's at the end of high school. I think I should have cried though, I mean, I'll be going away to a new school in a new district and I'll probably never see these people again. I actually felt like laughing. ^^; Know what? I'm actually looking forward to going to a new school where I don't know anybody. Only a teeny-weeny bit, though. I can start out fresh without anybody judging me by my past. I just wish it was in a new school in my old school district, like El Cerrito High or something. Yesterday was pretty jam-packed for me. I went to dance class... nayomeeh, Alyssa, and brendo went with me. We learned the waltz and the Hustle, which was pretty fun. Then nayomeeh and I went to the Duchess of Richmond's Ball with Jeannettee where we danced all these old British dances. Jeannettee seemed a little short with me, but who can blame her? It wasn't all that fun for me. After not being asked to dance for the first two dances, I was pretty teary and cranky. The dances I did dance were mostly group dances. They were fun, but I like modern dances like the waltz or Cha Cha better. Food was okay, they served a lot of cherries, cheese and crackers, and desserts. They served turkey too. I made the mistake of eating it, though. It wasn't cooked all the way and I suffered a night of throwing up and sharp stabbing pains in my stomach. >_<;; The ball ended around midnight and I got home half past 12AM. First experience, not bad... I don't know why, but I'm feeling emotionless right now. Good bye and Happy Father's Day to Daddy. Some Asian food inspired me at 8:57 p.m. Thursday, June 13, 2002 ::sigh:: Tomorrow is the last day of school. ;_; I'm going to miss everyone sooo much! Watch me, I'll be bawling my eyes out by 9:00AM. It wouldn't be like this if I was going to Pinole Valley... but then, I'm going to a whole new school district for high school! I'm going to start out empty-handed, without friends and... well, basically I'm an outcast. What's worse is that I'm going to be leaving Jeannettee, who has been my bestfriend with since kindergarten. Sure, she's going to DA and I would be going to Pinole, but at least we know we're really close to each other. I'll probably never see anyone from this district again. I'll be an outcast in my new school, and I'll soon be an outcast in my own area... how twisted... I'm dreading tomorrow... Well, I shouldn't complain much... getting accepted into a new school district is difficult. I was hoping that Miramonte would send me a rejection letter... but they they didn't... damn my straight A's... I realize in the end, when we graduate high school, we'll all be split up to go to different universities. It's just that we are kept together for another 4 years... I'm just being taken away earlier. ARGH! Why must I talk so much logic?! I'm going to miss all of you guys so much!!!!! ;_; Some Asian food inspired me at 9:20 p.m. Sunday, June 9, 2002 Piper's party was fun! The costumes were great too. Jeannettee looked like an authentic '50s girl, with a sleevless dress, petticoats, and everything. Piper and Emily looked like a librarian and a school teacher. And AARON! He looked like a bowler! Slicked back hair, bowling jersey, and Hush Puppies! It was so cool! Brian looked like he was from a '50s gang, cute and tough... and me? I looked like a polka dotted person. Oh, dance class was okay. To prepare for the Foxtrot and the Cha Cha, I went online and found the dance patterns. ^^; Yesh, I am such a dork, but hey, why not use something I know how to do and use it to do something I want to know how I do? I was still the worst in the class though. ^^; Emily and nayomeeh came, too! Emily was really good! She caught on quite fast and at the end of the class, Mrs. Milligan and this other assistant was asking her to showcase! That means they want to dress her up and make her dance infront of all these people. I'm pretty proud! I'm not so sure about nayomeeh, but I think she did better than me too. This morning, though, I got a message from Mrs. Cuy saying she wanted Emily, nayomeeh, and I to showcase! I was like... 0_0;; are you kidding me? I'm not sure if she wants me to showcase, but I'm definately sure they want Emily too. If I'm wanted to showcase, then that means we have to go to some extra practice classes this week. I'm sure I can go... Oh my gosh, I have three sections of history to take notes on.... ;_; Some Asian food inspired me at 1:02 p.m. Thursday, June 6, 2002 ::cheers:: We ended our P.E year undefeated in softball! Well, we've only been playing against one girls team all year, but still, we're undefeated! Oh, our poor boys, though. They've never one game against Mr. Nichols's boys. Wow, I've got the rest of this week packed. I have a doctor appointment waiting for me, then the Awards Ceremony, and history homework afterwards. Tomorrow the Leadership class is going to Point Richmond for a BBQ party. On Saturday I have dance classes, I also need to buy Piper's present and complete my required '50s outfit, then I'm off to Piper's party! 0_0;; Oh god... how am I gonna do all this?!?! >_< Some Asian food inspired me at 2:56 p.m. Wednesday, June 5, 2002 Augh... It's sooo hot! 90 degrees today. We had to do P.E today and I sweated a gallon of sweat. Well, at least I got a tan. ::sigh:: I just wish I pulled my socks lower. Those tan lines at my feet are ugly. ^^; Some Asian food inspired me at 4:02 p.m. Sunday, June 2, 2002 Okay, I've learned the Triple Rhythm Basic for East Coast Swing. Granted, I'm not good at it, but at least I know the pattern. ^^; OoOh, I've very jealous of you Jeannettee. I shopped all day today and I couldn't find a good dress or top for Piper's Party. I came sooo close to getting my outfit, which was a sleevless red top with white polka dots I was planning to wear with my capris. But then, it turned out one size too big for me. Phooey! I'm gonna be running around like mad on Saturday, I just know it. Dance class, shopping for my outfit and something for Piper... ugh... nayomeeh! Where are you?!?! It's very lonely online without you to talk too... I don't talk with most of the people on my buddy list cause I ignore them... and that leaves Justin talking to me. -_-;; God, you should tell him once a conversation is dead, it's dead! There's no need to make a futile attempt to try and revive it. Oh, and are you coming to dance class with me on Saturday? Some Asian food inspired me at 8:12 p.m. Saturday, June 1, 2002 I went to my first dancing class today at the Allegro Ballroom. Boy, was that ever embarrassing! I'm the worst student in my class, believe me, I am... We learned salsa and swing today and everybody had taken at least 1 salsa class before me so I was left bumbling and tripping with my partners. The salsa isn't such a difficult dance, but because I was given only 2 minutes to learn the steps, I was still a bit unsure how to do them and I was usually off beat. Now, swing dancing was /a lot/ worse. Although the whole class had never taken classes in swing dancing before, they caught the basic steps pretty quickly. My steps were too large and I felt I was gonna trip over myself if I did it properly. I usually forgot to rock back after the second 4th step and I was off when I was twirled. >__<;; By the end of class my cheeks were burning and I was ready to bolt out those double doors. BUT! Mrs. Milligan was there! Don't you remember nayomeeh, Jeannettee? Mrs. Milligan, the retired 6th grade teacher at Sheldon? Yep, she was there and offered to tutor me a bit in my dances. ^__^ Boy am I glad! I also learned next week's dance, the Cha Cha from her. And you guys, she told me to bring people from Crespi to the lessons and I'm planning to drag you, Nayomeeh. I don't wanna be embarrassed by myself! Ooh! Pork chops! Bye! Some Asian food inspired me at 9:50 p.m. Thursday, May 30, 2002 Another announcement: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MYRA!!!! I wish you a happy 20th birthday and hope all your wishes come true this year!!! ^o^ Some Asian food inspired me at 4:36 p.m. Thursday, May 30, 2002 Do you think it's wierd someone you have never seen in your life, has chatted with you online and told you his secrets? Yes, of course that's wierd!!! >_<;; BUT, I do feel flattered jason has confided in me. I found him through nayomeeh though I was not looking for any anonymous person to talk to. No, he's not a boyfriend, he's looking at another girl for a possible girlfriend, but really, I've only been chatting with him for three days and he's told me of his past crimes. T_T;; Yeah, reaalll smart. For gosh's sake, how can he be so trusting?!?! (And so feminine?! No, he's not gay... The way he types makes him seem feminine.) I mean, for all I know, he could have been talking to a serial killer. That's not smart, I say. Not Smart! I'm gonna go. He keeps trying to start a conversation and I'm getting nervous. P.S. GOOD LUCK JEANNETTEE!!!!! I hope the play goes well! Break a ... a nail! I don't want you to get hurt just in case that old saying /does/ come true. Hopefully I'll get to see the play tomorrow! Some Asian food inspired me at 4:21 p.m. Wednesday, May 29, 2002 The Chabot Space and Science Center was fun! I didn't say "so fun", well, because spending time in the Center from 7AM - 5PM with nothing to do does not make it "so fun". Yeah, it was cool though. We had about 3 hours of free time; 1 hour between every scheduled activity. My group and I hiked on the nature trail, explored the exhibits, shopped in the gift shop, and played with the hands-on activities. To me, that does not sound like 3 hours, and it wasn't. Oh, and to soak up the free time, we roasted outside. The scheduled activities were sort of okay, but they were boring. The movie theatres were great thought. It was like a virtual ride. The movies themselves were the ones I had problems with. To Be an Astronaut was not what I expected it to be. I was hoping for the solar system, stars, and all that stuff, but then all they showed was how people became astronauts. Woopee... psh. The second movie at the planetarium was better. It had the solar system, stars, and planets, but the voice was so monotonous and boring that I fell asleep! I know because I had the wierdest dream, drooled on myself, and missed the biggest part of the movie. ^^; Then finally, finally we got to the Mission to Mars. I was on the Medical Team! ^_^ I was in Mission Control first, and Mariko and I had to record all the experiments the med team took on the space shuttle in space. They did eye tests, hearing tests, and heart tests. I had to record and average them. ;_; No fun. When we switched, we tried to finish up on the heart tests, but it didn't happen. ::sigh:: I was so nervous that when the commander and Mariko took my resting heart rates, my systolic was 119. The commander was like, "Woah, is that right?" and looked at me strangely. He scared me. And when he took the test again, it was in the 120s. >_<;; Of /course/ it went up! He scared the shit outta me! Other than that, the mission was okay. Oh, did I mention the bus we took home was /really/ nice? Nicer than the shuttle bus that we took the Center? The bus was air conditioned, had shades, footrests, and a really nice pattern. I normally wouldn't comment on a bus, but compared to the other buses I have been on, this is worth talking about. ^_^ Oh boy, I'm going to bed. Good night! Some Asian food inspired me at 9:22 p.m. Sunday, May 26, 2002 Mable's coming tomorrow! Yesh! I juss wuv widdle babies, yesh i do! ^_^ Watch me, I'll me loaded down with toys when they come tomorrow. I'll do whatever it takes to make Mable happy! I wish you luck nayomeeh. You will survive the little brat! You will! Or else you'll be an embarrassment to me! Now go to that lil girl and don't let her push you over. Does is really matter if her mom won't like you anymore? It's better than letting the runt make your day miserable when she comes over! Remember, you will survive! Yeesh, this reminds me of Diana Ross and the Supremes.... ^^; Eh... sorry, I've had my share of bratty little kids. Some Asian food inspired me at 11:57 a.m. Friday, May 24, 2002 Today was fun! It was the Spring Fling and it seemed water was everywhere. Jeannettee and I went onto the inflatable obstacle course, but we didn't get to race against each other. I did race with another dude and I won! ^^ Afterward we walked around looking at all the other activies. We went to the Chicken Fling and witnessed Aaron N. break his tire tube. I swear, he works out to much. Then Jeannettee and I went into the cash cube. Jeannettee went in for Tiffany and she got 4 out of $5 dollars and a bunch of student store passes. I only got $2 out of 5, but it was fun anywhoo. It was pretty hot, and the three of us were burning to death so we sat in the shade and just talked. Then Jeannettee saw this lonner dude and wanted us to go talk to him. She was stalking him, but he disappeared and we haven't seen him since. nayomeeh, Twister sounded really fun! I wanted to go, but Tiff and Jeannettee didn't wanna go. ;_; and why didn't you tell me there was a swing dance?! XO I woulda loved to go even though I don't know how, but I would learn! Who was there by the way? and nayomeeh, don't forget your boy-free diet! How long has it been now? Two months? But in the end, I think it's a little late in the year to look for a boyfriend. We only have two weeks of school left. ;_; Some Asian food inspired me at 11:15 p.m. Saturday, May 18, 2002 ::sigh:: Bored, bored, bored, bored.... I'm tired of cleaning the house. We're having guests tomorrow, my uncle and his family and a couple who are friends with both of us. The couple has a baby too! ^_^ I just love babies! Mabel's almost a year I think... but she doesn't seem heavy enough to be a year old. Oh well, I'm gonna go find some stuff Mabel can play with. Ta ta! Some Asian food inspired me at 4:46 p.m. Friday, May 17, 2002 Argh!!! The past 3 days have been torture. Ms. Nitta wanted to get to the Civil War on Monday so she gave us two history sections each day to take notes on. Do you know how long those damn notes take me?! AND she gave us history tests every day! Does that sound fair to you? A history test a day for 3 days? I hate the Industrial Revolution... Well, it seemed all the odds were against me yesterday. I had an essay rough to write up, 52 problems on radicals, two history sections to write notes for, and two French exercises. When I came home, I ate, took my ear drops, then FELL ASLEEP!!! I woke up at six and had a panic attack. I did some of my history and finished it up at lunch, wrote my essay late at night, skipped the math assignment, and totally forgot about the French homework. This is the first time I didn't do my French homework and Mrs. Johnson looked surprised when I said I didn't do my homework. >_________<;; Well, at least it's the weekend now. I have a huge Leadership project to finsh, six hours community service to complete, a French assignment to make up, and two lessons of Algebra to do. Woopee.... I'll tell you what though. The highlight of my day today was softball. My P.E class was split up into different teams and it seemed I was teamed with the worst mix of girls. The other team had all the good players, but then it turned out, we're leading 6-0. ^o^ In Science we went out to look at the Sun. We regained our sight after a couple of hours... j/k. ^_^ Mr. Higgins set out his telescopes so we could look at the sun with out burning out our eyeballs. The telescope I'm most interested in it the spectrohelioscope. There are only about 20 amateurs in the world who have these and they are homemade. Mr. Higgins said it took two years for him to build. o_0;; It must be worth a fortune. Only 20 days left of school! ^o^ Then why do I feel so sad? I don't wanna cry at the last day of school, but it seems inevitable... OoOh, how are you feeling Dora? I hope your knee will get better soon. Playing kickball is very fun! Some Asian food inspired me at 05:09 p.m. Wednesday, May 15, 2002 Wow, I'm finally back onto the computer! I haven't had a lot of time to write since there's been a lot of homework. Damn essays..... Mother's Day was not really what I expected. For one, the BBQ did not have any family, but my uncle's co-workers. That wasn't much of a problem since I was on the beach most of the time. Second, I didn't get to make the dessert pie thingy. ;_; Mom said no because I wouldn't have enough time. Third, it was at a beach!!! I thought we would have the BBQ at a forest park or something. The BBQ was a Golden Gate Park. I had so much fun at the beach! ^o^ I was not properly dressed for some fun in the sun, but I think I did pretty well in those clothes. Brendo and I went down to shore and played there for a couple of hours. I took of my shoes, rolled up my pants, and I stayed in the water until I realized when the tide went back in, white baby crabs were trying to crawl over my legs. I ran out shreiking and went in only to wash my hands and feet occasionally. The best part of the day, I think, was the hole I dug. It was a foot and a half deep, and 3/4 of a foot wide. I'm very proud of that hole! I spent most of my day digging that, even when this guy, about 13-15 years stopped and stared at me. ^^; Brendo pointed that out, but at first I didn't really care. Then I realized how dumb I must have looked lying on my belly with my top half inside the sand hole and with my legs only visible. -_-;; Anywhoo, I did not quit digging and that guy went off to play on the seesaw. When we left, I was pretty sad the tide didn't fill it. I had dug it too far away from the shore. Only 6 inches dammit! GrRrr. I thought it would be cool to see it fill up and bring out about a million baby crabs. The baby crabs are about fly sized by the way. But in the tide, I caught one the size of a cherry tomato and threw it to Brendo. It was big, it was tickly, and it tried to burrow into my hand. o_0;; Oh, and this father and his baby filled it all up with sand. ;_; Okay, enough about the hole I dug. Monday was okay, Tuesday was okay, today was tiring. We ran Democracy Day, thought I see no democracy in it, and I ran 10 laps, the required amount. What surprised me though, was that I finished them 5 minutes earlier that usual. Augh! I have a ton of homework.... Hey, Brendo has some Mint Chocolate Ice Cream! Adios, I'm off to get my share! Some Asian food inspired me at 6:10 p.m. Saturday, May 11, 2002 Okay, so that last entry was bit confusing. ^^; I'll explain it much more clearly later if I feel like it. Oh god, my allergies are going haywire on me. Last time I counted, I sneezed nine times in a row. I found out I had allergies last month and I'm pretty disappointed. I want to enjoy nature without having to worry I'm gonna sneeze myself to death... ah well, nature just made her pollen a little too strong for me. Tomorrow's Mother's Day! I still haven't decided what to get mommy yet, but I better think of something soon. I'm going to Golden Gate Park tomorrow for a Mother's Day BBQ with the rest of the family. Yum! Heh, heh, some Mother's Day. ^^; The moms still have to cook all the food and prepare everything... I'm thinking of baking KooKoo's... um... I don't know what it's called. It's a sort of pie filled with walnuts and raisins. It tastes almondy and very good! KooKoo showed me how to make it and gave me the recipe when I was in Washington. I'm afraid to make it since one batter requires 4 sticks of butter. o_0;; I don't want to give my family heart attacks, but I'm gonna make, or try to, that cake, pie thingy for Mother's Day. It's a special occasion. Well, I'm off to do some Algebra! Long division of Polynomials. Yech. >_<;; Some Asian food inspired me at 6:38 p.m. Thursday, May 9, 2002 Today we watched the rest of the documentary of Anne Frank. It was interesting, really, and I learned something that I thought I already knew. And here is what I learned: We all know that Anne Frank was a Jewish girl trapped in the Holocaust. She and her family went to live in a secret annexe above a company. Anne lived there for two years, never taking a step outside during that time. She went through a lot of changes in the Annexe, and she confided these changes and secrets to her dear friend, Kitty, her diary. We all know that her diary is a testament of some of the hell during the Holocaust. And now, millions have read her diary, learning of what she had to go through to be kept from being sent to those horrible death camps. I learned something sort of shocking to me. It may not sound so shocking to you, but it does me. We read Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl in English. We all knew she was a real girl and her diary explained the feelings of a girl growing up during the Holocaust. A part of me knew Anne and her diary was real, yet, another part of me was saying (although I didn't know it at the time), the book was fiction and Anne Frank was not real. In the documentary, I saw pictures of Anne, her family, interviews with her father and her friends, Miep, Lies, and others. I believed she was real, but unknowingly, I really believed she still was fake. Then, in the documentary, I saw some moving footage of her watching a wedding. Something in my mind suddenly realized she was real. I was in a bit of shock. Anne was a living, breathing, feeling girl! And when I finally realized that, a pang hit my heart. It was putting a diary with events in the life of a real girl and I could feel the despair and loneliness she lived through. I think... I think I didn't believe she was real, even when they showed Anne's picture, because she was not breathing, moving, or thinking. They just showed a pretty girl with a smile. But when I saw the moving footage of her... Anne was breathing, moving, and I could see her feelings in her movements and eyes. She had her head resting on her arms, staring dreamily at the wedded couple... It was a bit breathtaking for me... Oh dear, I think my description was too confusing. But I felt I had to write it.... I hope you understood it a little. I think I even barely grasped it... it's a bit hazy for me and hard for me to describe, but I tried my best. ::sigh:: I'm gonna go eat dinner now. Some Asian food inspired me at 09:17 p.m. Wednesday, May 8, 2002 Argh, I'm so tired... I don't think I got enough sleep last night. I was practically falling asleep in French. Luckily Karina poked me and Mrs. Johnson decided to yell at the trouble makers in our class. I don't know, but my eyes kept on hurting. I think my eyes were a bit dry and with the contacts in there, it irritated them even more. In Leadership I didn't even get to touch our new I-mac computer... everybody was crowding around and watching American Pie on it. I've never seen the movie before, and would have been interested in it, but I was tired, it was morning, I had just lost two rounds of Mancala to Nayomeeh, and I wanted to play with the computer. Then, when I got to 1st period, I found my favorite lead pencil was broken. I know I know, why don't you just get another one? Well, I'm terribly sentimental about things and I had that lead pencil almost the whole year. In 4th period, we were supposed to run the mile and I was ready to do it. The weather was perfect too. Then Mr. Rhea had to pop in his purple head and talk to us about the number of complaints he's gotten since the beginning of the year. Oh jeez, like I give a fuck. I had nothing to do with the hundreds of referrals or suspensions he had to look at. He took up all our time and we were so ready to run it. Hmph, when we do tomorrow, it'll probably be breezy and cloudy. I just wanna know this: did I jinx myself or something in the last entry?!?! Some Asian food inspired me at 07:01 p.m. Tuesday, May 7, 2002 We finally turned in our journals to Ms. Nitta. Gosh, that assignment did not turn out like I thought at all. It was so boring and tedious. Well, Nayomeeh and I were planning to redo our school's website. I've been trying to do that since 7th grade, but I never really knew any HTML to help me along. Now that I know a bit and I have Ms. HTML-Know-It-All ^_^ at my side, the website will probably turn out great! I know it's a little late to use it this year, but then I guess we'll make it a gift to our school. God knows Crespi needs a new website. The current one looks like crap. To help us along, Kevin's bringing his laptop to school. ::rubs hands together:: Hehehe, it has Adobe PhotoShop, Paintshop Pro, and Front Page Express on it. My hands are itching to use the programs. And to top things off, Nayomeeh and I can use our school's new i-mac, which looks like a lamp, to search for stuff to put on the site. It has Ethernet!!! At least, I'm hoping Ms. Dornan is gonna let us use the i-mac and Ethernet... She'll probably agree anywhoo to let us do the website. This was the highlight of my day... It's probably gonna be the funnest project I've done all year! Some Asian food inspired me at 05:24 p.m. Sunday, May 5, 2002 Hey! New layout! MUCH better than my first one. This a layout I got from Yaya. I can't remember his site right now, but there's a link to his page on this blog. I like the theme muchly. ^_^ It's so cute! Thanks Jeannettee for showing me this site! Now onto other things... Today is such a nice day! The skies are clear, the sun is shining, and the temperature is just right. Oh, if only this lasts a few more weeks before pre-summer shoves its rays in. Then I can do my homework outside in the sun, on the swinging bench. ::sighs dreamily:: Too bad it's school tomorrow. I'll be shutup in the dim, airless classrooms with Spring Fever. Joy... Ah well, education is more important than a few minutes of sun. Im gonna go do my Algebra homework while I still have this energy. By the way, do you notice I always have Algebra homework? It's because Mr. R always gives homework everyday. No slack. Au revoir! Some Asian food inspired me at 06:42 p.m.