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name:holly gender:girl age:sweet sixteen baby! bday:27th June origin:Singapore location:USA

~Thursday, June 27, 2002~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOLLY! feels good to wish myself that. :) im so cheesy its untrue. anyway, my bday has been pretty good. went to school, quizzed away, got gifts from ash and kt and some flowers from this girl called liz. :) some of my class even began singing happy birthday, but hehe uh, the teacher was being snarky. hmm. got home and did some work for my neighbor(can you imagine how much i didnt want to do that?) anyway i got it out of the way and watched tv and relaxed the rest of the day, in all actuality, it was kinda boring. well went for dinner with my bro and dad. went to this restaurant called bahama breeze, it was really cool, tropical and all. REALLY good food. so now all 3 of us are fat and happy. but im the happiest cuz out of the blue, i get a phonecall from sam!!!! hehe. so good to hear from a singapore friend again! caught me by surprise too, i was trying to study for my exam tomorrow(last day of summer school tomorrow!!!!!!!) and hehe he calls my cellphone, "guess who!?".... me: "uh. WHO?" "its SAM!" HAHAHAHHA. :D. best bday present ever. :) THANKS SAMMIE! *grin* that was just the perfect ending to my birthday. yep, im officially in the big ONE SIX club now. hohoho. feels good baby. really does. *MUAH* and good night. audio::the new NEW FOUND GLORY CD that kt got me. :D

~11:48 p.m.~

~Wednesday, June 26, 2002~

in about 2 more hours, i will officially be 16 years old. i feel young, and old at the same time. its about time really, ive always wanted to be sweet sixteen. :) *yay* ooh just got a tingly feeling going down my spine. how exciting! ..... even though tomorrow itself will be a sucky day.. (school in the morning, work in the afternoon, goodness knows whats at night. dinner?), itll still be my big day. :D my brother says i have a giggle bug. i dont deny it, ive been pretty happy since about 6pm. lol but this morning sucked, i overslept, bc my clock stopped. and i thought it was 5.45am, but it was really 6.30am. and ash was already knocking on my door, so i jumped out of bed and threw my clothes on, threw my contacts on, brushed my teeth and headed out the door. and then only to realize i had a quiz first thing in the morning. lol. suuuucks to be meeeee. yeah well im kinda excited! im going to san francisco to visit my mom from around the 11th to the 16th of july. :) im already excited!. we're driving up, and so ive decided i will listen to music, make hemp bracelets and read a book while in the car. and yeah, sleep is a definite option. hehe. anyway, rather than stay up till midnight to wish myself a happy birthday, i think ill go to bed early as a treat to myself. *thinks* yep, thats sounds damn good right now. okie then, toodles!

~09:53 p.m.~

~Sunday, June 23, 2002~

whew, today was a much better day than yesterday, lol. yesterday was just boring like no other. i woke up at like 3pm, haha! typical me. and then like watched tv and lazed around. cant really remember anything specific i did, except i stayed up till 4.30am burning cds and organizing my cd collection. yeah, talk about boredom. today i woke up in the late afternoon, again. and then hmm ooh went swimming with charlie and my bro in the pool for a bit. and then watched more tv and well okok im getting to the good part!. well my bro went off to hang out with his friends so my dad decided he wanted to go out for dinner. so lazy ol holly pulls some jeans on and goes for din din with dad. we went to this place called mimi's cafe, which acutally is kinda cool, the deco is fantastic, like sitting outside on a french street with the cafe there and everything. very cool. anyway, when we got there i noticed this sassy blue acura complete with beautiful rims & spoiler. ooh.(doh, its a car), and man it was sooooo sweet. *sigh*. anyway we go into eat, and there is just the cutest waiter ever there, and im like ahh yeah, im glad i came out for dinner tonight. hehe. anyway, he was sassy. haha!. and later, i saw the blue acura pull out of the drive, and guess who was driving it? yep, you got it, the cute waiter! HEHEHE. wow. so that was really nice, i guess im going back to that restaurant, eh? *grin* btw, i hate to say it, but i get really embarrassed going out for dinner with just my dad. i mean if my bro was there, it wouldnt be that bad, but just alone with my dad it gets weird, cuz i dunno. embarrassing! *sigh*. btw, ill be 16 in 4 days! lol i didnt notice till just now, too! haha! doh! audio::saves the day-- "firefly"

~10:50 p.m.~

~Friday, June 21, 2002~

whew, just got home from the movies and walkin round the mall. scooby doo was actually really funny, i enjoyed it plenty, xept for these kids in the theatre. but the part that made me SO happy was sugar ray's cameo! hehe mark is so darn flippin hot. and they were singing my fav song on the cd too! "words to me" .. hehe. okie enough oogly pining for him. we walked around and around and around cuz there wasnt alot to do, but walk. we went to jillians and some other stores and just basically guy scoping. yeah, hehe. i think im too shy in the presence of guys and i think ash wants someone who will push her to go up to some random guys, but i dont think im the right person for that. i guess im a disappointing person to scope with. its upsetting. i want something to happen thats all magical like and all, but i dont have the initiative and boldness to make it happen. and when it does ever happen, i get scared. SO that leaves me nowhere right? well i guess i need a guy whos got lots of patience and can handle my weirdness. argh, i feel so strange now. i think im having some tension with another friend. we were supposed to meet her at the movies, and i called her twice on her cell and once at home, and she didnt pick up, and if you know me, im not one to leave messages. we ran into her at the mall and like i guess she was pissed that we didnt meet her ya know? but i mean i did call her but i guess she doesnt believe me cuz her phone doesnt record missed calls? *sigh* i hate tension with friends, i really do. but i mean, what can i do? i dont know what i can do to make everyone happy, but im only me and i not capable of everything. argh! i got my shot today, it keeps tickling in a stinging kind of way. other than that, today has been kinda disheartening. audio::the calling--"adrienne"

~11:17 p.m.~

~Thursday, June 20, 2002~

whoa, been busy busy busy! hmm, theres been school, work and im starting volunteering soon, i have to get a tuberculosis check shot or SOMETHING like that tomorrow so i can work at the hospital, i should be starting there in 2 weeks. then ill prolly work it all off in 1 shot, like 5 hours a day for 10 days straight and then that'll give me the 50 hours. well and i have a job now. i work for my neighbor who is a real estate agent, and i stuff mail for her, which sounds simple, but its so tedious and boring! lol but i get paid an hour, which is definitely not bad. and i do it at home, so i listen to music or watch tv while i work, which isnt that bad of a deal, hehe. my bro works for her too, and of course he gets more, cuz he does more too. lol. my face is peeling like no other, my nose and cheeks. thats all because i was at this waterpark on sunday with ash for her birthday and we were there for like 5 hours. they had this wavepool and all, it was great! hehe kinda reminded me and her of south africa. heh, anyway, im so tan now, and my tan lines are like almost deifnite lines, haha! im going to see scooby doo tomorrow i think, plans might change, but if they dont then ill let you guys know how the movie went. my dads brought me car looking/searching/shopping this week. and it hasnt been as bad as i thought it would be. hehe, its kinda between 2 cars now. hyundai elantra or mazda protege, i like the latter better and i hope my dad does too. but im happy with whichever one anyways, because c'mon, im getting a brand new car. the only thing we're prolly gonna argue about it the color. hehe i want silver, he wants the goldy champagne color. but what the hey, its gonna be my car, i'll have to drive it, might as well be a color i like right? and his car and my moms are already that champagne color! and i dont want my car to be dubbed "old man car" lol. hehe okok, no more complaints. im gonna save my money and buy some hawaiian car seat covers! hehe. at least i hope. :) ive been looking at clothes online at alloy and delias, and man, i want to buy it all! hehe. ive never actually bought anything online, but hey, theres a first time for everything right? one last thing, i hope all you singapore people got my letters that i sent home with my mom. i got into so much trouble for writing them cuz it was so late, and my dad was yelling at me, SO.. i hope you like them, okie? audio::dj sammy--"heaven" & avril lavigne-- "complicated".

~11:09 p.m.~

~Saturday, June 8, 2002~

this week has been kinda hectic, summer school work and all. but other than that ive been swinging from good mood to depressed mood each day. a little weird, but cant control it anyways. today im feeling kinda. hmm, like a failure for a couple reasons but the main one is because i forgot to go for my orientation at the hospital for my volunteer work. i have to volunteer 50 mandatory hours for some class next year. social issues or something like that. well. i forgot to go. and today was the last orientation class, and now i dont know what to do. its seems to me like somehow everything i do is sabotaging my junior year. i dont do them intentionally too, but after all the responsibility ive supposedly opted for is a little too much for me. i dont know what to do. my moms goin back to singapore on june 17th. shes gonna get me some stuff or somethin so i can ask her to get whatever i want, i guess. she can also bring back letters for people. but then that means i would have to write a lot this weekend? but im too damn lazy. i dunno, whichever.

~06:15 p.m.~

~Monday, June 3, 2002~

oh no yeah that was supposed to have a bad connotation. well i just dyed my hair. red. the box said deep red. and yeah well i wanted something darker to cover up my brownish dark blondish highlights. well it did cover it up. except when i first took a look at it, it looked purple. and now it looks super bright red. oh no i feel like running to the store to buy super dark brown or even black. its too bright! i feel like a headlight! crapeldoodeldoo. maybe itll fade. FAST.

~07:13 p.m.~

~Sunday, June 2, 2002~

hehe updated my lil pic thing. now its an actual picture of me, instead of the usual doll. it was taken in the grassy back courtyard of my school. which explains the funky uniform shirt. and the silvery thing behind me is my backpack. oh yeah i forgot to mention, i have now seen 3 summer movies. spiderman, star wars(im in love with hayden, the guy who played anakin, i used to watch Higher Ground, the show he used to be on, so im not a new fan either. MAHAHA!), and undercover brother(which was dumb, dont watch it unless you have a lot of money to throw around). hmm. there are so many that i do wanna see.. the new guy, austin powers 3, blue crush, argh. so many movies, not enough money. speaking of money, i dont have enough to go back to singapore this summer. that should quell the question i get asked the most "when are you coming back!?!?" not this summer sweetheart. im really busy. ive got summer school all of june, volunteering for mandatory community service, and i might work a lil bit, get some money(so i can SPEND SPEND SPEND! i havent done that in a while.lol). maybe next summer, my mom says i can come back with my bro, and i dont think shes saying that to shut me up either, i think its for real, so HOLD ON TO YOUR PANTS! i may be coming back next year! but my mom gets to go back at the end of june, THIS YEAR. on a business trip. oh how damn unfair. and my dad might go back, if something happens to my grandma, who is in a comatose state, and also if something happens to my aunt(his sister), who has just contracted cancer. :(

~07:49 p.m.~

~Sunday, June 2, 2002~

well well, its june aka my month:) IN THE SUMMA TIME.. DOODEEDEEDIDUM...ayee! im back. not like ive actually gone somewhere, but im just back online. i havent been with my trusty computer for a while cuz ive been in summer school, and doh, its so much work, it really is. im pretty willing to shoot a cannonball up my teachers ass. no kidding! and i tell ya, my whole class prolly wants to do that too. ANYWAY. away from school-associated thoughts. righty-o. the party was ok, not bad. the deco was cool, and the music was too, and well the only disappointing part was that so many people said they were gonna come but they didnt show, but oh well we had enough people, it was ok. i got some gifts, yay!:) yeah some random stuff, lotions, good smelly stuff, a new diary!(yay, i really wanted one), photo albums for me fill with lovely pics, and i cant remember what else. but actually i even have a wishlist this year :) just like any other material loving teen. oh, how typicial. holly's wishlist 1. the new new found glory cd-- for happy listening 2. video camera--to record life's kodak moments, as a video 3. pair of jeans--to give my well-worn-in pair a rest 4. belt--can't find my old one, and i just want a new one 5. mp3 player--doh, who doesnt want one? 6. a car: 2003 Hyundai Tiburon--well, wishful thinking, ok? hey, ill even take the 2001 one. its called the Tuscani in asia, but i think Tiburon sounds better. 7. a boy!--no reason needed. ;) heh. wow. im an expensive girl arent i? most of it is unrealistic, but ill settle for the boy, cd, jeans and belt. :) righty. heheh. *sigh* i think im done. halla! audio::john mayer--"no such thing" & britney--"boys"

~07:31 p.m.~