hello friend.
january is almost over, time is going pretty damn fast. but today in english i was counting down the days before i graduate, because yeah i admit, i've given up listening to my teacher already while he goes on and on about Wordsworth's poems. ANYWAY, this includes weekends and holidays, but there are 106 days left of school. that might not be right though, because i don't really trust my counting skills. hahaa.

yeah so i got something in the mail from ASU, they've invited me to be a 'Dean's Scholar' in the dean's direct program, which basically means because i'm gonna be in the business program, in the second year, there's a competitive admissions process to get into the third/fourth years bc they only take a select number of people, through this dean's scholar deal i get a guaranteed admission. :) all this cuz i have "academic accomplishments". haha great, in other words, i get rewarded for busting my ass at xavier. that's pretty damn cool, and i'm pleased.

let's see. oh, i went to see the doc on monday, and um. i don't have a cold, or pneumonia or anything, which is a relief, but the bad news is that i've got allergies. ROFL. i felt like crap all last week because i've got ALLERGIES. hot damn. i've never had them in my life so i had no idea why i was feeling like that, and all along i thought it was a cold. but yeah. doc says otherwise. i don't know what i'm allergic to though, he says i can take some blood tests and see what it is, and i'm like cool i'll be going back for those. lol. so i gotz a stash of clarinex, i can hook y'all up. lol JUST JOSHIN.

musical rehearsals have been going on, and we're learning the songs now. but i have to say this: those are the weirdest sounding songs i've ever heard in my life. the tunes and melodies just don't seem to "flow" very well. but oh well what can you do when the composers were on crack when they wrote the music? nothing, my friends.

so hay. if you can get your hands on a copy of the March 2004 YM magazine with chad michael murray (guy from one tree hill) on the cover.... turn to page 111. and then scream in shock and give my phone a ring-a-ling and tell me "OMGOMGOMGOMG DID YOU KNOW YOU'RE IN YM!?!?!"
doh. yes sirs and madams, a bunch of friends and i are in YM. :) pretty cool, eh? theres a nice big [and bad] picture plus a short article on where kids hang out these days. however, don't believe a word that the article says because it was all fabricated to sound believable. but it really isn't true. i don't hang out at a desert landscape scenic tourist spot (aka Papago Park). no. REALLY, i don't. okay well maybe on the weekends. hahahaha nah, kidding again. i actually have a better time hanging out at home. that was all just for the mag, and photographer, he wanted some place unique. and i was like uh, how more unique can you get than desert ridge.. it's an outdoor mall for goodness sakes. that's not an outlet mall, but like real, actual stores. and HEY i actually work there too. lol. oh well, can't complain THAT much, it's already in print. but it's pretty cool to have random people stop you in the halls and say hey i saw you in YM, and then having me say thanks, but don't read the article. lol. but find me, i'll hand out autographs for free. mahahaha.

this saturday has two concerts going on. numba one is Lillypalooza, a benefit concert for cystic fibrosis held at brophy college prep. $12, doors open at 5.45pm. show at 6.30, i think. 4 bands are playing, Redfield, theStart, Affiliation and Fourbanger. the lineup might have changed though, i'm not sure. you should go! it's a good cause, and i know some people who have worked really hard for this to happen (i think andrew miller deserves alot of the credit). so yeah. next concert, my friend and co-worker gian.. and his band are playing at the mason jar. their first real gig, so go check them out, tickets are 4 dolla i think.
[interruption: gross, my brother just tried to wipe some snot on me. would you believe he's 20 yrs old? i wouldn't].
um okay, that was uncalled for. anyway, i'll be working saturday i think, but if i go to anything it will probably be Lillypalooza. yeah!

so i'm gonna go try and do some homework. i said try, mahaha.

closing quote: [ just cuz i feel like saying this ]
SHARKBAIT! BRU HA HA!

audio:: Switchfoot- "gone"

happy chinese new year y'all!

one of the disadvantages of living here in the states is that there's no big ass family reunion dinners, and relative visiting and everything, and also of course, not much money collecting anyway. i miss all the festivities of chinese new year.
help! my culture is slipping away!
it's sad, really. but not much we can do because we don't have that many chinese/singaporean family friends here.
i just got one ang pow (red packet) from my parents, and one in advance from my grandmother. that's kinda pathetic, but i'm not complaining, i'll take the money anyday. lol.
pity that i even forgot today was chinese new year until i was writing the date down on some papers in school, and i was like "oh!". but still, it's not like i stood up and announced it to my class anyway, bc they'd be like, "what?! oh holly just sit down and don't be so loud." lol.
okay, enough of that.
so i caught a cold, over the weekend i think, because i was prancing around outside in a skirt, silly me. so now i'm all stuffy, with a blocked nose and a major headache. oh the joys of being sick. and i just got better from the flu too. stupid. i blame it on the weather however, (and my short skit, yes) because spiking 20 degrees in one day and then dipping back down all of a sudden with downpours can certainly take its toll on a disgruntled, overworked and exhausted student. hear, hear!

um. let's see. i got voted for a senior superlative! aka senior mosts for the yearbook... (like: most likely to succeed, most detentions, most laid back etc etc). i got "most spirited". hahahhaa along with 5 other girls (3 of which are from student council, 1 cheerleader and the last one is the school mascot). i figure i got it because of that whole homecoming thang, so woohoo. our picture was kickass because we all dressed up, like dawn who is the mascot, put on the gator suit, and ashley b. put on her cheerleader outfit, and then we had like posters and then me in my senior teeshirt, tiara and pompoms. oh man, we kick ACE. haha i can't wait for the yearbook this year. lexi got most out of uniforms, lol. and ashley got voted in brophy's yearbook for "miss brophy", something like that.

mmkay.

audio:: jack johnson- "holes to heaven"

4 day weekend update!

halla back youngin, this is how my weekend went down. thursday was a half day yes, so i came home and messed around the whole afternoon and night, and no i didn't go out, i just stayed home, danced around my house, watched tv and was a bum for the whole night.
friday morning, i dragged my sleepy ass out of bed and headed to this salon with lexi and ashley to get our pictures taken for the fashion show's program thingy, because they need pics of us "getting our hair and makeup done", and obviously, they can't use pictures they take the morning of the fashion show, because that would be too late to go into the program right? so lexi's mom got ashley and me to go and do this for her. i mean, no harm done afterall, they just pretended to do our hair and makeup. well then lexi and i got our hair cut. hahah i was so happy, i got my hair cut for a measly $15!!!! at a rocked out salon too. damn that's a good deal. so awesome. anyway SO YEAH, i got my hair cut. um, it was really long, approximately 4 inches above my belly button, and now it just touches the back bra strap area. hahaha. sorry thats the only way i can describe it. it feels alot lighter, and neater. i kinda miss it though, but that happens everytime i cut my hair, as some of y'all know, i hate getting it cut.
k nuff hair talk.

i had to work on friday too 3pm-8pm. stuck in the dressing room the whole time. urrrrgghhh.
friday night we went to a crazy party, it got broken up by the po-po, and then we went to another dude's house where everyone at that the first party ended up at too, so it was partay at 2 venues. hahaha man there were some whacked out people there, for example, this one guy with a scarf tied around his head dancing on the table, it was mad crazy.
indeed!
we hung out with daaaavid at the 2 parties, man we love that kid, he's so funny. and he has this green blazer (go st marys, hahaha) that he wears everywhere, it's great. also, ashley and lexi have a tendency to take off on their own and go scout out some boys, and they leave me by my lonesome, well partly because i was too exhausted from work to actually walk around, so i took a seat and was pimpin it with the guys for the night. YES THANK YOU. i enjoy being a pimp. hahahahaha. except that this guy rory was really gone and was kinda sprawling himself all over me and keith had to help me out with that one. haha phew. i also taught some guy to play chopsticks on the piano (the only thing i know how to play), and went skipping backwards with daaavid to ashley's car. that concludes my friday night.

saturday i had to work again from 2pm-7pm (dressing room AGAIN). and then lex, ash and i went for a low key night and caught a movie. Cheaper by the Dozen! haha with tom welling, steve martin, bonnie hunt, and piper perabo. we were a little late for the movie, so we missed like the first 10 minutes. anyway, it was really funny, and i quite liked it. i felt so bad for the kid named mark aka fed-ex, and his frog beans, and hilary duff still annoys the crap out of me, and ashton kutcher was hilarious as piper perabo's boyfriend. it's like a feel good movie, so go check it out.

sunday, i went shopping with my brother at PV mall, we checked out a bunch of stores, and had some good ol' brother/sister bonding time. i hate thinking about how i'm not gonna have my brother around for 2 and a half years once he has to go back to do military service back in singapore. :( k no unhappy thoughts!.
sunday night, lexi came over and we just spent the night calling people and talking to them, and freaking them out, because we didn't feel like going out. uh yeah. we're really weird. hahahahaha

oh, my bro and i rented some movies too, S.W.A.T. (not my pick), johnny english (for my parents, they love rowan atkinson aka mr bean), and pirates of the caribbean (HOT DAMN, johnny depp.. drool... orlando bloom.... mmm). hahah obviously that was my favorite. and damn it was good. arrrrrgh matey! hahahaha, sorry a little slow on the pirate uptake, bc i never caught that movie in the theatres, because (im not sure if you remember), but i had huge issue with taking care of my stupid cousin during the summer. beh.

anyway. today i woke up late, ate some cereal at 1pm, and rewatched part of 'pirates' and i landed up here in front of the computer.
that's about it really, my weekend was kinda relaxing and i caught up with some sleep, and i'm still not doing my homework. ..sounds good to me :)

audio:: alice deejay- "better off alone" (bustin out some old school techno dance music, baby)

one more [half!] day of school until my four day weekend. i absolutely, positively, cannot wait!

school sucks, homework sucks, teachers suck, getting clay from my ceramics class all over my uniform sucks, driving sucks, nasty nappy hair sucks, having to go to school sucks!!! it suckity suckity sucks sucks sucks sucks !!

that's nuff 'sucks' from me. talk about being OPTIMISTIC, hey?

lol actually, i'm a pretty good mood, not sure why, i should be as grumpy as i was on monday, considering all things, but maybe because everything around me is so desolate and depressing (oooh alliteration), that i have no other choice but to be somewhat happy.
before i continue blabbing about nothing in particular, i'd like to say that i got into the musical! i am now officially part of the chorus of "How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying". hahaha, yea chorus, i'm happy with that, and since there are only like 4 main girl parts (and however many main guy parts), and then the chorus [as of right now], it's only the cool people who are in the chorus (or so i'd like to keep reminding myself. haa). YEAH so snap, i'm in the musical, less time for myself! yay.

speaking of the chorus in the musical, i have to sing and dance alot right? singing is a problem yeah, but dancing, not so much. well i THINK it won't be a problem, because i know i can dance, but i just don't have formal ballet or jazz or tap training or anything. all i got is my rhythm i guess. (sometimes that isn't enough). so it makes me wish my parents sent me packin to dance class when i was a kid. dammit. all i got was martial arts (aikido) training. fat lot that did for me, i still don't have a dance background. beh. oh well though, i'll just ....keep on truckin.

i realize i gripe about the stupidest things.

audio:: something corporate- "ruthless"

freakin A double freakin!

dammit i've been in a shitty mood all day and it's not getting better.
i almost got into >2< car accidents this morning while driving to school, one driver stopped reeeeally abruptly in front of me and i had to freakin screech to halt and that scared the living daylights out of me, and i got so flustered that i almost got into another accident. NOT PRETTY. when i got to school all i felt like doing was curling up on the backseat and crying.
not only that, just having to go to school was a drag beyond all belief, and i was barely staying awake in all my classes, and i was ready to poke my eyes out with my pencil. physics sucks, precalculus sucks and everything else does too.
:(
today is my mom's birthday too, and i called her to wish her happy birthday, since she's back in san fran working. yea well turns out we were talking for a bit and i found out that she gave away the tote bag that i specifically asked her to save and keep for me. (background story: she bought alot of bags and purses and scarves when she was in shanghai, and there was this particular silk tote bag that i wanted. i asked for the silver one, but she gave it away, then i asked for my next choice, the red one, but she gave that one away too, THEN as a last resort i asked for the black and red one, AND SHE SOLD IT!!!!!!) now, as you all know, a cardinal rule is to "NEVER MESS WITH A GIRL'S PURSE", dammit i'm so pissed off too, because i had specifically asked her to save the one i wanted, and she gave it away, and this HAPPENED TWICE, and then she sold all the rest. i was so pissed and moody about that and i still am.
*SIGH*
i guess i'll have to go find myself another tote bag, even though the one i had wanted was all the way from shanghai, the perfect size and had chinese calligraphy all over it. )$&#_$*!@)($*!@_)&!!!!

i'm finding it VERY hard to be optimistic these days.

well i should go and attempt the mountain of homework that i have tonight, and study for another psychology test. i'll let you know if i make it through the first page of notes.
i can only look forward to my 4 day weekend. and then spring break and graduation, and then finally summer, when i get to go back to singapore. AND THEN august, when i get to go to mexico.

ya know, my psychology teacher gave us some really good advice the other day, she said that we (as seniors) shouldnt be looking forward so much into the future [graduation] because we'll miss everything that's gonna happen in between.
good advice yes, but very hard to stick to. no doubt, it's gonna be challenge fo sho.

audio:: linkin park- "runaway" (a very good angry song, with some good screamy parts you can scream along to, like i've been doing.)

well the week has been tough. and i've been ploughing through my homework all day.
this whole week basically consisted of classes, homework, report card (i did okay, could have been better, but physics and precalc is tough! lol or maybe i'm just stupid)....ya and the weekend was full of fashion show rehearsals, work, a really random night out with shannon and a party last night that was a little out of control.
overall it was a pretty tough week, and i'm barely surviving due to lack of sleep.

pretty boring, nothing too thrilling going on. oh except that i decided to try out for the musical anyway, even though i said i wouldnt. i figured if i'm gonna be sticking to my new years resolutions, then i better do every freaking thing i can, so i don't regret it. i bombed the audition though, i got too scared and since i can't really sing well, it was pretty nerve-wrecking. aah. whatever though, if i get a role, i get one, if not, then no big loss, it wasn't meant to be.
i think this lack of sleep thing has turned me into a zombie, thus making me a little to chill about everything.

eh.

audio:: trapt- "headstrong"

hey y'all.
so it's Back To School Monday today, yeah, christmas break is officially over, and i woke up early and dragged my ass to school indolently. ugh. it was horrible, rolling out of my warm and comfy bed. i detest mornings.

so yeah, new years, hey. we ended up goin over to brian's house because we weren't sure about all these other parties, if they were happening or not. so yeah, brian's it was. quite fun i must say, kt drove us that night, which was awesome, good drunken fun on all our parts. we had alot of funny moments, especially with a guy jude who had never gotten drunk before, haha. also um, being distracted by what was playing on the tv, as well as me pimpin it all over the place with all the boys. hmm, P-I-M-P that's what i'm saying. HAHA! i learned how to play pool! haha as pathetic as it sounds, i've never really learned how to play, so i finally learned, and i managed to sink a couple of cue balls so i was elated. we had some deep conversations with the guys, and we brought in the new year with good times. yep. i mean it wasn't like the biggest party of the year or anything, but it was fun enough for me, we got home at like 4am and the girls stayed over. happy 2004 everyone!

um thursday night, my whole family went out of town to vegas and to see the grand canyon and stuff, so i decided not to go on the trip. i stayed home to take care of the house, and ended having some people come over and hang out and al. yep, a kickback party at my house. it was quite enjoyable, though disappointing in some ways, but hey, carpe diem right? i took my chance and threw a party while i could. haha ashley and i wallowed in our misery and sorrows by drinking and smoking her hookah (hubbly bubbly!!!) in my backyard. haha that was probably the funnest part of the night. we talked about new years resolutions and boys and blah blah blah. i love drunken deep conversations, haha i really do! we passed out in my living room afterwards. jon was supposed to sleepover too, but his parents got into an argument and his mom needed him home. i felt really bad for him, but i hope he's okay. haha first party of the new year. congratulations to me! hahahaha!

hmm. btw, over the break, i had to read Pride and Prejudice for english class, so i finished that in like the first couple of days of break, and then i decided it was time to re-read my harry potter books, so i broke out the 3rd, 4th and 5th books, and finished those too. man the 3rd book will always be my favorite, and i can't wait for that movie to come out. june 4th baby, i'm already excited. have you seen the trailer? haha damn. good shit. haha i'm such a dork.

i missed a road trip with TG, jon and some of their guy friends, because i had to take care of my house while my family was gone, so i couldnt go on the trip. damn it would have been alot of fun, but oh well, next time.

we had our first fashion show rehearsal on saturday, except that it turned out to be like a half hour meeting, kinda a waste of time, but oh well, i found out that i'm in 4 numbers in the show, so that's cool. there's the opening number, my group number (to the song Cleveland Rocks.. drew carey show anyone?), a bigger group number (to Simply Irresistable), and finally the closing number. haha i'm excited, the fashion show should kick ass and should be really fun. sunday we had to get to school by 9am and start our first real rehearsal. pretty much waiting around and sorting out groups and such. we got to strut the "catwalk" once, learned some easy jazz dance moves and basically chilled out, while our barbie doll choreographer spazzed out and told us to get our sassy pants out. lol. she was a little too energetic for my tastes. my brother's and travis's friend lauren isn't one of the choreographers anymore because she ran into some vocal issues and can't talk for like 6 weeks. oh well. hope the show turns out good.

speaking of shows, i decided not to audition for the spring musical, partly because with school, the fashion show and my job, i don't think i'll have enough time. also, i'm not a singer so hey, it works out. maybe i'll do tech and help out with makeup, except i'd rather just be on stage. ah, screw that, i'll keep thinking about it.

um yeah, i'm writing this while i'm supposed to be doing my psychology project, but i'm really too damn lazy to do it. DAMMIT NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS!!! i'm still lazy! and i have no motivation!
it's pathetic.

btw, i have 3 new classes this semester, since my other semester classes have ended. i have love and the christian vocation seminar, and my class is HUGE, and yeah it should be fun as hell. lexi "puney" and i have already decided we will do the baby project no matter what as we already have named our twins. awesome. hmm also got my sign language class, we learned the alphabet today, i got a little lost but i think i'll get it slowly. haha sign language is gonna kick ass and can be helpful in many ways. and my last new class is ceramics, which is gonna be nice, i hope, and relaxing, lots of underclassmen in my class though, i'm one of three seniors. lol. anyway, i look forward to throwing some pots, plates and platters and stuff. haha sweet!

well i think i'll ditch the psych project and go to bed.

audio:: death cab for cutie- "a lack of color" (i love this song. it's acoustic-ness just makes me wanna close my eyes and cuddle with a boy.)