uh yeah. i decided its time to talk about my last weekend, and sit down on my ass and type it all out before i have another urge not to.
lets start with thursday: lexi calls and says alan invited her and ash and me to this party that his good friend alex is having at his house. ok we head over there and yeah. it was a nice kickback party, and everyone was drinking and having fun, except me, because heh as designated driver, i have my responsibilities. i drop lex home later at like 12.30am and since im staying at ash's we go back to her house. i have to say, drinking too fast + throwing up = not a good night. hangover= not good either. heh poor ash.
friday: was just kinda chill.
saturday: went to the oasis (hookah bar) and hung out there for a bit. an experience i must say, but something was just holding me back that night, i dont know why, it was weird. later we went back to alex's house cuz the guys wanted us back there again. heh. i cant really say much about it, but i think ash had fun, although at times weird? (right?) .. lexi.. argh i feel so horrible about this. i wont talk about it. just violation= bad. and me? we wont talk about that either. not as bad as lexi, but definitely unwanted.
that probably makes no sense whatsoever unless you are ash or lex, but thats FINE.
uh sunday, tommy was to have a party at his house, but it turned out just to be very few people, and it kinda sucked. us girls just went to get food (mm wendys) and yeah. thats about it. waste of petrol for that one.
so yeah that was my [eventful] weekend. kinda. i dont want to say too much. most of it is just embedded in our heads now, and yeah ok. case closed.

and oh like i said in my last entry QUOTE:
"uh. for those who do not share the love for harry potter, or those who do not wish to see me in my nerdiest state, forget about ever reading this entry. "
i refuse to comment further, although i really feel otherwise.
im done, and im not in a good mood anymore.

okay okay.
i know i should be updating with what's going on in my life and all that, and i have a bunch to say, but im really lazy to sit down and type it all out, so i'll just mention this one bit.
uh. april was supposed to get me the 5th harry potter book, right? well i called her yesterday, and told her that that wasnt neccesary because i was getting ants in my pants and i was just itching and dying for the book. so she laughed and told me to just go buy it myself. of course, i did just that, because i was just about ready to pee my pants in anticipation. there was no way i could wait any longer. i was like restraining myself from searching for spoilers of the story online.
it was difficult, and lol what a NERD i sound like.
ANYWAY.... i went out and got myself a copy. and i've been cooped up in my room reading away. so i estimate ive taken about a day and a half to read the book, complete with sleep, food, bathroom visits, dropping my cousin off at the learning center, all that. i think the actual reading was 15 hours? could be wrong. ANYWAY. um.
i give it 2 thumbs up, no shit, its a great book i have to say. really good! but DAMN this was my first thought.
THIS HAS TO BE THE TRIPPIEST [HARRY POTTER] BOOK I HAVE EVER READ!!!!!!
geez. the only word i can think of to describe what happens is "trippy" !!
i dont think i should spoil it for anyone. but i'm a tad disappointed about something that happens in the book, but also: man, harry potter himself, as a 15 year old kid, has some serious issues. so young, so bitter. poor thing..
oh GEEZ. there i go, talking as if he really exists. FICTION, holly, ITS FICTION!.
but damn good fiction, at that.
jk rowling, my hat off to you. i can only pee my pants even more in anticipation for the next book. (and the next.).
uh. for those who do not share the love for harry potter, or those who do not wish to see me in my nerdiest state, forget about ever reading this entry.
but before i go. haha i couldn't resist.

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eh. its late, i got home like half an hour ago.. i'm a little too tired to write, but i will tomorrow. its been a crazy weekend.
i took these quizzes...im tired, but bored. AND LAZY, no doubt. so hey, don't be frontin, foo.

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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hmm. had another lazy day today at home. just kinda chilled out and lazed around. :) man, i LOVE summer.
i cant wait for the 2nd charlie's angels movie to come out, and it opens on my birthday, so thats even better.
i was watching the osbournes last night, and damn rob osbourne (the newly adopted one) is just a freakin STUD. so hot, he's like the most perfect guy looks-wise for me. WHOA.
"We were like "Whoa!" and you were like "Whoa!" and I was like "Whoa..." "
hahaha, geez i love that movie!

audio:: nothing. :( i have no new songs to interest me.

i just got out of the shower, and i feel nice and clean! and, for lack of anything to do, since today has been a nice chill out at home day for me(so far, after all, it IS only 5.45pm).. i shall update my birthday wishlist :)

holly's 17th birthday wishlist
~American Eagle Gift Certificate
~Charlotte Russe Gift Certificate
~Wet Seal Gift Certificate
~Pacific Sunwear Gift Certificate
~Xi Clothing Gift Certificate
(doh, i can't say no to clothes, i guess those are the 5 stores i frequent.=P)
~Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (the 5th one, comes out June 21..!!! i think april is getting me this!)
~Hawaiian car seat covers (baby blue with flowers..lexi was hinting at this)
~Baby blue roxy emblem sticker (for my car.. :))
~a new bikini (preferably roxy)
~all american rejects poster, or those cute boy shorts theyre selling at their merchandise site (a bunch of people have hinted at this one...lol watch out, im gonna end up with a bunch of AAR posters. haha!)
~Victoria's Secret dash-me-a-line black eyeliner
~a photo album (mine melted in sun because i left it in my car, eek)
~Panasonic E-Wear SV-AV20 or SV-AV30 (parents will agree..hopefully)
~Gap's So Pink Fragrance
~this cute white peasant skirt from Abercrombie.(ah, im getting this for myself.)
~short pleated skirts, woo!
~i can't say no to flipflops either
~nifty rings, and a chunky silver bracelet
~i'll take hugs and kisses :)

hmm. i'd like to say this is a wishlist, so i'm just gonna like, carry on wishing. haa.

afterthought: man i'm really hungry.

audio:: mest- "missin my baby tonight"

hmm i was in the middle of writing a new entry in here, and my computer decided to freeze on me. i wasnt too happy about that. but i waited a while, and so i guess im ready to re-type out everything again. well what i remember of it anyway.
um ok. where should i start. oh. well i guess this isn't the best news in the world. i had decided that i was gonna make the trip back to singapore, after much much MUCH contemplation. and after that whole brain weighing (really felt like it) and talking it out with lexi and ashley mostly, after making up my mind that hey i'll go back.. my dad drops a shit bomb. argh. he calls me into his room last night (after ashley's bday thing, i'll get to that) and he tells me that he has to go on a business trip sometime in july, for like 8 days or so, and i have to stay home and take care of my cousin, dog, cars, house, etc, etc. and all because of that, i have to cancel my trip home. you can imagine how ticked off i was. i think im being ripped off, dammit. urgh. what in the bloody hell. my mom called me today and she already knew i was despondent about the whole thing, but she said i could go back after dads trip was done, BUT there really is no point in going back then, because i'm only going to have 2 weeks, and thats just a too short!. and like i only get to go back this year OR next year, and so this year will be 2 weeks, next year can be alot longer than that, so yeah i'm picking the latter. and anyway i'll have to get back here because i have to start my summer independent packets that comprise of arizona history and economics. then i have to do the essays and budget and all that crap, and then ive got to read 3 books for summer reading. vacation? yeah right, more like holiday homework. damn school.
(my computer froze at this point, and i'd like to say i liked how i worded things the first time i typed it.)
um. anyway, so i'm a little bitter about not being able to go back. and my parents agree it'll be better to go back next year anyway. okay okay, im a little sore about it, but it'll be OKAY! mom knows im disappointed but oh well, ya know? no big, theres next year. i'll find myself a job and party it up this summer then. yeah you heard it right, ash and lex! WOOHOO! i wanna go to mexico! ;P
speaking of parties, heh i'll move on to ashley's birthday. well yeah so sunday we kinda organized to have a little get together at ash's place. the girls got dropped off at my house, and i drove lexi(her mom wasnt gonna let her go at first, but she did after a while, phew), kt, and april over to ashley's. hehe it was just a kinda kick back thing. got some pizza, watched some tv, went nutty for a bit. and so lexi gets alan to come over. and ive met this guy a couple times i guess. and the thing is, he's got a motorcycle! HOLY SHIT, it's so cool! hahaha. he took us each on a spin on the bike with him, OH MAN that was just so freakin awesome. its a very liberating feeling, to be cruisin on a bike. i was really excited, it was so fun! hehe. i can officically say ive ridden on a bike! quite an experience, if you have the chance to do so, DO IT! as we were leaving, he rode beside my car and we came to a stop at a light, and he got off his bike, came over to my window and pretended to be a cop. haha it was so funny. haha later we were screaming out the window random things like "WOW THAT GUY ON THAT BIKE IS SO HOT", "THAT WAS A HOT POLICEMAN".. haha funny funny. of course it doesn't seem as funny when i type it out, what a pity. but dude, alan is a stud! (RIGHT LEX? hahahaaa) anyway, i hope ashley enjoyed it all. and sorry about tonight and oasis, it was too late to go, everyone would have been gone by the time we got there. :( holly sorry! i hope you like your CD though, and i still need to get your real gift, if you ever find one you like! hee
anyway, ive been talking to some old friends from singapore tonight, and haha i know theyre all gonna be reading this. lol hey timmy, nadia, bern and sheryl!! i'll be home next year!!!!! keep it real guys ;)
um yeah im done for now, its late, my contacts are dry yet again and theyre fogging like crazy. i have some last words.....ASHLEY LIKES IT LONG AND HARD AND I GIVE IT damn GOOD. haa. uh huh, yeah.

audio:: andrew w.k.- "we want fun"

hmm. in honor of ashley's birthday, i decided to put a picture of us up. (it's also in your yearbook, cupcake!) heh. um yeah!. its pretty a pretty bad jpg file, but oh well. ;). yay ash!

it's ashley's birthday today!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!! you're 17 woohoo! :) :)
heh.
um went to a nice laid back pool party last night. the guy's name is TG, and his house is just like, whoa. lol and his cousin, john, has like the NICEST 2001 silver mustang ive ever seen. haha. and oh, ive also found out that i give quite a good back massage. haha good to know! i had fun! and i hope ash and lex did too. we piled like 7 people in my car and went for a drive around TG's neighborhood, quite an experience i must say. and my new favorite song is the "PARTY BOY SONG!!!!!!!" from jackass, the movie! . hahaa fun times, fun times.
ANYWAY. i'll get to the point of this entry. i have yet to make a decision about goin home to singapore. um.first i was worried about getting the ticket. thats not a problem anymore. then i was worried about sars, but thats not a problem either, it seems to be pretty minimal now. then i was worried about going home without my brother, because my mom would prefer it if i was goin home with him. and that if people cant hang out with me, at least i'll have him around. so the issue was that, should i wait another year, to go back? but see, by the time he needs to go back for national service(army), i might already be in school!. so i just talked to my brother about that, and he says its fine if i go home without him, i just have to buy him some stuff, hahaha! and i know he wishes he could go back with me this year, but hes got his internship! oh well. so i guess thats fine now. now my issue is....will i be able to spend the month wisely in singapore? i dont wanna waste it, bc i probably wont get to go home for a couple more years after that. doh! what am i saying?! im not gonna waste it, like my mother says!. grr, i think ive done too much thinking on this. but all in all, i want to go home. it'll be a great summer, and a good start to my last year in highschool.
"just do it". "flow with the go".
i think i've made up my mind, i think im coming home.

if you've got the poison I've got the remedy
the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how youre gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I wont worry my life away.
I wont worry my life away.

Jason Mraz.

mm. got home a while ago from watching bruce almighty. it was a pretty good movie, with a nice thought provoking theme. i must say, there were some really funny parts.. like the gibberish part, i laughed so hard! oh well.
tonight i just felt so weird, i dunno why either. it was just so strange, kinda felt invisible,. oh well
um. yah. about the going back to singapore thing. well. i shall refrain from saying anymore, because i really dont know if im going back or not. i have some thinking to do, thats all i have to say.
my contacts are dry. *blink*
"good? goo-d!"

audio:: jason mraz- "the remedy"

whoa there. so summer school is all over now, and ive been having quite the relaxing week, chillin out at home, goin out with friends, yep. its been nice.
hmm lets see. recap!!
friday night: went to watch finding nemo!! its soo good, go watch it! :)
saturday night: went to a party with ashley, it was quite fun!! met some people i havent seen in a while, it was kickin. and ash is officially THE stud.
sunday: went to sunsplash, the waterpark with ash, lex and a buncha guys, it was an experience, lol. lotsa slides and the weird wave pool and all, i got a nice tan, i must say.
monday: went over to lexi's and hung out there, we watched harry potter 2 and kate and leopold, and made a BUNCH of hemp bracelets/anklets/necklaces.
tuesday: took cousin to the learning center thingy, and went to the mall real quick with lexi, picked cousin back up and headed over to lexi's. again we watched a movie (blue crush) and made hemp things. haha boring arent we?
wednesday: hmm earlier in the day i picked ash up and we went to desert ridge to get katie some birthday gifts, bc hey it was her bday! haha. then i hung out at ash's for a bit. later i went to get megan, and ash and we went over to katies to spend some time with the bday girl! :) dropped meg and ash back home and came home.
thursday: today! hmm spent the day at home just lazing around, i mean cmon, ive been out almost everyday for a while and getting home at 2 or 3 in the morning takes its toll you know!. hmm. so yeah i revamped this! and got this new layout working, i like it! *hee*. um yeah also i have a big decision to make, i have to choose between getting a job at [american eagle], i mean no harm getting a job right? its money, and i wont be squandering my time away at home.. OR.. my other choice would be to fly home to singapore. haha! YEP! so my mom calls me today and tells me theres this super cheap flight going on for like. about 250 bucks. and the usual cost would be around 800-900.. and thats quite a deal, dont you think? SO...i could be coming home this july.
but i dont know, if it really is too soon to come home with sars and all that. but i'd really love to go home. but i also dont know where im going to stay and i'm gonna be taking the flight all by my lonesome! haha but by then i'll be 17, and i mean no big right, to take an international flight by myself? i think it would be quite a fun trip. haha BUT BUT BUT..... should i or not? job or singapore? lol hey you guys back home can do me a favor! when are you in school? that would help tons! ;)
oh. and to make things better, SAMMIE! just called! hahaa wow, hes in the army now, and just when im trying to make the decision to go home, he calls! hahaa what a darn near coincidence! he says the decision is up to me. haha of course it is, i just dont know what to pick.
i'll be leaving my computer(dad just revamped it, btw, its basically a new computer besides the old cd-rom drive and 3 1/2" floppy drive and the "casing". i have a cd burner and a new 80GB harddrive.. WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!), car (my baby), my room and all for like. a couple weeks and who knows how much i'll miss them. lol and dont forget my friends here. gosh darn it, HARD DECISION. and the job! thats spending money, and gas money, and i hate asking my parents for money, it sucks :(....... argh
oh. and yeah i got my report card! haha this is actually a good thing, because i worked my ass off for those grades, and i did pretty damn well! for junior year in highschool. i was pretty proud of myself. and my dad actually told me that he was too, and he NEVER tells me that.. haha it was pretty nice.
um yeah so he calls me into his room the other day and says since ive been a good girl(by getting good grades) and my birthday is coming up soon, he's gonna get me something. (mind you, this NEVER happens), he wants to get me an mp3 player, namely the one called nomad! haha im like. *jaw drops* i thought my car was my birthday present! holy shit! haha but then i think about it, i really have no use for an mp3 player, i mean i listen to music on my computer and in my car, thats pretty much wherever i am. so um. i was like dad, i'll think about it. then GUESS WHAT? i thought of the panasonic e-wear!! that nifty 4 in 1 digital camera, video camera, voice recorder and mp3 player. haha why not? same price almost, and i'd have better use for that! so my dad's thinking about it. hahaa. i cant handle so much good news! lol.
decisions decisions. job or singapore, nomad or e-wear? see, the good thing about these decisions is that im gonna end up with something good in the end, so it's all good! hahaha. WOW.
just, WOW.
and to think i had a nightmare about re-living my whole kicked off student council thing last night, i woke up crying. strange.
sorry for the long entry and, i added a tagboard now, so leave notes!!!!!
funny how things work out huh?

audio:: yellowcard- "october nights"