my human event class got cancelled by my teacher today, and she even pushed back our paper due date from thursday to friday. i love her SO much. SO SO SO SO MUCH.

i'm getting bored with my hair again, its just this straight blunt cut (that my mom cut for me, yes) and i want something funkier and layered. i was talking with val today and we both wanna go get our belly buttons pierced too. ive been talking about it since forever and i still havent done it yet!

been thinking of quitting work at hollister. been thinking of getting another job. MAC sounds so appealing but i don't think i have the skillzzzz needed for that kind of makeup artist job. i guess i'll just buy their makeup and do other people's makeup when i feel like it. did shannon's on friday and it turned out really nice, i was so proud of my little babushka!

spring break? i dont know what i'm doing yet. this is gonna be a problem.

should i take my math test tomorrow or thursday? i don't know yet.

i just have a bunch of decisions to make and my time is running out.

i've become a full fledged bitch and a half and i don't know why i still have friends.

i'm just sick of everything and i need a change, or something different, everything is so mundane. i need excitement! maybe today is just one of those downer days or something. i'm regressing. i'm tired. i'm spent.


i'll show you mine if you show me yours first
lets compare scars i'll tell you whose is worse
lets unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
we live on front porches and swing life away
we get by just fine here on minimum wage
if love is a labor i'll slave til the end
i wont cross these streets until you hold my hand

audio:: rise against- "swing life away"

holy shiat! it's february already!

quite a few things have happened, some interesting, some not, but they sure as hell mixed things up a bit.. what do i mean? well this past weekend was absolutely CRAZY.

uh friday night the boys had a party at their house, it was bangin', as always with all their parties. it was really nice, they did up the backyard with little twinkly lights, built another bar (bars in backyard count: 1 + 1 = 2!!) so they had one beer/keg bar and one for mixed drinks/shots. they even party-proofed the inside with plastic on floors and stuff. it was really nice, plus since its "our boys"'s house, we get like VIP treatment and access to busta's room and stuff. haha sweeet. i carried busta's room keys for most of the night for safekeeping, lol. anyway lexi stayed home that night bc she was sick, :( my poor baby. but ya ash, shan and i held down the fort. anyway we brought cups for the kegs and stuff, lol as always. also it was sweet, bc we could go behind the bars and tell the boys to get us drinks and stuff. "kess, make me a drink!!" haha also no waiting in the lines for drinks either. "mike, fill my cup!!!" fuck yaaaaaa!! ANYWAY, at one point, this kid started getting all up in my business (i like how i talk like this lololol) and seriously this guy + his friend had me cornered against a wall and were sticking their phones in my face and telling me to put my number in there + soo hott, i love you blah blah blah and i'm like leave me the fuck alone you grody suckers! shan comes to rescue me, they hit on her too, ashley's turn to rescue us, mission unsuccessful bc the guy spills his beer allll over shan and it gets on us too, we storm into the house to get some clothes to change into.. and then the boys are like WHAT HAPPENED?!?! and we tell them, and then they go outside, drag him away and tell him to apologize, and he's all NO WAY and then they beat the CRAP out of him, in the backyard, in the front yard, on the road in front of the house, man it was INSANE. i've never had a fight start because of me/us before. mike + jason + josh + busta vs. small puny guy = small puny guy in fetal position and mike's shirt ripped up. anyway the boys were all like, we <3 you guys so much that we just beat some dude up cuz you said so. and we're like awwwwwwwwwwwww. THEN THE COPS SHOW UP= chaos. people are running around, chugging their drinks, jumping through windows to get into the house, etc. whoooa. anyway they were pretty chill and just gave the guys a warning that's a 90 day ordinance ruling, so no parties for 90 days. a party consists of a gathering of 5 or more people. seeing that 3 guys live in the house, lol they'll be having parties all the time eh.

i do apologize for the shitty ass writing style and disjointed everything.

anyway saturday i had to work, and we got our 40% discounts in, on 3 items, so i'm thinkin, hell yeeeah time for new clothes. but guess what? the hollister people decided to only let the discount be on white clothes. WHITE, so we can look like how the manniquins are dressed. ugh, so i had to buy all white clothes. not so bad though, i got a cute skirt, a plain tank, and then one of those long babydoll tops. yup. and i got a button up shirt on sale + a pair of jeans. lol now i am broke. no more spending for me!! except that the madame b collection from MAC comes out on the 18th, and the fluidline gel liners are coming out too. where am i gonna find money to buy all this? and then spring break is coming and i have no idea what i'll be doing!

anyway, saturday was also the night that lexi got alcohol poisoning while at the bid night for her sorority. that really sucked because i had no idea it had happened bc i wasn't even at the bid night bc i'm not part of the sorority/don't have a bid. i kinda don't wanna talk about it because there's a truckload of shit being talked about it and i think anything i have to say will not be relevant since i wasn't even there and i don't want to speculate anymore. but my lexi, i hope that you're feeling better, and i'm so sorry you had to be in the hospital and i couldn't be there by your side. <33333

superbowl sunday!!!!! that was fun, new england patriots (tom brady!!) vs. philly eagles. the patriots won, yay!! the commercials were okay this year, i particularly liked the pepsi one with the uber hot guy strolling around just drinking his pepsi, and then the other one was brad pitt going to a liquor store to buy heineken while being chased by paparazzi. anyway i joined trav and jen at trav's friends house for their superbowl party. it was interesting, with sumo wrestling fat suits and feeding a rat to the house owner's pet snake. i was probably the youngest person there though, ickle little freshman me and all these college seniors + graduated people. lol.

i'm sick as all hell still, i got better, and now i'm sick again. i needa get me to a doctor and get some drugs!! i have a cough + runny nose, etc. is it allergies? or am i developing the crazy coughing illness my dad's got? WTF!

school is alright i guess, my classes are pretty okay so far. except that i have a plant biology exam tomorrow that i need to go study for. then i have some econ hw due on friday, and i wanna do well in that class this semester. i like my human event class actually, which is funny. but maybe bc there's a cute boy in my class. haha motivation!

this goes out to my bro [dude] and all my fellow azn sensations, happy chinese new year folks! may you collect more money than me this year! oh hell, i don't even celebrate CNY anymore anyway.. plus if i'm lucky my parents give me a red packet, but that's about it. COOL.

well i'm going to go study now, before my nose and throat finally decide to pack up their shit and leave.

night, y'all.


Lies won't save you from the bomb that you just dropped
I'm standing shellshocked but I'm still here
And this to you is what I'm saying
All that's false will
Fade away

audio:: chronic future- "shellshocked"