just because i have to do some homework and i am doing everything in my power to procrastinate, at least probably till 11pm, perhaps with a break for dinner thrown in somewhere, i will fill out this quiz thing although i'd rather be organizing my makeup.


Three names you go by:
1. holly
2. ho
3. bobby, X, spice, skank ho bitch, holland boone, hoe-land, etc.

Three screen names you have had in the past:
1. soulsista027 (ahhh had this one FOREVER, still use it though)
2. i can't tell you my other one. it's top secret information.
3. i don't have a third.

Three things you like about yourself:
1. my music taste is kind of obscure, lex's words to me: "where the hell do you find all this music from?!?!" yeeeah i don't know, i just do.
2. i pay attention to detail.
3. my curvy, voluptous body. (lolol)

Three things you hate/dislike about yourself
1. i'm actually pretty critical of how i look and stuff.
2. my self esteem varies almost daily.
3. my recent antisocialness.... well i don't know if i dislike it yet.

Three parts of your heritage:
1. chinese.
2. i was told hawaiian by my parents once, but i don't know if i believe them.
3. that's it, i think.

Three things that scare you:
1. heartbreak.
2. if my major/chosen career won't make me successful.
3. that i will never find a husband/get married/be single forever.

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. laptop/internet/music/ipod
2. FOOOOD, MUST EAT!
3. contacts, or on lazy days: glasses, i must be able to see, lol.

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. glasses (yes it's a lazy day + sunday + not showered)
2. junior class t-shirt, the green one with sammie's doodlettes all over the place/face.
3. pajama pants: the blue ones with white snowflakes.

Three of your favorite bands:
1. yellowcard, durrrr
2. death cab for cutie
3. dashboard confessional

Three of your favorite songs...right now:
1. pepper- "ashes"
2. bullets and octane- "pirates"
3. jimmy eat world- "pain"

Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months:
1. try not to give my trademark bitchy look so often
2. find a guy worth my time, or give a nice guy the time of day
3. waxing... as in legs and arms..ooh the pain.

Three things you want in a relationship:
1. to able to be as goofy/spazzy as i usually am.. aka be comfortable with the guy, and have the guy be comfortable with me.
2. an attraction/connection, a guy who just "gets" me, right off the bat.
3. hugs, cuddles and kisses.

Three physical things in the opposite sex that appeal to you:
1. ooh, dark hair + blue eyes + sideburns
2. athletic body type.. lean/skinny.. not big jock hunky dudes. (sorry)
3. good dress sense/style (whether it is preppy/skater/surfer/GQ/whatever), he needs to be able to pull it off WELL.
4. gonna throw in a 4th just for shits and giggles, i've been known to fall for charming boys. but that's more of a personality thing, than physical.

Three physical things in the same sex that appeal to you:
1. wavy/curly beachy looking hair.
2. flawless makeup application
3. also, ability to pull off fashion sense/style.

Three things you just can't do:
1. have a regular sleeping cycle.
2. leave home without my cell phone/keys/wallet. i even recite those words to myself when i look in my purse to check everything's there before i leave the house. nerd, i know.
3. calm my obsession/addiction to MAC and all other makeup.

Three of your favorite hobbies:
1. shopping, whether for clothes or makeup, i love it all.
2. chillin at home on the computer/listening to music/watching tv
3. looking through my photo albums and remembering all the good times. aww memories.

Three things you want to do really badly right now:
1. shower, i smell like the popcorn i ate earlier. grody.
2. eat dinner, or just eat. lol. damn i'm a pig.
3. cuddle on the couch or something related to boys and stuff.

Three careers your considering
1. advertising director
2. marketing director
3. wedding planner (dream job)

Three places you want to go on vacation:
1. hawaii, DAMMIT
2. mexico, like rocky point, or cancun, or mazatlan.
3. californiaaaaaaaaa here i comeeeeeeee....

Three things you want to do before you die:
1. be really successful and rich so i buy myself what i want, and buy the people i love the stuff they want too. yes, i am human, and yes materialistic too.
2. fall in love and get married.
3. have my 15 minutes of fame.


yup there ya go.
go forth and procreate!!

omg. i fucking hate annoying ass people that you don't know that try to hit on you online.

LISTEN FUCKERS, I'M NOT INTERESTED, NO MATTER HOW HOT YOU TELL ME I AM. TAKE YOUR FUCKING PATHETIC SELF AND SHOVE IT BECAUSE I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO THAN ENTERTAIN A MEANINGLESS AND WORTHLESS CONVERSATION WITH YOU. HOW ABOUT YOU TAKE A FUCKING PICTURE, IT'LL LAST LONGER. THANK YOU VERY FUCKING MUCH, HAVE A FUCKING GOOD DAY.

sorry, just HAD to get that out. GEEZ.

focker, out.

i think i'm getting old. and increasingly antisocial. i'd pick my best friends and like just chillin out at one of our houses and watching movies or doing nothing with them, rather than going out to some hoppin' party or frat party or something like that. what's happening? maybe i'm just too used to my comfort zone or something and i don't feel like stepping out of it to experience new things or meet new people. maybe i'm in a slump, and i just need some time to get out of it.

i also think that i am in a frame of mind where i just don't care about much anymore.. maybe it's this whole "mellow" thing i have going on, but i'm just not caring about alot of things right now, and i'm just not interested in anything. yep. just not interested.

regardless of my going out habits, or lack thereof, i have been sick this week and it blows the big one. i've got a cough and i'm losing my voice. so i'm doped up on all sorts of pills, the pill popper that i am. COOL.

lex, ash and i finally did our gift exchange for christmas, since ash was gone the whole break. now i can say what i gave them!! i got each of them the facecase in sellout from urban decay. for anyone who's not a makeup junkie like i am, its like this little compact case with 4 eyeshadows, 4 lipglosses/sticks and a blush. very cute and practical! except with all that christmas spending (and book buying this week) i'm completely broke. woohoo! anyway if i haven't said yet, lex got us clothes from aeropostale (WHICH I WEAR!) and ash got us little mini hookah's from south africa. hahaha i'm now a proud owner of my very own hookah. i showed my mom, and she was like... that's only for decoration, right? and i was like. sure thing momma. lol.

instead of going out last night (thus reenforcing my antisocial-ness), i carted my lazy ass over to lex's house and we watched harold and kumar go to white castle. after watching it, we thus decided that indeed, i am like harold, and she is like kumar. in many ways, of course. too many ways, actually. except for that i'm the messy one, and she's neat. most of the time. mahahahaha.

i can't really think of anything else to say so i'm going to ....do my homework. and yes i think i've reached ultimate nerd status, SWEET.


These eyes they're strongly covered in disguise
They're waiting on the real time again
You'll see that no one knows for sure

audio:: the early november- "i want to hear you sad"

recent developments:
classes started today, boo. my classes are really hard :(
i cut 7 inches of my hair off.
my dad broke his arm.
lex and i can't carpool to school this semester.
ash is home from south africa.
i bought 2 photo albums (600 pic capacity each!). finally!
dropped off 5 disposable cameras to get developed.
i have a huge poster from hollister that i want to put up, but it's so huge and heavy that i don't think it will stay up on my wall. uh oh. damn canvas BS.
my brother was put in the hospital bc he got really sick. :( i hate being so far away from him.
i've been on a cleaning spree and cleaned out my room, threw out a bunch of junk, reorganized my closet, cleared away clothes from my bay window seat thingy, took down posters on my walls, wired up the stereo system that has been sitting in my room for 4 years, vacuumed the floor, dusted everything, brought my laptop into my room (dragged internet cable over too) and cleaned out the inside of my car. GOOORGEOUSSSSSS. its all sparkly clean.
i have a new frame of mind. i see 2005 as a fresh, clean start.. literally, hence the cleaning spree. it's 2005 BABAY. 2004 is OVER. OVER OVER OVER OVER. no more leftovers! brand new everything! here we go, biatches!!!!

that's all i can say for now, bc i must sleep.


You got a lot to weigh so weigh it
If you got a lot to say just say it
Aren’t you tired of wasting fuel?
So now I hand the fuse to you.

audio:: pepper- "ashes"

as of today, january 7th 2005, i have been living in the U.S. for exactly 5 years.

drop it like it's hot, babay.

happy new year, folks!

i'm sitting here, on a sunday night (a day of rest!!!!) and i had an urge to blog, since i haven't really done alot of it lately. but my hands are really jittery, and i don't know why. it's not that i had alot of sugar today. but i do feel like i'm getting sick, and i couldn't eat today, like i've lost my appetite, and that's just really weird.

anyway. usually i'd probably sit here and go through 2004 and document important events and make new years resolutions. but that would have been better if it was still 2004, of course. but i guess i've gotten too lazy for that (if that's even possible). i'll just go with the generic saying that 2004 was a good year, in many ways, but i hope that 2005 will be even better. haha same ol same ol, isn't it?

i was thinking about my resolutions while i was in the shower today, washing soapy suds out of my hair that needs a haircut soon.... i guess i'd like to be more spontaneous, rather than needing a plan of some sort 24/7. i also want to be more chill, rather than spazzy and getting worked up or annoyed too quickly. so yep. my new years resolutions are:
1. be more spontaneous.
2. be more mellow.

wait a second. those two kinda contradict each other. oh well, i guess i'm fucked for 2005 then. hurray!

ok well i guess my motto shall be "this, too, shall pass", because not everything is as big of a deal as people make it out to be. lol. damn. i think i'm getting too old or thinking too old because i'm already thinking of mellowing out. wow.

um. well i guess i should talk about my own christmas and new years a bit, eh?
let's see. christmas was bangin, of course, since it's my favorite holiday season. i kinda felt something was missing though, and OBVIOUSLY the answer to that is that DUH, YOUR BROTHER IS IN SINGAPORE. so in other words, i'm going crazy because i don't have my big bro to talk to and joke around with. he's miserable in and out of camp and there's not alot i can do about it and it makes me miserable too. *sigh* anyway. um gifts wise, i got my ipod (YAY!) which i have been using non stop since i got it, lol. i also got some clothes from aeropostale and singapore (that my g-ma brought over) and hmm some jewelry, etc. i also got the jewel (lips) holiday palette from MAC, from my mom, and i was ecstatic. haha i <3 mac!!!!! oh yeah trav (and jen) got me the EDNA MODE doll from the incredibles, and she TALKS! hahahaha, so i guess if you ever hear me talking to myself in my room, i'm probably asking edna for some fashion tips or a makeover or something. lol.

um. new years eve was pretty fun, lex and i drove around alot, we mostly partied with the boys, but namely busta and mike since i drove us around to a bunch of parties. lexi's dad also gave us a room at the marriott since he's the manager there, and that was soooo niceeee!!!! new years day i had to work, and that was horrible bc i had a hangover from hell.. oh well.

um. well i can't type anymore because i'm really tired and i have to go into the office tomorrow at 9am, and FYI, that is just HORRENDOUSLY early for me. be proud of me slute.

i shall just end with a quote:
"A BOTTLE OF VODKA??!?!? ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME?!?!?!?!"

thank you, and goodnight.


All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you
Don't walk away

audio:: ashlee simpson- "undiscovered"