wahey. and also to reply to all the tag board messages as a whole.. instead of bitty messages all over the place..
first off, word up to my girl maddie. haha great to be in contact with you once again. you're linked now. go check her blog out, she's super entertaining.
onto bern.. haha yeah you and maddie are old SCS girls eh?! good one, i'm always hooking people up. lol jk no. but yeah woohoo you guys are now in contact again! yay!.
rachel: heh. i decided that what hair i DID cut off, i don't miss. haha i have these little pieces that fall into my eyes now though, and they get a little annoying but it looks cute, so i'll deal. and yeah. you're visiting nyc, la and san francisco! WHAT HAPPENED TO PHOENIX!?!?! YOU NEED TO TAKE A ROAD TRIP OR SHORT FLIGHT OUT HERE!! i mean c'mon, if you're in the states, you HAVE to come and see me!! and what's more, i'll take you out shopping too!! because i can drive us anywhere we want to go, and don't you wanna see your good ol' buddy holly again?! it would be so frickin fun! you NEED to come out here, YOU DO YOU DO !!! rearrange your trip! lol! :) if you're in san francisco, you can visit my mom. haha
tim: i think i owe you an email? lol i'm such a procrastinator.
avie: dude. where's your blog gone?
sheryl: i miss our late night chats.... :( damn school! update your blog more often, i want to know what's going on! hehe glad your camp is back into session, that should be a ton of fun for you. :)

big hugs to y'all. i'm in a cuddly and snuggly mood! yay!

so let me fill ya in on last week.
hmm. last week is what we would we call the "senior yearbook ad drive".. basically we're supposed to get our parents and groups of friends to buy these ad spaces in our yearbook and ya know.. put pictures from when you were a kid. or some friends forever deal. sounds nice right? sure. till you look at the price! DAMN. it's 0 for a QUARTER page, 5 for half a page and 0 for a full page. and i'm just talking regular paper here. (actually the sizes they give are even smaller, for borders and all). HOLY MOLEY! thats burning a hole in every student's pocket. my parents have decided to let me have a quarter page ad.. and my brother is supposed to design it for me. but he hasn't yet, and its due on wednesday. and then i landed up doing the group ad for my bunch of friends, HOWEVER, i don't have pictures of us to put on it. so i guess i can't do it. isn't it so retarded that the only picture i have of all 7 of us is our prom picture? and i can't even use that because we have revealing clothes on (like strapless gowns.. spaghetti straps.. no shoulders showing. and no midriffs, and no logos, and nothing inappropriate.) ugh i hate my school and how everything has to be "appropriate" to meet their standards.
enough about that.
i was approached by a member of the senior class student council to design the class teeshirt. this annoys me because.. i have to find time to do it (and i want to, i'm an overachiever about things like this) and this also annoys me because they had a "design a teeshirt" contest, and then they said all the entries suck, so they approach me to do it. and then i'm thinkin like.. why should i give up my time and energy after you guys kicked me off? uh. talk about "hey holly do all this stuff for us and you won't get any recognition like being on student council!"...um. yeah thats that supressed anger talking again.
well. we showed our homecoming video on thursday. so now the whole school knows the theme, which is great, so i don't have to be all hush hush about it. (which in itself is a very difficult task. i can't keep my mouth shut for long.) anyway this year's theme is "Don't Stop The Music". eh not the BEST theme in the whole entire world, it's a little broad but i mean hey you could practically go as anything, really! so that's not too shabby. i'm thinking of dressing up as ghetto fabulous style and going as a rapper. hehe. anyway the video, by all means, was a success and hopefully enjoyed by the whole school. my partner in crime katie mellody and i.. were pretty damn proud of ourselves. :) i saw ashley laughing really hard while we were in the announcement room, plus we got tons of "that was the best video i have ever seen" [pertaining to videos made for school things like prom and homecoming]. so yes. mission COMPLETE. for the video that is. haha now we're working over time on the skit, which announces the homecoming queen nominees and ARGH omg. it has to be performed on the 9th, which is next thursday mind you, and we only had our first infomational meeting TODAY. HOLY CRAPOLA. we are so screwed its untrue. and not only that, katie's going out of town from thursday to sunday. AAAAAAHHH!!! stress stress stress.. all the way till next thursday. but it should all be fun, i had a meeting here at my place on saturday for it, not alot of people came but we managed to get some work done. HOWEVER. today i was really pissed off because the stupid vice principal wouldn't approve my music for the skit. and there is NO bad music in it whatsoever, however i don't believe there IS bad music, really, just a matter of preference, but still. i mean, no bad words or no sexual references or references to alcohol or drugs. and STIll no approval. that stupid nun has NO idea what the hell she was listening to i bet, and only approved the music that she knew (like the oldies). argh. stupid whore.
my dad went in and talked to my counselor last wednesday. haha i guess they had a good chat concerning me and stuff, and he also said they talked about the most random things. and today i went in to confirm some stuff about my college application and all that jazz and she said dad was a real gentlemen, and everything she expected him to be.. in other words, how he's a somewhat traditional YET liberal asian father. hahaha! oh well i thought that was amusing. she can have some insight about my family life when she talks to me. those nutty guidance counselors.
took my car for the oil change saturday morning, picked it back up but they said they couldn't fix my cd player. oh. did i mention that my cd player broke? :( i think a cd got stuck by some glitch in the system and so there are 6 cds stuck in the player, which i can't get out, and it makes a horrible whirring noise everytime i try. :( i hope my cds are okay. ANYWAY they said they couldnt fix it, and they have to order in a new cd player and replace it, but thats later this week..so i have to take my car in again.. and they said they were gonna "try" and get my cds out.!!! oh the horror! my cds! my precious cds! :(:( that makes me so depressed.
anyway. about my weekend: i really didn't too much. friday night..was a little whoa. but lexi met up with some of her friends and then went over to jon's house, because jon mentioned something about bowling, and i'm thinkin: hey why not?.. so i wait for ash to get off work, and we go over to jon's place and thats like almost frickin 10pm.. haha and we have nothing to do really. because we decided bowling was a no, and we went to this guy JD's house, and we didn't even get to see him, apparently because he was in various states of undress in his apartment, so we kinda hung out in the parking lot with larky and his friends. well the guys did... lex, ash and i went off by ourselves and took idiotic pictures of us being stupid, as usual. later we went over to nick's house, which was just a little awkward.. but whatever. lex and ash had to leave by then, and since my car was over at jon's place.. we stayed for a while longer and watched some corny dating shows, and then we left. haha so yeah all night i got to ride in jon's BEAUTIFUL mustang, and that was enough to get me stoked for anything. yay! well anyway we went back to his place (NOT LIKE THAT!!) and i hopped in my car and went home.
saturday night consisted of.. wait i'm thinking.. holy crap i can't remember. OH OH OH!. got it. okay. [don't you love how this is like my stream of consciousness?] yeah ash and her BOYFRIEND.. jake. (otherwise known as poppa yake.. don't ask why) came and picked me up and we went "romping in his truck".. that has such a dirty connotaion. anyway we were supposed to go to this party and we got really lost.. and lexi ended up catching up with us on the same street (freaky!) and so i jumped in her car so she would have some company, and so i could leave ash and jake to themselves for a bit. and yeah they were really lost and kept making u-turns all over the place, so lex and i just decided to screw goin to the party and go over to jason's house, since we were in the area ANYWAY. so that's what we did, we split up and over to jason's we went. which was nice just a chill, hang out thing. heh jason and 5 girls (they were aready there).. lol. haha another weird night, but good bonding time for lexi and me. yay! hopefully ash and jake had a good time wherever they were. heh.
ah. sunday.. we went to church (mom's in town, btw) and yeah the rest of the day i was just really bogged down with homework, homecoming, college, and other junky stuff altogether. and i was really freaking out by like 11.30pm so i just said "fuck this shit" and went to bed.
toggle on to today.. today was really crappy for me. i had so much shit to do, and i was literally running all over the school since we stepped onto campus. ugh. i don't even want to go over the amount of CRAP i had to do today. ew mondays. i almost flipped a bitch too, when my music for the skit didn't get approved.
nevermind i won't talk too much about that before i get all worked up again.
i hope i can get through the next two weeks. i don't know how i'm goin to do it, but it's gonna be one hell of a ride.
this friday is the brophy vs. st mary's football game..just so you know thats our boys school vs. our big time rival school respectively. and just so you know, st mary's is the school that brian, and nick .. and lucas go to.
ah.
we'll see how that goes... saturday is DYNO day.. it's a car thing show that i'm goin to go to, just for shits and giggles... no. not really. because i love cars and gotta support TG man. love for the president of the car club! woo. okay.
that was long. and i'm hurting all over, like eyes, shoulders and back. i swear i'm like an old lady.

audio:: jason mraz- "you and i both"

i think i have a problem.
i know, this is the 2nd entry for today, but i can do whatever i want.
um yes. i think i have a problem.
i have a tendency to cut my hair by myself when i either get bored, or i feel i need to do something to my hair, and cutting it is the only way. well it's not like i chopped off all of it or anything (NO WAY) but it's like bits and pieces here and there in the front. WHY? i don't know. i'm just worried i'll get carried away and then do something that i can't undo.. which might possibly happen.
lol. keep the scissors away from me or i might end up cutting all the hair framing my face AWAY!.
*eek*
i think it's got to do with my need for experimentation. whoa freaky.

LOL.
damn.
i have a lot of suppressed rage and i don't think it's very healthy. haha yeah, that regards the last entry. lol, geez. i was pissed though, at my brother. but of course, not anymore. and let me tell you why!
i was being horribly mean to my brother because he got the yellowcard cd ya know, so i was just not acknowledging him and not talking to him and just being an all around bitch. so yeah. i guess he felt really bad about it. and so on sunday he said to me.."if you give me the money to get the cd, i'll go get it for you."
*jaw drops* at this point i was pissed over some other matter that is probably extremely trivial now that i think about it, man i really need to learn how to not let small things bother me so much.
well. yeah i'm like "will you really?" and hes like "yeah". and i'm like YOU'RE THE BEST BROTHER IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol. so yeah, mr i'm-the-best-brother-around heads out and gets me a copy of Ocean Avenue. yellowcard's new cd.
WHOA!!!!!! i was so happy and excited you have no idea. and i'm also a bitch to the highest degree, that you have NO IDEA.
i'm ashamed of my behavior yes. so now i feel incredibly stupid.

anyway. um. onto other things. if there's something i really regret not doing, not going to EdgeFest takes the cake. *sigh* holly holly what were you thinking?!!?!? yellowcard, taking back sunday, saves the day, brand new, authority zero, MXPX, bad religion, etc etc. all those bands and more at edgefest and i didn't go. gah.
*smacks forehead* stupid stupid move.
no use moping over that i guess, it's over now. but yeah i think i'm going to convince my brother to take a roadtrip over to tucson on october 24th.. because yellowcard is playing there. and i've never been to a yellowcard show, and that just makes me feel even more lousy. so roadtrip it is, and brother and sister will troop over to tucson for a good concert (i hear they're awesome live)... that's something to look forward to, seeing that i missed out on two concerts now (startingline/allister/homegrown and edgefest).. *sigh*.. okay enough concert talk.
i have a paper to write over the movie "a beautiful mind" for psych class. shouldn't be too bad, seeing that it was a good movie. i enjoy a good movie with a twist.
speaking of movies.. travis left his dvd of the lord of the rings:the two towers for us to watch.. but that movie has forever been tainted for me now, and i can't watch it without feeling.. i don't even know how to describe it. ah whatever. i'm just rambling now.
i forgot to mention that on friday there was a bomb threat at my school... an alarm went off that sounded different to the usual firedrill bell, and we didn't think much of it, cuz we thought like oh they tripped the switch or that maybe one of the nuns hit it by accident.. well NO. lol we started filing out of the buildings and i mean, we had no idea what was going on, so we were like just strolling out..thinking "not another damn firedrill!!"... well we waited for like 10-15 minutes and then we went back into the buildings. okay they make an announcement on how there was a bomb threat message on the principal's phone, and then the cops got there and analysed it and then decided "it didn't contain the elements of a real bomb threat message" and so they sent us back to our classes and told us to "be attentive" for anything out of the ordinary. LOL. what a JOKE. i was hoping that we could have been sent home or something. but no dammit. if there was some sort of natural disaster, school would still frickin continue. *rolls eyes*
anyway also at the mall on saturday, i forgot to say i finally gave in and bought the cowry shell necklace i've been eyeing from pacific sunwear for a long time. haha. great! i love it! go here to see it! yay! i have a weakness for all things beachy and pretty.
mmkay.

audio:: yellowcard- "one year, six months"

my car has reached 6000 miles. that means i have to take it for a second oil change. the first oil change was at 3000 miles and that was in like. july. so its been about 3 months and another 3000 miles? you know what that goes to show? i drive too much. fuck. i'm just waiting for the day my dad's gonna take my car away.
i'm pissed right now. my brother went out and bought the yellowcard cd. THE ONLY CD I WANT RIGHT NOW. ARGH that pisses me off. he knows that's the cd i want, and i want it because i love their music. he doesn't like them that much, and he's like oh you can burn a copy of it. you idiot. i already have a burnt copy. i want the damn cd. and then he goes out and buys one. gah dammit that pisses me off SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! and then he said he contemplated buying me a copy? YEAH WELL he didn't.
this isnt the first time he did that either.
WHATEVER.
filmed the video for homecoming yesterday. it turned out pretty damn good. it has to be edited and everything and then shown to the school on wednesday hopefully. i hate my school as well, BTW. the stupid vice principal didnt approve of the songs i took so much time and effort to mix. just because it said "hot in herre" and "pump it up" just those words too. thats all. gah fucking nun.
another thing thats pissing me off? my cd player in my car is messed up. i think a cd got stuck in it when it was trying to load another disc. fuck so it just makes noise and won't play anything. !$(&!#_%!#*&%_(*$!_)($*!@)
ARGH. nothing is going right.
my grades suck ass, i've been getting Cs and Ds on all my tests and quizzes. i don't know why either. ive been studying too! it's so blimmin retarded. it's like the new grading scale is out to get us. getting bad grades puts me in a bad mood because i feel stupid, and i hate feeling stupid. i know that sounds dumb, but i really honestly hate feeling inferior to the smart people, because i know i'm just as capable.
missed out on the football game yesterday due to some miscommunication and other junk. headed over to nate's cuz there was a party going on over there. i don't know why but he always seems so grumpy. it's almost like he DIDNT want to have people at his house. i was almost waiting for him to kick ash and me out, it looked like he didnt want us there. well the po-po came, so everyone had to get out of the house ANYWAY. ashley drove by the way, she got her license that day (yesterday). yay! hopefully that means less driving for me! anyway. yeah we left nate's place, i mean it was an alright party actually, caught up with a bunch of people i haven't seen in a long time... yep then i drove home from ashley's place (i parked there) although i was contemplating sleeping the night cuz i was tired. but i had to take lexi home so i didn't. came home and crashed on the couch till like 3am before i crawled off to my bed.
my brother and his friends are downstairs watching a movie i really want to watch right now. but i don't want to GRACE THEM WITH MY PRESENCE because i'm pissed he bought the yellowcard CD. that is so fucked up.
we were at the mall today, and i even got him his really belated gift today!. what the hell! i got him that damn abercrombie 'fierce' perfume that he ran out off. that shit is so frickin expensive too.
and in my last entry i was talking about how i was happy for him and respected him even.
STUPID BROTHER. STUPID FAMILY. STUPID PEOPLE!

audio:: YELLOWCARD. FROM MY COMPUTER. NOT A CD.

man.
i'm so full right now. lol. i had two fish tacos tonight and i'm just stuffed. but it was good so i'm definitely not complaining.
i'm in the midst of reading some Chaucer for english now, and i decided to take a nice ol' break.
i actually had a good day today! no moodswings or anything. i think it was all psychological however. i think i mentally said to myself that i would have a good day and nothing would put me in a bad mood. and well it worked, to say the least. when you wish and hope for something to happen, you will take the steps necessary for acheiving it, and it will happen.
man i enjoy my psychology class SO much. i'm tryin to apply it to my everyday life. application of psychology=good. :)
Ms. GP is gone this week however, and we're watching A Beautiful Mind in class while she's gone. i never had the urge to watch that movie on my own, but now from a psychological perspective, i think its a pretty damn good movie.
homecoming stuff.
wow, as this announcement skit co-chair, i've got a lot of work expected of me. we were going to announce the theme this friday, but since my CO-co-chair, katie m. and i don't know the theme or anything so we couldn't have come up with a video in the next 3 days, so they pushed it back a week for us. so i have to know the theme, come up with ideas, get people involved AND make a video in a week and a half. whoa. and after that, we gotta get the whole committee of people who signed up workin and we gotta come up with our 15 minute skit. and it can't just be a shitty skit to announce the king and queen nominees, it's gotta be good man. so i've got my work cut out for me. my mantra shall be "don't stress"... maybe by absorbing that mentality, i won't stress? lol we'll see.
i hate how everyone's got a boyfriend or dating some guy. yeah, i'm jealous that i don't have someone to spend snuggle time with and all that, and i just dont have someone. its gets me all sad and lonely. haha but then again, i LOVE how i'm not currently infatuated with any guy whatsoever. yeah you know how you have that one person in the back of your mind and all that, well yeah I DON'T. and it's kind of a nice relief in a way. WOW i contradict myself alot.
my brother has a philosophy on life right now. because he has to leave to go back to singapore for army next june, he decided at like beginning of this year, i think, that he's gonna do "EXTRA" everything. work hard, play hard. party hard, everything. and i respect that, because since he's gonna be stuck with guys 24/7 doing pushups, running around like a maniac and obeying orders, he might as well party it up as much as he can! i hope he gets in all the partying he possibly can, because i wanna see him happy, ya know?
somehow that shares my philosophy on life this year. which could be summed up with "no regrets". i remember making all my resolutions this year. and you win some and you lose some, right? i've done alot of stuff that i'm glad i have, because people regret stuff they don't do more than they regret the stuff they've done. yup.
hey even my college essay i wrote last night was about letting your hair down and just living in the moment, cuz honestly you only live once, right?
heh.
i'll stop being so full of my own convictions and theories now.
whoa, i just sneezed like 7 times. DAMMIT, WHO'S THINKING ABOUT ME?!?! heh. as a kid i was told when you sneeze, its cuz someone is thinking about you. but that was 7 times. is someone really thinking about me *wink*? hahahahhaaaa. OKAY OKAY I'LL STOP.

audio:: cooler kids- "morning star"

wow. 2nd entry today. and like 3rd this weekend.
i just felt the urge to say that college applications make life increasingly difficult.
although i'm applying to just one college, i still feel the stress and everything. so i feel really sorry for the people applying to like 3 or more or whatever. some people i know are applying to like 14! geez.
so in a way i'm glad i'm only applying to one, not by my own complete choice however. it sounds bad to say i'm forced to go to ASU, but my parents won't let me go anywhere else. geez, they even said UofA was too far away, and that's still an instate college! what the flippin heck.
well i completed my college application, self assesment (to help with my reccomendations), activites resume, senior courses in progress and transcript release form. and i'm about to start my college essay.
eh. this isn't the most entertaining process but it must be done.
i think my brother and mother are gonna help me push for on campus residency, phew. i'd prefer to stay in the dorms, that would be alot cooler, as well as fun-ner, as well as enriching, to say the least. hopefully my dad will give in. c'mon you're makin me stay instate, at least let me stay in the dorm! so i'm hopin i get some form of scholarship(s), then that might help me out in the finance department, eh?
alright alright, if only i could write about trials and tribulations on this college essay, oh but how boring that would be.
anyway, gotta get started. so i'm out.

audio:: the ataris- "in this diary"

i forgot to mention 2 things that made me really happy this weekend!
1. i washed my car saturday morning! so it's really bright and sparkly clean. :) i even vaccuumed the inside, because it was full of dirt and dust and everything. and ARGH omg, PEOPLE PEOPLE! my friends have a tendency to leave crap in my car. like starbucks bottles, and food wrappers and someone spilled lipgloss on the back seat, i've got a film canister cover, and theres pills (like advil? but not)and i'm like argh what the hell?! oh well it's better i cleaned it all out now, then have more junk in there later on.
2. anyway, the other thing was that sammie called! haha and he was still in church, and he wanted to know where my mom was. and i was like well i dunno she might be in that church now, or another one. and he's like I SEE HER I SEE HER! and he runs up to her and hands her the phone.. and i'm like "hey mom!" hahaha! it was great. i just thought it was funny i was talking to my mom on sam's phone. LOL. yup well that was last night and it definitely was a perk to my night, since i stayed home lol.

anyway. i'm lookin to change the layout on this blog.. except i'm so lazy and it's so much trouble to change everything. i even tried last night, but it was just too much of a hassle. BUT. damn its not so much summer anymore, now is it? lol.

audio:: the ataris- "so long, astoria"

hmm yes.
went to the football game yesterday!
we kicked ass too! in like the first few seconds of the game we got a touchdown and that just carried on through the rest of the game! i'm really proud of the football boys, it was great. like 50something to 12? or something like that. hehe yay!
ran into so many people at the game, was socializing most of the time, it was really hot however. all the freshmen had their hawaiian outfits on because they came from the frosh mixer (dance for all the freshmen) yep. pity i couldnt have been involved in it all, damn this student council shit. it makes me so ..useless.. ugh whatever, these damn pangs of hurt keep flickering across my mind whenever i think about it. being in school is so much tougher, beacause i was able to forget about it all during summer because i didnt have to deal with it. but i guess i have to take it with a pinch of salt. i'm trying, but it's difficult.
anyway. after the game we hit up some parties. haha. headed over aly's bf's place, but she said there weren't alot of people there, so we decided to not even go in. lol i felt a little bad. then we went to lindsey's, which was a nice low key thing, i liked it quite a bit. a whole bunch of random people there, who wouldn't usually hang out together. and so we were just socializing over there and i was playing with the blue fazer light i have on my keys, along with my fellow fazer light friend, mitch. haha we're cool like that. anyway. later we went over to mona's, but as we pulled in we caught a glimpse of the PO PO!!!!!!(police) and damn we just drove by instead of stopping. saw trisha walkin by the side of the street and picked her up, she was really scared cuz the cops were there so we headed over to the nearest fast food place to avoid the cops for a bit. TG and charlie came with and that was nice, we were just chillin outside the Carl's Jr. and eating. hehe. then we left there and went over to jason's house and hung out there for a bit. talked with the guys and lexi, kristin, jason, jared and max went swimming and i just sat near the pool freezing my butt off (dunno why it was so cold last night) and wrapped up in the towels that i used as blankets. it was getting late and so we left and yeah. got home at like 3am after a wild night of partying. it's a pity ashley wasn't with us, she went to watch jake's cousin's band play at the hard rock cafe after the game. but yeah i think she had a good time so thats COO. lexi and kristin stayed the night here so yeah lexi lived it up since she was staying at my place, and that equals no curfew. whee. well my dad got a little concerned at like 2.30 am and was like "holly come home, don't run around so late at night" heh. how cute.
anyway. i did the freshman retreat today. which was quite entertaining. so, 4 girls and 4 big brothers/retreat leaders and about 12 freshmen boys.. we gave the "friendship and dating" talk. it was so cute, all the freshmen boys were asking questions like how they should approach girls, where they can meet them, blah blah blah. it was really adorable to see all of them ask us about that and seek good advice from us >>EXPERTS<< hahahaa. yeah right. but anyway it was cute, and we had some good food and conversation. i'm glad i did it, it was a somewhat enriching experience.

audio:: pharrell williams- "frontin"