allllllrighty then.

so i haven't actually had the time to update this, so in other words i've kept myself busy here! which is quite a feat in itself. or.. i'm just a lazy bum. but you knew that!

so, aloha penyaos! *hee*

let's see, i can't really do a day-by-day recap because this entry would go on and on forever and you'd quit reading by page 34.. if i was that lucky, of course.

so. i've gone shopping, bought tons of stuff, spent all my money but i'm a very very VERY happy camper with all my purchases because the exchange rate isn't so bad and so i "think" i'm getting alot of good deals. but hey shopping=good times so i'm not complaining. i've gotten skirts and tops and pants and shoes and little accessories and even gifts for people! (hey i didn't forget about youuuu). YAY SHOPPING!!!!! i would like to thank my shopping partners [in-crime] sammie, my aunt jessie, rachel, delia, bern, jasmine, nadia, charlene... etc., for being patient and also for helping me throw all my money into the singapore economy. yeah, i might have revived it a little. lol.

well onto the next thing! i've had every single type of local food that i've missed for four years and so that was awesome. i ate alot alot alot and if i put on any weight, all of you will be so proud of me! ;)

next comes the night-life.. well so as you already know, i went to that one club earlier on in my trip, from then i've been to Zouk/Phuture/Velvet Underground twice now... once with seb and his friend, and then next with my brother and wilson (heya willy!) and then met up with delia and her bunch of friends too. also wilson took us to Altivo at Mt. Faber and i hope i didn't butcher the name but that was really nice and really chill. plus it was great to watch my brother and wil take their "happy shots" mahahaa. oh yes, my cousin eldon also took me out one night to his friend's house party which was alot of fun, it was a barbeque and beer pong and then a showing of the movie old school. i felt right at home!! hahaha go house parties! eldon and his friend sean also took me out to watch a movie "King Arthur", yeah remember him.. lol eh that movie was alright, plus i miss STADIUM SEATING and bigger screens and choosing where i want to sit in movies... oh and NEW movies too! ahh america.

well my brother finally arrived here, and that was nice bc i've had some company and didn't have to resort to watching tv all by my lonesome. it's funny because he looks at everything and says "i haven't seen that in four years!!" and i think it's hilarous because that's exactly what i did when i arrived. oh well. he's stuck here till august 27 (one day before his bday) for medical checkups and all that jazz.. for the army. i hope he'll be okay.

anyway. i think the next time i update this blog i will be back in phoenix... as my trip is ending shortly. in about 12 hours i will be at the airport. wow. then onto my super duper 20 [total] hour flight back home. THEN my mom's picking me up from the airport and i will go home and SLEEP because i'm pretty sure the jetlag will hit me. but i wanna go hang out with ash, lex, shan, britt, etc bc lex is leeeeaving for matzatlan, mexico! too bad i wont be able to make it to the river that day too! but whatever i'll just be glad to be home, bitches!

i'm looking forward to hugs and kisses and free drink refills and lemonade and driving on the other side of the road and my own bed and my car (haaa) and better weather and less crowds and no more critical family members (you're too skinny you need to eat! HOW ABOUT YOU EAT, BITCH!) and LESS BUG BITES!!!!!

congratulations, i'm the biggest whiner in the world and how in the hell do you put up with me?

i'm coming home!

so BayBeats wasn't that impressive. granted, i only went for 1 out of the 3 nights, but what i heard wasn't that great. i heard two bands, one of which was a screamy metal one that got annoying after a while, and then the other was this electronica sounding one with no vocals and a shitty keyboardist. yeeah. oh well, it was nice to see the Esplanade building (phoenix has an esplanade too!) and later we strolled into a jazz bar called "Harry's" which was pretty nice, and the guitarist there was AMAZING. i just sat there entranced as he played his electric guitar and sang. haha! ah, you win some, you lose some, right?

saturday was incredibly busy for me, i got my NIRC made (an official singapore ID), got a cellphone (that sucks ass, i can't text message very fast on it because it's got a 1 second delay after i press a key... very annoying), got an EZ link travel card, hung out at my other uncles house while he burned me a cd w new music (yay!) and then later in the evening sheryl came over (she didn't end up sleeping over), had dinner with my cousins (they've grown up so much!), and then headed out to a club.

now, this club experience has to be talked about. so the club's name is "ChinaBlack", 12th floor of a building in town. okay firstly it was sooo pimp because we jumped to the head of the incredibly long line, got in for free, and then somehow managed to get into VIP! i honestly don't know how we pulled that off, but that was AWESOME. next, everyone drinks hard liquor here, and so everyone was trashed in a short time. uh. oh yeah, the dancing. hahaha omg it cracked me up so many times to see these kids dancing, i was just pretty much laughing to myself the whole night. okay granted some people definitely have got the moves and can dance, and there are just some who shouldn't be standing in the middle of the dancefloor not moving at all. but i guess that can be said for anywhere in the world. overall, it was a pretty different experience, not like the clubs in phoenix that i'm used to. oh yeah, a fight broke out, and lotsa yelling, lotsa broken glass all over the place, it was pretty cool. however, there was this one creepy dude would just stand too close for comfort and when he finally touched me, i was like ALRIGHT WE'RE LEAVING NOW! seriously this dude would just keep inching forward, and it's not like we were dancing so he "had" to rub up against me. we were sitting down! i was thinking to myself: alrighty i've got two guys sitting with me trying to shield me from you but you STILL keep staring and moving nearer, GET AWAY GROSS OLD MAN! it was so nasty. ugh. but i also got alot of "hey my friends want to meet you", and "where are you from?" and all that. so pretty much i was incredibly amused all night. WHOA- what an experience.

hmm so since i finally got home at 4am from that club, i crashed almost immediately and then had to wake up at 8.30 am so i could shower and get ready for church. my uncle picked me up at 9.30 and rachel met up with me so i wouldn't be wandering all over the place looking for someone i knew. hmm well church, let's say was also a different experience, because it's so unlike what i'm used to now. but it was nice seeing people i knew (not very many anymore) and then going for lunch with them and stuff. later i went shopping and bought a bunch of japanese makeup (baby pink lipglosses! i can't get them in america so i got 7 of them... haha yep) and a funky hot pink belt from this place called TopShop. there's a top i didn't get in this store Mango, but i think i'm gonna go back and get it. so hey, i didn't spend that much. but i have two more shopping days scheduled this week.

i'm meeting sam for dinner tonight, tuesday and wednesday are shopping days, wednesday night my cousin is taking me to another club called Zouk for mambo night aka ladies night and thursday i'm gonna go hang out with one of my aunts.

looks like this week will be better than last week bc i won't be sitting on my ass doin nothing at all!

oh. and the cd player/stereo in my room refuses to play anymore cds now, and i'm really bummed because it's so quiet in there without music. so i've got my portable cd player always on and i can't hear anything else that's happening because i've got my headphones on, lol. damn! like i said, you win some, you lose some.

ash, lex, shan and britt, i miss you guys soooo much.

two more weeks in singapore, i think!

what up pimps and hos!

it's incredibly boring to be by yourself all day, did you know that? yesterday i had absolutely nothing to do, so i just sat on my bed and stared off into space. it's not like i could sit and read, or surf the internet, or clean my room even because i don't have books here, an old lady crossing the street could beat this internet connection any day, and my room is already spic and span because it's not like i have that much stuff to make my room messy.

so.. i just sit and eat junk food. not a good combination.

um. well wednesday i definitely didn't go out (except to get more food and a bunch of toiletries w my uncle, which was an adventure in itself) and yesterday, thank god, sam and tim came and got me and we went for dinner and then sam and i went walking all over town (orchard road). so i got to see alot of shopping places and all that, of course i was lucky they were all closed (9pm on a thursday night..) because i would have gone crazy shopping all over the place. oh. and they taught me how to get out of my house and go to take public transportation to wherever i fancy. but of course, i still need this thing called an "EZ link" card that will let me travel because it automatically deducts bus fares or train fares.. pretty nifty thing actually.

um, so i really don't like talking to people here because they either look at me funny or i don't understand them. for example, i was ordering some food at a local food place and uh. i can tell the guy what i want, but then when he starts asking questions about what else i want with it, i'm completely lost. :(

well, today sheryl and sam are gonna take me to something called BayBeats, and from what they tell me, its like an alternative/rock music festival thing and a whole bunch of local bands will be playing there and stuff. i'm gonna check that out and see how these local bands do. i wonder if they're any good.

i guess if i don't like that, i could always go to my uncle's bar/pub. yeah, my uncle owns one! kinda cool, and i'm pretty sure i could get in for free and everything. but he's out of town right now, but his girlfriend (who actually is pretty nice) told me to pop by whenever i wanted. sweet.

i have bug bites all over the place and that's no fun because i'm itchy all over. god, i hate tropical weather.

i guess i'll go back downstairs and watch more tv.

dammit it's so damn boring when everyone's in school or in the army or at work, and i'm the only one on vacation. lol. bloody hell.

greetings from sunny, humid Singapore!

holy shit, i'm just dying from heat at this current moment and pretty much every other moment of the day!

i'm on my uncle's computer right now, and the internet connection is so damn slow that it takes like 1 minute to load each page so i'm just about to bang my head on the keyboard and give up.

but besides that, my flight wasn't too shabby, i found my connecting flights just fine, except for when i was in Narita International Airport in Toyko, Japan. ah that was a little confusing because they said that my gate would be #27, but then i checked like an hour later and they switched it to gate 25 and i was like holy shit!!! so i hauled ass over to the correct gate and thank god i didn't miss my flight if not i would be stranded in Tokyo, not a very nice thought. lol. anyway i made it, and i'm alive and that's just good news.

alrighty. so the weather here is horrible, as i've already mentioned, i can't believe how much i miss arizona weather, nice and dry... when its so humid and disgusting here, i really need to get used to it. oh yeah, and i wasn't counting on rain, because silly me just didn't think that "oh yeah, it rains pretty often in Singapore, eh?" and i don't really have an affinity for the rain... so that leaves me screwed.

hahaha so yeah i'll say something POSITIVE. i went out with jean and marla last night, jean came and got me from the house, amazingly, because she knew her way around and i absolutely have no clue where i am (surprise surprise!) and we went for dinner at this sushi bar at wheelock place, and then i got some [junk] food from a grocery store so i wouldn't starve to death since i don't speak malay and therefore cannot communicate with the maid to ask her for food. don't you laugh!! anyway, we also went for a walk around boat quay and i got to check out the numerous clubs and bars and everything, there are soo many, but they are tiny in comparison to the ones i'm used to. let's see. the drinking age here is 18, which is AMAZING, so that means i could go out and buy whatever the hell i want, and i'm stoked because i'm going to do that sometime this week when i discover how to get out of this house.

oh yeah, the driving thing here scares the crap out of me, because not only is it that the driver sits on the other side of the car, they drive on the other side of the road, which defies every single driving law that i'm used to in Phoenix. really scary, and i get horrible feelings whenever i'm in a car.

anyway, my other uncle is gonna come get me in a few minutes and we're gonna go shopping for toiletries because i had to leave some stuff behind for my brother to use so i gotta get some today.

overall, it's been a pretty good 2 days-ish, and i'm glad i finally have internet access so i don't have to spend the whole day in my room listening to music and just being bored, now i can be a geek and be on the computer!! yay! except that i don't know if they have to pay for the internet by how long you're using it. oh well i'll pay them back.

my uncle is gonna get me a cell phone that i can use here, and maybe i'll be able to text message people in the US, who knows.

oh another thing, i feel like SUCH a foreigner here because i have an american accent and everyone else doesnt. and so it's strange for me to speak to people i don't know because they're probably thinking "who is this freak who's pretending to have an american accent?!?" and i'm like "nooo, it's genuine!!" hahaha okay well not really, but i still feel a little out of place.

that's all for now though, i'm going to have to venture out of the house to go to the grocery store. wish me luck. haha!

i love you and miss you!

damn computer, i was in the middle of an entry and the explorer died on me. my computer's all messed up so i can't use it so i'm on the other one and this one is pretty wonky as well so if this dies on me AGAIN i'm not rewriting anything.

alrighty. as i was saying previously, i couldnt sleep last night and i kept waking up every hour on the hour when i did finally fall asleep. it sucked ass so i finally just got up at 7am and started packing. god i'm such a freak. insomnia, you are kickin my ass!

i'm just a little worried about my sleeping habits. what if i can't fall asleep on the plane?! that flight is so bloody long and it's been forever since i've had to endure it... lol torture, i tell you. hopefully they'll play some badass movies, and the people sitting in front of me aren't tall so i can actually see the movie.

so onto the regular blog update before i continue about my trip: wednesday i hung out with phil, kalman, ben and steve and it was pretty chill bc we just watched tv and stuff, like wildboyz and south park (crab people?!?! did anyone catch the episode about metrosexuals?! lol). thursday, lexi and i went gallavanting about to alan's pajama themed party (we rocked out the fuzzy slippers, oh yeah) and then to aaron's which was quite big and kickin. then i was on the phone till 4am, which i don't do very often but it was fun. let's see. friday, i went out with phil and stew and we went off-roading in the desert. at some points, it was a little shady, not gonna lie, especially with stew in the back saying things like "yep i saw this all in a movie once, phil will die first because he's out there with a flashlight, you will die next because your window is down, and yeah maybe i'll die too!" pretty damn reassuring, if you ask me. hahaha. it was pretty kickass though, we did a 180 turn and that was cool. the view was beautiful and then...i went home. hahaha so exciting.

ANYWAY. this will be my last entry till i find a computer in singapore. perhaps my uncle will be kind and let me borrow his, god how i wish i had a laptop. um. well guys, have a good time till i come back, keep updating your blogs so i can catch up with y'all and stuff. and um. let's email! haha! i'm excited and scared at the same time, half wanting to go and half wanting not to. i hope i don't mess up my flights and end up in....zimbabwe or something, this will be the first time i've travelled alone, ahh!

don't miss me too much!! i'll be back soon! i love you all and see you in august.

*kisses*

so i cleaned up my computer area today. not too shabby, seeing as i would face some serious fatherly wrath had i not done it.

lex and i went to aaron's again last night, although it was more of a kickback and they were just playing kings so we left and headed to meet busta and them who were hitting up the lanes at the neighborhood bowling alley. did you know on weekdays they close the bowling alley at 11pm? that's early. lol.

anyway lex dropped me home early and i just hung around at home. nothing too exciting, sorry to disappoint.

i wanted to go lay out by the pool today but i'm a lazy bum and couldn't even change out of my pajamas, which i am still comfortably dressed in.

i SHOULD be packing and all, but in all honesty, i don't feel like it. i don't feel like doing anything at all.

yes, procrastinator/slacker/lazybum am i.

this entry is completely pointless.


I'm lifting you up
I'm letting you down
I'm dancing til dawn
I'm fooling around
I'm not giving up
I'm making your love
This city's made us crazy and we must get out

audio:: maroon 5- "must get out"

happy 4th of july, folks!

that was a little late, but you can deal.

i got to hang out with shan and britt on saturday, we went to the oasis hookah bar for a bit, then to joe's house where we ended up sleeping over.

sunday i slept alot and then lex and i went to jenna's house. i got really trashed and that wasn't that nice of an experience. i think that's all i need to say, really.

um today. i've been getting my shit together because my mom has booked my flight to singapore. FINALLY. i'll leave here on the 11th, so honestly, let's hang out before i go. if you guys want more details and what not, email me and let me know, or catch me on msn or something.

my packing list is super detailed and complicated, my suitcase isn't very big, i have alot of gifts to bring back for relatives whom i'm obligated to visit when i'm there, my parents are super grumpy with everything and yeah, that includes me.

i'd like to be a recluse tonight. well okay maybe "recluse" is too strong of a word, but i'll be a hermit and stay home. i should probably start packing, so if i'm dressed like a hobo this week, it's because all my clothes have been put into my suitcase for singapore. but you won't judge me.


This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings disappear.
Can I be your memory?

audio:: sugarcult- "memory"

wednesday morning i get awoken to a call from t-ravis, saying "happy birthday holly!!! wanna go to the warped tour?!"

we won't record my stupidly half-asleep answer. but still, i got up, showered and got ready to rock out. hahaha warped was awesome. i didn't actually see very many bands because we got there a little late, plus it was just too scorchingly hot to do very much except drink water and lie down in the grass. but i did catch yellowcard (yay), t-ravis put me on his shoulders so i got to see some good shit. hahaha. they played "sure shot" and i was sooo happy they played some older stuff. i also caught new found glory, which was the shit, and i got waaaay into the crowd and on the edge of the mosh pit and not gonna lie, it was a little scary, but i made it out alive. thank god. hella fun though, and i got story of the year shirts for my bro and the other trav, a yellowcard wifebeater and a pair of NFG shorts for myself. and i hate the bastards who capitalize on selling WATER for 3 bucks a pop.

anyway. um i dont remember alot, but we went to aaron thompson's house one night, and then last night was joe abbott's. both of which were quite fun. lotsa drinking games, and uh. drinking. hahahaha.

my mom bought a new car. a toyota solara convertible. so it's all pretty and sitting in the driveway. i took it for a spin yesterday when i was stuck at the car dealership for 5 hours, and the dude was like here, take your mom's car for a test drive. so i was like hell yeah! my hair was a MESS after i was done, damn convertibles. but it was fun nevertheless and i'd like to take it out on more drives........ IF I EVER AM ALLOWED TO DRIVE AGAIN!!!

wtf. so i wake up this morning to a couple bad dreams and my cousin telling me that i have a fuckin flat tire. yep. yet another thing to happen to my car. so there's a nail in the side of the rear left tire. um. IN THE SIDE?!?!?! yes. my dad, of course, thinks that someone stuck the nail in there because they hate me and want to ruin my car. i can't believe that every time i drive, some stupid shit happens to my car.

which brings me to... my dad wants to trade in my car, and i've mentioned that already but he wants to get the scion tC, i think. (haha alex, i actually like that car) but anyway, they're gonna try and find the color i like and give my dad a call, and he'll decide if he wants to buy that car. and honestly, i should be hysterically happy that my dad wants to replace my car, but i am, but i don't know why i feel so confused. i guess its because i'm afraid that having a new car won't stop all the stupid shit that happens, OR i won't be able to drive it anywhere anyway.

i don't know, i'm just a little puzzled to why he wants to get a new car, for me, wrecker of cars.

today i get a letter in the mail from ASU, which says they've granted me credit for my AP psychology class. i'm stoked, but where are my AP scores themselves?! they haven't sent them, or my dad is hiding them from me. WHERE ARE MY AP EXAM SCORES?!?!?!?!

oh and important news, as of friday july 2nd, I AM NOW AN AMERICAN PERMANENT RESIDENT! yeah babay, i got my green card. and its just a stamp in my passport. i waited 4 1/2 years for a stamp in my passport/!?! what a rip off. but whatever. try and deport me now, biatches!! hhahaha.

well i'm going to go lament over the fact that my dad will never ever ever let me drive again.


Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time

audio:: blink182- "i miss you"