dad came home today.
and boy am i glad he did. :)
it's good to have him home, it's kinda reassuring.
he brought home a copy of my aunt's obituary and everything. it's so sad. i kinda wish i could have been there. she had a "sea burial" they put her ashes in the ocean. i think that's pretty damn cool.
anyway. on another somber note, today's "day of remembrance" mass was really nice. the choir sounded great and they got this famous trumpet player dude to come play, and ms. golden sang amazing grace and that was .. well, amazing. i have to say that's my favorite hymn. here's a little secret: i sing that to myself when i'm home alone. heh. not much of a secret lol.
dad brought home the coat my grandma made for me when she was in hong kong. well okay she didnt MAKE it, she got tailors in hong kong to do it. and it's friggin awesome. omg. it's GREAT. it's like calf length, dark gray and with a black fur collar and cuffs. when i tried it on, i kinda felt like i was part of the mafia, lol! but it's way cool, and i really like it, i've been waiting for my grandma to get it done for like a year. so yay!
physics test tomorrow and also the AZ history/government one after school. gotta call puney and we're gonna study together. i should get crackin. i've finished most of my homewizzle, homie, so i should be off like shots fired at 50 cent.

audio:: homegrown- "kiss me, diss me"
did i mention my brother went to the homegrown/starting line/allister concert? i was so jealous. but he bought me some starting line pins/badges so i forgave him. he lost one of the teeshirts he bought in the crowd however, i feel bad for him. lol. okay i'm out.

ah.
this week sucks pretty damn bad.
a whole lot of tests going on (why is it chapters must all end in the same week, thus causing tests ALL week?!) eh. lotsa deadlines too.
i came to the conclusion that senior year is really expensive!
we've got yearbook pictures (mine turned out okay, phew) and senior yearbook ads, graduation announcements... and thats the stuff i know of for now. there's gonna be alot more so i'm kinda worried about all the finances.
hmm.
so i took my first psychology test, that i was pretty prepared for, i stayed up for so long studying. and yeah well people didn't do too well, mostly Cs and Ds, but i managed to pull a B. so i was pretty damn shit happy about that. thats awesome because i really do enjoy my psych class and i want to do well in it. ms. GP is pretty damn cool as well.
well. today i bombed a math test (that we had to take amidst a fire drill. so it was like.. start test.. fire drill bells go off, stop test, assemble outside, run back, continue test) and THAT SUCKED! ugh i thought it was really retarded of my teacher to do that. "oh yeah by the way, there's a firedrill this period.." *jaws drop* "but you'll still take the test"
isn't that just PEACHY?!
agh then my philosophy test. DAMMIT it was friggin memorization work and i had no idea what i was doing so i was just filling in random answers. GAH dammit.
this year isn't going too well academically.
our activites resumes were due today, to our counselors.. more college stuff. and the thing is, i actually DID mine. and very nicely too. but i left it at home on the printer. *pulls hair out*
today was just really poopy overall.
till i got home that is. i took a long ass nap and lexi came over just to say hi. LOL. you woke me up, foo. hahahhaha! she jogged over too, that girl has too much energy!
hmm lets see what else.
i want to watch the show The O.C. it looks friggin good and i've only caught an eensy bit of one episode. dammit lol the guys are pretty hot and it seems to be engaging enough to stay stuck to the couch to watch. but isn't that like every other tv show anyway? with the exception of that new reality show, newlyweds? with nick lachey and jessica simpson? OMG that is the STUPIDEST reality show i have ever seen. it was a waste of time and there was absolutely nothing else on, and ARGH she is such a lazy SPOILT BRAT!!!!!! *rant rant*
okay. its just a show.
this saturday, i'm going to do this freshmen retreat for one of my buddies, larky. basically the boys (school) get all the freshmen together.. sorted into groups at some dudes house, and the big brothers (thats what larky is.. and his real name is joe, i just call him larky) get [older] girls to come and talk to the freshmen.. about like adjusting to a boys school, when and where they can meet girls.. and like larky says .. tell them they'll never have a chance. LOL. oh well should be fun and i don't mind. i'll have to drag lex and ash along too.
football game this friday.. yeah should also be fun.. i just hope it doesn't rain like last time. *rolls eyes*
i feel like there's more i should say, but i can't think of anything more.
because i'm a nut, here's a picture of (left to right) me, lexi and ashley. hear no evil, see no evil and speak no evil, respectively. yes we're really weird. YAY OK PLZ THANX OMG LOLZ. haha.
edited to say: sorry for the crappy lighting. and that's leia walking by in the background. AND. that was at senior prayer day. don't know if i've mentioned prayer day though. that was last friday. hangin with the class of 04. yeah baby. heh ok i'm done


audio:: goldfinger, mest, good charlotte- "the innocent" (dedicated to 9/11)

hmm. as promised. here we go.
so this week has been quite shitty overall. lotsa ups, lotsa downs.
hmm. i didnt do much this weekend at all. felt a bit weird because i'm always out. lol. friday i stayed home (wow loser) lol and just watched tv and lazed around at home. saturday i wasnt planning on doing anything big, but lexi called me and asked me to go over to alex's house with her, since she was already there and she wanted me to go. so i got off my lazy ass and went there, thank god it was so near. it was really nice and laid back, i'm kinda glad i went.. the scenery outside his house is really pretty and i just sat there and kinda stared off into space. LOL. but yeah. it was nice. saturday night. i just had the urge to go out, but lexi had to babysit and ashley had to work, so i met up with leia and we went over to kelly g.'s house. which was just cute bc we sat around watching all dogs go to heaven and chilled out. heh good times i guess. um yeah. lexi came too after she got done with babysitting. we called jon and he was at his friends house and said he would meet up with us after midnight.. lol. well since i dont have a curfew i was like whatever, anything goes. we ended up leaving kelly's because lex had to go home. and i had some time to kill. but i went home anyway and decided i would go out later on when jon gave me the heads up. lol. well. i guess he lost track of time so i called him and he was like OH we're not gonna get done here till like 2am. haha so i was like nevermind then i'm getting tired. so. haha i just went to sleep. what an exciting night, eh?
today i should be going over to lexi's because its her dad's birthday, so theyre kinda having a late lunch thing and they invited me, so i'll be going over in a little bit.
uh yeah. one major down this week.. is Lucas. *rolls eyes* yeah. okay okay i just need to get this out then i'll shut the hell up. all i have to say is that when i THOUGHT i finally found a guy that i liked and liked me back, that things would work out right? wrong ms holly, wrong. ugh. whatever. me and boys are just two things that will never get along. i think i'm destined to just be a friend for the rest of my life.
well. after that big downer.
two good things happened this week, maybe it will help override the bad parts..
1. we had our first rally! and being seniors, we won :) yep. hahaha we've got the spirit thing down. we had awesome posters and leis, and red paper thingies and yeah it was just good. we rocked the red. haaa ( okay okay red is the senior color, get it?) alrighty then, that was a good thing.
2. the homecoming chairpeople held interviews with people who wanted to be sub-committee chairs this week. i decided what the heck i'll try for one. and heh. they announced who they picked, and i heard my name and i was in like a daze for a few minutes. heh. awesome. i'm co-chair for the announcement skit committee, which i'm told is the best one to be on. :) YES. i get to plan a skit (thats usually funny) to announce the theme and homecoming king/queen nominees to the school! and they told me they chose me over all the other people and rejected the rest because they felt i could do the best job. somehow i feel it was a pity vote, but ya know, what can you do right? i got a flower and name tag that says i got it, so thats good too.
um yeah.
thats all i can remember now, i'm off to clean the house before my brother kills me.

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got bored.
i was out earlier tonight. but i came home. i'm supposed to go out again.. i think.
we'll see. ive got some stuff to let y'all in on. so i'll update tomorrow.

ugh.
i am SO frustrated right now that i just want to cry.
I HATE THIS.
ARGH WTF.

audio:: Lit- My own worst enemy.

i should be doing my homework. because i have alot of it to do. but i figured a new entry was crucial.
bear with me. this is going to be long.
i've had such a topsy turvy week you have no idea.!
um right. lets start tuesday, because monday was just boring and i hate mondays. usually not today though because it's labor day and theres no school. (fyi: singapore's teachers day sept 1st is america's labor day!!) um righty o moving along.. tuesday: i was pulled out of class to meet my counselor. *sigh* the dreaded college talk. we were sorting out what college(s) i was gonna apply to, and all the applications and what not involved. it's so scary and intimidating. bleh. i was talking to her for about an hour and a half and missed one computer class, and half of the other. yeah. sucky. oh well. the only thing that kinda got me a little weirded out by my counselor (besides her talking to me for a long time!) was that she told me the school has psychologists who come in to listen to the girls problems... and well yeah its probably the only time psychologists will ever be free of charge, but the thing is, my counselor said that she could set me up with an appointment. and i asked why??(she would think of such a thing) and she said that well the whole student council thing still has repercussions on me. well yes it does. (more on that later) but i mean she didnt need to tell me that i needed to see the school psychologist!! *sigh* whatever, maybe i'm in denial. anyway that day were play tryouts for "a midsummer night's dream".. i tried out for the part of titania.. the queen fairy (michelle pfieffer in the movie) and i thought i did okay.
wednesday..summer reading test. as seniors ours was open book (yay) and it was 2 essays and we had 1 hour 20 minutes to write them. whoa. it was intense. i think i bombed one essay and did better on the other. oh well. at least no test on the poetry book.. phew.
thursday, school yearbook pictures! seniors get lotsa privileges btw, i love it (we get to go for lunch 15 minutes earlier than everyone else cause we dont have to watch the crappy news show.. wooo!!!!!) we got to wear our own clothes for our pictures, and not our uniforms. but of course they had to be appropriate, nothing too low cut, too short, sleeveless or midriff showing. so i wore this bright turquoise (yay!) shirt that ginny gave me a while back (yeah i still have it! LOL)and a black ruffly skirt and my turquoise necklace. :) i woke up so early too! did my hair and everything. lol damn those pictures, they better come out good! and the best part is that the dean commented the next day that she was so impressed that we dressed so nicely and hardly anyone got into trouble for wearing inappropriate clothes. and of course i think we're like the only class (OF 2004 BABY!) that ever got such a compliment like that from the damn dean herself. fuck yeah! also it was play callbacks.. i made callbacks, yeah, thats great, but i didnt get called for the part i wanted, and i was called for hippolyta, whose like a smaller part overall. *sigh* damn shit. oh well i figured i'd do that part and if i dont get cast then fuck that, i wont do the show and waste my time. speaking of wasting my time....yeah that day they never got to audition hippolyta. so i waited frickin 3 hours in school for nothing. what a load of shit, and i hate wasting time!!!!!!!!!! GAH DAMMIT. and not only that, it was my brothers bday. (he's 20, congratulate him) and the mtv video music awards were that night (didnt end up watching it, but caught it like saturday) and i had a shitload of homework.
i do apologise for the cussing and swearing in this entry, it adds effect i guess. lol and yes this is how my speech usually is, ITS HORRIBLE I NEED TO CUT DOWN!!!!!!!
um friday was just a shitty day overall.. but friday NIGHT is another story. so friday in school was like shit.. crappy day i had all my hard classes (i dont like fridays!) and there was that mass, SIGH. they honored all the student council officers and everything and that sucked ass. because they all got called down and blessed and everything and there was a very resentful holly sitting in her seat with her homeroom wishing she was up there. why am i talking in third person? ah anyway that sucked ass. so yeah i guess it still bothers me and it always will, but i dont think i need to see a psychologist about it!
anyway. i finally got to get onstage and do my audtion for hippolyta. i botched it up because i was in a pissy mood already and so i dont think i got the part but i told ms robillard (director) that i was only going to take hippolyta or nothing. because i'd rather not be an extra and waste my time sitting around at rehearsal doing nothing. once again, another issue with wasting time. thank you, it is one of my pet peeves. okay.
the cast list is posted tuesday and i think i'm one of the only calm people about it. everyone else is like OMG OMG OMG I HOPE I MADE IT and all and i'm just so chill and like whatever i dont really care if i make it or not. because it is a win win situaton ANYWAY. get into the play? YAY for being in the play. NOT making it? yay because i dont have to drive everyday myself and sneak into school because i dont have a carpool and i get to go home early and NOT WASTE TIMEE!!! .
so that was shitty, eh?
friday night. we went to emily (crack!!!!)'s house for a party. and like OMG it was friggin HUGE!!! i have never seen such a big party in my whole life. that was most def. the biggest party ive been too, everyone just jam packed into her house and backyard, it was nuts! i haven't seen emily since she left school for another one at the end of soph year ( i dont blame her, no i dont) and so it was great to see her again. saw so many people it was great! the only thing is .... the cops came (HOLY SHIT THE PO PO!!!!) haha. so yeah. holy moley. almost everyone backed up into the backyard and like. fuck it was scary so we scaled the 8 foot wall and ran like pissants! haha we got so friggin scratched up by the wall, i have battle wounds. lex and ash were intoxicated, so we were walkin around the neighborhood (or running i guess) and we finally got back to our cars, and shannon and i got our cars and drove back to get lex and ash. whoa! what an experience!! haha runnin from the po po!!! we went back to erics house for a bit to recooperate and drink some water and everything. later eric and jenya left to go to j-box, and shan, lex and ash and i went to brian's. yeah. lol that place is like our safe haven. damn brian is TOO nice! haha. um yes, brian's house was definitely more fun in more days than one. *wink*
let's say i really like Lucas ("MAX!!!!") and i hope he calls me. haha! :)
um yeah. kay i have to say a real big SORRY SORRY SORRY to lexi for getting her home late and in trouble with her mom that night, i feel absolutely horrible about it and i will make it up to you somehow, i swear!. and no matter how worth it that it was, i don't ever want to get you in trouble. so i'm so SO SO SO SORRY!
hmm saturday.. i was recooperating from such a wild party night, all the scratches and everything on my arms. WHOA. lol. it was LEXI RICHTER'S BIRTHDAY! so i went and met up with her and her crew for 2 games of LASER QUEST!!!!! fuck yeah i love laser quest!!!! haha i'm such a nerd but i LOVE IT! i came in 7th for one of the games cuz i just kick ass like that and the other game like 20th, LOL because i stayed in one spot with puney and steph and just chilled. hahaha. instead of goin commando nuts in the first game. whoa. i'm such a guy! HAHAHAHA
anwya we went back to puney (richter's) and had food and chilled at her house. soooo farrr awaaaayyy..... anyway it was great i had a really good time and enjoyed myself tons. their friend mike is HILARIOUS! i couldnt stop laughing and omg the gifts and cards puney got, omg SO FUNNY! haha can't forget those picky cards and the GAS!!!!!!! hahahaha omg fantastic.
i wanted to head out to this dude eric (another one)'s party after, cuz thats were shannon and ash had gone to.. and like. i was too tired though and just went home. however i had a good time driving home because i was racing this guy in an acura rsx, LOL and like c'mon my car is shit compared to his car, but i still beat him! HAHAHAHHA that was fun. OH and Lucas called that night. :) HAAAAAA. didnt get to talk to him alot though because i was on the verge of leaving puney's and saying bye to everyone. :)
sunday. OH i forgot to mention my mom came home again this weekend for the long 3 day weekend (YAY LABOR DAY!) and yeah we all went to church. and then farted around at home and my mom made me a new necklace and a couple bracelets and they're awesome, i love my mom. she bought all the beads back in singapore and everything so that was fun. um yeah the neighbors came over for dinner but then it was so sad because my dad got a call from my cousin daphne, that my aunt wendy had just passed away. yeah the one with cancer? yeah she went .. on her birthday too. sept 1st. rest is peace ku-ma. you weren't very nice to my brother and me, but you were still my aunt so i guess i still feel bad. oh well. HOLY SHIT I'M MEAN. not but it really was sad. the only other time i've seen my dad cry is when his mom died last year. wow. mom and sister almost exactly a year apart from each other. i feel so bad for my dad. :(:(:(
anyway. so yeah that was chaos. my mom and dad left for singapore once again this morning. and my bro, me and cousin are home alone ONCE AGAIN!. DAMMIT I HATE NOT HAVING MY FAMILY TOGETHER!!!!!!!. and that stupid kid better not misbehave again if not i'm gonna do something really drastic that involves a cellar and ROPE! (haha tim!). he is such a LITTLE BRAT!!!!!!!
anyway. yeah so in the midst of everything last night i just got uncontrollably HYPER. holy shit it was like i was drunk or high of something. OR SOMETHING. but i couldnt stay home! so i went out with shannon and ash... ASHLEY JUST GOT A CAR!!!!!!!!!!!! A BRAND NEW HONDA CIVIC EX. HOLY FLYIN MONKEYS!!!!!!. haha wow. i'm so happy for her, it was definitely a moment to celebrate so we went over to her house and drove around her neighborhood in her new car. and i stuck my head and arms out her sunroof and the the whole titanic thing. it was great! hehe yay!. later shan and i left to go meet her friend mitch outside a taco bell. anyway her friend probably thought i was on crack or something and yeah oh well. haha i was so weird. um yeah! good times i guess. i like shannon alot she is such a funny girl! i hope that ash, lex, shan and i can hang out more often and become better friends! then it can be the 4 of us cruisin and partyin and haha ASU HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!! and no lex, THERE WILL BE NO REPLACING OF PEOPLE. ONLY ADDING!!!!!!! THATS RIGHT HOMIE, ONLY ADDING!
ALRIGHTY.
before you guys think i'm on drugs or some kind of inhalant... haha today is labor day. i have a shitload of homework, trav is over and my brother is gonna fire up the grill and we're gonna have dinner, and i already jumped in the pool today, and they're in the pool now, so i might just go join them. trav's roommate dave is coming over and bringing the two towers and next friday (MOVIE NIGHT) but i have so much homework i dont know what i'm goin to do!!!!!!.. i miss my mom and dad already AGAIN. and everything and oh well. i hope everything is alright back there, although ive missed my grandma's funeral last year, and i'm missing my aunt's now. this fucking sucks ass. i'm just such a ball of crazy mixed up emotions right now that i just need to QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow i'm a typing maniac. i'm gonna go jump in the pool again!
CIAO MA CHANAS!

audio:: dammit alot of the songs on my winamp playlist. LOL. too many songs played over the course of this entry. OKAY I'M OUT!!