Saturday, December 18, 2004
sigh. haven't updated in quite awhile right? it's becuz i am constantly consumed by the overwhelming piles of work to do, from the english project (i shouldn't complain about that too much, we got an extension), to the u.s. reaction paper. so then... here's another short and sweet entry, for your entertainment ^_~

i didn't realize that christmas is drawing near...VERY NEAR. and with my tight budget, and with no time to order online, i only bought a few presents for my close-friends. if people confront me and ask where is MY present for THEM, i'll give them something when i go to california...

which reminds me, i haven't mentioned that i'm going to CALIFORNIA for christmas. i'll be exchanging gifts under a palm tree! {that phrase would make more sense if i was going to florida. oh well} so from the 23rd to the 31st, i'll be hanging out with all my cuzns, my nephews and neices, my aunts who spoil me rotten XP, along with visiting disneyland, and maybe san fransisco. sigh. so much to do, in such a short amount of time. i can't wait to go, but the only thing i'll be dreading is the plane ride there.
one thing u must know about me, if u don't know already, is that i hate planes with a passion. i can't stand the air and the plane food; i remember a few years ago, i was sitting on the freakin plane from canada to japan in 22 freakin hours. ha, those were the longest 22 hours of my life, spent covering myself over the plane blanket.

ha. i digress. anyway, i shall miss everybody! i'll try and bring back souveniers for all! in addition to my other list of christmas presents to buy in cali.

hmm, i think that's all i'll say for now. at this very moment, i'm typing out my balanced chemical equations for my lab report; it's so tedious when i'm typing out a compound, and i needa change the font size for the subscripts ><

in addition, i'm downloading some dashboard confessional songs. i dunno why, but some songs are enjoyable...

oh, and if u wanna see the ka-razy pictures gracey and i took during jazz's club 16, just click on her xanga, and it should be right there...

Wednesday, December 8, 2004
gasp! this is my first entry...as a SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD! WHAT A BOLD APPROACH!!
i'd like to praise GOD for giving me another year...and this year, i'll LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST! and i know that with GOD, i can do ANYTHING!
BUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

sigh. hoo boi...

so first was jazz's sweet sixteen at la costa del sol, and i invite gracie to come with me. ha ha, sorry mico, but jazz's party DEFINITELY had more pink decorations than yours. hard to imagine right? in addition, gracie and i found it quite funny that she, dad amd i were the only asians in the party; i guess we now know how mike, ben, and lucy felt when they attended my sweet sixteen.
overall it was a really awesome party: jazzmine's friends had no hesitation to get down durrty on the dance floor, there was a DIPPIN DOTS stand, and of course, gracie and i used funny poses over the photo booth.

gracie sleeps over, and was the first one to greet me happy birthday and gave me a (squeals) dnangel dvd of all 26 episodes, plus a spongebob baloon! we watched the first two episodes; unfortunately the english subtitles absolutely SUCK, they never add in the d's of a word, so if a character said "so delicious", the subtitle would be "soelicious", and what's with "pretzel time" and "pretzel letter"? that got us laughing throughout the night. the next day, monika, lissa, and joseph receive their yellow belt in tae kwon do {tito bong: monika, now you can beat up your sister!} then gracie comes with my to church, as we witness the very special SINGING MISSIONARY! his kids are adorable! then during koinonia, i was presented with a birthday cake, with all the kids screaming "you're 17! you're 17! you're 17"...oh no now it's getting stuck in my head

oh and...THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR GIFTS! jessi with the STINKO MAN SHIRT, mom and dad with the HURLEY SWEATSHIRT, saskia with the CHOCOCAT GLOVES, therese with AMAZING PINK BOOTS, mico and the MCFLURRY MAKER, redge and benj with SPIDERMAN 2, mike with the NON SEQUITUR CALENDAR, david with the PAPER FLOWERS (was that really for my bday? lol), monika with the HARRY POTTER PRISONER OF AZKABAN, helsa and heidz with the GAP GIFT CARD, and lucy with the MONEY and RITZ CHIPS. i HEART YOU ALL!
others have informed me that my present will arrive late. don't worry! it's ALL GOOD! i will POST UP MY THANKS once i received them, though i'm still saying that you are not obligated to ^_^

hmm, this birthday description is a bit longer than i planned it to be, so i'll make my driving test part short: i passed. XD want me to tell the whole story? feel free to ask, though i did tell a few people already, and i get the feeling that they weren't listening, and just wanted to see my license. ha ha. i found it funny how everybody i was talking to that following tuesday, everybody knew that i got my license. mr. carey convinced me to show my lisence to him; he complimented my picture and said that his looked horrible. so everyday i'm bugging him to see his license.

argh. my hands have done enough. i still needa do my poem blurbs; MUSCULAR VERBS. who would've thought...

Wednesday, December 1, 2004
hooo boi, haven't updated in awhile. actually, right after black tuesday, i wrote a lotta stuff, but then my stupid comp decided to crash on me, and since then, i was too lazy to re-write my elaborated experience over the thanksgiving weekend...

and i'm not gonna re-write it now here either, so instead, i'm just gonna write a brief lil summary of what's up with my life now, and then. you'll just hafta sit there in suspense as to what WAS the detailed story. HA HA like YOU'D ever do that...><

only reason i'm doing this is 'cuz i just updated my xanga, so i might as well update this thing.

that was a long introduction. let's begin now:

so last thursday was thanksgiving. monika and i wake up at six in the freakin' morning to cook the turkey. cuzn brian comes home and we all have a thanksgiving meal for lunch. right after we watched around the world in eighty days, a cute movie, but...it's jackie chan nonetheless. after eating dinner and cuzn brian leaves, i watch denzel washington's man on fire. it was so awesome and may go down as one of my favorites.

friday. black friday. we invite gracie to come with us to the willowbrook mall. after skimming through borders, and running across the street to the other willowbrook building, we watch the incredibles; an AMAZING and HILARIOUS pixar movie. then i spent most of my coins pathetically playing arcade games XD
so gracie buys me a gt dvd for CHRISTMAS, mom and dad buy me the turqoise hurley sweatshirt i wanted for my bday, and i buy the new hikaru exodus cd. sigh, the cd's not bad, but her japanese songs were MUCH better. anyway, so obviously those things are crossed off my bday catalog list...

um, monday there is not much to say. and same for tuesday. well actually, i studied HARD for the chem test, only to, as always, end up failing ;_;. i lack confidence in myself.
today during english we go to the auditorium and watch our lhs theater's play premier of shakespeare's "midsummer nights dream". i quite enjoyed it, though i found the rockin' faries...a bit overboard.

sigh. yup. that is all i will say. it's very short, cluttered, fragmented, and you can't get any real substance out of it. i have no idea why, i'm not in a real rush, it's probably cuz i just wanna get this done and over with. heh, perhaps throughout the week, i'll improve it. until then, good bye for now.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004
16 minutes before TURKEY DAY!

but first i must say:

tuesday: i was soo sad. in addition to bombing the english in-class essay, and the spanish test...my two most favoritist watercolor students are going on into oil painting, and are switching to a thursday class. *sniff* i wanted to cry when i waved bye. josh and soo-hee. well, soo-hee wasn't there, so i couldn't say goodbye to her, and i realized that josh is obsessed with dragonball z.
when he left, i said "you will be missed", and mrs. z smiled and said "i definitely agree, since you speak to him so lovingly..." *tear*

um. wednesday. today. half day, or as i remarked to jessi, a 50% day.
i quite enjoyed it overall. in precalc, we watched a dvd with the complete set of school house rock. i've learned what an interjection was! wow! hooray! XP
while watching, we ate apple pie. mr. hyman and another student, chris, have this competition as to who can make the best apple pie. fortunately for me, i was able to try both, and honestly, mr. hyman's pie tasted better; however, his pie was stuffed with raisins, and i hate raisins, ever since i chugged a whole box way back in georgia...

siegel's class was interesting. she just returned from her mouth surgery, and couldn't handle standing for three U.S. periods talking endlessly with her mouth aching. to make things easier, she recorded herself, and so our class seated around the tape recorded, listening to seigel's lecture on the early 20's, taking down notes.

ianuzzi's class was great. while we were continuing to emboss our logos, he played family feud on an emulator. now mind you, this game was created in the early nineties, so the characters were poorly designed, and looked out-fashioned too XD. i found it hilarious when we were arguing over what were the typical colors of gloves.

alright. afterschool, i sleep, and then on to ben's house for a get-together; we'll probably won't have another get-together until three weeks or something. after talking and eating two boxes of pizzas, and me attempting to say "my name is ____" in czech, dutch, hebrew, and italian, megan came along and we all watched donnie darko. gosh wat a brilliant movie; in addition to that i heart jack gyllenhaal. poor gracey is freaked out over the demonic bunny ><

hmm, dad's yelling at me to get off this stinkin comp. sigh. i hafta wake up early tomorrow in order to help out cook the turkey. i can't wait till friday...i'm gonna spend ALL my SALARY and SHOP! ><

Sunday, November 21, 2004
wow, this is pretty funny. few people have been telling me that they cannot find my birthday list; they looked over ALL my entries, and my list was not there.
so let me be more specific...-------------------------------------------->
can u see the other grey box that has my alias, adolescence, etc? well, there's one called BIRTHDAY CATALOG...and right beneath it is, a whole bunch of junk i want. i hope that helps ><

sigh. anyway. what a ripoff...monika's holiday fundraising merchandise arrived, including my chocolate covered cookie sandwhiches. simce it costs $15, i expected a truckload of cookies, but once i opened the tin can, there was only ten. >>;. but they're dangerously good, but that doesn't completely make up for the small amount i have.

hoi boi...tomorrow will be my first junior in-class essay. do i have any idea of what to expect from good ol' wittmaack? ha, of course not.

i want these next three days to pass by...now!

Sunday, November 14, 2004
eh...i'm sleepy, so let me be brief:

alright, so i posted up my birthday catalog; rather i should call it my birthday wish list. of course i'm gonna add some more, hopefully ones that are affordable...mostly everything there is so darn expensive, except maybe one or two items. they can all be easily googled.
but of course, ur not obligated to get me anything. heh, i don't really care. if there's something u wanna get that's not on this list, which u think i'll like, then by all means get it...

so friday and saturday i sing and play flute for madison's discipleship now. not too bad, i quite enjoyed myself, though i have this feeling that our audience was quite unmotivated about the whole program {how disappointing}. what i was real happy about was the return of john argo ^_^. he's the man...

for today, i teach the kids for sunday school. lissa and jezreel got me quite annoyed while i was putting together my Garden of Eden, but hey, that shouldn't be suprising. redge, mico, benj, therese, mark, apollo and i take shendz out for a birthday treat to the diner. who could ask for anything better than to eat some more? ha. i'm gaining so much weight.

once i come home i watch johnny depp in secret window. gawd that was such a freaked out movie, but that should be expected, since we are considering a film based on a stephen king novel. {spoiler alert} i was confused at the ending of johnny depp actually being psychotic, but i have just read a critic review on the movie, and so now the whole plot makes more sense; i think i need to ask ben about it tomorrow.

ick. and now this entry has come to a closure. *tear* i am soo lagging behind on my work. ><

Wednesday, November 10, 2004
So i'm reading a huge book filled with langston hughes' selected writings. i thought this one was cool ^_^:
Langston Hughes:
Ballad of Mary's Son
It was in the Spring.
The Passover had come.
There was fasting in the streets and joy.
But an awful thing
Happened in the Spring-
Men who knew not what they did
Killed Mary's Boy.

He was Mary's Son,
And the Son of God was He-
Sent to bring the whole world joy.
There were some who could not hear,
And some were filled with fear-
So they built a Cross
For Mary's Boy

To his Twelve Disciples
He gave them of His bread.
He gave them to drink of His wine.
This is my body
And this is my blood, He said.
My Cross for you
Will be a sign.

He went into the garden
And He knelt there to pray.
He said, Oh, Lord, Thy will be done!
The soldiers came
And took my Lord away.
They made a Cross
For Mary's Son.

This is my body
And this is my blood!
His body and His blood divine!
He died on the Cross
That my soul should not be lost.

His body and His blood
Redeem mine.

Sunday, November 7, 2004
so ends the four-day weekend.

sigh. doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING on thursday and friday was heavenly. i mean, it's been since the summer since i've actually done that...: watching tv till my eyes exploded, playing video games, pig out the pantry, and...[this is the best part] sleeeeeep. ^_^

in addition to watching tv, i re-watched my dragonball z saiyaman saga. oh my GOSH it's SOO GOOD O_O. i seriously got addicted all over again. so now, sadly, as a treat for myself i'm gonna buy some dragonball gt dvds. pwah

so friday youth was at my house. after a simple praise and worship, we watched Shrek 2, which redge brought in. ha ha, pigged out on popcorn, dad's ziti, and chinese chicken. of course, redge brought a whole bag of candy and i kept the reeses ><

saturday? annotated bib in the morning. though of course i was working on my bed, so every five minutes i would lean back and doze off. later in the afternoon i went swimming, and due to exhaustion {didn't eat lunch} i slept for like, three hours. though i could've slept more but i immediately woke up from the doorbell ring of my piano teacher ><
so after typing up the bibliography, i watch day after tomorrow. not a bad movie at all, despite it's flaws of our worlds ice age transformation, and jake gyllenhaal is suprisingly not that bad looking ~_^

sunday, church of course! the friendship of jonathan and david! jessi has confirmed that she thinks of me whenever she sees a banana! and david can life his thighs even when i'm standing on them ^_^;;

ookie that's it for now. i'm not too confident about my annotated bib, and i still needa study the endless vocab for the quiz tomorrow ><

school is so uncool now.

Wednesday, November 3, 2004
eh...forget the last entry. i feel better now.

Wednesday, November 3, 2004
there is something very wrong with me. really.

this afternoon i totally mis-interpreted something mike stated about his afterschool activities, and just an hour ago, mom said she was attending a meeting, and i did not comprehend one freakin wordshe said.

and this is not the first time either. mom was horrified when i dumbly asked where she was going.
i was also yelled at for never put enough effort in things that are REALLY IMPORTANT in my life. i just waste it all either on this freakin computer, or playing video games.
i know she's right, and once she left my room, i was so close to banging my head hard on my wall, and scream out how stupid i am and can be.

what also crossed my mind was this; what do i REALLY wanna do with my life? well yes i want to be a designer, but hell, is my heart really put into it? maybe i'm just caught up in "the moment" or something. i guess the fact that my goals are not concrete, is the reason why i get so irritated when mom and dad discuss my plans for college.

wat i'm typing is b.s. right now. just disregard it after reading it. i suck at expressing my feelings, and i find it pointless. cuz everybody, one way or another, is experiencing the same thing.

flame me all u want. i'm tired.

Sunday, October 31, 2004
my top four all time food (and the like) addictions:
mountain dew
cheeseburgers
recess
swiss miss marshmallow chocolate milk

...and it so happens that lately i've had large consumptions of all four, yet tita flo says i'm losing weight ><
but i'll vouch for what therese said in the car later on: "she's probably saying that your gaining weight on the places which NEED the extra fat" or something of the like...

gosh i need help. i slack off SO MUCH. took me two hours to outline a simple two-page chem chapter, which would ideally take me 20 minutes. so the rest of the 100 minutes, i collapsed and took a nap.
i think it's because i do my hw on my bed, and of course, the temptation to lie back is irrestistably strong. {'irresistably'...when was the last time I used THAT in sentence? o_O}

in addition, i went shopping; convinced mom to buy me the kyou cat and yuki mouse plush animals ^_^ can't beleive it took me one whole summer to decide whether i wanted that or not. i also bought dnangel manga number 4. once i arrived hom i read the first chapter; which was flat out confusing. then again, the whole manga series is pretty wild...

so mom dad and monika go out to the christian book store, and i'm home paraphrasing shakespeare. next thing i know, i'm at mike's house once again, watching beetlejuice. it's an eighty's movie, so i'll forgive the fact that the story plot was just chaotic...in addition to weird.but then again, i hadda miss some parts, cuz mom called me saying my chem lab partner needed some info she forgot to write down.[naturally i didn't have the paper, and said i'd call her back the next day, though it took mom ten minutes to figure that out...]

hmm...this entry seems so..."all over the place"...it's cuz i sorta wanna rush this...i don't feel comfy doing this at 12:44 AM on the midnight of october 31.

or is it 11:44? darn you daylight savings...

Wednesday, October 27, 2004
an interesting question asked by one of my kids during yesterday's watercolor class:

{name changed} dan: are you happy?
me: excuse me?
dan: are you happy here?
me: well yeah...why not
dan: i dunno...cuz it seems like you are sad *turns and walks away* [literally]

heh, well i didn't mind. he's only in fifth grade, though i kinda go freaked out O_O

hmm...last night i stayed up till one-thirty finishing my approach paper and an early study for chem, yet when i woke up i was WIDE awake. yeesh...

i take that back. i was actually very tired, but i guess after i received my pre-calc test, my highest score so far, my grade was raised to an A- ^_^. yeah, i guess that boosted my morale for the day.

spanish honors society induction presentation. sigh. as nardone said, THE PROCEDURE WILL NOT WORK. we were all crammed on the auditorium, talking like crazy while doctora hubert-friscia yelled at us to step up front when our names were called. well that wasn't my fault, nardone and i were all the way in the back, surrounded by all these tall people, so according to us, our names called was just a muffled sound. {okay about being surrounded by tall people...that's just me} anyway, the cermony's tomorrow, and my only disappoinment is that the spanish candles given to us are yellow (i wanted orange or red! ><), and if we were as disorganized as we were practicing today, the candles would already melt in our hands before we say our pledge.

ha ha...i'm writing nonsense once again. i gotta get to it and STUDY.

Saturday, October 23, 2004
oh my gosh.

for four school days in a row i woke up sometime around four a.m., rising up from my bed and silently scream in pain at the sudden killer cramp on my left leg. heh, i gues that's weird enough to say, cuz every night at that same time i'm usually half-awake, and shifting to that same position, triggering the cramp. then when i wake up in the morning, i would have the pain aftermath, resulting in me limping to the kitchen.
i finally asked doctor dad what this was all about, and he said that the cramp is a cause of lacking certain minerals, and advised that i eat more bananas. @_@
well i guess that's what i deserve for not eating lunch until four p.m.

sigh. that was weird. for some reason, i told ben my cramp story, and he said he had that before also. he and i should defnitely go on a banana eating spree ^_^

anywayz, today mom informed me that i will be attending a college preparation workshop. of course i was pissed that she and dad didn't tell me earlier, cuz i set that whole afternoon for chem work {in which, i am very behind ><}. i don't know why i get so irritated when mom asks me what are my college plans. i dunno whether i don't wanna talk about it, or i deep down inside, i just don't know...
anywho, it was a power presentation, and wat i was most interseting in was that the better you do at school, the more money your saving. he showed an example on a kid who had 3.10 GPA average, and was able to earn over $5,000. then the lecturer also talked about financial aid, a "secret that colleges have been keeping from us". that was most helpful. thing is, in order to be a part of the program, they will give me a software and practice tests, so that i can study on my own, and call up coaches {who live in texas} to give me info on any colleges. that's great and all, but where would i find the time? ><. mom and dad said that they'd be my coaches instead...

last thing: parallel parking! it's a shame i haven't practiced sooner, cuz my test is like, a little over a month away (now that i think about it...wow ;_;). dad and i lacked cones, so we used our garbage can. fortunately when we arrived at the church to practice, there was a grill bar set on the side. i found a cone near the shed, so i placed it on top to see. the garbage wasn't tall enough so dad stood in place of it. heh, parallel parking's not that bad. i was able to get it after ten-ish tries. i'm releived that dad's patient with me, though i think his heart leaped when i hit the curb. heh, well a few more practices, and i'm sure i'll be fine.

eeks! gotta go! i needa watch jude law on snl! XP

Saturday, October 16, 2004
hoi boi. got LOADS of hw to do. and did i do most of it? of course not...

PSATS. not as bad as i thought it would be, considering i was up all night doing the practice test, and then lying awake for about an hour or so, pondering on how to do a certain easy open problem for math. problem was, my mind's usually all jaded on saturday mornings, so it was difficult to think.

after those long hours passed by, mike, gracey, lucy ben, nat {oh my gosh he got a haircut} and i skidaddled to lucy's house. her kitchen and basment had just been redone, and it was dropout GORGEOUS. her mom made sloppy joes and salad, though we didn't eat till two-ish...we were busy admiring lucy's basment, and sat down in the tv room to talk as usual, while i'm hogging the couch, resting my legs on lucy, then grace, then mike, then geoff (who arrived after his soccer game, ALSO with a haircut), but instead of my legs on him, he sat on my legs, making me crack my knee. {why does this sound so WRONG? heh don't worry, it's not} i got addicted to lucy's tasteless bubbly ridgey chips...ha ha, then we all went back downstairs to watch some spanish "caliente" TV {gracey trying to censor any dancing girls, but they were everywhere!}. eventually, we watched MONDO MAGIC, which deals with two street-guys randomly going up to people and performing AMAZING card tricks. after that show was over, we watched another one of the notorious, RONCO cooking inventions. a 25 KNIFE SET FOR THREE EASY PAYMENTS OF $13.33 ha ha. that advertising is classic.

sigh. so much for fun. i come home and greeted my endless pile of hw. at least i completed my surrealist artwork for spanish, but i can't ignore that lovely u.s. reading, english paper, hamlet reading, chem lab, and spanish presentation...woo hoo!

meaning i won't attend worship service tomorrow ;_;. I miss you guyz...

Friday, October 15, 2004
alright. so being the fool i am, i created a layout after archiving. heh...black and white, and song is RAINBOW. it's under construction, but it will hafta do for now...

hmm...so what's been going on today in my world...

highlight of the morning: i got a B on the english test!

highlight of the noon: julie and i sorta ditched commercial graphics to talk outside to carey, who was sitting all alone in the middle of nowhere, doin his lil hall duty thing ^_^ {we came to visit so we can see our tests...and as predicted, i did quite poorly ><}

we were talking about our testalation project...julie even said: "You know it's when u cut both sides of a piece of paper and then flip them over to the other side and tape it and then..."
carey cocked an eyebrow, and looked panicky as he said "wat the hell are u talking about?"
so julie and i scrambled back to comm graphics class, got out our cut-outs and poster, then demonstrated to carey, the technique in creating a testalation. then julie showed him samples of her cutouts, asking for advice on what her cutouts looked like. sadly though, he suggested one cutout looked like a guy screaming with an ax cutting the back of his head. then julie suggested that another cut-out looked like an alien mixed with a submarine. XD soon ianuzzi peeked out the hallways and yelled for me and julie to come back in.

carey needs more entertainment once in awhile. and i love julie ^_^

another highlight? ianuzzi felt so bad when i told him that i'm the kind of loser that doesn't take a lunch or a study, so he said i'll be the only exception that can pig out in his class... ha ha

enough rambling. i gots some PSAT studying to do!

Sunday, October 10, 2004
new archive, number 21. as you can see, nothing changed, except a new clean space to add more entries, and a change of midi. Moments by Ayu, and parts of the lyrics is imprinted on top...

thursday: took me three hours to create a proper cineplex layout for ben. thank god jeff loved it. now i hafta attend a newspaper meeting on monday AND thursday. actually, i have i also have a spanish honors society meeting on tuesday...so i'm really word when jian and i can finish our spanish project on clemente orozco: known for his political views, and his ability to capture the dehumanization of the metropolis and the mexican revolution, and paint it on a mural...his painting style scares the heck out of me...

friday night i had pains. girls would understand. mom said to skip out youth and just sleep. i told mom i'd feel guilty if i didn't go...but she's more concerned of the fact that it's far away. i'm sorry guyz...

all of saturday morning and noon i worked my butt off on hw. i have no idea how i'll graph my chem density lab results. microsoft excel is not cooperating...and i really have no idea how to process it.
saturday night was another bday party at mike's house. once again, i was ridiculed of my southern backround ><, though nat's comment was so rude, all of mike's jokes now seem less offensive *sigh*. while we were eating ben watched the yankee game, which they won...i hope that means we get no hw for hyman ~_^
then after eating and unwrapping presents (i gave mike a collection of Loose Parts, though mike is convinced there's a bomb in one of the pages) we watched ace ventura while i lied back on his all-too-comfy sofa, with geoff sitting on my legs...><
overall it was fun. too bad i hadda leave a lil' early...

aww...no more hangouts next week. PSATS. eww...

i should be getting to sleep. i needa wake up early and get dressed all before 7:15 tomorrow. oh man...usually by that time, i finish creating my peanut butter and jelly breakfast, then bring it over to my room to munch on while listening to Elvis and the Z Zoo while staring in space... heh...