oO Thursday, April 29, 2004 at 10:29 p.m. Oo

if you have a little time on your hands, do this now.
go to google.com, type in "weapons of mass destruction" and don't press enter but click the "i'm feeling lucky" button. it probably won't be up for long, but it's nifty. [props to bern for the heads up].

so friend, today at school, not so bad, aced an english presentation, bombed a math test, took a picture with all the AP Psychology girls to be on DR. PHIL (WE'RE GOING TO BE ON DR. PHIL'S SHOW!!!!!!!!), had 10 extra minutes of break bc the picture took so little time, had our skirts blow up quite a number of times bc it was so windy, it was a nice marilyn feeling, tried to snag some parking passes for prom, and will continue to do so tomorrow morning, called prom date to confirm plans, went to the brophy vs. st mary's baseball game, which we won :) then we went to brophy's coffeehouse (art and music show) which was awesome. april had her self portraits out, mike allison and his band rocked out, ryan trybus and jon cline jammed together and it was pretty damn good. i felt like a groupie but I LIKED IT. hahahahaha! they are all so incredibly talented that it was almost overwhelming, but i definitely had a good time.

these are the best days of our lives....

tomorrow.. friday. sophomore-senior breakfast from 8-9.30am (go bagels and jamba juice!), awards assembly (for two OW-WA.. *hour*) and yearbooks!!!!!! then HOME! no classes, more fun!! then nail appointment and then sleeeeeeeeeep.

AND THEN PROM ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!

holy shiat, it's going to be a good weekend.

audio ::.... stupid quizno's sub ditty stuck in my head.

oO Wednesday, April 28, 2004 at 11:02 p.m. Oo

i have a lot of homework to do tonight, but i decided that it can wait a couple more minutes while i so diligently write a new entry here.

the last two days have not been the best, yesterday started off badly because i was running late (wait, that's every day), and i had my cell phone in my boob pocket of my school shirt (having stashed it there after ash called to say she was outside my house.. we carpool, if you didnt know). of course while digging in a [clean] laundry basket for socks, the brick of a thing i call a cellphone decides to fall out and HIT MY ANKLE. yes, the ankle that's already been so messed up since my accident at work. it hurt like a bitch and definitely made my morning a bit more hellish than it usually is.
yeah so i overdramatized that a little. but it really hurt and i was almost in tears from pain. dammit, i should really get worker's compensation. :(

the rest of the day was just a blur and i dont remember much. except that monday and tuesday we had all classes and that really sucked bc lunch was cut short, plus today mass went so long, they cut lunch too. bah.

so i'm feeling awfully grumpy at the moment, and not to mention, my brother used my computer today and messed up one of my playlists on winamp and that pisses me off because i hate it when people mess with my carefully put together playlists. YES, my music means that much to me.

!@!#@$(&^%!@^#

somebody calm me down!!!

oh. and if you read my blog, leave a note if you haven't yet, won't you? i'd like to know who's been reading.

audio:: five for fighting- "100 years"

oO Tuesday, April 27, 2004 at 12:05 a.m. Oo

i can't wait for school to end, i could really use the break right about now. school really burns people out and saps all my energy. can i get an AMEN?!?

why is it that all my teachers are piling on the work so tremendously right now? i mean i could really do without the english presentations, physics quiz, math test, psychology test, blah blah blah.
the only good thing about today was that we got our invites to the all nighter project graduation thingy. it came in an old school popcorn box, with a "ticket" and some popcorn and candy. funny how some underclassmen tried to snag some for themselves and got yelled at by some seniors. serves them right. await your turn, youngin's, we've waited a hella long time for this. don't ruin our shit.

okay wow definitely got some angst to work out there. anyway. this was just a quickie update to get my mind off some stuff, but i gotta go sort out some project business. check y'all later.

audio:: O.A.R. - "Hey girl"

oO Sunday, April 25, 2004 at 08:40 p.m. Oo

WHAT DO YOU WANT, BEHOTCHES?!?!

juuust keeding. time for our weekend uppppdate.

so, no ghetto van for prom and i am incredibly disappointed so we have to make up for it. which means we're not going to sleep all night.. (hahah i won't crack my joke about that anymore lex. lol)so we're just gonna be partying all prom night! it's going to be kickass and i hope we find somewhere to crash. hmm i'm really excited for prom because what the hey, it's senior prom!!!!!! plus my mom altered my dress for me and now it fits me juuuust right. she also found me a nice purse to bring along and i hit up the desert ridge joann's today and got me an awesome flower for my hair. ;) i'm pretty much all set!
PROM IS GOING TO BE A BIGASS TRUCKLOAD OF FUN!!!

hmm. GRADUATION IS SO SOON! it's coming, i can see it in the damn ass horizon and it freaks me out! next week is going to be a little sad, a little sentimental, a little exhilarating because we've got our moving up mass where the priest dude will sprinkle holy water all over us seniors, and then our awards ceremony where everyone's bum will hurt like a mother for 2 whole hours!! they will call out my name and say nothing about my accomplishments because i didn't offer any of my talents/BS this year. *grump grump grump*

friday.. there was a partay at anthony's, which was absolutely mad crazy. taylor gave me a ride in his car, which is sooo tight, he got a tiburon gt and i'm sooo jealous. YEAH I SAID IT! sooo jealous! i felt like a little girl with a new barbie doll.. that wasn't mine. (person: eh, holly, what kind of analogy was that?! me: a crappy one, i get it, okay?!) anyway, i was DD for the night, so i mean i had as much fun as a sober person could. lol.
saturday.. i had work (eh) and then lexi picked me up and we went to see mimi and all them for a birthday dinner thang at applebees.. at 75th avenue and bell. BFE. later we stopped by joe's to see our buddies from st marys. it was a nice kickback and i enjoyed it.

time for dinner, mm mm good, i love it when my mom's home for the weekends.

audio:: ben harper- "steal my kisses"

oO Monday, April 19, 2004 at 11:45 p.m. Oo

so i sure hope that self fufilling prophecies do work.

prom is going to be alot of fun!
PROM IS GOING TO BE ALOT OF FUN!

well the reason why i have to convince myself of that is because it looks like the ghetto van isn't going to happen and it's my fault because it's not and limos are expensive and i don't know how else we're all going to get to prom. i mean i could just get jon to drive me and everything will be fine, but then i'd like to be able to travel in a big group with my friends because it's fuckin senior prom dammit.

what the hell am i to do now?!?!?!

oO Sunday, April 18, 2004 at 01:28 p.m. Oo

hola mis amigos!

so i definitely do go through phases when it comes to updating my dear blog. i never got to talk about my san diego trip, huh? well i won't say much, because what happens in spring break, stays in spring break. .. haha not quite. but i had the time of my life and i honestly say i had an AWESOME senior spring break trip! we stayed at a very nice hotel, the bahia resort, and our room was huge, so sharing with 4 other girls was not a problem at all. we walked the boardwalk, laid out on the beach, got invited into many a beach house, had quite a few late night adventures, made some poor judgements along the way, met many many hot guys, chilled out, and pretty much enjoyed ourselves as much as we could. i didn't take many pictures with my e-wear because i was afraid it would get lost or dropped into the sand or something so sorry about that. but whatever, i have all the memories i need.

so, onto the next big thing. lexi has a baby sister!! little Anastasia Sophia.... okay maybe i butchered the spelling, but it's still a pretty name. the funny thing about this is that her family found out about 2 weeks ago that lexi's mom was pregnant and was going to have a baby! yep, 8 months pregnant with no knowledge of the baby. weird huh? the doctors had no idea until they did an ultrasound because her mom wasn't feeling too well, and hey guess what folks!? YOU'RE HAVIN A BABY! my god, the shock probably would have killed me! anyway, i was over at lexi's yesterday and i got to hold her, and she is just the cutest little baby ever, so small, so delicate and so trusting. wow, the miracle of birth, it's amazing.

last night was fun, we went to zach's house and it's awesome because he has a guesthouse with arcade games in it (we had mad crazy rounds of air hockey) and a theatre in his house too. sooo cool!!

sooo, school is the bane of my existence, my grades are slipping because i'm not doing any homework these days, or at least i'm slipping by with the least amount possible. i'm holding on to a B by my fingernails in english. i'm 0.1 points away from a C. and i bombed a physics test on friday. i mean honestly, my motivation to do well in school, or even be at school is slowly whittling down to nothing. i've never not cared about my grades this much, and it's a little scary about how i can't sit down to read a book or a chapter that's been assigned. but graduation steadily approaches. to me, it's a little scary, a little exciting, but altogether inevitable.

speaking of graduation, i had gone shopping with my mom for a prom dress last week and instead i came home with a dress for graduation, a dress for my cousin's wedding, (one white, one black... just 2 dresses that i can wear for quite a few occasions) and some hollister clothes. oh well, no more clothes shopping for me for a while, and i have prevent myself from going to XI Clothing because i'll blow all my money and i need to save it for prom expenses.

so. prom. let's see. i finally got myself my dress, the one i wanted, paid an arm and a leg for it. it's sitting in my closet right now. it's hot pink and gorgeous, except it doesn't really fit me exactly right just yet, because the smallest size the dress came in is still too big for me. it's okay though, my mom is gonna alter it, and HOPEFULLY it will look decent on me like it does on the model. haha. tell you one thing though, i've never spent (or made my parents spend..) that much money on a dress before. but as everyone says, it's my senior prom and why not go all out, right? hahaha. alrighty, i've got appointments for hair and nails, and thank got they weren't all booked out because there are like 6 other proms on the same night as ours. hmm, oh! i have a date, yes siree. i'm taking jon with me and it's gonna be kickass because everyone has decided that instead of pulling up in a very classy (boring) limo, we're gonna pull up in my family's company ghetto van!! so my brother's got his own company right, and we have this big white van that will be used to transport the wheels and tires and all that to wherever they need to go. now this van is not the most tricked out thing you've seen or anything, i doubt it's got a cd player so we'll be taking a boom box with us, there are no seats in the back so we'll be sitting on a air mattress, or lots of cushions and pillows, there are no windows in the back or anything.... SO like i said. it's a ghetto van. and we're gonna pimp it out, maybe slap some 20's on it, put a disco ball in there, maybe a strobe light, decorate the outside with streamers, come tumbling out of it when everyone so elegantly climbs out of their limos. and our drivers? my brother and travis will be out chauffeurs for the night, they're gonna dress up as outkast i think. or at least my brother will be the chauffeur and travis will wear his plaid suit. SO, all i have to do is convince my dad that it's a good idea. oh boy. prom is going to be so much frickin fun if we roll up in our ghetto pimp van. aaaaaahhhh it's so badass. WELL okay, so if the whole thing doesn't work out because my dad has a cow because of the absurdity of the idea then i'll just make jon drive me in his pimped out mustang. so either way, i have an awesome ride. WOOHOO! prom is gonna kick so much ass this year and Y'ALL JUST JEALOUS!

whoa. okay got a little too excited about the prom van there. *deep breath* alrighty then, i'm done talking and i gotta go get started on a psychology essay now because it will probably take me all day to do it since i keep getting distracted.

audio:: trapt- "echo"

oO Wednesday, April 7, 2004 at 11:32 p.m. Oo

this is going to be really quick, because i'm falling asleep as i sit here at the computer.

i got back from my san diego trip today. i had a blast and it was exactly what i needed, a place to get away and enjoy being on vacation for a couple days. i'm dead tired and i'm going to need some sleep before i can talk about anything. but it was amazing, and even though there were some rough patches, it was pretty damn good. for me, at least.
anyway, that's about all i can muster up now. talk to y'all tomorrow.

audio:: sugarcult- "memory"

oO Thursday, April 1, 2004 at 11:20 p.m. Oo

so i finally caught the movie grease a few weeks ago, i know i know it's blasphemous. but hey at least i've seen it now. and haha i loved it so much! kinda like how i have found that i also love chicago. and i also have the soundtrack to "how to succeed". oh maaaan these musicals are killing me.

so, MORE LYRICS!

You're the One That I Want
by Olivia Newton John and John Travolta

I got chills, they're multiplyin', and I'm losin' control
Cause the power you're supplyin', it's electrifyin'

You better shape up, cause I need a man,
and my heart is set on you
You better shape up, you better understand,
to my heart I must be true
Nothing left, nothing left for me to do

You're the one that I want
(you are the one I want), ooh ooh ooh, honey
The one that I want (you are the one I want),
ooh ooh ooh, honey
The one that I want (you are the one I want),
ooh ooh ooh, honey
The one I need (the one I need),
oh yes indeed (yes indeed)

If you're filled with affection,
You're too shy to convey
Meditate my direction, feel your way

I better shape up,
cause you need a man
I need a man,
Who can keep me satisfied
I better shape up, if I'm gonna prove
You better prove, that my fate is justified
Are you sure?
Yes I'm sure down deep inside


hahaha, damn i love it. anyway. spring break is calling my name. one more worthless day of school and i'm out for break, and san diego here i come! i'm so excited to get out of here for a couple days, it's like the only solace i have to keep myself going.

today ash and i went shopping for a while after school, some good old retail therapy. bad idea however, i ended up buying two skirts, three rings and a flowery hairtie. blew about $50 and i feel so disgustingly poor right now. i hope that i get my paycheck on saturday. i still need to get a prom dress, and i already know which one i have in mind, i just have to find it in the stores. maybe i'll shop in san diego and find one there? we'll see. speaking of prom, i hate it! lol, no really, i could do without having to find a date and a dress and organizing transport (party bus this year i think) and places to meet and all that good stuff. is it all really worth it? lol dammit, all i wanna do is a have a fun time, i definitely want to be able to kick back and enjoy my senior prom with my best friends. i don't wanna have to worry about logistics and plans getting messed up and people being stupid... like last year. i just want to be able to look back and say "senior prom? yeah i went, and yeah i had an amazing time." honestly, how much more earnest can i be about this? lol.

off to read "heart of darkness". mm mm good. psh. check y'all later.

audio:: sugarcult- "memory"