Tuesday, July 30, 2002

correction: gbook starts to work when i think its not. so. its functioning. yep. today has been one of those self-reflective, thinking days. the kind fueled by pms and everything around you seems so fake and you realize that you've been living in your own world and not giving a damn about anything else. i feel like crap, ive done some thinking/crying etc. i know ive made some mistakes. well, many mistakes and i have no argument to justify myself. im accepting my failures and im trying to be more responsible. i have a couple new goals. 1. regulate my sleeping hours. 2. spend less hours on the computer. 3. do more productive things like cleaning my room. 4. just overall try to be a better person. i guess you can say i just wanna get out of my little bubbly world. i cant control everything, and often times, i cant be as picky as i want to be. shit. its about time. posted at 04:42 p.m.

Monday, July 29, 2002

hey folks. just to tell ya. my guestbook isnt working right now. so. heh i guess you have to keep all your comments to yourself for a while. but, lol if you just are bursting to tell me something, you can email me. ok? *wink* posted at 02:49 a.m.

Saturday, July 27, 2002

hush hush now. im back. :) hehe sorry for the time of "WHAT?! SHE DIDNT WRITE SOMETHING NEW AND WITTY FOR ME TO READ!!". heh. sorry, feeling a bit egotistical there. narcissistic, if you like that word better. well i have quite a bit to say, so bear with me ok? last weekend was spent on a short mini vacation in san francisco, visiting my mom and just helping her move to her new apartment(for those who are not enlightened, no my parents are not separated, my mom just works there, ok? all clear?). we spent about 3 days, 3 nights there and of course there was the shopping, eating, etc :). i think i have to like make a side page or something documenting my travels, cuz it was a pretty jam-packed weekend. and im proud to say i did write down most of the stuff we did, and took some pictures here and there, just so i wont forget anything. the sad part is that, well just before we were to leave to drive back home, we got a call saying my grandma(dad's mom)in singapore had passed away. it wasn't a suprise, or something totally unexpected, she had gone into a critical condition the week before, and well. the funeral should be just a couple hours over by now. my mom and dad flew home to attend the wake and funeral, and my bro and i are left here. and because we are here, its almost as if she hadnt died. so i dunno, i dont really feel anything. but i feel bad that im not. anyhow, on a lighter note. im going to tell you how much i detest those TELEMARKETERS. theyre those annoying people who call you up, and ask you to buy some new product, or if you have a cracked windshield or something. (sidenote: if i had a cracked windshield, i wouldnt sit around waiting for someone from a glass replacing company to call ME, i would call THEM and have my windshield replaced asap. doesnt that make sense?) well anyway, yesterday this guy calls the house, and this it how it kinda went. me: hello? him: [pause] (I HATE HOW THEY DO THIS TO CHECK IF ITS AN ANSWERING MACHINE) me: hello???? him: hello, we would like to inform you that your family has been chosen to test our state of the art home security system for free! me: sorry, we already have a security system him: oh but our system is state of the art. me: ook. but we already have one, and we're quite happy with it. him: do you know if your security system is one of ours? me: i have no idea him: well how about you give us a time so we can send one of our employees to show you the system? me: (most people would have hung up a long time ago, but i feel to mean) well. no thats ok, like i said we're pretty happy with our system him: well why dont you try ours out and compare them me: no thats ok, i cant make decisions for the house anyway. him: may i ask how old you are? me:(comtemplating saying 65 or like 8) uh.(pause) 16. him: okay, well would you like to give us a time? me: no. him: but our system is state of the art, you have never seen anything like it. me: OKAY. YOU KNOW WHAT? WE HAVE A SYSTEM, WE'RE HAPPY WITH IT AND STOP BEING SO DAMN PERSISTANT!!!!! *click* ARGH! DOH, he pissed me off so much!. thats not even the whole thing, i cant remember what else he was talking about. i think if youre trying to be a salesperson, the worse thing to do is to annoy the customer. FAT lot caller ID does. sure, i sound like a bitch for doing that. but hey, if i didnt tell him to piss off it would have gone on for a longer time. NOW. my point in allllll of this, is that there is a commercial from this snickers crunch bar, that has a telemarketer calling a man at 6am and the idiot says its 8am in cleveland, and the man actually flies to cleveland and goes to the office and takes the telemarketer guy's phone number finder thing and slams it on the floor and stomps on it. *deep breath* yeah, thats what i was thinking of doing while talking to that !@#@@!*$&@!%#(!@#!@$(@ man. I AM A TELEMARKETERS WORST NIGHTMARE! pahahahha! posted at 01:42 a.m.

Sunday, July 14, 2002

hmm. since everyone is doing these little quizlets. :) i decided its time to follow the crowd. well. just this once ok? hahahhahaa. besides, this was too cute to pass up. which cuteness are you? I'm Hyper-Cute!! made by Jen Loud and Wild! Follow the leader? Like you have time 4 that! Super peppy and everyone's friend, you love social interactions and have the bubbly personality for it! posted at 10:25 p.m.

Wednesday, July 10, 2002

hehe found one :) on the love side.... do you like someone now: no one in particular do u have a boyfriend/girlfriend: negative Have u ever cheated on someone: nope do u believe in true love: like a sappy doe-eyed girl, yes. do u believe there's true love for everyone in this world: sure, but you have to find the person first, ya know? do u believe in love: yup if u could marry anyone in the world who would it be: like ANYONE? ooh. can i have 2? mark mcgrath and hayden christensen. :slurp: do u have a new crush every week: i could, if there was an excess of guys. on the favorite side....... person: mom, bro, all my friends. band: new found glory, sugar ray, etc. time of day: 8) night. Dessert: ice cream, strawberries and cream meat: beef. actor: hayden, elijah, etc. actress: i like the olsen twins athlete: dont have one. person to talk to online: i like talking to everyone! website: alloy.com, laundromatic.com, & mtv.com cartoon: hmm. dont really have one. superhero: spiderman. mmm. movies: road trip, 10 things, both american pies, star wars, spiderman, scooby doo, shrek, lilo and stitch, ETC!!! song: SO many!. i could go on forever. rapper: not really into the rap scene. but nelly and jarule i guess. video game: i like watching my bro play em. max payne was cool, and so was metal gear, and spiderman. tv show: real world, anything on mtv, or disney:). and so little time with the olsen twins. font: i have this one called funky that i really like. place to hang out: mall? jillians? football teams: dont really like football. basketball teams : or bball college: uhm. ucsd. state: cali.(san diego..mmmm) or hawaii country: what can i say? *wink* singapore jewel: diamonds? sapphires and amethysts too. flower: roses, sunflowers, ahh, the whole damn lot. car: :) hehe so many. mustangs, eclipses, supras, celicas, rsx's, ETCC!! on the future side........ future job: uhm. tough question, pass. future college: id like somewhere in cali. how many kids do u want: bout 2.. or 3 maybe. boy names: hayden. i reeeeally like that name. girl names: riley. would u rather have a boy or a girl: at least one of each. where do u want ur honeymoon to be: hawaii? somewhere exotic. or relaxing. BEACH. gotta have the beach. wedding: either REALLY big, or REALLY small. indoors, cuz if outdoors, theres bugs and all. ugh. where do u want to live: depends on the dude too, ya know. on the beliefs side........ aliens: perhaps. ghosts: good ones. cows from outerspace: HELL YEAH! love: :) yes hate: sadly, yeah. luck: or fortune? both, i guess. what do you think of... surveys: this ones looong. chain letters: pain in the ass.takes time to delete them. men: mmm! women: can be hardcore bitches. dating younger people: preferably not, but hell, depends on the guy. older people: most def. teen driving: scary! you dont wanna be near me. dating: :sigh: hugs: YES PLEASE. i give good hugs. want one? sharks: aaaagggghhhhhhhh! chinese food: mah culture, of course its damn good. white rappers: rofl. dating people different then ur own race: sure. school shootings: really sad. prez bill clinton: haha. ex prez, dontcha think? on the friends side..... who brags the most: hmm. hard to say. robyn? who do u spend the most time with: ash and kt. who is the smartest: meg, no doubt. stupidest: me? rudest: depends on the hormones. happiest: rofl me? im a happy ray of sunshine in this otherwise bleak world!! saddest: hmm. no one i can think of. who is always there for you: all of them. who do u tell all ur secrets to: my friends and diary.(does that count?) who is ur best friend (same sex): i dont have ONE. ash, kt, robyn, april, meg. who is ur best friend (opposite sex): sammie, or best online friend would be nate, i guess. who is ur overall best friends : DUDE. SEE ABOVE. snobbiest: i dont really have any SNOBBY friends sluttiest: hohoho. rather not say. who will be married 30 times: ash. who will have about 20 kids: april. who will never get married: the way things will go? prolly me :( on the dis or dat side....... peanut butter/jelly: neither. ocean/pool/lake: ocean. BEACHH!!!! flares/widelegs/straight/capris/shorts: flares. pink/blue/yellow/purple/orange/brown/gray/black: all but brown. cold/hot: depends. some like it HOT. ;) nite/day: night. superman/batman: suuuupppperrrmannnnn! korn/limpbizket: limp bizkit! GET IT RIGHT. country/rap/rock/pop/jazz/r&b/other: pop and punk. love/hate: llooooooooooove tv/radio: tv lately. music videos/radio: MUSIC VIDS!!!!!!! do you think is better christina, brittany, mandy, jessica, or hoku: gotta go w brit. (spell it right, its BRITNEY) who do you think is more talented nsync, bsb, 98*, 2gether, BBmac, weslife, your mom, hanson, or 5ive: talented? MY MOMMA! on the WOULD YOU EVER side... ~~~~~~~~or have you already~~~~~~~~ skinny dip: haha i might. drink milk,pop,salt,mustard,ketchup,mayo,and pepper: uh.how can you drink pepper? i pick soda. kiss the same sex: HEEYYAALL NAW. kill yourself: stupid, i hope i never. get plastic surgery: dont think so. would feel too fake. get a tattoo: :) i want one. hawaiian flower on my lower back. get your private parts pierced: OUCH! never. cyber: HAHAHA! never. make ur own survey: lol too much of a slacker. drink so much you puked: not yet. get high: not for me. eat duck: :quizzical look: already have. have you ever... 01. fallen for your best friend?: . w a diff best friend, and it was really bad timing. 02. made out with JUST a friend?: no. lol wouldnt mind. 03. been rejected?: yes, plenty. im going to reconcile with my loser self one day. 04. been in love?: yeah, but theyre not with me. well, might not have been LOVE though. 06. used someone?: dont think so, ack hope not! 07. been used?: i think so 08. cheated on someone?: no 09. been cheated on? not so. 10. been kissed?: :) still waiting. hehe. 11. done something you regret?: oh of course, silly. do you... 22. colour your hair? too much. like, maniac-ly dyeing all the time. 23. have tattoos? no 24. piercings? yeah, ears. want upper ear and belly button tho. 25. have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? :deja vu: think i answered this already. 26. floss daily? i should! 27. own a webcam? no, but digicam, yes. 28. ever get off the damn computer? i will, im sleepy now. 29. sprechen sie deutsche? haha no i dont speak german. 30. habla espanol? claro que si! 31. quack? only on special occasions. have you / do you... 32. stolen anything? unintentionally. didnt find it till i got home. 33. smoke? no 34. smoke pot? no 35. crack? no 36. drink? i have, but not regularly. 37. been so drunk you couldn't remember your name? haha not yet. 38. been so drunk you didn't care that you couldn't remember your name? lol 39. posed for nude pics? ew. no. sorry to disappoint? 40. considered a life of crime? haha, no 41. considered being a hooker? NO 42. considered being a pimp? lol. if only! 43. split personalities? sometimes seems like it. 44. schizophrenic? no. dont think so. 45. obsessive? no 46. compulsive? no 47. obsessive compulsive? i have a thing w washing my hands. 48. panic? well if something goes wrong, yeah. 49. anxiety? no 50. depressed? certain days. 51. suicidal? NO 52. obsessed with hate? NO omg scary 53. dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? ?!?! NO, THATS SICK! 54. dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? WTH. [this is hereby titled OTHER] 55. if you could be anywhere, where would you be? hawaii, san diego or singapore 56. who would you be with? all my friends. 57. what would you be doing? laughing. juz having fun. 58. what are you listening to? right now? mp3s on the compie. its sheryl crow--"soak up the sun" right now. 59. can you do anything freakish with your body? freakay?? uhm. i can get freakay while dancing, ahh yeah. :) 60. chicken or fish? both. 61. do you have a favourite animal, no matter how lame it may be? tigers. dogs arent lame. 62. is icecream the best thing in the world? ICE CREAM?!?! i mean, of course. how can it not be? yum :D in fact, i want some now! whew posted at 12:08 a.m.

Tuesday, July 9, 2002

hmm. my hair is getting really long and irritating. felt like chopping it off last night. takes a long time to dry and i dunno.:chopCHOPchop:. haha, no, it would take alot for me to cut it all off. well anyway, on saturday, we went shopping at chandler mall, and wow, that place is HUGE! first time i was ever there, but i got my jeans that ive been oogling at for a while now. i should go take a picture of them. dark blue but with the fading light blue on the thighs and knee area, with those whisker thingys. :) i also got a pair of track pants. black w pink stripes down the side. im v. happy :) been trying to find a nice survey for my bored self to fill out, but i cant seem to find one i like. *sigh* audio::kylie minogue--"love at first sight" posted at 11:55 p.m.

Saturday, July 6, 2002

i finally found this poem that i heard a classmate read aloud in class. The Wishing Star by Sarah Poet "Stars are made for wishing on" My very best friend told me So I gazed upon an October night's sky And I picked the brightest star I could see I named my star Karen A very special name Now that this star had a title She was all mine to claim I thought about what I wanted Something that I could wish for But as I thought about my wish I realized Into this process should go much more Karen should know my thoughts Behind each and every wish So before I made my wish that night I told to Karen this I could wish for money Because my family is very poor However to be rich, money is not a necessity A person needs so very much more I could wish for that special boy to like me And say those three little words But love is a much more sacred link That comes on a path with thousands of curves I could wish to be famous To be someone other than myself But self worth is measured by much more than Having the most trophies on your shelf Instead I want to be rich in spirit Sound in soul and mind I wish that when I see the pot at the end of the rainbow Character is what I will find Instead I wish for understanding And courage in matters of love I pray I'll meet the special someone And through tough times we will rise above Most of all I wish for the ability to know and like Who I am and what I have become to be And I ask that you help me realize That I am special even if that's not what I always see I thanked Karen for listening to My wishes and my dreams And there she is shinning bright No matter how dark it seems Karen listens to all I say Even though she live in a world so far But no matter where either of us end up living She will always be my wishing star posted at 12:50 a.m.

Friday, July 5, 2002

it figures that if i change the layout of this blog, it'll trigger more gbook msgs than ive gotten in like 4 months? hahaha, amusing, but im not complaining. :) according to humanforsale.com im worth exactly $1,838,436.00. and just the other day i got tagged as $12 at my volunteer place... im at the gift shop in the hospital, and this guy cj priced me for that amount. i guess things can change over a period of a couple days, eh? haha. anyways. got back from the shopping trip. i spent the gift certificate from ash. it was for ulta, which is like a makeup haven. just my place :). heh, got my mascara. maybelline great lash, in the funky pink and green tube. well i figure since its been around for so long, that its got to be good right? well ill let it go for a trial and we'll see how it does. also got some lipgloss(tastes like strawberry frosting.. yum!), liquid eyeliner(always wanted to try that stuff), eyeshadow pencil(peachy colored), concealer and a new blush(called pink tangerine!). yay!. see? i am a girly girl after all. i heart makeup. posted at 11:56 p.m.

Thursday, July 5, 2002

ahoy! finally got a new layout up and running. its actually completed now. and kudos to you if you got to see it when there were still some funky colors and when it was unfinished. and, if you have a 1024 x 768 resolution, then yay for you cuz you get to see the nifty sidebar on the right. just looks cute afterall. hehe i like my lil blinking name thingy(aka a blinkie). i guess after the doll phase, i got into the blinkies. its something to waste time away at the computer :). took me a while to learn how to make em and such. :D allrighty. should be going shopping w the fam in a bit. :grin:. audio::freelance hellraiser--"a stroke of genius" (its actually a bootleg remix, the tune of a song, but vocals of another. this one has The Strokes playing, and Christina A. singing genie in a bottle, hence... a stroke of genius) posted at 06:09 p.m.

Thursday, July 4, 2002

oh yeah. i also got 2 tanks from my grandma. hehe so adorable, theyre from giordano and theyre red, white and blue :D. so to show my waning patroticism, im wearing one right now, just to be nice. hehe and of course, of all things, i will forget to mention that i just got my permit. so well, i can drive with an adult next to me. in 5 months i can get my license.(and drive on my own). guess i have to actually learn how to drive now. how scary. *thinks of that one driving escapade.. * hi boonsie! posted at 05:52 p.m.

Thursday, July 4, 2002

happy fourth o july! well lil holly is spending the day at home, despite an invitation to go watch fireworks tonight. i just cant get off my lazy bum to go. well i mean i would love to, but then i think of getting ready etc etc and im like. forget it. i think its gonna take alot for me to actually motivate me to DO something. well, on to other issues rather than my lethargy problem. mom finally came home last night. havent seen her in 3 weeks. :D but it was strange though. no, not my mom coming home, but the fact that the night my mom comes home, one of my best friends leaves for her real home. yeah. ash is south african, so shes goin back for a month. i mean i know shes gonna have a fantastic time there and seeing her old friends and all that good stuff, its just that, im gonna miss her so much. one month! my other bud, kt, has gone to kentucky to take care of her lil sis, for a month too. i think ive mentioned it before. but like. DAMN. nobody to call, nobody to go shopping with, nobody to talk about nonsensical rubbish with. *sigh*i hope this month goes by fast. mom brought back quite a bit of stuff from singapore:my fav spray stuff of all time... impulse :), gifts from my relatives(mostly jewellry from perlinis. so cute, i have like a bijillion bracelets on my arm, well fine. 4)and some chinese candy stuff. hehee. i know i dont believe in horoscopes, but they are so darn interesting to read, dont you think? this is from alloy.com. Cancer Hey, hot stuff! You're the biggest charmer in the zodiac this week, Crab. Not only are you surrounded by hotties, but everyone is literally MESMERIZED by your witty stories, sexy style, and as we mentioned before, undeniable charm. Enjoy the spotlight! by jove, if only! posted at 04:23 p.m