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name:holly gender:girl age:15 bday:27th June origin:Singapore location:USA

~Saturday, March 30, 2002~

just got home from the "event" but quick recount of today. woke up and 10, dance group came over, practiced till 3pm. called my friend to check if she wanted to go for the "event" later. she said she didnt know, and that she might have to babysit. i felt she wasnt telling the complete truth. but anyways. i watched road trip for a bit :) then i called her back to see really if she could go or not. then she said she might not have to babysit. but if she didnt, she would be going on a date with HIM. ohhh that made me kinda mad. but oh well. she doesnt really know how bad it makes me feel. but hey, no more mean thoughts because it might ruin my night. ANYWAYS!. the "event" was a free concert given by...*drumroll* .......SUGAR RAY!!!!!!!!!!!! *OMG!!!!!!* so i ended up going and im so glad i did because MARK MCGRATH ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF! he is so damn hot! like sizzle factor to the max! lol. how cheesy. but hey. he was so close. like a couple feet away.he has the sexiest voice and the most gyrating-est hips ever! his hair is SOOOOOOOOOO SEXY!!!!!!! omg i was screaming and yelling and it was like I LOVE YOU MARK!!!!! oh man. it was awesome. oh and there was this like 14 year old guy who my friend said was staring me for a long time. creepy!. he was all what school do you go to, whats your name, how old are you. etc etc. april's sister was like her name is JESSICA! hahaahhaahaha. anyway he gave me this card that says "Please email me I will explain later". hahahahahha. dang. too bad he wasnt mark, i would have jumped on him in a flash! well whatever. lol. MARK MARK MARK MARK!!!! thank you hard rock cafe, for hosting a free concert with a KICKASS band. thank you sugar ray, for making my day. and thank you mark mcgrath, i will have good (EXELLENT!) dreams tonight!!!!!

~12:46 a.m.~

~Thursday, March 28, 2002~

well. today school was ok. couldnt wait to get out, because..... ITS SPRING BREAK NOW!!!!!! whoopeeeee! :) went to the mall with kt and ash. ate, hung out for a while, popped into skinmarket for a bit. think ive decided i like liquid eyeliner. also dropped into charlotte russe. didnt find anything too interesting. kt came back with me and we watched music videos for dance moves and i helped choreograph her dance thingy. mines coming along pretty well. try dancing to bombs over baghdad by outkast. yah, its quite an obstacle, but i think im managing. got to come up with a salsa dance part. *sigh*. felt detached today. i didnt really sleep well, as it turns out, i cried myself to sleep. didnt help much, because i had puffy eyes when i woke up. looked a little funny, but, its not like that really matters. sometimes when things seem to be working out, it takes a turn for the worse! i have a piece of advice for you. when you fall for someone, make sure you can pick yourself up, because when youre on the ground, the person you fell for, might have fallen for someone else instead.

~10:53 p.m.~

~Thursday, March 28, 2002~

got this in an email. Cancer Friendship Profile The Crab is likely to send you frequent invitations to dinner. Of course, they enjoy your company, but they love it when you come over and complement them on their house, decorations and excellent cooking skills. They make loyal friends, so long as you do nothing to betray their trust. If you can handle a super emotional pal who is likely to call you up and cry into the phone for no reason, you will have a devoted buddy who is just as likely to arm themselves with a box of tissues and come to your aid when you're feeling blue. Though the Crab would usually rather sit around the house tending the garden and organizing their bits of nostalgia, they will still occasionally be in the mood to go out for dinner and a movie. As a friend of a Cancer, you'll never need to worry about recording important events. Your favorite Crab will always be there with a camera. As your friendship grows, your Cancer buddy will likely invite you to family dinners as a matter of course. A Cancer who is hurt hurts deeply and for a long time, though, so take care with the fragile emotions of your friend. yup. sounds like me.

~10:45 p.m.~

~Wednesday, March 27, 2002~

after all the good news, of course, there is always something that will spoil it. well. today, i find out that the guy that i really like, ya know ive talked about him before. well. he likes my close friend. you know the phrase once bitten, twice shy? i think its BS. because this is the second time that this is happening, and of course, it stings me yet again. god. i should have learned my lesson. she and i both had crushes on him. i doubted anything would happen. but hey, she met him last week, and he got her number and called her. and i know i mean you think it doesnt mean anything, if he calls her. think about it. any old boy wouldnt call a girl just like that. there has to be some motive behind it. GREAT HOLLY. still i know i should appreciative. she had the guts to tell me about it, and i told her i mean, theres nothing i can do about it, because its HIS choice you know? i mean if he returns her feelings, then there is no reason why i should be in the way. she cant just drop what she feels just because she feels bad for me. i cant change her feelings, or his. and i guess its me who gets hurt again. i know she doesnt want to hurt me, but then again, you cant help feeling what you feel. im not psychic. but, somehow this morning when she said she needed to tell me something, i KNEW. I KNEW. my instincts told me it was about him. i swear. i just knew. and when i heard what she had to say, my heart fell. but of course i put up a front and told her it was ok. i explained to her that its nothing i can help, and dont hold back from him, just on account of me. my heart was just torn in 2 the whole day. my gut was wrenching and there was this just deep aching pain. god. i hate being a teen. i hate emotions that take over, when you dont want them to. well anyway, after school, i had to go over to brophy(boys school next to mine. we're a brother/sister school) for a meeting, and that meant walking through a horde of boys, and im glad i didnt see him because if i did, i would have gone nuts. she came along too, which makes it worse. i dont want to lose a friendship because of a boy. its not worth it to me, and im not that superficial. i just . argh. ive said too much. sometimes i wish my friends werent such stunning lookers.

~06:08 p.m.~

~Monday, March 25, 2002~

picture this folks. imagine yourself sitting in math class, waiting for the bell to ring. in fact you are sitting, waiting... for the announcements to come on. the TV flashes on and a girl starts reading names off. you calmly get out of your seat, head to the activities office, and receive a flower with an attached card that says "Junior Class Vice President" in a fancy script. you smile. embrace a friend. and carry on with your day. NOW IMAGINE THE EXACT OPPOSITE!!!!!! and now you get holly, nervous to a point her heart is beating so fast, people could hear it. and ... "for junior class vice president......we have HOLLY LIM!!!!" AYE CARAMBA ICHI MA YAYA!!!!!!holly screams, yells, jumps, and goes absolutely nutty! like halle berry at the oscars. she heads down to the office to receive the freakin finally well deserved flower. she starts cryin and bawling because of the fact that she is so FRREAKIN HAPPY! there you have it, recount of my day. *BIG GRIN*i gave my speech in the best way i knew, loud and enthusiastic. and i won. WOW. its an unbelievable feeling, and its so just WOW!. WOW WOW WOW WOW! you know what else? kt and ashley made it too! and that makes it so great because all 3 of made it onto the same freakin student council! aaaaaahhhhh! it seems so dreamy, and daze-y, like wow. seriously, i was so happy i started crying. this is something i wanted so badly, and i FINALLY MADE IT, ON MY OWN. its like a huge milestone for me. WOW! you know what, dreams do come true. REALLY. trust me. there are no words to explain how i feel right now. kt and ashley and me are gonna have an AWESOME time. i swear. today was so stressful, but it was worth it. *grin* *GRIN* *BIG BLOODY GRIN* im smiling till the cows come home. and that folks, is my final answer.

~04:34 p.m.~

~Sunday, March 24, 2002~

mid day update. oh btw, i think im updating this thing alot now, dontcha think? hmm. well my dad wanted to cut the dog's hair, and since the weathers getting hot, my bro and i put our swimsuits on and tanned a lil bit. im still wearing mine now, lol. its still a little too chilly to get into the pool, but its hot enough to lay out. pretty day it is today. neighbors kept peeping over the wall and the little kids were like "hey holly!" incessantly. anyway. mom went to walgreens and picked up new razor blades for me(finally! yay!) and my bro got some (MORE!)hairdye. #80 Blonde Gardenia (Natural Blonde). haha, i doubt itll turn out blonde. maybe light brown. ahh dark hair sucks sometimes. my hair is still all streaked out, but it needs a touchup. but. i might just dye it a dark color again, and let it all grow out, then ill be back to my natural. heh. decisions decisions. moms getting a dinner ready now, cuz the OTHER neighbors are coming over. the garage sale ones. *sigh*. seems like we're doing alot of neighbor bonding lately. oh btw again, i forgot to mention, we got a new phone!. my dad took the one in the den and put it in his room, sayin he needed another phone in his room, so now he has 2. so, we went and got a cordless one yesterday. like gee whiz, FINALLY! :) been wanting a cordless one for a while. and all these expenditures, and we're supposed to be frugal!

~04:29 p.m.~

~Sunday, March 24, 2002~

went to church this morning, its palm sunday:). we had a really good sermon. it was weird because my parents went to the church further away, the more fanicer older people one. and my brother and i went to the one right around the corner, more informal, but more my style. ive been trying to d/l the video to jordan knight's "give it to you" *sigh* its got some really cool dance moves and i REALLY want to watch it. and well, my dad is getting caught up in the garage sale thing, and both of the parental figures want my bro and i to clean out all our junk and go sell it. lol. *sigh* my dad made $90 by selling one of his watches. cool eh? feeling a little jittery. tomorrow is elections! i get a tad bit nervous when i think of it. i just hope i dont mess up in my speech. i think im gonna memorize it so i can "talk" to the crowd. ERGH!!. i was playin around with my brother just now, and i was gonna give him a kick in the bum, and he darted into his room, and i ended up kicking the door frame. i have a cut on my foot, and its really sore. lucky for my brother he didnt get that kick. hi, my name is holly the gimp! lol. i remember we had this walkathon thing for school, and my knees started acting up near the end of the walk and my friends started calling me gimpy. ahh, good times.

~01:41 p.m.~

~Saturday, March 23, 2002~

ahh, well. i was complaining that today was boring. i was tellin my mom i needed to go to the store and get some candy and also this certain salad dressing that i put on ALL my food. hehe. anyway, we ended up going to costco. that place is fun, warehouse style. okie. so i was a happy camper, after getting my stuff. essentials, mind you, my family is very frugal now. well we were on the way home and my dad turns into this suzuki car dealership. *lights up* we start our broadcast today! lookin at cars means hollys gonna get one soon. anyways he wanted me to look at the grand vitara, which im not a fan of, because its big, suv style. ick. i want a CAR, not an SUV. i know i should be glad im gettin a car, but i mean, i just hope its one thats pleasin to my eye. we also looked at the Aerio. now, after seeing this car, i think, i want it. its cute, sexy, and its a CAR!!!!. hehe go here for a peep. i really like it. looks like a cross between a honda civic and a toyota echo. to me at least. heh.:) dad says its too small. *sigh*. but, i like it. so there. :)

~07:36 p.m.~

~Saturday, March 23, 2002~

heh.woke up at 10 today. not bad, considering its a weekend :). anyways, mom decided to go over to a neighbors house and look at their garage sale, and ended up bringin some of our stuff to go sell. i ended up goin over and bringin some old books and stuffed animals too. sold some. not bad. wonder if people will buy old magazines, because i have a ton. heh. anyways. its a gorgeous day out, and i feel like going to the lake, which is what my other neighbors did. i shoulda gone with them. oh well, im home, bored, and my dad is sleeptalking.

~02:06 p.m.~

~Friday, March 22, 2002~

im in one of those funny moods. not my usual FUNNY moods. just, like i wish i had somebody to hold me and care about me, and just be someone talk to. im feeling lonely yes, but its different because its something that is a backup to my life but im still searching for it. haha, just confused myself. i dont really know how to explain it, but oh well, you kinda get the idea. i had an interesting day, we got to wear our posters promoting why YOU SHOULD VOTE FOR ME TO BE WHICHEVER OFFICER MY SIGN SAYS. haha. theyre a pain in the butt the signs cuz you wear one in front and one in the back and they just irritate me, but hey, i had cool signs, and i just hope i do ok in the elections. im not some pompous biatch whos saying DANG ALL Y'ALL, IM GONNA WIN CUZ IM SO COOL. im actually kinda scared of monday. reading speeches wont be as nerve wrecking until they announce who won and such and i remember last year. i... am just scared. but not scared like im gonna pee my pants, ill save that for monday itself. i just hope for the best. if i make it, i make it. if i dont, i dont. THATS MY MANTRA. lol. anyway, after that long bit about the elections. today i had a theology test i didnt know about, that seems to happen alot. hmm, we had this christian service fair after school, which they pulled me out from PE(dance class :() to help out with. it was to give my classmates ideas of how to start their 50 hour community service requirement for junior year. i think i might do mine with Loyola Project, a co-ed(hehe) program to tutor little kids. OR i might volunteer at a hospital. :) righty. anyways we got our report cards back today. I GOT MY A IN ENGLISH! THANK GOD! FINALLY. i really deserve that cuz ive been busting my ass off to get that A in that class. haha! anyway. All As and 1 B. in math. cuz of that test i bombed the other time, but hey, im happy with my grades. think im done, moms coming home soon:) have to vaccuum the house. heheh. audio::jimmy eat world-"the middle" i reeeeally reccomend downloading this song. it is sooo gooooodd. hehe. ok, im out.

~08:24 p.m.~

~Thursday, March 21, 2002~

i was just gonna add quick entry. today we had to read our election speeches to the teacher moderators and it went quite well. i read mine really fast cuz i didnt want to go overtime and sshhh, i also didnt want the girl behind me to listen to it because....shes the one im scared of, my stiff competition, eh. ahh well. i just hope i make it. anyway! i was listening to this song, and i think the lyrics are fantastic. read it carefully, because theyre really meaningful. audio:: jimmy eat world-"the middle" lyrics: Hey, dont write yourself off yet It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just try your best, Try everything you can. And don't you worry what they tell themselves When you're away. Chorus: It just takes some time Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride. Everything, everything will be just fine, Everything, everything will be alright, alright. Hey, you know they're all the same. You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in. Live right now. Yeah, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough For someone else. Chorus:(2x) Hey, dont write yourself off yet It's only in your mind you feel left out or looked down on. Just do your best, Do everything you can. And don't you worry what their bitter hearts Are gonna say. Chorus:(2x) now wasnt that inspirational?

~12:12 a.m.~

~Sunday, March 17, 2002~

ahh, another sunday spent doing nothing. i should be reprimanded. *adopts deep voice* "HOLLY, YOURE SUCH A BAD GIRL!!" haha, like thats gonna stop me from procrastinating. well, i should get a move on the homework. i had to write this bio on a famous dancer for PE homework( geez, i get hw for PE!!!!!) and it was due about 2-3 days ago. haha. as you can guess, OF COURSE I DIDNT DO IT. haha. *grins*. well i also have to write a speech telling about how i will make a good vice president for student council. yes, i decided to run again. hmm. then i have to read the darn book evangeline for english, i tell you one thing, im not a fan of narrative poems. they irritate me. hehee. anyways, my computer is being slow, and whatever i type takes a slight delay to appear on screen. kinda amusing. hmm. what else, i saw my scantily clad neighbor today, he was cruisin around on a motorized scooter in boxers and pajama pants. eye candy for me :).oh, but hes not the guy im infatuated with. thats a different story *wink* oh, and hehe, ive been d/ling a gigantuan load of music videos today. im trying to find inspiration for dance moves for PE! (sigh, and yet, it comes back to PE). anyhow, one more thing, this goes out to ashley. kaaaaaa ka kaaa! tooky tooky!!!! im out, like a light. like nelly furtado style. roflmao! audio::Tangerine Speedo-- charlies angels soundtrack :)

~07:07 p.m.~

~Sunday, March 17, 2002~

hahahahaah! look what i found! *grin*

~12:47 p.m.~

~Saturday, March 16, 2002~

you know what sucks? when the guy you have a crush on is a hot popular boy that you know you'll never have a chance with. well, tis the case with me. *pouts* nevermind.

~04:34 p.m.~