holy-monkey-lovin-shit-fuck-me!!!!!!!!!!!

this stupid human event paper needs to DIE!!

this week = poopoo.

many things to do.. like: finish reading the odysessy, math webwork, write paper for human event (this takes the cake for the biggest shitbomb), research for an english paper due next week (i have to use the library, but first i have to FIND the library... ick), meet with my advisors...plus today i had an econ test that definitely whupped my ass, and i had to turn in a sociology extra credit thingy and i had to find my way to the COOR building (and i didn't get lost, HAH take that)... and um. i guess i'll prolly have to help trav move in to a new apartment some time this week.

i can't think of anything else right now, but that's still alot of stuff to do anyway. argh that human event paper is kickin my ass, because it's due friday, and my teacher is probably really biased about students going in to see him for help about the paper. if i don't go, i'll probably get a shitty grade and at this point in time, a shitty grade is NOT what i need. SO that means i need a draft done by the time i see him. so i prolly needa write one RIGHT NOW and take it to him tomorrow and crawl at his feet and tell him to fix my damn paper. )@*&#)(@*&$(#@&$@(*#$&@*(#.

the weekend was alright. friday i met up with puney, valerie and lauren and also re-met apryl, dan and met blake for the first time. we went for lunch, and then back to puney's dorm and hung out for a bit. her dorm room is decorated reeeaaaally nicely, and is REALLY pink. haha i like it alot! we dressed val up in some hot pink accessories and walked around the honors dorms visiting taylor and sam and alas, alex was not home. it was quite exciting however, we took alot of pictures (val's camera, but can be used as blackmail). they dropped me off at my car and they went to the library to research their AP psych (ah i miss that class) projects.

anyway. friday night though, was kinda boring and we didn't do much. saturday was better cuz i went to the football game and that was fun, trav went too cuz he snuck in as a "student" and he was really wasted and that was really funny. later we went to kerryn's friend's place for a partay. they play alot of beer pong there and they even have their own table built especially for beer pong. so cool. kyle mixed me a drink of vodka and white cranberry juice, it was pretty good. i was pretty faded and i think i was being really loud and obnoxious, but it was fun. hahahaha. jen showed up and she was introducing me to alot of people and that was AWESOME, because she knows everyone pretty much. asian invasion, bitches. i want her to give me an ID or something because bouncers will probably think we're the same person because of that stereotypical "all asians look the same". hah.

trav also showed up to that party with jeff, and that was really funny because he's never seen me drunk and so both of us were really loud and obnoxious together! yay!! then he texted me later in the night and told me he shaved his hair off into a mohawk!!

busta, joshy and jason also came to the party, but they only stayed for a little while. i felt a little bad because everytime i walked out of the door, i walked back in with new people and.. ya know, it wasn't my party, but i think they were chill with the people there, so that was good.

we made it back to ashley's dorm and we had a sleepover!! haha kinda, well kyle had the burning desire to cook spaghetti at 4 in the morning, and the other ashley (the ashley roommates! hahaha!) went with him, and i passed out on the floor. they came back and kyle passed out next to me and we all slept in on sunday. ash and i got sonic for lunch and then i went to pick my dad up from the airport around 3:30.

so saturday kinda made up for the last few weekends, which came as a relief. ... hmm. OH. i finally bought a pair of jeans!! i caved in and tried on one last pair when i working on saturday at hollister, and they fit me, amazingly. maybe my crazy new fattening diet is working! but anyway, they're cool and have the "destroyed" worn look, so they've got a couple rips and tears in them, plus some crazy silver metallic strategically placed spray paint marks on them. (whoa try saying that 3 times in a row FAST!) kyle made a joke about my jeans saying that the rips and tears were made when the kids in the sweatshops were clawing their way to an escape.... okay okay, i laughed really hard when i heard that but now i realize it's really sad!! :(

um. i guess i can't put off writing that paper any longer.


Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative

audio:: britney spears- "my prerogrative"

so i went on a shopping spree on sunday, and i got quite a few things. whoever said saving was important?! haha, anyway, i went to aeropostale because i had a 30% off for friends and family thingy that angie from my english class gave me cuz she works there. so i got a bunch of tank tops that i've been wanting for a while. i got them in pink, white and brown, all with pretty lace detailing. also picked a white one up for lex cuz she was at a sorority thing and we were planning to go shopping together anyway. um. also got a sweatshirt for my cousin as an early birthday gift. i also went into XI and got a plain white tank top and a lacey hot pink halter top. THEN i went into american eagle and got some new undies! aye. american eagle undies are the only ones that fit me, so i gotta stock up. heh.

i'm on a hunt for a pair of jeans however, but i haven't found a pair that fits yet and i'm a little upset. i like the destroyed look that hollister's got in right now, but the zeros don't fit me and that fuckin sucks because theres no smaller size. but i also don't mind just a regular pair of jeans, nothing fancy. BUT NOOOOO, nothing fits, they're either too big in the waist, or ass, or too baggy in the legs, or they come up too high (i like super super low rise...) and all this other bullshit.

that brings me to..... i think i am losing weight, and it must be all the walking i have to do on campus. BUT THAT IS RIDICULOUS. because if i lose any weight i will disappear! girls always tell me "omg you're so skinny and tiny! i wish i was like that!!" UH. LET ME TELL YOU. it's no freakin fun. why? because while other girls have issues with not being able to fit into things because they're too big, i'm too damn small, so its like i can't buy things! so wtf, they cater to plus sized girls, but they don't cater to UNDERsized girls now do they, because then that will be promoting anorexia and all that. so where does that leave me? PANTSLESS, motherfuckas!

i am on a new diet. we're gonna try to make me gain weight. so more bread, rice, noodles, potatoes, etc. also stockin up on the icecream. I AM DETERMINED TO BUY A PAIR OF JEANS!

anyway, other than for my clothing tirades, last weekend was alright. kinda disappointing somewhat, but it was alright. saturday night was the ASU vs. Iowa football game. lexi and i definitely got our school spirit on. it was a crazy game and the final score was like 40something to 7.. something like that. we kicked ass and won! :) jon bondy joined us at some parts, and kept on going to visit his other friends, so one moment he was there, one moment he wasn't, he was like a GHOST! hahahahaha. oh but i have to tell you. sometimes i'm cool w people invading my personal space, but i have to know you at least. but i absolutely detest it if youre a freakin stranger and you're rubbing your freakin soaking wet (CURSE YOU, RAINY WEATHER!) shirt all over my arm, and there is much more space to stand elsewhere, BUT you insist on standing so close to me that you're practically standing ON me.. like ($&(@)*&#@!(*#&@_( HOLY SHIT BACK OFF BITCH!!!!! even worse when we'd get a touchdown or something and he'd throw his arms up and i'd be attacked. i felt like taking those free pom poms they handed out and shoving one up his *shutyomouth*. THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKIN ABOUT.

lex and i walked out of the game after 3rd quarter bc we were tired plus we had to pee really badly. of course, all the bars wouldn't let us in to let us use their restrooms because we weren't of age. SORRY MR BOUNCER, I HAVE TO PEE SO I WON'T BE TRYING TO BUY A DRINK THATS GONNA MAKE ME WANNA PEE EVEN MORE!! anyway. we finally just walked into a hotel of some sort and used their restrooms, however, alot of the Iowa people were staying at that hotel so uh, we were kinda out of place with our ASU shirts and pom poms. oh well. they were sore losers anyway.

after that adventure, we were gonna go to party, but it didn't turn out to be a party really. lol. plus i was really really really tired and my contacts were bothering the crap out of me, so i kinda just pulled my hat down and assumed the role of the moody, quiet person of the group.... SO THEY WOULDN'T SEE HOW MESSED UP MY EYES WERE BEING. hah. there is a reason for everything. it didn't help that kyle was trying to pull my hat up to look at me, and i'd like like noooooooo!! bloodshot eyes = BADDD. wow. i must have looked like a druggie. oh well, sometimes the truth must come out. haha, i keed i keed.

hmm. i just tried to figure out more math homework on webwork and i'm failing miserably.

anybody want to keep me company? my dad's on a business trip in shanghai (again) and my momma's back in san fran. all i've got is a cousin and two dogs. NOT SUFFICIENT! hahaa.

i wish my brother was here. :( i miss him so much that i have his picture as a wallpaper on my cellphone (courtesy of travis). ah shit.

tomorrow is CARPOOL THURSDAY! hurray!


it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's friday
i'm in love

audio:: dryden mitchell- "friday, i'm in love" (this is a song by the cure originally, but i like this cover the best, and it was in the movie 50 first dates.)

today was
CARRRRPOOOOOOOL THURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

i love thursdays because:
1. it's almost friday, which means it's almost the weekend.
2. the ROTC boys are in uniform on campus.
3. CARPOOLING FOR CHEETOS!
4. i can drive in the carpool lane!!!
5. lexi and i have bonding time :)

yes, it's awesome.

i had other things to say but i'm being distracted by watching alex, taylor and puney on webcam.


True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death

audio:: the postal service- "such great heights"

lexi and i went to get
ice cream cones
from mcdonalds tonight!
the ice cream machine at our mcdonalds
broke down and we were sad.
but out of desperation
i asked them for
the next nearest mcdonalds
and we drove there.
when we got there
we told the girl at the drive thru our story
and asked her if they had cones
she said yes
they had ice cream,
but she didn't care for our story.
we ordered and then
we pulled through
lexi was on the phone
with steve though
he leaves for santa clara tomorrow
so we called to say farewell.
apparently it was a bad time
bc he had to call us back. he said he was having
sex at the moment and couldn't talk
i told him
to finish it up and call us back
he called in three minutes
oh my.

anyway we finally got our cones
and we paid in mostly pennies
and a couple of dimes and a few quarters
$2.48 in change! in a baggie of course.
the girl gave us
an evil look
while we tried to keep straight faces
she counted the change
and handed the baggie back to us
i wanted to tell her to keep the damn baggie.

we drove back home and
dropped lexi's mom's melting cone off, then lexi
dropped me back home
then she went to
watch smallville

then i had dinner
with my dad

and now i have to read the first four books/chapters of
the odysessy.

i took a math midterm today
it kicked my ass

tomorrow is carpool thursday,
YAY!!!!


I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess

audio:: liz phair- "extraordinary"

wow, i went a whole two weeks without writing something in here. that's impressive, by my standards. so i guess my blogging has become sporadic once again, and forgive me, school has started rollin with alot of momentum and i guess i'm preoccupied with alot of homework and .. procrastinating about not doing homework.

so as the geek that i am, i wrote out some stuff i should talk about on a sticky note.

1. i got a new cell phone! an LG G4020. so okay, i'm usually pretty brand loyal to nokia, but i reeeeallly wanted a color flip phone, and for that damn flip phone, i chose the LG over another nokia phone. but i like it so far, it's got that little external lcd screen that shows the caller id and stuff, which is handy. and i dropped quite a bit of money on downloading some ringtones and wallpaper. i remember the good old days when ringtones used to be free. ah. that was awesome. but it's way smaller than my old school brick-of-a-phone, and so i'm happy. yay!

2. school: of course, i must talk about this. i haven't had the "OMGGGG COLLEGE IS AWESOMEEEEE!!!" feeling yet, and i don't know why. to me it just kinda feels.. like school. i guess the cool part is that i wake up later, have a couple classes a day, and it's way more laid back than xavier (doh). maybe it's because i live at home, and i don't get that whole dorm experience. but i've found a bunch of other people who commute too (not just lexi and i!) and that makes me feel a little better. okay, the heat is OVERWHELMING. not very cute to show up to each class dripping in sweat (nice picture, eh?) . thank god for body spray and all that good smelling stuff.

3. also about school: damn i have quite a fair bit of homework. i'm supposed to be writing a paper for my english class right now, but i decided that i'd blog first. ohhhh procrastination rears its ugly head. my math exam is this week (1 of 3!) and i have to take it outside of class time. wtf? i have to go to the testing center and take it either on wednesday or thursday. WEIRD. and oh, i hate webwork. stupid math hw that has to be turned in online! GRAR! evil!

4. lexi is in a sorority! she's a kappa delta, and i'm really happy for her, and she seems to like them alot, so that's awesome. shan is a pi phi, shumaker and kalman became delta kai's (or something like that) and they're all really happy about it, so yay for your bids, good for you!

5. and from that, i can't help but feel super uninvolved at ASU. it's definitely a change from my crazy involved resume at xavier, but i kinda like it. i'm not tied down to anything, and that also lets me have my own time, which is cool because i spend alot of it commuting anyway. i guess i haven't found something i want to join yet. no sororities for me, no student council, no plays/musicals, and um. no homecoming? lol. it's a change, not gonna lie.

6. college is one huge change. i'm losing friends, kinda making new ones, people are leaving. but for everyone who's left for another college other than ASU, i haven't really felt a sense of loss. i fear i'm becoming either really numb to things, or maybe too comfortable in where i am. but the one person that i really felt an emotional attachment to is, of course, katie. she came over last night to hang out and haaaaa attempt my math webwork with me (but that was a side thing). she's been in cincinati all summer working at a doctor's office and stuff. and now she's back, but she's leaving on friday for santa clara and i won't see her again till december. fuck i'm gonna miss her alot. i really regret not hanging out with her more often. if you wanted to see me be emotional about someone leaving, last night was it. and i hate thinking about it because then it makes it more real. i guess i like living in my own world where no one gets hurt. oh fuck. on that note i also have to say that sometime in my life i gotta learn that kisses aren't promises.

7. on a lighter note. i went to a car show on saturday. i guess you can say i was working for my bro's company, bc i was there to "look cute and hand out fliers", according to trav. it was an Imports vs. Domestics car show, complete with races, booths, an actual car show (with prizes for the best car in different categories), dj's and rap battles, and of course, to lure guys in, a bikini contest as well as jello wrestling. (wtf?!) ANYWAY. it was about 90% guys, can you say sausage fest?? hahaahaa well i mean the odds were great for me, but honestly, i was kinda weirded out because i was obviously getting stared at by all these guys and having things yelled at me and all that shit. and to tell ya the truth, sure it may be flattering, but i was just kinda disgusted. whatever though, i was there to do my job and check out cars and stuff. but it was fun, i mean, i got to watch a couple races (man those muscle cars smoked those imports!!), pass out alot of brochures, got our name out, and i think it was pretty damn successful for promotions and stuff for the company. and there were definitely some trashy people there, and by "trashy people" i mean SKANKS DRESSED IN NOTHING!!! guys = pigs = only want to see boobs. i saw way too much boobage in that bikini contest to last me a lifetime and really was kinda disturbing to see how CRAZY all these guys went for some skanky ho's dancing around on stage flashing all over the place. besides that, and that we were out in the freakin boonies (speedworld motorplex, 195th ave and happy valley rd. omg.), i guess it was just all another experience. and i know what to expect for next time. november 13th, next show. note to self: don't wear heels, bring spotlights for the wheels, get there earlier to set up, make sure no one whips out their video camera and starts FILMING ME, or taking pictures. geez.

8. i think i got a virus on my laptop. urgh. and i've been being so damn careful with it since it's my PRECIOUSSSS but that didn't help. i've run my virus scans and stuff but maybe it's not detecting anything. i don't know.

that's all. i gotta start that english essay now if not i'm fucked.


You never cease to amaze me
you keep me from going crazy
and that's one thing I know for sure
sometimes I see just how it all will be
take every bit it's so easy
the first straw
and this I know for sure


audio:: 311- "first straw"