Thursday, November 14, 2002

hehe im at ash's house right now and just felt like being dumb and saying hi. HI. posted at 05:38 p.m.

Sunday, November 10, 2002

wow. its about time i wrote something here. its been a while, but you have no idea how busy ive been. so busy i havent been sleeping. i was averaging about maybe 4 hours of sleep per night. bleh. not good. but anyway. good news and bad news. the good news is that the play is over, and we performed 3 nights, it was great and wow, i have so many good memories, i had the time of my life, you could say. i love you guys! my first production, and the best ever. :) i know so many new people and i brought a disposable cam to the cast party, cuz i forgot the digital camera. so at least im gonna have real pics. :) bad news is. the christmas dance is about a month away. and everyones already beginning to look for dates. *argh*. hate this time of the year, i really do. ash is lucky. again she has a bf and she doesnt have to worry about searching for a date. and then theres me. [picky] me will not be able to find a date. BLAH. pain in the ass. anyway i dont wanna think about it anymore, cuz ill start ripping my hair out or something. speaking of my hair. im gonna cut my hair soon. and im wondering how i should get it cut. *ponders*. i wont cut it super short. maybe to a little below my shoulders, but right now its a bit longer than midback. i should take a picture, hmm. well i have to go do my hw, and catch up on all the work i havent had a chance to do because of the play. whew. im glad its over cuz that means no more rehearsals and such, but im sad too, cuz ill miss the whole cast and crew as a whole. *sigh* how bittersweet. posted at 06:39 p.m.

Friday, October 25, 2002

i should be getting to bed soon, but i just wanted to make a quick update. i managed to get out of the whole rally chairperson thing, which is great, so im not completely stressed out. but wow, the next couple of weeks are gonna be so hectic. homecoming is next friday, and we still have to complete our billboard. and well yeah theres the dance too. and my friends are deciding whether or not to dress up together as a group. the theme of homecoming is Totally TV. kinda messed up but oh well. so we have to dress up as people from tv. haha wouldnt you like to see me dress up as kelly osbourne? some people have told me i should go as mulan.. and then of course scrubs would be great, or friends. OR SOMETHING! i need ideas! we might just go decontruct some teeshirts and paint stuff on them. oh, what do you think of going as ninja turtles? i think the shells would get in the way :D. ANYWAY. ashley and i are gonna go to the football game tomorrow, yay! i love football games bc they=socializing. theres some people i wanna see too, but i guess ash might be busy with her new bf. ;) yah anyway, the play is in 11 days. SHIT! its coming closer and closer and we're running out of time and we keep changing parts of the scenes, and DOH. i dont know if im gonna be ready. i have most of my lines memorized, which is kinda weak. lol because i dont have that many, and i should have em all down by now. and then nov 15 is Junior Prayer Day, which is basically when all the juniors go and chill out as a class, but we have meditation and stuff like that too. its good bc we dont go to school and we get our class rings.. YAY. but its bad because student council has to come up with a skit. argh!. lol good things bad things. my chem class is getting so difficult. ugh. polyatomic ions and other bs. YUCK. so, anyone wanna buy a ticket to the play? just 5 bucks. :) posted at 12:46 a.m.

Thursday, October 17, 2002

hmm. so today i told april i actually have this blog/journal thingy, and i wrote it down for her to go check it out too. hi apey, if youre reading this! well, i dont go advertising i have this because im not sure i want the whole world to know what im saying, and also i have a problem with keeping my mouth shut, so if i ever say anything mean alluding to any person whatsoever, disregard it, im probably just ranting. so today was supposedly supposed to be a lucky day for me. it was, but also, not really either. but, thats just for me and a few people to know. hmm. well i got a message on my phone today, and the girl who left the message said that i was chosen to be one of the two chairpersons in charge of the National Honors Society (NHS) food drive rally. GRREATT. i know exactly why they chose me and i know exactly why i wont have much time to myself for the next few weeks. well i know i was chosen because when we won the rally a couple weeks back, i guess you could say im all for the class spirit/school spirit thingy and i just go nuts at rallys. wellllll. apparently they noticed that and lo and behold. im in charge of a rally now? not even a fun rally either, its for a CANNED FOOD DRIVE. and. how am i gonna get the whole school enthused enough to bring in canned food for the charity drive? i have to come up with a skit. and most probably half the school will think its a dumb idea and who gives a f**k about canned food. ARGH!. and i dont have THAT much time on my hands, considering i have so much stuff to do like student council and NAHS(national art honor society) and the PLAY, for heavens' sakes. and the stress is killing me already, and throw on a couple AP and honors classes with the homework load, and FRIGGIN HOMECOMING IS COMING(dont mind the pun) UP, and we have to billboards for them, instead of floats cuz my school is f-ed up. and then the christmas dance is coming up too. and that equals NEEDING : a date, a dress, tickets etc etc. and of course lil me cant find date easily, heaven forbid i mention why. oh and thats just a smidgen of the things that have been racing through my brain today. theres so much more but im so not in the mood to type it all out and piss myself off and not do my homework. and my moms in london right now attending her best friends funeral. isnt that just a happy picture now. and in the play, i think in f-ing up. i have no talent and i dont know what im doing and i dislike my character now because he cant talk normally and i have to do it in a stupid stereotypical asian accent that ive never HAD, and never will, and its not coming along as well as id like it to. argh. *collapses into heap on floor* posted at 09:55 p.m.

Saturday, October 12, 2002

ive had a really topsy turvy week, and i finally have time to sit down and relax by my computer with music playing and stuff. but the problem is that im in a depressed mood. not superly depressed, but reasonably enough to get me listening to sappy songs. well this week basically has been in the routine of : not enough sleep, school, play rehearsal (EVERY day this week, it suckedddddddd), homework. not good, its getting a bit taxing on my body, and im not coping very well. i should be sleeping now actually. anyway, on to the topic at hand. i SHOULDNT be depressed, because usually i would think i had a good week, because mainly, ive made many new guy friends, and its been something ive been wanting for a while. those that know me really well know that since ive moved here i havent had very much guy friend contact. so yeah that SHOULD be a good thing. and i know it too, but just somehow.........its almost like im being ungrateful for this new sudden friend making time. because i feel it could be better? i dont know how to describe it.its just, i feel like i deserve more, but still, i should be glad for whats happening? argh. hard hard hard to explain! but then again, thats not all, there are other undisclosed reasons to why im not feeling as peppy as usual. yeah well and my muscles are aching like no other, because we had to set up the stage for the play, and its an outdoor stage, so we had to carry piece by piece in and put it all together. and part of that setting process i was feeling like crap, and i think only one or two people really know why. so to cheer myself up, ive painted my nails. they look quite nice, i must say. a very natural looking light pink. oh btw, if i havent mentioned. im going through the phase of girly girly GIRLY-NESS! which is a nice change for me cuz im usually all for the comfort thing, but hey, be proud of me! im wearing skirts and ruffly tops. so yeah. i feel like the guy in the blockbuster commerical.. "IM A PREETTY LADY!!!!" its ok if you dont get the joke, most of my friends dont, guess ive been watching too much tv then, eh? posted at 10:44 p.m.

Thursday, October 3, 2002

Cancer The stars have spun the big love wheel of fate and chosen YOU as the most fascinating and irresistible vixen in the zodiac this week, Crab. Lucky you. So, when you're surrounded by hordes of really cute guys hanging on your every word, thank us. OK, thank the cosmos, but thank us too, 'cause we're the ones who told you! from: Alloy.com its things like that that make me really question if horoscopes are really "real" or not. well, i think theyre so fun to read and when they really come true, or when they talk about things that actually happen, is it just one big coincidence? because, true to that horoscope, i have met quite a few boys this week, and its been much fun! just a little bit of freaky, if you ask me. anyway. ive got lots of homework to do, so i guess today's revelation is itsy bitsy tiny short, ya? audio:: Lifehouse- "Spin" posted at 09:55 p.m.

Monday, September 30, 2002

neh. well im much better now, and im almost finishing my antibiotics, so i should be all fine and dandy in couple of days. oh and a useless piece of info for ya, i FINALLY figured out how to swallow pills/vitamins etc. yeeah, i know its pathetic, but hey, i could never do it, and im very proud of myself. homework is killing me as usual, ive turned into a full fledged nerd. but oh well. i still have my fun i guess. like on friday, ash and i went to the football game, which was way fun btw, bc no one watches the game, but just socializes away. its great! we went to party later, but it was really lame and boring.. and there was this guy there who used to like me, and he kept giving me evil looks. and i was thinking to myself: way to give me a better impression of you already. geez. anyway the highlight of the evening, besides talking to a really cute guy at the game, was seeing this weird ass guy do a stupid dance and got his pants pulled down in the middle of his silly dancing thing. and he kept right on dancing in his underwear. he was such a loser that all i could do was crack up on the couch. i know it sounds cruel and mean, but seriously, i wish i had taped it or something. its burned in my memory and i cant not laugh when i think about it. lol. one word. WEIRD-WEEKEND! posted at 10:12 p.m.

Wednesday, September 25, 2002

ugh. i dont think ive ever coughed so much in my entire life. today was just bad. argh. especially when i got home. i honestly think its got something to do with the air in my house. what poo, and my dad doesnt believe me. ive eaten so many lozenges/cough drops that im sick of them. id much rather have a coke. i havent had a cold drink since friday and im telling you, im having withdrawal symptoms. if thats possible with soda. i know its unhealthy and high in sugar and calories and all that good stuff, but hey, might as well drink whatever you want when you can. audio::Michelle Branch and Santana--"Game of Love" posted at 11:12 p.m.

Tuesday, September 24, 2002

heh. im feeling much better than i did on friday. well, im doing fine except im coughing so much it sucks. but its weird, b/c when im in school i dont cough as much as when im at home. guess its the air in my house? weirdness. anyway. hmm i just got done with my homework and im glad because im so tired, and my eyelids are like. super heavy. lol. sleeep. anyway. um. yeah. :) what a useless entry. audio::Good Charlotte-"Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous" posted at 11:54 p.m.

Saturday, September 21, 2002

so, a couple of things have happened. some good, some not too good. last weekend, i helped my bro dye his hair :) hes got bright red and blond streaks now, and it looks bloody cool. hehe if i was a guy, thats prolly how id want my hair to look like. hehe. and yeah, hes been goin on alot of dates here and there and they all say the streaks are "SO COOL". or so i'd like to think. im happy for him :) ive been bogged down with play rehearsals and meetings, as usual. but we finally got to meet with the boys in junior student co. and we voted on the prom theme. so yep, its been picked, and now we just have to slowly work bit by bit to change the location to this awesome place that kt has connections with. but we're not sure if we can do that cuz of a deposit with the place the schools' been using for years now. eh. oh well, we'll try. and now the not so good news. im sick, and i had originally thought i got it from my bro, and well. on friday my chest would hurt when i took deep breaths and i couldnt cough without hurting in the chest and all. i skipped play rehearsal and went to see the doctor. weeeell. they had to give me an x-ray. and LO AND BEHOLD. i have a case of mild pneumonia. OF ALL THINGS. pneumonia in the this heat? argh. it was kinda surprising. i was like. NO WAYY. but yes way, i do have it. and now im on medication and bleh. they say i should feel better in a few days and be completely fine in a few weeks. its so weird!! how can i catch pneumonia from my brother.. when he didnt have it? eh. but im not bed-ridden or like so super sick till i cant walk. im fine, other than for a cough and sorethroat. so freaking weird. anyway. lets hope it doesnt get worse. posted at 12:27 p.m.

Tuesday, September 10, 2002

it's that special time for juniors in my highschool. class rings! i think theyre way overpriced, and im just getting the cheapest one for remembrance, and just having one. i have good news! i didnt mention this cuz i havent updated in a while, but i auditioned for the fall play again and i made 1st and 2nd callbacks, and .. i made it! i got the part i wanted, and im extremely happy, i mean i know i am, but it hasn't kicked in yet. the play is "Auntie Mame", some of y'all might know it, and ive been cast as Ito, the Japanese man butler/houseservant, who has tendencies to be a bit gay? anyway. yeah, i dont know how theyre gonna change the "man" part to fit me, but hey, im not complaining, it should be hilarious. but one bad thing about making this play production is that..... how am i gonna have time to juggle homework, all my extra-curriculars, and this? hmm, i guess its safe to say im screwing myself over. yay. well at least i have kt to struggle along with me. she made it too! and she plays the mother of one of the characters, and her "daughter" is waaay taller than her. haha! and sorry about the previous post. dont those people have any shame whatsoever? theyre still searching for those "pics" and not stopping. i mean. GET THE CLUE ALREADY! i know what youre searching for, and its all recorded down on my tracker thingy(i got the idea from rachel). ANYWAY.... for tomorrow, i hope nothing bad happens and that everyone keeps that day in remembrance, yeah? audio::linkin park- "ENTH E ND" (technically "In the End", off the new ReAnimation CD) posted at 08:10 p.m.

Friday, August 30, 2002

to the dude who keeps searching for "nude fake pics of the olsen twins", THERE ARE NONE HERE! i sure hope youre a dude, because if youre a girl, thats just sick and wrong. how distasteful. posted at 12:51 p.m.

Wednesday, August 28, 2002

hmm. its my brother's birthday today. and hes not home! hes gone partying with his buddies so i cant give him his gift personally. oh well, i left it on his bed. hope hes not to tired that he doesnt see it! i got him another soft toy piggy to add to his collection. yes he does collect pink plush pigs. hes got quite alot too, most are from me. ANYWAY. despite being my bros b-day, i had a crappy day in school today, i had like a spanish, english and a summer reading test all in a row. it sucked. and bleh it was just ARGH-inducing. i was so grumpy. tomorrow is school picture today, i actually have to get up earlier so i can look presentable. which means i have to dry my hair tonight too. doh. the price for pictures that your family will make fun of. *sigh* audio::Better than Ezra- "Sincerely, me" posted at 11:00 p.m.

Sunday, August 25, 2002

ive been so busy lately, its driving me nuts! i have so much homework its overwhelming. its been like 1 week of school and grr, the work load is caving me in already. *sigh* and theres all my other extracurriculars. bah. yeah yeah you can say i bring in on myself and all, and you know what? youre right. but this is me, and its my own time, and my own lack of sleep, so ill deal. ANYWAY. dont get me wrong though, im not angry, or pissed, or grumpy or depressed!!! im happy, ive been just happy for no reason lately. honestly no reason. and i like it! yea, happy holly, blah blah, i know i know. besides, i have other stuff to do, like *homework*, and other shiznit so i guess ill make this quick. back to school dance was last night, quite the fun time i had. enjoyable. and actually, i have nothing much to say. well i DO, but just dont feel like typing out details and stuff. i just feel vague. VAGUE!!! audio::puretone- "addicted to bass" posted at 03:21 p.m.

Thursday, August 8, 2002

ahh. im as happy as a kid who just got a happy meal. ashley came home and she had a great trip. been hanging out with both her and kt for the last couple days. ive been swimming alot! and gee. my tan is like a definite line across my butt. it literally screams "LOOK AT ME! IM A TAN LINE!". mm. we went clubbing last night. just a night of dancing and meeting boys. hehe. quite fun. but slightly nauseating, some people there definitely need to invest in some deodorant. it was so darn crowded it was kinda like forcing your way through a can of sardines. ugh. can you imagine? ;) posted at 09:31 p.m.

Saturday, August 3, 2002

hmm. writing this just as im about to fall asleep. i should be off to bed in a couple minutes. but i just wanted to say today has been quite a good day. best day of my summer, probably. i got a great wakeup call this morning. because it was in person by katie(kt)!!!! it was so cool. she flew back in and my bro went to pick her up from her house and brought her back here and she woke me up!!. hehe, guess my brother had enough of me whining about how i had no one to hang out with during the whole of july. *grin*. well we went shopping and i got a skirt after MUCH contemplation. still contemplating about it. i might return it. i might decide i love it. its a short little denim "dirty wash" skirt. yeah. i like it. but i just dont know. ANYYYWAY. later we went to catch AUSTIN POWERS IN GOLDMEMBER. yeeah baby. it was absolutely shagadelic. i loved it. i was laughing practically the whole time. its good. reeeally. go see it! and then we went to dinner and. now im home. :) yeah, i had a good day. sorry about the choppy sentences, but psht whatever!! audio::shakira-"rules" & avril lavigne-"anything but ordinary" (DOWNLOAD THESE. i <3 these songs, and ive had them on repeat.) posted at 02:19 a.m.