Friday, January 17, 2003

whoa ok. its a four day weekend for me, and im glad. i need the sleep, lol. well i started it [weekend] with a bang, you could say. :) ash and i went to our friend moe (aka maureen)'s party, it was actually her 17th bday party, but a lot a lot of people showed up. it was SO fun, and i enjoyed myself TONS, well partly because i was SO out of it but it was good. i met many new people( guys mainly, i knew most of the girls), and i dont remember half of their names. but anyway it was great fun and i really dont mind doing it again. and again and again. hahahaa. but im definitely putting my new years resolutions into action, and theyre working :). heh yay. mmm. lets just say i had a good night last night, ok? ;) audio::the songs on SIMPLE PLAN's cd. NO PADS, NO HELMETS... JUST BALLS. buy it, its great. i dont own it yet, but i will, i just have all the songs as mp3s, but im buyin the cd because theyre great! pierre and seb are very good on the eyes, and thats always a plus. mm. SIMPLE PLAN!!!!! wooooh!!! posted at 10:39 p.m.

Wednesday, January 15, 2003

ah. this week has been crazy. kinda.ish. well last week too because it was the spring musical auditions. i figured, why the hell not, so i tried out and i got called back, and those two auditions were most scariest ones ive ever had to go through. all because im not a singer. i cant sing, and for those two days, i had to sing in front of an audience, and that is like. major killer, because i cant even sing in front of my friends. it was pretty bad. but i told the director i didnt want a major singing part because i wasnt comfortable with singing in front of a huge audience. and so, id like to say i made it and that i have a background role, as an extra, but i have to say that that was all i ever wanted. i just wanted to be waltzing in the background or chilling out backstage without having to stress about singing or memorizing lines. oh. the musical is "The Sound of Music", ya know. doe a deer a female deer.. heh. im getting used to my new shorter hair-do. its easier to manage, ill tell you that, but i really miss my longer 'do... hmm. oh im taking an acting class this semester instead of art, and oh my, its so fun! its probably my favorite class, and i look forward to it everyday. we get to play fun drama games, and do scenes and stuff. our new project is a 2 person scene, that we have to perform and it has to be GOOD. our names got picked out of a hat(well, fine, a plastic box), and we have 4 boys in our class, and like. 20 girls. and by some genius stroke of luck, im paired up with a guy! so, that makes it a little more interesting than just doing yet another scene with a girl. yay. so i have to go look for a good 2 person scene! :) prom planning has gotten a little more intense now since we're in second semester. we've had the theme picked out for a while now, and we're working on invitations, the gifts, the video in which we announce the theme and such. its gonna be a lot of fun and a lot of work. hopefully it turns out good, hmm? today was SO strange. last night i had a super bad headache and i couldnt sleep the whole night, and i get up this morning with the same headache and feeling totally out of it and dazed. i felt really hot( like temperature wise ;)), so i suspected i had a fever. and i was getting ready so mechanically i wasnt even noticing what i was doing. i went downstairs and got my dad to feel my forehead and turns out, lo and behold, i did have a fever. but sick or not, i still have to go to school. urgh. cant miss school at xavier. psh. well i went through about half the morning feeling like shit and looking dead (about 5 people told me i looked like i was dying) and it was bad. but somehow it just became all ok and i was all good again. i totally did a 180 and i was alive again. lol. maybe it was my acting class that did it, eh? *grin* audio::The Get Up Kids- "Close to me" posted at 07:18 p.m.

Saturday, January 4, 2003

ok wow. 2 major things have happened. well. one of the major things has a couple things involving it. but still. let me just let it out. last night, i got such an earful about so much stuff that i was crying my eyes out and just ugh. it was bad. first i was talking to ash about issues i have with myself (inner conflict stuff) and issues about boys. i got done with the conversation feeling better because i got alot of stuff off my mind. but that had nothing to do with the crying. that part started after i got off the phone with ash. my mom comes into my room and begins to lecture me about my attitude problem, about how i feel about my cousin coming to live with us to go to school here, how ive been asking for a dermatologist appointment and how i dont know what i want as a career and what college i want to go to. i was just sitting there listening to every single thing ive done wrong and how im stupid and all this other shit. and then im already upset enough and then my dad calls me into his room and proceeds to lecture about my SAT scores. i got them back and i got an ok score, nothing too fantastic, but its not like its a bad score of anything. but of course he was being such the typical asian parent and giving me shit on how im stupid and i dont study hard enough, and how all he wants me to do is study and good grades. and i do, dammit, my grades are good, and i have a good GPA, and im in frickin honors and AP classes. and so i take the damn SATs, and i dont get a "good" score, according to him, so now "everything is on hold", which means i cant get my license, and a bunch of other things. and now my top priority is to study my ass off for the SATs. and i have to get the score he wants, if not im screwed. so i have to take them again, and the next possible time i can take them is in april. APRIL. im so screwed. grr. fuck the SATs, who gives a shit? i SO tempted to just score really badly just to spite him. >| so i had a really bad night, full of both parents nagging, yelling, and lecturing me. and then today, i got my hair cut. and it wasnt an itty bitty trim either. i got about 6 inches cut off and alot of layers put in. and at first when i saw how it came out, i was like cool. then when i got home i was like omg what did i just do. so now i dont know if i like it or not. but it sure as hell is a lot shorter. and i dont look like me anymore. it kinda sucks. its one thing when your hair is one length, and its totally different with alot of layers. my shortest layers start at my chin and argh. its just really short compared to my original length. especially when i tie it up. argh. :( how did everything get so bad, so fast? audio::The Used- "The Taste of Ink" posted at 09:31 p.m.

Thursday, January 2, 2003

happy new year to everyone. :) i spent my new year's eve at this guy named jason's house. lol. ash and kt were at my place and we were getting ready to go out for new years. we were gonna find a party somehow, and i gave my friend joe a call and he said that he was on his way to jason's house for a barbeque. so hey we ended up going there and chilling out for the night. it was quite low key but fun and i enjoyed myself. there was another bigger party going on, and i could have gone, but i didnt. dont know why, but i guess i just wanted a laid back new years. and um thats my problem now. i feel so damn antisocial now that its almost unbelievable!. stepping out of my house to go somewhere seems so unappealing, partly because its so cold out there, and i have a slight fever now. but i ... just dont feel like doing anything, going anywhere, or talking to anyone. i hope this is just a phase, or it might be because its the holidays. or something. i had a conversation online with kt today, she hasnt been online in a loong looong time. and like i had no idea what i was talking about and it seemed like we were totally on different wavelengths and i got so confused and i think it was because i was like half delerious from my fever or something. then i called ashley and practically scared her to death because i was being so weird. i was talking, but i wasnt saying anything important and i was like. WEIRD. its so hard to explain. but something was really wrong with me. im feeling a bit better now. but i swear it was like my body was physically around, but my mind was so far away and it was almost as if i was drunk or something and my brain was affected, but i didnt have anything to drink or take anything. like that. so it was just the strangest feeling. i still feel a bit weird. posted at 07:29 p.m.

Sunday, December 29, 2002

SURVEY! YOU 001.name: holly 002.d.o.b.: june 27th 86 003.location: phoenix, arizona. 004.religion: christian. protestant. baptized as a presbyterian. 005.occupation: student, yup. 001.hair: really (too) long, straight and a couple different shades of brown and red all mixed together resulting in my really weird hair. gonna cut it soon though. bye bye hair. 002.eyes: dark brown. prescription dependent, i wear contacts. been wanting colored contacts, came close to getting them but mom shot down that idea, because theyre really expensive. Bah. I would love blue eyes. 003.height: 5’1 or 5’2 I might have grown, but not noticeably anyway, pahaha, itty bitty holly. 001.clothing: plenty of clothes, but never enough. (always, right?). my style I guess, is like. Sporty/laidback/jeans and tank top kinda girl. But I can get dressed up when I feel like it. :) 002.music: mostly punk and pop. throw in a little rock/alternative, and a bit of hip hop. And taadaa, you have my music taste. its pretty diverse, i like almost everything except that twangy country shit. 003.make up: basic stuff I guess, foundation, blush and I curl my eyelashes. Maybe if im bothered some eyeliner and mascara. Oh and lip balm is a must. MUST. I have like chronically dry lips. It sucks. 004.bodyart: not yet. Ive always wanted a cute tattoo on my lower back. RIGHT NOW 001.wearing: long sleeved striped gap shirt, boy style undies( that say “don’t open till morning” aww how cutesy.), baby blue boxers, and since its cold, a pair of sweatpants too. Oh and my fluffy slippers. The in-house, soft fuzzy ones with the stars :). 002.listening to: Good Charlotte. :) 003.thinking of: renting movies, cuz im bored, and when my parents are leaving to go catch the neil diamond concert that my bro and i gave them tickets to, for christmas. 001.bought: well yesterday I got 2 new cds, the good charlotte one and a 2002 warped tour compilation. All for 16 bucks. good deal. and the guy at the CD store was cute. 002.ate & drank: we had pizza for lunch. and i had a coke. 003.read: our english assignment for school, hey i got bored. the book is Our Town, its a play, kinda weirdly set up, but its good. 004.watched on tv: oh man. ive watched SO much tv. caught what women want, the 1st harry potter, the glass house, billy madison, and more more more! EITHER / OR 001.club or houseparty: club, for the dancing, house party for the socializing. 002.tea or coffee: neither. i get my caffeine fix elsewhere. 003. achiever or slacker: over acheiving bum who slacks off till the last minute. 004.beer or cider: *grin* hard lemonade, or anything that tastes good. haha. 005.drinks or shots: probably drinks. 006.cats or dogs: dogs. definitely. 007.pen or pencil: i dunno i go through phases. in school im usually using a mechanical pencil. but i recently got a really cool pen. with blue/black ink, very nice to write with. hey, i like my pens ok. 008.gloves or mittens: gloves, in the mornings on the way to school. 009.food or candy: how about candy +junk food! 010.cassette or cd: hello, at this point in technology, i doubt anyone uses cassettes anymore. so, CDs, and mp3s. lol. 011.coke or pepsi: coke. i kinda got sick of vanilla coke, drank a bit too much of it. but i like pepsi twist! 012.hard or mild alcohol: eh. mild. anything more and id be GONE. haha. 013.matches or a lighter: well, i dont smoke, but matches are fun to play with ;) 014.sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: ? i loathe soap operas. LAST PERSON YOU...AND WHEN? 001.touched: well, my dog? dunno if he counts as a person. ive been out of touch this week. 002.talked to: online? ashley, she just got back from flagstaff! , and ron, whos in london! 003.hugged: HMM. honestly, i dont know, i havent been in alot of human contact this week. (except for family, but they dont count) 004.instant messaged: ash and ron. right now. 005.who broke your heart: heart has never been broken, really. rejected, mostly. dont like to think about it though. WHERE DO YOU 001.eat: at a table? perhaps in front of the tv, or with my family at the dinner table. 002.dance: in my room. or all over the house when no one is home. 003.cry: my room or while in the shower, dunno it seems to help. 004.wish you were: i want a first class trip to .. hawaii. haha thats in a Simple Plan song. download it. its called "My Christmas List". its funny. HAVE YOU EVER 001.Dated one of your best friends? no. 002.Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? liked someone enough to cry about him, but thats about it. 003.Drank alcohol? yeah. not very often though. 004.Done drugs? no. 005.Broken the law? not that i know of. 006.Ran away from home? once when i was like 11, but i only got to the end of my street, when my brother came running after me. i only did that to show him that i wasnt kidding. haha but no, that doesnt count. 007.Broken a bone? no, surprisingly. i guess im really careful. 008.Cheated on a test? hello. yes. the most badass time was in honors bio in summer schoo. i shant divulge though. *grin*. 009.Skinny dipped? haha not yet. 010.Played Truth Or Dare? yeah. nothing too memorable though. 011.Flashed someone? kinda. not totally, but. well its hard to explain. 012.Mooned Someone? ive been mooned. a couple times, but the one i remember most is. butt ryan. only ash will get that though. oh and then there was the tighty whities boy at davids party. ah good times. 013.Kissed someone you didn't know? no. 014.Been on a talk show/game show? only those pseudo ones in school for a presentation. or that one time in eldds. ah, i remember those skits. 015.Been in a fight? daily playful fights with my brother. and kinda sparring from aikido i guess. 016.Ridden in a fire truck? no. but that would be FUN! 017.Been on a plane? doh. yes. long ass rides too. like 24 hours flights. it sucks ass. 018.Come close to dying? i think ive had that feeling once or twice, but it cant have been important, because i cant remember them. 019.Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride? lol i cant, physically, i cant really carry anyone. im too small. but i used to do that as a kid! dad was awesome. haha. well now? anyone who wants to give me a piggyback or shoulder ride is welcome. 020.Eaten a worm/mud pie? ew no. 021.Swam in the ocean? yes. i used to hate the sand, but i got over that, and now i love the beach. lol. 022.Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up? lol yeah, who hasnt? i get the ones where i jump in bed too. ugh scariness. WHAT IS 001.The most embarrassing CD in your collection? ah. Take 5. seriously. *shudder*. 002.Your bedroom like? ah hah! i just cleaned it. like i took the whole of saturday cleaning it. its super clean and nice now. i hung up a hawaiian flower printed cloth over the ugly drapes on my windows, and then covered my chair with more hawaiian flower material. and then hung up all my leis. and well theres plenty of posters, my favorite one is of mark mcgrath. i had a lava lamp, but i kept it because i hardly ever used it, how sad. there isnt a theme to my room, it used to be "messy" but now its a mixture of "hawaiian-y" and "no real theme". hahaa. 003.Your favorite thing for breakfast? hash browns, or scrambled eggs. 004.Your favorite thing for lunch? one of april's sandwiches. pahahaa. 005.Your favorite thing for dinner? dad's seafood spaghetti. mm! or WHATEVER mom cooks. 006.Your favorite Restaurant? hmm i dont really have a favorite. lol. ARE YOU 001.A Vegetarian?: no. 002.A Good Student?: lol. yeah prolly.i do my homework and turn things in on time. im a nerd like that. 003.Good At Sports? no. i play a mean game of skirpple though. skirts + apples= skirpple. we play it at lunch in school with our uniform skirts and we try to flip an apple into another persons skirt. quite fun when youre having a bad day. 005.A Good Singer?: only in the shower. but really, im not, i cant carry a tune worth anything. sucks though, i really wish i could. 006 a good actor? i should hope so, if i made the play. lol. 007.A deep sleeper?: no, im a very light sleeper. unlike my brother. 008.A Good Dancer?: ive got the rhythm, i know that. but i love dancing. especially when nobody is looking. haha, no. i just love it. im always dancing, and my friends are like i dont know you. hahahaa. and ive been known to strip too. HAHA kidding kidding. or maybe not.. :X 009.Shy?: with my friends, totally not. with boys i like, i get painfully shy and it sucks. 010.Outgoing?: yes, mostly. its difficult with boys though. doh. i have a problem. i need help. 011.A good storyteller?: not really. how sad. 012.Last words?: my brother is trying to learn how to play "your body is a wonderland" by john mayer next to be, and he is making a racket. oh and. life is short, dance naked. *grin* LIFE WITHOUT DANGER IS A WASTE OF OXYGEN. and my favorite line from the play "auntie mame", which got cut and STILL annoys me that it got cut: missy dennis say anybody who call servant dirty bastard is dirty bastard. thank you and goodnight. edit: um i just realized that the numbering on this survey is really screwed up. but no matter. :) posted at 07:01 p.m.

Thursday, December 26, 2002

happy boxing day! today we went shopping to see if any after xmas sales were worth our time or not. lol. i saw quite alot of stuff i wanted in American Eagle, but i decided not to spend any more money on clothes and stuff because i actually have a reasonable amount of new clothing. and im pretty happy so hey. its all good. went to get my new cellphone activated today too, because i guess they were so busy they didnt have time to activate it last night. when i walked into the store, i noticed a sign that said free phone with activation of the a new calling plan, ya know how they do that right? well one of the phones for "free" was the actual phone ive been wanting for a long time. the model number is 8390, its the small bitty nokia one with the blue backlight. DAMMIT. when i saw that i had the biggest sinking feeling because my family had just gotten me this one. bah. what a shame and :( that really got me upset. ANYWAY, to cheer myself up i shall talk about something else. ok, you know how people get excited when they go places? hehe well being the dork i am, im excited to just go the grocery store. i have a good reason though! i got a new hairbrush! my old one really sucked and kept pulling alot of hair out whenever i brushed it, so now i have a better one and i like it alot. yay! and also i stumbled onto one of the best deals ive seen in a long time. there was this box thingy and it said like "nail party for your friends!". basically its a box of like 8 nailpolishes, 1 base/top coat, a cuticle healer thingy, a toenail clipper, a nail file, some foot scrub, cuticle lotion and those french manicure guides. a whole bunch of stuff in a box. and it was for.. $4.99. >>HOLY CRAP!<< thats a frickin good deal. and it wasnt like cheapy stuff either, it was sally hansen, and thats pretty damn good. so, lol i was like MOM there is no way im walking out of here without this, and i told her what was in it and she was like alright alright. HAHA! dang. yeah you know how it is to find a super good deal and walk away feeling you made a good purchase. *grin* so now i have pretty icy blue nails and berry colored toenails. :) so im a girl with nice nails, and a nice new phone. but i really wish i had the other one. psh. audio::David Mead- " Girl on a Roof" posted at 11:27 p.m.

Wednesday, December 25, 2002

third entry on christmas day! thats truly pathetic. hahahaa. anyway i updated some links and added new ones. :). oh and changed the bio thingy again. yeah, thats all this time. posted at 05:55 p.m.

Wednesday, December 25, 2002

Random Survey taken from ginny - 10 Bands/Artists You Really Like || New Found Glory || Good Charlotte || Simple Plan || The Strokes || The Starting Line || Lucky Boys Confusion || Pink || John Mayer || Britney || Avril Lavigne - 09 Things You're Looking Forward To || meeting up with friends for gift exchange || the new year || planning prom || half looking forward to/half dreading: a haircut || hotter weather(yuck to winter!) || after xmas sales! (shopping shopping) || movie night with ash. we have to watch The Sweetest Thing || getting the network fixed with my bros computer and mine || a possible trip to singapore in the summer - 08 Things You Wear Daily || watch || class ring, other ring || contacts (or glasses) || a bra || undies. sorry, i dont like going commando. || deodorant! || makeup || a couple hairties around my wrist - 07 Things That Annoy You || waking up early. ew. || chipping nail polish || cleaning my room || a grumpy slow functioning computer. || certain songs. like "dilemna" by nelly and kelly r. ugh. || when the radio stations dont play songs, and the djs are talking the whole frickin time. || after youve explained something thoroughly to somebody online, and their response is : "huh?" (pisses me off) - 06 Favorite People || im gonna cheat a bit. ash, kt, meg, robyn, april, kelly. || mom, dad and bro || singapore friends like sheryl, ginny, jean, etc. || sammie. (you're a major source of solace and help for me, and such a great friend. :)) || the cast and crew of auntie mame. mostly. lol. || my whole junior student council. we're a tight bunch. - 05 Things That You Do Everyday || eat and sleep, i guess. || come online. what a computer nerd. || talk on the phone. || listen to music (a must) || i'd do mark mcgrath ANY day. or hayden, or orlando, or elijah. :x hee. - 04 People You Want To Spend More Time With || my family. gotta get that family bonding time in. || my brother. just being stupid together is fun. || my friends. always gotta have friend time. || boys? hehe. - 03 Movies You Can Watch Over and Over || Austin Powers in Goldmember(no shit, i know most of the lines) || Boys and girls(with freddie prinze and claire forlani) || i guess harry potter wins over lord of the rings because of the less butt-numbing factor. - 02 Of Your Favorite Songs at the Moment || The Starting Line- "Up and Go" || Relient K- "Sadie Hawkins Dance" - 01 Person You Could Spend Your Life With || i cant just pick one person. thats why i have my whole life to figure that one out. :) posted at 05:22 p.m.

Wednesday, December 25, 2002

MERRY CHRISTMAS! heh. i had a pretty good night last night. dinner was very nice, it wasnt the traditional turkey dinner though, thats for tonight. we had some local (meaning singaporean, haha) food, mee siam and some other dishes. yum! then my bro and chris(family friend's son) were playing more video games while i sat back and watched them play. i had a bit to drink but i didnt get tipsy or anything, just felt my face burning, thats all. lol yeah i dont drink very often. anyway, my bro and i opened our gifts at about 1am. we didnt get that many, but it was good enough. heres what i got: ~$100 cash!from parents ~$40 gift certificate to abercrombie from auntie jessie ~12 small votive candles and a holder from trav ~a limited edition "bubble fairy" figurine from auntie doris(its uber cute, and uber fragile too, eek) ~2 pairs of boy undies from mom(i already have them, but hey, you can never have too much underwear! i shall have fun times prancing and bopping around my room, a la britney or cameron diaz) ~and, a new cellphone. from my bro, and parents too. (this is one of the things i wanted, so im not complaining.) its not a super lot, but im very thankful for what i got, and im happy, so thats what counts right? :D yay. hmm, i still have yet to give my friends their gifts, lol. ah and robyn is going to thailand for about 2-3 weeks for some boy scout venturing thing, so i wont see her for a while. oh well. she'll get her gift eventually. :) oh, like i said before, the gift i got for my brother.. no i did not end up returning it, lol. i told him his only hint would be that he would reeeeally like it. and i was right. i got him a poster of jessica alba (of Dark Angel fame) and :), he likes it plenty. hee ooh im good. christmas is most definitely my favorite holiday. sometimes i dont totally get into the festive mood, but like they say. tis the season to be jolly. :) audio::britney- "santa, can you hear me?" posted at 04:18 p.m.

Tuesday, December 24, 2002

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Tuesday, December 24, 2002

merry christmas eve to everyone :) went last minute shopping yesterday, and i finally got gifts for everyone! i wont say what i got everyone, hee, just in case. but theyre really cute. most of them, anyways. and of course, i got some stuff for myself, kinda like xmas gifts from my parents. i got a shirt from american eagle, some bath and body works makeup and lotion, and a pair of flipflops (yes, in winter). oh and mom also got me a scarf in san fran. seems like im getting more early gifts and other things than for xmas itself. if that makes any sense, because i already have these in my possession and theyre not wrapped up or anything. weirdness. anyway, i missed an eye appointment, because we took too long shopping. i was supposed to get my eyes checked out, cuz i need a new supply of contacts. oh well. no big loss, im rescheduled for friday morning. *sigh* the smell of food is wafting throughout the house, and im getting hungry. some family friends are coming over for dinner, and mom's already cooking. my bro is currently playing a video game he received as a gift from a friend. and dad, i guess he's fallen asleep in front of his computer. hehe, can you not tell im bored? oh hey, on kazaa it says i'm a supreme being. for my participation level, anyways. which is weird, i dunno how that happened, its not like im always d/ling. wait. scratch that, lol yeah i am. righty, im going downstairs to see what food i can steal. :) audio::blink 182- "its christmas time again" posted at 04:41 p.m.